Nino-Tk
Master Don Juan
Yeah man, that happens to me too, as soon I over-think on whether to approach or not, I'm usually screwed so yep, just do it as soon as you possibly can bro, perfect opportunities are illusions.
Journal - Approaches on street, at mall, etc.
- Thread starter Mindgamez
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Perfect opportunities are illusions. Good tip, and it's SO true. They never come!
Saturday, August 25th
Disappointed with the party... let me explain.
So yeah,
Went to paintball with some friends of mine in the morning. That was pretty epic!
Though I pussied out from chatting with that girl that was working here.
So I was getting ready for the party,
And I was feeling pretty excited. DAMN there'll be a LOT of people there.
So I miss my bus, and then I have to wait a while. I arrive a little late at Dumi's house, and we rush to find a way to get there and go back home. Google Maps!
On the way there, we're pretty excited and happy to go. We arrive pretty late, and we realize that we'll just be able to stay there for like 1h30 or 2 hours max, because we had to take the bus and the metro back home.
THE PARTY
So the bus arrives at destination. As I get off, I see the people that are going. People with the swag and attitude, the confident guys. They were mostly Arabs and black people, and I was almost the only asian there... So I stand in line to get in.
Before entering, security checks my pockets, etc. and then they tell me that it's 20 bucks.
20 bucks, and we don't even get to see how it is inside?
Security : After 11PM, price goes up to 20$.
Me : Alright.
Security : Single or in a relationship?
Me : Hum, single.
Security : Take the red glowstick.
Single people had the red glowstick, people in a couple had a blue one.
Ohhh man, this will probably be about guys and girls grinding each other.
So yeah, me and Dumi get in.
ALMOST NO ONE WAS DANCING.
People were basically walking around the place, just walking and talking. The music was OK, not fantastic.
I keep walking. Then, I see some random dude grab some random girl. They start grinding.
Then I see some random dude grab some random girl. She resists and tries to escape, though the guy holds her tight...
I keep walking. Oh there are actually some people dancing. Ahhh, boring music...
So yeah, a good beat comes up. There was a circle of guys dancing.
Me : Hey, move a bit! I'm going in.
Random guy : Alright, go in!
Me : Wait, I'm waiting for the beat to start...
Music kicks in. I jump into the circle and start shuffling. I was feeling nervous, for like every public performances I did before. I get out after 20 seconds lol.
Then, some random guy compliments me on my dancing.
I ***** out from approaching. The guys were intimidating, because they had the looks and attitude. The ratio was like 1 guy for 3 girls... Sucks!
So pretty much all the pretty girls had blue glowsticks. Some had red glowsticks but were chilling with some dudes already.
Approached one set of 2 girls, the girl I talked to rejects me and tells me she doesn't want to dance.
Second set of 2 girls, I approach the same way. I touch her on the arm a bit, let my hand slide for a bit.
Me : Hey, how's it going?
She smiles a bit, I ask her how old she is. Apparently she's 16, so then I get a bit closer behind her, put both hands on her shoulders and talk to close proximity to her ear.
Me : Wanna dance?
She tells me that she doesn't want to, her friend confirms. They were both smiling though, but I wasn't horny at all! And the girl I approached didn't react, but didn't back off either. Whatever, I let go of her and she goes away.
3rd set, I approach the same way. The girl looks at me, doesn't even smile a bit, and goes away.
I don't blame the girls for being *****y today. They probably got hit on like 10 times the same night, or got buttraped by some horny dudes. Of course they have that ***** shield up!
Whatever, we leave the party soon after that.
Though, on that second approach, I felt very confident and I went physical quick. Though, I wasn't feeling horny at all. She was a 7, not that fantastic.
Conclusion
- Ohhh MAN!! Can't wait until I turn 18 to go to clubs and bars. I have to game at some rave with some good techno music next time. I like to dance.
- Going to intimidating environments is a good thing to do. Force yourself to go to places where you're not feeling comfortable. When you get used to gaming when douchebags and horny *******s are around, you learn to give yourself less excuses.
- I realize that the presence of so many guys was what actually stopped me from approaching. I still did though, and that's great.
Sunday, August 26th
Niyo's probably into me! Let me explain.
So yeah,
Woke up this morning, more tired than ever.
I get to work, really tired again.
At work, I see asian coworker. I'm not attracted to her anymore. I just don't like her, aghh...
My mood was down that day. I was feeling so tired and I just didn't feel like doing anything. Helping the customers was close to dreadful!
Oh wait. Niyo wasn't supposed to work today?! Though she was here.
So I'm just doing my thing, tired. I wasn't feeling nervous. I was feeling lazy and sleepy.
Some girl comes behind me and gently punches me the back.
Me : Ohhh wah, who's that? Niyo!
She keeps walking
When I poke her belly, she laughs XD.
HOT customer looks at me. HB8.5 solid.
So she basically asks me for this kind of paper. I talk to her normally, though I look at her in the eyes like I want to make out with her pretty bad.
So I just keep the normal conversation, it's pretty innocent. Though, I hold eye contact for long at some point, and then she starts laughing for absolutely no reason.
Attraction was going on! Though her hot sister was here, and her father too. People were watching me. If I would've said that she was beautiful at this point, it could've been great.
Another pretty customer, HB8.
Her : Hey, can you help me with something?
Me : No.
I acted semi-serious, but had my little usual smile. She laughs her ass off XD.
Whatever, pussied out again from saying the compliment.
MAN, I JUST CAN'T DO IT WHEN I'M AT WORK. WHY!!!! ARGGHHH.
I'm just doing my thing, and then Niyo randomly passes by behind me.
I simply look at her, she smiles and laughs for no reason. Like, she's obviously following me LOL.
Me : Hey, you're following me!
Blablabla
So during the whole day I work and work and work. Til the end of day comes and we have to do the facing for the shop.
So I'm just doing my thing, then Niyo comes by and starts singing a song. She bumps into me, I touch her gently as she passes by.
Me : Calm down Niyo, you're way too excited! You're always excited when I'm here.
I'm attracted to her, but I'm not like crazy over her or anything like that. That's why I don't feel so needy for her. She's 7 or 7.5 in looks, though her flirtiness is what makes her hotter.
So Niyo's friend and Niyo want to go to some ice cream shop with everyone from work! They invited me, and I said that I was cool with that.
Though, I'm not quite sure when they'll be doing it. They might quit working at Staples sometimes this week or next week...
I didn't make my move. I felt bad afterwards!
So we were leaving work. Girls pass in front of me and I say bye to them. Niyo passes.
Me : Bye Niyo.
She gives me a wink. THERE YOU GO. She's into me. I pussied out for asking for her number because everyone was around.
So she leaves, I don't catch her up...
Conclusion
- Take opportunities as they come. Maybe you won't see that girl again before like a week or two? DO YOUR MOVE. This FR is a bad example lol.
- Girls start coming to me more and more. That's a great thing! It used to be the other way around, me chasing for girls the whole time.
What's coming up next
Working tomorrow for 10 hours. Time to say compliments to hot customers...
School starts Tuesday. Can't wait! It will kick some ass. I'll socialize with as much people as possible. I'll build a good social circle, attend some activities and join clubs. I'll also sign up for talent shows. I'll build up my popularity
Saturday, August 25th
Disappointed with the party... let me explain.
So yeah,
Went to paintball with some friends of mine in the morning. That was pretty epic!
Though I pussied out from chatting with that girl that was working here.
So I was getting ready for the party,
And I was feeling pretty excited. DAMN there'll be a LOT of people there.
So I miss my bus, and then I have to wait a while. I arrive a little late at Dumi's house, and we rush to find a way to get there and go back home. Google Maps!
On the way there, we're pretty excited and happy to go. We arrive pretty late, and we realize that we'll just be able to stay there for like 1h30 or 2 hours max, because we had to take the bus and the metro back home.
THE PARTY
So the bus arrives at destination. As I get off, I see the people that are going. People with the swag and attitude, the confident guys. They were mostly Arabs and black people, and I was almost the only asian there... So I stand in line to get in.
Before entering, security checks my pockets, etc. and then they tell me that it's 20 bucks.
20 bucks, and we don't even get to see how it is inside?
Security : After 11PM, price goes up to 20$.
Me : Alright.
Security : Single or in a relationship?
Me : Hum, single.
Security : Take the red glowstick.
Single people had the red glowstick, people in a couple had a blue one.
Ohhh man, this will probably be about guys and girls grinding each other.
So yeah, me and Dumi get in.
ALMOST NO ONE WAS DANCING.
People were basically walking around the place, just walking and talking. The music was OK, not fantastic.
I keep walking. Then, I see some random dude grab some random girl. They start grinding.
Then I see some random dude grab some random girl. She resists and tries to escape, though the guy holds her tight...
I keep walking. Oh there are actually some people dancing. Ahhh, boring music...
So yeah, a good beat comes up. There was a circle of guys dancing.
Me : Hey, move a bit! I'm going in.
Random guy : Alright, go in!
Me : Wait, I'm waiting for the beat to start...
Music kicks in. I jump into the circle and start shuffling. I was feeling nervous, for like every public performances I did before. I get out after 20 seconds lol.
Then, some random guy compliments me on my dancing.
I ***** out from approaching. The guys were intimidating, because they had the looks and attitude. The ratio was like 1 guy for 3 girls... Sucks!
So pretty much all the pretty girls had blue glowsticks. Some had red glowsticks but were chilling with some dudes already.
Approached one set of 2 girls, the girl I talked to rejects me and tells me she doesn't want to dance.
Second set of 2 girls, I approach the same way. I touch her on the arm a bit, let my hand slide for a bit.
Me : Hey, how's it going?
She smiles a bit, I ask her how old she is. Apparently she's 16, so then I get a bit closer behind her, put both hands on her shoulders and talk to close proximity to her ear.
Me : Wanna dance?
She tells me that she doesn't want to, her friend confirms. They were both smiling though, but I wasn't horny at all! And the girl I approached didn't react, but didn't back off either. Whatever, I let go of her and she goes away.
3rd set, I approach the same way. The girl looks at me, doesn't even smile a bit, and goes away.
I don't blame the girls for being *****y today. They probably got hit on like 10 times the same night, or got buttraped by some horny dudes. Of course they have that ***** shield up!
Whatever, we leave the party soon after that.
Though, on that second approach, I felt very confident and I went physical quick. Though, I wasn't feeling horny at all. She was a 7, not that fantastic.
Conclusion
- Ohhh MAN!! Can't wait until I turn 18 to go to clubs and bars. I have to game at some rave with some good techno music next time. I like to dance.
- Going to intimidating environments is a good thing to do. Force yourself to go to places where you're not feeling comfortable. When you get used to gaming when douchebags and horny *******s are around, you learn to give yourself less excuses.
- I realize that the presence of so many guys was what actually stopped me from approaching. I still did though, and that's great.
Sunday, August 26th
Niyo's probably into me! Let me explain.
So yeah,
Woke up this morning, more tired than ever.
I get to work, really tired again.
At work, I see asian coworker. I'm not attracted to her anymore. I just don't like her, aghh...
My mood was down that day. I was feeling so tired and I just didn't feel like doing anything. Helping the customers was close to dreadful!
Oh wait. Niyo wasn't supposed to work today?! Though she was here.
So I'm just doing my thing, tired. I wasn't feeling nervous. I was feeling lazy and sleepy.
Some girl comes behind me and gently punches me the back.
Me : Ohhh wah, who's that? Niyo!
She keeps walking
When I poke her belly, she laughs XD.
HOT customer looks at me. HB8.5 solid.
So she basically asks me for this kind of paper. I talk to her normally, though I look at her in the eyes like I want to make out with her pretty bad.
So I just keep the normal conversation, it's pretty innocent. Though, I hold eye contact for long at some point, and then she starts laughing for absolutely no reason.
Attraction was going on! Though her hot sister was here, and her father too. People were watching me. If I would've said that she was beautiful at this point, it could've been great.
Another pretty customer, HB8.
Her : Hey, can you help me with something?
Me : No.
I acted semi-serious, but had my little usual smile. She laughs her ass off XD.
Whatever, pussied out again from saying the compliment.
MAN, I JUST CAN'T DO IT WHEN I'M AT WORK. WHY!!!! ARGGHHH.
I'm just doing my thing, and then Niyo randomly passes by behind me.
I simply look at her, she smiles and laughs for no reason. Like, she's obviously following me LOL.
Me : Hey, you're following me!
Blablabla
So during the whole day I work and work and work. Til the end of day comes and we have to do the facing for the shop.
So I'm just doing my thing, then Niyo comes by and starts singing a song. She bumps into me, I touch her gently as she passes by.
Me : Calm down Niyo, you're way too excited! You're always excited when I'm here.
I'm attracted to her, but I'm not like crazy over her or anything like that. That's why I don't feel so needy for her. She's 7 or 7.5 in looks, though her flirtiness is what makes her hotter.
So Niyo's friend and Niyo want to go to some ice cream shop with everyone from work! They invited me, and I said that I was cool with that.
Though, I'm not quite sure when they'll be doing it. They might quit working at Staples sometimes this week or next week...
I didn't make my move. I felt bad afterwards!
So we were leaving work. Girls pass in front of me and I say bye to them. Niyo passes.
Me : Bye Niyo.
She gives me a wink. THERE YOU GO. She's into me. I pussied out for asking for her number because everyone was around.
So she leaves, I don't catch her up...
Conclusion
- Take opportunities as they come. Maybe you won't see that girl again before like a week or two? DO YOUR MOVE. This FR is a bad example lol.
- Girls start coming to me more and more. That's a great thing! It used to be the other way around, me chasing for girls the whole time.
What's coming up next
Working tomorrow for 10 hours. Time to say compliments to hot customers...
School starts Tuesday. Can't wait! It will kick some ass. I'll socialize with as much people as possible. I'll build a good social circle, attend some activities and join clubs. I'll also sign up for talent shows. I'll build up my popularity
Coolkid, thanks for support again! The all-ages party pretty much sucked, because there was no cool ambience and nobody was dancing pretty much...
Monday, August 27th
Work was pretty normal, nothing special.
As I said, I'm not reeling attracted to asian coworker anymore! I don't know, but I don't connect with her.
Though, I went to the mall for lunch!
I see a group of HB7.5s sitting, but ***** out.
I see that HB7.3 sitting with some kid, but I *****out again.
Then, I see those two asian girls eating. HB7s. I was eating peacefully, I stood up and saw them better.
Alright man, just go to the bathroom and when you come back, approach them!
So yeah, when I came back from the bathroom, I was pretending to look at the food from the food court... I wait for like 1-2 minutes.
Alright man, I gotta do something, right? Just go in, that's it. As soon as you start walking, you just gotta think of s...
Me : Hey! Are you guys English or French?
Girl 1 : Uhhhh... why?
Me : Because I though that you guys were cute and I had to come say hi.
Girls look at each other, smile a bit, don't even say thank you and they say something like sorry.
Me : You guys don't even say thank you?
Girl 1 : Well... thank you!
Blabla, 3 seconds later
Me : Ahhh you guys are boring!
I just eject there.
Man, girls that don't even say thank you? That's really retarded.
Though, I liked how I just went in even though I was still thinking in my head. I just stopped the process by going in.
Tuesday, August 28th
FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL! Damn.
So I socialized with MANY people. I don't even remember everyone's name I talked to.
This is EXPANDING SOCIAL CIRCLE! Picking up at school doesn't feel the same at all... I didn't try going direct yet, it's hard.
So yeah,
I woke up after 7 hours of sleep. Damn, I hate Staples that make me work until 11:40PM... So I wasn't in a high energy mood, obviously. I had days with little sleep many days in a row. Whatever!
So I get to school, a little late to class.
I enter the Philosophy class room. Damn, there's actually many pretty girls in that class!
I sit next to that pretty girl, but I ***** out from talking to her. Instead, I talk to that guy a bit. I get to know him, we exchange names. I don't remember his name though, but he seemed like a chill guy.
During break, I ask some random guy for directions. We end up talking for a bit, and we exchange names.
People are nice here!
So on the way to the cafeteria, I look at this girl. HB8!
I already had a little smile on my face, then she smiles at me. I return the smile.
A couple seconds later, turn to that random guy :
Me : Ohhh, that pretty girl just smiled at me!
Couldn't tell if she could hear me or not. Problem is, I don't notice how big the ****ing school is and how hard it'll be for me to see her again!
That's why I have to take opportunities as they come, especially in some big school like that. Also, I have to make a good first impression on the girls in my class and introduce myself to them as soon as possible.
So I get to the cafeteria, and I see that girl I saw from the orientation the other day. She's a 7, nothing so special about her in beauty. I introduced myself to her friends, got the names, but too much to remember... and names that are so not common! Sometimes exotic.
So yeah, then this guy looks at me.
Me : Sup?
Him : Not much, you?
I end up sitting next to him, we end up talking for a bit and it's quite fun.
Then, his friend (that I saw at the orientation day) comes in and they start talking a bit. I randomly join the conversation and tell them that they're sexy, then tell them that I was just kidding. They went silent, they were definitely feeling awkward.
Me : My next class is at ______
Guy : Ohhh, that's pretty far from here, it might take 10 minutes to get there.
Friend : Yeah.
Guy : Actually, 15 minutes.
Me : Is it that far? I went there already, it doesn't take so long.
Guy : No trust me, it'll take a while.
I felt like they wanted me to leave. Fck them. I don't really connect with them.
Get to Creative Writing class this time.
On the way, I saw some girls from my highschool. One was a little mad, because I didn't invite her to my party...
You know why I didn't invite her? Simply because I though that I wasn't friend enough with her... or I though that maybe she doesn't like me. Results? She thinks that I don't like her, and it gets weird when we have to meet again.
And that's why her friend didn't invite me to her party... my other friends all went to that party.
Me : Oh what? Didn't I invite you guys?
Her : No you didn't!
Me : I though I did!... blablabla, try to make up some dumb excuses.
Her friend, that didn't invite me to her party, looked away awkwardly and pulled off her cellphone as me and the girl was talking.
So I saw her again, we talked a bit more. Whatever, I'm not even attracted to them.
Another break!
I go to the lounge near the cafeteria again, and I see some guy with long hair. I sit down.
Me : Sup?
Him : Hmh?
Me : Sup
Him : Ohh, not much, you?
Blablabla. We talked for half an hour about movies and music. I guessed that he was into metal music by his looks. He asked for my number, I talked to his friend too.
It was time for me to leave, so I start putting stuff in my bag. Those two girls, HB7 and 5, come right next to me.
Me : Don't worry, I'm leaving to go get my books in a sec!
Blabla, not much was said. We still exchanged names, told them seeya.
So when I was done, I come back to the lounge and I see them again. This time, I sit down and we start talking a bit. They were in science, and I told them how I don't like it haha. Blablabla, nothing much.
I pass by my locker. I see that pretty girl looking at me. Ahhh, she was pretty for sure! HB7.5, even 8.
English class!
I arrive in, I ***** out from sitting right next to the pretty girls. Damn, I have a good amount of girls in my class! I sit right next to that guy and start off with What's up? Like I always do.
We talk for a good 10 minutes before the class starts.
Ends up that during the class, assignment is that we have communicate with people and get to know them! That's great.
So I wandered around, we were looking for things in common to write down on paper. Whatever, I exchanged names with a bunch of girls. They were really open most of the time. 6s to HB7.5s, though there's no really 8s and up in the class, though there's a lot of girls!
So we had to present one person outloud to class. I was feeling a little nervous on this one I'm not going to lie. I have troubles doing public speaking, especially in English for some reasons.
What changed about me, is that I'm actually louder in class now. I can say comments and make people laugh. I don't intend on making them laugh, it just goes out automatically! Sometimes I'm just like : Aghhh did I really did that? Haha
Then when I'm done, I get to the next class.
I just can't give myself the courage to approach in the hallway near the lockers, damn!
So yeah, I enter the class in advance and I don't see any pretty girls.
I sit right next to that guy, start introducing myself, we talk for a bit more.
Someone pokes me on the shoulder. I turn my head around, IT'S PROM GIRL?!
Yeah it was her! Though, I'm not attracted to her anymore. Trust me, I don't have any more feelings for her.
So yeah, class is pretty boring though...
Class is over, school is over!
I get back to my locker. I see that other random dude from my class and we start talking a bit again. We exchange names, I'm not quite sure I remember it...
Then, I see that 6 sitting by herself near my locker.
