Journal - Approaches on street, at mall, etc.

[Mindgamez]

Thanks for support man, though I ain't that pro yet!

Monday, August 13th
Flirted with a co-worker, finally! Girls talk to me more and do most of the talking and I ain't doing anything sometimes! That's great.
After I read only 20 pages of The Power Of Now, I feel so much more present already.
Also, prom girl stopped the texting. Probably because I didn't flirt enough, but I don't care she ain't that pretty anyway. What's great is that I'm so outcome dependent with her and don't care if it works out or not!

So I went to work,
And I saw that cute HB8 working here. We talked together already once. She seemed nervous. Caught her looking at me, I already had a huge smile on my face, said hello, she responded. She kept the same face... Though I didn't see her later that day because her shift was over! So she left.

I arrived at the cafeteria. The girls were talking to each other. I said Heeey! They didn't hear me.
When I get closer, I say What's up? Guess what... that girl that usually doesn't smile to me (she was actually smiling when she was chatting her friends) looked at me, said Hey, THOUGH her face instantly changed and her smile was gone. WHAT A *****?

Later that day, I was like : Lol, WHY THE HELL DO I CARE? I started laughing alone by myself. I was going crazy. No, I was just in the moment.

So I met with the usual 6.5 that works with me in the alleys. She bumps into me, we talk but nothing special. I don't wanna get her, but it's way possible that she's attracted to me. Later that day, she bumps into me again with her right boob.

Kept working. I met these new guys that work here, very cool guys!

Basically worked all day. Nothing special. I love my job, because I get to interact with customers all the time and I get comfortable with speaking in english.

Went to the cafeteria for my break. Started feeling nervous again... There was this new girl, pretty cute but not that much. Ends up that she's 19. She was the one asking me several questions about which school I went, what I'm studying, etc. She did most of the talking, but I was nervous. Agghh why am I not comfortable in English yet? I'm going to a frawking English school in 2 weeks!

Sometimes I'd see that HB7.5 (let's call her Niyo) working at the cash. I'd sometimes catch her looking at me. I'd give her a smile.

You know that girl that would never smile at me? Seemed like she was pretty happy with that new Japanese dude just by the way she was talking. I was like Ohhh Whaat?! I looked closely at him. What made him attractive? Probably the fact that he was just NORMAL! He was so normal. That's the key, be yourself and be congruent to what you're feeling.

Store had to close!
We had to do the facing and make sure the store looked perfect.
Niyo : Where does that go?
Me : Ohhh it goes right here! You're sooo blind...
Blablabla, she came next to me again.
Me : Mhmhmhmh. You know, when Mindgamez is tired, do not ask him things or he'll be mad! Even if you're Niyo
Don't remember what she said at this point. It was playful.

It was getting late.
Me : So waddup?
Her : I want to sleep.
Me : Ohh me too! We have so much in common
She started laughing. I didn't risk looking at her right away. I wanted to say something about sleeping together sometimes, that would've been great hahaha.

She said something that sounded like : I Like balls.
Me : What did you say?
Her : Blabla
Me : Oh, I though that you said I Like Balls!
She opened her mouth in awe, I kept the eye contact and gave a warm smile.
Me : You know, it's alright if you like balls, just admit it!
Her : I don't like balls
Me : Whaaat! what's wrong with you? You're a girl
She had to leave to that other section of the store.

Later,
Her : Hey where does that go, my little Mindgamez?
Me : Me little?! I'm taller than you!
So she played the attitude playfully, stands on her toes. I put my hand on her head gently to pull her down and she laughs.

Later,
Her : Hey Mindgamez, where does that go?
I point where it goes.
Her : Can you put it there?
Me : Nooooo I'm too lazy, you do it!
Blabla
Me : Even with pretty girls, I'm not a gentleman sorry!
I was a little nervous when I said it. I wanted to say Even if you're pretty, instead of Even with pretty girls.
Her : A gift?
Me : No, take it!
Her : Ohhh...

I catch her bumping into me a couple times for no reason *subtly*. I pussied out from pushing things further.

When I was in my own world saying bull****, she'd repeat it for fun. I wasn't even paying attention to her sometimes. We chatted playfully a bit more.

People were so funny near the end! All co workers were laughing and everybody had a good vibe. It was contagious. We joked around a lot and had a lot of fun.

You know what guys? Niyo looks like Laos in terms of looks... Ah whatever, let's not think about Laos again. Nightmares might come back!

So Niyo was leaving, we exchange a high five. No hugs? Too baad

On the way to the bus
That 19 year old girl from work talks to me again. We walk to our bus stop, asked her for a sip of Arizona, she asked me if I had aids. Could've said something about sex at this point lol, but didn't.
She kept asking me questions. I was just so normal and chill, didn't think of anything to say. It just happened automatically. When I said jokes, she laughed a lot every time, though they weren't all that funny. I end up the conversation with a high five, then invites me for a hug. She asks me if I'm working this Wednesday, tell her that I am. We exchange goodbyes, though we don't work during the same time! And she quits the job this Friday, so I won't ever see her again. Who cares? Hahaha

In the bus
I see that girl, 6.5, friend of my gay friend. Weirdly, she sits on that other seat kind of far from me.
Me : Why you sit so far?
Her : I don't know. More space?
She puts her bag on the seat next to her.
So blablablabla. I then sit next to her. We keep talking about stuff and stuff. I wasn't thinking about what to say, because she was the one asking the questions! I didn't have to do anything, again. We kept talking and talking for 15 minutes, no flirting. She was cute, but her face had too much makeup...

I get back home, tired as hell. I listen to some self-hypnosis before going to sleep.

What's coming up next
Niyo won't be working at the same time as me this week. I'll have to wait until next week to see her again. I have to push things further man! When It's social circle stuff, I don't feel as safe. Whatever, let's just go for it.
This wednesday, going to do some daygame with Giloflex from SP forum.
I'll try to get that day off to go to that Jam this friday night! Man, I can get some grinding going that night for sure. Hope I'll be able to make it.
Also, I'll try and subscribe to project Go. It's so not expensive!

 

[LearningSlowly]

That time when you wouldn't put an item on a shelf for a girl, because she could do it herself, that's good. It shows you treat women like people and you don't put up with bullsh!t. When you started this journal you would not have reacted that way.

If you buy access to Project Go, let me know on facebook I wanna see a couple of em!

 

[Mindgamez]

Oh man, you guys should buy Project Go and support them! It's cheap and it's great... why not? True that I put up with less and less bullshat these days. I call them up on it!

Tuesday, August 14th
GOT NUMBER CLOSED BY A GIRL. Not really, but kind of haha

So yeah,
Arrived at work at like 5 PM. I saw that new asian girl (solid 7.5) at the cafeteria, so I go :
Me : Who are you? I've never seen you before!
Blablabla, we exchange names. Then I go Yeaah asian power! All the other girls start laughing for some reason. Asian girl tries to guess my nationality, blablabla. They then leave to work.

Later that day, during the break, I ask some girl if she could take my shift this Friday evening so I can go to that Jam. She's not quite sure, so I'm like Okay and I go back to work.

Asian girl comes to me!
Girl : Heey, you need someone to take your shift for friday?
Me : Yeah
Girl : Well I might be able to work this Friday. What we can do is you give me your number so I'll text you if I can.
I had a good idea here! Yeaaah
Me : Wait... is that an excuse to get my number?
Girl : Maybe? XD
Me : Ahhh well you know, a handsome guy like me, that's alright!
Girl : Yeah
Me : And also you're pretty cute too, which is great. Blabla
She smiled, though she seemed a bit shy here. She's asian after all, right?
So I give her my phone so she can put in her number.
Girl : Wait, isn't me that should get your number?
Me : Doesn't matter, I'll just text you and you'll just add me.
I get my phone back and text her : Yooooo!
Me : YOooooo!
She laughs, then we exchange goodbyes. She had a bright smile.

She didn't text back yet! I have to call her tomorrow (August 17th) to see if she can take my shift this Friday. We had like 1 minute of conversation so we don't really know each other. Who cares, let's flirt a bit ASAP

Thursday, August 16th
8 Approaches, zero numbers BUT I suggested that girl to add me on facebook. And she did.
APPROACHED A WHOLE FAMILY! DAMN THAT WAS THE **** Hahaha!
Approached a girl I ALREADY APPROACHED. Whaatt!

So yeah,
At work today, the 6.5 (more like a 6) bumped into me at 3:50PM. I had to leave at 4PM, and she was starting at 4PM.
Her : I don't know why I came so early, I only work at 4!
Me : Probably to come and see me?
Her : Yeaah
Me : Ohhh okay haha
Her : You know, I really like working with guys. It would've been boring to work with only girls!
Me : Yeah I know, I like working with girls too. It's a different environment.
Her : I know right? Girls are like too serious sometimes, guys are playful and fun to be around! Blablablabla.
She was basically telling me that she enjoys my company. She's nice and kind, but she ain't hot at all!
Later, the cashier calls someone to come to the cash. I tell her to go, she refuses and she tells me to go. I keep refusing, she keeps teasing me and tries to push me to go. I didn't. I had to leave this place! And it was already 4:10. Boss wanted me to stay longer to finish my work...

Whatever. Back to approaching.
So I arrived at 5:15 at destination. Last time I went to the mall at Atwater, there was nobody... it was EMPTY! I wasn't ready when I saw like 3 girls walking by themselves, HB7-8s! I skipped them and regretted it. I kept walking around, skipped some other girl because she went into some store, and then didn't see any more good females...
Giloflex! arrived at 5:25. We walked around more, didn't see any girls so we went on the streets to game.

We talked about maybe to start working out. I SHOULD!! Well, I'll try to work out at school. We probably have some gym at school, and it would be a lot more convenient to train there with friends than in some other random gym.

