Journal - Approaches on street, at mall, etc.

[Mindgamez]

Wednesday, July 4th
8 DIRECT APPROACHES, 2 NUMBERS! 1 Approach is on VIDEO

So I woke up this morning,
Feeling fine. Listened to some hypnosis and felt good. I ate fast so I won't miss the bus.
I arrived a little too early! I sat down and listened to some of TheGreenNinja's approaches on the forum. It actually kind of motivated me and inspired me to approach!
So after 20 minutes, I go back to the meeting point and I see chopders. Yeah, we go for the approaches!

After a couple of them, I see my friend N and another girl friend at the mall, randomly. We talk for like 20-30 minutes on the same spot. Then, I see a girl and I eject the group to go talk to her. My friends never saw me in action before, and N always wanted to see me do it! He supports me, which is great. The other girl though that I was kind of weird for doing that.

So yeah, we sat down at the food court, just waiting for girls to pass by. We still talked and it was fun. When I actually got a number, the girl told me that I had talent and she was surprised because she's was some random chick.

VIDEO HERE!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5n2yghAootk&feature=youtu.be

What's coming up next
I'm feeling a lot more confident about approaching when my friends are around. I used to feel like, holy **** they're watching me aahhh!
But I did it, and it was totally fine. Makes no difference.
TOMORROW, going to the amusement park again. YEAH! This time, I'm going for approaches I swear. My other buddy that likes pick up will come too. Too bad he told me that he's not down for pick up tomorrow. Well, it's totally fine. I'll do it by myself LIKE A PRO!

I'm excited, feeling fantastic.

 

[Nick1886]

Well done man, vraiment une gazelle!

Where you from in France?

 

[Mindgamez]

Thanks for support!
Not from France, from Canada! Quebec province, it's French

 

[Mindgamez]

Thursday, July 5th
I think that this female friend likes me... HB7.2 let's say

So I woke up this morning,
Feeling a little horny. Fought the urge to masturbate and I didn't do it! I've completed almost 11 days without fapping. Yeah!
I suggest to stop masturbating to all the guys out there. Boosts your horniness level! You start scanning for girls to approach, you feel horny just chatting to girls sometimes.

Okay so we took the bus together today to get to the amusement park. No flirting happened, it was simple friendly chatting. I wasn't feeling in state so I was kind of nervous for no reason. Nervous about approaching at the amusement park, about talking to her. Why feel nervous anyway? She's just a girl, she's pretty, but I don't see her as my girlfriend. I have options.
She complimented me on my new hairstyle. Had a little confidence boost right here.
On the subway, she laid her head on my shoulder to sleep. I wasn't feeling attracted but her head was soft so I slept on her haha.

So we meet up with the other guy friends. My friend N told a little about my other good asian bro about me doing pick up. He really wanted to see me in action, just like the other guys too.

So I pussied out ALL DAY, even though they pushed me a lot to go approach! I was being way too picky, I must admit, and the pretty girls I didn't even had the guts to talk to them! They were always in groups, never ever alone. Who would go to the amusement park alone? That was my excuse not to approach.

So on the way back home, I tell my asian bro : Hey, I promise that I'll do it before you go. I promise man!
So we walk around waiting for the subway. We were just me and him, because having all my buddies around gave me a lot of pressure. I don't know why. So yeah, I see that girl that looks hot from the back. She looked HB8!
So I stayed back a little, close to asian bro.
I was breathing heavily. Nervous again, like it was my first time approaching.
I say **** it! I must learn to do it by myself! No wing, and that's FINE. I'm not going home without doing ****.
Alright Mindgamez, empty your mind.
I gently touch her arm a bit.
She looked 25!... and not so pretty. Let's say HB6.
Too late! I had to talk to her because I already approached.
Told her that she was cute. My voice was soft and not loud enough. She smiled a bit, said thank you but she went back to her cellphone a bit.
She seemed uninterested, and I wasn't interested either! I do the usual fluff talk, just to practice conversation a bit.
I eject, and I go back to my asian bro.