Me : Is that science?
Her : Yeah.
Me : Ohhhh, I don't like science haha!
Blablabla. She asks me questions, etc. We talk a bit. She's on her 3rd semester apparently. I always forget names... too many faces to remember!
At the bus, I see that 6.5 in front of me.
Me : Is that the line to get into the bus?
Her : Yeaah.
Me : Ohhh damn, we're going to be squeezed like... sponges.
Blablabla, we talk for a bit.
In the bus, we keep talking. I change from topic to topic, relating to other things. We talk for the whole ride.
Me : I want to aim to become that famous movie director.
Her : Yeah, when you become famous, all girls will be over you.
Me : Yeah like you!
Her : Not like me though
Me : Seeya!
Her : Bye!
Apparently she has a boyfriend though.
So yeah, I see some other random dude from my class! We do the usual talk like I did with other people. Blablabla, 10 minutes. I leave for bus.
Conclusion
- Getting social with everyone is a great thing to do.
- I have to flirt with pretty girls. I GOTTA DO IT MAN!!! Since the beginning, so I avoid friendzone. Though, friendzone is not always bad. You get to know more girls in their social circle which is good. Though, I gotta flirt more.
What's coming up next
- EVERY DAY of school, meet 1 or 2 new people at least. That'll be great. Of course, the first days of school that will be easy. It has to be a girl as much as possible.
- Next class, I'll sit right next to a pretty girl and introduce myself. Enough talking to guys... it's easy. Or at least, sit next to the guys that are high-value and seem social, get to know them.
Monday, August 27th
Work was pretty normal, nothing special.
As I said, I'm not reeling attracted to asian coworker anymore! I don't know, but I don't connect with her.
Though, I went to the mall for lunch!
I see a group of HB7.5s sitting, but ***** out.
I see that HB7.3 sitting with some kid, but I *****out again.
Then, I see those two asian girls eating. HB7s. I was eating peacefully, I stood up and saw them better.
Alright man, just go to the bathroom and when you come back, approach them!
So yeah, when I came back from the bathroom, I was pretending to look at the food from the food court... I wait for like 1-2 minutes.
Alright man, I gotta do something, right? Just go in, that's it. As soon as you start walking, you just gotta think of s...
Me : Hey! Are you guys English or French?
Girl 1 : Uhhhh... why?
Me : Because I though that you guys were cute and I had to come say hi.
Girls look at each other, smile a bit, don't even say thank you and they say something like sorry.
Me : You guys don't even say thank you?
Girl 1 : Well... thank you!
Blabla, 3 seconds later
Me : Ahhh you guys are boring!
I just eject there.
Man, girls that don't even say thank you? That's really retarded.
Though, I liked how I just went in even though I was still thinking in my head. I just stopped the process by going in.
Tuesday, August 28th
FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL! Damn.
So I socialized with MANY people. I don't even remember everyone's name I talked to.
This is EXPANDING SOCIAL CIRCLE! Picking up at school doesn't feel the same at all... I didn't try going direct yet, it's hard.
So yeah,
I woke up after 7 hours of sleep. Damn, I hate Staples that make me work until 11:40PM... So I wasn't in a high energy mood, obviously. I had days with little sleep many days in a row. Whatever!
So I get to school, a little late to class.
I enter the Philosophy class room. Damn, there's actually many pretty girls in that class!
I sit next to that pretty girl, but I ***** out from talking to her. Instead, I talk to that guy a bit. I get to know him, we exchange names. I don't remember his name though, but he seemed like a chill guy.
During break, I ask some random guy for directions. We end up talking for a bit, and we exchange names.
People are nice here!
So on the way to the cafeteria, I look at this girl. HB8!
I already had a little smile on my face, then she smiles at me. I return the smile.
A couple seconds later, turn to that random guy :
Me : Ohhh, that pretty girl just smiled at me!
Couldn't tell if she could hear me or not. Problem is, I don't notice how big the ****ing school is and how hard it'll be for me to see her again!
That's why I have to take opportunities as they come, especially in some big school like that. Also, I have to make a good first impression on the girls in my class and introduce myself to them as soon as possible.
So I get to the cafeteria, and I see that girl I saw from the orientation the other day. She's a 7, nothing so special about her in beauty. I introduced myself to her friends, got the names, but too much to remember... and names that are so not common! Sometimes exotic.
So yeah, then this guy looks at me.
Me : Sup?
Him : Not much, you?
I end up sitting next to him, we end up talking for a bit and it's quite fun.
Then, his friend (that I saw at the orientation day) comes in and they start talking a bit. I randomly join the conversation and tell them that they're sexy, then tell them that I was just kidding. They went silent, they were definitely feeling awkward.
Me : My next class is at ______
Guy : Ohhh, that's pretty far from here, it might take 10 minutes to get there.
Friend : Yeah.
Guy : Actually, 15 minutes.
Me : Is it that far? I went there already, it doesn't take so long.
Guy : No trust me, it'll take a while.
I felt like they wanted me to leave. Fck them. I don't really connect with them.
Get to Creative Writing class this time.
On the way, I saw some girls from my highschool. One was a little mad, because I didn't invite her to my party...
You know why I didn't invite her? Simply because I though that I wasn't friend enough with her... or I though that maybe she doesn't like me. Results? She thinks that I don't like her, and it gets weird when we have to meet again.
And that's why her friend didn't invite me to her party... my other friends all went to that party.
Me : Oh what? Didn't I invite you guys?
Her : No you didn't!
Me : I though I did!... blablabla, try to make up some dumb excuses.
Her friend, that didn't invite me to her party, looked away awkwardly and pulled off her cellphone as me and the girl was talking.
So I saw her again, we talked a bit more. Whatever, I'm not even attracted to them.
Another break!
I go to the lounge near the cafeteria again, and I see some guy with long hair. I sit down.
Me : Sup?
Him : Hmh?
Me : Sup
Him : Ohh, not much, you?
Blablabla. We talked for half an hour about movies and music. I guessed that he was into metal music by his looks. He asked for my number, I talked to his friend too.
It was time for me to leave, so I start putting stuff in my bag. Those two girls, HB7 and 5, come right next to me.
Me : Don't worry, I'm leaving to go get my books in a sec!
Blabla, not much was said. We still exchanged names, told them seeya.
So when I was done, I come back to the lounge and I see them again. This time, I sit down and we start talking a bit. They were in science, and I told them how I don't like it haha. Blablabla, nothing much.
I pass by my locker. I see that pretty girl looking at me. Ahhh, she was pretty for sure! HB7.5, even 8.
English class!
I arrive in, I ***** out from sitting right next to the pretty girls. Damn, I have a good amount of girls in my class! I sit right next to that guy and start off with What's up? Like I always do.
We talk for a good 10 minutes before the class starts.
Ends up that during the class, assignment is that we have communicate with people and get to know them! That's great.
So I wandered around, we were looking for things in common to write down on paper. Whatever, I exchanged names with a bunch of girls. They were really open most of the time. 6s to HB7.5s, though there's no really 8s and up in the class, though there's a lot of girls!
So we had to present one person outloud to class. I was feeling a little nervous on this one I'm not going to lie. I have troubles doing public speaking, especially in English for some reasons.
What changed about me, is that I'm actually louder in class now. I can say comments and make people laugh. I don't intend on making them laugh, it just goes out automatically! Sometimes I'm just like : Aghhh did I really did that? Haha
Then when I'm done, I get to the next class.
I just can't give myself the courage to approach in the hallway near the lockers, damn!
So yeah, I enter the class in advance and I don't see any pretty girls.
I sit right next to that guy, start introducing myself, we talk for a bit more.
Someone pokes me on the shoulder. I turn my head around, IT'S PROM GIRL?!
Yeah it was her! Though, I'm not attracted to her anymore. Trust me, I don't have any more feelings for her.
So yeah, class is pretty boring though...
Class is over, school is over!
I get back to my locker. I see that other random dude from my class and we start talking a bit again. We exchange names, I'm not quite sure I remember it...
Then, I see that 6 sitting by herself near my locker.
Me : Is that science?
Her : Yeah.
Me : Ohhhh, I don't like science haha!
Blablabla. She asks me questions, etc. We talk a bit. She's on her 3rd semester apparently. I always forget names... too many faces to remember!
At the bus, I see that 6.5 in front of me.
Me : Is that the line to get into the bus?
Her : Yeaah.
Me : Ohhh damn, we're going to be squeezed like... sponges.
Blablabla, we talk for a bit.
In the bus, we keep talking. I change from topic to topic, relating to other things. We talk for the whole ride.
Me : I want to aim to become that famous movie director.
Her : Yeah, when you become famous, all girls will be over you.
Me : Yeah like you!
Her : Not like me though
Me : Seeya!
Her : Bye!
Apparently she has a boyfriend though.
So yeah, I see some other random dude from my class! We do the usual talk like I did with other people. Blablabla, 10 minutes. I leave for bus.
Conclusion
- Getting social with everyone is a great thing to do.
- I have to flirt with pretty girls. I GOTTA DO IT MAN!!! Since the beginning, so I avoid friendzone. Though, friendzone is not always bad. You get to know more girls in their social circle which is good. Though, I gotta flirt more.
What's coming up next
- EVERY DAY of school, meet 1 or 2 new people at least. That'll be great. Of course, the first days of school that will be easy. It has to be a girl as much as possible.
- Next class, I'll sit right next to a pretty girl and introduce myself. Enough talking to guys... it's easy. Or at least, sit next to the guys that are high-value and seem social, get to know them.
Wednesday, August 29th
Girls are attracted to me.
Song of the day
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-c9JdQW45RI
So yeah,
Woke up tired again! 8h30 of sleep is not enough I guess.
Didn't take my coffee. Coffee boosts up heartbeat rate and it makes me more stressed.
I get to my locker, then I see my locker partner. He's a friend from high school, the kind of chode that would get rejected from people pretty often. People would make fun of him pretty often... though, I still though that he's a good guy and he doesn't deserve that. I have empathy for him.
Me : Argggh man!
Him : Ohhh what?
Me : Ahhh nothing. Actually, I want to approach this girl but I'm *****ing out.d
Him : Ohhhh, I see hahaha.
Blablabla
Him : Let's go.
Me : MHmhmhmh Alright.
Him : Why you not coming?
Me : Uhh I dunno haha
Man, you gotta approach that one girl that just arrived next to your locker. COME ON!
Him : Wait, where's your class at?
Me : At ____
Him : Ohhhh okay haha, well seeya then.
Me : Seeya!
So I just pull off my cellphone for a bit, start thinking. Man, I gotta approach that HB7.5, GO.
I could feel the lack of confidence when I was talking. I could feel my face getting tense...
Me : Hey, what's up?
Blablabla
Me : I though that you seemed like a cool person, so I just wanted to come say hi.
Her : Oh thank you, hi!
We exchange names.
She's feeling awkward too, just like me lol. This doesn't help. Of course, she's awkward because I am.
Me : I think that you're in one of my classes, right?
Her : Uhhh, I don't know...
Me : Hum...
Ahhh man, can't remember which class. Wait, what I said sounds kind of stalker-ish... fck it!
Me : Ohhh well whatever! I gotta go, seeya.
Her : Okay bye!
Uhhhh whatever! That was my warm up of the day, hahaha.
I remembered her name this time.
I leave and go upstairs for a while. I see that gamer guy I talked to the other day, and we chat for a bit.
When I get to class, I don't hesitate. I see that HB8, and sit right next to her.
Me : Hi!
Her : Hey!
Me : How's it going?
Blablabla
Me : I'm Mindgamez, what about you?
Her : HB8 (let's call her Lychee because her name sounds like lychee)
Blablabla. When she tells me that she likes eating lychee, I give her a high five.
She lives in my town! I give her a high five again for that.
She had a sexy smile, eyes, and her make up was pretty well done.
Me : You study filmmaking?
Her : No
Me : Ahhhh you suck!
Her : What?
Me : You suck!
Her : Ohhh XD
Me : But I still like you
Her : Ohhh okay
Me : But you still suck, sorry
Her : Hahaha that's fine
It was playful.
So when the class is over, we talk again. Though when she stood up, I noticed that she was chubbier than I though hahaha. Went down to 7.5, but not that chubby. We get into that narrow hallway so our shoulders touch. She seemed a bit awkward, and she started walking faster in front of me. Told her goodbye and I left my way.
On break!
I introduce myself to that girl, friend of a girl from high school. We exchange names, questions, for like a couple seconds. Didn't remember her name.
So on my way to my locker, I see that girl from work, 7.5, with some pretty hot chick, the kind of hotness that intimidates me.
So yeah. I introduce myself to her, and don't really talk so much and stand awkwardly. They talk to each other about that guy. She's definitely into him.
Damn. I didn't even notice that I opened and closed my bottle like 3 times already. I must be nervous...
Whatever, we talk for a bit but not for long. Nice people, though I wasn't feeling confident around them...
Didn't remember her name either!
Man, I love long breaks, because it's the perfect time to go to the lounge and talk to some random people.
So I meet with the gamer guy again. I then see some asian guy sitting right next to me. LOL he looked like the typical asian nerd! He had a polo with all buttons attached, the glasses, the brown shorts. He was awkward at first when I opened up and I could feel that he was a bit uncomfortable. Though, as we started talking more and more, I noticed that he was getting more and more open. I remember his name
Ahhh I keep meeting with the gamers and nerds all the time! Whatever, I'm still talking to people so that's nice.
So he has to go. The other gamer dude too! So I open up my lunch box, ***** out from approaching that girl that seems pretty busy,
So I just go and sit right next to that guy.
Me : Hey, I'm just going to sit here for fun. You don't mind?
Him : No that's fine.
So we end up talking about like 10-20 minutes about things like games, classes, etc.
Him : You know, that's a really good thing that you can talk to anyone like that.
He told me that he has a friend that can literally talk to anybody, no matter if on the bus or at school, or on the street. People are very open.
This other girl comes in, HB7 from far, but she then turned 6 when I saw her from close...
We keep chatting and everything. The guy number closes the girl, and asks for my number too. We all exchange numbers and I leave my way.
I'm good to initially approach random people, but continuing the conversation is my little problem.
On the way out, I see some people from my high school. 6.5s, but I was feeling like my old self again when I was talking to them, strangely...
Whatever!
So I get to my filmmaking class. My DREAM class. Man, I love filmmaking to death holy ****.
On the way to class, I see the metalhead from yesterday. I present myself to his 2 friends, that seem socially awkward.
Asian guy (THAT REMINDS ME OF KONG!) : It feels so awkward sometimes to talk to random people. Nobody knows anybody...
Me : Oh you know, just be very open to people and people will be open in return. It's quite fun actually! Alright guys, I gotta go, seeya next time!
Asian guy : Seeya man, nice meeting you.
He gave me a pat on the back. Even though he seemed pretty awkward, he still seemed friendly. These days, I'm starting to feel empathy for people that are less confident. I totally understand what he's feeling. True that making new friends in a big school like that takes time.
So I get in the class. It's full with like 30 people, the class didn't start yet. Though, it's completely silent...
I arrive, sit right next to that random dude. Didn't see any pretty girls in sight. Maybe 7s, but I didn't sit next to them.
Me : Hey, how's it going?
Him : Good you?
Me : Yeah. Why is the class so silent?
Him : Hum... I have no idea.
Realized that this dude was pretty awkward socially. He knew people could hear him, and I knew that too but wasn't affected by it. Good thing.
So we just had a regular conversation, the whole class could listen to us LOL. So then, people started talking after like 30 seconds. I made the class comfortable.
So yeah. I participated a lot to class this day.
Noticed that cute girl on my left. A good 7, or 7.5. She seems like a pretty dynamic and social person just by the way she participates in class. I gotta make friends with her and work with her!
So when the class's over, I want to talk to her again, but she goes out too fast haha. Whatever, I just head up to the bus.
I get out. Who do I see? That girl from the bus again! You know that 6.5?
She had a bright smile, I was in a good mood too so we just started talking. I was walking in that direction and she walked next to me.
I ask her where she's going, and that she's on break and not really going anywhere so she wants to walk with me. That's cool, girls start chasing me.
So she pretty much follows me to where I have to go. We talk during the whole walk, like 15 minutes. When we get inside the building, she removes her glasses.
She turned into a 7.3!
Me : Oh wow, it's actually my first time seeing your face completely!
Her : Ohh really?
Me : Yeah, you always had your glasses on before!
It's so much better, because now I get to see the emotions going through her head in her eyes. When I was talking to her, her eyes would dart around a lot between my eyes. She was a bit nervous.
We would look at each other for no reason, laugh. I was feeling somehow attracted to her, though she's not that attractive. That's why I didn't feel like going for her.
So apparently she has a boyfriend, but I don't really care. She seems interested anyway lol.
So I get into the bus. I see that 6.5 from work again. She offers me a cookie I catch those 2 girls looking at me couple of times, but the young look on their faces turned me off. They were in cegep though.
I tell that girl from work that I might quit work. She seems a bit disappointed, and she's worried that we won't see each other as often as before. I reassure her again.
Truth is, even though the people I meet are good people, I feel no neediness towards them.
Like RSD said, guys draw state from within. It doesn't come from the outside world.
Conclusion
- I gotta be more comfortable around hotter girls. I gotta let my personality flow and I have to allow myself to feel confident.
- People are always open. GO TALK TO NEW PEOPLE!
What's coming up next
School again tomorrow. Same classes from first day, but this time...
I SIT NEXT TO HOT GIRLS. I just gotta do it man, like I did today with that girl on the first class. Maybe sit next to that girl I opened near the lockers?
It's good to open guys, but I gotta open cool high status guys too. I always end up talking to the nerdier type of people. Let's talk to cool guys.
Girls are attracted to me.
Song of the day
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-c9JdQW45RI
So yeah,
Woke up tired again! 8h30 of sleep is not enough I guess.
Didn't take my coffee. Coffee boosts up heartbeat rate and it makes me more stressed.
I get to my locker, then I see my locker partner. He's a friend from high school, the kind of chode that would get rejected from people pretty often. People would make fun of him pretty often... though, I still though that he's a good guy and he doesn't deserve that. I have empathy for him.
Me : Argggh man!
Him : Ohhh what?
Me : Ahhh nothing. Actually, I want to approach this girl but I'm *****ing out.d
Him : Ohhhh, I see hahaha.
Blablabla
Him : Let's go.
Me : MHmhmhmh Alright.
Him : Why you not coming?
Me : Uhh I dunno haha
Man, you gotta approach that one girl that just arrived next to your locker. COME ON!
Him : Wait, where's your class at?
Me : At ____
Him : Ohhhh okay haha, well seeya then.
Me : Seeya!
So I just pull off my cellphone for a bit, start thinking. Man, I gotta approach that HB7.5, GO.
I could feel the lack of confidence when I was talking. I could feel my face getting tense...
Me : Hey, what's up?
Blablabla
Me : I though that you seemed like a cool person, so I just wanted to come say hi.
Her : Oh thank you, hi!
We exchange names.
She's feeling awkward too, just like me lol. This doesn't help. Of course, she's awkward because I am.
Me : I think that you're in one of my classes, right?
Her : Uhhh, I don't know...
Me : Hum...
Ahhh man, can't remember which class. Wait, what I said sounds kind of stalker-ish... fck it!
Me : Ohhh well whatever! I gotta go, seeya.
Her : Okay bye!
Uhhhh whatever! That was my warm up of the day, hahaha.
I remembered her name this time.
I leave and go upstairs for a while. I see that gamer guy I talked to the other day, and we chat for a bit.
When I get to class, I don't hesitate. I see that HB8, and sit right next to her.
Me : Hi!
Her : Hey!
Me : How's it going?
Blablabla
Me : I'm Mindgamez, what about you?
Her : HB8 (let's call her Lychee because her name sounds like lychee)
Blablabla. When she tells me that she likes eating lychee, I give her a high five.
She lives in my town! I give her a high five again for that.
She had a sexy smile, eyes, and her make up was pretty well done.
Me : You study filmmaking?
Her : No
Me : Ahhhh you suck!
Her : What?
Me : You suck!
Her : Ohhh XD
Me : But I still like you
Her : Ohhh okay
Me : But you still suck, sorry
Her : Hahaha that's fine
It was playful.