 

[Mindgamez]

HB7 asian and a 6 They looked too young for me, but I HAD to do an approach and I was tired of *****ing out.
So after like 20 minutes of walking around a *****ing out, I see two asian girls looking at me behind us. I keep eye contact, she breaks it.
Me : Are yo guys Chinese? (In French)
7 : What?
Me : Are you guys Chinese?
7 : Yes, why?
They didn't even look at me at this point. AGGGHHH ASIANS! OMFG. Afraid of strangers...
Me : Because you guys are cute, and I had to come say hi.
They DON'T EVEN LOOK AT ME, THEY WALK STRAIGHT, NO SMILE, NOTHING.
Me : Why you guys keep walking? Bye!

Set of 3 sitting at a table
HB7s and a HB8
So I hesitate a bit. I talk to Giloflex a bit, and then I tell him that I'll go. So I do!
I approach them, use the usual I though you were cute opener.
They said thanks, but then all turned their heads away. They told me that they were all taken! So then I tell them that they can get a second boyfriend, they disagree.
Me : Alright, have a nice day!
Them : Thankkks
So after I finished that one, I hear them all laugh. Were they laughing at me? I'm overthinking this... what if they are laughing of surprise, joy, whatever? Maybe they though it was bold from me and they respect me. I just assumed that it was bad. And what if it ****ing is? What if they were laughing about me? I shouldn't care, because I deserve respect for doing this kind of thing. Nobody ever risks approaching beautiful women these days. And it only does good, doesn't hurt anybody.

HB8.5 Solid! Asian again
So I see her working at that store. She was a little taller than me, and I hesitate about approaching her. A LOT.
I talk to Giloflex about it. He tells me that she looks 18, and is maximum 19. To me, she seemed older. Damn excuses again right?
So I really started feeling those butterflies in my stomach and my heart beating fast. The more time went on, the worse it became. So I started thinking.
What do I have to lose doing it? NOTHING. I can only benefit from doing this. I am the man, I am the man. GO.
So my feet start walking towards her.
Me : Hey excuse me. Hi!
She looks at me, laughs and smiles! I kept eye contact and smiled too.
Me : Why are you laughing? Do we know each other?
Her : Noo noo, nothing! Well, it's just that you already talked to me before.
I APPROACHED HER BEFORE! WHAAT, I didn't remember!
Me : Ohhh really? I don't remember!
Her : Yeah, it was in front of _____ store!
Me : It's probably because you're really beautiful then When?
Her : It was last Friday!
Me : Last Friday?... Hum... I don't remember... Oh yeah I do remember a bit!
Blablablabla
Her : Okay, what you want?
Me : Well, you're cute. That's it! XD
Blablabla
Me : How old are you?
Her : 22.
Me : Oh okay. Can you guess how old I am?
Her : I don't know. 19? 20?
I tell her No with my head
Her : How old, lower? Higher?
Me : I'm 17! Hahaha!
Her : OHhh my goood!
She smiled and laughed! I started walking away and she did too. It was funny.

We walked down the street for like 30 minutes, there was nobody on that street...
I did another approach, don't remember it...

So we went to Burger King. When we were ordering, Giloflex told me that she saw the 22 year old asian from the other store! Apparently she saw me through the window, stopped walking, looked closely and started laughing before continuing her walk. So whatever, we ate, and it was very chill. Ahhhh I like hamburgers!

We went to the subway. We stopped at some good metro station and gamed a bit here.

Blonde HB7.5
She looked my age! I was a little horny for no reason here.
Me : Hey excuse me!
I noticed that she actually was older. So I do the usual I though you were cute opener.
She thanks me and she keeps walking straight with a little smile.
Me : Heey, why you walk awaayyy!

So I see that
Asian HB8
Sitting here by herself. I tell Giloflex that he must go, but he tells me that he doesn't like to approach when people are looking.
Ugggh I had to go! So I walk in her direction. I look at her. She was still looking down on her iPod and she didn't see me. Does she look too old? AGGH! I ***** out!
So Giloflex comes next to me. We talk a bit, and I start thinking again.
Agh maybe I shouldn't go. Or you know what? I have nothing to lose. I only get benefits from doing this COME ON! JUST DO IT!
So I start walking towards her, I don't stop. My mind is going blank.
Me : Hey excuse me.
The elder people sitting right next to her look to me. Finally, she looks at me.
I do the usual line, she thanks me.
Me : What's your name? (I don't remember what I said exactly)
Her : Ughhh... ____, why?
She frowned her eyebrows a bit.
Me : Why you look at me like that? *imitate her playfully*
Her : Ohhh! Well it's just kind of weird... *smiled a bit*
Me : Haha, you're just not used to this kind of thing.
Blablabla. She's actually Cambodian like me. NICE!
So she's 19. I tell her to guess my age. She guesses 20 or 21. When I tell her that I'm 17, she's surprised!
Me : I'm sorry I'm too young for you! I know, life is very difficult sometimes...
Her : Haha, actually I have a boyfriend already...
I then tell her that I could be her 2nd one, like on Mondays and Wednesdays I can hang out with her, and then on Tuesdays and Thursdays she can hang out with that other dude. Blablabla, eject.

HB7.5!
So I see her walking by herself, kind of fast. I go IMMEDIATELY and tap her on the arm.
Me : Hey excuse me. Excuse me.
She doesn't respond at first, and then after I did, she keeps walking straight... So then I just tell her nevermind... Didn't even told her that she was cute, whatever.

HB7 asian! Apparently, she went at Giloflex's school.
That one was pretty nice. I felt confident during the WHOOOLLLE interaction. It felt smooth and sweet. Didn't think about what to say.
It lasted like 5 minutes, not much flirting but it was fun. I wasn't so interested, but I still tell her to add me on facebook. She does, and then I eject.

So I checked her on facebook. DAMN she hotter on facebook what the hell! And she's pretty popular too I can tell. 140 likes on her picture

So I tell Giloflex that HE MUST APPROACH A SET. SOMETHING! ARGH!
Subway arrives. I see a girl going in that other wagon, so I tell him that we should go there and see. When we get in, we see two beautiful girls in front of us, like 10 feet away.
I start getting a little loud, telling Giloflex that HE MUST DO IT! He wasn't feeling comfortable with people around, and that's fine. I approach.
HB8 SOLID! Both of them, but they were sitting separately.
I opened the one on the left with the usual line!
She starts laughing and smiling! Her friend too. It was very sexy to me. I sit right next to her and she's fine with that.
Her : Is that a dare or something?
Me : No of course not! Just though you were beautiful! Sooo... What's up?
Her : Nothing, you?
Me : Nothing... Ahhh we have so much things in common!
She laughs a bit. I start asking her basic questions like what's her name. We exchange a handshake, pretty weak...
Me : That's not how you do a handshake! Yeaah like that, that's what I'm talking about!
We keep shaking hands for a while. She leaned a bit towards me as she laughed. I keep asking her the basic questions.
Her : I might be going to _____ or _____. I'm not quite sure yet.
Me : Come to *my school*, so you can flirt with me everyday!
She laughs and smiles again. Though, when she does, she doesn't really look at me, or she does very briefly. She was either shy or not receptive! Hard to tell...
Her : Are you drunk or something?
Me : No, why would I be drunk?

Hahaha guys! Is that a good thing that she thinks that I'm drunk? Maybe this means that I'm starting to do ballsy things that require alcohol.

Blablabla. Kino was pretty great and it felt easy to me. It was natural. Later during the conversation, I invite Giloflex to come.
He should've opened her friend that was sitting alone by herself... Apparently, she laughed at the beginning, but as the conversation went on, her face drastically changed. She was mad!
So I keep talking to that same girl. Giloflex left after a while, and then I was tired of her giving me short answers.
Me : You know, when a guy talks to you, you also have to engage the conversation and say things! That's not how it works!
Her : Ok
She smiled but she was looking away at this point, like usual.
Me : You know, you're really really beautiful. Though, you're really boring! No offense though.
Her : Ok
She had the same smile on her face.
Me : You're so boring! I'm sorry, bye.
I had to eject here, I was tired of this. Then I turn back to her friend. Her face was AGGGHH, filled with annoyance, madness.
Me : Hi.
Her : Bye.

SUCH A *****. WHAT THE ****.
So I got affected by it. I looked around to see where Giloflex was... Didn't find him weirdly... Though that I looked pretty ****ing weird looking around like a dumbass. He was actually right behind me and I didn't notice him! He was a ninja, or I was just not paying attention.

Subway arrives at destination. I decide to stay in the subway a while, wait for them to pass and then we left the wagon. Didn't want to encounter them again. That b1tch had a fine ass though she was a b1tch.

 

[Mindgamez]

The last one is always the best.
HB7.5 WITH FAMILY!
So apparently Giloflex also knew who that girl was. She went at his high school! I hesitated to approach because there was her family with her. They were really calm and quiet.
Giloflex : Apparently, she's very *****y...
Me : Oh really?
I think for a bit. Hey, I've done like 7 approaches already today. Isn't that enough? Or maybe, I can do one more and don't give any excuses. GO, JUST GO!
Me : We'll let's see if she is!
So I open them in French, they apparently don't understand French! So I go in English.
The family is all like : Awww! and that woman turned back and told me that it was sweet.
The girl started smiling and laughing, the whole family suddenly got loud. I made their day!
Girl : Thank you so much!
Me : Alright, have a nice day!
I pussied out from gaming her more, because she was with her family.

So later, I talk to Giloflex more a bit. We find out that it's not the same girl he was talking about... To make sure, I ask her if she's from Giloflex's high school.
Apparently she's from Saskatchewan!
Me : Ohh alright! I though you were someone else!
I should've not said that... Whatever, it's done.

So Giloflex does an approach, 2nd of the day. FINALLY!

So later, I get a call from some woman. She's from the film company and apparently, they're really interested in interviewing me. I might play in a movie or go on TV! (as a random background actor though...). I'M SO EXCITED. If I get to travel to places, I'll be able to socialize and approach tons of girls. Also, they hire a lot of pretty girls for modeling. I might meet some beautiful models too, holy shieet.

