Day, i don't know. i stopped counting. I know Day 60 because it's the same day I leave for South America Ironically. Got a awesome update for you guys who been following my ex bull!!
Anyway: Been working on me, got all brand new cloths, haircut, modeling, and doing good. Looking fresh walking up the stairs at school, guess who starts walking from the balcony to me???? Yup, my crazy ex. I'm about to reach the top and turn the corner wondering how this is going to play out.
She pops into view at the top, I slow down cuz shes right in front of me staring at me. I ty to walk around her and she says, " HEY, how are you!!" and turns her body with me every step i take. Then she throws herself on me for a hug. Hugs me tight and puts her neck and face close to mine, real close for a good solid 5 seconds. Except this time I was a man and she wasthe biitch and not the other way around.
I didn't look at her, or touch her. I didn't respond when she asked how i was, and when she hugged me, i just stood there as hard as a fuccking rock. She pulls ONLY an inch or two, looks me in the face close and says, " i dont get a hug???"
i WANTED to say A LOT OF THINGS, but... Time really has helped me realize i want nothing to do with her anymore. So I turned my head alone while she was holding onto me, looked her dead in the eyes for a good 3 seconds of silence, and said one word calmly and quietly.
"No."Then I turned my head, pulled away from her grip, and walk away.
I felt no desire to EVER get back with her, be her friend, or even see her. The only thing I FELT for her was ANGER for emotionally cheating, probably physically cheating, and telling me she loved me.
I didn't get mad and yell, or cave and sob, or act all nice and fake. I just don't care and showed it.
Funny thing is I don't really care anymore, and today's run in helped me PROVE THAT TO MYSELF FOR ONCE that I truly am over her and don't care. I wasn't sure the first 30 days, but now I know.
And unfortunately, she will probably keep doing this to guys, and worst of all to herself. I don't like to see anyone **** up their life no matter how bad they hurt me, especially someone I care about. I'm sure their are guys who believe that reading this. I do care about her and honestly hope she gets her shiit together, but she will never be a part of my life again because of what she did. These girls need to learn from their mistakes or live their life miserable and never be truly happy.
Walking away is what i did and I don't think anything else I could have said or done would have been better.
SO!!>>> I guess this is it guys. Not exactly 60 days, but I accomplished the goal and I'm an over achiever anyways so a week short is okay, ha!
The lessons I learned about me through this experience is that I need to not be so clingy, emotionally dependent, put my happiness in a girl, and be more of a man. BUT< I shouldn't change the good stuff, being funny, light hearted, being a faithful romantic boyfriend, and always being there for my partner.
I hooked up with 4 girls in 6 days earlier this month. I was being open with the one I slept with under the stars on the beach. She asked about my ex, I told her what i want out of a relationship. When I finished she looked at me and said I am going to make an awesome boyfriend to some girl one day because I want the right things out of girlfriend, then got on top of me and slept on my chest. That made me feel awesome.
Anyway, I will now focus on my trip, work, becoming independent, but most importantly, I will be much more cautious to jump into a relationship and learn to be happy alone.
For everybody who I read about at the start of this and everyone who helped me through this in the beginning with advice I jsut want to say YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HELPFUL THIS HAS BEEN. THANKYOU, SmoothNerdy, loves orphan, bullet head, Serg987, thatfeel21, Hexagram, Juan Don, So Suave666, CostaDeSol, Gray the Prince, big neil, Underground King, Changing 13, Tony Baloney, drellum.
I got a big shout out to PairPlushRoyal and PrettyBoyAJ. You two probably said the least but had the most insight for me.
All in all, I realize I can do much better, and much to my surprise, almost 60 days without her and I'm over her. I still think about her everyday, but not AT ALL like before. More like, wow your a heartless BIITCH, and a whorre, and someone who is going to crash and burn if they dont change. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT??!? not my problem, it's hers. I'm living my life now. HA
GUYS, I got 99 problems........ but a bitcch aint one. ( anymore)
South America, hot single mature women, and world I will change.. HERE I COME!
Mission for closure: Mission Complete! Peace out my brothers. I update after my cruise of fun. until then, all those still struggling: look through all my post, I did this to give insight from start to finish for others as well as me. I hope I was able to help you all as much as you helped me. Until then, Good luck.