So when the class is over, we talk again. Though when she stood up, I noticed that she was chubbier than I though hahaha. Went down to 7.5, but not that chubby. We get into that narrow hallway so our shoulders touch. She seemed a bit awkward, and she started walking faster in front of me. Told her goodbye and I left my way.
On break!
I introduce myself to that girl, friend of a girl from high school. We exchange names, questions, for like a couple seconds. Didn't remember her name.
So on my way to my locker, I see that girl from work, 7.5, with some pretty hot chick, the kind of hotness that intimidates me.
So yeah. I introduce myself to her, and don't really talk so much and stand awkwardly. They talk to each other about that guy. She's definitely into him.
Damn. I didn't even notice that I opened and closed my bottle like 3 times already. I must be nervous...
Whatever, we talk for a bit but not for long. Nice people, though I wasn't feeling confident around them...
Didn't remember her name either!
Man, I love long breaks, because it's the perfect time to go to the lounge and talk to some random people.
So I meet with the gamer guy again. I then see some asian guy sitting right next to me. LOL he looked like the typical asian nerd! He had a polo with all buttons attached, the glasses, the brown shorts. He was awkward at first when I opened up and I could feel that he was a bit uncomfortable. Though, as we started talking more and more, I noticed that he was getting more and more open. I remember his name
Ahhh I keep meeting with the gamers and nerds all the time! Whatever, I'm still talking to people so that's nice.
So he has to go. The other gamer dude too! So I open up my lunch box, ***** out from approaching that girl that seems pretty busy,
So I just go and sit right next to that guy.
Me : Hey, I'm just going to sit here for fun. You don't mind?
Him : No that's fine.
So we end up talking about like 10-20 minutes about things like games, classes, etc.
Him : You know, that's a really good thing that you can talk to anyone like that.
He told me that he has a friend that can literally talk to anybody, no matter if on the bus or at school, or on the street. People are very open.
This other girl comes in, HB7 from far, but she then turned 6 when I saw her from close...
We keep chatting and everything. The guy number closes the girl, and asks for my number too. We all exchange numbers and I leave my way.
I'm good to initially approach random people, but continuing the conversation is my little problem.
On the way out, I see some people from my high school. 6.5s, but I was feeling like my old self again when I was talking to them, strangely...
Whatever!
So I get to my filmmaking class. My DREAM class. Man, I love filmmaking to death holy ****.
On the way to class, I see the metalhead from yesterday. I present myself to his 2 friends, that seem socially awkward.
Asian guy (THAT REMINDS ME OF KONG!) : It feels so awkward sometimes to talk to random people. Nobody knows anybody...
Me : Oh you know, just be very open to people and people will be open in return. It's quite fun actually! Alright guys, I gotta go, seeya next time!
Asian guy : Seeya man, nice meeting you.
He gave me a pat on the back. Even though he seemed pretty awkward, he still seemed friendly. These days, I'm starting to feel empathy for people that are less confident. I totally understand what he's feeling. True that making new friends in a big school like that takes time.
So I get in the class. It's full with like 30 people, the class didn't start yet. Though, it's completely silent...
I arrive, sit right next to that random dude. Didn't see any pretty girls in sight. Maybe 7s, but I didn't sit next to them.
Me : Hey, how's it going?
Him : Good you?
Me : Yeah. Why is the class so silent?
Him : Hum... I have no idea.
Realized that this dude was pretty awkward socially. He knew people could hear him, and I knew that too but wasn't affected by it. Good thing.
So we just had a regular conversation, the whole class could listen to us LOL. So then, people started talking after like 30 seconds. I made the class comfortable.
So yeah. I participated a lot to class this day.
Noticed that cute girl on my left. A good 7, or 7.5. She seems like a pretty dynamic and social person just by the way she participates in class. I gotta make friends with her and work with her!
So when the class's over, I want to talk to her again, but she goes out too fast haha. Whatever, I just head up to the bus.
I get out. Who do I see? That girl from the bus again! You know that 6.5?
She had a bright smile, I was in a good mood too so we just started talking. I was walking in that direction and she walked next to me.
I ask her where she's going, and that she's on break and not really going anywhere so she wants to walk with me. That's cool, girls start chasing me.
So she pretty much follows me to where I have to go. We talk during the whole walk, like 15 minutes. When we get inside the building, she removes her glasses.
She turned into a 7.3!
Me : Oh wow, it's actually my first time seeing your face completely!
Her : Ohh really?
Me : Yeah, you always had your glasses on before!
It's so much better, because now I get to see the emotions going through her head in her eyes. When I was talking to her, her eyes would dart around a lot between my eyes. She was a bit nervous.
We would look at each other for no reason, laugh. I was feeling somehow attracted to her, though she's not that attractive. That's why I didn't feel like going for her.
So apparently she has a boyfriend, but I don't really care. She seems interested anyway lol.
So I get into the bus. I see that 6.5 from work again. She offers me a cookie
I catch those 2 girls looking at me couple of times, but the young look on their faces turned me off. They were in cegep though.I tell that girl from work that I might quit work. She seems a bit disappointed, and she's worried that we won't see each other as often as before. I reassure her again.
Truth is, even though the people I meet are good people, I feel no neediness towards them.
Like RSD said, guys draw state from within. It doesn't come from the outside world.
Conclusion
- I gotta be more comfortable around hotter girls. I gotta let my personality flow and I have to allow myself to feel confident.
- People are always open. GO TALK TO NEW PEOPLE!
What's coming up next
School again tomorrow. Same classes from first day, but this time...
I SIT NEXT TO HOT GIRLS. I just gotta do it man, like I did today with that girl on the first class. Maybe sit next to that girl I opened near the lockers?
It's good to open guys, but I gotta open cool high status guys too. I always end up talking to the nerdier type of people. Let's talk to cool guys.
Thursday, August 30th
I'm going to keep this short. I have to sleep better tonight...
Good day! Good and bads, but can't quite tell.
So yeah,
I just can't catch up on my sleep... whatever.
Sat right next to girls at class this time! Yeep, introduced myself to new girls I didn't know before.
First class, I sat next to that guy that seemed pretty cool. I pussied out from sitting next to girls... though I made new friends with him.
One HB8, and she was talking pretty fast and a bit quiet so I couldn't understand everything she said. She seemed pretty open and she was receptive. She smiled a lot, she was hot. She waited for me before leaving the class, we chatted a bit more.
Then later that day, I see her walk by but with a VERY TALL guy. I got intimidated, and I pussied out from even saying hello to her. She wasn't looking in my direction, she kept walking straight. Why am I so intimidated by other guys that are bigger and taller than me? There's no way they'll hurt me or anything.
During break, I make friends with a group of mexican people. Some girl in their group invite me to go to the cafeteria with them. I refuse, because I gotta get to my class on time!
Next break, I see prom girl at the lounge. I talk to her for a bit, but the seat next to her was taken so I sit next to that 7.3. I notice her ninja turtle shirt and I call her up on it. I ask her if she's a metalhead because of her piercings, but she isn't. I just keep eating and I wait prom gurl to finish reading my story I wrote for class.
So then, that random fat girl comes over, I say bye to her... I recognize her! So then she does the ****block... GUYS HOW TO DEAL WITH THAT ****.
Her : Hey, you should stop playing games, you're bad at it.
Me : What games are you talking about?...
Her : Games with her!
Me : What do you mean, games?!
The girl I talked to leaves the lounge for some reason.
Her : You were flirting with her! That's not how you do it!
Me : How come I was flirting? I just told her that she had a nice shirt!
Her : Yeaah that's it! Niiiiiice shirt!
Me : Oh wooow -____-...
You know what? Truth is I had no intentions to flirt with her. She wasn't that hot. And that fat girl wasn't close to be pretty. Maybe because she never gets hit on, so she assumes that just talking to some girl randomly is flirting...?
Her : Yeah, we'll teach you how to hit on girls! That's not how you do it!
Pffft... she's retarded.
I don't know why I get affected by this. Whatever, my game is my game. I play it how I want to.
Oh, and you know what? One of my friends actually told prom gurl about my first ever pickup attempt back in the day. I can't believe he actually told it to her. Maybe he was afraid that I'd get along with her (he liked her too I think) so he did it as ****block? I'm just overanalyzing. Prom gurl isn't appealing to me anymore anyway.
So at the lounge, I see that girl, the friend of a coworker at work. You know the girl that was talking about that guy she has a crush on? Well, I just opened up to her, talked to her a bit. She's actually pretty open. I like 1 on 1 conversations, because you get to connect better with that one person. I just had 2 minutes, before I get late to class... So yeah, we exchange goodbyes.
So I see the girl from the bus again near the lockers! I talk to them a bit, introduce myself to her friend, then I gotta go. She tells me to come back, but I'm just like : Nooo I really gotta go, next time. And then she doesn't say anything and lets me go. She's not really hot, whatever.
In class, I sit right next to that very pretty girl. HB8.5, but I ***** out COMPLETELY from even saying a word to her. We had 5-10 minutes before the class started. Could've talked to her... So then we had some little essay to do, and we weren't allowed to talk. So yeah... This sucked.
So yeah, sat right next to those HB7s in Humanities class. The one I was sitting right next to was responsive and cool. I teased sometimes left and right, touch her a bit. Though, I was feeling unconfident when the bell rang. I just let them go and say : Well it was nice meeting you guys! I could've continued on and try and close.
Near my locker, I make friends with some metalhead, and then I chat with some HB7.2 right next to me. We talk for a bit, she asks for my name, we talk for a bit. She's pretty open and receptive! Seems like she's the one doing the job haha. Apparently it's her 2nd or 3rd semester, can't remember.
On the bus, some guy asks me about the bus. Blablabla.
I ask him about where's the gym at, and he tells me about it. We have a conversation about work out for a bit, and he asks me for my facebook after we exchanged names. I met 2 more of his cool friends.
I have to hang out with guys that are social and positive. I have to hang out with motivated people that train hard to achieve results! He likes to work out, which is great. He's social too, I could tell by how he talked to my friend of mine.
He suggested to be my personal trainer kind of, just to show me the basics of working out.
That friend was a girl I had a crush on a looong time ago. We talked for a bit, she's an old friend. Though, she has a boyfriend and it's been 2 years and a half! No way I'm stealing from that guy. She's 7.5, pretty beautiful.
So in the bus, I see that HB8.5. Ohhh wow she was hot.
Then as she unties her hair, my **** got super hard. She turned HB9.
GUYS, THE EFFECT OF NOFAP! 18 DAYS, NO FAPPING, NO EDGING, NO PORN.
You get hard when you see a sexy smile. It's crazy guys, try it out! You get those intense horny moments.
Though, I completely pussied out from approaching her. Daammnn she was perfect... holy crap... I could've talked to her!
Conclusion
- My problem is that even though I talk to people left and right, I never take the time to close. I don't make solid friendships, more like acquaintances. Whatever, there's a first step to anything! Cool friends start with a simple hello.
- I GOTTA FLIRT. I DON'T FLIRT! And that fatty isn't right. Saying a girl that she has a nice shirt isn't flirting. It's indirect stuff...
- I have to approach cool girls and cool guys.
What's coming up next
Expect a number close tomorrow. I can do it!
Socializing at school is very fun. People are usually very open, guys and girls. Just be cool, they'll be cool too. Tease around, be yourself.
If you want, just start off indirect and transition to asking more personal details. It's a great thing, and I'm glad that I learned pick up this summer!
OH YEAH.
I'm going to keep this short. I have to sleep better tonight...
Good day! Good and bads, but can't quite tell.
So yeah,
I just can't catch up on my sleep... whatever.
Sat right next to girls at class this time! Yeep, introduced myself to new girls I didn't know before.
First class, I sat next to that guy that seemed pretty cool. I pussied out from sitting next to girls... though I made new friends with him.
One HB8, and she was talking pretty fast and a bit quiet so I couldn't understand everything she said. She seemed pretty open and she was receptive. She smiled a lot, she was hot. She waited for me before leaving the class, we chatted a bit more.
Then later that day, I see her walk by but with a VERY TALL guy. I got intimidated, and I pussied out from even saying hello to her. She wasn't looking in my direction, she kept walking straight. Why am I so intimidated by other guys that are bigger and taller than me? There's no way they'll hurt me or anything.
During break, I make friends with a group of mexican people. Some girl in their group invite me to go to the cafeteria with them. I refuse, because I gotta get to my class on time!
Next break, I see prom girl at the lounge. I talk to her for a bit, but the seat next to her was taken so I sit next to that 7.3. I notice her ninja turtle shirt and I call her up on it. I ask her if she's a metalhead because of her piercings, but she isn't. I just keep eating and I wait prom gurl to finish reading my story I wrote for class.
So then, that random fat girl comes over, I say bye to her... I recognize her! So then she does the ****block... GUYS HOW TO DEAL WITH THAT ****.
Her : Hey, you should stop playing games, you're bad at it.
Me : What games are you talking about?...
Her : Games with her!
Me : What do you mean, games?!
The girl I talked to leaves the lounge for some reason.
Her : You were flirting with her! That's not how you do it!
Me : How come I was flirting? I just told her that she had a nice shirt!
Her : Yeaah that's it! Niiiiiice shirt!
Me : Oh wooow -____-...
You know what? Truth is I had no intentions to flirt with her. She wasn't that hot. And that fat girl wasn't close to be pretty. Maybe because she never gets hit on, so she assumes that just talking to some girl randomly is flirting...?
Her : Yeah, we'll teach you how to hit on girls! That's not how you do it!
Pffft... she's retarded.
I don't know why I get affected by this. Whatever, my game is my game. I play it how I want to.
Oh, and you know what? One of my friends actually told prom gurl about my first ever pickup attempt back in the day. I can't believe he actually told it to her. Maybe he was afraid that I'd get along with her (he liked her too I think) so he did it as ****block? I'm just overanalyzing. Prom gurl isn't appealing to me anymore anyway.
So at the lounge, I see that girl, the friend of a coworker at work. You know the girl that was talking about that guy she has a crush on? Well, I just opened up to her, talked to her a bit. She's actually pretty open. I like 1 on 1 conversations, because you get to connect better with that one person. I just had 2 minutes, before I get late to class... So yeah, we exchange goodbyes.
So I see the girl from the bus again near the lockers! I talk to them a bit, introduce myself to her friend, then I gotta go. She tells me to come back, but I'm just like : Nooo I really gotta go, next time. And then she doesn't say anything and lets me go. She's not really hot, whatever.
In class, I sit right next to that very pretty girl. HB8.5, but I ***** out COMPLETELY from even saying a word to her. We had 5-10 minutes before the class started. Could've talked to her... So then we had some little essay to do, and we weren't allowed to talk. So yeah... This sucked.
So yeah, sat right next to those HB7s in Humanities class. The one I was sitting right next to was responsive and cool. I teased sometimes left and right, touch her a bit. Though, I was feeling unconfident when the bell rang. I just let them go and say : Well it was nice meeting you guys! I could've continued on and try and close.
Near my locker, I make friends with some metalhead, and then I chat with some HB7.2 right next to me. We talk for a bit, she asks for my name, we talk for a bit. She's pretty open and receptive! Seems like she's the one doing the job haha. Apparently it's her 2nd or 3rd semester, can't remember.
On the bus, some guy asks me about the bus. Blablabla.
I ask him about where's the gym at, and he tells me about it. We have a conversation about work out for a bit, and he asks me for my facebook after we exchanged names. I met 2 more of his cool friends.
I have to hang out with guys that are social and positive. I have to hang out with motivated people that train hard to achieve results! He likes to work out, which is great. He's social too, I could tell by how he talked to my friend of mine.
He suggested to be my personal trainer kind of, just to show me the basics of working out.
That friend was a girl I had a crush on a looong time ago. We talked for a bit, she's an old friend. Though, she has a boyfriend and it's been 2 years and a half! No way I'm stealing from that guy. She's 7.5, pretty beautiful.
So in the bus, I see that HB8.5. Ohhh wow she was hot.
Then as she unties her hair, my **** got super hard. She turned HB9.
GUYS, THE EFFECT OF NOFAP! 18 DAYS, NO FAPPING, NO EDGING, NO PORN.
You get hard when you see a sexy smile. It's crazy guys, try it out! You get those intense horny moments.
Though, I completely pussied out from approaching her. Daammnn she was perfect... holy crap... I could've talked to her!
Conclusion
- My problem is that even though I talk to people left and right, I never take the time to close. I don't make solid friendships, more like acquaintances. Whatever, there's a first step to anything! Cool friends start with a simple hello.
- I GOTTA FLIRT. I DON'T FLIRT! And that fatty isn't right. Saying a girl that she has a nice shirt isn't flirting. It's indirect stuff...
- I have to approach cool girls and cool guys.
What's coming up next
Expect a number close tomorrow. I can do it!
Socializing at school is very fun. People are usually very open, guys and girls. Just be cool, they'll be cool too. Tease around, be yourself.
If you want, just start off indirect and transition to asking more personal details. It's a great thing, and I'm glad that I learned pick up this summer!
OH YEAH.
LearningSlowly
Master Don Juan
Flirting is under the table. I sat next to a girl at a table full of people talking. I talked with them, and I handed her my phone with her name, Mary, written in as a new contact. She gave me her number. I text her.
Me:hey it's josh.
A couple minutes later. Me:hey guess what
Her: what
Me:were basically passing notes
Her: we're cool cats
Me: I like dogs better. Do you have any dogs?
Her: yeah I have a corgi. How about you?
Me: yeah two of them. One is a pitbull beagle mix. Always wants to play.
Her: and what kind is the other one?
Me: black lab. I like you, you're cute.
She never replied, but I saw this little smile in her eye. A little later turns out she has a boyfriend. When I saw her today, she have me the most sexually charged look.
I gave her my approval "I like you" after getting to know her and creating a passing notes fantasy. I think that attempt was my best example of flirting at college so far.
Me:hey it's josh.
A couple minutes later. Me:hey guess what
Her: what
Me:were basically passing notes
Her: we're cool cats
Me: I like dogs better. Do you have any dogs?
Her: yeah I have a corgi. How about you?
Me: yeah two of them. One is a pitbull beagle mix. Always wants to play.
Her: and what kind is the other one?
Me: black lab. I like you, you're cute.
She never replied, but I saw this little smile in her eye. A little later turns out she has a boyfriend. When I saw her today, she have me the most sexually charged look.
I gave her my approval "I like you" after getting to know her and creating a passing notes fantasy. I think that attempt was my best example of flirting at college so far.
That's nice maaan.
Though I'd rather listen to the teacher than pass notes. Or I could still do it but very simple messages just to let her know that things are cool. I could try it out
Friday, August 31st
Number close, yeeep.
So yeah,
Fcking tired again... I'm really accumulating a lack of sleep. I'm going to keep this short and go to sleep early today.
So yeah, sat behind Lychee during the first class. We exchanged hellos, and then I talked to that other guy that was sitting next to me.
Near the end of the class, I was getting nervous a bit for some reasons, and I pussied out from asking for her number... Though, we walked a bit together for a while and we continued chatting. Though, we ended up going separate ways.
Then I had 3 HOURS! of break. Which is pretty long, but that's alright.
I went to the lounge, and saw prom girl. Talked to her for a bit, then I sat next to that HB7.5 girl.
We talked for like 20-30 minutes straight. She was the one asking me multiple questions and she was pretty much engaging the conversation a lot. She seemed a bit nervous and I could tell by how she was spinning her phone on the table and moving on her chair (or she was just bored?)
So yeah, I admitted that I came to talk to her because I though that she was pretty cute. YEAH, TRANSITIONED TO DIRECT FINALLY.
I told her about how I was passionate about filmmaking. Realized that when you're immersed into something, that other person will listen to you and will be interested as well. She guesses that I'm a adventurous person, which is right.
I love challenges and I love to push my limits.
Blablabla. Before she goes, I tell her that we should exchange numbers to talk again later.
Her : If you want
Me : If I want? It's you that wants to!
so yeah, I type in her name in my phone.
Her : What's your number?
So she adds me, texts me right away with Hey
We exchange goodbyes. That's pretty much it!
It wasn't really flirting too much, but a lot more of just building comfort and just talking about different interests.
She had beautiful eyes. I like when you just look in an attracted at the girl and she just goes : What? with a smile.
So yeah. Later the day, I meet with my AFC locker partner and we eat together. I ask him if he wants to join a table of random people, and he disagrees telling me that it would be awkward.
So yeah, later during lunch time, I see my coworkers (cool guys) come with 3 girls at our table. My AFC friend doesn't say A WORD...