Conclusion
- Girls with friends, TALK TO THEIR FRIENDS TOO! Maybe that girl I talked to in the subway wasn't so receptive, because she saw her friend that was left out that gave her weird faces. Maybe she didn't want to appear as a slut to her buddy. If you have a wing, make sure he goes and talk to that other friend!
- Girls with family. GO APPROACH THEM! If you get approval from the whole family, that's a major plus. And you brighten everyone's day, so why not? DO IT, NO EXCUSES! Even the dads are okay. From experience, everything is fine.

What's coming up next
Tomorrow, I'll be going downtown, ALONE THIS TIME!
I have to get there for my interview with the film company anyway, so it'll force me to go out by myself. I'll get some approaches in, alone for once! Finally.
Can't wait for Saturday's concert! Also, I'll be gaming with some dude from the SP forum too, before the concert.
Gotta call that asian girl working with me at Staples! Let's ask her if she can take my shift. If she can't, well maybe I can flirt a bit with her on the phone we'll see if I feel bold enough tomorrow.

 

[DanZy]

You really need to stop using the same opener and asking girls to guess your age, you're putting yourself out of contention.
But congrats on making the amazing effort

 

[Mindgamez]

Thanks for support DanZy, but I don't get it. Out of contention? What does that mean?
And I did the same opener and asked the girl to guess my age again today, lol.

Thursday, August 16th
Was alone, managed to do one approach.
Nothing special really today. I'm personally not so proud of myself, but whatever.

So went to work,
You know the asian girl that number closed me at work? We texted, though I don't feel like escalating things further because I talked to her for like 1-2 minutes max in real life.

Me : Can you take my shift tomorrow Friday? Need answer ASAP to tell boss
Her : I can work tmrw for you what time?? And can u tell a boss for me? Sorry it took so long :S
Me : Yeah from 5 to 9, thanks sweety
Her : No prob

Not pickup related, though I'm starting to understand social cues.
So yeah, work was pretty ordinary today. Except that some man working here got really mad at me for no reason.
I'm starting to pick up on some social cues from people. This man assumes negativity. I can see it in his eyes! Since the first day, he would never smile at me, and his eyes were always wide open. You know, the kind of eyes that people do to you when they're either mad or just not in a good mood?
So he assumed that I was playing games with him, acting like I was stupid, and that I was arrogant. Truth is I just forgot to put that shopping basket at it's place, 3 times apparently... I don't even remember it.
Him : Once is alright, everyone does mistakes. But twice, that tells me about your character.
He assumed that people are generally negative. He assumes that I was just being a douchebag! I realize that those kind of people attract negativity into their lives. I just feel like I want to be arrogant with him, because he assumes that I am. Negativity feeds on negativity. People that expect it, WILL GET IT!
SAME GOES WITH PICKUP.
If you assume rejection, guess what? It will eventually happen. If you assume that you'll run out of things to say, it will happen. Don't fear it, just let it be.
And if people are negative with you, keep your own state. Don't be affected by it. If you give in to negativity, the person you're talking to will just go on with the negativity even more.

Very importantly, I understand something. It's not their fault if people act how they act. Forgive them, because everyone grew up in different environments. Don't get mad at girls that are just *****y, people that are just plain negative. Don't be affected by it, because it's not really their fault if they learned to behave like that. It's unconscious, and unfortunately, people stuck in negativity have a hard time getting out if it, because they don't understand that they're stuck in it. Forgive them, don't be mad at them. Keep the positiveness with them.

Back to approaching!
So after work, I get off and go to the mall next to the store.
I basically walk in, see girls and ***** out.
Then I SEE THAT ONE GIRL. ALONE! HB8 Solid, easy. There was NO ONE around! I could've approached but I didn't. Perfect opportunity. After that, I felt like a *****.

After 20 minutes, I skip like at least 5 sets. I realize that I have to go or I'll miss my bus.
I see that girl alone, but she was smoking before so it turned me off. Though, she was pretty attractive. Excuse again, I know...

In the bus, I try to meditate. I actually did pretty well, and afterwards I felt pretty good.

So on the way to the Modelling/Acting Agency (recieved a call from them yesterday), didn't see any sets to approach.
After the interview, I walk around in the streets more and more... I decide to go to some stores, look around at things, enjoy my time. I buy a new shirt, epic.
Talked to some random strangers a bit on the way. Some random girls asked me for directions, and we talked a bit. I asked them for where they're from, blablabla. Nothing happened, they were 6-7s.

So then I get to the mall.
I see that asian girl sitting by herself. She looked pretty hot! And she looked older too. Good 8 from far.
So then I sit down, few feets away from her. I start that self-talk in my head. I try and try to go into positivity, but the more I try, the more I stress out.
Mindgamez, there's no way you're leaving this place without approaching at least ONE GIRL. COME ON! DO IT.
So them I walk up to her. I do the usual opener (What other opener can I use? I just go direct)
Ends up that she's a 7, or even a 6.5. Her teeth were ugly... Ahhh! Get braces when you're young, something!
So I wasn't really interested in her. I admitted her that I sat there for couple minutes to think about what to say to her and that I was a little nervous.
Her : Just be natural!
This is true. I just need to be natural and go for it. Words of wisdom guys, JUST BE NATURAAAL.
So yeah, I told her to guess my age again. I like knowing about different opinions. Ends up that she's 19, and she told me that she's terrible at guessing. She just doesn't do it lol, after I insisted.
Whatever, boring talk. I ask her about the bubble tea stand right next to us. Had nothing else to talk about. I eject, she was ugly anyway.

Though, I felt better after that interaction. I was ready for a second approach, though I didn't see good targets on the way home... Or I just don't remember them, or they seemed too old.
I freak out with that age thing, it's not even funny! ARGH!

Conclusion
- I have to get that willpower to approach ALONE. When with a wing, I can go into a fantastic state and build great momentum. Though, when alone, building momentum is HARD! After that one approach, you just feel good but you have nobody to share that good feeling with, so that's why it dies fast. For me at least... It doesn't make any sense.

Also, I watched some videos from PUA AFCAdam. It's not the kind of material I like to watch usually, since I usually like RSD, but I wanted to see some infield footage.
I understand why I get flakes! I have to build some rapport and have a justification to meet up. When she says something, I have to add on to it, and not just switch to that other question. This shows that I actually care about what she's saying. Of course, I gotta do it right.
I usually talk and flirt, and then end up with exchanging numbers. When we do exchange numbers, I don't call her. I should call instead of texting, that's cool stuff.

What's coming up next!!
AMUSEMENT PARK TOMORROW!
Hey, listen to this.
I told my friend that if he leaves earlier, I'll still stay at the amusement park, alone. Not only will that give me the opportunity to approach by myself, but it will give me the opportunity to meet up other people. I'll approach sets and if they ask me if I'm with someone, I'll tell them that I want to meet new friendly people to have fun with at the park because my friends just left. Hopefully, I'll get into some other group.

 

[DanZy]

The opener doesn't put you out of contention, telling them your age does. Older women don't want a guy who's younger or even worse a guy in highschool. By dwelling on your age, you're letting her develop doubt and regret.
Out of contention essentially means that you have virtually no chance of success.

 

[Mindgamez]

About the age thing, true that I'm way too freaked out about it. I worry too much, that's all. I think that I shouldn't mention age during the conversation. Maybe get hers and that's it.

Friday, August 17th
3 Approaches (I know, not much...)
THOUGH, approached girl ON PHONE! And boyfriend came!

So I woke up this morning,
Called my best friend to confirm that we were going at the amusement park.
Later when I'm in the bus, he calls me and tells me that it will probably rain today... So instead, we go to chinatown and chill a bit. Didn't really see any targets at chinatown.
So we walk downtown for a while, and I ***** OUT LIKE A *****... I wasn't in the mood at all for some reasons. I simply couldn't push myself to approach. I was tired of not approaching, so after like 30 minutes or so, I finally do approach.

HB7.5 blonde
She looked young from far, but her voice sounded like a mother's voice! So she was probably older, for sure...
So I use the usual opener, she thanks me and smiles. She blushed a bit.
Me : Noo wait, why you keep walking?
Her : Sorry, I gotta go, but thanks
Me : Alright bye!

After that, I felt a little more in the mood.

So I see that girl on the phone. Asian HB7
I let her pass. My best friend tells me that I should've gone for her. You know what? I ran back to her! Even though my friend was telling me that it was too late, I didn't give a damn haha.
I did the usual opener with a smile, she looked at me weird, said thanks, and walked away.
Me : Waait! Is that how you take a compliment? (or whatever I said that I can't remember)

Ohh, that one was gorgeous. A good HB8! Asian again. With pretty girls, it's way better.
I actually felt more confident on this one. When I'm attracted, I let it happen and I don't resist it. I don't think about my nervousness when desire goes past the fear. It's a good thing.
I do the usual opener, she smiles.
Me : So what's up?
Her : Huh?
Me : What's up XD
Her : Ohhh nothing blablabla (she was too quiet, I couldn't even hear...)
Me : You're Chinese, right?
Her : Yeah
Me : Ohhh nice, that's great! You know, I'm asian and you're Chinese. That means perfect asian babies.
We both laugh a bit.
Me : You probably like bubble tea too
Her : Yeah
Me : Hehe great. We should get some bubble tea together sometimes.
Her : Huuummm, no XD
Me : Oh why not?
Blablablabla, she was being so quiet, and I don't remember it all. We talked for not so long.
THEN SOME DUDE ARRIVED! I got a little nervous here, but still continued the conversation.
Me : Are you her... his, boyfriend?
Him : Yeah.
Me : Ohhh, I'm sorry man! *tap his shoulder* I was flirting with your girlfriend. You're such a boss though! *thumbs up*
I then leave the convo. I was nervous when he came, but at least I managed to keep it cool. Though, he wasn't smiling and just kept a straight face (except when I told him that he was a boss). That was funny LOL! Though, the girl laughed a bit. I left and went back to my best friend. We laughed a bit together.

