Brak86's Journal

[AbsolutBeirut]

It is surprising to hear how it is harder for you in a party than a random approach. In my experience, its always been easier when I am introduced or if she knows somebody that I know that she knows. There is just more trust there and she knows where I am coming from. In the bars, I am always met with suspicion. No matter how confident I approach or how interesting what I say, girls are always thinking that I am some kind of psycho serial raper. Thats why I ve had better results at parties. Funnily, how I would act at parties would be like how I was before I knew about this community. Sometimes I wonder if the community has really helped my game. Maybe I just gotta try harder.

 

[Mickey J]

Any call made after 1AM that says "what are you doing" or anything similar is a booty call.

 

[Brak86]

damn dude, you're a beast! what were you like before you started?

and btw steve told me he went sarging with you, how did that go?

Wow, the first question is a loaded one! Well, lets see.

I was very popular in highschool. I actually was the vice president of student council. I had a lot of very hot female friends. And a lot of them were attracted to me/still are even now that I am in college. However, I very rarely hooked up with them. This is not necessarily because they LJBFed me, but because I simply barely even tried. I didnt try for 2 main reasons: 1) I went to a small all guy school that had a small sister school, and I knew that if I got rejected, everyone would pretty much know because i was in such a small environment. 2)my ego was so fragile that I couldn't bare to get rejected.


Nevertheless, I still hooked up a few times because girls have always been attracted to me (If you all are interested, I can put up a picture of myself for you all to judge, as long as you all don't stalk me and try to piddle me afterwards :nervous: ).

Pretty much all of my hook ups were drunken, because I was way too scared to make a move when sober. I had an opportunity to be in a relationship in 9th grade, which probably would have lasted until I graduated highschool, but since I was highly coveted amongst the girls at school, I went after her friend and ended up screwing up the possibility of having a relationship. But this turned out to be one of the best things that happened to me, for I found sosuave not long after.

I didnt start approaching until this year (i am a freshman in college right now), and I am starting to change. I always knew that every human has seemingly endless potential, and I am just beginning to fulfill my own potential. A lot of the girls I know in college are attracted to me, but I still have a fear of screwing up and screwing up my reputation. (Even though my college has 8,000 people, word gets around).

But for someone who didnt know anyone coming in to college, I have managed to establish quite a big social circle for myself, and I am proud of that.

I am naturally not a loud, obnoxious guy, more of an introvert I guess. (Although I don't necessarily think you are born either introverted or extroverted).

In regards to the second question, I suppose you mean Heyjose25points? I learned SOO much from him and it was a just good time getting to know him. I was not as good with indirect openers, but he showed me that it is no big deal, you must embrace the fact that girls KNOW when you are hitting on them, whether you do it directly, or indirectly.

Anything else yopu want to know?

 

[Brak86]

Thursday March 22,

My wings and I had our weekly meeting just to chat and go over our sticking points. I wasn't planning on opening, until Mr. Awesome suggested that we go see if there were any girls at Barnes & Noble. There was one girl there, and I opened her directly:

Me: Excuse me, but i saw you sitting over here and I really wanted to meet you.
Her: Why?

Ive gotten this response quite a few times. My wing Doc Holliday told me that this is merely a **** test. I definately agree with him--obviously the girl knows why I want to meet her.

I had a good conversation with her, I was not focused on implementing certain techniques. I've realized that, as of now, when I try to do this, it screws up my game because i am constantly in my head. Instead, I just focused on having a good time with her.

Me: Because I thought you were cute.

Bad answer, because i should want to talk to her for mpore than her looks. She wasnt especially hot, and it still worked (don't be focused on getting everything right. That is a bad mentality. I liked what badboy said when he mentioned that you should go into the approach with confidence, but EXPECT something unexpected to happen. Expect that something will not go the way you thought it would.

Anyways, we just shot the **** and I found out she was just visiting boston to see if she wanted to go to school here, so I didn't #close.

