//The Chronicles of BPH\\

[BPH]

Great stuff BPH this is just the right attitude to have. Always remember that you're the prize, and that you're the one who has to be won over. You really have to believe this, because as you think so you shall become.

You're in college now so enjoy it and this is the one greatest opportunity you will have in your life to meet and try lots of great different girls. When you see one that is worth being tied down for, go for it. But always avoid putting all your eggs in one basket, and never commit to any girl until you know beyond a doubt that her level of commitment is the same as yours. And even then keep six and watch your back.

It's good to see you're doing well and making the most of your freshman year. Have you been maintaining with the workouts and joining school clubs that attract a lot of girls, and hitting up lots of parties when you're not studying?

*PS it's too bad you didn't take more advantage of halloween parties around that time of year are some of the best and easiest times you will get to pick up girls

I've been maintaining my workouts religiously, if for some reason I'm too sick to go (which has been the case once or twice these past two weeks due to a head cold) I work them back into my schedule. I think I'm around 183lbs right now, which is 8 more than I started the year with, which is quite nice.

I haven't really been doing clubs but I've been trying to get into activities, some more for me than for girls. Boxing might become a club that I would found with 2 other people, and that would be sick. Cardio dance is nice but I have to sacrifice some of my pride to get good at it...apparently girls like it when a guy can dance like a girl (with the booty rolls and stuff). I actually asked 2 girls about this yesterday and they told me to watch Magic Mike haha.

I try to hit up parties or the club pretty much Thursday thru Saturday, unless something special comes up during the week. The current problem is that I need to find myself a job so I can pay for things like boxing gloves, mouth piece, booze, and condoms. I have a debit card but I don't like dipping into it.

Trust me, I really wanted to go out for Halloween, but none of my rides wanted to go out and I didn't have money for a cab. The good thing was that I avoided getting drinking citations. As for Halloween parties on the weekend, they were ok and as I said above I got some makeouts...but I have difficulty pulling the girl from the party. I notice that drunk girls will go from guy to guy before they eventually have their friends take them home so they can pass out.

 

[BPH]

11/2/12 - 11/9/12 Week 12

At the end of the journal post some of you might think I'm scum (like my friend Brett) or you might think I'm a champ. Either way, Friday night I was the guy that guys hate.

Alright so I enjoyed this week, let's go through it...

I'm starting to get over my cold, and that's rather nice. I think I've stopped trying to actively meet people unless I meet them through friends or find a particularly attractive girl. Still charming when I meet them, I just don't go after the number anymore.

Let's start with the little things:

I preordered Halo 4!

I didn't box this week because my friend has been sick for a little while.

I got a 78 on my Psych Exam

I ran 11:16 on my 1.5mile run for PED class...it sucked because I was still a little sick and it was outside on the track in weather that was cold enough for me to see my breath. I believe I finished 4th.

I weigh 184lbs.

But now on to the more important things...like Thursday through Saturday parties...and tonight.

Alright so the first thing I need to mention is that HB Megan, the one I first f***ed is a very spoiled girl, with a massive sense of entitlement. I say this because today is officially her birthday, and she felt the need to celebrate it all the way from Thursday till tonight. This kinda annoyed me.

Anyway Thursday night was just a night of Miles spotting myself and the girls for booze and club cover charge. I appreciate it when he does this, but I hate him using it as leverage in the future, especially when I pay him back. I also got to meet HB Adri's boyfriend Chris. He told me he used to not like me because I tried to get with his girl (I guess he doesn't know I made out with her), I appreciate his honesty but this guy seems pretty uninteresting, and surprises me that this is who HB Adri loves so much.

So we pregame, take some cabs, then hit up Liquid Room...I told them Sandbar would probably be better tonight but nobody paid me mind in that aspect. Liquid Room was terrible - ugly girls all over the place, tons of guys, and it looks like some Marines or Navy were getting drunk before they had to ship out.

HB Adri and Chris got into a little fight about something and the rest of us (HB Megan, Miles, Andrew, Jon, Clay, and Leah) were trying to leave this place and call it a night. Pretty sure we just drove back and chilled for a bit before heading home. Pretty sure HB Megan and Miles f***ed again.

Then Friday night, the night you will judge me on...

Alright so tonight was another celebration night for HB Megan. So we all go to Clay and Jon's apartment again and Miles is passing around a bottle of Jack Daniel's for everybody to enjoy as long as they throw in a dollar or so. Well since I'm broke and didn't want to dip into my debit card again, I decided I would be the DD tonight. Plus it royally pissed me off when our "DDs" at the Kappa Sig Whiteout party a little while ago literally started drinking as soon as we got to the party and left the car. I wanted to be in control of my own safety tonight...and it was terrible.

Andrew and HB Megan go get some weed, HB Adri and Chris aren't there tonight because Chris is sick so HB Adri stayed to take care of him. So I'm driving around with Jon, Clay, Stephen, and Miles. All of them are wildly drunk.

