Journal - Approaches on street, at mall, etc.

[Mindgamez]

I felt great on this one.
I saw her in the subway, but she looked a bit large. Though, her eyes were beautiful.
So she steps out of the subway. Oh damn, she's hotter than I though, HB8.5. I look her pass by me, and Ricky gives me a smile.
Me : Heeyy
My voice wasn't louder, but it was normal. I was attracted, and I was letting it happen. I wasn't nervous.
So I tell her that she's very beautiful. She thanks me and gives me a warm smile. Though, she keeps on walking! By the way, people were watching me, especially that guy next to her.
Me : Heey wait, we gotta talk more!
I smiled, I was full of joy inside. I lost the guys on the way, but found them a few feet away. They laughed and told me that I failed XD and that she had a boyfriend!
Me : Wait... I though it was her dad or something?

So after we walked off the subway and walked a bit on the streets, not seeing anyone again... I head back to the subway with Porno. In the subway, we see two hot girls. One of them was looking at us.
Me : Yoo man, we gotta approach. Oh man, and she's also looking at me! Damn fck...
Porno : Ohh man yeaaah...
So they go down the stairs to wait for the train. We go down the stairs, we look at them and we catch them looking at us. They were now a group of 4. Though, we ***** out and we start laughing a bit.
So we wait a bit further. She was still looking at us! FCKKK AGHH!!!
Me : Alright man, let's go?
Porno : Alright!!
He starts walking towards them, but he pussies out midway. I do too!
Me : Alright, for real man!
I push him by the shoulder and we finally go.

Me : Ohhh heey! Wait, we had to tell you girls that you're really cute! Wait, English or French?
I didn't notice that Porno was talking over me and we were interrupting each other LOL. We laughed our asses off at that nonsense and lack of coordination. They laughed too, especially the hottest one of them. She backed off a bit and proceeded to laugh her ass off during the whole conversation.
So yeah, I admitted them that I was nervous at first at the idea of approaching them, blabla. The asian girl I was talking to wasn't receptive and she seemed *****y. The girl that was looking at us was right next, though she seemed shy. She was still smiling and looking at us. Though, the girls had their arms crossed, some of them. We still continued to talk, even though I was feeling pretty awkward at some point.
Porno ended the conversation by saying Nice meeting you, proceeded to exchange names. He was good
The girl that was looking at me wasn't as hot as I though. let's say 7, but still not bad.

That's pretty much it.
On the way home, I listen to some good music, Club music by DJ Tiesto. I get in the mood to dance. I feel like doing shuffle, so I do a bit in the subway.

What's coming up next
Lazerquest with high school friends tomorrow, then going to Metal Concert.
GOTTA OWN THIS! Ohhh, and I'll be doing some daygame with Sex_is_good too for a while.
And I'm getting a fake ID done very soon, so I'll be able to go nightgame hopefully.

 

[Mindgamez]

Tuesday, September 18th
Alright, here we go.

Morning starts.
I go to philosophy class. We were watching a movie that day in class. I sit next to Porno, and feel like a *****! Nothing happens then. I gotta sit next to girls next time...

Creative Writing class happens next. I have to read my story out loud to the class. I was SOOOOO anxious the day before. I was wondering if it was going to be good or not, if I'd stammer on my words or not. Well guess what? The class enjoyed the story, the teacher too. Apparently, I'm a good reader.
Practising public speaking is a good thing.

English class is cancelled! I have 2h30 of break...
I don't remember what I did exactly because it's been 2 days ago, but I'll do my best.

So I went to the cafeteria to check for some food. For real, I wasn't really looking at things to buy. Though, the drinks seemed interesting. I saw that guy checking for drinks too.
Me : Ahhhh, so much to choose from!
Him : Yeaah I know, and there's no Mountain Dew!
Blablabla.
Me : You look asian. Are you?
Him : Yeaah, I'm half japanese.
Me : OHH THAT'S AWESOME YEAAHH!!!
So we vibe automatically. We share a good energy. I eat at his table and talk to his friends too. They were like 6-7 or so in total. That pretty girl kept asking me questions about where I'm from, etc. etc. She was hot, 7.5. Though, I can't muster up the courage to flirt in big groups...
2 other girls arrive. I present myself again, but I don't really talk to them.
I go to the microwave and heat up my meal. I come back, some people are gone. Asian buddy has to go after we exchange facebooks.

A girl (6) that was at my table actually left to eat with some other chick. After a bit of hesitation, I remembered how I gotta do things for the greater good. TAKE ACTION!
So I go, sit down next to them. Her friend was actually a 7, a good 7. We talked for a bit. They seemed awkward, especially her friend. I was feeling shy too, but I kept talking anyway. No flirting, but whatever. I then leave, say goodbye.

Problem here!
I'm starting to have a good number of acquaintances, but I never ask people to hang out afterwards, of exchange contact information. I guess that I gotta do it, right? For some reasons, closing was always hard for me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gkOwMeUtJJY
So I head to the library, read my book and listen to some music to pump me up. This music is so uplifting for me, I have no idea why. I associate so many good memories from back in high school. I listened to this song when I was in a bad mood, and I instantly felt more confident.
You go piece and piece but your world is bound
There was of this mirror only shown
Darken image at the back of flesh
I am least the one who cries

I'm feeling motivated this time.
I go piece and piece but my world has its limits. This is what the mirror's telling me. It's a darkened image of self. Man I love the song!
So throw me bull****, world. I'll continue on until the day I die! I don't do this for her, but for me. The more bull**** I go through, the more I'll progress.

So I go to that last class, very boring. Nothing happens and I fight not to fall asleep!

At the bus stop, I see a friend from long ago. She's pretty cute, but has a boyfriend. Blablabla, talked to her friend too a bit.

Wednesday, September 19th
Yeah.

Tired as hell.
I go to my Universe of the Arts class. I sit down next to my hot teammate for the project. I was feeling anxious during the whole class, because I had to prepare for an oral presentation, that I had to present today.
GUESS WHAT? I WAS WRONG! I didn't present today. Though, I had a test that I forgot to study for.
I was paired in a group of girls for some work. No pretty girls really, but some were there. I really wasn't in the mood... still managed to socialize a bit.

BREAK TIME!
I head to the lounge. I see some girl that looks like the hot German girl I talked to the other day. She looks at me, and I quickly look away... ahhh, it happens naturally automatically, and I CANNOT control it! She probably sensed it. I walked off, feeling like a little *****.

I meet up with Porno near the cafeteria, but we head up to the lounge. I see some girl I know from high school.
Me : Hey man, I know these girls. Let's go?
We walk in, I introduce myself to her and her friend. She's kinda cute.
Blablablabla, it was fun.

I see that asian girl I know already. I introduce myself to her friend, but this time, I go funny. I tease more and joke more. Told them that I like drawing penises and stuff. The other girl was a 6.5.

You know the hot German girl? She was in the lounge too! I didn't really notice her at the beginning, but she was at a different spot this time.
She leaves her chair.
OK man, it's time. NO EXCUSES.
She heads toward the door, but she sees some other tall guy.
GO MAN, JUST GO.
Me : Heeey wait! Hey hey hey!
She hugged the guy firmly.
Me : Heey hey hey! Wait a sec!
She kept walking, like she ignored me.
Ahhh man, hope that she'll respond soon. Is she testing me? KEEP GOING.
She finally turns around.
Me : I know you. You are... _____?
Her : Yeah, and you are Mindgamez right?
Me : Yeah!
Blabla, like for 10 seconds.
Her : Okay but I gotta go.
Me : Oh you gotta go to the cafeteria buy something?
Her : Blablabla, yeah.
Me : Ohhh okay.
I smile, but it was some chody smile. I knew that I was about to leave. And she was with some other girl too.
Me : Well seeya!
Her : Bye!

I head back to the lounge where Porno was.
Me : Uhggghhhh man I feel like a *****! XD
Him : Ahhh man that's fine.

So we head to the cafeteria. I see a table of hot girls.
Me : Ohhh man, we gotta go talk to them. You down?
Porno : Humm, okay.
We walk towards the table, but pass by it.
Porno : Uhhh this is awkward XDD
Me : Haha, no it's not! Okay okay, let's just go.
I sit at the table.
Me : Heellloo! You guys wanna be my friends?
I was in a good mood, playful and everything.
They introduce themselves, we talk for a bit. Conversation is going good. One was a blonde, 7.5, and the other girl had fabulous tits HOLY! HB8. They were a year older than me, same age as Porno.
HB8 : So what do you want to be later?
Me : A movie director blablabla, I wanna do this and this and this.
HB8 : Ohhh that's coool
Me : But you know, I mostly want to do porno movies.
I said it in a serious tone, forced myself not to laugh. Porno laughed though, but the girls kept a serious face!
HB8 : Ohh that's nice!
Me : And you girls can play in it.
HB8 : Well of course we can do that!
I smile. This caught me off guard a bit, but I continued to stay in control. I was feeling good, and had an erection.
Me : Though I was just kidding hahaha.
HB8 : yeaah I know.
Ahhh MAN. Why did I say that? I was feeling insecure about going sexual, so this ruined it. She was okay with it, so why not continue on?
I get their names again.
Me : Ohhh _____, ______.
HB8 : Ahh I hate my name, someone told me that it's a stripper's name!
Me : OH yeaah, so you're a stripper?
Blablabla. Conversation dies out, girls talk to each other, and I start talking to Porno. We have 2 separate conversations... I'm going into my mind again, and girls have to leave. We exchange goodbyes, no contact information.
OHHH her boobs looked even better when she stood up...

 

[Mindgamez]

I head to filmmaking class.
My mood went down again for some reason. I was tired, too.
I sit next to that girl, but I'm not feeling it. My smile seems fake too! Whatever.
Nothing happens then. There's a LOT of pretty girls in my filmmaking class, oh my god. Though, I'm teamed up with an AFC guy. He's always hyperventilating and nervous all the time. Her stammers a lot, and I kind of got influenced by his state. Whatever. NEXT CLASS, I GOTTA OWN IT. FCK!...

I head home.

Thursday, September 20th
Class starts with Philosophy again.

Porno was sitting next to that pretty girl he talked to me about! That's great stuff. I sit next to my other buddy. I ***** out from talking to girls in my class...

I exit the class, and I see the cute HB8.5 that's in my Writing class. When I talk to her at first, I'm feeling in a good mood. We talk and talk and talk. Though, I always end up thinking of what to say next. I tried to tease her, but it didn't lead anywhere. She's very nice, I like her. Though, she has a boyfriend...

Me and Porno head to the cafeteria. I meet his friends, but we don't talk to other girls on the way.

Writing class,
Sit next to the usual group of girls. They're fun

On the way out, I head to my locker. The hot blonde girl, friend of coworker (let's call her Greeny), comes up and talks to me. She's a sympathetic person, she's very nice. We talked and talked. She apparently had a long break, and I had a break too. She already ate, so I didn't ask her if she wanted to go eat. Ahhh, why not? She's a nice girl, very friendly too. Though, I feel friendzoned already. Whatever. I bend down to put some of my books in my locker, and she then tells me to have a good time. We exchange goodbyes

I approach that girl at the lounge. A 7, not bad
She's kinda cute, but not that hot. Asian girl, she seemed bored. Though, she had a pretty smile. Conversation was kinda boring and stuff, but it was still ok. Told her that I do Youtube stuff, so she asked for my channel.
Me : Yeah, just type in my full name and you'll find me!
Blablabla.
Me : You should write it down or you'll forget it!
I said this kind of by insecurity, like I knew that maybe she wouldn't go check.
Okay so she writes my name, tells me that she'll go check. I tell her that she can add me on fb if she wants. We exchange goodbyes.

There's that other asian girl sitting next to me, 6. She looked dead bored. I notice her pink shirt, pencilcase, and notebook.
Me : You look like someone that likes pink!
Her : Huh?
Me : *I repeat* smiled,
Her : Ohh okay.
She didn't smile at all. She was boring! Blablabla, 1-2 minutes.
Me : Goodbye!
Her : She doesn't look at me, just leaves by herself.

Yeaaaahh
I go to English class.
I see the usual group of guys I like to talk to, with a girl. I go in.
Me : HEEEYYY!! Waddduppp
I was feeling very relaxed and good.
Her : Wait, is it true that you play piano?
Me : .... how you know?
Her : Well, the other guys told me, blablabla.
Guy : Yeaah, she plays piano too, you guys should do a battle!
Blablabla.
Her : Ohhh I love music! It's like ahhhhhhh...
Me : It's like orgasmic?
Her : What?
Me : Hahahaha, nothing nothing!
I felt like a chode again. I pussied out lool.

So I don't sit at the same spot this time! I sit next to that other guy buddy.
The girl that plays piano (let's call her Pianogurl) sat close. The asian girl too.
Asian girl pushes my leg with her hands.
Her : Heeeyy, can you just move please?
Me : Why you touching my leg like thaat?
She smiled, I smiled too.
Her : Ohhh I want you to move!
Because it's funny, I decide to not move haha. Later, she pushes my leg again.
Her : Heey, I gotta go because blablablabla.
Me : Ohhhhhhh! okay now I get it lol!
So I finally move.