Friday March 23,

I went out to an off campus BC party, and I just focused on having fun. I got a lot of signals from different girls, but I was just focusing on having a good time with my buds.

There was this one girl, however, that I met and was a cool girl. I talked to her for awhile and at one point we were talking about BC being a catholic school. She asked me what religion I was and instead of answering, I KCLOSED her. About a minute into our makeout session, she stops and says, "So...this is your religion?" And I replied, "No, this is a way of life." Then we continued to make out.

Before continuing with the FR, I wanted to mention an ALI G episode.I know this seems really irrelevant, but you will understand soon. In one of ALI G's episodes (The Media) he interviews a few guys. At one point, one of the guys mentions watching elephants having sex on the discovery channel. Ali G then says with a hilarious look on his face, "Yo....take it easssyy." My roommate and I found this hilarious and say that to each other all the time. Now back to the story.

As I was making out with this girl, I began to kiss, nibble and breathe on her neck. She then proceeded to make out with me really really passionately, at which point I stop her and go, "yo...take it easssyy." She blushed and apologized, and then I continued making out with her. My roommate found it hilarious. I didn't #CLOSE her because she went to a different school. But I remember her saying that she wanted me when she met me on the bus (our college has bus transportation. I met her on the bus on the way to the party). Also, while we were making out, she kept on saying, "We shouldn't be doing this." But she never stopped. I, actually, was the one who broke contact first, and told her that I'll see her later on.

 

[DonJoseCantosie]

In regards to the second question, I suppose you mean Heyjose25points? I learned SOO much from him and it was a just good time getting to know him. I was not as good with indirect openers, but he showed me that it is no big deal, you must embrace the fact that girls KNOW when you are hitting on them, whether you do it directly, or indirectly.

Aww... Never knew u cared about me so much Brak! ;-) lol

From my short absence, i've been keeping up to date with your journal. At parties, i to am getting good signals from girls, just haven't kiss closed one while i've been sober enough yet. I'm getting there.

 

[Brak86]

Friday April 6,

Even though I haven't gone out cold approaching in awhile, I have not stopped "gaming." I have been recently focusing more on my campus game. Anyways, I did manage to do some cold approaching this day.


I was at borders and I noticed a hot girl (HB 8.5) looking for day planners. I knew she was in her mid to late 20s (Shes prob between 25-28. I am 19 by the way, but I dress and look older). I am really attracted to girls of this age, they seem more attractive in some ways than college girls (don't get me wrong, I still love college-aged girls ).

I went up and opened her directly and she responded well by introducing herself. After noticing her accent, I immediately guessed her to be from London. She was actually from Ireland, but she still seemed impressed that I knew (I don't think thats really impressive, but I made a STATEMENT instead of asking her).

I asked her what she did (this can actually be a good question if you can segue it into her dream job/feelings about the job/etc.). She said she worked for a bank. I asked her if this is what she always wanted to do, to which she immediately responded with "No." She told me she wanted to be an interior decorator (I should have either roleplayed and asked her to decorate my house, or complimented her on her boldness, or something else). Instead I just told her I really respected that.

I got her number but she told me "this is just as friends, though. I have a bf." I don't care about this statement. I am going to proceed as if she never said this, for all I can gain is practice and experience. I lose nothing.

I have texted her a couple times since and she has responded immediately.


The second approach was on the street near a BU dorm. I went direct on her (HB 8.3) and she stayed for a second, but soon said that she has been in class since 8 and she was going to go to sleep. Now my friend who goes to BU told me that she is a model and has a bf, but it is interesting that she never mentioned that to me even though she rejected me.


The third approach was at the BU bookstore. My BU friend noticed this girl immediately and pleaded that I approach her (HB 8.8). He told me that she is also a model (but for a bigger company). Apparently she is friends with all the BU basketball players and has done multiple shoots. Now all this build-up put a lot of pressure on me. But I approached her anyways. I went direct but it was weak. She noticed and wasn't really responsive. I ejected soon after.