Whatever. I introduce myself to the girls. They don't seem so eager, just normal. I even felt some ***** shield going up since the beginning. Just by the look on their faces. Guess that I get affected too easily... I'm always a bit nervous when talking to new girls, but I just keep pushing and pushing. Whatever, I'll just keep doing it until it goes away.
So I just eject with locker partner that shows me where the gym is.
It's filled with beef guys that look like the typical douchebags! I want to look muscular like a douchebag too.
I'll start working out next week. Every 2 days or so after school or during break, I'll workout. I have to get my habits right and stop wasting so much time on the computer...
And I'll read every day too. And dance too.
So yeah. Just before class, I talk to that group of 2 girls. A 6 and 7. They seem pretty open and cool.
Though, I notice that girls stop paying attention to what you say when you're being nervous. They almost don't hear you sometimes... RAS doesn't even see you sometimes.
Whatever!
So I get into the bus, and I see the girl that was hitting on me at Staples, AGAIN. She was with her friend 7.5. She had a boyfriend, too bad.
Though, there was still some flirting going on and it was light and fun. She would look at me and smile when I'd say flirty things.
Though, I was starting to get into my head as my coworker friend joined the convo. He was the one initiating the conversation and asking multiple questions to that 7.5. He didn't care about the fact that she had a boyfriend. He was still friendly, totally natural and cool. He managed to ask for their numbers, they were totally fine with that.
Me : Hey man, do I have you number?
Him : No you don't
Me : Oh well, let's exchange numbers then!
Him : Nooo man you ain't getting my number!
He had a smile on his face, but I couldn't quite tell if he was serious or not haha. Maybe was he only on a rush? I can't quite tell, but whatever.
So yeah... when he leaves, it's my chody self going back again... I feel totally unconfident and I just hear them talking pretty much. I just stand in front of them.
So when we leave the bus, I ask them which bus they're taking, almost stuttering. Guhh it was terrible. Girl that was hitting on me at Staples tells me that she has to go. I say goodbye to them.
I pull out my water bottle from my bag.
Refreshing. Whatever, just brush it off. Brush it off man.
I wasn't thinking of anything. Or at least, I was trying.
This is the process. I might get good or bad days along the way, but I'm fine with that. Who the fck cares?
I get in line for my bus. The girl was actually taking the same bus as me LOL (she's a 6 btw).
She decided to sit to that seat further from me. I call her up on it, but she stays where she's at. We don't talk again.
Whatever!
On the way back home, I start over-analysing what happened in the bus. I wasn't feeling good about this. Negative thought loops.
Tried to meditate and empty my mind as I was walking back home. Listened to this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GGlTQen-CnQ
Conclusion
I noticed myself thinking that I wasn't good enough. That other guys from the school are better, more social, more natural, more confident, and better looking. Truth is that those limitations I give to myself aren't helping me at all. These are not limitations, but obstacles and challenges to overcome.
What if the path to success was easy? It would be boring and there would be no adventure. I have to embrace that adventure. She said it. I'm an adventurous person and I love pushing myself to my limits. Why allow myself to fear fear itself?
Fear is my friend.
I welcome you.
Any day.
Any night.
Let's walk this path together.
Though I'd rather listen to the teacher than pass notes. Or I could still do it but very simple messages just to let her know that things are cool. I could try it out
Friday, August 31st
Number close, yeeep.
So yeah,
Fcking tired again... I'm really accumulating a lack of sleep. I'm going to keep this short and go to sleep early today.
So yeah, sat behind Lychee during the first class. We exchanged hellos, and then I talked to that other guy that was sitting next to me.
Near the end of the class, I was getting nervous a bit for some reasons, and I pussied out from asking for her number... Though, we walked a bit together for a while and we continued chatting. Though, we ended up going separate ways.
Then I had 3 HOURS! of break. Which is pretty long, but that's alright.
I went to the lounge, and saw prom girl. Talked to her for a bit, then I sat next to that HB7.5 girl.
We talked for like 20-30 minutes straight. She was the one asking me multiple questions and she was pretty much engaging the conversation a lot. She seemed a bit nervous and I could tell by how she was spinning her phone on the table and moving on her chair (or she was just bored?)
So yeah, I admitted that I came to talk to her because I though that she was pretty cute. YEAH, TRANSITIONED TO DIRECT FINALLY.
I told her about how I was passionate about filmmaking. Realized that when you're immersed into something, that other person will listen to you and will be interested as well. She guesses that I'm a adventurous person, which is right.
I love challenges and I love to push my limits.
Blablabla. Before she goes, I tell her that we should exchange numbers to talk again later.
Her : If you want
Me : If I want? It's you that wants to!
so yeah, I type in her name in my phone.
Her : What's your number?
So she adds me, texts me right away with Hey
We exchange goodbyes. That's pretty much it!
It wasn't really flirting too much, but a lot more of just building comfort and just talking about different interests.
She had beautiful eyes. I like when you just look in an attracted at the girl and she just goes : What? with a smile.
What to text back? Should I call her?Her : Heu
Her : Hey
Me : Yannick in the place! Keep this number with care
So yeah. Later the day, I meet with my AFC locker partner and we eat together. I ask him if he wants to join a table of random people, and he disagrees telling me that it would be awkward.
So yeah, later during lunch time, I see my coworkers (cool guys) come with 3 girls at our table. My AFC friend doesn't say A WORD...
Whatever. I introduce myself to the girls. They don't seem so eager, just normal. I even felt some ***** shield going up since the beginning. Just by the look on their faces. Guess that I get affected too easily... I'm always a bit nervous when talking to new girls, but I just keep pushing and pushing. Whatever, I'll just keep doing it until it goes away.
So I just eject with locker partner that shows me where the gym is.
It's filled with beef guys that look like the typical douchebags! I want to look muscular like a douchebag too.
I'll start working out next week. Every 2 days or so after school or during break, I'll workout. I have to get my habits right and stop wasting so much time on the computer...
And I'll read every day too. And dance too.
So yeah. Just before class, I talk to that group of 2 girls. A 6 and 7. They seem pretty open and cool.
Though, I notice that girls stop paying attention to what you say when you're being nervous. They almost don't hear you sometimes... RAS doesn't even see you sometimes.
Whatever!
So I get into the bus, and I see the girl that was hitting on me at Staples, AGAIN. She was with her friend 7.5. She had a boyfriend, too bad.
Though, there was still some flirting going on and it was light and fun. She would look at me and smile when I'd say flirty things.
Though, I was starting to get into my head as my coworker friend joined the convo. He was the one initiating the conversation and asking multiple questions to that 7.5. He didn't care about the fact that she had a boyfriend. He was still friendly, totally natural and cool. He managed to ask for their numbers, they were totally fine with that.
Me : Hey man, do I have you number?
Him : No you don't
Me : Oh well, let's exchange numbers then!
Him : Nooo man you ain't getting my number!
He had a smile on his face, but I couldn't quite tell if he was serious or not haha. Maybe was he only on a rush? I can't quite tell, but whatever.
So yeah... when he leaves, it's my chody self going back again... I feel totally unconfident and I just hear them talking pretty much. I just stand in front of them.
So when we leave the bus, I ask them which bus they're taking, almost stuttering. Guhh it was terrible. Girl that was hitting on me at Staples tells me that she has to go. I say goodbye to them.
I pull out my water bottle from my bag.
Refreshing. Whatever, just brush it off. Brush it off man.
I wasn't thinking of anything. Or at least, I was trying.
This is the process. I might get good or bad days along the way, but I'm fine with that. Who the fck cares?
I get in line for my bus. The girl was actually taking the same bus as me LOL (she's a 6 btw).
She decided to sit to that seat further from me. I call her up on it, but she stays where she's at. We don't talk again.
Whatever!
On the way back home, I start over-analysing what happened in the bus. I wasn't feeling good about this. Negative thought loops.
Tried to meditate and empty my mind as I was walking back home. Listened to this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GGlTQen-CnQ
Conclusion
I noticed myself thinking that I wasn't good enough. That other guys from the school are better, more social, more natural, more confident, and better looking. Truth is that those limitations I give to myself aren't helping me at all. These are not limitations, but obstacles and challenges to overcome.
What if the path to success was easy? It would be boring and there would be no adventure. I have to embrace that adventure. She said it. I'm an adventurous person and I love pushing myself to my limits. Why allow myself to fear fear itself?
Fear is my friend.
I welcome you.
Any day.
Any night.
Let's walk this path together.
Saturday, September 1st
3 Approaches.
Felt incredibly good today, even though I was sick!
So yeah,
First approach was a set of two asian girls, HB7.5s.
I felt nervous on this one, but my way of handling it was so different. I almost enjoyed it, I embraced feeling nervous and it allowed me to say what I had to say.
Got rejected, but it was fun hahaha!
Second approach, I'm feeling nervous before approaching. Though, as soon as I go in, I feel totally in control. Like, TOTALLY!
HB7.5s again. Cute girls, receptive again.
I noticed that gaming at school helped me becoming good at holding conversations. I noticed that I express myself more and more. I'm saying my ideas and opinions more.
So yeah, we go separate ways. On their way back, they see me again and we wave to each other with a smile. I was feeling very good.
So we keep walking and walking around. I pussied out a lot, I'm not going to lie haha.
So Rickyboy is extremely not in the mood from start. What ends up happening is that he wants to get home, and he doesn't do a single approach. I'm disappointed!
Though, the amazing thing is that I was still in a good state regardless of his state. In no ways I was affected by his negativity. I was trying to cheer him up, but sadly it wasn't working. I don't blame him at all! Once caught in that spiral of negativity, it's hard to get out of there and I totally understand. Willpower muscles are hard to exercise, hard as FCK sometimes.
My third approach was a set of 2 asians, HB7.3s. I was on my own this time.
At first, I was feeling a bit nervous about it, but I went in anyway. It took me a couple seconds though.
So again, as soon as I go in, I feel that wave of confidence again! I'm feeling wonderful, and I just talk for the fun of it.
They're really open. She asks me if I do this often, if I sometimes get bad responses from it. I was totally honest here lol.
So then my subway arrives! She was saying something, but then I cut her off and start running to my subway, excusing myself hahaha. She seemed a bit mad that I left at light speed like that lol.
Conclusion
- No matter how tired, bad, or sick you feel, be happy anyway. Truth is, that day I had an annoying headache, was feeling a bit nauseous, had to go pee all the time, had a cough. If you focus on that good feeling inside and just be present, you almost forget that you're sick, or tired. Positivity is overwhelming! So can be negativity... So make sure you think positively.
- I love life, enough said.
- The No Fap challenge helps A TON. I'm at 20 days already, no edging, no masturbation, no porn (it's been almost 2 months no porn!!) Try it out guys, and stick to it. TRUST ME!
What's coming up next
Tomorrow I'm working, and Niyo will be here! I MUST number close her and tell her my intentions. I'm feeling more and more confident about this. I'm going into abundance mode.
3 Approaches.
Felt incredibly good today, even though I was sick!
So yeah,
First approach was a set of two asian girls, HB7.5s.
I felt nervous on this one, but my way of handling it was so different. I almost enjoyed it, I embraced feeling nervous and it allowed me to say what I had to say.
Got rejected, but it was fun hahaha!
Second approach, I'm feeling nervous before approaching. Though, as soon as I go in, I feel totally in control. Like, TOTALLY!
HB7.5s again. Cute girls, receptive again.
I noticed that gaming at school helped me becoming good at holding conversations. I noticed that I express myself more and more. I'm saying my ideas and opinions more.
So yeah, we go separate ways. On their way back, they see me again and we wave to each other with a smile. I was feeling very good.
So we keep walking and walking around. I pussied out a lot, I'm not going to lie haha.
So Rickyboy is extremely not in the mood from start. What ends up happening is that he wants to get home, and he doesn't do a single approach. I'm disappointed!
Though, the amazing thing is that I was still in a good state regardless of his state. In no ways I was affected by his negativity. I was trying to cheer him up, but sadly it wasn't working. I don't blame him at all! Once caught in that spiral of negativity, it's hard to get out of there and I totally understand. Willpower muscles are hard to exercise, hard as FCK sometimes.
My third approach was a set of 2 asians, HB7.3s. I was on my own this time.
At first, I was feeling a bit nervous about it, but I went in anyway. It took me a couple seconds though.
So again, as soon as I go in, I feel that wave of confidence again! I'm feeling wonderful, and I just talk for the fun of it.
They're really open. She asks me if I do this often, if I sometimes get bad responses from it. I was totally honest here lol.
So then my subway arrives! She was saying something, but then I cut her off and start running to my subway, excusing myself hahaha. She seemed a bit mad that I left at light speed like that lol.
Conclusion
- No matter how tired, bad, or sick you feel, be happy anyway. Truth is, that day I had an annoying headache, was feeling a bit nauseous, had to go pee all the time, had a cough. If you focus on that good feeling inside and just be present, you almost forget that you're sick, or tired. Positivity is overwhelming! So can be negativity... So make sure you think positively.
- I love life, enough said.
- The No Fap challenge helps A TON. I'm at 20 days already, no edging, no masturbation, no porn (it's been almost 2 months no porn!!) Try it out guys, and stick to it. TRUST ME!
What's coming up next
Tomorrow I'm working, and Niyo will be here! I MUST number close her and tell her my intentions. I'm feeling more and more confident about this. I'm going into abundance mode.
I'm feeling dizzy and sick, but I still have to write in that journal.
Sunday, September 2nd
Nothing really. Though, I realized how much I LOVE meditation!
So yeah,
Went to work, and for some weird reason, I switched to abundance mode in my mind. I introduced myself to that new coworker with no problems, HB9 (though she's probably 21+).
When I saw Niyo again, I wasn't attracted anymore. I told myself that I deserve so much better.
Though, the morning before, I spent 40 minutes finishing that video of Tyler from RSD talking about meditation. Then, I spent 20 minutes doing meditation. DAMN I felt good after that!
I was more relaxed and confident around people and customers. Though, when I started thinking again, I had waves of good and bad going back and forth.
Monday, September 3rd
2 Approaches at amusement park. 1 at subway.
Dealing with VERY negative friend. Damn, he can be such a fun guy to be around with, but sometimes he's just so annoying.
So yeah,
On the way to the park, I pussied out couple times. I was letting him affect him with his vibe. His lazy *I'm bored* vibe.
So we start doing roller coasters left and right. I'm getting tired and dizzy, so I tell him that I want to take a break. He does the roller coaster by himself.
I then sit down. I look at people walking by.
Man, you know that the past doesn't exist now. It's probably just an interpretation of what happened, but cannot be always true. It's probably never true to the facts... Same for the future.
I looked at the ground, straight.
...
My mind was going blank. I wasn't thinking. I was just being present. I was doing meditation.
After a while, I snap out of that state of meditation.
Wow. I don't draw state from other people, not even from good friends. It all comes to me. It comes from within.
I then stand up, and start looking around for my friend. He came like 45 minutes late because there was a problem in his roller coaster... whatever.
I see this set of 2 girls waiting in line for that roller coaster.
The HB7.5 is checking me out, playing with her hair. It's obvious! Though, I chicken out from approaching at this point.
So after we're done with the roller coaster, I tell my friend that I'll go in as soon as they get off the roller coaster.
So then I see them!
Me : Hey hey wait wait wait!
So then I go in with the usual line.
The very cute 7.5 smiles and laugh. She kinds of look at me but looks around nervously.
Though, the other friend wasn't receptive (6.5). As she starts leaving, the pretty 7.5 follows but continues to smile at me.
My friend was standing in the back awkwardly.
Second approach, I see an HB8 waiting in line with friend for that other roller coaster.
We join in line too, and I tap her arm a bit.
Me : You're cute, I just had to say that!
Blablabla, Her name is the same of some girl me and my friend know. From close, she really wasn't as pretty! She went down to HB7...
Me : Heey Sam! Do you remember about ____?
He was standing 5 feet away, pretended to ignore me and doesn't listen to me, doesn't answer either. I was still shaking hands with the girl and she laughed a bit.
We continued talking for a bit, but then I realized that I was cutting in front of someone else, so I then stop talking to the girl. My friend's awkwardness was making me feel awkward, but I'm just being influenced...
So I see this set of two gorgeous girls, with 3 douche-looking guys following them from the back.
What? So those guys are acting chode and not talking to them?
So I start walking up to the girls walking a bit ahead. Though, I cut through the guys first.
Me : Heey wow wow wow!
My voice was powerful and confident, like never before.
Me : You girls are just so damn gorgeous! What are your names?
They say their names, laugh and smile.
Me : Are one of these guys your boyfriend?
Her : No hahaha
Me : Perfect.
Sam : Hey, let's do the Vertigo?
I snap out of my daydreaming.
Me : Hum, yeah sure. Let's so this.
For the first time ever, I think about talking to girls when guys are around. Though, I didn't do it today, but I really though about it.
Day is over. We head back home.
Sam : What do you want to achieve with this? You want to practice, or you want to actually get into a relationship?
Me : Both, and none.
Sam : What you mean?
Me : My main goal is to improve my self-confidence and become more social.
Sam : You know, 70% of people you do this to think that you're a creep, 29% think that you're funny, and 1% of them will just joke around with you and pretend to be interested.
Sam : You should NEVER start off with saying that she's cute. That's just creepy, and seen as a joke. Start with something funny.
Me : Have you ever tried it yourself?
Sam : ... no, but that's what I really believe.
Walking home.
Sam : Why don't you talk to girls you already know?
Me : It's another challenge, and it's harder. I don't give myself excuses.
Sam : You're seen as being a creep. I'm pretty sure that if I ask my sister what she thinks about someone telling her that she's cute randomly on the street, she'll tell me that this guy's a creep. I know many more girls that would think the same.
I'm getting affected by his words. This is bull****. I have my own views on the world. He's so wrong. Of course that the girl will tell you that because she doesn't want to appear as a slut and because said like that, it sounds socially weird.
Sam : You'll get back to me when you get a relationship by doing this, alright?
I smile, but I force it this time.
Me : Alright man, you'll see!
We head separate ways.
Conclusion
I'm feeling so annoyed by this guy. I'm mad, I'm not going to lie. I hate people like him that just want to bring you down and doesn't want to accept different point of views.
Though, I know it's not his fault if he's just retarded and doesn't want to change. I know that 99% of guys aren't willing to believe things like that, and believing that it's actually possible to get a girlfriend from cold approaching would mean that ALL his past beliefs were wrong. It's too much things to unlearn, so he'd rather stick to his old belief system. It's too good to be true.
Rank 1 feat Shanokee - Such Is Life (Uncensored version) [Official Video] - YouTube
I have my own views on the world.
No matter what other people believe, no matter what bull**** is thrown at me, no matter what happens.
It's not their fault if they're retarded. Anyway, why be influenced by someone that NEVER attempted pick up before? How can you make conclusions if you never tried it by yourself before? And I am not you, you are not me. So what's the point? We all start off from different starting points. We all have different backgrounds.
What if NO one thinks like me? What if nobody agrees with my ideas? What if the world tells me that I suck?
Alright.
What if people want to pull me down? What if EVEN my closest friends want to pull me down?
Alright.
What if I decide to walk the path by myself? No one's taking it, and no one wants to risk it.
Alright.
Just go man. Remember the story about the wolf.
STAY ON TRACK. YES, BELIEVE ME, BUT MOSTLY BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. YOU'RE GETTING HERE.
Until next time.
Edit : Interesting quote here from Plato
To conquer oneself is the best and noblest victory; to be vanquished by one's own nature is the worst and most ignoble defeat.
Sunday, September 2nd
Nothing really. Though, I realized how much I LOVE meditation!
So yeah,
Went to work, and for some weird reason, I switched to abundance mode in my mind. I introduced myself to that new coworker with no problems, HB9 (though she's probably 21+).
When I saw Niyo again, I wasn't attracted anymore. I told myself that I deserve so much better.
Though, the morning before, I spent 40 minutes finishing that video of Tyler from RSD talking about meditation. Then, I spent 20 minutes doing meditation. DAMN I felt good after that!
I was more relaxed and confident around people and customers. Though, when I started thinking again, I had waves of good and bad going back and forth.
Monday, September 3rd
2 Approaches at amusement park. 1 at subway.
Dealing with VERY negative friend. Damn, he can be such a fun guy to be around with, but sometimes he's just so annoying.