So I talk to that friend in my class. Pianogurl turns around from time to time like she's trying to sneak in the convo.
Her : Ohhh I like longboards too!
Me : Ohhh that's coool, blablabla.
Friend : Yeah, I wanna learn how to skateboard!
Her : I wanna learn how to skateboard too!
Me : Ohhh yeah, high five guuys!
I invite them for a high five each of them. The girl gives a weak one, I call her up on it. I'm feeling like a chode again, though I still manage to smile.
Her : Ohhh, yeah I already gave one to you, blablabla.
Blablalbalbalblablal. Movie starts, nobody talks.
Movie ends, we get up and leave class.

Me : Heey, wait, what's your name?
Pianogurl : _______
Me : Ohhh I'm Mindgamez, nice meeting you!
We shake hands, and I leave the class.
FCKING FATTY **** BLOCKING ME AGAIN.
Fatty : Heey Mindgamez, you're playing a game again?
Me : What you're talking about?
I was already further ahead from pianogurl, but she could maybe hear.
Fatty : Yeah, you always do that!
She was smiling, but it was getting annoying seriously. It's been twice already.
Me : I'm just being social, you don't get it!
Fatty : Ohh yeah that's it, blablalbabal.

I leave class, head to my last class. Teacher's not here! So we leave class early.
My metalhead friend sees the hot blondie from last time. He goes : Ahhhhh! She's so hooot!
Me : Naah man she ain't THAAT hoot! (when she's not wearing minishorts that show her cameltoe)
She was on the phone, so we didn't talk to her.

What's coming up next
PARTYING TOMORROW!
YEAH MAN, THIS IS IT. THIS IS IT.
FCKING PARTYING COLLEGE PARTY ****. It's been a while since my last GOOD party with MANY people. There will be around 250-300 people.

GOAL : Attempt Make-out with Hot Girl. HOT. If I get the make-out, PROCEED TO ESCALATE.

This is my time to shine, hell yeah.

 

[Nino-Tk]

I kinda don't know how to explain this little thing I've stumbled across but I've noticed that setting up outcomes in your mind puts you in a pressured state. I say, instead of saying "I will attempt a make-out", think " No girl will resist will my lips, I will be beating women off with a pimp stick". Say that to yourself, and truly believe it, It is like, you are going to give off highly sexual vibes, women will feel it.

It is all in your mind, it is just now that I'm also discovering this dangerous power it has. So, don't try, don't attempt. It will take place, with lots and lots of women. Just be.

 

[Mindgamez]

That was good advice man, thanks.

Friday, September 21st
NO MORE TICKETS.

So yeah,
I was EXTREMELY excited for that party, and I knew that it was going to be the ****. Well guess what? I came to the entrance, and they told me that all tickets were sold out.

Next time, I gotta buy them in advance... Man that was bull****.

I'm so fcking disappointed, I'm not going to write anything in detail.

I'm not going to lie that I felt like a ***** that day. Though, I managed to do some stuff.

At school, during day
After my first class, I go work out with some friend from work. He's a cool guy, very social. He makes me laugh for no reason.

Then, I noticed that they were showing indie short films in the agora of the school, so I went in. Everyone was sitting pretty much alone by themselves.
I saw that girl from the back. The approach was very good and I felt a good energy. My smile was contagious. HB7
Me : Heey! I don't like sitting alone, so I'll sit with you.
Her : Haha okay
Blablabla, we talked. No flirting happened. When I told her that I wanted to do porn movies later, she looked at me very weird. I forced my laugh...
So yeah, we had a short conversation. She asked me to what school I went to, etc. The usual talk.
Her : So yeah, I gotta go buy blablabla.
Me : Alright that's cool.
Man, I failed at this point. You know why? Because it was the time to exchange contact information here. I just told myself that things weren't going well and that the conversation was boring, so it was an excuse for me not to take action. She was probably going somewhere I could also go to, but I decided to not move things forward.
Her : Well, goodbye then? It was nice meeting you
Me : It was nice meeting you too, seeya!
She said it with a questioned tone, and I couldn't quite tell what it meant. I though that she was just not interested at the moment, but maybe was she actually waiting for me to do something about it. I just stayed on my seat, kept watching the short films.

Man, when I think back of my previous interactions, I always see it from another angle... She was somehow interested, at least!

Yep. Then, I went to the cafeteria and ate with some buddies I already knew.
Then, I sat to that table with the friend I first started working out with (let's call him Norm). So yeah, I almost didn't talk to his friends at all. I'm always feeling awkward.

So yep,
Instead of going to the big party I was soo pumped and ready for (I wanted to own the ****, flirt with tons of girls, and I was feeling totally ready for it), we went back home... I chilled with my high school buddies the whole time. It was still pretty fun though, but I was still feeling down.

I could've gone to that concert with Dumi! MAAN...
He suggested me to go to the concert and stage dive with a Bunny costume. HE DID IT AND FILMED IT! HAHAHAHA! He's so awesome, has balls of steel too. Instead, I decided to go to the party and I told him that we'll be doing public pranks with a costume later instead. Well, THERE WAS NO FCKING PARTY... Omfg I'm so mad. Sorry guys but I had to let it out.

Conclusion
Seriously these previous days, I feel like I've been regressing like, I'm not really moving forward. I'm just more in a bad mood and I don't feel like doing anything. Maybe this can be explained by my lack of sleep (It's been a whole week sleeping like 6-7 hours every night), or maybe it's just me?
Do you guys ever experience these moments? I'm just being a chode all the time now, like ALL the time.

Saturday, September 22nd
We had to film something for FIlmmaking class today. My awkward teammate came at my house, and my ex too! She's cool, HB7.5, though has a boyfriend.

So yeah,
Woke up the morning, fcking tired but couldn't go back to sleep because of my friend's neighbours being so loud. I slept at his place.

Went to my house.
And LOL awkward buddy's so funny...

So yeah, my ex pretty much initiated the sexual talking with me.

Me : Hey, but careful! My blankets are full of jizz
Her : Ohhh, I don't mind! Hahaha
I got a bit hard here hahaha
Me : You find my bed comfortable?
Her : Oh yeah, I'd sleep in it any time!
I couldn't tell if she was joking or not. Man, I felt like lying next to her in the bed, but what stopped me from escalating was the fact that she has a boyfriend.

I told her to lie in my bed (for a camera shot!), she laughed and told me that I was a pig XD. When she was on the bed, she slapped her ass in a sensual way, and my awkward buddy looked back, and he started to stammer again and saying random stuff. My ex was laughing her ASS OFF LOOL!! ME TOO. She though that he was gay.
So yeah, took pictures of her lying on my bed (with clothes, unfortunately)

I catch her bumping into me a couple of times, touching me directly with her boobs and legs. I really felt like it was on purpose. She did that when she wanted to look at the video on the camera screen.

I told her to do the sexy pose, and she smiled. Hehe.

I know her since I was like 7 years old! So we're probably friendzone, though she'd be a cool buddy to have sex with . Though she has a boyfriend! Man, if she didn't have any boyfriend, that'd be cool. She makes me horny sometimes, that's good.

I like her hugs, they're cute.

Conclusion
I'm feeling pretty comfortable with her! Why am I not like this with other girls too? That sucks... I gotta be more comfortable with touching girls and joking around sexually. I don't flirt with girls at school, and that's why they aren't so interested! Let's do it.

Oh, and for my ex, I dunno what to do. She's sexual, kinda hot, though it's been 9 months with her boyfriend. I'm really not into stealing another guy's girlfriend, so I guess I'll just forget it and talk to more girls.

I'm still feeling pretty down right now, very tired. I don't feel like doing homeworks.
And also, I pussied out a couple of times from doing cold approaches on my own on the way back home. I was totally not into it.
Though, I thought about something on the way home.
When you realize that you don't have any reasons to be happy, you actually become very happy.
How does that make sense? Well, when you don't need to find a reason to be happy, you have no reason to be happy. So you are happy, and you don't need to justify why you are happy. You just are! And nothing from the outside world can make you happier. Your mind has to process it first. YOU decide if you're happy or not.

 

[LearningSlowly]

The only reason you could stop improving is if you keep trying the same tactics over and over.

Google and download (torrent?) Vin DiCarlo's Pandora's Box. It will help a lot, and also teach you when your sexual jokes will succeed and when they won't.

 

[Mindgamez]

Interesting Learning, but I'm reading Conquering the Campus right now. I'll read it later maybe. Oh, and you're right on that. I really don't think of other ways of doing it, and I pretty much do the same *tactics* over and over again!

Sunday, September 23rd
I feel back on track! Like 9 Approaches with Rickyboy, and 1 by myself.

So yeah,
Woke up after 11 hours of sleep. I felt better. I was still yawning from time to time, so this means that my sleep patterns need to be better. I gotta sleep at the same time, wake up at the same time... That would greatly benefit me.

AND exercise too.

Whatever, let's go into pickup now.

I arrive a bit late again,
Because I was reading Conquering the Campus before I went out. So yeah, whatever!

Like usual, we ***** out a bit every set we want to approach.
Ricky : Ohhh man, don't hesitate on the Go game man, don't hesitate!
We wanted to play SP's Go game, and we did

We kept walking and walking. I approach the first set. Two girls.
I felt rusty! After a week of school feeling down and lazy, I felt like going social with people again was hard. Whatever, I told myself.
Me : Agghhh shiett...
Ricky : Ohhh man, go!
Me : Ahhhh!
So I walk back to them, because I was letting them pass by. Got rejected, not even a smile from them! Whatever I guess.

I felt relieved after that first approach. I was getting slowly in state.

LOL, and I remembered Tyler's funny video.
Uhhhhh, Approach Anxietteeyyy... so scareeyyy... Imma go masturbate in ma corner... WaaahhhhH! *cries*
I retained myself from laughing when I had the image in my head. Tyler's so funny, I love this guy hahaha!

Another set of two, but got rejected. Though this time, she seemed more receptive.
She was beautiful, but from close she looked younger. 15. She was definitely shy!

Another set of two!
Though, I felt a bit like a chode on that one. It took me a couple seconds to decide to approach, and I was standing in front of them! Still did.
Man, girls from other countries like France are so much more open for some reasons!
I start off with the compliment in English. Funny part! That guy next to us saw me approaching, and he looked at the conversation. I repeated in French because they didn't fully understand (they did a bit, because they had big smiles). The guy smiled, walked off and told his friend like : Ohhh this guy went direct!
I kept talking to the girls, guessing that they were from France. I feel a bit uncomfortable at times as I finally manage to find things to say. Though, it was the usual normal talk.
Me : Oh man, I lost my friend because of you girls! I got too distracted!
Her : Hahahah sorry!
Me : I think he's that way, seeya!
The fact that they just came here to study for a short period of time stopped me from number closing.
WHAT!!! Dude, they're staying for something like a year, remember? Man, you could've number closed them anyway!!
I didn't think about that in the moment. It's only a while after that I regretted leaving the set. It was after 1 or 2 minutes of conversation.

I approached another set of two girls.
I did the usual compliment, and was feeling a bit out of state on that one.
The problem is that I don't transition to something else! I said the compliment, but then wait for a reaction. I gotta say something else right after I'm done.

I'm in state on that one!
I see her walking out the mall, and I go.
Me : Hey hey hey! Excuse me!
I was running towards her because she was walking kinda fast.
She turns around.
Me : You're cute!
Her : Thanks.
She walks away, doesn't even smile even though I had a good smile.
Me : Waiit! Can I talk to you?
Should've said : I gotta talk to you.

This time, Ricky and me wanted us to approach that set of two girls together!
I though that the girl on the left looked older, but we still went in and direct.
It was cool, like 5 minutes of conversation I'd say.
They were 28 AND 29 YEARS OLD, WHAAT! The girl on the right looked like she was 20 like maaax...
So Ricky says goodbye, and we eject. No flirting happened, just the usual talk.

I see a set of two girls in a shoe store. They were cute, and I was feeling in very good control at the beginning.
Me : Heey... English or French?
Her : French
Me : Okay, I had to come here and tell you that you're beautiful.
Her sister : Ohhhhhhhh!
She probably though that it was the cutest thing ever! It felt good.
We kept talking, but not much was said. I wasn't that interested, and she was 18 years old even though she looked like she was 14-15 LOL. I was feeling more nervous as time went on, as I tried to think of what to say next. I end up ejecting.

Ricky : Ohh no man, you seemed quite confident the whole time. I felt like your conversation could go on for long.
Me : Naah man, actually I was feeling nervous midway through the conversation.

So yeah, we go outside on the streets.
We keep walking, walking, walking... We skip a couple of girls, actually a lot. I start doing a bunch of push ups, to the point that my arms started to shake.
Ricky : Hey, aren't you doing push ups that you're supposed to?
Me : Yeah, that's the point!

