jariel mate , listen up pal , i said listen up......i read what you write and feel it totally buddy , but there is no way you will change her mind trust me , you know as well as i do that there is only one way to deal with this situation seriously .
if you wish to be laughed at and made a fool of then go to her and try begging her to get back with you , this wont work of course but try it anyway if thats how you feel , but we both know the outcome dont we.
look at it this way .....if you had a car that you really liked or even loved but the foooking thing kept going wrong so you ditched it,,,,,,because you couldnt be bothered with it........then months later you saw it totally fixed up you would think holy sh-t i want it back........i acctually think this is how a womens mind works to some degree , because dont forget they change their minds like nobodys business , they dont have a clue what they want , and even when they do they are not totally sure.
a few weeks ago round about a month ago which was a month after i had blasted my ex for treating me like sh-t ...... i was in my local and she happend to be in there ,,,,,,she was in shock when i walked in and i would have loved to spoke to her because i still care about her......the thing is as a man i have to show her that if she fooooks with me there is a price to pay , because otherwise they will treat you and manipulate you any way they wish to . this maybe the worst thing i have ever done and i may live to regret it , but i will say this - if thats the case then i will have to live with it , but i refuse to let her have the upper hand and thats the view you need to have mate .
also remember this as well , those children are not yours and it makes a massive difference trust me.......i know how hurt you are and i realise you would like to get things back how they were , but listen mate it wont happen unless she wants it to , plus all this sh-t that life throws you is just a test to prepare you for what is yet to come so why worry - what will be will be and im a firm beleiver in this........
my ex told me i was everything to her , and that she had never loved anyone like me before and as much , well i think that if she felt that way then why the hell has she not been in touch with me , ooops i know why because she couldnt care less thats why . so why should i give a monkeys.
dont worry jariel she will contact you in time , who knows when , but do not fall under the illusion of action as one man calls it , because it wont work.
you say you have had to move back in with your parents , well im in the same boat mate , [ so what ] its great ...plus its easy , a lot easier than putting up with sh-t from a chick who doesnt know when shes onto a good thing .
your doing great pal just keep it up , just remember that she has to come to you - and thats when you tell her what i said in one of my posts last week .
that will be one last ditch attempt to salvage things but only if you want to risk it that is , otherwise you have to walk and never look back - you have to mate.......otherwise you are in for more pain .
its tough to get through stuff like this when emotions are involved , but you do not want to let her see she can have you on a string like some puppet otherwise your life will be hell on earth......and then you will be really pi--ed off.
i really hope this helps you , even if its just a little bit to make you feel better for a few more days at least .
all the best to ya.
