Faldero456 said:
Mauser,
Even though I am back day 3 of NC, I am reviewing her FAULTs and wondering how I fell so hard for her. As they say hind-sight is 20/20.
Yes you are right, it was an ego boost for this old fart. :yes:
But it isn't woth being disrespected.
Faldero456
Hey Faldero456 - seems like we have a bunch in common. Living in "Sucksville". BTW, I'm 43 and she's 26. I would have never believed in a million years that anything could have happened between us - me, married and two kids...her, a gorgeous nude model living with a boyfriend. We just clicked and BOOM...9 months of most torrid affair imaginable.
Ironically, she dumped me while I was on vacation in Costa Rica with my family. I say ironically because I believe you're from CR.
Anyhow, I'm on
Day 17 on NC and I swear to god it's getting harder not easier. I think the main thing is to stay busy but sometimes that's difficult when I just seem locked to the couch pining away in my mind.
She dumped me hard (and no warning) with a short email declaring that the relationship was over because I could never be hers completely. She went total NC on me at that point. I went NC about 6 days later.
I realize now that I let myself fall way too hard for this girl. I need to step back and decide if I'm really in love with her (and that's why it's so hard) or if I'm just upset that "someone took my toy away" as my buddy puts it. Yes, like you, she was a HUGE ego boost for me. Now, I'm utterly deflated and shattered because I don't have her anymore.
I almost cracked today and broke NC but my buddy talked me out of it. If any of you guys feel like you're about to break - find someone to talk to about it and just vent for a while. You owe that person a few drinks afterwards but it's the least you can do.
Anyway, strength brother(s)! I know we'll all pull through this - have to, no choice in the matter.