We walked a long way, until Chinatown. Though, it was empty there!

I suggest Ricky that we should go to the metro and game there.

So we wait on the side, waiting for people to get off the metro. Oh, there's a girl, 7.5. This time, I decide to transition quicker to what I have to say.
Me : Hey, I had to tell you that you're really beautiful.
Her : Ohhh thanks
She starts walking off a bit, but I tell her : Wait wait wait! I gotta talk to you, why you leaving like that?
I was saying it in a playful way, and it was cool. She was smiling, though she was walking off a bit, keeping a little distance. She told me that she had to leave to take the metro, but her train didn't arrive yet. It was just an excuse! Whatever, I let her pass.

We waited on the side a bit more. I was with Ricky, and I see that girl.
Mhmhmh, she looks pretty from far. Mhmhm, oh, actually she's really not bad! Her flashy pink bra looks good through her white shirt. HB8
Me : Heey, excuse me!
She removes her earphones, says : Mhm?
Me : I had to stop you and tell you that you're very beautiful.
Her : Ohhh thanks!
It came out totally naturally, and I was in control, until she started walking off a bit.
Me : Heey waiit, you're leaving already? We can exchange numbers and stuff.
I didn't notice that I was talking with uptalk, my voice ending the sentence going up. Only Ricky told me that afterwards. Also, I didn't want to say exchange numbers, but rather exchange names. At this point, I was about to say : Ohhh just kidding! But I retained myself from saying it because it could sound insecure.
Her : Ahhh, well I really gotta go, blablabla.
Me : What's your name? Come heere
I was gesturing for her to come shake my hand. We exchange names, tell her that she's the second marianne that I know. She ends up leaving.
Me : Nooo come back! Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo XD
It was pretty funny how I said it hahahaha XD.

Ricky told me his feedback, and I agreed that there was some stuff I could've improved upon, like my tonality and stuff. Maybe she felt uncomfortable because my friend was not so far away? I have no idea, or was it just the approach, or simply her.

So I go into the train. I was by myself this time.
I see that girl in front of me. She had beautiful eyes and face, at least 7.5. I hesitate from approaching her at first. She randomly locks eye contact with me for 2 seconds.
Me : I like your bag!
Her : What?
Me : I really like your monkey bag!
Her : Ohhh thanks!
She had a bright smile on her face, and I was feeling more comfortable.
Me : Actually, what I really wanted to say is that you're really beautiful.
Her : Ohhh thank you!
We exchange names, I get a bit closer because she wasn't speaking loud enough. We talk and talk a bit.
Though, there was a HUGE problem with that conversation.
Okay, she told me that she was 23 (she seemed younger with the monkey bag and the Joshua Perets clothes lool). And at this point, I started backing off a bit, telling her that I though that she was younger, and that I'm probably too young for her...
So what happens? I just stand awkwardly next to her, and we stop talking. I pull out my cellphone, pretend to text me friend. She does the same LOL, and we all know that there's no network underground!
After a couple minutes of convo, and a couple minutes of silence, I decide to sit down. I smile at her, sit to some chair further away, and don't talk to her anymore. She seemed a bit mad...? She didn't smile back.

So I had to endure the awkwardness during the whole trip. I could've just stood up and talk to her back. But I didn't, though she seemed interested! I SHOULD'VE NEVER TOLD HER THAT I WAS YOUNGER! FCKKK!!!

So now I know. Less awkward is actually more awkward. I experienced it, that's the difference.

Conclusion
- Risk awkward, because it ends up being less awkward in the end.
- Avoid uptalk!
- After the compliment, do not wait to expect a reaction. Rather, continue with what I have to say next.

What's coming up next
At school, I gotta hang out with more girls and guys! And with different people than the usual. I have to build that social circle, make it grow.
Let's do that. Instead on focusing on *cold approaching* at school (though it's not exactly it, but it's pretty similar), I have to focus on building connections with people. It happens naturally! Why force it? It's easy stuff, it's basically just HAVING FUN, GIVING LOVE TO PEOPLE.
My natural buddy Dumi does exactly that. That's it, it's easy stuff. He says what he thinks is funny, he's crazy and 100% himself, he doesn't care.

 

[Nino-Tk]

Yo, is your friend, "Dumi" a South African? That's a South African hey.

I like how you said a connection with someone shouldn't be forced, it should just happen. You are right, the minute I stopped thinking of cold approaches as...well, cold approaches, I started thinking of them as knowing someone more. Like, I already "know" her, she is beautiful, she is short but what does she like? Is she good in kissing( I'm sorry, 99% of chicks I approach, I ask them that Q).

The mind is powerful man, so when you do this, it is no longer "cold approaching", so no more AA, your mind makes your body act accordingly and your tone and pitch and all the other details will be on point. Trust me mate. Good stuff though dawg.

 

[Mindgamez]

Dumi is Romanian
Nino you're totally right on that! When I switch off the Cold Approaching mindset, I feel more at ease and natural.
Tuesday, September 25th
Nothing special.

So yeah,
I sit next to that girl Porno was talking to the other class, HB7.5. I introduce myself, blablabla. We talk for a bit. I attempted to write some funny stuff on her math homework but she stopped me XD.
When class ends, she leaves and I go :
Me : Seeya! Oh wait, are you on break now?
Her : No I'm going to maths class.
Me : Ahhhhh yuuucckkk
We exchange byebyes. I talk to Porno.
Me : Awww man! I wanted to tell her like Ohh we should hang out!

When I exit class, I see the beautiful girl from my writing class (let's call her HB indi, because she likes to wear indigenous-looking shoes).
We exchange hugs, I introduce her to Porno and tell her how his name actually sounds like porno. Blablabla, Porno calls me nude because family name sounds like it (a bit LOL)
We head separate ways when her 2 other friends (the same from writing class) come.

We go to the caf, and we just sit down and talk about how we're going to OWN THE **** this Saturday. We'll be gaming from 1 to 5 PM, and I aim 15 approaches. Though, we didn't do **** at school.

Writing class, 1/4 the class was absent because it was a writing workshop. We are separated in groups and we talk blablabla. I like this class, it's social.

No English class, because it was cancelled. So yeah, 3 hours of break!
I move around from place to place, from the lounge to the caf. I see nobody I know, and am really not in the mood to approach random people. So I take the lazy option, and go to the Library. I go to the study section where everyone's on their own and where no one can talk. I just sit there, text some buddies that were in class already. I'm just bored after a couple minutes... so I head back to the lounge.
Alright man, you gotta approach. Can you?
I enter the lounge, though I don't feel like approaching people. Everyone's in groups. I feel like a *****! I sit down to that table by myself. I start writing a story on my laptop from the top of my head.

The story is about a guy that doesn't know what to write about (XD). He runs out of things to write about, but he also runs out of things to say! He's a naturally shy guy. He knows how it works and he knows how to be social, but he cannot muster up the courage to talk to people.
(Funny how the story relates 100% to me)

Then and text my Romanian buddy (cool buddy from high school! He's kinda into pick up too).
Me : AHHHH MAN I'M FEELING LIKE A *****!
Him : What you mean?
Me : I'm just being a *****, not socializing.
Him : Ohhh well don't be a ***** then
Me : I know that I should do it man...
Him : WELL GO
Me : ALRIGHT MAANNNN, LET'S OWN THE ****!
I jumped out of my old lazy thoughts and I close my laptop immediately, shove it in my bag.

Ohh I was lucky this time... I knew this Mexican dude already. He's a cool guy, likes to party and get drunk a lot haha.
I introduce myself to the girl, and the two new guys that came in. After a while, they go and I stay with the dude and the girl for a while. It was boring, so I just left.
In the cafeteria, I see those two dudes again.
Conquering the Campus, yeah. It's about being dominant and taking initiative. I should never wait for people to invite me, I invite them instead!
Me : Heey, how's it going? Blablabla
I ask them if they mind if I join them, and they're fine with that. So we sit at a table and chat. Good how I was initiating the conversation and leading. I can't do that with girls so much! Apparently they like to party too, just like the other Mexican guy (they were Mexicans too). I tell them to show me some cool bars and clubs around when I'll have my fake ID. They agreed. I get some excuse to eject, because it would be weird to come back to the guy and girl I ejected because I though they were boring XD.

I head back to my locker, and I see that girl with the tattoo (let's call her tattoo girl).
She wanted to sit near her locker, but there were some people filming stuff. I invite her to just sit next to my locker, so she chills here for a while. I go to the bathroom, and when I come back she's near her locker this time. I sit next to her, talk for a good 10-20 minutes and meet a funny *douchebag*. Maybe he is a douchebag, but he's a funny one and he just likes to joke around a lot.
I noticed how confident he is, how he doesn't care to say this or that, to crack a boring joke here and there. That's what makes him different.
Her : Hey Mindgamez, sit in the back with me in class! I don't like to be alone.
Me : Noo, come to the front, it's better
So yeah, she didn't want to come, so I just went to the back and my usual friends from the Humanities class went to the back too.

LOL, the cameltoe hot girl actually sat next to my friend (let's call him Megatron). She was RIGHT NEXT TO HIM. He didn't do ****...
During class, I write down on a piece of paper : GO FOR IT MAN, YOU'RE THE BEST
I throw it at him, he reads it, smiles, but pussies out. I kept tapping him on the shoulder to push him, but not even a word was said!
Me : Ohhh man, why didn't you do it?
Megatron : Ohhh man... whatever... just whatever...
Lol, so she was waiting in line to ask a question to the teacher.
Me : Waiting in line?
Her : OH yaahh blablalbalba
I didn't transition from there! Whatever, she just left lol.

Wednesday, September 26th
Probably my worst day since the start of all this, in terms of what I was thinking in my head. Read through.

Woke up,
Even though I had 8 hours of sleep, I was yawning a lot anyway. I have big troubles catching up on my lost sleep.

Yeah, day starts off with Universe of Arts class. This time, I sit next to Lychee.
Nothing special during our short conversations. I was nervous, because I was about to ask her to go to the museum next week (we had to visit it as an assignment for school, and fill some paper). I was overthinking things, like I was ready to ask her on a date. Truth is, it is pretty similar to a date...
Teacher : Okay, we'll wrap it up from here. Seeya!
My heart starts pumping faster. I was definitely anxious.
Me : We should go to the museum sometimes next week. Like... Saturday? or something.
She wasn't looking at me. Weak response, no emotion.
Her : Yeah.
I was waiting for a good reaction, but then I pussied out.
Me : I'll be going with Dany too, if you wanna join.
Dany's the guy I like to talk to in philosophy class.
So yeah, she leaves class.
Her : See you Friday!
Me : Seeya!

So yeah, class is over. When I leave, some guy holds the door for me (cool guy, let's call him Derp!)
I ask him what he's up too, blablabla. He tells me that he's gunna meet with some friends. I was about to ask him if I can join him, but an old friend from highschool passes by.
Me : Heey man! whaddup yo lbalblablabla.
Him : YOoyoyo lbalblabla.
Me : Are you on break now? What ya doin?
Him : Oh I'm just chilling with some friends.
Me : Alright, can I join you guys?
So yeah, I introduce myself to his friend that doesn't seem so cool about meeting me. Like, he wasn't really looking at me when he was talking, only talking to Trevor (high school buddy). I just kept it cool.
OHHH Is it German girl in the background? Whatever, let's just ignore her for now and pretend I didn't see her.
So Trevor had to leave for class, and I was left with the guy. He tells me that he has to pass by the caf to go eat something.
Me : Alright, I'm coming too.
He was already gone. Well, too bad.

I kept wandering around. I noticed that I wasn't hanging out with anybody. I don't have any group of friends to hang out with during the breaks. I'm always wandering around looking for some new people, and I have troubles asking girls to hang out.
I was going into my head at this point, feeling ****ty and ****tier.
OH ****. It's the German girl! I'm totally out of state. Quick, look on your right and pretend like nothing happened.
Again... I let her pass. I was scared because I wasn't ready to reapproach her. I felt bad, like I was a loner in this world. I kept asking myself if I'll be able to make a solid group of friends sooner or later. I'm just too worried, and that's ***** thinking, supplicating, horrible, disgusting. I never had this thought in mind until that day. It's crazy, I'm never worried about making friends, usually.

So I went to the library, read a bit. I receive a text from Porno.
Porno : Heey man let's reach the caf?
Me : I'm down man, let's go
I was a bit more pumped up this time, but not feeling ready.

So yeah, at the caf, we sit at a table just him and me.
We talk pick up again... then I suggest him that we go sit next to those people from my high school. That girl I knew that I didn't invite to my party because I though that I wasn't friend enough with her... Truth is that this just made things more awkward. Results, I wasn't invited to her party where most of my friends were going.
Me : Heey,
I could feel the chodiness in my voice, and EVERYTHING was wrong. I was back to my chody desperate self. High school people, memories...
Me : We're just going to sit here because we're on break? And yeah...
Her : Ughhhh, yeah okay...
She made a repelled face, like she was wondering why I was asking for permission. It felt horrible... What the FCK! This wasn't me, this was like Choda.
Conversations were bad. I couldn't really talk to the girls at the table, and they seemed totally uninterested (to me at least). Negative thought loops going through my mind, and Porno was talking to them casually. They are ugly, and I was feeling tired and like ****.