So I get back to my circle of friends, and my friend that was into pickup a bit (he didn't have the guts to approach anybody) told me :
Oh! You probably didn't approach anybody!
So I told them that I did, but that she seemed older and she wasn't so pretty face to face.
So we took the subway, headed home. We went separate ways,
Except for me and Female Friend though, because we live close to each other.

The bus was 30 minutes late, so we waited together for that time.
We had a lot of fun, playing thumbs war and inventing some cool handshakes.
She loves to hold long eye contact with me. Her eyes are beautiful!
She was getting a little touchy. She was getting closer, she would hold my hands a little longer, smile a lot.
Didn't feel like flirting. It was all friendly to me. I want her to be my friend, that's it! She's such a cool playful girl.

Hugged tight, did the handshake again and we left separate ways.

Conclusion,
I have to approach, no matter who's putting pressure on me, no matter the circumstances. I only approach comfortably when I have a wing with me from the forum to encourage me! This time, I had a friend and it helped. Without him, I maybe would've gone home without doing ****. I have to do it by myself, I must. Once I do it one time, I'll be independent.

What's coming up next
Tomorrow at 4 PM, going sarging with a wing and his friend. This mean 2 wings. They are 23 and 21 years old, but it doesn't matter. It's actually even better, because they have years of experience so I'll be able to learn from them. We become great by hanging out with champions that are better than you, not by sticking with the chodes all the time.

 

[LearningSlowly]

Yan, you been on the site a while but haven't gone to 3rd base with a girl yet. You might as well go for it with this girl, she likes you! Just my opinion

 

[Mindgamez]

Yeah she's alright, but I don't really have feelings for her. I don't want to sleep with girls I just find alright man.

TEXTING GAME... need help!
So this was after approach #6. Man, I just don't know where to start getting flirty when the girl's just texting boringly and nothing's happening. She had NOTHING going on.

Me : Hi it's Mindgamez from the mall (; how's it going?
Her : Good you
Me : Yeah. I wished I had the time to know you better, but my friends were waiting for me! So where you from?
Her : ______ you?
Me : _____! So tell me, what do you do that,s good in life other than talking to handsome guys? Haha
Her : Lol not so much I chill with my friends
Me : Ok. Alright I have a good question! The 3 words that describe you the best?
Her : Relaxed, fun and chill you?
Me : So you're fun and chill, mmhhmmmh not bad not bad. Passionate, zen, joyful
Me : Tell me what you're aiming at, your hobbies, your passions
Her : I don't know, I like sports, music like everybody else I guess
Me : Myeah, an ordinary girl. Except that she has beautiful blue eyes
Her : It was time usually it's the first thing people tell me (;
Me : You were waiting for that compliment with impatience are you the flirty type or are you more reserved?
Her : Let's say reserved in person and flirty by text
Me : Ahh that sucks!! XD In real it's 100 times more exciting
Her : Lol we'll txt another time
Me : I gotta go, good night *her name*. Don't dream too much about Mindgamez

Okay so after that convo, I'm not so interested. She seems like a very boring girl to me. Nothing going on in her life, what?

2 days later
Me : Hey, how are you?
Her : Good you ?
Me : Yeah! I'm coming back from the amusement park it was pretty fun. What's up my pretty
Her : Nothing special
So at this point I just want to fool around.
Me : Tell me, what's your favorite kind of pie
Her : Ok it's rlly a very weird question but with blueberries
Me : Oh really? What about creampie?
Her : There's nothing about it
Me : You clearly don't know what I'm talking about!
Her : Indeed
At this point I go risky. **** this!
Me : You love it because it's the name of a sexual act. You didn't know?
Her : Wtf it's really inappropriate we don't even know each other so I'd appreciate that you stop txting me
Lol at this point I went like : Uggghh that didn't work out... **** haha!
Me : I went too hard OOPSIES! Well anyway too bad that you didn't understand that it was joking. Anyway I wish you good life, and follow your dreams!

Deleted her number! Boring girl.
Any advices? When she texts boringly and I have nothing else to add to the conversation due to her lack of information, what should I do? I had no idea how to escalate from that!
Lol at least I self-amused myself! I love the sexual jokes.