Now I'm sure you remember HB Kelsi. She's the girl in my posts that has the boyfriend but tells me how she wants to f*** me or suck my d***, and that she isn't attracted to her boyfriend but knows how I don't want a relationship. So she gets drunk on the weekends and usually texts me about seeing me, but doesn't follow through. This weekend was no different, but she followed through about hanging out, called and texted while I was carting the drunks around, but I'll get more to that later.

First we hit up a party on Rill RD at around 12...we're really late, I forget why but I'm pretty sure it had something to do with HB Megan opening her presents or something. The Rill RD party is dying down and they're telling people to leave, so we decide to go to the ATO house party that my friend Gene told me about that night. It's dead and when they approach the door nothing is going on inside the house and Jeff from ATO tells us there isn't a party here right now.

Probably already happened and got shut down or something.

This whole time Miles and Stephen are really irritating me because when I call or text HB Kelsi they're all yelling about going to another party or I hear Stephen tell me to just hang up because the girl is a wh***. At one point I had to tell Stephen to "shut the f*** up or I'm going to f*** you up".

So after the failed ATO party I drive these guys to get some Taco Bell while telling HB Kelsi I'll be there soon. After I drop them back off at the apartments I find Andrew to drive me to campus to see this girl since he's sober.

Ok so I find HB Kelsi sitting up against a tree by herself with a guy talking to her offering to escort her home. I assure the guy I'll handle everything then he leaves while I sit next to HB Kelsi at the base of the tree. We talk for just a little bit before I go in for the kiss, no resistance this time (I tried this once before and she turned away and kept telling me I was bad for her). We make out for a bit while I tell her the dirty things I want to do to her.

After a bit of coaxing I get her to come with me back to my dorm. It's freezing outside and we can't go back to her dorm so I take her back. Check her in and everything, we end up in my room and make some small talk about how perverted my Sports Illustrated calendar is. Then we get down to business.

Start making out, undressing her, became the first guy to eat her out, then proceeded to f*** her. It almost didn't happen because my roommate started knocking during the foreplay and I asked him if he could wait another half hour, and he obliged. I also didn't last very long because this girl was jerking me off like a pro not long before the sex. Gave me some head afterwards but her roommate called her again so she decided it was probably time to go. Walked her out and back to her dorm hall. Funny thing is Miles and Stephen walked back in around this time and saw this girl with me, they knew what happened haha. Stephen wound up puking later from too much whiskey and birthday cake.

She told me not to tell anyone because she and her boyfriend were still together. She also left me with 2 huge hickies on my neck that look almost like a vampire sucked my blood. That was fun.

Saturday was mediocre as well. The big thing was a rave called Barstool Blackout, and none of us had or wanted tickets to it (they were $40 each). Miles and Andrew were out of town for the weekend, so it was me, Stephen, Clay, and HB Megan along with HB and Chris. He was still celebrating her birthday and had some awesome cake left over. But Stephen and I did not have any alcohol tonight so instead of staying at Clay's house, we decided to hit up some parties. Spent a good half hour looking for a Delta fraternity house, couldn't find it. Hit up the Quads, but also couldn't find a party.

Ended up finding a party on Macmillan AVE, but everybody there was really drunk and we were both really sober. Didn't stay long, just couldn't get up to the level of everybody else at this party. Saved the address for future reference though. Stephen and I drove HB Megan's car back to our dorm (she had to pick it up the next morning). He also almost crashed it because he drifted nearly every corner and almost wrapped us around a fire hydrant and telephone pole. Texted a few girls to no avail then crashed after watching some Kimbo Slice videos with our floormates.

Sunday was alright. Very chill and got some stuff done. What I wanted to note was HB Keely. For those that remember, this is the girl I misspelled as HB Keeley, and is the girl who is waiting till marriage for sex, but has given me head a few times. I asked if she wanted to hang out and she doesn't like the idea of us just hooking up without being in a relationship. So she told me she would help me find a "piece of meat" for me. She asked me my preferences and stuff, and tells me how she is really going to make a conscious effort here. If so, sweet.

Other things...I read some posts from goodlookingloser on this forum, and it made me wonder if I should upload some pictures of me so you can judge my appearance and style. Think that would be a good idea? I was considering uploading pictures of these girls but I feel like that could potentially turn into a s*** storm.

But aside from that, this was a long update and I want to go to sleep. Leave your thoughts, peace.

 

[Amo]

Damn, 50 pages? I admire your dedication. I'm much too lazy to keep a journal. But from skipping the last page and dredging up vestiges from my memory, it seems you've improved a lot. Way to go, dude.

 

[BPH]

Damn, 50 pages? I admire your dedication. I'm much too lazy to keep a journal. But from skipping the last page and dredging up vestiges from my memory, it seems you've improved a lot. Way to go, dude.

I appreciate it man. Sometimes it's hard to get motivated to spend the time updating the journal, but I know it can only help.

11/9/12 - 11/16/12 Week 13

Alright so this week wasn't all that special, but there is still some notable female interaction here, just not as much as the weeks prior.

