Bros, Betrayal, Hoes, Extreme Non-Caring, and Construction Place Adventures
I was wrong. I didn't conquer. I don't know what to do.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zUszWMSofyE&feature=related
Haha, I'll try to give you fvckers some bad sh1t in the midst of all this greatness that surrounded the forum this morning.
I'll jump straight to Saturday evening.
Prokop, Matthew, Raoul, Brian and 3 more bros arrive at my place. Prokop has finally got himself a controller/mixing board. So cool. He tells me Violet will be coming over later. Sure enough, I get a text later, "Hey, me and a friend (Tiara) are coming over for a short time. Prokop might have told you..just forr a short time
" I respond almost an hour later, "Cool. See you soon"
We're partying it up hardcore. Music going a bit too loud, alcohol served.
Daan and Gilles are coming, so Im about to open my door to meet them. Instead, I am greeted by Violet and Tiara arriving on their scooter. I go inside, get a tshirt and go greet them. I get a simple hug from Violet. I quickly deduct that she's gonna be like last weekend.
Violet and Tiara smoke by the pool and take some wine. Daan and Gilles empty the vodka inside. Music getting louder, Prokop and Brian DJing it up.
I head to the kitchen for a moment. I come back out again and Prokop and Violet are missing. I sense something is wrong. I walk upstairs. The door to my room is closed. I head through my sister's room onto the balcony. As I walk past my room, the lights are off and I can make out 2 persons chilling on the bed. I furiously open the door, tell them we're leaving soon. I make the mistake of furiously telling them to finish their damn business and slam the door shut.
Raoul tells me the cab is here. I open the door to my room, only to see what I expected. Violet quickly rolls of Prokop. I tell them we're fvcking leaving. I walk off, so does Violet. I enter another room and she heads downstairs. Prokop is still happily chilling in my room. I tell him to fvck off and get ready. Throw some verbalities at him. Im so angry. I yell at everyone to get the fck out of my house while walking down the stairs.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A4-pfa-yc8M
Everyone is finally outside. Ive had about 3 shots worth of vodka btw. Some lady is talking to a friend of mine. I walk up and ask whats wrong. She complains about how we're waking her kids, play loud music, scare her kids, jump from the roof and cause trouble. Considering my state, I didn't really handle it good or bad. I kinda just looked at her and told her to get to the point.
I walk back to Violet and Tiara. I've lent Tiara my favourite jacket (dunno why I decided to). Violet thanks me for inviting her over. I tell her I didn't. She then says something else. I say "whatever" and walk off.
I have a chat with Prokop. After I've acted like such a **** towards him, he finally gets it. After a few chats over time, we resolve the situation. I still have questions though, which is the only thing that bothers me. He didn't know I'd hooked up with her though, as Im so fcking good at keeping promises. Pfft.
There's 2 cabs. I sit in the middle between Josh and Raoul, with Matthew in the front. I tell Josh about what happened, as he's not in my school and doesnt have any interest to tell anyone. He, without knowing, helps me calm down through guided meditation. I tell him to make sure I dont get in a fight. I tell him I won't give a sh1t about anything tonight. It's so easy.
We arrive. The girl Nic thought was his GF, but turnned him down 3 weeks ago, is by the fence. I give her a peck through the fence. Have a chat with Prokop. Move towards the line. 3 intimidating chicks stand ahead of me, with their backs turned. I hook my arms around 2 of their necks. They're very receptive and it turns out I know them. It's that sexy indian chick that was at my place 2 weeks ago. I chat shortly and move ahead. It's such a blur. I approach so many chicks. If anything fails, I laugh maniacly to myself. Give some random high5s. I turn out to know everyone I approach. Find my friends in the line. Move ahead. People lifting me. Ive entered the girls bathroom through the window. I greet a few girls I know and head out again when I figure its impossible to get through security.
Outside in the line I find not Swede, but Swede Junior. Havent seen her since april last year. We have a fairly good thing going. I give her a random massage, when Prokop chimes in and takes over completely. This just adds to the anger that Im so easily developing towards him unreasonably.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DY6dl8_E_ko
Some girls have a small train and move ahead in the line. I join this train and Im shortly all the way in front. I chat with these chicks and a bit with this other Ashley chick. I end up waiting in front and make Prokop get me in for free, as he is. I felt it was deserved.
