Thursday February 15th,
WAHHHHHHH :box: :trouble:
:woo:
I was so close yet again to hook up. I had a girl (HB8.6) in my dorm watching a movie! And yet my KCLOSE attempt got rejected. Let me go back to Sunday, February 11, cause this is when I went on the lunch date with this girl (mentioned in my last post).
So on Sunday I went to lunch with her and she was 15 minutes late. I knew why. She did her hair up, she wore nice clothes, she took time to look good before meeting up. She was definately attracted to me. Everytime I texted her she responded almost immediately. She apologized for being late, and I said, "oh noo problem at all, at least I know that you are a brat now
" She laughed.
During lunch, there were never stalls in the conversation, and we had a good time. I teased her, told her a good story, and kinoed her. For the second time in my life, I called a girl SEXY (SOI). She was talking about travelling, and I told her that I think it's sexy that she gets out of her comfort zone. I said it pretty weakly, for I was nervous. But at least I did it. She was a bit baffled, and said "what do you mean? Do you mean I'm like independent?" To which i said, "uhh, yeah, thats it."
She saw two of her guy friends and asked if they could sit with us. I agreed and was very friendly with the guys. I think she liked my social skills, being comfortable around her guy friends. The guys left, we chatted for a bit more, and then we walked back to our dorms. I told her that I'm going to new orleans this weekend (i really am, Mardi Gras :rockon: ) but I would like to see her again this week. She agreed and she said she was free thursday.
I text her a few days later and I invite her to watch Monsters Inc. (animated movie) with me.
She comes over, and I show her some photos of me and my best friend in Europe that I had just uploaded onto my computer. THere is one chair, so I tell her to sit down next to me. We are sharing the same chair, but I notice that her BODY LANGUAGE is a little bit closed off to me. Maybe she's a bit uncomfortable sitting right next to me so soon.
We start the movie, and instead of sitting on my bed, she lies on the floor (i dont have any couches in my small ass freshman dorm). I get pillows and blankets and lie down next to her. We chat for a bit and I tease her, telling her that she looks like one of the monsters in the movie (she's liking it). I did some mini TAKEAWAYS by temporarily turning away from her and showing my back to her after she said some goofy things.
I gradually incorporate KINO throughout the movie. At first I just position myself so our shoulders are touching. Occasionally, I move my shoulders a bit against hers. I slowly get closer to her. As we're watching the movie, we talk, but I do notice that she gives me EYE CONTACT very sparingly. I notice her hands in her pockets, which is a shame, because I want to start doing KINO on her hand. I am wondering how I should escalate, cause it is very hard with the way she is lying down.
So first, i move my legs closer so that they are touching hers, and then I eventually start rubbing my big toe against her foot. She keeps her foot there for a bit, but eventually moves her leg and crosses it over her other. (i guess this was a sign
). We continue talking a bit, and about 20 minutes later, I tell her to lift her head up. She does, and I put my arm around her (the logistics were bad, I didn't know how else to escalate further). 10 minutes later, I grab her hand which is now out of her pockets, and we hold hands. I slowly begin to trace my thumb against the palm of her hand. I know this must ffeel good. She does not pull away. She lets me trace my finger up, down, left, right, and in circles around her palm. I brush my fingers against her fingers. She doesn't move her hand away.
Eventually, I say her name, then try to kiss her. She does not let me, and says that she doesn't want to do this right now. She said that she broke up with her highschool boyfriend before leaving college (i think this is bull****) and she isn't ready for anything serious or anything for that matter. I tell her I understand (I never show disappointment or anger). I then stop holding her hand and stop cuddling her (FREEZE OUT). She then says that she should probably go. I tell her that is probably a good idea.
I am frustrated, not because I failed to hook up, but because I dont really know what I did wrong. This is the second time I've watched a movie alone with a girl and I've failed to hook up! The first time I didn't escalate enough, and it seems as though this time I was too forward and made her too uncomfortable. It's just a bit frustrating. Is hooking up with girls really supposed to be this hard?
But all that aside, at least I improved today.