In terms of schoolwork, jobs, exercise, and money, not much has changed. I think I'm pulling a B in every class with the exception of English, where I have an A. Only missed 1 class when I started getting sick a few weeks ago, so feeling pretty good.

Started sparring with my boxing friend. I'll refer to him as Alex and hopefully those of you who read this will assume I mean Alex when I say I'm boxing with my trainer. Makes me feel bad when I can't even last 2 rounds with him, simply in terms of endurance, let alone scoring.

But let's get to the more fun stuff...

Thursday sucked because I had 2 big assignments due the next day that I had to get done...so let's skip that.

Friday wasn't a very fun night. The only real notable things going on were sorority and fraternity mixers. There were some house parties and I think it ended up just being Stephen and I. I don't remember if the house parties were bad, ended early, or just had to kick people out. I remember that it was kind of a lame night and Stephen was a little upset because I talked him into staying at UNCW instead of taking the weekend to visit his girlfriend at NC State. We hit up a crappy apartment party, then a housing district, and nothing was good, so we went to my friend's dorm room and just chatted with him and some chicks before heading back to our dorm to play some video games.

Saturday was better, but mostly for me. HB Megan and Miles are always sleeping with each other, hanging out, and hooking up, so an unfortunate relationship is inevitable somewhere down the road. So again, it's me and Stephen, and we go to Clay's house to pregame with 2 of these girls from Greensboro. They might be hot if they lost a good bit of weight, but otherwise their names are just Whitney and Olivia.

I find us a party and we head on out. Stephen's annoying me. I absolutely hate it when people make decisions for me. Earlier in the year I almost fought my best friend because he decided it was best to delete HB Kelsi's number, and that really pissed me off. Here I only have $6 and need another dollar for a 6-pack, so I started asking people in the car if they had a dollar and I could pay them back when I visit an ATM. Instead Stephen keeps telling me to shut up and tells Clay to just get me 2 Mike's Hard Lemonades. He ends up getting me smaller bottle versions of a 6-pack. Still annoyed.

Now here's some background...In my biology class there's a girl I've been saying Hi to and just making some small talk every once in a while when I see her, name's HB Brielle. So she added me on Facebook tonight and I asked if she would be my study buddy for Sunday (which really means I want to hang out with her and try to smash). She agreed, but we also started texting about current night plans and what would happen if we ended up getting drunk and trying to take advantage of each other. Fun stuff...

Anyway we get to the first party and it's alright. Decent amount of girls and there's some music, but the lights are still on so nobody's dancing or making out or anything. I'm texting back and forth with HB Brielle and she gives the me the address of a party she's at. Somebody gets into a fight at our party so we head over to hers. Not much better...almost as soon as we get in the houseowner asks us to leave and then cops show up so we have to leave. Stephen's upset about how the night was. HB Brielle stays a little longer then tells me she would meet me at her dorm hall.

Now we get back to Clay's and Stephen, Clay, and Jon are all pretty drunk while I'm still good to go. I ask the girls if they can drive me over since they're the only sober ones. They're nice and agree.

I wait outside for a few minutes before HB Brielle rolls in with a few of her girlfriends. She checks me in and we go to her room. We talk about our nights and stuff and she gets dressed in front of me, and soon after that I take her and start making out.

Now while I'd like to chock this up as another lay, this girl is waiting for the right guy, so I respect that and we just get each other off. I'm start to eat girls out regularly as long as they're shaved and everything looks alright. I'm more into getting turned on by her freaking out than needing to satisfy myself. She sucks me off twice and I eat her out here and there. Afterwards we kinda just sit there and cuddle and talk about stuff. I told her about my scar, she told me about hers, reason for holding off on sex, stuff like that.

Every time I mentioned how good she looked she would counter with how much sexier I was. Whenever I pulled away from a kiss she would come right back after me. This is the kinda girl I would be cool getting into a relationship with. The only deterrent is that she's not into sex and I like variety. Otherwise a really cool girl.

Ended up spending the night and sleeping naked with her up in bed. It was a strangely nice experience. Stephen was a little mad and texted me a few times about leaving him, and HB TaylorO from a few weeks ago texted me at 2AM while I was with this girl...probably a booty call. I pretty much ignored it.

The next morning she got dressed and we made out a little bit before I headed back to the dorms. She was supposed to be my study buddy tonight, but her plans and Thanksgiving break wouldn't allow that to happen. Really cool girl, I like this one. Had to walk back in a freezing downpour to my dorm though. Not that bad, seeing as I'm from the north, but still an inconvenience.

That's about it as far as this weekend. I met a girl named HB Kristen at the Wagoner dining hall. I wouldn't have approached her but she kept eyeing me up so I got the number.

What sucked was when I tried to make plans she was unavailable, so I'll probably be without any female interaction for the rest of this week. The only way that will probably change will be if I go back to Delaware for some of Thanksgiving. I found a stand-by flight that I can ride for free (god I love that perk), but still no guarantee if it allows me to get back to classes on time. If so, I do have some prospects waiting to see me again in Delaware.