Things to improve
- Get to know her better before getting her number
- Texting game...

 

[NorwegianDJ]

******* works better.
Don't be so apologizing in the way you speak. Stand for what you say.

 

[Mindgamez]

Hehe I like that. True that.

Friday, July 6th
6 Approaches, 1 Number, AND GOT SURPRISED BY BOYFRIEND... Lol

So I woke up this morning,
Horny. Forced myself not to fap and I won again! 12 days completed, 78 days to go.
I got ready to go sarging, and I texted yang from the SP forum. When I arrived at destination, my cellphone bugged and I couldn't send any texts. He got mad and I had to explain why it took me almost 1 more hour to text him.

So yeah, I'm not going to lie but he made me kind of insecure about my game.
He told me all his tactics, his style of gaming and stuff. He told me that going direct wasn't always the way to go, and that indirect situational openers would work better in places like stores and stuff. He had years of experience so I kind of trusted him at first. Then, I realized that it simply made me more anxious, because it was against what I learned with RSD. RSD was about going natural and being authentic. I had two conflicting theories going through my head... indirect or direct? ****! Like, I felt like I didn't agree with what he said, but in some ways he could be right because he has the experience.

So my wing proposed me to use routines at first, because he told me that if I went natural, it simply wouldn't work out. I told him that it could work out if you just try it out, he kept telling me that it wouldn't. Anyway, I kind of got a little mad here, sorry yang. I truly believe that it's way better to stay positive in all times.

I still liked how he pushed me to approach sets I didn't want to approach. And he brought me to places I wasn't feeling comfortable, like bars. I was underage but they didn't check for IDs hopefully. I felt like security could assault me at any time to ask for my ID haha.

So we went sarging at the subway anyway. I loved yang's persistence and patience.
I got my number close here!

Anyway, here's the video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKTcV7P_b3Y

 

[LearningSlowly]

In your texting you need to be more directly sexual from the start. Don't give everything away at first, try to lead her into earning it. And if you feel like its getting boring, dont waste time, make a date! Great job on getting numbers lately

 

[Mindgamez]

Thanks for support man.
If it's getting boring, make a date? What if it's so boring that it makes her seem uninteresting? Lol.
By the way, 2 of the 3 numbers I've gotten this week were flakes... any way of avoiding that? Thanks!

 

[LearningSlowly]

If she seems uninteresting, its because you haven't made the conversation interesting. Everyone has something interesting to share, you need to lead them to that fun, expressive side of themselves.

I dunno about the flakes. Make sure your first text is something exciting or clever, so they want to respond. If they dont respond to a text, and dont answer a phone call, then they should be back-up-plans. You should text a generic mass text "Hey, looking to meet up this week? Lets go ice skating" [or to a movie, etc, whatever you want] to all of them every 2 weeks or so until they tell you to stop texting them.

PS youre becoming such a boss at conversation

 

[Mindgamez]

Good point, and thanks a lot for the support bro! Let's be pro.

Monday, July 9th
Went to the amusement park, approached 2 sets!

So yeah,
When I arrived to the amusement park, I was feeling kind of good already. I was excited! My friends really wanted to see me in action too so they kept pushing me and pushing me. Eventually, I didn't really like the pressure they gave me so I kind of started off *****ing out. A lot!

So yeah, for the first 2 hours we did roller coasters and I didn't take action. So we went to eat something. I saw this cute girl standing here by herself. She was on the phone and I told myself : Alright! Once she's off the phone I'm going. It's my perfect chance. Then when she's over with the phone, her BOYFRIEND ARRIVES. I hate this. I always feared situation like these. Did it ever happen to you guys before? Like, you talk to the girl and the boyfriend randomly appears?