So yeah,
On the way to the park, I pussied out couple times. I was letting him affect him with his vibe. His lazy *I'm bored* vibe.
So we start doing roller coasters left and right. I'm getting tired and dizzy, so I tell him that I want to take a break. He does the roller coaster by himself.
I then sit down. I look at people walking by.
Man, you know that the past doesn't exist now. It's probably just an interpretation of what happened, but cannot be always true. It's probably never true to the facts... Same for the future.
I looked at the ground, straight.
...
My mind was going blank. I wasn't thinking. I was just being present. I was doing meditation.
After a while, I snap out of that state of meditation.
Wow. I don't draw state from other people, not even from good friends. It all comes to me. It comes from within.
I then stand up, and start looking around for my friend. He came like 45 minutes late because there was a problem in his roller coaster... whatever.
I see this set of 2 girls waiting in line for that roller coaster.
The HB7.5 is checking me out, playing with her hair. It's obvious! Though, I chicken out from approaching at this point.
So after we're done with the roller coaster, I tell my friend that I'll go in as soon as they get off the roller coaster.
So then I see them!
Me : Hey hey wait wait wait!
So then I go in with the usual line.
The very cute 7.5 smiles and laugh. She kinds of look at me but looks around nervously.
Though, the other friend wasn't receptive (6.5). As she starts leaving, the pretty 7.5 follows but continues to smile at me.
My friend was standing in the back awkwardly.
Second approach, I see an HB8 waiting in line with friend for that other roller coaster.
We join in line too, and I tap her arm a bit.
Me : You're cute, I just had to say that!
Blablabla, Her name is the same of some girl me and my friend know. From close, she really wasn't as pretty! She went down to HB7...
Me : Heey Sam! Do you remember about ____?
He was standing 5 feet away, pretended to ignore me and doesn't listen to me, doesn't answer either. I was still shaking hands with the girl and she laughed a bit.
We continued talking for a bit, but then I realized that I was cutting in front of someone else, so I then stop talking to the girl. My friend's awkwardness was making me feel awkward, but I'm just being influenced...
So I see this set of two gorgeous girls, with 3 douche-looking guys following them from the back.
What? So those guys are acting chode and not talking to them?
So I start walking up to the girls walking a bit ahead. Though, I cut through the guys first.
Me : Heey wow wow wow!
My voice was powerful and confident, like never before.
Me : You girls are just so damn gorgeous! What are your names?
They say their names, laugh and smile.
Me : Are one of these guys your boyfriend?
Her : No hahaha
Me : Perfect.
Sam : Hey, let's do the Vertigo?
I snap out of my daydreaming.
Me : Hum, yeah sure. Let's so this.
For the first time ever, I think about talking to girls when guys are around. Though, I didn't do it today, but I really though about it.
Day is over. We head back home.
Sam : What do you want to achieve with this? You want to practice, or you want to actually get into a relationship?
Me : Both, and none.
Sam : What you mean?
Me : My main goal is to improve my self-confidence and become more social.
Sam : You know, 70% of people you do this to think that you're a creep, 29% think that you're funny, and 1% of them will just joke around with you and pretend to be interested.
Sam : You should NEVER start off with saying that she's cute. That's just creepy, and seen as a joke. Start with something funny.
Me : Have you ever tried it yourself?
Sam : ... no, but that's what I really believe.
Walking home.
Sam : Why don't you talk to girls you already know?
Me : It's another challenge, and it's harder. I don't give myself excuses.
Sam : You're seen as being a creep. I'm pretty sure that if I ask my sister what she thinks about someone telling her that she's cute randomly on the street, she'll tell me that this guy's a creep. I know many more girls that would think the same.
I'm getting affected by his words. This is bull****. I have my own views on the world. He's so wrong. Of course that the girl will tell you that because she doesn't want to appear as a slut and because said like that, it sounds socially weird.
Sam : You'll get back to me when you get a relationship by doing this, alright?
I smile, but I force it this time.
Me : Alright man, you'll see!
We head separate ways.
Conclusion
I'm feeling so annoyed by this guy. I'm mad, I'm not going to lie. I hate people like him that just want to bring you down and doesn't want to accept different point of views.
Though, I know it's not his fault if he's just retarded and doesn't want to change. I know that 99% of guys aren't willing to believe things like that, and believing that it's actually possible to get a girlfriend from cold approaching would mean that ALL his past beliefs were wrong. It's too much things to unlearn, so he'd rather stick to his old belief system. It's too good to be true.
Rank 1 feat Shanokee - Such Is Life (Uncensored version) [Official Video] - YouTube
I have my own views on the world.
No matter what other people believe, no matter what bull**** is thrown at me, no matter what happens.
It's not their fault if they're retarded. Anyway, why be influenced by someone that NEVER attempted pick up before? How can you make conclusions if you never tried it by yourself before? And I am not you, you are not me. So what's the point? We all start off from different starting points. We all have different backgrounds.
What if NO one thinks like me? What if nobody agrees with my ideas? What if the world tells me that I suck?
Alright.
What if people want to pull me down? What if EVEN my closest friends want to pull me down?
Alright.
What if I decide to walk the path by myself? No one's taking it, and no one wants to risk it.
Alright.
Just go man. Remember the story about the wolf.
STAY ON TRACK. YES, BELIEVE ME, BUT MOSTLY BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. YOU'RE GETTING HERE.
Until next time.
Edit : Interesting quote here from Plato
To conquer oneself is the best and noblest victory; to be vanquished by one's own nature is the worst and most ignoble defeat.
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To be honest, i realized that with such people I tend to be brutally honest. Answer the guy, you're awesome. You know you are. Do not let a friend pull you down. That is a bad friend that simple. Is this a friend from the past or something? As i mentioned in my journal, some people just lose their value for me.
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Good to know i could help a bro out. You'll soon understand that you just have to be. Some times the truth will be too brutal, while some times it's neccessary. This isn't only about you, it's about him too. Look at it this way, he needs help.
Why would't you help him?
The world is a fvkd up place, truth is like poison. It can cure sickness in peoples mind. But it can also kill your friendship with the guy. Choose your words wisely, my friend.
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Why would't you help him?
The world is a fvkd up place, truth is like poison. It can cure sickness in peoples mind. But it can also kill your friendship with the guy. Choose your words wisely, my friend.
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I would slap him. With my ****. You're too nice.
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The Vikings has spoken. This friend of yours needs to understand how he easily can affect you AND other people.
I like to think of it this way, every human has an aura. As your aura touches other humans aura, your and the another humans aura will be affected. They will combine and create a New aura, now this aura will remain until you seperate. But Even then, your aura has adapted from the last encounter of another aura and will pick up something from that aura. This is when you understand that his aura has had an negative effect on your aura.
Maybe you'll look at this as pure bs, that's ok ofc. I'm just trying to help you understand how much a human can affect another human. I'm tierd and writing on my IPhone so I probably explained it pretty poorly, but if you feel like it I'll write a little more about it.
And my life feels great, it's actually because of you guys on this forum I've done the things I've done and evolved so "quick". Because I see what you Are capable of, and I refuse to accept the fact that I'm not just as good as you are^^. Thank you!
-P
I like to think of it this way, every human has an aura. As your aura touches other humans aura, your and the another humans aura will be affected. They will combine and create a New aura, now this aura will remain until you seperate. But Even then, your aura has adapted from the last encounter of another aura and will pick up something from that aura. This is when you understand that his aura has had an negative effect on your aura.
Maybe you'll look at this as pure bs, that's ok ofc. I'm just trying to help you understand how much a human can affect another human. I'm tierd and writing on my IPhone so I probably explained it pretty poorly, but if you feel like it I'll write a little more about it.
And my life feels great, it's actually because of you guys on this forum I've done the things I've done and evolved so "quick". Because I see what you Are capable of, and I refuse to accept the fact that I'm not just as good as you are^^. Thank you!
-P
Interesting P stranger
You're thanking me? Maan I didn't do anything hahaha
DAMN SO MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT!!!...
Whatever, let's DO THIS.
And by the way, failed the NO FAP. After 22 days!... I'm at day 3 now.
Thursday, September 6th
WENT TO JULIEN'S FREE TOUR, RSD'S FREE TOUR!
And yeah, good day at school!
So yeah,
I slept the good amount of hours this time. Felt good.
First class is philosophy and we gotta go at the computer lab.
On the way, I see that girl I introduced myself to the other day near the lockers. I smile at her, but she was on the phone. I think that she didn't see me.
So on the way out, she asks me where the stapler is. (note that all convos are not 100% exactly what I said. My memory isn't that good...)
Me : I know, but I won't tell you.
Her : Ohhh, blabla
Me : Because I'm a mean person
Guy : It's right here
Me : You're... Niya, right?
Her : Yeaah, what's your name again?
Me : YOu don't know my naaame?
Her : No what is it?
So yeah, I mess around and tell her that my name is Bobby, lol.
Yeah! Set of 3 girls. HB8 (or more), 7.5, 6
So I enter the Creative Writing class, and I go at the back of the class to check for a chair.
NO MAN! You gotta go talk to them. They're hot, no excuses.
I sit behind them.
Me : What's up!
They turn around, laugh harmoniously together.
Me : I don't know you guys, who are you?
Blablabla, they give me their names.
HB8 : You?
Me : I am... mysterious.
They laugh, blablabla. They invite me to sit next to them, and I do.
We keep talking for a bit. I tell them that they have the intellectual look with their glasses on. They always laugh harmoniously, it's fun. It's NOT even funny and they laugh!
So that girl from my high school, waves at me, tells me why I'm not sitting at my usual place (right behind her). I tell her that I'm talking to new people, she goes Okay!
The 3 girls laugh again.
Then, some other girl walks in, and I introduce myself to her on the spot. The 3 girls laugh again, louder this time. I was just introducing myself LOL...
Me : What's so funny!
Girl : I don't know! XD
So yeaah, during the whole class, I pretty much stay silent and don't talk to them much.
You know the girl I sat next to previous Creative Writing class? She was looking at me. When eyes met, she smiled quickly and looked away. Didn't have the time to smile back.
That girl sitting next to me, some other 7.5, was looking at me. We smile.
I'm pretty much going DHV! Cool stuff.
I'm starting to understand that sticking point! When it comes to asking girls what they're up to later, or for their number, I lose my cool and I go all serious and I'm nervous. That's why it doesn't work out in the end!
So yeah, I ask them what they're up to. Though, I feel my voice shaking a little bit... they end up walking out the class, the 7.5 tells me that she's taking the bus, blablabla.
I let them leave, and I talk to the teacher for a while.
Next class...
I go to english class, talk to those girls sitting behind me for a while. I talk to that girl I saw at the amusement park the other day,
So yeah, it was fun. Group discussion with the whole class, and I managed to participate and say some funny stuff. I felt confident, not so nervous.
So on the way back, I get in line for the bus. Talk to that girl next to me, friend of a friend. Then, I look behind me and I see CARLOS! Some mexican dude I made friends with the other day. So then I introduce myself to that girl HB8. Damn... when she smiled, that was golden. When I'm attracted, I do way better...
Though, I REALLY had to read my book for Humanities, so I told her and said sorry, like I was assuming her disappointment. So we didn't talk at all really...
I arrive at the mall at like 6:40. I knew that I was going to be late... conference started at 7PM.
Ohhh man, how am I going to get home in time? I take 1h30 to get there, 1h30 to get back. Damn, I can only stay 1 hour at the conference if I want to get home by 10...
AND I had school the next day, which pretty much sucks.
Whatever man, go anyway. You're doing something great, go for it.
THE RSD FREE TOUR WITH JULIEN. Lifechanging.
So yeah, I arrive at the hotel, go to the room.
I enter, I see that guy from RSD talking, but I don't know him. Then, I see Julien on my left! Wanted to say hi, but he seemed concentrated, like he was meditating (or it's just my imagination lol). I went like : Holy **** it's him! epic
So it was Julien's turn to talk. I was excited.
Let's remember what he said... 2 and a half hours!
So he talked about being unreactive, making the girl reactive. It doesn't have to be specifically positive or negative, as long as she's reacting. Then, he told that you can get away with saying Just Kidding! With literally anything. Then, you can switch to a different topic afterwards.
No matter how much nonsense you say, as long as you're giving her the roller coaster experience emotionally, she's going to be cool with it.
You can say stuff like : I hate you, I love you! Contradicting yourself is a way of staying mysterious. It's the push pull.
Also, making her mad or sad is not always bad. It's an opportunity to step up after and pull her back in.
He also talked about the Me and You mentality that you build with girls. That's the way to build rapport! Not asking where she's from and where she's working. That's how you make her feel comfortable.
Do not associate your actions with your results. What's important is that internal change that's happening.
You gotta literally kill yourself, your old self, to transform into something new.
And the average of the 5 people you hang out the most is probably you. So hang out with good people.
And the people that you try to show RSD or pick up, it's SOOO far outside of their reality that it won't even register. They can't believe it. In consequence, they drag you down.
His motivational speech at the end.
I felt like his words were hitting my soul directly. His passion is incredible, motivating.
He enjoys going through pain, he loves it. When he sees a new opportunity, he jumps right into it and he's fascinated by the unknown.
Do it for the good or great.
Live like you have no other options but to be good at pick up. Why wouldn't you live to live at your fullest potential? I'd rather die than live as a lazy slug. It's either death or becoming the best I can be.
Do it for the passion of doing it, because you love to. Of course, have the goal of getting the girl and getting laid, but the main thing is to progress.
After the conference, I knew that I wasn't alone. People were with me.
After all those rejections and flakes I've got, I knew that I was still going forward.
On the way home, listened to this. My 2012 song.
Just read the comments below, it's great.
Rank 1 - Airwave (Aaron Static 2009 Remix) - YouTube
You're thanking me? Maan I didn't do anything hahaha
DAMN SO MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT!!!...
Whatever, let's DO THIS.
And by the way, failed the NO FAP. After 22 days!... I'm at day 3 now.
Thursday, September 6th
WENT TO JULIEN'S FREE TOUR, RSD'S FREE TOUR!
And yeah, good day at school!
So yeah,
I slept the good amount of hours this time. Felt good.
First class is philosophy and we gotta go at the computer lab.
On the way, I see that girl I introduced myself to the other day near the lockers. I smile at her, but she was on the phone. I think that she didn't see me.
So on the way out, she asks me where the stapler is. (note that all convos are not 100% exactly what I said. My memory isn't that good...)
Me : I know, but I won't tell you.
Her : Ohhh, blabla
Me : Because I'm a mean person
Guy : It's right here
Me : You're... Niya, right?
Her : Yeaah, what's your name again?
Me : YOu don't know my naaame?
Her : No what is it?
So yeah, I mess around and tell her that my name is Bobby, lol.
Yeah! Set of 3 girls. HB8 (or more), 7.5, 6
So I enter the Creative Writing class, and I go at the back of the class to check for a chair.
NO MAN! You gotta go talk to them. They're hot, no excuses.
I sit behind them.
Me : What's up!
They turn around, laugh harmoniously together.
Me : I don't know you guys, who are you?
Blablabla, they give me their names.
HB8 : You?
Me : I am... mysterious.
They laugh, blablabla. They invite me to sit next to them, and I do.
We keep talking for a bit. I tell them that they have the intellectual look with their glasses on. They always laugh harmoniously, it's fun. It's NOT even funny and they laugh!
So that girl from my high school, waves at me, tells me why I'm not sitting at my usual place (right behind her). I tell her that I'm talking to new people, she goes Okay!
The 3 girls laugh again.
Then, some other girl walks in, and I introduce myself to her on the spot. The 3 girls laugh again, louder this time. I was just introducing myself LOL...
Me : What's so funny!
Girl : I don't know! XD
So yeaah, during the whole class, I pretty much stay silent and don't talk to them much.
You know the girl I sat next to previous Creative Writing class? She was looking at me. When eyes met, she smiled quickly and looked away. Didn't have the time to smile back.
That girl sitting next to me, some other 7.5, was looking at me. We smile.
I'm pretty much going DHV! Cool stuff.
I'm starting to understand that sticking point! When it comes to asking girls what they're up to later, or for their number, I lose my cool and I go all serious and I'm nervous. That's why it doesn't work out in the end!
So yeah, I ask them what they're up to. Though, I feel my voice shaking a little bit... they end up walking out the class, the 7.5 tells me that she's taking the bus, blablabla.
I let them leave, and I talk to the teacher for a while.
Next class...
I go to english class, talk to those girls sitting behind me for a while. I talk to that girl I saw at the amusement park the other day,
So yeah, it was fun. Group discussion with the whole class, and I managed to participate and say some funny stuff. I felt confident, not so nervous.
So on the way back, I get in line for the bus. Talk to that girl next to me, friend of a friend. Then, I look behind me and I see CARLOS! Some mexican dude I made friends with the other day. So then I introduce myself to that girl HB8. Damn... when she smiled, that was golden. When I'm attracted, I do way better...
Though, I REALLY had to read my book for Humanities, so I told her and said sorry, like I was assuming her disappointment. So we didn't talk at all really...
I arrive at the mall at like 6:40. I knew that I was going to be late... conference started at 7PM.
Ohhh man, how am I going to get home in time? I take 1h30 to get there, 1h30 to get back. Damn, I can only stay 1 hour at the conference if I want to get home by 10...
AND I had school the next day, which pretty much sucks.
Whatever man, go anyway. You're doing something great, go for it.
THE RSD FREE TOUR WITH JULIEN. Lifechanging.
So yeah, I arrive at the hotel, go to the room.
I enter, I see that guy from RSD talking, but I don't know him. Then, I see Julien on my left! Wanted to say hi, but he seemed concentrated, like he was meditating (or it's just my imagination lol). I went like : Holy **** it's him! epic
So it was Julien's turn to talk. I was excited.
Let's remember what he said... 2 and a half hours!
So he talked about being unreactive, making the girl reactive. It doesn't have to be specifically positive or negative, as long as she's reacting. Then, he told that you can get away with saying Just Kidding! With literally anything. Then, you can switch to a different topic afterwards.
No matter how much nonsense you say, as long as you're giving her the roller coaster experience emotionally, she's going to be cool with it.
You can say stuff like : I hate you, I love you! Contradicting yourself is a way of staying mysterious. It's the push pull.
Also, making her mad or sad is not always bad. It's an opportunity to step up after and pull her back in.
He also talked about the Me and You mentality that you build with girls. That's the way to build rapport! Not asking where she's from and where she's working. That's how you make her feel comfortable.
Do not associate your actions with your results. What's important is that internal change that's happening.
You gotta literally kill yourself, your old self, to transform into something new.
And the average of the 5 people you hang out the most is probably you. So hang out with good people.
And the people that you try to show RSD or pick up, it's SOOO far outside of their reality that it won't even register. They can't believe it. In consequence, they drag you down.
His motivational speech at the end.
I felt like his words were hitting my soul directly. His passion is incredible, motivating.
He enjoys going through pain, he loves it. When he sees a new opportunity, he jumps right into it and he's fascinated by the unknown.
Do it for the good or great.
Live like you have no other options but to be good at pick up. Why wouldn't you live to live at your fullest potential? I'd rather die than live as a lazy slug. It's either death or becoming the best I can be.
Do it for the passion of doing it, because you love to. Of course, have the goal of getting the girl and getting laid, but the main thing is to progress.
After the conference, I knew that I wasn't alone. People were with me.
After all those rejections and flakes I've got, I knew that I was still going forward.
On the way home, listened to this. My 2012 song.
Just read the comments below, it's great.
Rank 1 - Airwave (Aaron Static 2009 Remix) - YouTube
Friday, September 7th
Flirted with Mexican girls!
Things went pretty well I'm not going to lie!
So yeah,
Woke up this morning at 6:45, after less than 7 hours of sleep. Surprisingly, I had a wave of energy flowing through me. It was from the good emotions.
Sincerely. Thank you Julien. I love you.
Went to school. First class was beeh... I was out of state.
Sat next to Lychee. The usual talk, trying to tease but she stayed pretty much unreactive. I was getting needy, and turned on by her cleavage...
Whatever. She leaves the class without saying bye to me. Ugh.
You know the girl I number closed last Friday at the Lounge? Well, she wouldn't respond to my text.
What do I decide to do?
CALL HER!
So yeah, I'm kind of nervous before the call. I wait for a bit... Then, I remembered Julien's words.
Be fascinated by fear, enjoy it! If you are going through some nervousness or pain, that means that you're progressing.