Kinda sucks that the dining hall and gym will be closed for most of the break...had to run 3 miles in the cold instead of doing my chest workout. Dedication.

Anyway I think that's all the important stuff. HB Brielle is one to watch out for, plus she's part of the hottest sorority on campus, so even if I don't date/f*** her, I will be trying to stay on good terms.

Peace sosuave.

 

[Nino-Tk]

Nice! I haven't been around here in ages, and I must say, I really admire your closing skills bro! Keep it on the max.

 

[BPH]

Nice! I haven't been around here in ages, and I must say, I really admire your closing skills bro! Keep it on the max.

Thanks man, I appreciate that coming from a guy who closes as much as you.

 

[BPH]

11/16/12 - 11/23/12 Week 14

This week isn't a big update, mostly due to Thanksgiving and the brevity of the actual school week.

So school only lasted until Tuesday, with the upcoming Thanksgiving break lasting from then until next Monday. I was one of the poor sods that wasn't sure if I were going to go home for the break. I initially thought that it would just be really empty, and instead would find out that the gym and dining areas would be closing as well.

Actually before I get started I should mention that I number closed a chick at the dining hall. Name is HB Kristen, caught her eye-f***ing me for a little while so I went and hit on her. Tried to hang out with her since I would be stuck on campus for the early part of break, but she had work and stuff and doesn't seem very promising.

So it's really empty on campus and eventually I'm able to get a flight back home to spend Thanksgiving break with my family on Thursday for the first time since I came to the school. I met an actor, Nestor Serrano, on the plane. He plays a lot of bad guys; was in the movie Secretariat and is on the show, Revolution.

So on Thanksgiving my family went to a cousin's house and everybody got to see me and my new haircut. I got to drink with my family which was mad cool. But I'm getting a little sick so when I get home I go to sleep really early.

The next few days didn't involve much other than playing Halo 4 and chilling with my brother and family. I saw HB Cassidy from way back, wanted to hang out Saturday night at around 1AM, but kept telling me how we weren't going to make out or anything.

Well I pick her up and we hang out near this pond at a farm that I chose to visit with her. We talk a little bit and inevitably do make out, but just a little. She tells me how she only had sex with one guy and that she was drunk and was on her period and stuff. Long story short she sounds promising later on, we'll probably hang out over winter break. But for now, she has trust issues.

Chilled out the whole break and got on a flight to head back to school on Monday. Nothing particularly special. Didn't exercise much due to the fact that I'm sick and might have bronchitis.

Yeah, that's about it, peace guys.

 

[BPH]

11/23/12 - 11/30/12 Week 15

There wasn't good much going on this week in terms of school. It's pretty much just been final assignments getting ready for the exam. Therefore they aren't really worth noting, so let's get to the weekend...

I've been in kind of a rut so this update will be disappointing to recall. The nights were alright but I got nowhere with girls

Alright so let's start with Thursday...

I met some cute girls at the gym but they haven't come to any of the parties I invited them to so far. Names are HB Rosie and HB Kate. Might hear about them later.

Brett had agreed to come out with Stephen and I to the Sandbar club. Brett's leg was still messed up from Thanksgiving break but he decided to come out with us. He also brought a minivan back with him instead of his Chevy Cruze, so that would be used as our ride tonight and he would be the designated driver.

In addition to us, we rolled in with 5 other girls. 3 of them Stephen knew, and I met at Wag (I'll use this in place of Wagoner Hall or the dining hall). That would be HB Brittany, HB Audrey, and some other girl whose name I don't remember.

Brett knew 2 girls, one he was trying to get with named HB Tori, and she had a friend HB Kelsey I wouldn't mind getting with. We went to their apartment on campus to pregame. We would pick up the 3 girls later. I personally felt awful because I ate quite a bit of food at Wag and was feeling really full after just 3 beers. So I legitimately thought I was going to puke and considered staying in. But I pushed through it and made it to the club.

Within minutes a super drunk HB Audrey is making out with some guy while Stephen sits watching her in the mood to fight the guy. Brett's girl ends up dancing with an "old flame" and ends up bringing him back with us so she can get railed on the return trip. If I were Brett I don't know if I would endorse that...As for me, I danced around with a few girls, got this one's number because she didn't want to dance. Name was HB Ashley, and the number was legit, but nothing became of it later.

Stephen broke up with his girlfriend over text during the night so he was in a super pissed off mood at the end. HB Audrey and her friends went with the guy she was making out with that night. Guy seemed kinda forceful...she tried to escape his grip a few times when he was talking to his friends and she couldn't break free.

Went all home with some blue balls.

Friday night was a great night for me. I didn't hang out with any of my dorm floormates and instead went with my friend Alex from ATO to a DZ party. The guys at the house are all really nice, not sure about this fraternity though, it's a little small and the parties are not AS awesome as the Kappa Sig and Pike parties are.