 

[Mindgamez]

I go to Filmmaking class, and I'm a bit more in the mood this time. I brush it off.
I see Derp again this time, tell him how he's sexy because he's wearing a pink shirt XD. Blablabla, introduce myself to the other two guys. They were nice. I should hang out with these people sometimes.

Back home.
I didn't practice my shuffle dance in a while, so I do so. I felt peace and happiness as I did, and I didn't feel like that in a while. I wasn't thinking about pick up or socializing, I was just in the moment. Man, I love that feeling.
I exercise a bit, read my book. Midway, I realize that I cannot concentrate on my reading because I just keep thinking about growing my social circle.
Pfffttt, fck this!
I put my book aside and watch some RSD. Todd tells in his video that I gotta keep trying new things if I want to never reach plateaus. My approach to people is pretty similar every time, and that's why I get flaky numbers and why I run out of things to say!

Sleeping time. I couldn't meditate even a minute, even though I tried for 20 minutes.
I was overthinking. I didn't manage to stay still and present.
Man, I gotta make more friends man, solid friendships. Why do people keep escaping me damnit?
I also had troubles sleeping that night.

Thursday, September 27th
Feeling WAY better this time.
Also, my dad taught me things. He wants me to take risks, and this is wonderful.

Yeah.
I was motivated to change.
Doesn't matter if I'm alone on this path. No one's going to help me
Rank 1-Equilibrium - YouTube
As I opened my iPod, I imagined myself dancing to the beat. I was in my world.

Philosophy class.
I sit next to that new girl, but I ***** out from talking to her. I talk to Dany instead. Porno arrives YEAH! I was in such a good mood.

I really enjoy philosophy class. We talked about the nature of reality.
The mind is separate from the body. This is called dualism. Though, what affects the body may affect the mind as well, and vice-versa.
I remember that section of my philosophy book, and it struck me.

For even I can climb out of the seas of doubt onto the Cognito, I cannot climb out onto the nature of your mind.
(...)
Might it be that some of us feel pain more, but make less fuss about it, or that others feel pain less, but make more fuss?

People don't know my mind, and nobody will understand it better than I do. I never really fuss about my anxiety to people outloud when I really feel it. I endure it and go through it. When people are all nervous about their oral presentations and tell me how they'd rather pretend to be sick and go home, it makes me feel disgusted. I feel nervous as hell myself, and those social people (even more social than me) cannot do a presentation in front of the class? That's crap!

5 minutes break!
I talk to the girl next to me, blablablabla. I was feeling good, not too nervous this time.
HB Indi was looking at me from across the room. I wave

Class is over!
So yeah, she leaves and I just say bye and ***** out from asking her to hang out with us.
I see that girl Niya leaving too.
Me : Heeeyyy NIyyaa.
Her : Heey
Me : Sup?
So I leave class, and then I go see HB Indi again. Blablablalba, the other friends join in. I was feeling good.

So yeah, I was planning on following them a bit and hang out a bit, but then Porno ejects the set and goes : Seeya later guys!
Whatever XD We head to his locker and I meet that cool friend of his. I was feeling joyfully joyful this time, and I'd randomly dance at times. I love dancing.
LOL, I suggested Porno to come to my Writing class (even though he wasn't registered for it).
Porno : Ohh yeah! I'll go in and be like : Myyyy name is Vladimiirrr, I'm new here!
I laughed my ass off at the idea and though that it could be really fcking badass. Though, he pussies out from going in, hahaha XD.

Writing class!
I was feeling... funny. I sit next to the usual 3 girls including HB Indi.
HB Indi : I'm gonna need your cell phone number so we can add you on facebook.
Ohhh yeep, I'm getting number closed by a girl! What the fucck?
Me : What? Noooooooo!
She caught my smile so she wasn't mad.
Me : Just kidddinnggg.
I put my hand on her shoulder a bit, and tell her to not text me at midnight and she agrees lol.
Her friend (ugly lol) asks for my number, and I give it to them. She's nice even though not pretty haha
Indi texts me during class, saying like : Heelloo it's HB Indi (lol wtf)
When HB Indi mentioned her boyfriend in the conversation again, I got into my head again...

We prepare to leave class.
Me : Wait, you guys wait for me
Her : Ohhh we're not waiting for you!
Me : Well, what are you doing right now?
Her : Oh I'm waiting for*friend*!
Me : Ohhh yeaahhh that's so true!
We leave class, and we head separate ways. I was feeling a bit chody this time, but whatever

Dad's lesson.
When my dad came to pick me up, he asked me if I wanted to drive, and I agreed that I wanted to.
Me : Yep, it's a good thing to learn to drive manual!
I wasn't so familiar with driving manual, but I knew that I had to practice even though I was a bit insecure every time. I had to!
I stall the engine a couple times and make people honk a bit, but I manage to stay calm and in control. I used to freak out when people honked, like I did something totally wrong.

We stopped to eat, then he drove.
Him : We're getting late, go to the hospital and make the hospital card!
Me : What's that? How do I do it?
Him : Manage it by yourself! Ask people!
So I just leave car. Lol what the hell is with the hospital card? Okay, I'll just ask it on the random.

So yeah, after we're done with the doctor, I drive back home.
Me : It's not going to be easy, there's a LOT of cars in the city right now!
Dad : You have to take the opportunities to learn! Take opportunities as they come to you!
So yeah, we meet with a hill filled with traffic. And driving manual in traffic and having to change gears really frequently, on a hill, is hard... when you're really not used to it.
I associate this so much with game.
I stall the engine on the road. There's traffic, cars waiting behind me.
Dad : Press the brake!
I forgot the brake... so I press it. I start the engine again, press the gas and engine roars forcefully. It scared me, and my dad pulled the handbrake to stop me a bit. Cars honk behind me, but I manage to roll.
Dad : Ohh, go for it! There's a free space on your left, quick! Change lines!
Me : No dad, it's too dangerous...
Dad : Too late! You have to take the opportunity as soon as you get it!
Me : Alright alright...
I take the left line, some car honks like crazy. I cut right in front of them! My dad is a bit mad lol.
Me : Wow that's risky.
Dad : Yeah, but that's fine. You have to take risks and learn in difficult environments, or you'll never learn. This is what real life is about! When you drive on your own, you have to deal with all of this, with traffic, with other people. Practising on an open space doesn't lead you anywhere, it's too easy.
Me : Hahaha, mom would never let me try things like that!
Dad : Hahaha, you're even better than mom when driving manual.

We get close to home.
Dad : You know, it's good that I let you manage things on your own. When I was with your brother, he would never do things on his own. Like when we were late for an appointment, he wouldn't go by himself. He would always wait for me to park, and we were late.
Me : Oh that's terrible...
Dad : You're better!

I remember what Ozzie from RSD said in one of his videos. High intensity training, that's what's up!
It's proven that if you just throw someone that doesn't know how to swim in water, and once he tries to get back on the land, you throw him back in the water, he'll learn 10 times faster than if you teach him the basics and everything correctly.
This is high intensity training. And going low intensity on game will NOT be beneficial. I have to put myself out there, jump in the cold water.
That's what my dad reminded me of. Thanks dad.

Conclusion
- Go high intensity. PUSH THE BOUNDARIES!
- Just have fun, be silly, and feel funny. Life is a ****ing joke man.
- What if you're the only one to think like that? Who cares, it's your life. People cannot understand my mind, and no one will understand it better than I do.
- People fuss a lot. I don't when I feel pain, I just deal with it. Guys, do the same. If you find yourself making excuses and complaining, stop it. Deal with it!

What's coming up next
I have to dance today, have some fun, and sleep early.
SATURDAY MAN! High intensity training, 1 to 5 PM with Porno, Rickyboy , (Giloflex, feel free to join man!)
I wanna do 15 approaches. I can do it, and I'm going to be hardcore project go push ups if I don't do it right.

 

[Mindgamez]

Friday, September 28th
A day of feeling pretty ****ty, I'm not going to lie...

So yeah,
Didn't sleep at least 8 hours, so I felt tired again, lol.

Yeah, at the beginning I was feeling good though! Sat next to Lychee.
Lychee's down to go to the museum with me next week. If I'm down for it and I'm joyful, she'll be too. Simple stuff!
Of course, at the moment I wasn't thinking like : Ohh this is simple stuff! Didn't exchange numbers yet... AHHH I have to next class, absolutely.

Then, I had to study hard for my upcoming exam. So yeah... it was pretty much studying over studying.
After exam, had another one. Though, we had like a 20 minute break in class before the quiz, and I pussied out from socializing, simply. I could even feel my heart pumping nervously for absolutely NO fcking reason. I was not feeling right, at all.

Whatever... day's over.
I wait like a couple minutes before going to breakdance class. When we go in, I'm like
Ohhh ****... there's only like 4 people here it's going to suck today.
But then I'm like
NOOO man, it's going to be fun, just enjoy your time man!
And I ended up having good fun
And OHH WOW! That tiny guy that seemed innocent is actually on the road of becoming a pimp! HE'S INTO PICKUP TOO! YEAH, ANOTHER PICKUP BUDDY! Let's call him Gar.
So yeah, Gar and me went to the village like 15 minutes walk away from the school, and he told me about how he started doing pickup and stuff.

He's down for picking up chicks at school Thursday after 4, and Friday starting from 11:30 till like 1:00. EPIC!!!

So yeah... after we chilled at the village for a good hour or so, we have to head separate ways. I was about to film the girl's soccer team tonight.
Gar : Alright man, just be chill man you'll be alright.
Me : Thanks man, seeya!
Gar : Take care.
I sit next to a big tree, and open my iPod up.
Infite - Must Go To Heaven (Simon O'Shine Remix) - YouTube
This song I played it several months ago. I was writing my New Year's Resolutions, and I promised myself that I'll push myself to my limits.
It doesn't matter if things go wrong here and there. I'll be fine, totally fine.
My lips shaped a smile by themselves like magic. I felt relieved again. I didn't care about anything else in the world. All I cared about was to be here, right now, just being.

I head to the field, even though I didn't interact with people really, a set of 2 gorgeous girls ask me about me taking pictures. I showed them some hilarious pictures I took, and then they told themselves like : Ohhh this guy's so funny! Or something like that. I just ejected the conversation... whatever!

Saturday, September 29th
KISSED a girl's hand within the first 10 seconds of the interaction! Seriously the most physical I've ever been during a cold approach.
A good number close (non-flakey) after super natural long conversation.
Didn't count my approaches, but probably did 15! I stopped counting after 10, but did a bunch afterwards.

Ahhhh!
Woke up at 7:20. Actually, my dad did. I had little sleep and I was feeling extremely tired. I still managed to get myself up.
Ohhh fck man, I won't be in the mood to approach with that tiredness!
Whatever, I go to the dentist, go back. Cannot take a nap when I get back home because all I can think of is pickup... I was excited and nervous.

It's 11:45! So we leave home and I drive. Automatic is EASY now, after I managed to drive manual in risky situations the other day (read Thursday's post about Dad's Lesson).

It begins.
I arrive and see Rickyboy already. We walk around a bit, we ***** out from approaching (like every beginning of the day...)
Porno arrives a bit later

First approach, an innocent asian girl, HB7 (or even less I'd say... with that facial expression).
I told her the compliment with a smile, was a bit nervous too.
She kept walking, I don't remember if she said thanks or not, but her face was not attractive! She was basically scared, or disgusted, whatever it was hahaha!

Second approach, it's a group of girls having fun at the entrance. You know the spinning doors thingys? Well they were spinning in these continuously.
Me : You girls having a load of fun?
Her : Yeah, wanna join?
Me : YEAAHHH!!!
So I join in, it's fun. Though, I wasn't that in the mood yet, so I don't tell them that they're pretty or anything. She asks me where I'm from and I'm like
Me : You wanna stalk me or whaaat?
Giggles, like usual. Though, I end up ejecting. Group of 2 HB7s and a little girl but not more or less.

I ***** out from approaching that girl in the bookstore. Porno pushes me, and I end up going in.
I walk towards her, see her on the phone, and ***** out... I check out some books on the side, and come back out.
Porno : NOO MAN, JUST DO IT MAN! EMPTY YOUR MIND, JUST GO.
Ohhh **** man, I can't do this!
I go in, then I just linger around, and then Porno and Ricky get in and tell me to go next time, and that it's too late now. Whatever haha... MAJOR *****ing out.