What I've noticed that is really encouraging is that rarely have I ever been rejected right after delivering a direct opener. The girls always give me a chance to attract them, and they rarely ever mention that they have a bf, or whatever. This means that the girls are intrigued by me and my bold approach and are giving me a chance.

What I have begun to realize (and Savoy mentions this exact thing in his book, Magic Bullets) is that the girls rarely, if ever, are rejecting you as a person (unless they are really not into you physically). Rather, the girls are rejecting your skill-set. I really do believe this, because if I had a bit tighter game, I think I could have gotten all their numbers no problem. It is very encouraging to know that all it takes now is just improving your skills, your BL, EC, Aura. This whole thing really is just a game.

 

[Agent Zero]

Just wanted to say your confidence to make direct approaches is really inspiring.

 

[DonJoseCantosie]

Brak, ur doing an amazing job my man....especially now doing campus game. U've kept ur confidence. I'm still having trouble keeping that "Gaming" feeling...prolly cuz i tend to not practice enough consistently. Keep it up man.

 

[Brak86]

Just wanted to say your confidence to make direct approaches is really inspiring.

thank you man....but direct game is EASIER for me...therefore I feel sometimes that I am not pushing myself hard enough.

For most guys it is harder to do direct game, but they do not understand that for ME PERSONALLY, going direct on a girl is not requiring me to step out of my comfort zone TO THE FULLEST. (Now, of course, I still get very nervous doing direct game, but just situationally starting a conversation is harder for me). Since just starting an asexual conversation first is especially hard for me, I am not doing everything I can do to wipe away my fears. I feel as though I need to do what I'm more scared of doing.

However, I do not want to take away what I've done. I am very proud of myself and although my results might not show it yet, I have made enormous strides in my game and in due time I will break out. I feel like for me, it will take more time to get over certain sticking points in my game, but once I do, I will destroy the living hell out of these "walls."

In highschool I had trouble holding eye contact with people. Now I do it way way wayy more often (although i still sometimes revert back to my old form).

Despite my progress, I still think too much instead of just being in the moment. I need to enjoy life more instead of constantly worrying about the future and being a perfectionist.

 

[Brak86]

Thursday April 19,

My first year of college ends in less than a month, and so far I'm very proud of how i've done in school. And my summer plans are set. I have a really really busy summer, which is great. I'm working as a waiter, practicing flamenco guitar for at least 4 hours a day, continuing to learn Spanish, starting to learn Farsi, working out, meditating, writing, travelling a bit and, of course, approaching. I used to never have anything to do during the summers and I basically just rotted away. I've learned from my mistakes and plan on having a very good summer.

Even though I am very self-demanding, I am trying to be less of a perfectionist and instead just to enjoy life. Looking back, I have done things the past year that I wouldn't dream of doing a couple years ago. I have a lonnngg way to go, but if you look at this stuff from an outside perspective, you realize that the whole thing is a really fun experience.


at the request of some people on here...i've put my picture up.

http://photos.pe.facebook.com/v72/224/25/1619895/n1619895_32320351_7980.jpg

 

[thefonz]

Wow, what a handsome guy...

Just curious, where do you get your clothes from? I like your prepish style.

 

[Brak86]

Wow, what a handsome guy...

Just curious, where do you get your clothes from? I like your prepish style.

ahaha is that really prepish? I like dressing business casual..jeans with a dress shirt and jacket, etc.

I don't get my stuff from one particular place, but I like guess, express, banana republic, and designer clothes

 

[Microphone Fiend]

awww look at brak wit his widdle dimples

you dead or something man? whats new?

 

[GamePlan]

I wasn't planning on opening, until Mr. Awesome suggested that we go see if there were any girls at Barnes & Noble.