Anyway Alex and I roll in with a case of Busch beer and start talking to some of the DZ girls. I'm good friends with one of the less cute ones, extremely nice though. The problems came in the form of the lights being on in the house and not having sufficient space to dance with girls. While difficult, Alex and I still managed to get a little dancefloor action. Met a few girls, danced with some, and tried to makeout with one, but that fell through when her friend needed her and when the DZ girls told girls not in the sorority to leave due to how crowded it was getting.

Alex has a girl Lizzy that will probably come up every now and again, but I don't feel like describing their situation.

After the party Alex, Anderson, and I walked to Cook-Out for some food, then walked back to our places. It was actually quite a bearable walk, considering it was about 2 miles.

Saturday night was nowhere near as good, and I was kind of pissed about how it went. First it was supposed to be Alex and I at a little party at the fraternity house. But it didn't end up sounding like much so we were going to hit up a party on Paige Ave. Thing was Miles wanted to come with me, and it was cool with Alex so I thought that was fine. Miles invited HB Sarah and Leah to ride with us. Little did I know that HB Sarah and Leah meant HB Sarah and Leah, plus 2 more girls I never met.

So we're really cramped in this car and the girls haven't had much to drink as we roll into Paige. It's a house party so it's BYOB and very packed. It had the lights on and no place to dance, and was excessively crowded with people. There's a beer pong table where the dance area should be, so after a little while we choose to head somewhere else because this doesn't seem too fun and will likely get busted quickly. On the way out a girl wants a sip of my beer so I make her kiss me for it and she takes the hugest swig ever, lesson learned.

We all head back to the ATO house in a cab and find out that the Delts are having a party across the street. We head in with the girls and it's the same story as the last party. Lights on, music is sorta lame, and all there is to do is mingle. I meet a few girls, some from class even, and I just kinda want some action. I test a few girls to see if I can get the makeout, but many are just there with friends and aren't doing anything special. I do meet this cutie named HB Kathleen. She's down to makeout so I take her out and just as we start kissing she says she might have to throw up. Girl's pretty drunk so I walk her back to the house and get her number. Damn...

At around 2AM the party is really dying down and I want to walk back to campus, but Miles and the girls want a cab, despite not having the money to pay for one. I walk and they follow for a little bit, but then they try to get a cab. At this point I told them how it is several times so I continue walking back to campus. I'm annoyed at Miles for not having backbone, but more annoyed at the girls for throwing me a curveball or two.

Sunday night was just a regular night of homework and relaxing. But I did receive a slap in the face in the form of HB TaylorO. Remember I f***ed her twice about a month ago. Well I hit her up tonight to hang out and she deleted my number, asking who it was. When I told her she didn't text back, ouch.

Need to get consistent. Schoolwork and exercise are going fine, but the school gym will be closed next week until the end of January, so until then I may have to just run or do bodyweight exercises.

Anyway my weekend was a bit of a letdown, rereading some material.

That's about it for now, peace.

 

[BPH]

11/30/12 - 12/7/12 Week 16

Alright so nothing interesting has really happened this week so I'll just update this thing for the sake of updating it. Hopefully I'll have enough in me to update for both weeks but if I only get one right now I'll be happy.

Let me see if I can remember anything important from 2 weeks ago. Pretty sure things were winding down. Finals were coming up and gym would be shutting down for a month or two so I don't think much happened.

Point being I haven't been laid in over a month.

Therefore nothing in these posts is going to be overly important.

Uhh the highlight of this week was going to 2 parties with Alex. The first was a girl in Alpha Xi Delta's birthday so ATO threw her a party at their house. It was pretty good until a cop showed up. Most of us went next door until he left before we came back. When we got back the vibe died a little bit and several girls were gone. I offered this one cutie a beer named HB Morgan and asked her how she felt about making out with random strangers.

We end up making out in this bedroom but there is like nowhere private to take this girl in this house. She doesn't want to do anything because she said it would be weird if we hooked up in her friend's bed. I got her number but she didn't text back after that night so whatever.

Nothing else really interesting happened that I can remember or care to recall.

I don't really feel like updating the other week. Stay tuned tomorrow.

C ya guys. Been a month without sex...sucks...

 

[BPH]

12/7/12 - 12/14/12 Week 17

Alright so this was the finishing of finals week and hanging out with my cousins. Not too much to report.

As far as grades I think I got 4 A's 1 B. Whether it's an A or A- is irrelevant. Got good grades as a freshman during my first semester.

The only action I got was in the form of HB Ashley, a girl from the Cape Fear college that I met at Sand Bar. After several flakes we eventually went to chill at her place with her UG roommate. Got some 40s and she was my little chauffeur at the end of the night. Watched Kick-Ass and drank both my 40s. The girls both finished one.

Her UG friend was always around and HB Ashley didn't really accept my advances. Sometime later she got a call from a drunk friend that needed a ride after being pulled over. She dropped me at my dorm first and I made sure to get at least a kiss before I went inside.

And that was my only notable female interaction.

After a while the dorms were empty again and I stayed to see my cousin's graduation. The older girls are really hot and it was cool seeing some of my relatives down here and spending some quality time with them.

A few nights we would drink some beers and talk about girls and stuff. My cousin Lindsay didn't even know I wasn't a virgin until these conversations. Some fun stuff. No girls though.