So we went at the amusement park actually. We did one roller coaster, and then we walked around a bit...
I pussied out again, as usual. This is my major problem these days. I ***** out a lot, because I'm so used to the rejection. I assume that I'll get rejected, because the many times I did it, it was a rejection most of the time. That's why I got nervous here...

And you know what? That's why I keep getting rejections.

It's a downward spiral. I either decide to learn from every one of them, or I let them affect me by making an identity of my results. If I choose the 2nd option, it's a downward spiral of hell! Approaching more and more will just reinforce that. I have to change the way I view rejections. I still care about what people think of me. Man, this is hard.

So I see 4 girls at some stand. I try to approach them indirectly this time. Some looked a little large from behind I'm not gunna lie lol... I was expecting them to be average.
Me : How do I play this game?
The girl next to me, the prettiest one, turns her head. Ahhh, caught by surprise! I wasn't expecting an HB7.5. Pretty face.
Her : Well, you put the money in.
Me : Well, of course I know about that! But I mean...
THEN I GOT ****ING BLANK... Actually, I was thinking about transitioning to direct, and that's why I made a pause. I realized that things were going nowhere.
Friend : Hello, bye!
She leaves, and the other ones follow. They are pretty much 7s for most of them actually.

So we stay on that one slow attraction the whole time. It's like a mini train that goes all around the park. Like for at least an hour or so. My best friend and I talked a lot, about nothing and everything. We talked about girls, I mentioned the nofap challenge (he's going to give it a try!), and pick up. It was chill. Didn't talk to him in a long while actually! I missed the good old times. I know him since I was born.

Conclusion
- I have to get used to being spontaneous and saying things exactly when I have to say them! When caught by surprise, I must not think and I have to just go for it. I think way too much and take like 10-20 seconds before approaching a girl. All the time! Though, I don't really mention it in my FRs, but that's usually what I do. I have go to INSTANTLY.
- Girl on the phone? That's not an excuse. GO ANYWAY!
- When boyfriend comes along? STAY COOL! Tell him that he's a lucky guy, that he's a boss, whatever. Compliment him and he won't be mad at you.

Getting reference experiences is fantastic.

What's coming up next
CONCERT TOMORROW! YES! Let's crowdsurf and approach girls. I'll go physical for sure.
And just before the concert, I'll be downtown with some dude to do approaches.
I'll set myself a goal. 8 APPROACHES. I got 2 or 2.5 hours, that's way enough. I gotta stick to it. No way I'm only doing 3 approaches like today!

 

[Mindgamez]

Saturday, August 19th
Zero approaches, though I met with my natural friend!

So yeah,
The dude cancelled the meetup because he woke up too late... Sucked, so I just went to meet up with my buddy. He was with another girl, a good HB8.
I was a little nervous at first. I was like : Ohhh the girl will probably be hot, because he's a natural that gets all the girls!
So yeah, got nervous for nothing. She was pretty nice and cool. Though, she talked about how she hated her ex and didn't want to see him. He actually went to the same concert as us and she tried to avoid him. She probably still likes him, maybe...
I wanted to game that girl, though my friend was being pretty touchy with her. He was throwing in some sexual jokes and it was very funny. He's very open to these!

So yeah, it didn't stop me from being friendly and stuff. Getting physical with your friends (girls AND guys, no homo) helps you make better connections. You feel more connected! I love hand shakes, hugs, and playful taps on the back to cheer you up. If you like doing them, they'll like it. Get used to touching people in general, though don't be gay (unless you are, that's totally fine, but I doubt that if you're on that forum).

The concert was EPIC AGGHHH!!!! So yeah, I kind of rubbed the asian girl during the concert by *accident*, and she looked back at me with a big smile. I didn't know what to do, but it seemed like she was enjoying it. Though, I pussied out from doing anything else. Also, my natural friend was already pretty touchy with her so I didn't want to ****block.

I didn't know that they were ****ing each other! They were ****-buddies haha. She seems a little slutty though.

Friend : Ohhh that concert wiLL OWN YAHAHA
Her : Like jizz.
Me : Oh you like jizz.
Her : Yeah.
She gives me a sexy smile, I can't resist but smile too.

So yeaah, concert goes epic! I putted my hand on some random guy's shoulder and started headbanging. He headbanged with me, and then asked me if I wanted to go up on stage. YEAH.
I crowd surfed after I went on stage for like 3 seconds. Though the crowd surfing lasted like 3 seconds!

So after that, I go sleep at my natural friend's house (let's call him Dumi, so we'll remember)
Damn I connect so well with that dude. We laugh at the same sexual jokes, we laugh at the same silly bull****.
So he showed me his collection of empty condom boxes. He had tons!

Dumi slept with like 10 girls already, and he lost his virginity this year. He's 17.

So we want to make pranks together, do silly videos on youtube, and pick up girls at malls. He told me that he goes smoothly and indirect and it works well for him! I maybe should try it out too.
But the best thing about him, is his confidence and that he's just himself. He's so silly, but that's what makes him so damn attractive.
Though he's also kind of good looking. On that app called Meet Me, he had tons of girls rate him 10/10 on his looks. Hot girls. Though, he REALLY is only KIND OF, good looking. He's not THAT good looking (at least in real life. On picture he looks good). When I was at his house, he had girls chatting him on facebook. That random girl added him just to tell him that he's cute. His standards are way high on looks! A 7.5, that's too ugly for him.

This guy is cool, and I have to hang out with more guys like him.

 

[Mindgamez]

Sunday, August 19th
Alright so I did 5 approaches that day. Nothing special
Though it was pretty fun and my first 2 approaches happened within 2 minutes. It was AUTOMATIC! I got rejected both times.

The other ones, I actually ejected myself from *****ing out. Bad, I know... Though, I had fun!

Monday, August 20th
Flirted at work with Niyo. Though, I pussied out couple of times...
Let me explain.

So I woke up,
And started studying for my driving exam (that I ALMOST passed, but failed...). Before heading to work, I watched some RSD video.
Tyler was talking about fear. He loves wrestling with fear. He's passionate about pick up, because it's about pushing your boundaries over and over and over again.
It's so complex, yet so simple at the same time. Isn't fear a cool feeling? When you finally go through it, you feel like a hero.
I continued dressing while I was listening to the video. Though I was a little on a rush, I didn't want to skip the next bit. Whatever, I had to stop the video after 20 minutes and go.

I on the way to work, I see Niyo.
Me : Heey!
She turns her head towards me, stops walking and waits.
Her : It's so hooot today!
Me : You said that I'm hot?
Her : Noo, that it's hot today
Me : Ohhh I'm so disappointed
We keep walking to work, no much was said. She was doing the talking and complaining about her contact lenses.
Me : Ohh, that's a pretty cool story.
I felt kind of *******'ish when I said that!

I work and work, talk and help people. I like my job, because it's about interacting with people all the time. Every minute there's someone asking me for something, advice, etc.

So I'm heading to break. I turn I head and I see Niyo looking at me. Though, we passed some alley so I couldn't talk to her. When we pass the next alley, I see her again.
Me : So what, you're following me?
She smiles and nods a bit. I wait for her to catch up. She gives me a piece of chocolate.
Me : Oh thanks, you're such a gentlewoman.
Her : I give you some, because I don't wanna get fat!
Me : Oh haha!
Blablabla. She talks to me about her swimming and that she has to stay in shape.

During the break, we talk a bit more. We were watching TV.
TV : A box of ass!
Her : A box of Mindgamez? Hahaha just kidding!
We laughed playfully.
Me : What's with my ass? You wanna see it?
Her : Get up so I can kick your ass! (or whatever she said)
Me : Alright, lemme show you!
She laughs and tell me to sit down.

We get into a playful argument.
Her : Come at me!
Me : You want me to come at you tonight? Of course
She smiles but turns her head away. She extends her hand reluctantly, the *****y hand!
Her : Talk to my hand!
Me : Yeah or course, because you're hand is prettier than you!
So we smile a bit, and then tell her that I'm just kidding. That was a funny comeback haha.

Her : Ahhh I love the chocolate!
Me : You can't resist the mouthgasm, can't you?
Her : Noo

So she tells me that she got called by some guys at 3 AM the night before, that she's lacking sleep, etc.
I have to stop her from complaining and switch topics to something positive. Go. So I cut her off :
Me : Stop complaining! Just... live life and be chill.
I was kind of nervous when I said it, because I'm not used to interrupting people like that. So she kind of continues LOL.

So blablabla, she did most of the talking I believe. We were watching TV.
TV : You're a necrophile!
Me : Necrophilia? That's when you like to **** dead bodies!
Her : How you know about that?
She gives me the eyebrows.
Me : Because it's sexual stuff

Her break is over, so she leaves after we exchange byes.

So during the day, didn't really see her again. I was too busy with clients.
Though when I was doing the facing before closure, I saw her couple of times.
Niyo : I don't know where that goes! ):
Me : Ohhh, poor Niyo...
Niyo : Can you help me?
Me : I don't know either!
Blabla.
Me : Are you mad? You wanna fight?
Her : You wanna fight? Come at me!
Me : I'll come at you any day, any night
She smiles and walks away.
Me : Though not tonight!
She gives me a reluctant hand. I laugh a bit.

I was getting in my head.
When she comes back, tell something flirty. Ahhh, nah. Man, what to say?
I was getting anxious for nothing. I was thinking of what to say again and again. I was being outcome dependent again.
I passed by her again, pretended that I was busy with some pens I had to put at their location.

Not much was done for the rest of the evening.

I pass by her again near the employee only section. I tell her goodbye, no invites for a hug or anything.