Is barnes&noble really that good of a place for meeting women? (I wouldnt know as Im from Germany where we dont have B&N)

 

[Brak86]

Tuesday, June 19th

Wow, it has been forever, hasn't it? And isn't it fitting that I write this new post today on my 20th birthday?! So much has happened since my last post, and I have been so incredibly busy (which is a great thing for me). But I have definately not forgotten about the game and I have not forgotten about improving myself, either. In fact, you can say that I need to tone it down in regards to improving myself. But I just came up with a new personal motto tonight that has definately defined the past two months of my life (I can't believe I haven't posted for two months!). My motto is "I dedicate my life to the fulfillment of my incaculable potential." Let me give you the rundown of what has been happening.

April 19th was around exam time, so I studied hard in college. My work payed off: I got all A's again for my second semester (4.0 first semester and 3.82 second semester). I know I'm being boastful, but I'm proud of myself. This just goes to show you that you can approach women and get good grades, too.

After school was over, I actually didn't head straight back to my hometown (Dallas). I first stopped for a few days in New York to visit my brother and then for another couple days in Washington DC to visit my aunt. New York is so exciting but I don't think I'd want to live there. I need a place to get out of the crowd. But I never realized how cool Washington DC was. There is a pretty good nightlife there and the women are somewhat comparable to Texas girls.

I then came back to Dallas (about 3 weeks ago) and my days have been jam-packed ever since. I have been practicing my flamenco guitar for 3-4 hours a day. I have learned most of a really cool song (Slash-Obsession Confession) and my all around technique and improvisation skills for the guitar have gotten wayyy better.

On top of that, I am continuing writing a book for myself (no, it's not about PU, it's a philosophy book of my own personal beliefs). I started this about 2 years ago, but I have only now just started to consistently work on it. It takes a huge toll on my mind. I have to think and think and think on how to articulate what is in my mind. And after an hour I have only written one paragraph.

I also got a job as a waiter at California Pizza Kitchen (in fact, my first day is today, on my birthday)! I have never been a waiter before, but this will help me be more at ease in social situations. After all, I will be forced to be pleasant and charming with people. Also, it will help me be good at what Juggler calls the "Bounce-back" (staying calm even when the person gets very angry, defensive, or critical around you). In addition, I will make pretty good money on tips and meet some cute girls there (so many girls eat there)

I also put a few grand in a conservative mutual fund. I will continue adding money to it as I start working.

I just started Farsi lessons once a week. I also try to speak to my parents only in Farsi. I'll probably continue with Spanish lessons, too, since it's my college major. And I also got a chemistry tutor so I can get ahead for next year (I'm in pre-med. I'm going to go kill myself )

Also, I wrote my goals and affirmations on a piece of paper and I repeat them every day. I don't know if this new-agey stuff works, but I feel as though if I constantly look at my goals, it can only facilitate the process.

But I'm sure most of you are don't really give a sh*t about all of this, and just want to know how my game is doing.

I found a wing from the Dallas Lair (his handle is Finesse) who has the best game out of any PUA I've met. I actually think he's a natural, he got in the game to get more quality women. He has absolutely no AA and is naturally ****y and funny and cool (no, i'm not falling in love ) Unfortunately, he has three jobs and is always really busy, so he can rarely go out. Unfortunately, I have been out (solely to sarge) only a couple times so far this summer. I am still a virgin, but I am becoming more confident with myself and i know it will come as I go out more. The fact that Finesse is busy is no excuse for me, I need to start going out alone and not depend on anyone else. Having said this, Last Monday I went out with Finesse and we had a great time:

Monday June 11th:

Finesse and I have talked to each other about our goals and our sticking points this summer. I haven't told him that i'm still a virgin (but i will tell him next time), but I told him that I want to be able to do situational openers more. I am comfortable with direct, but I would like to start natural conversations with people and make the whole seduction process more natural (or seem more natural, for all of you who think the game is a manipulative thing ahaha).

