Wow, I really thought i was gonna lose my virginity this past weekend to a girl 4 inches taller than me. I really did. But even though I am about to recount the story that eventually led to me getting rejected, I am not in the least bit upset. I am a bit disappointed, but not upset. As a matter of fact, I am starting to not let rejection upset me that much anymore. Anyways, let's get on with what happened. I will try to recount everything that happend (from facebook messages to phone texts). But first, let me explain with the events that led up to this night:
I went to highschool with HBTall. (I would rate her an HB8.8. Although she is about 4 inches taller than me and i prefer shorter girls, this girl is damn hot. She plays soccer in college and has a great ass that is small but sticks out (how i like my asses
), and she also has not tiny, but smaller, well shaped boobies (how i like my boobies
). She also is one of those girls that is very sexual by nature and isn't afraid to initiate flirting with guys).
I knew this girl was attracted to me in highschool. I remember one time in Junior year when I was at a swimming party, and HBTall stared at my body then straight up asked me "when am i going to get to kiss you?" Of course, being the AFC that I was then, I did not say anything, nor act on this. During senior year, however, I began to flirt back with her. We even planned for her to come over and have a "sleepover," but I was still too timid to set that up (she thought up of the idea).
Fast forward to college, I hadn't heard from her in awhile until a few weeks before xmas break. I get a random facebook message from her saying, "We never did get to have that sleepover at your house." I respond by telling her that we will have it when we get back home for xmas break.
Fast forward again to about a week ago. I am home from xmas break, and I have waited about a week before getting in touch with her. I don't have her number so we message each other a few times on facebook:
Me: I've been here for awhile and I still haven't seen you. Come out you dork. And when are we doing our slumber party?
HBTall: hey love, yeah i've been sitting at home for awhile, but I'm going to sarah's party on friday, you should come. If you cant lets get dinner or lunch next week.
Me: hey LOVE? You're not asking to get back together are you? You're turning me off. I can't go to sarah's because I promised my parents I'd go to one of their parties so they can brag about me ahaha. We'll get dinner next week and hang out afterwards if something's going on. Give me your number and I'll tell you later when and where we'll eat (LEADING).
Her: ooo I like it when you tell me what to do lol. 214 868 3257, make it happen. Llooove you!!!
Ok, I thought I had this in the bag now. I felt that all I needed to do was isolate her and then make a move and I would have it. I knew that she always wanted to hook up with me, because even though I was shorter than her, I had been acting dominant to her and she also thought i was hot.
Over the next few days, we send each other a series of text messages. I send her a text message one day asking her if she wants to come over on Thursday, December 28th. She tells me that she might not have her car, because her sister now uses her car, but she get back to me on thursday. On thursday, she texts me that she wont have the car that night. I respond with, "you are impossible
" She apologizes, but tells me to talk to her tomorrow.
On friday the 29th, she agrees to come over that night. However, we had huge showers and a tornado warning that night and she lives far away. I text her to remind her about our sleepover, but she says she doesn't want to drive because the roads are too dangerous. I first send her a C+F text message, saying, "I see you like playing it safe, I thought you were more adventurous."
I have been noticing that I have a tendency of overcompensating for my lack of flirting skills by using a lot of C+F. I tend to take the act-disinterested-and-be-an-******* rule way too far. So I send her another text saying, "actually, i just heard on the radio that the roads are very dangerous. It's not worth you getting hurt. We will postpone our sleepover."
She replies, saying, "See, I told you the roads were bad! But i promise we will have our sleepover tomorrow."
So on Saturday, December 30, HBTall comes over to my house at 9:30 P.M. She shows up hot as hell, dressed well and all made-up.
Me: awww, you didn't have to dress up just for me.
Her: ahaha I was actually just out at dinner with my parents
Me: Sure you were...
I show her around my house (my room, especially
). Eventually, I mention watching the new pirates of the carribean movie because I hadn't seen it and I got it for xmas:
Me: Have you seen it yet?