Another approach (I think it was my 4th) was in Forever 21 store.
We get in Porno and me (can't remember if Ricky was in or not), and we basically ***** out a lot a lot...
So Porno has an idea! We start doing random jumping jacks, push ups on the ground, and we're a bit more in state.
I see her. I hesitate one second, and I go in. HB7.5
I say the usual direct opener, and I was, let's say, 85% in control and fine.
Her : Oh thanks. *unreactive face, not even a smile*
At this point, I start getting reactive and I lose my smile immediately.
Me : Why you're reacting like that?
Her : What you mean? I said thanks.
Me : What's with that *****y face?
Yeah, I called her up on it. I'm tired of bull****!
Her : Ohh, you know I'm really tired, I had like 3 hours of sleep.
Me : Ohh okay I get it.
Blablabla for 5 seconds.
Her : Well thank you anyway, bye!
She gives me a smile this time, but I don't smile back. I give her the gtfo hand movement and let her leave.

After this approach, I'm loosing state dramatically. While Porno and Rickyboy were approaching left and right, doing awesome stuff, I was watching them do it. Simply being the spectator made me feel worse again.
Porno has another solution! We go in the middle of the mall, we start screaming pretty loud and imitate lions. I felt just a bit better after that, but not much. I love Porno's energy!

We did some approaches in teams of 2. For those 2 women from university (they definitely looked older).
I was in and out of the conversation, feeling confident and in the moment sometimes, and sometimes not at all. I still managed to wing Porno and tell him how handsome he is and shiet. Cool stuff, though he was the one leading the interaction because I didn't feeling like closing the deal with older women!

I kept going and going, approaching girls.

Oh, there was this HB7.5 girl!
I let her pass by, and then Porno and me look at each other.
Porno : Go? Go maann!!
So yeah, I went in. Ends up that she's 15, but I compliment her on looking more mature than her actual age. I could've closed the deal with her anyway, 2 years of difference isn't that much right? She started ejecting when she told me her age, so I just let her go.

Good one, HB7.5!
So yeah, we enter the H&M (I think it was in that shop), we walk for a bit.
I was feeling better this time for some reasons. My words were totally genuine this time, no hesitation. It was like love.
Usual direct opener, the girl smiles and we talk for a bit. I see IOIs from her (even though I hate using this term haha), and we touch here and there. We talk to close proximity, but it only lasts a couple seconds before she leaves. She touches me on the arm before she does.
Me : Seeeya. Ohhh WAIT WAIT WAIIIT A SEC!!! AHhhh....
She left already, and I was about to number close, whatever hahaha...

THIS ONE. WAS. GOOD.
Definitely a huge thing here!
So yeah... I start off by entering the store. I see that gorgeous girl, but let her pass by...
Upstairs, I see her again but let her pass by...
HB9 No doubt!

Okay whatever, let's approach some other girl for now.
So I approach that HB7.2. She wasn't so receptive, but I was feeling pretty natural on that one. I was proud, though she was in university. We had a brief conversation, fun, and I was being myself and acting fun. Told her that I lost my friend because of her, it was playful.

 

[Mindgamez]

I go see Porno.
Me : Ohhh yeah I did an approach man, but I wanna approach that fcking gorgeous girl man...
Porno : Oh well go do it then! Go!
Me : Ahhh yeah I gotta do it!
I start walking towards her, though I had this wave of nervousness flying through me. WHATEVER, AGGHH!!!
YEAH!
Me : Heey!
Her : Mhm?
Me : Do you speak English or French?
Her : Hum, both, why?
Me : Okay, I reaaaally had to tell you that you're really beautiful.
Her : Ohhh thank you!
Her smile was so attractive, and I was being really genuine too. I wasn't resisting attraction.
Me : What's your name?
Her : ______
Me : Ohh, nice meeting you _____!
I take her hand, shake it.
Kiss her hand.
I bring her hand close to my lips, and give a kiss on her fingers! Great how I just thought about it simply, and proceeded to kiss her hand with close to no hesitation. I was in state.
She smiles, I do too. I don't clearly remember what she said from here.
Her : Ohh I have to go!
Me : Ohhh well give me a hug before you leave!
Her : Ohhh what?
Me : Blablabla
Her : Oh okay!
We share a warm hug, I can feel her soft hair on my skin. After the hug, I let my hands linger on her a bit.
Her : Ohhh I actually have a boyfriend!
Me : Ohh that's fine. Is he in the store?
Her : Yeah he is!
I was feeling totally fine, until I heard about her bf loool.
Me : Ohh where is he? Is he going to kill me? XD
Her : Hahahha no he's not that kind of guy!
Blablabla, she starts to leave, but then Porno goes in the conversation!
Damn, when he joined, I was feeling a bit ****blocked to be honest. That wasn't his goal! He saw her getting out of the convo, so he was about to bring her back in.
Ends up that she asks for our facebooks, and she's a girl from Toronto or something and only visiting for a day. She seemed a bit more interested in Porno for some reasons... and I was getting a bit out of state here. She takes a picture of us 3 and tells us how it's going to make her boyfriend jealous hahaha! So yeah, we head separate ways.
I explain to Porno how I felt ****blocked by him, but I don't blame him at all! He's such a cool guy.
So yeah, that was like my 7th approach of the day or something.

Next approach!
I see two HB8s running in the opposite direction.
Oh snap! They're really hot, go!
So I run towards them, no excuses, and I'm feeling much better this time.
The usual opener, I tell them they're really beautiful. Beautiful smile from both of them, attractive!
They tell me that they're on a rush (obviously, with how they were running hahaha). So guess what? I use it as an excuse to ask for their number!
Her : Ohhh well, my phone doesn't work now :O
Me : Yeaah yeaah excuses excuses! Alright seeya then!
I gave them the *get out* hand movement as they were walking off already. Though, they kept that beautiful smile... Ugh, should've persisted!
Porno : Hey, the fact that they're on a hurry is the opportunity to show them persistence man!
Porno was right, good tips.

There another funny one!
So yeah, I see a group of 3 girls, ugly except for that 7. After the guys pushed me a bit, I decide to go in.
I do the usual opener, and the girls keep walking. Not even a bit of smile! The keep walking forward. I play it fun.
Me : *extend hand* My name's __________!
Her : It's ok.
Porno(randomly HAHAHA) : You have a really cute bag!
That was really funny.
Me : Why that *****y face?
Her : Blablablalba, sorry!
I let them leave. I look at Porno again.
Porno : Haha that was jokes! YEAAAH!
He screamed yeah pretty loud.

Most of my other approaches I cannot quite remember... I did SO MANY of them! And no way that I can remember what I said exactly.
That's a wonderful thing. This means that I'm progressing a lot.

Approaches and approaches and approaches... Can't quite remember.

Realization.
Though, Rickyboy is not in the mood anymore, so we sit at a table at the foodcourt.
Ricky : I don't know how you guys find your motivation.
Me : Aren't you attracted to girls man? That's all you need!
Ricky : Ohh man, I don't know why, but I'm not feeling attracted today at all man! Like, when I do an approach, I just feel like I have no goal or purpose to it.
We talk a bit more. It's kinda surprising how Ricky spent all this time approaching girls when he doesn't really enjoy it or has an objective.
Me : I do it because I want to make other people's day, I want to give them a smile, give love.
Ricky : Aha man! That's totally the opposite from me!
As I talked, I realized how passionate I was about game. I really love it to death it's crazy. I love the excitement behind every approach you do, that anxious feeling you manage to get through. And it's true than doing it just to do it is what's so great.

Last approach before we head to Chinatown! We had to do quick.
I see two girls, an HB7.5 and her friend HB6.5. I let them pass.
I look at Porno, we look at each other. OH MAN LET'S GO!!
I run towards them, I open first.
I do the usual opener, proceed to talking to them. We end up talking in French and I feel much more comfortable on this one.
LIKE A LOOOOT MORE COMFORTABLE AND NATURAL.
Except a bit at the beginning, and I was thinking about when was the right moment to eject and close.
I realized that there was no point in thinking that. I was just talking and not thinking ahead. We talked for at least like 10-20 minutes?
Me : Oh my butt hurts! I've been walking all day.
Didn't really notice how it went out automatically. I was talking like I was talking to the girl friends I knew since high school.
I end up number closing her, and we end up the convo with a hug. I tell them that we should hang out sometimes, the agree. Also told her honestly how I pussied out about approaching them at first.
Seriously, never felt that natural talking during a cold approach, like ever. She had like the alright beauty! Not to hot to be intimidating, not too ugly to make me feel no motivation to go further. She was fine, but not extremely pretty. Though, I wasn't horny for her and it retained me from flirting really. It was friendly chat, but there's no problem with that

On the way to Chinatown, I see that pretty girl sitting by herself, pass her.
HB7.5ish
Me : Hey, isn't she pretty?
Porno : Oh yeah man, gooo!
I go to her, very little hesitation here.
I do the usual opener, she says thanks and looks down to her book again.
Me : Soooo... my name is ______! *extend hand*
Her : It's ok, sorry.
Me : Ohhhhh why? We could like, hang out sometimes and have so fun.
Her : No sorry.
Me : Ohhhh why not? Why? Why?
I was being playful and I was unreactive. I didn't care.
Me : Well, Seeeeyouuu next time theennn!
I do some funny moves with my hands, and I leave laughing silently. She wasn't watching me, but whatever.

So we chill at Chinatown, eat some excellent food, Chow mein

A group of asian girls walking, group of like 5-6 girls at least! HB7-7.5s
Porno opens, I proceed to tell the compliment. Damn, Porno was very direct and told them that they were cute, hot, beautiful, etc etc.
Playfulness is key! We were pretty much having fun, being loud. I was totally confident, and this is pretty rare usually during a cold approach. Rare are the moments when I feel close to no anxiety, it's crazy.

We head separate ways. I love Porno, enough said.

Conclusion
- I am impressed with myself, but there's no need to me impressed. It's simply the real self coming true, that true beast hidden inside. My real potential starting to blossom for real. I have to accept the fact that this is totally normal and that this is really me, not some other guy. I am fantastic, and there's no doubt about that.
- Guys, unleash that potential. You have no idea of what you're capable of, no matter your background and everything. YOU CAN do it.
- Don't be afraid to go physical. KISS HER HAND! She'll find that ballsy and attractive for sure. End the conversation with a hug!
- Game is like a game. You gain experience as you approach more and more. Difference from video games is that you have unlimited lives! If you fail once, you can try again.
- Paradoxically, when you forget that the game is actually a game, you realize how better you'll become. Don't do it because you have to do 15 approaches today. Do it because you like new opportunities to meet new interesting people, to give love. That's it! Don't even think about pick up in your head, just do it to do it. Walk the path. That's how I managed to be so natural for the successful number close.

Damn... I'm so proud with myself. I really love pick up.

What's coming up next!
Tomorrow, MORE PICK UP.
I'm going downtown again, with Porno and Sex_is_good (it's been a while since last time!) and maybe Giloflex (couldn't come today).
Goal? Close to 15 approaches again, but I'll try not to focus on the number but on the quality instead. Make real human connections, not do it for the number. Do it for her, but ultimately for me.

 

[LearningSlowly]

You are the MODEL of continued attention and effort on improvement. Really awesome stuff consistently. You will always overcome your challenges with this kind of long term effort.

But again, try something new. Your standard opener must be getting stale. Try saying you like their style, if you like the way they dress. Say you like their piercing, or tattoo, or hair style. Branch out from where you are now, and use it as an opportunity to be even more genuine.

 

[Mindgamez]

Hey Learning,
I have to thank you all your encouragement since the start. Without people like you I would've had many more troubles! This means so much to me man. Oh, and you're right about adding some variety. I have big troubles with that...

Sunday, September 30th
I gotta keep it REALLLY short because I'm really busy with school nowadays.

Okay,
So basically, this day kind of sucked because it rained a lot, and we pussied out a lot from approaching during the first 1-2 hours, time when it was the most crowded! When we were more in the mood, there were a LOT less girls for some reasons, and we really had to walk around a lot more to find targets.

I didn't achieve the kind of "God mode" like I did Saturday. Though, I think that I'm capable of way more than what I did Saturday. It's just a glimpse of what I'm capable of doing, and I know it.

So yeah. After we approached on the streets until like 5-6 PM, we proceeded to approach in the subway.
Though, the subway had very few girls too, but more than on the streets... We stayed for HOURS, until 8 PM! We were really determined, that's for sure.
We were going from rejection to rejection, but that was fine. I just kept pushing and pushing through. Giloflex and Porno are cool guys, I had fun.

Though, I still founded myself *****ing out A LOT. I was starting to get a big headache, and I had no more water in my bottle. I was thirsty too, but I wanted to keep sarging, so we stayed 2 more hours in the subway, waiting 5-10 mins between each train to see potential targets. We had fun.

Though, I had very awkward conversations with people, and I sometimes ejected simply because I had an initial bad reaction. I didn't persist, instead I just ejected with that kind of angry vibe.
Why are girls so fcking *****y sometimes? I tell them a compliment and they don't even smile or say thank you.
When I think like this, I end up ejecting after I told the girl to get out. I don't even say bye.

I don't think that's good at all. This kind of bad mood I was in was just feeding upon itself. Whatever I guess...