Inside it's quite cool. I walk up to the first 3 chicks I see inside. Turns out it's Jailbait. WTF. She does not seem keen, and I later see her with some other dude. I couldn't care less.
I head outside and talk to so many people. Everyone. This friend of Nic's girl is super into me. Im more into Nic's chick, but Im like whatever. I have her face the other way and hook up with her quickly, then I just leave her. I'll call her Cayenne.
Of all the chicks I chatted to, I found this group of 3 average chicks fairly interesting. I also approached this hot chick. As I approach her, she tells me, "Your name is NDJ, you're from Norway. We meet at every party and you're always drunk." Wow. I didn't even recognize her face. I'll call her Snow, if I ever see her again. We chatted for a fair bit.
I also met HB Wife for the first time in almost a year. She was quite a downer and left me cause she left the party. Still has that BF.
I meet Cross from last friday. She's like, "why did you hook up with me???" I kinda ignore it and try to pull her. She runs and hides.
I go approach outside with Alex. First set is a fail. 2nd is good. My chick, Destiny, and I go straight into embracing and palm reading. She's super receptive, stroking my hands and sh1t. Alex is doing good himself. As I turn mroe focus to their convo, my girl turns cold instantly. Destiny shortly leaves after a few corny jokes on her name. I then drag some other people hanging around Alex and his girl away and leave. Meet Swede. She claims that I come over to her, while I claim she has to come to me. I walk away.
I meet NicChick and Cayenne. We search for a pizza place and enter the Bp garage. There's police around the area and has been a fight.
Inside, I hook up with Cayenne and tell her we should find somewhere private. We head outside.
After long searches, we find a construction place, constructing an appartment complex.
We hook up on some stairs for a good 30 minutes. Trying to get past her damn chastity belt while she keeps saying "You're turning me on so much. I must control myself." She says she wont have sex with me. I say whatever. She completely shifts and later calls out my "reverse psychology tactics" which appartenly works like a charm.
We adventure inside and find a shower and a bathtub, unfinished of course. Clothes come off, shorts stay on. She eventually gives me a handjob. She's SO close to giving me head. She also states that at Nic's 18th next weekend, we'll have sex. Fair enough.
I *** massively in the bathtub, which I found hilarious, considering what the workers will face tomorrow.
During this whole thing, I could not remember her name. She kept telling me, and I kept forgetting.
We walk back. Boring times waiting for a cab.
We meet these 2 chicks. One chick says that she'll kiss matthew for his tie. She pulls him in and Matthew gets his first kiss! AWE. I later try a 3way makeout when the 2 chicks are hooking up. Failed. I then chill back and watch as we leave, how everyone lines up and hooks up with both of them. Hahaha.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-3XdYpvilA
The cab ride back is fcking crazy. I end up paying only R40 in total, I am hosting the whole thing though.
We walk home with no shirts through the rain.
Everyone is wondering why Im angry, but I say Im not. It's not her. I'm still protecting her.
At home Im still really pissed off with Prokop. He asks me to pass the wine, which I throw staight on his stomach. Must've hurt. He later takes a 2nd hamburger before everyone else. I figure that it must be the last one and take it from him. "You take something from me, and Im taking something from you. I guess we're even." He asks if we're even then, I say no, and we share it.
Nothing special to note today. Im quite over the Violet/Prokop thing. If anything, it's only the unknown details and loss that makes me angry.
Me and Jaedon connect so well it's ridiculous. Just as I was about so say how I just cant seem to connect with anyone. Are my feelings dysfunctional perhaps.
EDIT @ 5 pm: Right now Im super happy. Just demonstrating how my mood fluxuates a lot. Like now, I think that I obviously can't have a 'relapse' again, cause I'm so content. You'd think I had BPD
6 pm: Meh. That's the best describer, but now its rapidly changing for the better. I must be really uncentered?
I think my brian is changing.. That's why there is such chaos; it's change.