So I told my friends that I'll hit on the girl working at the restaurant. HB7.5

Me : Hey, how's it going?
Her : Good, you?
Me : Good good. I actually didn't come here to buy fries or anything. I just wanted to tell you that you're really beautiful.
Her : Ohhhh, thanks!
She kind of smiles shyly and looks at me nervously a bit.
Me : Yeah, you look pretty bored here. Come over with us and do some roller coasters!
Her : Haha, I don't really think I can do that now!
Wanted to fool around a bit, to see how it can go with bull****.
Me : What's your favorite kind of pie?
Her : ... Are you serious? XD
Me : Yeah
Her : Alright wait a second!
Some customer comes. I pull off my cellphone and pretend I'm texting people. I then said to myself **** it after 1-2 minutes. I look at her, we both smile
Me : So! What's your favorite kind of pie?
Her : Uggghhh, I don't know
Me : You probably like strawberry pie.
Her : No
Me : Ahhhh. You love the creampie don't you?
Her : Ahhh, I don't think I know what that is XD
Me : Well, you know? I can show you what it is!
Blabla I don't remember it all. It's pretty much nonsense
Me : We have a lot in common you and me, that's great!

We smile, then I just say have a nice day to her. She was too busy with customers and it was hard to talk to her.
Then I told my friend about the nonsense trolling, and literally rolled on the floor laughing LOL!!!! Literally! Then he told me that I was such a boss for that.

Next approach, I see those 2 girls walking. I walk towards them but they are far ahead so I though that I couldn't catch them up. They turn the corner to go to the bathroom. Friend that laughed earlier screamed : FOLLOW THEM TO THE BATHROOM! DO IT!
I then laugh nervously and I just keep walking towards them, but I slow down a bit because it was too late to go. That random guy sitting down looked at me and smiled, like he knew I was doing pickup. So I smiled back!
I sat down and waited. My friend kept encouraging me, but I felt more like it was pressure than anything else. One of the two girls exited the bathroom, so I walk up to her. HB8

Me : Hey, hey. I know this is pretty random, but I though that you were very cute and I had to meet you.
Her : *smiles and laughs*
Me : So how's it going?
Her : Good, you?
Me : Good! So, what do you think about us getting some ice cream together sometimes? That would be great!
Her : Hahaha, no thank you!
Her friend comes out the bathroom, HB7.2
Me : Hi, what's up?
She looked at me, kind of confused or simply shy.
Me : Actually, I was flirting with your friend during the time you were at the bathroom.
They both giggle laughs
Me : So yeaahh! (talking to HB8) If you get this desire to experience some spectacular adventures with me... Nah just kidding!
They both giggle again, then I just ESCAPE THE CONVERSATION. WHAT THE BEEP! *****ing out when everything was going good. After I did that, the girls kept walking.
Friend from earlier screams to them : HEEY! You girls don't know what you're missing! He's really hot! They smile, I smile back and wave goodbye.
So my excuse? They weren't pretty enough. LOL WHAT THE BEEP.

So later, like 3 minutes later, I see them walking behind us. HB8 throws me a huge smile, responded with one too.
Man I really regret this *****ing out.
At this point, I could've walked up to her again, talk a little more with her. It was the perfect opportunity.
My friends putted more pressure on me, but I didn't approach.

Pretty girls don't give second chances, right?
So I see them walking by again, but this time, it's her friend that smiles and look at us. HB8 doesn't respond and tries to ignore us.
One more reference experience. When the iron's hot, STRIKE! DO NOT WAIT. TIME KILLS ATTRACTION, if not used wisely.

So yeah, I told myself that I'll approach other sets instead. I didn't do it! There was less and less options as time went on. It was near the end of the day and I was getting really picky.
I failed the No Fap challenge. Horniness level was pretty low.

So we head back home. It was a fun day for all of us!
Surprisingly, I see the two girls from before. I say to them : Heey, how's it going!
They look at me quick, look away. They kept walking. At this point, I kind of lose my cool.
HB8 smiles in a *****y way without looking at us and goes : Heeeyy...
She probably though that all of this was just some joke. She was either disappointed, annoyed, or uninterested because of my *****ing out. Whatever it is, I won't take it personally.