So we went to one of the malls in Dallas just to strike up random conversations with ANYBODY. Not just women. What's important to note is that for us to be genuinely confident, social guys, we can[t just turn on a switch. We are trying to incorporate this stuff into ourselves, so we need to eventually be "always on." This is what Finesse and I had in mind when we went to the mall.

On the way to the, mall Finesse and I played Rock, Paper, Scissors with other drivers in traffic to just get in state and have fun. Guys, this is awesome to do. Some people will ignore you, some people won't play, but its just great to do. I played rock paper scissors with one guy and i beat him. He had a smile on his face as I gave him a thumbs up and I knew that at least he experienced something exciting in his probably dull day.

I opened a lot of people:

The first person I opened was a guy who had his girlfriend in his arms and whose family was walking with them. I saw that he had red shoes on and I asked him where he got them (I didn't really like them, I'm just practicing my improv, situational skills). We had a funny conversation: he took off his shoes and offered to sell them to me. I didnt even recognize that he was with his whole family until after the interaction.

I went to club monaco and there was a cute black girl working there. I tried on a shirt and asked her for a suggestion. We then got into a small conversation. I told her I worked at CPK and she said she'll come by. I actually didn't expect her to IOI me so soon. I was just in a good state.

Finesse and I then saw a tall black guy open a girl and get her number. I asked Finesse if he thought the guy was a PUA. Finesse told me to go ask him (duh! why didn't i thinl of that before?) I went up and congratulated the guy on his approach. He didn't know what "sarging" meant, so I dropped it, but he was still pretty AFC. He was like "I can't believe I got her number, she was soooo hot." Nevertheless, I gave him mad props and he seemed like a really nice guy.

Finesse and I went into a restaurant and there were two smoking hot hostesses. One of the hostesses was on the phone, and as soon as we came in, she obviously had to put down the phone on hold and greet us. Finesse immediately came up with a good line: "Ohh did I make you hang up on your boyfriend?" I swear, the two girls laughed and immediately were showing huge IOIs. They were twirling their hair and smiling at him and blushing. It just goes to show how few confident, charming guys are out there and how much girls want one. Finesse and I bantered with the two hostesses. Afterwards, Finesse told me next time he's gonna get their numbers. I believe him.

I talked to a few people about the armani exchange, and talked to other people, but I forgot what happened.

So that's where I am at now. I will keep you updated and I will not keep you waiting another 2 months, I promise

 

[greenlake]

BUMP. WTF, this man need more props!!! btw, i'll give you my comment later.

 

[IWillReturnsoon]

I agree, his journal is def in the top 5 here at sosuave. No Doubt. He def should get more comments.

 

[Brak86]

Wow, do I have a longgg, beefy post for you guys.

One of my highschool one-i-tises got back in town about three weeks ago (right after college she went on vacation), and ever since then I have been gaming her. Therefore, the timeframe of this post spans for over two weeks. So keep in mind that the occurences in this post did not all happen in the same day. Rather, it's spread out over many days. But first, a little preface about the situation and the girl (lets call her HBSpanish).

Like many of female friends from my highschool days, HBSpanish is gorgeous. Even though she's 19, she actually went on a couple dates with Tony Romo (yes, THE Dallas Cowboys QB). She currently is in a relationship with the back-up QB at Stanford (I knew that she was dating this guy even when I first was gaming her. But her having a BF makes trying to game her even harder). She is not the *****y type at all, though. She's very genuine and is not one of those barbie doll girls.

After highschool, I never really expected to hook up with my highschool female friends when I'd see them again over Summer and Xmas Break. I left highschool behind with the intention of creating a new me. Little did I know, I had changed quite a bit throughout college. Over this past Xmas break, when I saw all my HS friends at a reunion party, they could tell that I had changed. But the person who thought I changed the most was HBSpanish. Throughout Xmas break she repeatedly commented on how much I had changed, and how well I dressed, etc. But I never really thought that much about it. But when I went back for my 2nd semester in college, we kept up somewhat and she kept throwing these compliments at me.