We get outside with everyone else at the same time. I don't talk to her, but I catch her looking at me couple of times. I ***** out from talking to her. I could've asked her if she took the bus or something, but instead, I asked the whole group. AGGHHH!
It feels like Laos. She ain't that pretty, but I'm still being outcome dependent. Ahhh man, I gotta stop thinking like that. She's just a girl after all...

So I get home and add the HB6 that seems pretty interested.
I look at her picture on facebook.
WHAT THE HEELLL! She's like way prettier on picture. She turned 7.5, on picture though... Maybe cause she doesn't have her hair done at work.

Conclusion
No matter the environment, no matter if it's cold approaching or social circle, I have to feel comfortable at all times and go for it.
There's no secret. I know what has to be done and I have to do it.

 

[Mindgamez]

Need advice/help ASAP.
So I texted the asian girl I talked to for like 2 minutes at work before she leaves. I didn't have enough time to build connection IRL really. So that's how it goes.

She pretty much took between 30 seconds and a minute to reply for every text I sent. I took around 10 minutes for my replies.

Me : *name*, can you take my shift on thursday? I have my orientation day for school. I'll take on of yours when you need it. ASIAN POWER YEH
Her : I work thursday :s
Me : If you werent pretty I'd slap you ;D
Her : Aww thanks :$
Me : Intended to be mean btw XD
Her : I kno ;P
Me : Srry to disappoint! When u work?
Her : Tmrw and sat I think I can take ur thurs now let me check that I don't have naything ok?
Me : Tell me ASAP. Working today so I'll tell boss. You miiiight deserve a hug if it works!
Her : Sorry I work thursday too ): sorry for gwtting yoiur hopes up :s
Me : *name*, aint proud of you! Wtver ill talk to boss for day off. Dont worry we might still be friends (;
Her : Hahaha ok

I don't know what to do. Should I call her and fix a date? I though that flirting immediately would be creepy, because we only met for like 2 minutes. Conversation was pretty much going nowhere. Should I wait until I work with her again? Though, it'll take one week.

I'm open to any comments, opinions, advices. Thanks

EDIT : Just finished watching that video from RSD.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GX9unvqpMt8

I felt so good after that, like I was relieved. I'm doing this to do it. I'm doing this for the passion for the game, not to get some girl or sex necessarily. It's not the goal that matters, but the fact that I just commit 110% to it and that I harden myself through pain, that I grow as a person that matters. I learned so many life lessons from just getting material from the game and taking action, and I'll just keep doing this. This is for life, for me.

I don't have any big goals I aim at. It doesn't serve the purpose of all this. I just follow the path and keep going because I love to. And I really ****ing love it. The time and effort that I putted into it this summer, is INSANE. That's how bad I love it.

I'm getting emotional again, haha, but that's fine. It's alright. I enjoy the waves of good and bad emotions.

 

[LearningSlowly]

It sounds like she's the type of girl that requires a customary amount of texting to "get to know you." I think you've fulfilled that requirement, anything more is wasting time. Make plans for something innocent-ish for the weekend. You could go get ice cream then take her for a walk. Isolate on the side of the path early in the walk and get the kiss, then continue to kiss as the walk goes.

Good luck here man, she likes you.

 

[Mindgamez]

Yeah I should definitely make plans for the weekend. Should I text her something like : Hey what are you doing this weekend?
Or should I directly call her right away? Or maybe I should wait for her to respond my text before calling. What you guys think?

Or maybe I'm just overthinking this... lol

 

[Mindgamez]

Tuesday, August 21st
Went to work.
GOT HIT ON BY SOME HORNY GIRL! First time ever LOL.
And HB C (girl I attempted make-out several times at party, and at the movie theaters) came to the store. Interesting things, let me tell you my story.

So I woke up this morning,
After I finished watching the RSD video, I decided to read The Power Of Now before heading to work. I was feeling so in the moment.

As I was heading to work, I was thinking like
Hey! The future actually DOESN'T EXISTS. IT DOESN'T RIGHT NOW! What's the point of imagining the future if it's never happening now? Right now, I'm totally fine. I have no problems, nothing. I'm fine. Right now, I have nothing to worry about!
In the bus, I see that dude with the same mini longboard as me. We chatted for a good while, and some other guy also joined in.
So I met with that coworker once I step out the bus. She doesn't like her work, though I explain her how I actually enjoy it, how I enjoy helping people. She told me that I'm too positive. That's a great thing hahaha.

So yeah, I worked and worked. I was feeling good, not thinking a step ahead.

When I was finished with helping a customer, I hear HB C yelling my name. She sees me, we exchange hellos. I go help some other customer.
Later when I'm doing some other task, she walks by me again. She extends her arms for a hug, and then I hug her too. She lets her hand linger on my back, but I don't react to it.
Her : Mindgamez! I need your help now!
Me : I can't. I have to help someone else. Ask that other person.
Blabla, not much was said. I was pretty much trying to avoid her.

I can't clearly tell if it was because I felt a little mad inside, or if I just wanted to make her chase me, or if it was by pure non-neediness.

Then, some group of 3 girls, a 3, a HB7 and HB7.5.
They were already talking to my coworker! So I just walk by and they asked me a question I don't remember. Blabla, then I ask them if they need any help.
HB7 bumps into me. She apologizes and puts her hand on my shoulder.
I don't remember what she asked me, but she asked me pretty random personal stuff!
HB7 : How old are you?
Me : I'm 17
HB7 : Which school did you go to?
Me : Hum... *school name*
Blablabla
Me : Why are you asking me all of this!! Are you hitting on me or something?
They all start laughing
HB7.5 : Well isn't she hot?
Me : Well, kind of...
HB7 : I have boobs!
She PUSHES HER BOOBS UP WITH HER HANDS. She laughs and her friends too.
I instantly get turned on, but then after like 3 seconds I start thinking again.
Ahhhh man come on... she's probably a slut for hitting on random guys like that.
So I get turned off for some reason.
HB7 : Are you in Cegep?
Me : Yeah. Why?
HB7 : Ohh, because I'm in cegep too that's why! What kind of clothes should I wear to go to there?
Me : What? Well, normal clothes? You don't want to run out naked right?
They laugh again. Blablabla, her friend (the 3) pushes her away like a ****block, and tells me that she's drunk.
Chances are that she is, but whatever... She seemed normal to me hahaha, but I can't clearly tell. Whatever, that's not a big deal.

So later that day, I see HB C again. She asks me for something, I just tell her that I can't help her, again. She gives me the kind of disappointed look. I tell her where the things she's looking for is, though I don't follow her.

I wanted her to chase me at the beginning, but then I just didn't care about getting her or not.
I'm not doing this to get girls. I just want to learn to be a man, grow as a person, and be happy no matter what. I don't need something from the outside world to allow myself to feel good. Just walking the path is what I like about game.

The rest of the day, I kept working and helping people out.
That's pretty much it. No hot coworkers at work today!

I texted that 6. She's probably interested. She looks hot on picture, but not in real life...
She tells me goodnight, so I tell her you too and to not dream too much about handsome asian guys! Her reply :

LOL ill try not too

What's coming up next
Organized some pickup afternoon this thursday with Rickyboy (it's been AGES since last time I gamed with him).
And I'll try to do as much as possible to get to that All Ages party. I might go there with Sex_is_good!

 

[Mindgamez]

Wednesday, August 22nd

Thursday 12:15 AM
Feeling really tired. I know that I'm waking up at 8:30 AM tomorrow, but I still feel the need to write. Let's do this.
Things went down, up, up, up, down, down, down, down, down, finally up.
Let me tell you my story.

11:50 PM
I arrive in front of my house. I love the night. The light breeze, the sound of insects. It's so peaceful. We could see the stars tonight.
I look at the grass. I gently touch it to see if it's wet or dirty. I sit down, look up. I take a pause.
I was feeling great. I stopped thinking, just looked at some random star. Nothing was going through my mind. I was present.
My eyes started getting wet. I didn't try to resist the feeling. I just let it go. That feeling of relief when you're free of all negativity.
I kept looking like I was looking at an old promise. A wish I've done in the past.
No, it wasn't sadness. It was relief. I knew that things were going to be OK. Things were going to be great.
I stayed another 5 minutes, then left to go home.

10:00 AM
I wake up, tired. I slept 8 hours, but that wasn't enough. Too bad, let's go.
Oh damn! I forgot that the asian girl that got my number me was working today.

Arrived to work a little early. I see the people and say hello, chat a bit for fun.
I was feeling alright, like the previous times.
You know the negative coworker? He got angry at me AGAIN. I'm not going to complain about him again, because there's no need to do so. He's pretty much retarded. I make unintentional LITTLE mistakes, and he immediately thinks that it's on purpose or that I'm just here to mess with him.
Truth is, people that are negative tend to make people want to be negative around them. I just felt like I wanted to punch him in the face.
I was getting a little scared by him with his rudeness (he's also like 35 years old and bigger than me), but I just kept it cool.
I'm equal to him, no matter how smart or better he thinks he is. I have my right to work here, and there's NO way someone else will affect my state.

Though, I was still feeling mad inside after that. I started assuming that people that work with minimum salary are probably mad all the time with their lives. I cannot blame him. He doesn't deserve more negativity, so I'll just try and be cool with him.

I kept working and working. I see some asian girl looking at me and smiling. Oh wait, THAT'S HER!
So I smile back, and then my heart immediately starts pumping with anxiousness. I wasn't feeling ready. I had bull**** going through my mind, but whatever. I'll just go through it.
So after 10 minutes, I see her again while she's fixing some binders. I take a pause.
Alright Mindgamez. You have nothing to lose. Why you just keep thinking so much? You're a boss. COME ON!
Fear kept assaulting me. I had to calm the fck down.
JUST GO.
I walk towards her and a smile comes on my face, by itself.
Me : Heey, what's up!
She kept a straight face.
Her : Heey
Blablabla. Nothing was really said.