I press the Call button. Nervousness builds up when the phone rings.
Her : Hello?
I hear people talking in the background.
Me : Heey watzup _____!
Her : Who's this?
Me : Haha, You don't remember me?
Her : No, who's this?
Me : I'm Mindgamez! Where are you?
I could hear my own voice from her phone. Did she put the speakers on? I was anxious about nothing.
Her : I'm with some friends, but I'm going to a class now.
Me : Ohh okay... well have fun.
Her : Thanks, bye.
Me : Bye. I hate you!
I think that she didn't hear me. Whatever, she sounded *****y to me on the phone. Like, no interest at all, nothing.
I almost got mad here. She didn't even tell me where she was at!
Whatever... I congratulated myself for actually calling her. I had NOTHING to lose. That's good, I did a good thing. Took action anyway. I gotta work on being able to talk on the phone better.
I text her later :
I hate you.
Jk
No response. Is she a *****? To me, she's a fckn b1tch, even though she seemed kind at first... What the FCK! Girls that seem innocent can actually be quite a pain in the ass.
I'm reacting as I'm writing this. Gotta stop, she's just a girl after all.
I went a bit out of state after that call.
Went to te cafeteria for a bit, chilled with some friends from high school. Talked to those girls I used to not talk to.
I see that stalker girl that was hitting on me at Staples again! I scream at her, telling her that I hate her, but in a funny way. She kept looking at me LOL, and her friends too a bit. It was funny.
I get out of the cafeteria.
Then, I see the HB8 Mexican girl I met in the bus line the day before.
Her face immediately lights up. I could see it in her eyes.
I was feeling almost in love. Like, I was just letting attraction happen.
We exchange a hug, we talk to close proximity.
Her : How was your reading?
Me : Ohhh, it was boring! I wanted to tell you that you're cute, but yeah, didn't have the time.
She smiled and laughed a bit.
When we had little gaps of silence, I was getting a bit nervous, but she kept looking at me right in the eyes. I was feeling attracted, and the nervousness, I actually found it to be very cute. It felt like some romance happening in some college movie LOL.
She tells me that she was heading home, but then, I invite her to go eat with me and the other Mexican friends at the cafeteria. After I realized that I forgot my meal at the locker, I go get it! So she goes there by herself (I should've told her to follow me to my locker)
She was touching me, telling me that she was coming. I touched her too.
When I came back though, I didn't see them... (though they were right next to my table...)
So then I sit to that table with my friends from work. it was cool, we talked a bit but not for long.
So then, I see the table of Mexican people. I join in! I shake hands with all people around here. I make friends with that new metalhead guy, and invite him to the concert of next Tuesday.
When in a group, I have troubles flirting... I couldn't get the courage to talk to the pretty HB8 again...
So yeah. That girl invited me to go out by the lake with all of them. I accept the offer, and I join them.
The HB8 was playing on her phone the whole time. I told her to stop and to start socializing, but she refused. I start pulling her cellphone, but I fail to grab it lool.
Whatever. I almost forgot about her, and I was interested in knowing about the other Mexicans. They are so cool and chill!
So yeah, I was losing a bit of attraction. When she doesn't smile, she's not as pretty. But her smile is so fckn sexy... She smiles with her eyes.
Before leaving, I shake hands with everyone. Though, I shake hands a bit longer with the HB8. Hold eye contact, and obvious wink.
She smiles, but then I go
Me : Ohh I'm not flirting with you! Haha
Oh sh!t, what are the Mexicans going to think? Arggh.
I kept shaking hands with the other people to forget about it. Ohh man, I can't flirt when people are around! Fcckk!!
Whatever.
Then, I get to the breakdance club, make friends with the people here. Pretty cool!
Then, I get to the bus stop. I see those 2 pretty girls, and that very hot HB8.5. I just sit back and listen to my music, trying to relax.
Ohh man, that Mexican girl. I failed to push the boundaries! I PUSSIED OUT. AHH.
I tried to concentrate on my music, and I calmed down a bit. Music helps me a lot.
Then I enter the bus, ask the driver something. When I get out, I see the girls. They were speaking spanish.
Me : You are Mexicain, right?
Her : Yeah, and what nationality are you?
Blablabla, we talk for a bit. She asks for where I live, and I ask her if it's because she wants to stalk me. They both laugh.
I pussied out a bit to start talking to that beautiful HB8.5 at first.
We sat down, talked for the whole bus trip. Sometimes I was present, being funny and I didn't care. Sometimes, I would start going into my head again. Back and forth...
Though, I stayed in the positive state most of the time.
My humor was coming out, that was cool. I practiced my spanish with them playfully. Told them that their language is very... senssssual, like with the accentuated Rs. They though that it was pretty funny.
Julien's advice. Make them experience a good range of emotions!
Me : You know what? I actually hate Mexican people.
They laugh a bit, blablabla. I get into a very serious tone, as serious as possible. They start taking me seriously, I could see it in their eyes.
Me : No but for really, I really hate them.
So then I tell them that it's a joke. Looking back at this, I don't know what was the point LOL.
But yeah, told them that Mexicans are actually very nice people, according to the people I met at Cegep.
During the whole time, I was near HB8.5, touching her a bit on the arm, talking to close proximity. Our faces were pretty close.
She looked 20! But she was actually 17 like me, damn.
I'm getting good at making girls laugh and have a good time. Though, I gotta go to that sexual side more.
I told them that we should go eat at that Chinese restaurant someday, and the other girl seemed pretty down.
The 8.5 wasn't as reactive. Though, I loved the look in her eyes. She was very sexy. Looking down her cleavage, I was feeling horny.
THERE COMES THE STICKING POINT.
When I ask for the numbers at the end, I'm always more nervous, more serious, like it's not a natural thing to do. I end up psyching myself out...
So you know what? Self-fulfilling prophecy.
The girl, that used to be down, now gives me the look that I got when I asked for numbers that turned out to be flakes. She says Okay, but not in a enthusiastic way. HB8.5 just turned to look at her.
I then pull off my cellphone, tell them that it's dead, so nevermind hahaha.
It was then awkward silence for a while. I was waiting for her to pull off her cellphone, but she never did. So then, I don't want to force her to do it.
So yeah, apparently the HB8.5 was taking the same bus as me to head back home!
Me : What the fck? You're following me, I hate you! I hate you!
8.5 laughs.
Me : CHINGA TU MADRE! (means fck your mom)
They laugh their asses off hahahaha.
On the way out, 8.5 grabs that other guy's arm. The guy resists and keeps walking. It was another Mexican dude. Boyfriend? I have no idea. He was in the same bus, though both didn't talk to each other. She told me that she hates him, long story. She's chasing him.
So yeah, I was feeling somehow like *Damnit!* In my head. Tried to hide that, but then I walk with that other girl to my bus stop. Ohh, the bus was there! So I run to it, not waiting for 8.5. She was with that other guy anyway, so whatever... I told myself.
But hey. Maybe I could've waited? And tried something more brutal on her (;
Whatever. I exchange goodbyes.
Conclusion
- When asking for numbers or contact details to setup a date, I KEEP IT NORMAL. It's not a fcking big deal. I'm doing great since the beginning, so why psyche myself out near the end?
- When in a group, I TRY AND ISOLATE. Or I tell her some secrets in the ear, reinforce that Me and You mentality.
- I gotta stop thinking of what other people think of me. I gotta calm the fck down.
- THANKS JULIEN.
What's coming up next
Sunday, going to sarge with feelx. Hell yeah, I'm a bit more pumped on this one!
I really love pick up, it's my passion.
Flirted with Mexican girls!
Things went pretty well I'm not going to lie!
So yeah,
Woke up this morning at 6:45, after less than 7 hours of sleep. Surprisingly, I had a wave of energy flowing through me. It was from the good emotions.
Sincerely. Thank you Julien. I love you.
Went to school. First class was beeh... I was out of state.
Sat next to Lychee. The usual talk, trying to tease but she stayed pretty much unreactive. I was getting needy, and turned on by her cleavage...
Whatever. She leaves the class without saying bye to me. Ugh.
You know the girl I number closed last Friday at the Lounge? Well, she wouldn't respond to my text.
What do I decide to do?
CALL HER!
So yeah, I'm kind of nervous before the call. I wait for a bit... Then, I remembered Julien's words.
Be fascinated by fear, enjoy it! If you are going through some nervousness or pain, that means that you're progressing.
I press the Call button. Nervousness builds up when the phone rings.
Her : Hello?
I hear people talking in the background.
Me : Heey watzup _____!
Her : Who's this?
Me : Haha, You don't remember me?
Her : No, who's this?
Me : I'm Mindgamez! Where are you?
I could hear my own voice from her phone. Did she put the speakers on? I was anxious about nothing.
Her : I'm with some friends, but I'm going to a class now.
Me : Ohh okay... well have fun.
Her : Thanks, bye.
Me : Bye. I hate you!
I think that she didn't hear me. Whatever, she sounded *****y to me on the phone. Like, no interest at all, nothing.
I almost got mad here. She didn't even tell me where she was at!
Whatever... I congratulated myself for actually calling her. I had NOTHING to lose. That's good, I did a good thing. Took action anyway. I gotta work on being able to talk on the phone better.
I text her later :
I hate you.
Jk
No response. Is she a *****? To me, she's a fckn b1tch, even though she seemed kind at first... What the FCK! Girls that seem innocent can actually be quite a pain in the ass.
I'm reacting as I'm writing this. Gotta stop, she's just a girl after all.
I went a bit out of state after that call.
Went to te cafeteria for a bit, chilled with some friends from high school. Talked to those girls I used to not talk to.
I see that stalker girl that was hitting on me at Staples again! I scream at her, telling her that I hate her, but in a funny way. She kept looking at me LOL, and her friends too a bit. It was funny.
I get out of the cafeteria.
Then, I see the HB8 Mexican girl I met in the bus line the day before.
Her face immediately lights up. I could see it in her eyes.
I was feeling almost in love. Like, I was just letting attraction happen.
We exchange a hug, we talk to close proximity.
Her : How was your reading?
Me : Ohhh, it was boring! I wanted to tell you that you're cute, but yeah, didn't have the time.
She smiled and laughed a bit.
When we had little gaps of silence, I was getting a bit nervous, but she kept looking at me right in the eyes. I was feeling attracted, and the nervousness, I actually found it to be very cute. It felt like some romance happening in some college movie LOL.
She tells me that she was heading home, but then, I invite her to go eat with me and the other Mexican friends at the cafeteria. After I realized that I forgot my meal at the locker, I go get it! So she goes there by herself (I should've told her to follow me to my locker)
She was touching me, telling me that she was coming. I touched her too.
When I came back though, I didn't see them... (though they were right next to my table...)
So then I sit to that table with my friends from work. it was cool, we talked a bit but not for long.
So then, I see the table of Mexican people. I join in! I shake hands with all people around here. I make friends with that new metalhead guy, and invite him to the concert of next Tuesday.
When in a group, I have troubles flirting... I couldn't get the courage to talk to the pretty HB8 again...
So yeah. That girl invited me to go out by the lake with all of them. I accept the offer, and I join them.
The HB8 was playing on her phone the whole time. I told her to stop and to start socializing, but she refused. I start pulling her cellphone, but I fail to grab it lool.
Whatever. I almost forgot about her, and I was interested in knowing about the other Mexicans. They are so cool and chill!
So yeah, I was losing a bit of attraction. When she doesn't smile, she's not as pretty. But her smile is so fckn sexy... She smiles with her eyes.
Before leaving, I shake hands with everyone. Though, I shake hands a bit longer with the HB8. Hold eye contact, and obvious wink.
She smiles, but then I go
Me : Ohh I'm not flirting with you! Haha
Oh sh!t, what are the Mexicans going to think? Arggh.
I kept shaking hands with the other people to forget about it. Ohh man, I can't flirt when people are around! Fcckk!!
Whatever.
Then, I get to the breakdance club, make friends with the people here. Pretty cool!
Then, I get to the bus stop. I see those 2 pretty girls, and that very hot HB8.5. I just sit back and listen to my music, trying to relax.
Ohh man, that Mexican girl. I failed to push the boundaries! I PUSSIED OUT. AHH.
I tried to concentrate on my music, and I calmed down a bit. Music helps me a lot.
Then I enter the bus, ask the driver something. When I get out, I see the girls. They were speaking spanish.
Me : You are Mexicain, right?
Her : Yeah, and what nationality are you?
Blablabla, we talk for a bit. She asks for where I live, and I ask her if it's because she wants to stalk me. They both laugh.
I pussied out a bit to start talking to that beautiful HB8.5 at first.
We sat down, talked for the whole bus trip. Sometimes I was present, being funny and I didn't care. Sometimes, I would start going into my head again. Back and forth...
Though, I stayed in the positive state most of the time.
My humor was coming out, that was cool. I practiced my spanish with them playfully. Told them that their language is very... senssssual, like with the accentuated Rs. They though that it was pretty funny.
Julien's advice. Make them experience a good range of emotions!
Me : You know what? I actually hate Mexican people.
They laugh a bit, blablabla. I get into a very serious tone, as serious as possible. They start taking me seriously, I could see it in their eyes.
Me : No but for really, I really hate them.
So then I tell them that it's a joke. Looking back at this, I don't know what was the point LOL.
But yeah, told them that Mexicans are actually very nice people, according to the people I met at Cegep.
During the whole time, I was near HB8.5, touching her a bit on the arm, talking to close proximity. Our faces were pretty close.
She looked 20! But she was actually 17 like me, damn.
I'm getting good at making girls laugh and have a good time. Though, I gotta go to that sexual side more.
I told them that we should go eat at that Chinese restaurant someday, and the other girl seemed pretty down.
The 8.5 wasn't as reactive. Though, I loved the look in her eyes. She was very sexy. Looking down her cleavage, I was feeling horny.
THERE COMES THE STICKING POINT.
When I ask for the numbers at the end, I'm always more nervous, more serious, like it's not a natural thing to do. I end up psyching myself out...
So you know what? Self-fulfilling prophecy.
The girl, that used to be down, now gives me the look that I got when I asked for numbers that turned out to be flakes. She says Okay, but not in a enthusiastic way. HB8.5 just turned to look at her.
I then pull off my cellphone, tell them that it's dead, so nevermind hahaha.
It was then awkward silence for a while. I was waiting for her to pull off her cellphone, but she never did. So then, I don't want to force her to do it.
So yeah, apparently the HB8.5 was taking the same bus as me to head back home!
Me : What the fck? You're following me, I hate you! I hate you!
8.5 laughs.
Me : CHINGA TU MADRE! (means fck your mom)
They laugh their asses off hahahaha.
On the way out, 8.5 grabs that other guy's arm. The guy resists and keeps walking. It was another Mexican dude. Boyfriend? I have no idea. He was in the same bus, though both didn't talk to each other. She told me that she hates him, long story. She's chasing him.
So yeah, I was feeling somehow like *Damnit!* In my head. Tried to hide that, but then I walk with that other girl to my bus stop. Ohh, the bus was there! So I run to it, not waiting for 8.5. She was with that other guy anyway, so whatever... I told myself.
But hey. Maybe I could've waited? And tried something more brutal on her (;
Whatever. I exchange goodbyes.
Conclusion
- When asking for numbers or contact details to setup a date, I KEEP IT NORMAL. It's not a fcking big deal. I'm doing great since the beginning, so why psyche myself out near the end?
- When in a group, I TRY AND ISOLATE. Or I tell her some secrets in the ear, reinforce that Me and You mentality.
- I gotta stop thinking of what other people think of me. I gotta calm the fck down.
- THANKS JULIEN.
What's coming up next
Sunday, going to sarge with feelx. Hell yeah, I'm a bit more pumped on this one!
I really love pick up, it's my passion.
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I love the way you talk, to me saying "I hate you" seems wierd. Hate is a pretty powerfull word. If it works for you that's great, but it can seem awkward some times. Maybe you should, try another Word sometimes?
A WEEK WITHOUT UPDATES?!
Whatever, I'll just write it summarized.
Saturday, September 8th
HAHAHA! Did some funny comedy video with Dumi. Please, no pick-up related comments.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ls494j1BRI4
You know the girl I number closed at the lounge a long while ago? Well, she texted me some random nonsense like Boiafobijaeroibjaeoibja.
Then, her boyfriend texts me and gets all mad because I texted her. I tell him to keep it cool and to calm down. He's reacting waaay too much.
So yeah, I text the girl.
If I see her walking by the hallway sometime, I'm going to hug her anyways hahaha. Let's just keep the joy, not just be a ***** lol.
Sunday, September 9th
So we arrived at the electronic picnic party. There are a lot of older girls, mostly in groups, and not many of them are my age to be honest...
I start off the day by dancing in the middle with some people. That ugly girl knows how to shuffle! I go in, and the 2 of them are happy, so am I. The other one was a pretty woman.
Next, we bounce to that other place at the picnic. A girl bumps into me by accident, she smiles, and then I join the group.
Set of something like 7-8 girls! From HB7 to HB8. Biggest set I ever approached. As I join in to dance, they cheer me up.
I started asking for how old they are, blablabla. Really nothing. I was being a ***** pretty much. I then eject very quickly and go walk around the place a bit more...
Later, I catch that girl from the group looking at me. She was smiling at me! I smiled back, though I pussied out from coming back...
The rest of the evening, me, Dumi and feelx pretty much dance and have fun. I try to approach another set of 3 girls, but as soon as I do so, they stopped dancing for some reasons. I wasn't feeling in state at all, but I just had to approach somehow. I was tired of seeing no good targets! Whatever, I just left and didn't persist.
I approach that girl, turns out that she's 18. We do a handshake. She seemed like a 7.5 from far, but from close she dropped to 6.5... I just ejected, no interest.
Forgot to mention about that fcking hot girl with transparent leggings. We could clearly and fully see her pink g-string through. Her ass cheeks were shaking as she danced. I couldn't dance because I had a boner XD.
Oh, and I fapped that night, AND had a wet dream also. I'm back to zero...
Tuesday, September 11th
First class is philosophy. That cute girl that was in my team for project was sitting in front of my friend. I say hi to the friend, look at her, but she looks away.
Why do I wait for the girl to smile first? That's retarded...
Whatever. I talk to my other friend (let's call him Porno because his name sounds like so). He's down for pick up! Awesome maaan.
I say hello to that other girl sitting in front of me. She's nice, HB7.
Creative Writing class!
I get in, and the usual 3 girls were waiting for me.
Girl : Ohhh you're here!
Me : Yeah, I know you've been waiting for me
Blablabla, conversation is always fun with them. That HB8.5 has a bright smile...
Though, they're done with school after that class! We head separate ways.
During the 30 minutes break, I was walking around a bit with Porno. I saw that girl from the bus again (let's call her Jen, an HB7), and we sat down next to her and her asian friend. We talked for a good 30 minutes, it was very chill. Porno tells me that he likes Simple Pickup videos because they're inspiring. I really gotta agree on that. We plan on doing pickup together this Saturday!
English class is alright. I'm in team with the usual guys.
Then, I gotta do my oral presentation for Humanities course!
I was feeling a bit nervous at first, I'll have to admit.
Most of the people passing were pretty much reading off their cue cards the whole time, having nervous ticks, not projecting their voices and looking down.
Even though I was feeling nervous, I worked on all of this. Body language, hand movements, eye contact with the audience, and projecting my voice. Though, my hand was still shaky and my friend noticed! Too bad I guess, hahaha. At least, I worked on fixing that.
I don't get it how people tell me that they're so fcking nervous for their oral presentations when they're already pretty outgoing social people. I guess that people don't like to get out their comfort zones in general... I started to enjoy it.
I'm done with school!
Though, I have to wait like an hour before I can go to that meeting with students from my program. So, as usual, during a break, I go at the lounge.
ALL the mexican buddies are there! I say hello to all of them, flirt just a little bit with that cute mexican, because my metal mexican friend winged me a bit... hahaha.
I was fooling and teasing around, then the girl does a hole with her index and thumb, meaning I don't know what. I stick my finger inside, friend DIES OF LAUGHTER HAHAHA! His laugh was contagious.
So I introduce myself to the other mexican girls, HB7s, but in Spanish. This time, I was feeling in the moment, and good. I didn't attempt to flirt with them. Just being overall social is a great thing to do. I introduced myself to other Mexican people I didn't know, again.
The meeting!