Tuesday, October 2nd
FAILED THE NOFAP AFTER 20 DAYS! AHHH!
And interesting day, even though I was pretty much out of state for a long time.
UGLY GIRLS LIKE ME, AHHHHH!!! (and an average cute girl too, which is fine)

So yeah,
Morning starts with nothing special. I talk to the girl next to me, but I really can't manage to flirt, AT ALL. I'm so not feeling in the mood...

I still talk to HB Indi on the way out. She looked gorgeous today, but I didn't told her about it and pussied out. She always has this beautiful smile on her face. When their friends arrive, I talk to them too, walk with them too until the ask me where I am supposed to go.
Me : Ohhh well I'm just chilling, I'm on break
Fatty : Oh well we gotta go to our locker, seeya!
They start walking off.
Me : Ohh we're, we're going upstairs.
I almost stammered here, horrible.

So yeah, I meet up with Porno's friend, blablabla.

Then go to Writing class, though I don't sit next to the usual trio because it's the workshop day. When exiting class, I talk to the teacher instead of chatting with them.

I go to my locker. I ***** out for 2 minutes because I decide to say hello to Niya. WTF! When I leave my locker, I see HB Indi and the fatty, again. I then go into playful mood for some reasons I cannot explain.
I tease them about them following me, and we end up walking the same way until we reach Student Services center. Fun convo.

After that, I go to the lounge by myself. I sit next to a random girl but ***** out from initiating conversation... Then she leaves, another girl comes and sit right next. I ***** out again...
Oh man I'm not feeling good about today... let's text Trev and see what he's up to.
I text my old elementary school friend that we should hang out, though, at this moment, the fatty ****block enters the lounge.
She starts teasing me about me flirting with girls and how terrible it is. Though, I just laugh at it and I wasn't so affected about it. It was funny actually, because what she said was always and exaggeration and I didn't take it personal. Though, I didn't like how she said it loudly in the lounge...
We actually manage to become friends LOL! She's pretty funny, though she really teases me a lot...
The cute asian girl from my English class was there too. I chatted a bit with her too.
There was also some new asian guy with whom I made friends with too!

Funny part.
So they kind of invite me to hang out, and then I say I'm cool with that.
Fatty : Ohhh no! You're not chilling with us! No no no!
Asian girl says something similar to this, then I go playfully
Me : Ohhh nooo! You guys suck blablabla.
Fatty : Just kidding, we're waiting for you. Come!
Me : Hahahah actually I don't wanna hang out with you guys I was kidding! Alright, go away now, go away!
Fatty : Heey, no you're coming.
Me : Nooo you go away now!
They were all waiting for me, so in the end I just chill with them. They're fun.

So I gotta go to the bookstore and the fatty decides to follow me...

I go to the caf, sit with the people. It was fun.
We soon switch tables and sit with some 2 other people. The other girl was pretty hot I'm not going to lie, but she was with some other guy so I pussied out more. Didn't really talk to her.
So the fatty was talking my conversation with some guy (the Romanian guy I started going to the mall with at like the 2nd page of my journal on Sosuave). It was about me failing the NoFap... So she read something about sexual insecurities thingy, and she laughed her ass off and I did too HAHAHAHAHA! Whatever.
Oh, and then she goes : Ohhh it's okay Mindgamez,
AND SHE WRAPS HER ARM AROUND MY WAIST. NO BUT WTF.
I didn't back off, because that would be rude and I'm not that kind of person lol... but eww really. It was for a couple seconds.

I think that girl likes me! HB7, average looking (except on picture, she's hot... but not as much irl)
So yeah, I sit next to her at the beginning and we start chatting a bit, like I did with the other buddies too.

She likes chow mein too! So then I invite her for a high five, but she doesn't respond. How awkward it could've been if I didn't call her up on it!
Me : Hum... that was an invitation for a high five btw. Ahhh you suck!
I slap her hand that was resting on her table.
Me : I won't be eating your cheesecake, nooo!

They were talking about cake, and she asks me if I would like to have some of hers sometimes.
LOOOOLOLOLOLOLOL PERFECT OPPORTUNITY.
Me : Ohhh no no no I don't want no cheesecake! Just gimme the money, just gimme the money!
HAHAHAHAHAH my friend laughs his ass off! It was a funny thing to say, like I assumed she just wanted to tease me.
So yeah, she shows me her wallet and then I steal it from her playfully.

I talk to other guys.
Me : Heey man! I don't have your phone number, that's retarded!
Her : Ohhh, and you don't have mine too!
Me : Yours? Mhmhmhm....
I hesitate on purpose.
Her : It's okay whatever, whatever.
Me : Hahahaha don't worry!

So yeah,
I end up getting her number on my phone. She later tells her friend :
Her : Ohh, I hate when people tell me they're going to text me when they add me, but they never actually do it!
She was worried that I wouldn't text her, but I did this evening.

Tired as fck, so I'll post the conversation later tomorrow or something. I really sense hints of interest here and there, and maybe a bit of neediness too.

So yeaahhh.
I enter the bus and I see HB C's ugly friend. I wave at her, she sits next to me and we chat about going to the amusement park this Saturday. I agreed on going too.
Remember HB C guys? The girl I attempted to kiss on the lips like 1000 times?
Yeah, I'm down to go to the amusement park with HB C and her friends (ugly friends but whatever haha).
Her ugly friend seems interested... She's nice and after I took some of her cookies, she told me that in exchange, she wants a... BOYFRIEND.
In my head I think like : UHHHHH...
Her : Naah just kidding just kidding!
Wow she took the risk, she's brave. Even though ugly hahaha XD.
She texts me here and there kinda often too. I'm really not afraid to tease her and I'm really not needy. I treat her like she's a little girl in kindergarden or little sister LOL.

Conclusion
- Girls like the non-neediness. MAKE THEM CHASE YOU!
- Even though you're in a bad mood in general for one day, you can still pull off some cool stuff. Trust me, just try it out! You got game man, you got game. Use it right.
- DO NOT FAP! Holy **** if I kept my streak I could've conserved that energy to approach beautiful girls too.
- Practice on uglier girls, just have fun guys. Since you're so not needy, it's easy to just joke around and just be yourself. Maybe even ask them to hang out with you? Just so you get the reference experience of hanging out with girls. If you're on a proer level, don't even listen to this lol. GO GET THE HOT CHICKS INSTEAD.

 

[Mindgamez]

Wednesday, October 3rd
Pretty much nothing happened. Asked Lychee if she was down for the museum on Sunday, but she told me she's going this Friday. Whatever, I'll be going with my other buddy.
I was totally not in the mood again...

So yeah,
I forgot to meditate the night before. It's been 2-3 days in a row!

Whatever, I ***** out from socializing in general.

Tonight, I decide to meditate even though it was 10:50 PM already. I would have around 7 hours of sleep... Too bad, I thought. I was feeling pretty amazing afterwards.

Thursday, October 4th
Very interesting things! But very sucky *****ing out too... Let me explain.
*Cold approached* at school a couple times. It felt boss, but it felt really awkward. Good achievements.

So yeah!
I was feeling relaxed and fine when I woke up. I had little sleep, though I still was feeling kind of energized! It was a good feeling, and waking up wasn't that much of a big deal.

First class is philosophy. I see HB Indi sitting across the class by herself, I wave at her but I sit at my usual seat, next to buddy and other girl. So I text her to come nearby, but she tells me to come sit next to her instead.
After a bit of hesitation, I get off my chair and walk towards her. The class didn't start yet, but I still felt like people were watching me.
I wave at her, gesture her to come sit at my seat.
We talk for a bit and argue playfully. I end up stealing her pencil case and she looks at me laughing as I go back to my seat.
I text her.
Me : Now you can come
Her : I founded another pencil ;P
Her : I'll come during the break
Me : LOL I still owned you haha
Her : -,-
Her : I want my pencil case --
Me : No, you want to come sit right next! Haha
Her : Later xd
Her : There's no more place now o:
Me : There's one
Her : I dont see it o:
Blablablabla, she doesn't come, but during the little break she looks at me and smile to get her pencil case back XD. Later, I text her this.
Me : If you come you might deserve a hug.
I see her smiling at her phone as she recieved that text.
Her : Theres no more time now, we'll restart. ): you'll give it to me when we get out of class ):
When she comes to my desk at the end of class, I offer her a hug but she doesn't take it, acts like a little ***** XD but she's playful so that's fine.

Forgot to mention how I flirted JUST a bit with the girl sitting next to me at the end of class. I wasn't in the mood to do it, until I founded some interesting stuff to say. I was feeling horny again. I don't know how, but the conversation leaded to penises.
Me : I don't like guys, I like girls more! Do you have a penis?
Her : Yes I do.
Me : Ohhh, I'm sorry I'm not into this kind of thing!
I don't remember what I said, but the flirting was on on some point. My smile was contagious, though she's like a 7.

Just right before leaving, I talk to that new hot girl again. Tell her that she has the secretary look, and Porno adds that she looks like a sexy secretary. Hahha, well done broo!

30 minutes break!
I go to the agora. That day, it was club day. Every club from the college gathered to try and attract people to join.
Went there with Porno, just talked to some people here and there but quickly had to leave.

Creative Writing class,
Nothing special. HB Indi acts kind of like a *****, tells me that she's really mad and that she'll hit me, but I was totally unreactive on that. I remembered how it was important to stay unfazed.

Break again.
I talked to some people, got some free cotton candy, and I saw Mohamed. Guys from the breakdance club.
Told him that I'll be back later to support the club. I still danced a bit for a couple minutes. People looked at us, it was fun.
Yeaah, I talk to some random people here and there that we presenting their clubs. I ***** out from flirting with the girls.

Went to English class.
This is where things ****ed up...
So yeah. Remember that HB7 I talked to and texted in English class? Well damn, she looked way prettier today with her hair done... I was feeling intimidated a bit.
I go in the class, cannot sit next to her. 1 guy on the left, 1 on the right. I sit close but a bit away. I catch her looking at me at times, but she quickly looks away, looks back. I exchange a warm smile.
Me : Hey HB7. Suup.
Blabla.
Me : You owe me a cookie!
She laughs. From her texts, she told me that she promised to give me a cookie for some reason.

Things die down. drastically.
I simply DO NOT communicate with her. My heart is pounding faster, and I'm starting to think of what to say next. I fail, and I end up only talking to that guy friend of mine the whole time.
That girl in front of me is pretty chill and we like to chat. We seem to get along well. She's not that cute but she looks cool with her piercings and short hair.

Nothing was said to the HB7, or almost. I caught her looking at me from time to time, but she looked away quickly. Couldn't quite tell what was happening.

After class, I pack up my stuff and she was doing the same.
Me : Heey HB7 How are youu?
Her : Goood you?
Me : Yeaah.
She responded with a smile, but she started leaving.
Class was pretty loud, but I'm kinda sure that she could hear me anyway. I was talking loud. I was tired of my *****ing out, so I did what I had to do.
Me : Heey you ain't waiting for me? Heeeyyy waaaiiittt!
She leaves the class. I'm left alone...

I eject class and regret my lack of action. Profoundly...

Class ends early. BREAKDANCE TIME.
I go back to the agora, and the guys from the breakdance club are all there!
Mohamed : Hey man, we're doing a show. Have you ever done one before?
Me : Ohhh really? Well, yeah but not in front of crowds really...
Blablabla, the guys are all down for it. Mohamed takes the mic, all the agora and the hundred something people turn towards him.
Mohamed : Let me introduce you guys the first BBoy! Mindgamez, come on stage and dance!
OH **** he actually called my name! I must go, there's no turning back.
Alright alright alright! So after the guys pushed me just a bit, I force myself to go in the middle. I empty my mind, feel like a boss.
As I started going in the beat, I started to walk around in the circle, took my time. I then started my dance moves.
When I went on the floor, people started cheering for me. It was cool!
I knew I was far from being an experienced breakdancer. The other guys were 10 times better, but it didn't matter. I still went in!
So yeah, they all did their thing. A guy pushes me back in again, and I force myself to go again, not turning back.
I was nervous, but I just kept doing what I had to do.

The battle was over!
We gather near the microphone, and we all have to present ourselves to the public. When comes my turn,
Me : Hey I'm Mindgamez, and I know how to shuffle!
People laugh, it was cool.
So people cheered to vote. It was chill.
Public performances, ahhh I felt nervous! But it was cool.

 

[Mindgamez]

After school was over. PICK UP AT SCHOOL.
Oh yeah that was fun. Thanks to Gary for being so awesome.
We meet at 4 PM by my locker.

Gary : Heey man, what about we go to the library and do some farting pranks?
Me : OHH HELL YEAH HAHAHAHAH!!!
So guess what? We did LOL.

We farted in front of like 20 people near the computers. I had to retain myself not to die of laughter.
We went in the basement, and there was a room with 3 girls in. I pass by and fart loudly. The girls DIE of laughter hahahaha!
Gary : Alright man, go again! Do it!
Me : Ohhh man I dunno... I'm *****ing out hahaha. You go?
Gary : Aiight I'll go...
Gary runs pass by the room and farts on the way. The laugh again.
Me : Hahaha dude that was epic!
Gary : We should go talk to them!
Me : Hahaha alright, alright... wait a sec... *long exhale*
I wait for like a minute, then I finally decide to go.