After that it was back to Delaware for the holidays.

12/14/12 - 12/21/12 Week 18

This will be a quick update...

All of my female options have boyfriends and on Thursday I got hit with a bad cold and fever...

Haven't been out, haven't seen any friends, haven't done anything fun.

And that's all.

 

[Nino-Tk]

Sucks doesn't it? When the girls you want have boyfriends. I know that feeling exactly bro, I'm in the same situation.

 

[BPH]

12/21/12 - 12/28/12 Week 19

This break seriously blows...

Let's talk Christmas first...

It was nice seeing some of my cousins and I got some nice gifts. Notably a nice jacket for the cold, a tub of protein for school, several socks and some pants since a few had been stolen at school, and some other small things.

My cousins on one side are very superficial. Athletes but not overly smart for the most part, but the popular people. Always on their iPhones and have their own agendas...not easy to connect with them and these kinds of holidays leave them doing their own things.

My cousins on the other side are very intellectual and quirky, and I often find them very old-style and boring.

So seeing my family was nice, but nothing more than nice.

There's a girl HB Leah I've been talking to from Facebook that lives near me and goes to school near my university. We were supposed to hang out but the girl flaked so whatever...

Went to the mall once...hit on this girl who turned out to be 16. The fact that I was a college kid hitting on her seemed to weird her out, the interaction was awful.

So...recap...

Didn't see any girls.

Didn't see any of my friends.

Didn't go to any parties.

Great stuff.

Don't feel like doing the other update right now so that's it at the moment. Peace guys.

 

[AlexLefty]

^
You know the answer to all ur problems

 

[BPH]

12/28/12 - 1/4/13 Week 20

Break is coming to a close and I couldn't be happier. It's going to be weird going back to school after about a month. It's going to feel like I'm starting college all over again, and hopefully that turns out to be a good thing.

Let's talk about girls very briefly...

HB Morgan from my old high school was supposed to hang out on 2 occasions but flaked.

HB Stephanie is another girl from my old high school that would have come to hang out but has a busy weekend so I won't be seeing her till the next time I'm in Delaware, and that will probably be a while.

HB Leah I already detailed.

I went to go to the mall again to see my friend Sharif for the first time this break. That was nice, chilled and chatted.

But I thought this journal would be a good one to reflect on a few things. Namely modeling or acting.

These are things I want to do and would probably be quite good at, I just don't know how to approach the situation. Money limitations and lack of transport are problems I don't know how I would overcome. I would need a job to pay for taxis or buses or my friends' rides. I also want to figure out whether agencies would prefer me with my current short hair or my former long hair.

I'm also worried about my next semester because a lot of my classes were already filled and I have too few hours. It sucks being a freshman and getting last choice. This next semester is shaping up to be a real pain in the a$$.

I don't know, I've just been thinking about my future. I don't really know anybody that's doing the kinds of things I want to do and making the kind of money I want to make...I'm confused...

Also I'm looking at changing my workout routine. I may want to get back on Starting Strength to put on about another 10lbs. then do some heavy cardio to get really cut. I'm talkin 6-pack without flexing kinda ripped.

But I don't really know what I'm doing at the moment. So leave me thoughts if you guys still read this. Peace.

 

[AlexLefty]

12/28/12 - 1/4/13 Week 20I don't know, I've just been thinking about my future. I don't really know anybody that's doing the kinds of things I want to do and making the kind of money I want to make...I'm confused...

You've finally started thinking.
This is good progress.
Keep thinking!

Think about your 'purpose', and your 'why', in terms of your success.

 

[LearningSlowly]

Good advice from Lefty. I think if you're going to make your body your future (through modeling or whatever) you need to refocus yourself on work outs.

Girls are peripheral. They will come when your life is in order, and your action is in line with your goals. Set goals that have nothing to do with getting laid, achieve them through action (this includes being proactive about contacting modeling agencies and going somewhere with that) and then everything in your life will begin to fall in place.

You seem to worried about where your life is, and you aren't worried enough about where your life is going to be. It's time to make new progress and break new ground.

 

[AlexLefty]

Girls are peripheral. They will come when your life is in order, and your action is in line with your goals. Set goals that have nothing to do with getting laid, achieve them through action (this includes being proactive about contacting modeling agencies and going somewhere with that) and then everything in your life will begin to fall in place.

You seem to worried about where your life is, and you aren't worried enough about where your life is going to be. It's time to make new progress and break new ground.

Great stuff josh.

You have an uncommonly high level of awareness.

 

[BPH]

1/4/13 - 1/11/13 Week 21

Alright so I expect this to be a monster post, and I'm going to try to have the dedication to type it up in an hour, but if I don't I'll probably just post a follow-up. Anyway...let's get to it.

So this last weekend in Delaware was just really chill, saw my friend Sharif and went to hang out with him at the mall for a bit. Otherwise I was just packing stuff up and getting ready to come back to school.