When I got back in town over the summer, I realized that I would game her. Why not? I had realized that gaming my female friends from HS was great, cause they saw a new me and it was fun. I knew HBSpanish was into me so I decided to just DISQUALIFY her, show her I was a much more social and flirty guy, Kino her, and just amp the attraction up more in general. So far (and as I write this post I'm still planning on gaming her), I have gamed this girl better than any other girl I've gamed in my life. She is incredibly attracted to me and she is torn because she has a BF. She wants to hook up with me, and she will if I make it happen. Basically, the BF is inconsequential (it usually is if its not really serious), I just have to find a way to be smooth enough to hook up with her more.

But I'm getting too far ahead of myself. Let me start from the beginning. I don't want to tell the whole summary of each night I saw her, because I forgot a lot of what happened. So I will use numbers to indicate each different time I've seen her. Each number represents a different day that I saw her. So whenever there's a new number, it meant that it was a different day.


#1. She called me a day or two after she got back in town, and left me a message, but as she was leaving me a message I was in the process of calling her back, so on my answering machine this is what you could hear:
"Heyyy Brak86, its HBSpanish and I'm back in town. Listen we have to...oh wait, you're calling me." I busted her on this and I called her a goofball (DISQUALIFYING).

Later that night there was a big party. I was talking to a bunch of my old friends, and even though HBSpanish was there, we did not get to talk to each other a lot. I knew she was a bit intimidated to talk to me, because she had (and still has) this whole new picture of the new me (as a matter of fact, even though she consistently calls and texts me, each time i've seen her at a party she is initially a bit nervous until I warm her up). Anyways, the little chance I got to talk to her at this party was not very eventful, but I managed to KINO her upper arm and stomach.

#2. A few days later a friend of mine had about 8 people over (HBSpanish included). I knew that if I was going to have any chance at all, I had to be the initiator and the man and I had to start and lead the interaction with her. I got to talk to her a lot more at this more personal party and I amped up her attraction even more. Of particular note was when i got her to flex her arms and then in a serious tone I said, "I'm waiting..." (KINO AND DISQUALIFIER). She laughed at that and hit my shoulder (IOI).

#3. I had a couple guys over at my house and she and a few friends stopped by, even though I didnt want to hang out with girls that night. I was so off my game that night and she was being aloof with me. I was disappointed.

#4. One of my other friends was having a pretty big party at her house. I knew that if I wanted to ESCALATE with her, I had to get her alone for her to really see the new me. I also knew it would give me better chances to flirt with her. So I asked her to give me a ride to the party, which she willingly agreed to do. This car ride was one of the best things that I thought of. The conversation was really interesting and really fun and there were no uncomfortable silences. I went into the car with only two prepared things to do.

The first was that I'd DISQUALIFY her by saying that I could never date her. She looked shocked when I said that and asked why I could never date her. I said, "because you're just too nice. You need a boyfriend to buy you dinner and flowers all the time. I'd just force you to give me messages." She laughed at this and replied, "ahahah actually my BF just sent me flowers (he lives in another state) the other day. She said this in a negative tone.

The second thing I planned to do was play strawberry fields. She loved it. She picked 17 strawberrys (the strawberrys represent her sexual appetite), so I told her what that meant and busted on her for picking too many. She replied with, "see, so now you can date me" (referring to my earlier disqualification and an IOI).

Her car had a navigation system, which she named Vicky. But Vicky was not very helpful. We actually got lost on the way and I busted on her big time. I said, “where are you taking me? You’re not taking me to some random field to rape me, are you? (ROLE REVERSAL and DISQUALIFICATION). In fact, this response I used proved to be a gold nugget for our interactions to come. It became an inside joke and we always referred back to it.

At the actual party, there were a few girls I had never met, and I immediately opened them. This was a huge DHV, especially since one of them liked me and HBSpanish could tell. While I was talking to this other girl, HBSpanish chimed in and said, “don’t you think Brak86 looks hot in red? (I was wearing a red dress shirt. And yes, I am hot ?. HUUUGEE IOI if you can’t tell ahaha).