DUDE. I must close when it's still hot.
I keep missing opportunities when they come and I don't take right action.
Both interactions, the girls were responsive. The HB8 was the most responsive.
This makes no sense! When the girl doesn't respond so well I keep going, but when things are going good I ***** out.

So I look up facebook when I arrive home. HB C (girl I attempted make out) invited me to go to the movie theaters (BUT with friends!)
I should've organized something between her and me only. Why didn't I do that! Well too bad.

So that night, I got a wet dream.
I wake up and realize it's the morning. I ejaculated awake and instead of enjoying it I went like : Ahhh no! I'm loosing testosterone again and it wasn't on purpose!
HAHA that was kind of funny, but I was kind of disappointed with that.

What's coming up next
MOVIE THEATRES!
As soon as I'll see HB C, I'll hug her and keep her close to me, tell her how hot she is.
Let's try and make this girl horny. Going sexual, and direct to the point!
Feeling kind of nervous thinking about it. No, this will be a lot of fun! Nervousness kills sexual tension.
We'll attempt some make-out with her and hopefully get it. She ain't with a boyfriend anymore! I want her to be my **** buddy for now.
Let's not be outcome dependant. I do it to improve my skills, right? I'll make her evening. She'll remember this one!

 

[Mindgamez]

Tuesday, July 10th
Let me tell you my story. Pretty interesting things happened!

So I woke up this morning,
Okay wait! Actually, I woke up because of a wet dream. I woke up during my ejaculation and instead of enjoying it, I went like : Noooooooo! I'm losing sperm!
After a while of disappointment, I laughed a bit at myself. Then I went downstairs, ate, played some PS3. I was feeling nervous about later tonight. I was going to the movie theaters.
I listened to some Self-Hypnosis MP3s a bit, and after that I still felt a little nervous.
No Mindgamez. Be in the moment. Stop worrying about the future. Everything will be fine. And the past? Man, don't worry about it. It's all gone.
I putted some good trance music, and danced some shuffle. I let myself go completely, just feeling the beat.
Dancing reminded me of that successful party I had during the After-Prom. It was such a blast! Grinded 5 girls that night.
I kept dancing, but it wasn't so long. After 15 minutes, had to go prepare and take a shower. I made myself look good and took my time.

On the way to the theatres, I listened to some music to feel good. I ignored my dad that talked to me and pretended to sleep. Truth is, I was meditating.

Arrived!
So I call HB C, because she wasn't there yet. I talk to that random stranger just to get me into that momentum a bit.
Then, HB C comes behind me. We hug, and then I kind of let my arm linger on her back for a while. She keeps her arm around me too.
So I just let go of my arm, but her arm was still around my waist. I felt her going a little awkward, and she slid her arm fast afterwards.
I felt nervous too. I wasn't in state. I was like : Ohhh damn! Go for that kiss, something! Nah don't do it.
So yeah... during that crucial time I didn't do **** really. Talked normally.

Doesn't matter.
So we entered the theatre. I shook hands with my friend's girlfriend and we shook for a long time. She though that it was really funny lol...
So yeah, sat next to her, we talked a bit. HB C left to go get her other friend.
So the friend came. It was a guy!
Oh damn ****, it's a guy. Her other boyfriend?
Shook hands with him, introduced myself and I got his name. I went out of state.
They both went to the other end to sit, next to that other girl friend.
Oh ****ing ****! ****!
I then realized that I just said that out loud. Oops haha.

Am I that needy? Am I a *****? Wow, I can't fail again. I probably won't be successful that evening...
So I started going into my head again. And I though about something.
Am I the one being chased by the wolf? Of am I the one chasing the wolf? Was I running away from fear, of was I daring to look at him face to face?
I lifted my butt off my chair, following that surge of good emotions inside of me. I didn't resist fear.
I saw HB C.
Me : Hey! Where's your friend?
Her : He's gone to the bathroom.
Me : Is he your boyfriend?
Her : No, just a friend of mine.
Me : Oh alright. Will he be mad if I sit here?
I sit at the chair right next to her.
Her : Oh, yes probably!
I extend my arm and wrap it around her. She resists and smiles.
Her : No no no no! Get off!
Me : Hahaha
Her : You have to sit elsewhere, because he'll be a loner if I don't sit next to him!
We talk a little bit more, not much. Then, the guy arrives.
Me : Hey man! Is this your girlfriend?
Him : Yeah!
Her : *laughs*
Me : Oh! She told me that you weren't her boyfriend though, haha!
So I try and wrap my arm again around her, she resists playfully. I sit to the seat right next to the guy.