I don't remember the first few days so well, it was mostly just chilling and seeing who was new on campus. Lots of the girls in my International House dorm are new since the French girls moved out. Let's run through them real quick...

HB Aubree is a girl I met during psychology studies that we had to do for credits. She's a cute blonde that's pretty flirty, and seems interested, but can't really tell since she acts like that around some of the other guys.

HB Kinsey is a gorgeous little girl downstairs. Good body, pretty face, great smile, very short. Not sure how interested she is but I did make her give me a kiss on the cheek for once of my textbooks since she needed it and I didn't

HB Meagan is a tall, curvy blonde that lives on the first floor. She's probably the hottest girl in our dorm and has a couple of the guys on her d***. Namely Thomas, Stephen, and Matt. I'd like to get with her but I figure I'll do it indirectly by showing her I'm the sh** without being all over her trying to win her over.

HB Hayley is probably the last one that I would consider hot. Not sure if I spelled her name right but she has a boyfriend so she's just there.

Other girls that are pretty cool include Kristen, Angela, Sara, Ashlea, Krystina, and some others that don't come to mind at the moment.

The first day I got back I actually got back into a workout routine that involves 20 minutes of back-to-back pushups, sit-ups, and pullups. I was doing them shirtless in our lounge when my friend Jared started walking people around introducing the girls to us, and there I was...doing pushups shirtless when he introduced me...so I'm still known as "that shirtless guy". Cool.

We had a hall meeting and there are some cute girls in my classes but classes aren't worth noting. This semester they kinda suck and there aren't THAT many hot girls so I probably won't bring up my classes much.

I don't really have time to get into the parties we went to this weekend so I think I'll just leave it at that for now. I feel like watching Archer and talking to Lefty so I'll finish this later tonight.

Stay tuned for part 2!

 

[BPH]

I was going to finish updating this but something happened tonight that pissed me off to the extreme and might have lost me some friends. So I'll update sometime tomorrow, it's a busy day so expect it early in the day or late at night.

 

[BPH]

1/4/13 - 1/11/13 Week 21 Cont.

Alright so let's jump into these parties...

Thursday night was a regular club night. Sandbar was the place to be, and while there it's usually free before 11 and has little to no line that early in the night, tonight it was PACKED. It wrapped around the corner and was halfway down the strip of storefronts.

Luckily Brett, two girls he brought, and myself all got our free wristbands. Thomas, Fahmi, and some other people were pregaming at an apartment. Some of the new girls in our dorm were there that night but I don't remember if the hot ones were present. I think I got through about 4 or 5 beers before we decided to go to Sandbar because if we left later we probably wouldn't be able to get in...seeing as they were over capacity at one point.

We get in there and it's just wall-to-wall gorgeous chicks and is more packed than I had ever seen it. Despite this, I couldn't really get in the groove. I remember dancing with a few girls, but didn't get any makeouts or numbers or anything and just had some fun with my friends since it was obvious I wasn't going to be bringing a girl back tonight.

Saw HB Ashley from Cape Fear, and while she still refuses to dance she said she would hit me up, hasn't so far. I ended up deleting a whole bunch of girls' numbers that I wanted to bang but weren't doing a good job replying. She was one of them, along with HB Kelsi, HB TaylorO, among others.

Also...Miles was making out with Krystina, a new girl that is really nice but pretty damn ugly in the face, and I can't understand it...

Friday night was better.

My friend Jon was going to move out of Clay's apartment on Clear Run, so we decided to throw him a going away party. Went out shopping with him and Stephen and picked up a beer bong and funnel, some black lights, solo cups, and ping pong balls. I invited several of the new hot girls from the dorm and we had high hopes for this party. Stephen told me he was going to get the place together and that I was in charge of bringing people.

We got together some beer and bottles of vodka and brought the girls and everybody over to the apartment. The vodka was dry, there was no loud music or place to dance, and Jon, Stephen, and Fahmi were wildly drunk already.

After a little while one of the new guys, Matt, told me that there was a party in a neighboring apartment that was much bigger and let them in just like that. We returned and told everybody and brought the beer over. Jon and Stephen were kind of pissed off that I would take people away from his going away party, but all the girls we brought, including HB Meagan, were sitting around, sipping on a beer, mingling in a little circle.

So we brought them all over, I put a playlist on, and proceeded to get drunk to the best of my ability. The girls weren't all that, and HB Meagan had both Thomas and Matt all over her trying to win her over while I just made sure the people I was with were having fun. Nobody was dancing and the lights were still on, so all there really was to do was drink and mingle, and that wasn't really my thing, so I just looked after the others.

Oh, but I did get the number of the apartment owner for future parties at her place. She's nice.

Eventually a cop showed up and we all slowly walked out past him and headed back to the dorms. I walked with Thomas, Matt, and HB Meagan, and had Krystina and her friend following us a ways back. It was so painful listening to Thomas and Matt put this girl on a pedestal. I would f*** her in a heartbeat but these guys are talking about how her beauty is beyond compare, and how they would change for her, and how great she would look in a bikini tomorrow...I don't understand...and you'll find out later what I mean.