A couple other things happened to. I bet her in a game of pool and got some good kino in there (We bet on one shot but she never drank it after I beat her). Also, as I was talking to the other girl, we got onto the topic of guys and kissing and cuddling. I told her that I liked kissing and cuddling and I knew HBSpanish overheard this. At one point in the party, I looked over and we locked eyes. She waved at me. I couldn’t tell if she was looking at me before or I looked and then she caught me looking. Either way, we knew it was on.

#5. I knew that I had to establish more of a sexual frame with her so that our dynamic would not turn into a platonic one. We already did the Strawberry fields, and the Rape inside joke, but I learned that you have to constantly be sexual and flirty. It has to be a part of you. So a few days after the party I talked to her on the phone. We were talking about my job (waiter) and she asked if I ever got numbers from girls. I lied and said yes (DHV). She then joked that she was going to come in and write our “sex stories” on the restaurant ticket so that the manager would see it and fire me. I immediately responded with, “but then we can’t hook up anymore” (SEXUAL FRAMING). Keep in mind that I had never hooked up with her, but I’m keeping this sexual framing as if we hook up and have sex all the time. This is what couples do, so you need to include it in your own game. She also QUALIFIED herself to me when she joked that she doesn’t fart (in highschool I had joke standards: I didn’t want a girl who pooped, burped, or farted). CONTINUED IN NEXT POST...

 

[Brak86]

#6. I knew it was on. I knew it. Her attraction for me was through the roof. I just had to isolate her and at least kiss her. Fortunately, the band The Fray came to the rescue. They held a concert here in Dallas and a huge group of my friends decided to go.

None of the guys in the group know about PU and none of them knew that I was trying to pick up HBSpanish. So one of my wings whom I recently met from the Dallas Lair graciously agreed come along and wing me (but it's not like he had to sacrifice a lot. He met a lot of my hot friends and got about 6 numbers). Guru's aside, this guy has the best game that I have seen. He's just incredibly smooth.

We met up at one of the girls' houses and I could tell HBSpanish was a little uncomfortable. I hugged her and teased her a bit but she seemed kinda nervous and was talking to her close girlfriends, so I didn't get to talk to her much at the house. I have to admit I was initially a little in my head and wondering whether I had unreasonable expectations (I'm getting over this, though).

We had to take three separate cars, and even though my wing cleverly tried to set it up so that me and HBSpanish would be in the same car sitting next to each other(he took the front seat so that she'd sit with me), HBSpanish ended up going in a different car. I decided to just have fun with my wing and the other girls I was with and this really helped me get into state. One of the girls who I had never met, mentioned that we had the same car. I quickly disqualified her and called her a stalker. She ate it up. It was too easy.

On the way to the concert, our car stopped to buy alcohol when I received a text from HBSpanish: "are you going to drink tonight or not?" I took this as a clear IOI. Instead of answering with a ****y response, however, I just told her that it would be a really fun concert so I would drink some. I wanted to play it down and make drinking not a big deal.

We got to the concert and pregamed a bit in the parking lot. I started talking to her more and started kino. However, I made sure not to hover around. I talked with EVERYONE and just had a great time. I could tell she knew this (I'll come back how I knew why later). When we finally entered the venue and sat down on the lawn, I immediately opened the nearest set. It was a college aged couple with their little siblings. I just shot the **** with them to show HBSpanish that I was a social guy and could strike up a convo with ANYONE.

Throughout the concert I was just a social butterfly. I would mingle with random strangers and then come back to my friends. I flirted with the other girls I knew big time as well (I got a head massage, back massage, and a couple cheek kisses). Yet I would always make sure to make longer stops with HBSpanish. I sat with her for longer periods of time and really AMPED UP the Kino hardcore. I touched her shoulder, grabbed her waist, touched her thigh (I made sure it was just natural and not a big deal rather than being creepy). She did not object to any of my KINO at all.