I see her several times again during the day. Sometimes I just pass her because I'm helping someone. But sometimes, I pass her because I go into my head and don't know what to say. T
Thing is I don't even remember half of the good things I said. When I'm so in the moment, I don't remember what I said. I'll go approximately.

So I was walking in one direction. She stops what she was doing and follows next to me.
Me : Hey, what are you doing?
Her : Ohh I'm going this way
Me : You're following me?
I don't remember it. Then I go in front of her and push her so she stops following me.
Her : Nooooo, you're mean! *she pushes me too gently*
It was playful and fun.
Her : Ohhh why you so mean!
Me : Even with pretty girls like you, I'm not a gentleman. Sorry!

Near the geometry sets.
Me : I feel like having a wonton soup!
Her : Ohhh me too. Ahh I'm hungry because of you!
Me : Hahaha, we should totally go get some wonton together sometimes
Her : Yeaah
Me : That would be great
I hesitate, but then I think NO. JUST ARGH GO!
So I tap her shoulder twice on the back. She didn't respond and kept doing her things.

So I see that girl I THINK I know. Let's call her Pat. HB7
Me : Heey!
She stops and turns towards me.
Me : I know you right?
Her : Hum, yeah!
Me : From.... 7-Iles?
Her : No
Me : Oh yeah! The talent show!
Her : Yeaaah! I knew it was you, but I didn't want to say hi because I'd be afraid that you'd go like : Ehhhh... why the fck is he talking to me?
The asian coworker was watching me.
Pat's twin came right next to us. She greets me with a hug, and I go ahead and hug Pat.
We talk for a bit, they tell me that they're really happy to see me, blablabla. Her mom comes nearby, and asks me where and when I'm going to cegep.
I then ask Pat the same kind of questions.
Blablabla.
Me : Hey, we should jam together sometimes, do some songs!
Them : Yeah!
Me : You guys will sing and I'll be on the piano, that'd be great.
They actually live near my house! So I could meet them easily.
Blablabla. We exchange goodbyes and we tell ourselves that we'll meetup soon.

So during the break, I see her again.
Me : Heeey, what's up????
Her : Hey.
She had a straight face. Sometimes it's nervousness? Or I couldn't quite tell. Felt like she was being the needy one.
Blablabla. She asked me a bit of questions about what school I'm going, what I'm studying.
Her : You're leaving?
Me : I'm going on my 1 hour break actually.
Her : Ohhh, where?
Me : To the mall, go see some friends.
Her : Oh you mean with the two girls?
Me : Which girls? I don't know who you're talking about.
She gives me the eyebrows.
Me : You mean the girls I talked to before?
Her : Yeah.
Me : Ohhh, they're just random friends of mine, blablabla.
I could've thrown in something like : You jelly???

On break, went to the mall.
So I walked around, didn't see much girls to be honest. Though, when I saw them, they were too old or too young for me. I was making excuses again.
I kept walking, met some random people I know. On a rush, I walk back to work.
I see Niyo on the way! She was sitting by herself actually!
Me : Niyousha! Whaaattt? Are you doing here!
Her : Heey, blabla.
Me : Oh ya blabla, I'm actually on a rush so I gotta go soon.
We talked a bit. I asked her if she was working today, she actually isn't. We keep talking for like 1 minute. My heart started pumping faster for some reason. I was feeling nervous.
So then we exchange goodbyes, I leave. I then randomly come back.
Me : Heey, do you have a cellphone? We should exchange numbers.
She had a cellphone right in her hand. I didn't notice it. I felt stupid. I knew that I was nervous.
Me : Ohh well yeah you do! Hahaha... Alright.
I don't remember what was said. She wasn't eager, and I wasn't either. Pulled off my cellphone. As I open it, I see that it's 6:37 PM.
Me : Ohhh actually nevermind. I'll be late to work so we'll do that another time.
Her : Okay
I then just leave, walking fast.
I squeeze my fists and my teeth.
AHHH MAN, that was weird. You told her on the first place that you were on a rush, and then you randomly go back to her and ask for her number? UGGHH
I was thinking again negatively.

I get back to work.
So near the bins filled with pens, I do what I have to do and asian coworker comes nearby.
Her : So you're filling the home location?
Me : Yeaahh, and blabla.
She bumps into a bin.
Me : Hahahahahahaha!
Her : Heey, stop laughing!
Me : You got distracted by some handsome guy?
Her : Hahaha, well that's just you!
We laughed a bit.

Later that day, she asks me for things and things. I often refuse to do what she tells me to do. It was cool.
So later she slaps me on the shoulder a bit. I slap her back, it's playful.

Later in the evening, near the bins.
Boss : Alright. Mindgamez, ____ and *asian girl*, take care of the bins and make sure it looks perfect. This place looks like crap all the time, so make it look good.
The asian girl takes every pencil case of that bin I just cleaned a while ago. I watch her do it.
Her : What are you doing?
Me : Why you emptying all this? I just cleaned that up!
Her : I want to make it look perfect! Better than you!
Me : Tsktsktsktsk, naaaaah! No need for that! That's useless!
I touch her on the shoulder gently, she does the same.
Blabla, I leave 5 seconds after.

So 5 minutes later.
Her : Mindgamez! Come here and look at that beautiful bin!
Me : Mhmhhmmh...
Her : Isn't it pretty?
Me : Naaaaahhhh
I then keep joking around a bit, I tickle her chin! She smiles and screams a bit
Her : Waaahhh! Don't touch me!
I laugh my ass off. Though, 3 seconds after that, I felt affected by her reaction. How was it bad? It wasn't.

I remember that things were still going good for a while. We chatted a bit more.

 

[Mindgamez]

Though, the problem is that things started going downhill. I was entering needy mode.
What should I say? Naah, that wouldn't be good. Alright, focus man.
When she was gone, I'd go into my head again and think too much. Then, I'd try to empty my mind.
Man, just go to the bathroom for a while.
On the way there, I just think of nothing, try to meditate, just be in the moment. It fails. The more I try, the worse it is.

So I see her again. I don't know what to say really.
Again, she passes nearby. I had nothing to say, so I just go with this...
Me : Heey, why you here again?
Her : Whaatt?
Me : Ahhh just kidding lol.
Nothing happens. I just say that when I don't have anything to say. I felt like when I talked, I did it only because I had to do something about it. It was by neediness. I felt like all I had to say had to make sense and be good. I felt like I had to show non-neediness. By thinking like that, I'm actually being needy.
So asian coworker talks to that other guy and to that girl. I just pretend that I'm busy working, and I ignore them instead of joining the conversation.
Ohhh man, what to do? I'm being a chode again. Why am I feeling jealous again? What the hell!
I put the refill paper at it's place, not talking. Asian girl was gone already.

I don't clearly remember the good moments, because I wasn't thinking about them.
Though, I clearly remember that feeling when I had NOTHING in mind to say, when I though that what I would say wouldn't we right, that feeling of fear.

So yeah, I wasn't pulling her enough. I was just pushing and pushing, not really showing interest at all at some point. As time went by, things were getting worse and worse. I felt like I was being an *******. Truth is I feared to show my intentions to her.
Advanced supplication, that's how Tyler calls it in the Blueprint. I'm trying to act non-needy to get her.

Whatever, so we're done working.
I walk faster to the employee section, and see her again.
Me : Yeeeeeeehhhh it's over!
I act a bit retarded because it's funny.
Her : Are you going to stop?
Me : Stop what?
Her : Acting so weird?
Me : Humm... no. Are you going to stop, being such an *name*?
Man I had no reason to said that. Leads to nowhere. I just didn't want to appear needy, because I was feeling needy myself. Feels weird just reading about that again.
Her : Hum nooo.
It wasn't really playful at all.

I walk through the door, and then that other guy comes and holds the door for her.
Her : Thanks.
Guy : No problem.
Her : At least, he has some manners, not like you.
Me : Hahaha, I know XD
I don't know why I couldn't understand that I was just annoying her.
I block her way again just for fun.
Her : Move, I gotta go. I'm in a bad mood today.
I let her go in the room, talk to some other guys. I then see a big spider near asian coworker and I tell her.
She SCREAMS LIKE CRAZY (no surprise), laughs and goes to that other side of the room. She laughs a bit.
Was about to say something like : Heey, I'm your hero! You gotta thank me for saving your life.
But I pussied out. I just smashed the spider and let her walk out the room. She didn't wait for me.

11:00 PM
I see her again outside.
Me : You're taking the bus?
She moves her head left and right saying no.
Me : You have a lift?
She nods.
I'm thinking of going for a hug or something. No, there's just no point to that. We have no connection.
Me : Alright. Until... next time.
I just leave, she looks away. She doesn't even say bye.

MINDGAMEZ WHAT THE HELL! AGHHHH... You didn't do it. Man, I can't believe that I was such a chode the whole time.
I clench my fists and squeeze my teeth together. I was feeling like a retard I'm not going to lie.

The calm breeze of the night. The walk home.
I know why. I was feeling needy. I don't need her. I don't need that girl or this girl.
I run across the street and keep walking.
It's alright, I'll just keep walking the path. It'll be hard, but I'll be fine.
I see that guy coworker, on the scooter with that girl. She's screaming because he's going so fast. I felt a little jealousy inside, for no reason.
Ahhh man. Why am I feeling this?
I just kept walking.

At the bus stop, I see a group of people talking. I find it really interesting for some reason, and I kept listening from far to it. There was this alpha guy talking to the 3 hot girls, and the other guys were sitting down, not really caring about the conversation.
Actually, I noticed that one guy. He was leaning in, back a little curved forward. In his face, I understood that look. It's the look of the guy that doesn't know how to join the conversation. The guy that's apart from the group, the awkward shy guy. He just kept looking around while the alpha one was talking and having fun.
It was interesting. When the alpha guy left, it became awkward and the awkward guy just ignored them.
That other guy was leaving, so he did a handshake to that other cool dude that was sitting, and just says bye to the awkward guy. No handshake.
I heard previously from that conversation that the alpha guy was around 17 years old. This means that the girls could've been mine? Though they seemed older...