Oh I almost got hit by a car as I was crossing the street. Might have been a drunk driver but I jumped back and landed on my @$$ with the tires like a foot away from my legs, while the driver stopped and apologized for not seeing me. Gave everyone a good scare, was kinda cool.

Got back and some people wanted to hang out and watch a movie and I was cool with that. There was a friend of HB Meagan named HB Lauren that I was interested in, so we had a little text conversation, and I told her to join me on a bed in the back of the TV lounge, and she told me she had a boyfriend...so now she's on the wayside.

Saturday was one of the most perfect days and nights I've ever had.

It started with some good breakfast at the dining hall with a bunch of the guys from last night and was followed by a trip to the beach in this beautiful 78 degree weather over here in North Carolina.

Traveled with Thomas, Phil, Jared, HB Lauren, and HB Meagan. We got stuck in traffic that lasted an hour while we listened to music, just chatted, and messed with other drivers moving as slow as we were.

We set up at the beach, took a quick dive into the freezing cold water, and played some football on the beach. Thomas went with HB Meagan for a long walk along the beach to the pier while I lead the big group of new international kids to the same spot for some time. After that we went back and got some food at the dining hall. The ride was hilarious...kept messing with Phil and getting on the girls' good side. Ladies like a funny man...

Now onto the night...I was the BOSS!

So my friend Alex in ATO invited me to the pledge initiation party tonight and told me I was welcome to free alcohol and could bring whoever I wanted. So I got LITERALLY 16 people together from my dorm and some other friends, along with all the hot notable girls; HB Meagan, HB Lauren, and about another 6 or 7 girls. I met them all, invited them all, they all accepted...like a BOSS!

I had Brett pick up 36 beers in case there wasn't enough alcohol at the party for all the people I was bringing, along with 2 bottles of wine for the girls. Didn't really end up needing it...

Had to take 3 taxi cabs of people over to the house and proceeded to get HAMMERED as soon as we all got into the house. Alex and Kelvin saw me roll in with everyone, including the hottest girl in the party; HB Meagan, and started talking to his boys about how I'm a huge stud.

Got all my people cups for PJ, showed them to the keg, got Alex and Kelvin to fill my cup with some quality champagne when they started popping bottles. Brett and Chris were running the beer pong table while I was flirting a little bit with a girl or two that I found worthwhile. The playlist was booming and I introduced my friends and the girls to the fraternity guys, including the owner of the house...god...I was just so on point!

My 36 beers were gone instantly and Krystina was able to almost down an entire bottle of wine by herself. The ATO guys brought out an ice luge to take shots of whiskey and coke...I went over for two and I could not have gulped another drop of that whiskey or I would have puked. Everybody I was with got as drunk as I had ever seen them...including myself.

Stephen's birthday was today and I got them to play the 2Chainz song. I had this girl, HB Lizzy all over me as well. She had sex with Alex a few months ago, but I always thought she was hot and I was so gone so we start making out, and I get a lull in the action so I go over to Alex and make sure he knows what's going on, and he's totally cool and tells me to go for it...this guy's awesome, more concerned about getting me to break my dry spell than who I would break it with.

We makeout a lot and I tell her how I'm going to f*** the s*** out of her. We go outside for a bit so she can get a smoke and then end up on the couch next to Clayton and Fahmi, and are just making out when I get c***blocked. That was the only thing that sucked...

Gene and Annie thought that HB Lizzy was too drunk and should go home...there are about 3 things f***ed up about this part:

1. Gene is an ATO brother that I'm pretty cool with. One of the first guys that I met and always a nice dude...so that surprised me.

2. Annie is a girl I had eaten dinner with a few times along with HB Lizzy, and claimed to not want relationships and that she was a free girl and stuff. Also my friend...so that was messed up...not gonna forget that one.

3. I was WAY more smashed than this girl. I was falling around, almost tripping on everything, and didn't remember anything she really said to me aside from something about a hospital...

So that sucked.

Continued having fun and drinking. All my boys are smashed and dancing on some girls. All my girls are dancing with a guy or drinking and laughing with their friends. Success!

But a cop shows up, and I know the way out, so I get most of the people I came with and exit through the window and start to walk back to the dorms. The walk itself was hilarious. We all had our stories, and were falling all over the place and making jokes about the stupidest crap. Dear god it was hilarious...

I think I just plopped onto my bed and went into deep sleep until I was woken up to get some more breakfast the next morning and hit the beach again.

Now what's weird is that Thomas was once again all over HB Meagan. What was different was that this time they made out and apparently had sex later that night when they got back. He was a little nervous the next day because she had a boyfriend somewhere and wasn't sure what he did was right.

I don't understand how he had sex with this pretty attractive girl, while playing the role of an AFC that puts her on a pedestal.

I don't know, I was cool with everything that happened that night, and had never been so drunk before. It was awesome. According to Alex and Kelvin the next day, the cop left after just telling them to quiet down a little big, but most of the people left when they heard there was a cop so it died down not too long after (3AM ish)...