Movie was great! So we left the movie theatres. On the way out to the bus stop.
I push HB C gently
Me : Move.
Her : *laughs*
I slide my hands on her.
Her : Haha, don't do it, stop!
Me : You don't like it in public, that's it! You know, we can still do it in private.
We keep moving a bit. I notice that she smiles.
Me : I see you smiling. It means a lot.

We go to the bus stop. On the way out, she tells me that she likes my hair.
So I was right behind her, she was sitting on the bench. My hand slid on her butt gently, then I did it a little more obviously. She moved a bit and told me to back off again, but playfully.
I tried to find every possible opportunity to flirt with her. There's too much to tell it all. I told her that I could be her male stripper, she laughed and it was fun. I kept a serious face, flirtatious though.

In the bus, she said to her friend to come fast and sit right next to her. I wanted to sit next to her that's why haha.
So I flirted a bit more. The guy told me to back off, and I felt a little nervous again. I went back to my chair and felt like a ***** again.
I went back into my head.
Hey, I know so much about pick up and social interactions. I can read social cues, right? Man that's right! I know the glitch of all this.
So I had this surge of good emotions again. I went back and talked to the people. Flirting continued non-verbally, I winked at her a lot. She smiled back.
Then, HB C's girl friend talked about some dating and stuff. They talked about her and the guy getting married
Me : So, you guys getting married?
Her : Yeah, don't be jealous.
Me : Hahahahahaha! (Tyler style laugh, ****ing love it haha!)
Her : But we aren't dating! Our parents organized this marriage but we are allowed to date other people.
Me : Ohh really? That's so sad! You guys should date! (I decided to play her game)
I looked at her. The look in her eyes was different, like if she retreated into her mind.
Me : Man, go direct man! Short to the point! That's how it's done!
Him : Haha, I know how it's done man.
Me : Sorry HB C, but bros before hoes!
She stays silent a bit. I told myself that I was winning at this point. She was weakened right now, so it was time to pull after the push.
Me : But you're still hot though!
She smiles back again.
The talking continued. I was feeling in control and good most of the time, but sometimes I retreated into my mind and went back to my ***** self. It was big waves of good and bad going on. Roller coaster feelings.

So we walked off the bus. I hugged her tight, held her head and was ready to kiss her.
She went : No no no! Back off!
She always seemed playful with all of this.
So she left, gave me the finger but she smiled at the same time. Gave her one back haha.
She walked off with her hand in the guy's hand.

You know my other friend's girlfriend? When I looked at her and held long eye contact, she kept smiling and giggling for no reason. It made me attracted haha. She asked me where I was from, which school I attended, etc. I talked a bit with both of them. Very cool and chill people.

So after another bus ride, I get back home.
I was going to pull off my iPod and listen to some music, but then I putted my iPod back
No, just enjoy the silent night.
I looked up at the stars. Beautiful, peaceful. I was feeling peaceful myself. Maybe could I make a wish? No, there weren't any shooting stars.
At this point, I felt like a supreme boss. I was winning in life, I pushed boundaries and I kept the persistence no matter the reaction I got. Positive emotions were coming back at me!

 

[Mindgamez]

So I sat down at my computer, and chatted a bit with HB C again. Things went up, down, down, down... finally up.

Me
Sorry, but the bros before the hoes!
You're still sexy though

Her
Haha <3 thanks boy

Me
Liked the attempt at making me jealous though, that was cute
Hahaha

Her (15 minutes later)
When was that? Lol
Srry I was helping my mom

Me
Don't act as if nothing happened lol. And I don't understand what's with your mother

Her:
lolllll k but yknow I was joking hes just my bro! But the difference is he's able to control his testosterone and he knows that Im kidding so yea
And like my mom was havin troubles with her compt o I helped her
*so

Me
I have no desire to retain myself when you're here *wink*
Oh I see that, no sex with people in your family right.

