Tuesday, August 7
I'm continuing with the theme of my last post, so I'm just going to talk about a few different things in my head. Like the last post, I will mark new subjects with a star (*).
*One of the biggest obstacles I have been struggling with for quite some time is what I call the Completion Syndrome. I am so fixated on completing things, because it gives me a sense of not having to deal with something anymore. It is as if I get this or that done, if I finish this or that thing, then I will have one less thing to worry about. I feel like I want to get stuff out of the way so I will have less and less to deal with. But life is not like that. I just finished the book, "The Way of The Superior Man" by David Deida, and the FIRST chapter is titled: Stop Hoping for a Completion of Anything in Life. I have this fixation that I need to get over with. He says that many men make the error of thinking that one day it will be done and that if they work enough, then one day they can rest. But he says that it never ends. I know this, I agree with this, but it's very hard to actually accept. I love getting stuff finished, I think it is because men are really into finishing tasks and solving problems. But I need to live more in the present and stop waiting for some fantasy moment where I am done. This is the reason why playing Guitar and learning the Game can be so frustrating for me. A hobby like Guitar is a never-ending process. You don't just come to a point where you have mastered everything. You can always improve. In fact, in regards to most of the really rewarding things in life, you will never be done with them, so I should just enjoy the process. I want to enjoy the present more. I day-dream way to much and think, "Ohhh I can't wait until I'm an awesome guitarist, or an awesome Pick-Up-Artist. But that takes me so out of the moment. And, by the way, what is "awesome?" It isn't clearly definable.
*I now realize more than ever that you should never change your plans for the sole purpose of trying to get a girl. It can be as simple as changing venues one night just to follow a girl who you are trying to "win over" to changing your life and redirecting your passions just for a girl. This doesn't mean that you should be stubborn and a total d*ckhead, but that the ultimate reason for doing something should not be for trying win over a girl. In this same book, David Deida explains that women don't want to be number one. He says that men are dedicated to their higher purpose, which goes beyond a woman, and that if a man makes it seem like his number one priority is his woman, then he is not trustworty and is not seeking his "highest purpose." He goes on to say that "Although she would never admit it, she wants to feel that her man would be willing to sacrifice their relationship for the sake of his highest purpose."
I really do agree with this assessment. As Zan says, women do not want to be the adventure, they want to be taken on the adventure. If you sacrifice your higher purpose just for the sake of "winning over" a woman, then that is when you are needy and clingy. This is not to say that you should never aim to please your women, as a matter of fact, by living according to your highest purpose, you will pretty much always be pleasing her, because she knows that you are not dependant on her, and that you are seeking something higher than a relationship--you are seeking freedom, love, and passion in life. This is one reason why two guys can do/say the same thing, but get different results. Your intentions and your motive for doing something will be sensed by a woman (or by anyone, in fact).
*I know I mentioned this on Thursday August 2, but I want to go back to expressing emotion. I am more emotive than a year ago, but I still have trouble letting myself go. I am naturally a very logical minded, rational person, so the opposite side of the spectrum (highly emotional) can sometimes really irk me off. For example, in arguments, I am very good at rationally staying calm and seeing both sides of the argument. I am also good at compromising if there is a dilemma between people. So I just hate it when people get all pissy and emotional. It just never goes anywhere and nothing gets solved when people are not listening to each other and just yelling.
I want to be emotional, yet I am so against appearing melodramatic that I put a leash on myself and, as a result, I guard my emotions too much. I just don't like exaggerated emotion and I don't like high irationality. However, if I want to successfuly deal with women, I am going to have to put up with this and know how to deal with it, and also I must be able to at least exhibit some of these qualities to an extent. For an example, good conversation is almost always irrational and it often does not really make sense.
This has to do with another topic I have in mind, which is I need to embrace my feminine side more if I want to be good with women. The best pick up artists/naturals really do exhibit some feminine qualities in their mannerisms. Now I have a square jaw line and I look more masculine, but I dress really well, a little metrosexual, so I have embraced this femininity in my appearance. While women love the masculine edge of boldness, risk-taking, and decisiveness, you need a dash of femininity so not to appear so emotionally cold, boring, and overly rational.
*The more I observe the happy and disgruntled people around me, the more I realize that on average the happier people Give more. Happy people Selflessly Give. They give their gift to the world, they give to other people, they give in all aspects of life. This is not to say that they are completely altruistic, but that love pervades the world and that giving is essential. Besides, giving ultimately benefits them.
*While I have a lot more aggressive with women since I first started Gaming, I have a HUGE ways to go with this. Women like aggressiveness, and women do not like it when guys hide their sexual intent. They know when you want it, so as long as you play the Game smoothly and without neediness, they want you to be sexually aggressive and they want you to show intent. The "nice" guy/"jerk" debate really has nothing to do with niceness or meanness, it has to do with honesty and dishonesty. Jerks usually are not worried about showing sexual intent, and girls like this honesty. Girls assume (and understandably so) that the guys who are not being sexually aggressive enough are either dishonest, cowardly, gay, or a mixture of the three. No wonder why they like jerks. At least they have the balls and the honesty to show their true desires.
I, myself, am still having trouble revealing my sexual intent. I need to be more aggressive and more honest. Now, as I mentioned before, there is a clear difference between SEXUALLY AGGRESSIVE and SEXUALLY CREEPY. In order to truly master my Sexual Aggression, I need to go all out. This might require me accidently coming across as creepy sometimes, but the more I do this, the more I will learn. This is a HUGE sticking point for me. I notice that most of my friends who get girls on a consistent basis are sexually aggressive. While they might not have the greatest game, at least they are relentless when it comes to showing their desires.
I play it too safe and I need to be more bold. Finesse, a great guy in the Dallas Lair, reminded me that you should look at her like you want to **** her. Look into her eyes but talk to the *****. I have done this a couple times and I definately notice a difference. I'm sure the girl does, too. I do not plow enough and I need to escalate, escalate, escalate. I am too worried about social awkwardness, creepiness and the girl being uncomfortable, so I often release the tension by either deciding not to approach, not being sexual, or ejecting. F*ck that. I cannot let a girl change my frame. The Game and Confidence can be pretty much summed up as Frame Control: Mastering your frame so that nothing, no scenario and no situation will ever rattle your frame.
*Finally, I'd like to mention that sometime when I move back to Boston for the upcoming school year, a couple of my wings and I (scratch that, they are not just wings, but good friends, I should start calling them such) are going to be doing a 31 day challenge. This is where you go out every single day for 31 days and approach. This will be exhausting, grueling, time-consuming, and hard, but it will make us a whole lot better. So you all can look forward to a bunch of field reports in the upcoming months.