Me : Hey excuse me, I got a question!
I fart loudly, and then keep a little silence.
Me : Hahahah! It was actually a prank the whole time!
I show them the farting machine and their laugh their asses off. We talk for a bit, explain them how I prank people and I give them demonstrations that are ridiculous. They wanted to record me lol...
I tell them how girls are so much more immature than guys because they laugh their asses off crazy.
We end up ejecting after we had nothing else to say... They were very playful and fun, I could've exchanged numbers or contact info with them.

We did it again in the hallways here and there.
Gary would say hello to the girl first, and then I'd fart on them. They would look at us weirdly and then I'd proceed to telling them it was a joke. It was... funny but embarrassing.

After a lot of *****ing out from approaching that set of 2 girls (I actually wandered around for like 5 minutes before deciding that I wanted to approach them), I finally go, after Gary pushed me a lot. I was totally out of state here.
I was high-energy and playful on the conversation, but maybe a bit too much. It felt a bit forced I gotta admit. Though, the girl wasn't engaging in the conversation back, so the conversation got awkward easily. I made a couple of jokes here and there that I though were funny myself, which is good. Though, I wasn't much in the mood and I got affected by her unreactiveness. I was the reactive one. She laughed here and there, but it didn't seem so genuine. She would proceed to go back to her phone from time to time.
Gary told me how she sucked socially, which was true. She wasn't shy or anything (I don't think so...) but she made things awkward by just not engaging into the conversation back.
So then we end up ejecting.
Gary : Hey man, have you asked for their facebook or number?
Me : Hummm no...
Gary : Well man you should go back!
Me : Ahhh yeah, aight aight...
I go back, but I was a bit more confident this time.
Blablabla, she gives me the excuse that she has no facebook and that her phone doesn't work.
Bull****! I call her up on it, and we end up ejecting.
Me : Alright bye.
Gary : It's okay man.
When he said that, I felt myself going into my head again. Ahhhh, that was bad.

Did some other approach near some lockers in P building 1st floor. Damn that was AWKWARD AS HELL.
I really wasn't in the mood on that one, but I really forced myself to go. I have to harden myself to this kind of bull****.
Ohhh **** I'm not feeling this one, ahhh...
Set of 2 girls, HB7 and 6.5
Me : Heey what's up!
Blablabla, I have this kind of shy awkward smile and stance the whole time. When we shake hands, I pull hers a bit by accident. She was pretty awkward. I said things here and there, just the usual conversation... It had couple awkward silences here and there, but I wasn't resisting it.
Too bad if they happen, I gotta deal with them.
So yeah, I was laughing nervously here and there. But truth is I wasn't enjoying my time. I was very uncomfortable.
They end up leaving, we say bye to both of them. They weren't that pretty anyway.

I then approach that single girl by herself after a lot of pushing by Gary.
Gary : Ohh man she's the perfect target! By herself, alone!
Me : Ahhh man you're right.
Gary : You want me to join in?
Me : Nah I'll be fine.

This approach felt like my first approach in years. I was SHY! I could very feel the weakness in my voice and my lack of confidence. I just continued on talking anyway.
HB7.
I admitted her that I was pretty shy and that I wanted to make some new friends here.
Damn I look like some awkward loser doing that.
I was thinking about people watching around me. Damn, approaching girls at school doesn't feel the same AT ALL.

We started approaching random guys here and there and asking them if they wanted to join the breakdance club. Approaching guys is cool too. I was a lot more confident when it was about approaching random guys. Damn girls...

Did some new pickup buddy on the way! He asked us what we were talking about, and then asked us if it was about pick up. It was, and we told him. Exchanged numbers, and he's down for some mall daygame sometimes! Interesting stuff.

So yeh,
Talked to some girls I already knew from high school here and there.

Ohh Gary escaped to talk to that chick!

I was in a good confidence mode this time. Gary told me that it was very good later.

Me : Ohhh you wanna be our buddy? Ohh yeahhhh awesome!
My voice was confident, dominant, and I went in with the high five with no hesitation.
Her : Hahah, do you do this often? I remember you. aren't you the guy near my locker?
Me : Hum... OHHH YEAAHHH You looked familiar!
Blablabla we talk for a bit and then she quits after she told us she had to leave, that we'll see each other near the locker again. Cool stuff.

Waiting in line for the bus, I talk to some girl from my elementary school. Back in the day I'd be very shy, but now I was totally comfortable (or maybe just a bit anxious like usual). She was kinda hot.

Talked with the asian friends I met. Some wanna join the breakdance club, awesome.

CONCLUSION
- Holy **** man, what an experience. School cold approaching? This is crazy ****, but I wanna keep doing it. Gary did that a hundred of times at school! For 1-2 semesters already.
- When you fear awkward moments, they come at you even worse. They amplify, and the girl feels awkward too. Do not resist them, and they might happen eventually. Go through them.
- Cold approaching at school is creepy? Okay. As long as I'm not going direct and I'm just being fun, that's totally fine. I don't flirt really, or at all. I consider this fine, but I gotta play it a bit more risky at times. I never told the girls the compliment yet, but I guess that they assume that I find them pretty.

What's coming up next!
Tomorrow, gaming at 11:30 with Gary again. FCK YEAH!
At school, it's so much harder for some reasons. Everyone's looking at you, and you can get ****blocked easily.
I don't know what you guys are thinking about this, but I'll keep pushing myself to my limits. There's no excuse. If there's no way to socialize to other girls within my social circle really (which is small for now), I'll just go approach girls on the random. I'll be fun, that's it.

 

[Mindgamez]

Friday, October 5th
Very interesting day!
I socialized a lot, was the bridge between social groups! I was the leader.
Got complimented by Lychee, not expecting it.
I'm texting a new girl

So yeah!
Woke up this morning, tired again. It's hard to get good sleep patterns...

I enter the car. My mom could drive me directly to school today.
I opened my iPod, closed my eyes.
1:05
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TxX3AyzJvUM
I moved my lips to the lyrics.
I know what has to be done,
The smoke will settle,
The demons will come and I will be torn apart.
Exposing my weakness
The world will see, the world will see,
What I never
What I never
What I never ****ing wanted.

I know what has to be done.

First class, Universe of Arts
Lychee and I are next to next other at the computer lab. I refuse to give her a paper, and then when I give it to her,
Her : Ohhhh Mindgamez, you're like my favorite person ever.
Me : Awwwww that's so sweeet!
She laughed and smiled.
Later.
Me : Hey, why you have like a ton of text on your paper? All you need is 3 little points like mine!
Her : Ohhh, I guess no one can be as perfect as you
Me : Awwwww that's really cute!

Wow. What was with all that complimenting? I didn't know how to react to all of that. Is that a kind of ****-testing?

Her : Did you go to the museum yet?
Me : No, not yet
Her : Ohh, I'm going this Friday.
Me : Ohhh well I'm going this Sunday!

When class is done, I talk a bit with that girl in my research project. Nothing happens, I'm feeling like a *****, especially when that random guy comes in and they exchange joyful hugs. I was wondering why I don't do those, ever... lol.

Got 3 hours of break!
I hear someone screaming my name near my locker. It was Gary!
Oh yeah I love this guy. We decided to share my locker for fun. I wasn't in the mood at all to cold approach girls in the school... Gary pushed me and told me how there's no need to be scared to approach girls, like usual.
We still managed to record funny videos of us dancing in the hallways while people were watching. It was very fun!
And we did a couple pranks here and there with the farting machine, just to put us in the mood.
I started seeing girls and guys I knew passing by in the hallway, and started saying hellos.
Oh, here's the Italian friend from English class! I presented him to Gary, and we played some card game for a while. We suggested him to go join for the dancing video and picking up girls, but he wasn't down... He ditched us hahaha! It was funny how he pretended not to know us!

Whatever. We keep walking around, I ***** out from cold approaching. Gary does it, like usual.
We ask that girl Gary approached yesterday to record us dancing, but she told us that she was studying for her test. We let her do her thing, I ***** out from dancing in public anyway... We quit the lounge near the munch box.

We keep wandering around left and right and left and right...
I start talking to some people I knew in the hallway. I suggest some guys to join the breakdance club, but most of them say maybe. Usually this means no XD.
Oh, there's the hot German girl! This time, I'm feeling more in state.
Me : Heey, how are you doing?
She laughs a bit, smiles as always. She's beautiful. I get closer, she crosses her legs and play a bit with her hair.
Her : Ohh hey, blablabla.
Me : What are you doing?
Her : Oh I'm waiting for a friend, blablabla. Then I'm going to Toronto this weekend, blablabla.
Me : Oh why you're telling me the story of your life? You want me to stalk you or something?
Her : Nooo it's because you asked hahaha!
Then she leaves and goes meet her friend. I ***** out from approaching the little group.

Later, Jenny comes in (the 6.5 I met at the bus line like the 1st week of school or something). We talk for a bit, I present her to Gary. German girl passes by again, I tell her to come so I can present her to my friends, but she has to go... XD
Whatever man!

So yeah, I get distracted by some guys I know and go talk to them, blablabla.
I see that guy I know, and that girl that is his friend. We talk for a bit, present ourselves again. We met so many people it's so cool!

I start shuffling in the hallway randomly. It was pretty fun.
People noticed us and smiled, then 2 girls looked at us. I knew one of them (ugly, but her friend was a HB7).
Gary already approached them, but then I go in and start talking to the girl that seemed familiar. We talk for a bit and connect correctly. Iatlian friend passes by, and he tells me that he's going to eat upstairs! I invite the 2 girls to come join us, and they come after the HB7 shrugged.
Her : Where is it? Why we're going up like that?
Blabla, I find something funny to say.
Me : Ohhh, we're going to some hidden place to kidnap you girls!
They all laughed. It's good to use some jokes here and there.
Me : Oh well it's not really working because we weren't supposed to tell you girls haha.
We join the Italian friend's friends and I we present ourselves. I break the awkwardness by initiating the conversation here and there. Hopefully, I wasn't the only one to contribute to the conversation and people joined in.
Everything was going well and we connected well together. Before some people had to leave, I suggested that we exchange facebooks so we could meet together again, but then decide to exchange numbers instead.
You know what? This is how everyone started exchanging contact information. I felt like people would've never done it if I didn't initiate it.
HB7 had a boyfriend, ahhh!

 

[Mindgamez]

The HB7 was looking into my eyes.
Her : Hi
Me : What?
Her : Hum nothing!
We were both smiling, I was kinda attracted. At some point, we were conversing only her and me and I focused on only talking to her. The conversation was pretty much neutral, but I cuaght her getting closer to me as we talked more. She touched my leg with hers. I pussied out from telling her she was cute!
Some dude initiated a group hug and we all hugged each other tight. The girl would let her arm linger on my back a bit, and I did the same.
We exchange numbers.
Her : Alright, make sure that you text me so I get your number.
Me : What? No? No?
People around us laugh a bit at my remark. She looks at me confused haha.
Me : Wait, what's your name again?
Her : Ohhh, you gotta be kidding me?
Me : Hahaha, noo!
The people around us mention how this really sucks! I then tell her that it was a joke. She felt relieved, and I told her how I like to mess with people's mind.
Her : Wait, what's your name again?
I stay unfazed, after I reminded myself of Julien's idea of staying unreactive.
Me : Hahaha, you won't get me with that!
Then the guys remind her of my name, but I stay unfazed. Yeah man.

I text her.

Me : Heeellloooo you know who that is

Her : Haha, is that you that texted me?
Me : Well, you know who that is, it's written you know.

Before she leaves, we exchange a good hug. I was about to tell her that she's cute but I pussied out... Seemed like she liked me, just by the way she was looking at me. Whatever.

We pretty much talked to those people for like an hour or so. It was pretty good.

Recieved text.

HB Lau : Heeyyyy mindgamez!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When everyone's gone except me, Gary and Alex, I decide to record another dancing video in the hallway again. I was in state and my dancing was cool. Though, there was nobody watching almost.

Oh snap! Had to go to class now! So I leave to class.
On the way there, I see The HB7 from earlier (let's call her HB Lau) walking with some guy (not her bf, just some friend). I wasn't expecting it. I tell them that I'm going to class, blabla, byebye.
OH SHIET the door is locked! My class is cancelled...
I was checking on my iPod to see if it really was, and then SURPRISE, HB Lau passes again with the dude. I wasn't expecting it and I was kind of out of state there.
They invite me to go do some kayaking with them in the pool! I tell them that I'm interested and that I'll see later. I gotta get back to Gary again.

So I get back to Gary, and we decide not to go to the kayak thing. I had no bathing suit! So I text HB Lau about it.