I get to the place, though I don't know anyone there. I see some dude, we look at each other, and I go : Sup?
We start off a conversation from there. Sometimes, it's good to start off with some things you've noticed about them, things that make them stand out, call them out on it.
I see that girl from work. We exchange hugs, talk for couple seconds. She's kinda hot, but I still feel like some girls aren't at my level, like they're higher in the social hierarchy.
WTF IS with that social hierarchy thing? Just... talk to her anyway... damn fck it.
Socializing, socializing. Though, my problem is that I get a LOT of new acquaintances, though I NEVER really close with any of them. I don't really ask them to hang out or anything. With guys, I feel comfortable doing so, but with girls, I have big troubles to be honest. What's so wrong with just going to the cafeteria and sit down for a bit? Or going for a walk near the lake? (That would actually be quite great).
Sticking point
I notice that I ALWAYS think of what to say next these days, especially when I talk to new people I just met. I just feel so in my head sometimes... I'm not able to get comfortable.
WHATEVER. I'll go through it hopefully.
Wednesday, September 12th
Forgot my iPod earphones at home, so I couldn't listen to music on the way to school.
This time, at the Universe of Arts class, I don't sit next to Lychee, but to the friend.
During the whole class, I was feeling nervous. Ahh, I gotta go talk to these girls in my project group and tell them to hang out, blablabla.
I couldn't even concentrate on the class. I was also feeling tired, and I simply wasn't in the mood. I was nervous, and when I tried to be present again, it didn't work.
Whatever. Class is over, though the girls get out too quickly and I don't have time to talk to them.
I have like 2 hours of break or something.
I see my metalhead friend, and I hang out with him for a bit. I meet him outside again, and he's with a girl, HB7. I introduce myself to her.
Prom girl comes nearby and we exchange hugs. She asks me if I'm going to the lazerquest event our high school friends organized. Told her that probably.
People around us were smoking, the guys around seemed to be the confident type. I started feeling uncomfortable for some reasons.
I didn't really engage conversation with the girl nor with her friend.
Whatever, I hang out a bit more with metalhead buddy and we go to the computer labs. I leave after a couple minutes.
Whatever, I'll just write it summarized.
Saturday, September 8th
HAHAHA! Did some funny comedy video with Dumi. Please, no pick-up related comments.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ls494j1BRI4
You know the girl I number closed at the lounge a long while ago? Well, she texted me some random nonsense like Boiafobijaeroibjaeoibja.
Then, her boyfriend texts me and gets all mad because I texted her. I tell him to keep it cool and to calm down. He's reacting waaay too much.
So yeah, I text the girl.
OVER. Let's start over again.Her : anobiafoibhadfiob
Me : Stop texting me
Her : But it's you that texts me? :/
Me : I have other things to do, get off
If I see her walking by the hallway sometime, I'm going to hug her anyways hahaha. Let's just keep the joy, not just be a ***** lol.
Sunday, September 9th
So we arrived at the electronic picnic party. There are a lot of older girls, mostly in groups, and not many of them are my age to be honest...
I start off the day by dancing in the middle with some people. That ugly girl knows how to shuffle! I go in, and the 2 of them are happy, so am I. The other one was a pretty woman.
Next, we bounce to that other place at the picnic. A girl bumps into me by accident, she smiles, and then I join the group.
Set of something like 7-8 girls! From HB7 to HB8. Biggest set I ever approached. As I join in to dance, they cheer me up.
I started asking for how old they are, blablabla. Really nothing. I was being a ***** pretty much. I then eject very quickly and go walk around the place a bit more...
Later, I catch that girl from the group looking at me. She was smiling at me! I smiled back, though I pussied out from coming back...
The rest of the evening, me, Dumi and feelx pretty much dance and have fun. I try to approach another set of 3 girls, but as soon as I do so, they stopped dancing for some reasons. I wasn't feeling in state at all, but I just had to approach somehow. I was tired of seeing no good targets! Whatever, I just left and didn't persist.
I approach that girl, turns out that she's 18. We do a handshake. She seemed like a 7.5 from far, but from close she dropped to 6.5... I just ejected, no interest.
Forgot to mention about that fcking hot girl with transparent leggings. We could clearly and fully see her pink g-string through. Her ass cheeks were shaking as she danced. I couldn't dance because I had a boner XD.
Oh, and I fapped that night, AND had a wet dream also. I'm back to zero...
Tuesday, September 11th
First class is philosophy. That cute girl that was in my team for project was sitting in front of my friend. I say hi to the friend, look at her, but she looks away.
Why do I wait for the girl to smile first? That's retarded...
Whatever. I talk to my other friend (let's call him Porno because his name sounds like so). He's down for pick up! Awesome maaan.
I say hello to that other girl sitting in front of me. She's nice, HB7.
Creative Writing class!
I get in, and the usual 3 girls were waiting for me.
Girl : Ohhh you're here!
Me : Yeah, I know you've been waiting for me
Blablabla, conversation is always fun with them. That HB8.5 has a bright smile...
Though, they're done with school after that class! We head separate ways.
During the 30 minutes break, I was walking around a bit with Porno. I saw that girl from the bus again (let's call her Jen, an HB7), and we sat down next to her and her asian friend. We talked for a good 30 minutes, it was very chill. Porno tells me that he likes Simple Pickup videos because they're inspiring. I really gotta agree on that. We plan on doing pickup together this Saturday!
English class is alright. I'm in team with the usual guys.
Then, I gotta do my oral presentation for Humanities course!
I was feeling a bit nervous at first, I'll have to admit.
Most of the people passing were pretty much reading off their cue cards the whole time, having nervous ticks, not projecting their voices and looking down.
Even though I was feeling nervous, I worked on all of this. Body language, hand movements, eye contact with the audience, and projecting my voice. Though, my hand was still shaky and my friend noticed! Too bad I guess, hahaha. At least, I worked on fixing that.
I don't get it how people tell me that they're so fcking nervous for their oral presentations when they're already pretty outgoing social people. I guess that people don't like to get out their comfort zones in general... I started to enjoy it.
I'm done with school!
Though, I have to wait like an hour before I can go to that meeting with students from my program. So, as usual, during a break, I go at the lounge.
ALL the mexican buddies are there! I say hello to all of them, flirt just a little bit with that cute mexican, because my metal mexican friend winged me a bit... hahaha.
I was fooling and teasing around, then the girl does a hole with her index and thumb, meaning I don't know what. I stick my finger inside, friend DIES OF LAUGHTER HAHAHA! His laugh was contagious.
So I introduce myself to the other mexican girls, HB7s, but in Spanish. This time, I was feeling in the moment, and good. I didn't attempt to flirt with them. Just being overall social is a great thing to do. I introduced myself to other Mexican people I didn't know, again.
The meeting!
I get to the place, though I don't know anyone there. I see some dude, we look at each other, and I go : Sup?
We start off a conversation from there. Sometimes, it's good to start off with some things you've noticed about them, things that make them stand out, call them out on it.
I see that girl from work. We exchange hugs, talk for couple seconds. She's kinda hot, but I still feel like some girls aren't at my level, like they're higher in the social hierarchy.
WTF IS with that social hierarchy thing? Just... talk to her anyway... damn fck it.
Socializing, socializing. Though, my problem is that I get a LOT of new acquaintances, though I NEVER really close with any of them. I don't really ask them to hang out or anything. With guys, I feel comfortable doing so, but with girls, I have big troubles to be honest. What's so wrong with just going to the cafeteria and sit down for a bit? Or going for a walk near the lake? (That would actually be quite great).
Sticking point
I notice that I ALWAYS think of what to say next these days, especially when I talk to new people I just met. I just feel so in my head sometimes... I'm not able to get comfortable.
WHATEVER. I'll go through it hopefully.
Wednesday, September 12th
Forgot my iPod earphones at home, so I couldn't listen to music on the way to school.
This time, at the Universe of Arts class, I don't sit next to Lychee, but to the friend.
During the whole class, I was feeling nervous. Ahh, I gotta go talk to these girls in my project group and tell them to hang out, blablabla.
I couldn't even concentrate on the class. I was also feeling tired, and I simply wasn't in the mood. I was nervous, and when I tried to be present again, it didn't work.
Whatever. Class is over, though the girls get out too quickly and I don't have time to talk to them.
I have like 2 hours of break or something.
I see my metalhead friend, and I hang out with him for a bit. I meet him outside again, and he's with a girl, HB7. I introduce myself to her.
Prom girl comes nearby and we exchange hugs. She asks me if I'm going to the lazerquest event our high school friends organized. Told her that probably.
People around us were smoking, the guys around seemed to be the confident type. I started feeling uncomfortable for some reasons.
I didn't really engage conversation with the girl nor with her friend.
Whatever, I hang out a bit more with metalhead buddy and we go to the computer labs. I leave after a couple minutes.
I'm on my own, bored. I go to the cafeteria and I see my AFC buddy. I suggest him that we go sit down with that group of 2 girls we don't know. The WHOLE conversation, he doesn't open his mouth at least once to talk to the girls. They were good HB7s, no kidding. We talk for a bit, I don't flirt at all. It's more like friendly chatting. They leave, exchange goodbyes, that's pretty much it.
Filmmaking class.
Again, out of state. I see a group of girls in front of me. They were going to filmmaking class too!
Me : Filmmaking? Yeaah!
I tried to get myself into a good mood, but I was still feeling anxious.
I sit next to that hot HB8.5. I introduce myself, she does too. Though, she keeps reading her Harry Potter book like nothing happened. When I joke a bit, she doesn't even smile... Though, that asian girl sitting right next was more social it seems.
I leave the class, and I see the hot HB8.5 again. She doesn't even look at me at all! Fck it, I pussied out. I was thinking about talking to her during the class, but I got affected by her mood.
On the way out, that Vietnamese girl with a hat asks us if we're allowed to leave the class. Blabla, she asks me what nationality I am, and I tell her to guess.
Blablabla, I'm getting into a good mood again. She was in a good mood too, so it worked well.
Girl next to her has purple hair.
Me : Nice purple hair!
Girl : Ohh thanks! Blablabla
They start to walk away, they give me a good smile, though I wasn't listening to what they told me. I was into my head, thinking about the consequences of saying that compliment.
Wow man... I'm getting into my head A LOT!
I try to fall asleep. It's around midnight, but I cannot fall asleep. I proceed to meditation. It's been a couple days without meditation! Maybe that's why?...
Thursday, September 13th
Today!
Yep,
Woked up with a little amount of sleep. Had no choice... I couldn't fall asleep.
I made sure to bring my earphones with me this time.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_sK2pp2Vkto
Why give up? Why give in?
It's not enough, it never is
So I will go on until the end...
Memories start to come back. Not clear memories, but that good feeling was coming back again.
I have no reason to give up, no reason to give in. It's never enough and I can always push my limits. I do it because I love it, and I do it just to do it. Not to get to that final destination. There's no end to this adventure after all. Well, there's death, and it might happen tomorrow. Who knows?
I didn't resist that wave of good emotions this time.
Philosophy class, sit next to Porno and the other friend. Porno is a cool guy, I like his vibe.
Creative writing class!
The group of 3 always welcome me with pretty smiles.
I was in a pretty good mood, and they sensed it immediately.
HB8.5 told me how I remind her of the Zebra in Madagascar movie (LOL?) And how I'm like sunshine, how I'm pure joy.
That's a really great compliment. I thank her on that, tell her that it's sweet.
Blablabla, we leave the class together with the other friends too. Though, I had this BIG urge to pee, so I tell them that I gotta go to the toilet fast. They laugh, we head separate ways.
Truth is, I'm not always pure of joy.
I'm like a roller coaster. But isn't that the fun of it? Feeling down one day, knowing that the next day you'll stand up and do your thing!
Break happens. I chill with Porno for a bit. We get to his locker, I talk a bit with his friends but I don't really go into the conversation a lot. I'm shy again.
We get to the cafeteria, and friend from high school talks to me again. We talk for a bit, blablabla. Then, I see Lychee with a girl sitting at that table.
Me : Hey Porno, we're going. Down?
So yeah, I move towards the table. I go in correctly this time.
Me : Hey, how's it going!
I move her purse from the chair next to her, and I sit down. We talk for a bit, and I introduce myself to her friend. We have a conversation, she gets to know me a bit.
You know, my problem is that I can't get out of that comfortable friendly normal chat at school! Damn, I gotta start flirting, seriously.
So whatever. We still have fun, we laugh a bit too. We end up leaving because I have to go to class.
I get to English class. I do a short group oral, nothing complicated. I'm not very nervous.
Back to my locker, I see that girl named Samantha. She's pretty. Asked her what she was doing like that, waiting next to me.
She tells me that she's waiting for her boyfriend. Oh no!
For some reason, I slip into neediness mode again. Nothing happens. I'm the one to eject, and I get to the cafeteria by myself.
I eat a bit, and I see friend from philosophy class. He was with 2 other guys. I introduce myself to them, but I don't really join the conversation. I can hardly hear them because of the loudness in the cafeteria. I asked them things about working out.
I see 2 girls sitting next to us, and I start to panic...?
This was very weird, indeed. I'm just feeling ****ty these days...
I just leave the table, saying bye to my buddy. The girls didn't even looked at me.
I get to my last class. Humanities.
That girl sitting in the back looked very hot today. I could see her cameltoe and a bit of her buttcheeks with her short shorts. I'm getting a boner from writing this.
My lips literally went like : Woooah...
I was hypnotized by that beautiful cameltoe.
I catch her looking at me a couple of times.
When I leave class, I see her looking at me again... I just keep walking to my locker.
I talk to my friend (let's call him Megaton). I talk to him a bit about pick up, and he's interested in it! He also knows about Simple Pickup.
I see the hot cameltoe girl walking pass us.
Megaton (whispering) : Duuude, this girl is sooooo hot!
Blablabla, told him that she's mine, hahaha.
NEXT TIME, I GOTTA TALK TO HER. NO EXCUSES. SHE'S OBVIOUSLY HOT AND SEXY.
Workout!
Worked on the shoulders today, I don't know what the exercises are called, but it's pretty much 3 sets of 10 to 12 reps with 12.5lbs dumbells. I can't do more than that.
Worked on chest too with some bench press. 50 minutes of working out.
Oh ****! On the way out, I see HB8.5 from Creative Writing class again. I REALLY wasn't expecting this, and I became nervous again.
So we talk for a bit, I get into my head this time. I'm not the usual sunshine of joy as usual! Lool...
Me : So what you do during that weekend?
Her : Blablabla, do this, do that, meet up with my boyfriend.
OH FCK SHE ALSO HAS A BOYFRIEND! Damn, they all have boyfriends or what?
So yeah.
I head home, and at the bus stop, I see that girl that was looking at me in the hallway. The other day, she told me that I looked familiar, blablabla. Apparently I was mad at her? (I really wasn't I was just playing) And she was mad because of this lol!
Whatever. We sit in the bus, we talk for a bit.
Me : So yeah, in filmmaking class I'm doing a porn movie.
Her : Oh yeah? Who's the pornstar?
Me : You
Her : Ohhh hahaha! That's a little bit too early, blablabla.
Her : Oh it's so hot inside.
Me : I know I'm hot, thanks
She laughs, blablabla.
She's just a 7, or maybe lower because of her overdose of glossy make-up...
Whatever. I feel like she's losing attraction, and I don't really know why I'm flirting with her if I'm not attracted. Just for practice I guess.
I invite her to go eat some fries but that she has to pay for me XD. She refuses. I was thinking of what to say next, but then, I just went like : FCK IT, JUST ASK RANDOM ****!
Me : Hey, why do girls hide stuff in their boobs?
Blablabla. We head separate ways when the bus stops. I can't close, fckkk! What I can do is make friends with her friends, and so on. So I gotta close with anyone that seems cool.
Conclusion
I HAVE TO GET OFF THAT FRIENDLY TCHIT-TCHATTING.
I GOTTA STOP FCKING THINKING OF WHAT TO SAY! When I do so, I end not not listening to what the other person is saying, because I'm thinking. I gotta embrace the present moment.
I gotta touch girls more, talk closer to them.
I gotta put my personality on the line and stop playing it safe. Everyone I talked to thinks that I'm pretty nice in general, and no one rejected me really, for now. This means that I'M NOT PUSHING MYSELF ENOUGH.
I gotta workout more too, AND NO FAP. That No Fap was really what gave me the boost and horniness to go approach.
UNTIL NEXT TIME GUYS. I GOTTA DO THIS.
Filmmaking class.
Again, out of state. I see a group of girls in front of me. They were going to filmmaking class too!
Me : Filmmaking? Yeaah!
I tried to get myself into a good mood, but I was still feeling anxious.
I sit next to that hot HB8.5. I introduce myself, she does too. Though, she keeps reading her Harry Potter book like nothing happened. When I joke a bit, she doesn't even smile... Though, that asian girl sitting right next was more social it seems.
I leave the class, and I see the hot HB8.5 again. She doesn't even look at me at all! Fck it, I pussied out. I was thinking about talking to her during the class, but I got affected by her mood.
On the way out, that Vietnamese girl with a hat asks us if we're allowed to leave the class. Blabla, she asks me what nationality I am, and I tell her to guess.
Blablabla, I'm getting into a good mood again. She was in a good mood too, so it worked well.
Girl next to her has purple hair.
Me : Nice purple hair!
Girl : Ohh thanks! Blablabla
They start to walk away, they give me a good smile, though I wasn't listening to what they told me. I was into my head, thinking about the consequences of saying that compliment.
Wow man... I'm getting into my head A LOT!
I try to fall asleep. It's around midnight, but I cannot fall asleep. I proceed to meditation. It's been a couple days without meditation! Maybe that's why?...
Thursday, September 13th
Today!
Yep,
Woked up with a little amount of sleep. Had no choice... I couldn't fall asleep.
I made sure to bring my earphones with me this time.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_sK2pp2Vkto
Why give up? Why give in?
It's not enough, it never is
So I will go on until the end...
Memories start to come back. Not clear memories, but that good feeling was coming back again.
I have no reason to give up, no reason to give in. It's never enough and I can always push my limits. I do it because I love it, and I do it just to do it. Not to get to that final destination. There's no end to this adventure after all. Well, there's death, and it might happen tomorrow. Who knows?
I didn't resist that wave of good emotions this time.
Philosophy class, sit next to Porno and the other friend. Porno is a cool guy, I like his vibe.
Creative writing class!
The group of 3 always welcome me with pretty smiles.
I was in a pretty good mood, and they sensed it immediately.
HB8.5 told me how I remind her of the Zebra in Madagascar movie (LOL?) And how I'm like sunshine, how I'm pure joy.
That's a really great compliment. I thank her on that, tell her that it's sweet.
Blablabla, we leave the class together with the other friends too. Though, I had this BIG urge to pee, so I tell them that I gotta go to the toilet fast. They laugh, we head separate ways.
Truth is, I'm not always pure of joy.
I'm like a roller coaster. But isn't that the fun of it? Feeling down one day, knowing that the next day you'll stand up and do your thing!
Break happens. I chill with Porno for a bit. We get to his locker, I talk a bit with his friends but I don't really go into the conversation a lot. I'm shy again.
We get to the cafeteria, and friend from high school talks to me again. We talk for a bit, blablabla. Then, I see Lychee with a girl sitting at that table.
Me : Hey Porno, we're going. Down?
So yeah, I move towards the table. I go in correctly this time.
Me : Hey, how's it going!
I move her purse from the chair next to her, and I sit down. We talk for a bit, and I introduce myself to her friend. We have a conversation, she gets to know me a bit.
You know, my problem is that I can't get out of that comfortable friendly normal chat at school! Damn, I gotta start flirting, seriously.
So whatever. We still have fun, we laugh a bit too. We end up leaving because I have to go to class.
I get to English class. I do a short group oral, nothing complicated. I'm not very nervous.
Back to my locker, I see that girl named Samantha. She's pretty. Asked her what she was doing like that, waiting next to me.
She tells me that she's waiting for her boyfriend. Oh no!
For some reason, I slip into neediness mode again. Nothing happens. I'm the one to eject, and I get to the cafeteria by myself.
I eat a bit, and I see friend from philosophy class. He was with 2 other guys. I introduce myself to them, but I don't really join the conversation. I can hardly hear them because of the loudness in the cafeteria. I asked them things about working out.
I see 2 girls sitting next to us, and I start to panic...?