Even though I was just acting and feeling dominant and confident, I was still a bit nervous because I knew I had to eventually attempt a KClose with HBSpanish. Even though I have hooked up a decent amount of times, I am still not comfortable with the Seduction and End-Game part of PU (being a virgin doesn't help). I kept going over to my wing for reassurance and advice and he kept advising me to go for it when the concert ended and to pull her aside as the group was leaving. I kept asking him if he was sure this was the right thing to do.

We both knew that in order to get the Kclose I would have to get her alone, and take her by the hand and LEAD her submissive a** somewhere to kiss her. So when the concert ended, and as we were all walking away from our lawn spot, I grabbed her hand and told her I lost my wallet. She came back with me and looked all over the ground. I conveniently dropped my wallet and she soon "found" it. I then looked into her eyes and we kissed for a bit (KCLOSE).

As we were walking back to rejoin the group, we held hands and at one point I grabbed her somewhat forcefully and tried to kiss her again. She told me regretfully that she has a BF (now I know that this does not matter. She just needs a little coaxing. I just need to be persistent, aggressive, and leading). But even though she did not kiss me on my second attempt, she still alluded to the inside joke we have about her raping me in a random field. She said, "but look there's a huge, empty field..."

We then went to IHOP for a 2:00 AM breakfast, and we took separate cars yet again. My car arrived first and I continued being sexually aggressive with the other girls even though I was not trying to hook up with them. I picked them up, gave them piggy back rides, went behind them and hugged them, etc. My wing noticed this and told me that what I was doing was excellent, but that I needed to do it with my target! So when HBSpanish arrived, I hugged her from behind which gave her a pleasant surprise and carried her around the IHOP Parking lot. She was not resisting at all.

We ate a great meal at IHOP, and I continued to be social with everyone else, including the waitress. HBSpanish and I kept looking back at each other and held eye contact for awhile, but I made sure to not turn away first. I could tell **** was just buzzing around in her mind. She was so interested, yet quiet, as if she didnt know what was going on. After we ate, we all said our goodbyes and she told me to call her the next day. As a matter of fact, she told my wing in private how much I've changed and that I used to be alot more reserved.

#7. Earlier tonight, on Tuesday July 17th, I received a text from her asking me what I was doing. Nothing was happening so I texted her back inviting her to come over. I quickly realized that this would not be good, because it would put too much pressure on the situation and she would probably decline, even though she still was attracted to me. So I sent another text saying, “actually, I need some groceries, come keep me company while I get some. But it closes at 11 so call me soon.” She called me soon after and said that she is an awesome grocery shopper.

We met up at a nearby grocery store and she said, “ohh I just realized I forgot to bring you the cd I burned for you (since I play Spanish guitar she burned me a CD of Spanish guitar music). I said goodbye and turned around and started walking back to my car as a joke. She laughed and said to come back. As we were shopping in the grocery store I made sure to keep it fun yet sexual. I bumped her a** with my cart and told her to move out of the way, I handed her diapers to buy for herself, I talked with some of the maintenance workers there, I went up to her from behind, grabbed her and told her that I was sooo hungry looking at this food, I KINOed her a lot, and at the checkout I pretended that I forgot my wallet but as soon as she got her wallet out I pulled mine out.

She helped me put the grocery bags into the car and said goodbye. She kissed my right cheek and I told her to kiss my left. As she was doing so, I turned my head so that she would kiss my lips. But she did not go for it. I tried to kiss her again and she said, “you know I have a boyfriend.” She took it very well and pretended like it didn’t happen. She said she was gonna come by my restaurant tomorrow. So we’ll see if she actually does.

Anyways, That is where I’m at right now with this girl. I will keep you all updated.

 

[Agent Zero]

This journal is a perfect example of someone who went out in the field, got experience, and turned into the guy he wanted to be. Kudos to brak!