Me : Hey I wont come to the kayak thing because I dont wanna get wet like you! Tell me whens next time, ill get my bathing suit.
Her : aw noooo! ): alright, well next friday, same time, same place
Me : Well hang out another time, because I usually have class at this time! Dont get too wet!
*Lool...*
Her : Okay that's cool, yeah I I have class at 2:30 and was almost late.

We walked back to our locker and said hello to a couple of people on the way back. I have a good amount of acquaintances that could become potential friends! I just don't hang out with them...
I see that asian girl that looks like some asian girl I talked to before. I open her by asking if she's Gail?
We end up sitting next to her and we started talking and talking, about anything and nothing, about making new friends at the college, about asian food, about the asian shyness, about dancing, etc. It was an interesting conversation, and she was cool.
She would laugh and smile a lot to what I would say, and we all laughed together to the funny things.
Gary suggests her to add me on facebook, and she goes Yeah ok! Haha, thanks Gary XD. We end up exchanging phone numbers.
We head separate ways after 20-30 minutes of conversation. I feel like you have way much more time to bond with the person when you're on break.

We get to the cafeteria and open a set of 2 girls indirectly, a fatty and a pretty HB7.5. She was at her 4th semester, and her fatty friend wasn't so responsive. She wasn't smiling much, even though she was the one asking the questions. The other girl smiled a lot, but the conversation was pretty much stable. I invited them to the breakdance club, like pretty much everyone I talked to, but they don't like to dance!
We let them eject, and my excuse was that they were too old for me.

Cool stuff!
After we farted on a bunch of people as a prank, we headed to the gym to work out. I see the girl that was hitting on me at Staples!
Her : Mindgamez!
Me : OMG NOO!!! GET OUT! GET OUT!!
Her : You get ouutt!
I recognized her friend that was in the bus the other day too. The fatty black **** block was actually in the same yoga class.
Fatty : Mindgamez... Are you flirting with girls again?
Me : Nooo! She tried to rape me!
I was confident and not caring of what people thought of me.
ALL the girls looked back at me, 80% of them smiled, and a bunch of them were pretty cute I must admit. The girl I was talking about and her friend were laughing and smiling a lot. Big DHV here, beauty of it is that it was unintentional. Even though I was in state, I pussied out from talking to the other girls around a bit.
We end up heading back to the gym. As I do so, I see that same girl pass by while I was lifting dumbells.
She goes loudly : OUUUUUHHH MINDGAMEZ!!!
I smile a bit, tell her to get out XD hahahaha, her friend was laughing too.

Breakdance club was pretty cool today! There was like 4 new people, we were a pretty good bunch of people.

On the way back to the bus.
Gary : Hey man, what's your purpose of all of this?
Me : Well, my main purpose is to reach unstoppable confidence.
Gary : Me, I do it because I want to get a nice girlfriend at the end. It's mainly for fun and confidence though.
Me : Yeah, it's sure that getting a good girlfriend is like the end journey of it, but for now, I just want an abundance of girls and fun.

I hop in the last bus that gets me home.
I open my phone, text a bit to HB Lau.

Me : Careful next time Sumo (her name sounds like Sumo)
Her : Haha ;p yeah, what are you doing tonight?
Me : Haha why, you want to hang out?
Her : I meant like for the entire wknd ;P I'm with friends now ;P
Me : Busy all weekend, going Larond with friends tomorrow
Her : Aw rly that's fun!
Me : You're allowed to join (;

Last text was at 7:35, but she never responded... I need tips for my texting game guys!

EDIT : She texted back at 12:10 AM... lol
Damn I was literally waiting for her answer for a while... until I started thinking about tomorrow's upcoming fun and how there's so many other opportunities out there.

Her : I wish!!! But I can't ):

Conclusion
- Going in indirect is a good thing. Even though the conversation isn't particularly flirty (especially in a group), it's totally fine so she doesn't seem as a slut. Keep the subtle things (I know I could've done better today... escalate a bit more, even though she had a boyfriend).
- JUST BE SOCIAL GUYS! Let yourself go, let your real self come through and don't think of outcome. You're just there to have fun, and there's SO many other people out there. They're so open, people are more open in college.
- SOCIAL CIRCLE GAME MAN! It's fun and easy. Build your way up slowly, invite people to do stuff with you. They'll invite you back and you won't realize it.

What's coming up next!
TOMORROW, going to the amusement park to game! Mirthless (from SP forum) is pretty down for that.
Then, we're going to some All-Ages party. Though, I expect it to be better than the last one.
Entrance fee for guys is 15$, FREE for girls. Damn, there better be a **** ton of girls that night! I'm hyped up for this.
Why did I fap 3-4 days ago... I could've kept my horniness for tomorrow night!...
I will definitely attempt some grinding here and there, maybe some make-out.
Cool stuff

 

[smithersonb11]

Been reading your journal for a while now. Pretty awesome stuff, especially how dedicated you still are to updating it.

I'm sure you could pull pretty easily if you had more intent there.

Also, where in Canada are you from?

 

[Mindgamez]

smith thanks for support man. And yeah, I try to keep it very detailed and to write about as much as I can remember. When I read the post again, I can feel the same emotions I was feeling back then, and I try to make the reader feel that experience too.

Yeah I could go for it man! And I'm from Quebec, the only French province.

1 Year Anniversary
Since I started this Journal on Sosuave.
I want to thank everyone since the very beginning. When I would feel down or not in the mood, there would always be people like you guys to help me out. I'm very grateful for that.

It was a very difficult thing to change. I remember that first cold approach ever, to asking the hot blonde from my high school out, to dissolving into tears when I felt lost, to crying of relief after tough days, to being brought down completely by one of my good friends, to that huge oneitis for Laos, to that Prom and after Prom party of grinding multiple girls, to my days of incredible inaction and incapacity to approach at all, to my days of incredible motivation, to those 100 or so approaches during the summer, to opening that HB9 with a kiss on the hand,

To now.

Reading about this again, I'm inspired to continue on.

I progressed a lot I believe, but I that's just a little glimpse of what I'm capable of. I'm pretty sure about that. My potential has no limits. I am limitless.

There's no way I'm stopping to write in that journal. I will keep on writing and hope to inspire more people.

I am limitless.

EPIC NIGHT GAME.
It was a great night to some place I thought was very intimidating with all the douche and *******-looking guys (stereotype in my head, I know), the slutty looking girls, the ambience in general. I was literally the only asian guy in the whole place. Being able to game in an environment like that took me a lot of will power. CRAZY.

On my way back home, my hands still smelled girl's perfume

Saturday, October 6th
We'll start off with the day at the amusement park first.

I woke up in the morning,
Did 20 minutes of meditation, and arrived like 30 minutes late to the park... Mirthless wasn't so happy with that!

We walked around, and around, and around. Mirthless didn't want to do roller coasters at all, and it made me a bit pissed to be honest. He wanted to just walk around and approach. I wanted to, of course, but I was totally NOT in the mood.

I said merry christmas to a set of 3 girls, they definitely looked younger.

Said it again to another set of 3 girls. They were prettier, but I didn't transition.

Guess what? NO direct approaches AT ALL. For the 4 hours at the park.

I have nothing against Mirthless, just that I don't like his indirect approach about it. He's pretty confident and good (as I saw him dance with that hot blonde at the party), but his techniques don't apply for me. Lol, practice a line before approaching? Naaah man...

I was getting more and more into my head. It was definitely not working in my head.

LOL right now I'm thinking like WTF was wrong with me? If I can attempt a make-out with an HB9 and make her smile, why can't I just approach this innocent set of 2 girls by the zombie guy at the park?

Though, still had fun with taking pictures with the zombies here and there. We did few roller coasters, I was disappointed.

THE NIGHT.
It starts raining at the amusement park. We decide to leave.

Mirth : Oh alright, let me check google maps so we know how to get to the party.
Me : Yeah okay. By the way, sorry if I was in such a bad mood today man...
Mirth : It's okay man.
Me : Tonight I'll fix that.

We head separate ways. I like being by myself for an hour or so. It allows me to meditate on things.

Don't beat yourself up for your inaction at the amusement park today man. That's just going to make things worse.
I took the bus, listened to my favourite music on the way back.

I saw some girl checking me out in the metro, but I pussied out from talking to her. Too bad I guess.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gkOwMeUtJJY
Okay, I know this party is going to be filled with douchebags, overconfident guys. All guys with the swagger walk, that talk loudly. Well guess what? I'm not intimidated.
I took a deep breath.
I am extremely confident, and no one can stop me.
After a long exhale, I take another deep breath.
I believe in my potential. It's deep in me. There's no turning back now.
I was entering state, I was in my own world. I felt like nothing in the world could stop me now.
My body felt invigorated again, ready for anything.

7:58, I text Mirthless and he doesn't respond. Doesn't matter, I just sit down and eat my subway sandwich. I listen to music again. I tap my feet and move my head to the beat. I didn't care about anything at the moment. All I wanted was to enjoy.

What if at the last minute Mirthless cancels? Yeah, I remember how he told me that he though about not going to the party. Oh man, who cares. If I have to get there by myself, I'll just go by myself.
I walked with an unusual confidence on the way to the Subway. I caught the two girls looking at me. Went to the toilet, on the way back they were still looking at me.

Mirthless calls me when I'm at the video store. I tell him that I'll meet him soon.
It's time.

When I arrive in front of the party, I talk to Mirthless for a bit. The guys around us were loudly talking and smoking. Girls passed by and they all whistled. Funny how they just check them out but don't approach them directly!
Me : Why can't we go in?
Security : Just wait 5 minutes please.
The girls could enter in immediately, for free. All guys had to wait.
I talk to Mirthless.
Me : We have a lot of competition with all these guys man.
Mirthless : Yeah, true!
Me : Are you ready?
Mirthless : Yeah.
Me : I'm feeling pumped up man.

We go in.
So at first, there was a bunch of girls in the middle of the dance floor, but since the party was just getting started, no one really dance. The girls waited in the middle. I wasn't in the mood and pussied out for a bit at the beginning. Mirthless and me decide to go near the dance floor. We wait for a while, and more people start joining in.
I scream in Mirthless's ear
Me : I'm scared man!
Mirthless : Ohh why you scared?
Me : Because it's a ****ing huge group of girls over there ahhhh!
I see a guy next to me. He's white, looks like the typical nerd. I introduce myself, and talk to his friend. His friend is a lot more confident, friendly.
I became really good friends with him! Let's call him Fred.
Me : Hey man I wanna talk to these girls over there, but I'm shy.
Fred : Haha same man! We should go man. Wanna go together?
Me : Mhmhm I don't know man.
Blablabla. Apparently he knows about pick up too! YEAH.

My first one or two sets were pretty much rejections because I wasn't so much in the mood. I didn't really take them seriously.

I don't remember all of my approaches, but my first ones were the best by far. I was in state. I used Tyler's advice, and went in by screaming HEY! (since the music was so loud). I would introduce myself directly.

Fred : Hey man! See this girl, she's really hot man. Go talk to her!
Me : Alright alright!

I approach her. OHH MY HB9!
Me : Hey!
I extend my hand. I was totally unfazed. I look at her in the eyes, with pure love.
Me : I'm Mindgamez.
Her : Hi *giggles*
We shake hands. I slowly raise her hand to my lips, and I kiss it. She smiles, her girl friends around all laugh and smile.
We keep talking a bit, not for long. Not much is said, I just go direct to the point.
I get close to her, slide my hand on her back a bit. I didn't resist sexual attraction.
Me : You're down to dance?
Her : *giggles* no thank you!
Me : Ohhh you're sure about that?
I get closer, she smiles. I attempt for the make-out, and it's been a minute talking or so! She backs off playfully. I smile back.
Man, I don't know what to do in these situations. Now that I think about it, I believe that right thing to do was to just back off for a bit, then come closer, push pull. I was just pulling and pulling, even though she seemed attracted definitely.
Alright man, just meet her later during the night! Go socialize with other people
I wave her goodbye, she did back. She was very beautiful, and nice.
Though, I lost her in the crowd and never saw her again!...

SO THIS MEANS, that I gotta persist and persist if things are going good in the first place, and take opportunities as they come to me because they sometimes won't come again.
Thanks dad. I remember what you taught me.

I did something very similar with another HB8 and 8.5 I think. Very similar results came from doing this. I kissed the hand as opener, as always.

Before that HB9, I approached an HB8 and did pretty much the same. I was a bit less in state on that one, so she was smiling but a bit more reluctant. When I went in to kiss her hand, she resisted a bit, but laughed afterwards. It was all good. Though, I ejected the same way after she refused to dance. I didn't go as physical on that first hand-kiss opener.

The HB8.5 was in the big crowd, walking in the opposite direction.
Me : HEY!
She turns back, I present myself and she smiles. I ask her if she wants to dance, but she gets pushed by the crowd. I attempt to kiss her hand but she gets pushed even more lol. She told me her name, but I forgot! AHHHH.

I made friends with some girls Fred met.
I was a bit awkward with them. When they were talking on the loud dance floor, I couldn't quite hear them clearly so I was pretty much standing next to them, preoccupied with looking around for other girls to talk to.