This was very weird, indeed. I'm just feeling ****ty these days...
I just leave the table, saying bye to my buddy. The girls didn't even looked at me.
I get to my last class. Humanities.
That girl sitting in the back looked very hot today. I could see her cameltoe and a bit of her buttcheeks with her short shorts. I'm getting a boner from writing this.
My lips literally went like : Woooah...
I was hypnotized by that beautiful cameltoe.
I catch her looking at me a couple of times.
When I leave class, I see her looking at me again... I just keep walking to my locker.
I talk to my friend (let's call him Megaton). I talk to him a bit about pick up, and he's interested in it! He also knows about Simple Pickup.
I see the hot cameltoe girl walking pass us.
Megaton (whispering) : Duuude, this girl is sooooo hot!
Blablabla, told him that she's mine, hahaha.
NEXT TIME, I GOTTA TALK TO HER. NO EXCUSES. SHE'S OBVIOUSLY HOT AND SEXY.
Workout!
Worked on the shoulders today, I don't know what the exercises are called, but it's pretty much 3 sets of 10 to 12 reps with 12.5lbs dumbells. I can't do more than that.
Worked on chest too with some bench press. 50 minutes of working out.
Oh ****! On the way out, I see HB8.5 from Creative Writing class again. I REALLY wasn't expecting this, and I became nervous again.
So we talk for a bit, I get into my head this time. I'm not the usual sunshine of joy as usual! Lool...
Me : So what you do during that weekend?
Her : Blablabla, do this, do that, meet up with my boyfriend.
OH FCK SHE ALSO HAS A BOYFRIEND! Damn, they all have boyfriends or what?
So yeah.
I head home, and at the bus stop, I see that girl that was looking at me in the hallway. The other day, she told me that I looked familiar, blablabla. Apparently I was mad at her? (I really wasn't I was just playing) And she was mad because of this lol!
Whatever. We sit in the bus, we talk for a bit.
Me : So yeah, in filmmaking class I'm doing a porn movie.
Her : Oh yeah? Who's the pornstar?
Me : You
Her : Ohhh hahaha! That's a little bit too early, blablabla.
Her : Oh it's so hot inside.
Me : I know I'm hot, thanks
She laughs, blablabla.
She's just a 7, or maybe lower because of her overdose of glossy make-up...
Whatever. I feel like she's losing attraction, and I don't really know why I'm flirting with her if I'm not attracted. Just for practice I guess.
I invite her to go eat some fries but that she has to pay for me XD. She refuses. I was thinking of what to say next, but then, I just went like : FCK IT, JUST ASK RANDOM ****!
Me : Hey, why do girls hide stuff in their boobs?
Blablabla. We head separate ways when the bus stops. I can't close, fckkk! What I can do is make friends with her friends, and so on. So I gotta close with anyone that seems cool.
Conclusion
I HAVE TO GET OFF THAT FRIENDLY TCHIT-TCHATTING.
I GOTTA STOP FCKING THINKING OF WHAT TO SAY! When I do so, I end not not listening to what the other person is saying, because I'm thinking. I gotta embrace the present moment.
I gotta touch girls more, talk closer to them.
I gotta put my personality on the line and stop playing it safe. Everyone I talked to thinks that I'm pretty nice in general, and no one rejected me really, for now. This means that I'M NOT PUSHING MYSELF ENOUGH.
I gotta workout more too, AND NO FAP. That No Fap was really what gave me the boost and horniness to go approach.
UNTIL NEXT TIME GUYS. I GOTTA DO THIS.
Saturday, September 15th
Gamed with Rickyboy and my friend Porno!
1:15 PM
Mom : Mindgamez! Can we go now?
I was finising hairspraying my mohawk. I felt like it wasn't as good as usual, but it was still pretty nice.
Me : Yeah, I'm coming.
I go down the stairs and get ready to get out. I look into the mirror again, making sure that my hair looked alright.
Mom : Ohhh, your hair looks ugly.
Me : What? Why don't you like it?
Mom : It looks... too asian! It's not pretty at all.
Me : How come too asian?
Mom : Yeah, I don't like it.
Me : You know what's ugly?
Mom : What?
I hesitate for a second, but then the it just goes out by itself.
Me : Your face.
She looked at me, laughed a bit. Though, I didn't have the slightest smile. Her laughter just made things worse.
I get out the house, go in the car. I wait for a couple minutes, but she doesn't come. I rush into the house.
Me : Mom!!
Mom : I'm coming I'm coming, I'm having troubles, wait.
Me : Ok.
I get out of the house, into the car again. After a while, she goes in. We're off to the bus stop.
Mom : Mindgamez, you don't need to get mad at me. I just want to be totally honest with you. It doesn't look good. You know, your friends will tell you that it looks good and won't tell you if it really does look good or bad. They're probably lying.
I retained myself of saying bad things again. I remained silent, but keeping that anger inside wasn't helping.
I flipped the mirror in the car, looked at myself again. Yeah, it's not the best mohawk ever. Or you know what? FCK IT, FCK HER.
1:45 PM
Me : You can drop me off here.
Mom : Okay.
She stops. I open the door and put my first foot out.
Mom : Goodbye!
She kept talking, but I didn't pay any attention. Left the car, ignoring her.
Too asian? Pfft.
I step into the bus, and open my iPod.
Girugamesh - Enishi - YouTube
Hey, maybe I should get myself piercings too. That would be pretty nice, for both ears.
2:45 PM. Gaming starts.
I step out of the subway, and start texting Rickyboy.
Me : Where you at?
Him : On the street. Meet me near Starbucks.
I felt bad for being late today, but Ricky was fine with that, hopefully!
On the street, I see a bald man that was giving out Yoga pamphlets. I stop and ask for a small book.
He asks me if I do yoga, then I tell him that I do meditation.
Him : Ohh really? Well, you seem like a very peaceful person.
I liked the compliment. Was it just to get me to give a donation? Or was it genuine? Oh man, I don't know why I'm always overthinking crap like that. People are good people no matter what, and how can a guy that looks like a spiritual monk be bull****ting? Come on! Just be cool.
I take the small book, give him 2 bucks for encouragement.
So we start walking for a bit. He suggested me places for my new jacket. I imagined myself in a black jacket, kind of leather-like. I want to improve my looks.
On the streets, we saw very very few opportunities, surprisingly. Of course, we did ***** out a couple of times, but it was hard to find the good ones.
I get into that other store, buy my jacket, and I receive a text from Porno. We meet at the food court.
Ricky and Porno exchange handshakes, and we start walking around the place a bit. I see a set of 2 pretty looking girls. I ***** out for like 30 seconds, but I end up going after a little while. Damn, I felt rusty! Didn't do any direct daygame in like 2 weeks or so.
Yep.
The approach was like usual. I open with a loud Hey! Do you guys speak French or English?
From close, I could see the two girls clearly. The first one was a 7.5 the other one was a 8.5. Very beautiful, but she definitely looked older.
After I told them that they were cute, I smile and I decide to have some fun. They smiled too, nothing special.
Me : How's your food?
8.5 : Oh it's pretty good.
Me : That's greaat. We should go eat together sometimes, I'll show you the good asian food.
8.5 : Yeah, maybe.
Blablabla, not much is said.
Me : Actually I was just kidding haha, goodbye!
I said it because I was feeling insecure. I left after like 30 seconds of interaction...
On the street, we see some girls blowing some bubbles on other people, with some cool looking costumes. It was funny haha. I tell them that they're awesome. They looked kinda cute.
So we walk around for a bit again. We decide to play Go, and we gotta do 5 push ups if we fail to approach. It was harder for me because my shoulders were already sore, but I didn't care.
So I see that girl walking opposite direction. I see her, look at her. Though, I hesitate. I just let her pass by.
Me : Ahhhhh man...
I let my bottle fall on the ground loudly, and I proceed to doing my push ups.
Ricky : Wow, that's funny how you dropped that bottle and started doing push ups.
Me : Yeah haha, I just did it by myself!
I was giving myself punishment, no need for them to do it for me.
Me : WOOOOOHH!
Porno : Haha, why you screaming like that?
Me : It puts me into state!
They laughed a bit, I though that it was funny too.
Me : Alright... meditation.
I emptied my mind. Everything seemed more peaceful. We kept walking silently. No targets in sight for a long while.
Set of 2
I see them in a group of like 6 girls a couple feet ahead. They split up, and there's a group of 2.
Me : Hey hey!
I was loud.
Me : Are you guys French or English?
They look at me, keep walking away.
Me : Heey, wait a second, I gotta talk to you guys!
Said it playfully, and I smiled a bit. I questioned myself. Was I being too aggressive with my loud voice?
Oh ya.
Kept walking... kept walking.
I see that girl, but naah... she doesn't look that pretty.
Ricky : Go! Hey she's not so bad! (or I don't remember what he said)
So I run back to her. Again, I'm loud.
Me : Hey hey!
I do the usual thing, I hesitate a bit from telling her that she's cute because she's not that hot. I still say it to her. Apparently, she was the girl blowing bubbles earlier! Couldn't recognize her without her crocodile hat and sunglasses.
She seemed shy and awkward the whole conversation! It wasn't attractive, so I just eject after we exchanged names.
I walk away.
On the way to Ricky and Porno, I see a girl smiling at me. She then looks away after I smiled. Wait! She looked familiar. And she was with a hot friend, an 8.
Me : Do I know you?
Her : Mhmhmh No, blablala, though you're in my bus.
Me : Hum, which bus?
So apparently she takes the bus that goes to my school sometimes. Though, she DOESN'T go to my school (wtf? lol).
Me : Ohhh wow! So you guys just saw me, and went like : Ohh! There's a pretty guy! Let's stalk him
They laughed, and the girl seemed hesitant a bit. By the way she's a 7.
We exchange names, and we keep holding hands for a long time.
I was feeling very chill and in control this time! I shake hands with the hotter girl too, but ***** out from talking more to her.
Blablabla, before ejecting, I tell them that they're cute.
Her : Thank you, you too!
So walk off, get back to the guys. They encouraged me and told me that I was doing great, that I'm on fire burniiinng. Then, I explained them what happened. I wasn't really feeling that much on fire, but whatever lol.
It's getting late, and stores are starting to close. Fewer and fewer opportunities...
We decide to change places and to try and game elsewhere. We ***** out from approaching that beautiful hotness at the entrance of comicon. COMICONNNN!
As we get in the building, I start singing the Simple Pickup song that plays during the Drunk Times. We start going into a playful mood, we laugh a bit.
They did a couple approaches, and LOL PORNO'S APPROACH. SO FUNNY HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
So he saw that woman walking from far. She looked at least 8 from far away.
So she was very far away, but it's not an excuse for Porno! So he runs at her, literally. Me and Ricky feel proud. First approach of the day FINALLY!
So he stops her.
Me : Hey! Uh... OH ****!
He backs off, the woman looks at him like he's a serial killer, and he runs back to us. WE LITERALLY DIE of LAUGHTER HAHAHAHAHAHAH!
Porno : Man, she looked like she was 30!
We give him props for what he did, and told him how awesome and funny it was.
So after like an hour of walking around seeing almost no targets, we decide to head back home... I felt disappointed, like I could've done more this day.
So we take the stairs down.
Me : HEY WAIT GUYS! Those girls looked very cute!
Ricky: Where?
Me : THESE GIRLS!
Porno : Ohhhh man!
Me : We can still go!
Porno : Let's go?
Me : Mhmhm.
Porno : LET'S GOOO!!
LOL I love Porno! He starts running up the electric stairs in the opposite direction. I follow him, running very fast.
So we arrive at the top, they're outside. I tell him to go, because I already did a good couple of approaches, and I wanted him to do his.
So he goes! A good set of 3 girls, HB8s at least, or even more. For a first time ever, pretty pro!
So heading back to the subway, I tell them that I'm going to that station by myself to game alone.
I didn't feel like doing it. I was a bit down actually. But what's the right thing to do? I gotta do it.
So we talked again, and the guys are actually down for gaming a bit more with me.
Gamed with Rickyboy and my friend Porno!
1:15 PM
Mom : Mindgamez! Can we go now?
I was finising hairspraying my mohawk. I felt like it wasn't as good as usual, but it was still pretty nice.
Me : Yeah, I'm coming.
I go down the stairs and get ready to get out. I look into the mirror again, making sure that my hair looked alright.
Mom : Ohhh, your hair looks ugly.
Me : What? Why don't you like it?
Mom : It looks... too asian! It's not pretty at all.
Me : How come too asian?
Mom : Yeah, I don't like it.
Me : You know what's ugly?
Mom : What?
I hesitate for a second, but then the it just goes out by itself.
Me : Your face.
She looked at me, laughed a bit. Though, I didn't have the slightest smile. Her laughter just made things worse.
I get out the house, go in the car. I wait for a couple minutes, but she doesn't come. I rush into the house.
Me : Mom!!
Mom : I'm coming I'm coming, I'm having troubles, wait.
Me : Ok.
I get out of the house, into the car again. After a while, she goes in. We're off to the bus stop.
Mom : Mindgamez, you don't need to get mad at me. I just want to be totally honest with you. It doesn't look good. You know, your friends will tell you that it looks good and won't tell you if it really does look good or bad. They're probably lying.
I retained myself of saying bad things again. I remained silent, but keeping that anger inside wasn't helping.
I flipped the mirror in the car, looked at myself again. Yeah, it's not the best mohawk ever. Or you know what? FCK IT, FCK HER.
1:45 PM
Me : You can drop me off here.
Mom : Okay.
She stops. I open the door and put my first foot out.
Mom : Goodbye!
She kept talking, but I didn't pay any attention. Left the car, ignoring her.
Too asian? Pfft.
I step into the bus, and open my iPod.
Girugamesh - Enishi - YouTube
Hey, maybe I should get myself piercings too. That would be pretty nice, for both ears.
2:45 PM. Gaming starts.
I step out of the subway, and start texting Rickyboy.
Me : Where you at?
Him : On the street. Meet me near Starbucks.
I felt bad for being late today, but Ricky was fine with that, hopefully!
On the street, I see a bald man that was giving out Yoga pamphlets. I stop and ask for a small book.
He asks me if I do yoga, then I tell him that I do meditation.
Him : Ohh really? Well, you seem like a very peaceful person.
I liked the compliment. Was it just to get me to give a donation? Or was it genuine? Oh man, I don't know why I'm always overthinking crap like that. People are good people no matter what, and how can a guy that looks like a spiritual monk be bull****ting? Come on! Just be cool.
I take the small book, give him 2 bucks for encouragement.
So we start walking for a bit. He suggested me places for my new jacket. I imagined myself in a black jacket, kind of leather-like. I want to improve my looks.
On the streets, we saw very very few opportunities, surprisingly. Of course, we did ***** out a couple of times, but it was hard to find the good ones.
I get into that other store, buy my jacket, and I receive a text from Porno. We meet at the food court.
Ricky and Porno exchange handshakes, and we start walking around the place a bit. I see a set of 2 pretty looking girls. I ***** out for like 30 seconds, but I end up going after a little while. Damn, I felt rusty! Didn't do any direct daygame in like 2 weeks or so.
Yep.
The approach was like usual. I open with a loud Hey! Do you guys speak French or English?
From close, I could see the two girls clearly. The first one was a 7.5 the other one was a 8.5. Very beautiful, but she definitely looked older.
After I told them that they were cute, I smile and I decide to have some fun. They smiled too, nothing special.
Me : How's your food?
8.5 : Oh it's pretty good.
Me : That's greaat. We should go eat together sometimes, I'll show you the good asian food.
8.5 : Yeah, maybe.
Blablabla, not much is said.
Me : Actually I was just kidding haha, goodbye!
I said it because I was feeling insecure. I left after like 30 seconds of interaction...
On the street, we see some girls blowing some bubbles on other people, with some cool looking costumes. It was funny haha. I tell them that they're awesome. They looked kinda cute.
So we walk around for a bit again. We decide to play Go, and we gotta do 5 push ups if we fail to approach. It was harder for me because my shoulders were already sore, but I didn't care.
So I see that girl walking opposite direction. I see her, look at her. Though, I hesitate. I just let her pass by.
Me : Ahhhhh man...
I let my bottle fall on the ground loudly, and I proceed to doing my push ups.
Ricky : Wow, that's funny how you dropped that bottle and started doing push ups.
Me : Yeah haha, I just did it by myself!
I was giving myself punishment, no need for them to do it for me.
Me : WOOOOOHH!
Porno : Haha, why you screaming like that?
Me : It puts me into state!
They laughed a bit, I though that it was funny too.
Me : Alright... meditation.
I emptied my mind. Everything seemed more peaceful. We kept walking silently. No targets in sight for a long while.
Set of 2
I see them in a group of like 6 girls a couple feet ahead. They split up, and there's a group of 2.
Me : Hey hey!
I was loud.
Me : Are you guys French or English?
They look at me, keep walking away.
Me : Heey, wait a second, I gotta talk to you guys!
Said it playfully, and I smiled a bit. I questioned myself. Was I being too aggressive with my loud voice?
Oh ya.
Kept walking... kept walking.
I see that girl, but naah... she doesn't look that pretty.
Ricky : Go! Hey she's not so bad! (or I don't remember what he said)
So I run back to her. Again, I'm loud.
Me : Hey hey!
I do the usual thing, I hesitate a bit from telling her that she's cute because she's not that hot. I still say it to her. Apparently, she was the girl blowing bubbles earlier! Couldn't recognize her without her crocodile hat and sunglasses.
She seemed shy and awkward the whole conversation! It wasn't attractive, so I just eject after we exchanged names.
I walk away.
On the way to Ricky and Porno, I see a girl smiling at me. She then looks away after I smiled. Wait! She looked familiar. And she was with a hot friend, an 8.
Me : Do I know you?
Her : Mhmhmh No, blablala, though you're in my bus.
Me : Hum, which bus?
So apparently she takes the bus that goes to my school sometimes. Though, she DOESN'T go to my school (wtf? lol).
Me : Ohhh wow! So you guys just saw me, and went like : Ohh! There's a pretty guy! Let's stalk him
They laughed, and the girl seemed hesitant a bit. By the way she's a 7.
We exchange names, and we keep holding hands for a long time.
I was feeling very chill and in control this time! I shake hands with the hotter girl too, but ***** out from talking more to her.
Blablabla, before ejecting, I tell them that they're cute.
Her : Thank you, you too!
So walk off, get back to the guys. They encouraged me and told me that I was doing great, that I'm on fire burniiinng. Then, I explained them what happened. I wasn't really feeling that much on fire, but whatever lol.
It's getting late, and stores are starting to close. Fewer and fewer opportunities...
We decide to change places and to try and game elsewhere. We ***** out from approaching that beautiful hotness at the entrance of comicon. COMICONNNN!
As we get in the building, I start singing the Simple Pickup song that plays during the Drunk Times. We start going into a playful mood, we laugh a bit.
They did a couple approaches, and LOL PORNO'S APPROACH. SO FUNNY HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
So he saw that woman walking from far. She looked at least 8 from far away.
So she was very far away, but it's not an excuse for Porno! So he runs at her, literally. Me and Ricky feel proud. First approach of the day FINALLY!
So he stops her.
Me : Hey! Uh... OH ****!
He backs off, the woman looks at him like he's a serial killer, and he runs back to us. WE LITERALLY DIE of LAUGHTER HAHAHAHAHAHAH!
Porno : Man, she looked like she was 30!
We give him props for what he did, and told him how awesome and funny it was.
So after like an hour of walking around seeing almost no targets, we decide to head back home... I felt disappointed, like I could've done more this day.
So we take the stairs down.
Me : HEY WAIT GUYS! Those girls looked very cute!
Ricky: Where?
Me : THESE GIRLS!
Porno : Ohhhh man!
Me : We can still go!
Porno : Let's go?
Me : Mhmhm.
Porno : LET'S GOOO!!
LOL I love Porno! He starts running up the electric stairs in the opposite direction. I follow him, running very fast.
So we arrive at the top, they're outside. I tell him to go, because I already did a good couple of approaches, and I wanted him to do his.
So he goes! A good set of 3 girls, HB8s at least, or even more. For a first time ever, pretty pro!
So heading back to the subway, I tell them that I'm going to that station by myself to game alone.
I didn't feel like doing it. I was a bit down actually. But what's the right thing to do? I gotta do it.
So we talked again, and the guys are actually down for gaming a bit more with me.