Her
To retain yourself huh and y notttttttt
Exactly. No incest

Me
Why not? It's against nature to hold back your desires! YOLO

Her
LOL ok well as long as u aren't offended when I back off

Me
You really have to stop fooling around HB C! I see it in your eyes that you like me (;

Her
Dude. I have pretty eyes. Thats all.

Me
You play hard to get, don't you

Her
No. No i dont. I had a bf when i saw u at the party!
And now im into sum1 else!
And well ur awesome and we can do dirty jokes
But it aint gunna happen sweety.

Me
Next week come over at my house and we'll watch some movie together

Her
No

Me
You forgot the dot after the No (; Hahaha! (some inside joke)

Her
K.


Me
Bu seriously, come over next week. Stop fooling around

Her
Dude. Promise me that you won't try anything and i will come
With other people

Me
Are you really that funny?

That was it. That got me.
Her
Dude what you want from me?!!! I DONT WANT TO DATE U. I DONT WANT TO SLEEP WITH YOU!! I AM INTO SOMEONE ELSE AND MY FEELINGS STOP WITH FRIENDSHIP! YOU ARE MY BRO! NOT MY HOE! So please try to stick that in your head and talk to me when you have calmed down. My eyes always look flirty. They are made like that. You know (guy's name) today?? Well it was the same with him. And I just stayed distant with him until he moves on and treats him like bro. And now we are best friends

Me
It was long before deciding! Don't be afraid to be honest with people HB C.
You're awesome HB C Seeya soon

Her
Deciding? What you talking about???
Im sorry hun. It was going too far

Me
Deciding that you didn't want to date me

Her
Dude. When did you have the idea that I wanted to date? Sorry if it looked that way.. Y you think I kept pushing you away?! It's awesome but yo. Ur my bro. Thats it thats all hunny. We can talk about anything! As bros... Im sorry ):
I feel so bad

Me
You're good at flirting, but it stops here! Don't feel bad
I actually feel great. Anyway, keep the awesomeness buddy, talk to you again soon!

Her
The worst is that I don't even try to flirt :$ except when its too obvious!

U dont feel great.

I was thinking about pick up, how I overcome my shyness and how I was going to become greater and greater. I still had a little sadness going on deep inside, because I knew that all I did with her didn't mean ****. I was thinking like : Hey, if all of this flirting that I though was fantastic didn't work out, well what's gonna work? I felt lost like, I didn't know what was going to work anymore. Was I going towards the good direction? Well, I know it doesn't matter if I go wrong along the way. As long as I decide and take action, this is what counts. I'm learning.
Me
Yeah I do, I've accomplished so much great

Her
..

Me
Haha

Her
Likeeer
*likee
Well just so u kno, ur a great dancer
And u make me happy
And a great pianist
And really funny

Me
Some inner developement stuff

Her
Ok... I think i kno what u mean.
Plz dont tell me now that uve accomplished getting through a heartbreak.

Me
No! Nothing dramatic haha
And thanks a lot, I appreciate your support.

Her
Oki then well btw dont forget u can tell me anything! Doesnt matter what it is!! Even if its constipation!! Lol i will never judge you. I promised to myself to never judge people, because you don't know all the whys and the hows so just just love them for who they are. And you are my amazing horny asian boy that i adore <3

Me
Don't try to give me an erection! And I moved on already
This is like the cutest message ever. You're so sweet, kind and hot but I don't feel like ****ing you anymore LOL. Stay the great lovely person you are, much love.

The end.
This is beautiful. I'm getting great at this. Doesn't matter the rejections. With every rejection, I'm moving forward to success. I won't ever stop, ever. I've came too far to give up, and I never will!