The girls leave to the bus. I can take that bus, but i'll have to walk 30 minutes extra to get home.
Put a gun on your head. WHAT'S THE RIGHT THING TO DO? **** THIS, GO.
I then rapidly take my bag, and then start walking towards the bus. I was feeling like such a boss.
Then I came closer to them. They really seemed older... I enter the bus, I want to sit next to them but there's no other seats remaining... I just sit right next to that old woman.
I realize that I took the wrong bus! It was going in the wrong direction.

This is what happens when you try to not give yourself excuses! Hahaha... I leave the bus.

So I walked towards the other bus stop.
That's alright man. I don't need to get a girl to allow myself to feel good. I walk the path to walk the path. There's NO WAY I'm failing.
I walk a bit faster.
It might take not so long before I get that date, or it might take very long! No matter how long it takes, I'll just keep pushing and pushing! NO ONE can stop me, NOTHING will. I am not being chased by the wolf, but I'm chasing him!
I start running. I had to free that instant wave of energy that I was feeling.
Tomorrow, I'll be doing approaches downtown with my wing. YEP.
ME : 10 APPROACHES! 10 FCKING APPROACHES! 10 APPROACHES!
I yelled that in the street. Nobody could really hear me. I kept running. I was freeing that frustration. After I yelled a bit, I felt relieved and good again. I was calm.

So in the bus.
The asian coworker? Yeah... so what? She ain't that hot. YO AT SCHOOL? DID YOU FORGET ABOUT IT?! HAHAHAHA! There will be a crazy amount of girls your age! And you start from literally scratch!
I started smiling. I was feeling calm again. I wasn't thinking.
Nothing will stop me. I never felt that motivated before.
I just kept looking at that spot, but then I started daydreaming. I was feeling present again.

11:40 PM
I get off the bus. I walk in the night.
I remember that night when I came back from the movie theaters. After I attempted make-outs with HB C.
I love the night. It reminds me of my past victories, and learnings. Every day of going out or going on the field ends up with this particular moment.
It's peaceful, it's chill.

11:50 PM
I arrive in front of my house. I love the night. The light breeze, the sound of insects. It's so peaceful. We could see the stars tonight.
I look at the grass. I gently touch it to see if it's wet or dirty. I sit down, look up. I take a pause.
I was feeling great. I stopped thinking, just looked at some random star. Nothing was going through my mind. I was present.
My eyes started getting wet. I didn't try to resist the feeling. I just let it go. That feeling of relief when you're free of all negativity.
I kept looking like I was looking at an old promise. A wish I've done in the past.
No, it wasn't sadness. It was relief. I knew that things were going to be OK. Things were going to be great.
I stayed another 5 minutes, then left to go home.

Conclusion
- Teasing and playing hard to get is a great thing. Though, when you overdo it and don't transition to building more rapport and going a little more serious, nothing will happen.
- Touching is great. If she responds back, that's a wonderful thing.
- If you stop the flirting, or just stop talking to her when you get close to her, attraction will die down. FAST. Flirt with her when you're still feeling good. Don't wait to be caught in that downward spiral of negative thinking to start flirting! It won't be as genuine.

What's coming up next
10 Approaches, or I'm NOT going home. I swear.
If I have to stay in the subway another extra hour, I'll do it. 10 approaches.
I'll be with Rickyboy and some other dude. It'll be fun! I have to progress.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

11:50 PM
I arrive in front of my house. I love the night. The light breeze, the sound of insects. It's so peaceful. We could see the stars tonight.
I look at the grass. I gently touch it to see if it's wet or dirty. I sit down, look up. I take a pause.
I was feeling great. I stopped thinking, just looked at some random star. Nothing was going through my mind. I was present.
My eyes started getting wet. I didn't try to resist the feeling. I just let it go. That feeling of relief when you're free of all negativity.
I kept looking like I was looking at an old promise. A wish I've done in the past.
No, it wasn't sadness. It was relief. I knew that things were going to be OK. Things were going to be great.

Just as reading that allows my eyes to tear up and goosebumps to appear. I know exactly what you mean.

 

[Mindgamez]

Yeah man, we all get that feeling sometimes. It's so relieving. You feel like god gave you a huge hug to comfort you.

By the way, it's been 12 days without fapping. NOT even edging or touching my penis! I'm making a lot of progress.
Girls are getting hotter and hotter with that natural horniness hehe.

Thursday, August 23rd
9 Approaches, pretty good.
Approached in a women's store! FINALLY DID IT!
And I walked into some other school and gamed here. Yeah! I love cegep, filled with girls your age.

So today,
There was no pretty coworkers at work! Too bad I though.
Though I have a problem. I simply CANNOT say a compliment to a hot customer while I'm working. I gotta do one, at least...

Whatever. So at 5:30, I meet with Rickyboy (I though that he gave up pickup, but he came back!) and some other friend of his. They were really cool, and his friend was into pickup even though he had a girlfriend hahaha!

In cegep school, I see 2 HB7s in the electric stairs.
I was next to Rickyboy, but I just decided to ditch him for 2 seconds to open that set.
Blablabla, direct opener as usual. I don't know how to start off indirect like, asking for random directions? I don't see how that could go.

Set of 2 girls, 6.5 and 7.5 ordering food at the cafeteria.
So I see then, and they see me. I just stand near the tables with Ricky and the friend. I finally decide to go as they're done paying their stuff.
Direct opener again. They give me the usual look that means *I'm not interested*, but I still try and keep the conversation going. They eject.
Later, I see them outside. The 6.5 waves at us, I scream hello back and we just leave lol.

So we go into the mall!
I did approaches, but I don't remember all of them. I'll tell you the good ones.

So there's this very beautiful girl at Simons (clothes shop). HB8.5
She was helping a customer, so me and the guys waited for a while. They wanted to go! But they kept *****ing out... so you know what? I went!
As I started walking towards her, I hear them go woooh XD.
She's on the phone? Hahaha, let's go!
As I get close to her and smile,
Her : Wait a second, there's a customer that needs help. *turns off phone*. Yes?
I go direct again. She thanks me with a smile. Though, her teeth were a bit crooked so she went down to HB8.
Me : As you can guess, I don't really need your help! And I really had to interrupt your call to tell you this cause it's important
Her : Well it is very kind from you! And it is indeed important haha
So she's apparently 25!
Me : Ohh that's cool that's cool.
Her : I look younger right?
Me : Yeah. Guess my age?
Her : I'd say... 23?
I start laughing a bit.
Me : Oh alright, so I'm kind of your age right?
Blabla, I tell her my real age and she goes : Ohhhh myy! And starts laughing! I walked off and she did too. It was pretty cool.

Girl in women's store. HB9 AHHHH!
Damn she was hot. Ricky's friend though that she was alright.
Then, he puts his glasses on.
Friend : OHHH DAAMN... She's so hot damn boy!
So we sit down in front of the store and just chicken out for like 10 minutes. I told Ricky to go because he didn't go yet. Truth is that I was scared myself!
Alright she's alone now. GO...
Feet walked by themselves. No way I would stop midway!
So yeah, I do the usual direct opener. I don't remember everything I said, but I noticed her accent from France so I tell her.
Blablabla, she seems quite receptive. Ends up that she's 21! She had a boyfriend.
When one of her friends walked in the store, I felt a little awkward. I though that maybe I should say hi to her, but I didn't.
Girl I approached was definitely older than me, but very beautiful. I just ejected after I told her to have a nice day.

I don't remember my other approaches, but I pretty much kept getting rejected over and over again.
The one I felt a little more confident and was more attracted, the girl responded better. Conclusion? Pretty girls respond WAY BETTER!
AND the approaches I waited the girl to pass by me before going in, it shows a bit of a lack of confidence.

Last approach of the day!
Alright so I'm by myself, at the bus stop near the mall close to the shop I work at. I see that HB8 looking at me. I look at her, but I'm the one that breaks the eye contact.
So I go to the bus sign and check for the schedule. And then I go sit next to the girl (like 3 feet away though... I should've sit right next to her!)
I look at her. She was already looking at me. After 3 seconds of looking at each other,
Me : Hey.
Her : Hi.
Me : How's it going?
Her : Pretty good, you?
Blablabla... We were tired and low-energy. We end up exchanging names.
Me : Actually I just though that you were really cute and I had to come say hi.
She seemed 22, but ends up that she's 18.
Some other blonde girl, HB7.5, was looking at us. People around could listen to us too. It was pretty quiet everywhere.
Blablabla, we keep talking. Apparently she recognizes me because we take the same bus all the time!?!?!
Me : Whaat! How you knwo that I'm taking 207? Are you a stalker?
That was a little loud. People looked at us. Whatever haha. We kept talking a bit, but we had big silences because I was REALLLY TIRED.

So we enter the bus. We took single seats and she was sitting right behind me. I kept talking for like 3 minutes with big pauses between the conversation. She was giving me pretty smiles, she was receptive. PRETTY GIRLS ARE MORE RECEPTIVE, GO FOR THEM.
So I almost fell asleep...
Then, this guy comes in the bus and sits. The girl switches place and goes sit right next to the guy. I pretend like I didn't see them, though I was pretty tired as hell.

So yeah, during 10 minutes I don't do ****. It's only just right before I go that I start talking to them. I was nervous just before, but once I stood up and started talking, I was fine.
Me : Heey, how's it going?
Guy : Good and you?
Me : Are you like his brother? (In english I always mix *his* and *her*... lol)
Guy : No
Me : Boyfriend?
Guy : No XD
Me : Friend?
Guy : Yes
Me : Ohhh naaiiice. I though you were Paki too, like her. You're *name*, right?
Girl : Yeah.
Me ; Oh yeah I'm soooo good. Anyway, seeya guys, until next time!
I walk towards the door. I point the girl.
Me : You! You're such a creeper! Ahhaaa just kidding!
I leave the bus.