Her: Yeah
Me: well, too bad, you can see it again
Her: ahaha ok.
I turn off the lights and we start watching the movie. Wee sit next to each other on the couch in a way that we have Immediate KINO. Our legs are slightly touching each other. We aren't really watching the movie, instead, we catch up on each other's college life. At one point, she starts talking about soccer getting her in shape:
Me: Really? Ok then, flex your arms *squeezed her arm*
Her: well My arms are really weak, my legs are strong
Me: alright then flex your legs *squeezed her legs*
Her: haaha yea see, they're strong/
Now here is where I get a bit thrown off. She starts talking about college social life and she brings up the fact that she has a boyfriend. She didn't outright say it to me, she was just talking about something and mentioned her boyfriend in passing. I pretended like I never heard her say that she had a boyfriend. Instead, I keep talking to her about college. But in my head, I was so confused and a little bit ticked. Why would she insist on having a sleepover at my house and actually decide to come over by herself, and start watching a movie with me with the lights off? Nevertheless, I knew that no matter what I would try for a KISS CLOSE. I don't want to over analyze things, and I had already decided beforehand that I was going to try and get laid tonight. I would have no regrets if I tried, at least.
But the confusion does not stop here. Even after mentioning that she had a boyfriend (I don't even think she planned to say this. The topic of conversation just pertained to the fact that she had a bf in some way), our KINO amps up. Let me mention two things that happened related to KINO before I attempt the KCLOSE:
1)As we were watching the movie and talking, she moves her legs so that her feet are very close to mine. I then feel her toes rubbing my feet. I am starting to get hard now. I am 95% sure that this was no coincedence, for after she starting rubbing my feet with her toes, I lightly graze my fingers up and down her left arm. She continued rubbing my feet. It felt really good and I was pretty sure I was going to hook up with her.
2) So as this is happening, I look at my watch and decide that in 3 minutes, I would grab my balls and attempt the KCLOSE. I ask her what she did that day (I am BAITING her to eventually ask me what I did. You will see why). She mentioned normal stuff like wake up late, read, watch T.V. She then asked me what I did that day, and I told her I got a massage (I really did).
Me: Yeah, I looovee getting massages, but I wish they would do something different (BAIT).
Her: What's that?
Me: Well, I wish they didn't go straight into pressing your muscles. When I give massages, I like to start off by grazing my fingers down the person's back to warm them up. Here, turn around.
Her: Ok
(I graze my hands over her back very softly. If someone does this to you, it feels really good
. She agrees with me).
She turns around, and I make EC and then go in for the kiss:
Her: What are you doing?
Me: Trying to kiss you....
Her: I have a boyfriend...
Me: ahh, cool....when are you two getting married ( i knew there was really no point in using this line now, but it just spurted out of my mouth:crackup: ).
Her: ahaha in 3 weeks...
Me: aweessomme, where?
Her: Vegas
Me: Very classy
Surprisingly, HBTall did not leave right after I tried to kiss her. She seemed surprisingly calm and not awkward after I tried to kiss her. I was not feeling awkward at all either. Nor was I nervous anymore. After I take action, I've realized that the nervousness goes away. She stayed at my house for another 30 minutes or so. We continued to talk, but less than before. She gets a call and her parents are worried because her sister is not picking up the phone. To my satisfaction, she tells me she has to leave.
Well, yet again I am left confused as to what went wrong after another rejected KCLOSE. I asked some of my wingmen and my best friend (who does not know about the game) what he thought. He told me that he thinks that girls get pleasure from rejecting guys and telling guys that they have boyfriends and that HBTall, even though she wanted to kiss me, was probably doing just that. I also thought that maybe she just wanted to assure herself that she could "have" me if she wanted.
Anyways, it was a crazy night. Even though I didn't have sex, I am still happy. If I had not made a move I would have been terribly upset. You know, as long as I take action and/or make a move, I'm pretty happy no matter what happens. Hooking up is just icing on the cake.
Do you all have comments/questions/suggestions?