I feel your pain. I have been thinking about what to do after 60 days have passed and even prayed for guidance yesterday. Just a few minutes ago, I was awakened by a horrible dream: For whatever reason I was at her house and knocked on her bedroom door. She opens it and looks back at the bed. There is someone in there with the sheets pulled over his head snoring away. I was devastated. I say, "I guess I have my answer.." and walk off. I'm hoping she'll come after me or something but all I hear is her shutting the door. I then woke up, relieved that it was only a dream at first, until I thought back to what I asked God about a day ago. I don't want any more pain in my life. Maybe it's better that she isn't contacting me. In this case I'd say ignorance is bliss.Machtwo said:I'm at day 42 today, I have no intention of breaking any of the rules of NC, but it's so bl00dy hard some times! I would say the past few days have been the most difficult - is not supposed to get easier as the days clock up??
I wish she would contact me, just so I could ignore her & feel a tad better.
Day 32 begins.