Ahhh, but HOW did she know that I was taking the 207?... I feel like I never saw her before, and she tells me that she sees me often.

Friday, August 24th
Orientation day at Cegep! Chatted with a bunch or random people and it was fun.
Told that girl at work *Sexy!* She laughed and opened her mouth in awe.

So yeah!
Woke up, pretty ****ing tired but I really had to. It's been many days straight waking up early and sleeping pretty little.
NO EXCUSES! I have to give my max even though I'm tired.

Note : At school, it was pretty much going indirect and just chatting to chat. Socializing is an important skill, and doing pick up clearly helped.
So as I arrive at the orientation day, I directly open that random guy and asks him where the orientation is. We chat a bit together and we arrive to destination.
I hesitate before sitting down... I then see a seat next to that ginger guy. I tell him hello, we talk a bit. I pussied out from sitting right next to the hot girls in front of us, but a group of 3 cool guys were sitting right next to them. There was an empty seat between the guys and the 2 girls. Could've sat there instead...

So whatever. We split up in groups and then they tell me to go to that class. I decide to sit right next to that random girl, HB7.2.
I realize that she stinks... I get instantly turned off, though she was nice and kind.
We exchange names, ask the basic questions like in what program we're studying, etc. I did that quite often.

So during the tour, everybody was quiet! People were quite awkward (in my group at least), and nobody spoke to nobody. I had to break the ice, so I talk to that other 7.2.
I open with : What's up?
Something as simple as what's up? can spark up a conversation easily. She smiled and we chatted a bit. Nothing special and I wasn't so interested. Her face was pretty but she was too tall and not my type physically.

So I ask something randomly to that group of 2 girls. One was really beautiful, 8.5. She laughed right away for no reason as I looked at her. I smiled too, though there was no flirting going on. I wanted to tell her that she's beautiful but I chickened out. Ahhh, at social places like school I can open people indirectly much easier than before, though I can't go direct!

So yeah, I talk to other people of the group too.
I want to join the theatre club. Looked at the list and there's quite a good amount of girls in! That's fantastic. Though, I want to do this to learn about acting, but mostly to improve my confidence. Definitely helps for public speaking and also, I'll meet girls there. Hope that they're hot though...
Also, I might work as the videographer/photographer for the sport teams from the school. Guys from the football team are usually the confident popular guys, though that might just be a generalization.

 

[Mindgamez]

There was a barbecue during the day!
So I get some hotdog, talk to the group I was with, to other guys too.
LOL. You know the girl from Staples that pushed her boobs up in front of me? SHE WAS HERE TOO LOL.
I go up to her, midway she looks at me and gives me a recognizing smile.
Me : I know you, right?
Blablabla. There was a group of people, mostly girls. I was talking loud and being quite the confident one, the girls went quiet.
Though, I didn't flirt with her. She didn't really turn me on... though she's pretty sexual and I'm quite sure that she's the easy type of girl. I could've made friends with all the girls in the group though...
Though, there was this HB8 that was looking at me.
Me : Hey
Her : Hi
Me : How's it going?
Her : Good, you? I'm ____, nice to meet you.
Me : I'm Mindgamez,
blablabla. Not much was said. Then, I turn around and see these two guys. I open by complimenting his hat, we chat for like 1-2 minutes, then their tour guide calls their group. I go back to my group. Not much was done from here to be honest. Pussied out from approaching those HB9s...

So you know what? I run into prom girl on the way! We exchange hellos, she doesn't really look at me. She's probably pretty shy, I can tell... So she shows me where the bookstore is, and I introduce myself to her dad that seems pretty receptive.
Girls that don't look at you in the eye, I don't find that attractive. I really like the flirty ones (not the slutty ones though). I don't like shy girls so much I guess. You know what? I get turned off... lol.

So she shows me where it is. We exchange hugs before we go, though I'm not so attracted.
Asking random things to random people is now natural. I used to be terrified to ask questions when I was a kid. I couldn't speak to strangers at all.

So yeah, when I get to the exit, I see that it's written : Use only for emergency!
Stranger : You can go.
I turn around, it's an HB7. I say alright, blabla.
Me : Hey, nice yellow pants, they're awesome!
Her : Ohh thanks! Of course they're awesome because they're yellow.
Yellow is actually my favorite color! Lol, we exchanged high fives for that. She starts asking me in which program I'm in, I do the same.
Turns out that it's her 2nd year at the cegep. She seemed pretty receptive.
Blablabla, talked for a while. BUS COMES! So I run to it and just say goodbye to her, she says bye back. She keeps walking at normal speed.

In the bus, I talk to some random girl and guy. Gamers! Girl was 6.5
I see that 6.5 from work! She was on her orientation day too. I chat with her, and her cousin too.
Then, I open those 2 guys sitting in front of me. Pretty funny! I make friends with the guy. His smile made me believe that he's probably a high value guy. We exchange numbers and I tell him that I'll text him if I want to start training at the gym with him.

Before quitting the bus, I see that HB7 again and we chat again a bit more.
We exchange names and then I leave the bus. I say bye to the gamers before leaving.

Headed to WOORK!
I was feeling confident. Then, I see that popular guy from my high school driving. He stops and gives me a lift to work. He actually goes to the same cegep as me! We do the handshake and I leave. People that remind me of the past aren't bad at all. They remind me of my chody days, but I have to learn to move on. He's now my friend, not just some dude that's higher than me.

At work,
Pretty confident with the customers, as usual.
Guess what? Niyo, asian coworker and the 6.5 were working today, same day as me! Great, haha.

Asian : Do you know where this goes?
Me : Nooo I don't. Why?
She drops the item in my basket.
Me : Ohhh you always do that, always! Noooo!
We laugh and she gives me a smile.
Her : It's because I love you Mindgamez!
That touched me. It's rare that girls say that to me, to be honest.
Me : Awww that's so cute.
I should've said me too, tell her that she's totally hitting on me, blablabla.

Truth is, I was feeling a lot less needy today.

At break, I meet with Niyo and the other buddies too. I made funny comments during the conversation, but didn't really talk. I wasn't nervous either, except at that particular point...
So Niyo told us that she doesn't like eating in front of people.
Me : Why? You don't wanna get fat?
Silence. I was feeling uncomfortable. Some girl cuts in :
Girl : Okay. NEVER say that to a girl again.
Loool, I felt stupid though I was thinking about that time she was eating chocolate with mouthgasm. Didn't intend to be mean.

So yeah, I leave tje group to go get some water. Niyo passes by, running.
Niyo : Heey!
Me : Hey, you following me?
She gives me a pretty smile again.
Me : I was going to the bathroom. You wanted to follow me to the bathroom?
Lol XD.

Man, I noticed that I keep bumping into the 6.5s boobs per accident. Or she actually bumps into me on purpose looool. Though she ain't that hot.
There's that other coworker too. I bumped into her boobs per accident too. Hahahahahaha

So when we were working, I didn't really had the opportunity to talk to the girls that much. For the asian girl, I wasn't going for it. She's cute, okay, but yeaah... Niyo's more on the flirty side, which is pretty hot.

6.5 : Mindgamez, can you come?
Me : Yeah, I can *** (enphasis on letter C)
Niyo turns around and gives me a huge smile.
Me : Why you smiling like that?
Niyo : You didn't mean it that way haha
Me : Ohhh, I didn't mean it that way! It's only you that thinks like that you perv. Mhmhmh?
Niyo : Nooo XD
We bump into each other, we smile again.

Later during the evening
I get near the basket to put something in.
Niyo : Oohhhh, not you again! ******y hand*
Me : Ohhh no, why you're here?
Playful back and forth.
Me : Hey, you got glasses, that's so cool!
Her with glasses, that was pretty hot actually. So she gives me the sexy eyebrows. Can't resist.
Me : Sexy!
She turns around, gives me a big smile and opens her mouth in awe. Don't remember what she said.
Me : Hey, I was just kidding, don't get too excited!
We smile again.

Before leaving
So I see her again.
Me : Heey, you're waiting for me?
Her : Well, yeah, blablabla. She was being quiet.
I noticed that when we were 1 on 1, the conversation felt better. There was like a better connection going on. We walked out together. We should've exchanged numbers!... **** I didn't do it lol. So yeah, she went to go talk to her friend, and I went to the front. Got my paycheck! And then left outside.

Everyone was then outside. People that had to take the bus left, but I stayed to talk to the girls a bit more.
Asian coworker : Wait, you aren't taking the bus?
Me : Yeah I am
Her : Why aren't you with them then?
Me : My bus passes in like 15 minutes, so.
Yeah, we kept talking. At first, I eased into the group quite well, but then I started doubting myself as the girl was asking me why I was still here.
I still kept talking a bit, then I pulled out my cellphone. Pretended to text for a while, then I just leave and say goodbye to the group.

I walked off, not feeling bad, but not feeling that good either. I could've done more than that! Things were going good...
Niyo's flirty, that's hot. I have to get more sexual, but most of all, KINO!!!! Kino is the ****.


Conclusion
- For cold approaching, I have to learn to go into the set AS SOON AS I SEE IT! If I wait too long, that's a bad thing.
- Just be cool. People are cool too. Yeah.

What's coming up next
ALL AGES PARTY TOMORROW! + Paintballing with some friends.
I'll have little hours of sleep again. Damn I'LL BE TIRED AS FCK... too bad. I must write in my journal, it's important.
My friend N keeps telling me that All Ages Parties are for douchebags and *****es and all what people do is have sex and grind each other.
What if he's just a chode? This is where all the hot girls are at. LET'S GO! Can't wait man... can't wait.

FIRST OPPORTUNITY TO NIGHTGAME.
Expect an epic field report in 2 days. **** YEAH!!!