What's coming up next
Tomorrow, amusement park with feelx from the SP forum.
I will approach as hell, I promise. Man, the more pain I go through, the more I'm ready to take! Bring it on, I'm not afraid of you anymore. Haunt me anyday, anytime.
BRING IT ON. Doesn't matter if I feel ready or not. The best way out is always through.

 

[ohbe]

Holy **** dude! I was listening to this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-WT6qbT7xd0 and the whole thing was flowing like a story! It actually touched me so much how you can be so in your head and out there at the same time, how much you can enjoy the little things, stay drama free!! I can relate. All I wanna say is THANK YOU. You're getting there Yan!!

 

[LearningSlowly]

Whoa dude, you pushed HARD for that one. She was saying no as early as "no incest" and she got frustrated when you wouldn't drop it. But hey, no harm no foul, you got balls.

 

[Mindgamez]

ohbe, thanks a lot! It means a lot. I love to write and I try and make my reports as interesting as possible. I read it again while listening to the music and you're right. Support means a lot, and I promise to get there!

Learning, thanks a lot! Comments like these always encourage me, and my ultimate goal is to grow some huge balls so that's why I'm so proud right now.

 

[Mindgamez]

Wednesday, July 11th
I love to write. I relate music to my life a lot, let me show you.

So I woke up this morning at 10 AM,
Actually, my dad woke me up this morning. I had to wake up early to go open some bank account for my upcoming job. I was tired! But it wasn't a reason not to get up.
So I went back home after that, and I got prepared to go to the amusement park. I was feeling alright, like the other days.
I was about to leave the house, but then I was thinking in my head : What if other people I know see me around picking up girls? What are they going to think? I've seen many people I knew at the amusement park before. Also, I'm going with feelx and they'll be wondering what I'm doing with a 23 year old dude.
I entered the wrong 4 digits on the security system of the house.
Nah man! How can you experience the fun fully when you worry about what other people think of you? It's your life, isn't it?
I entered the right code this time, and I left the house.
Bike ride until the bus!

1:20 PM
In the bus, I pull off my iPod.
The song is called
Quittance.

So when I arrive at the meeting point, feelx texts me to tell me that he'll be late.
Doesn't matter. I listened to some Blueprint Decoded by RSD. It remembered me how you have to enjoy every little things in life.
It's about feeling good no matter what, anytime, and it comes solely from within. No external factors.
I'm happy to be alive!
Sitting at the bench, I was looking at the kids having fun near the fountain. As we get older, we learn to be more preoccupied by things and we don't enjoy the moment.
Kids have fun no matter what. They are careless!
It was such a beautiful day. The sun was shining, pitch blue sky.

2:50 PM
Feelx arrived a little later than I expected, but it didn't bother me as much. He's a chill guy, pretty cool.
So we started off walking around, doing roller coasters and not really caring about approaching.
Procrastination was in us. Let's admit it.
So I told him that after that roller coaster, I was going to approach.
So we walked around a bit, I saw the girl. I hesitated! And I didn't go.
And again.
And again.
And again.
And again.

1:20 PM, decided to check out the lyrics a bit
1:31
This is not the road leading to fullness.
This is not what I wanted to reach.
This is not the place I belong to.
This is not where I was supposed to land.
This is not the aim of this routine.
This is not why I did build this.
This is not a conclusion.
This is not who I was meant to be.
That's right. I was never meant to be weak. I kept thinking.


6:00 PM
So me and feelx went back to doing some roller coasters again.
I kept telling myself and him that I wasn't feeling this, that I wasn't ready for the approach. I wasn't in state at ALL.
I kept beating myself up for not approaching. It's been 3 hours, zero approaches.
Truth is, I was terrified of groups. Girls were always in groups.

1:20 PM
3:35
Mislead into temptation.
This is not a denial, this is the true face of resentment.

6:10 PM
So I tell feelx that I have to call down first.
So I simply close my eyes. He was still talking to me at some point, but I almost ignored him because I was too focused on my breathing.
So I emptied my mind. Meditation.

1:20 PM
Limbo.
This is exactly what I love about this track. It's nothing at all.
My mind then went blank, because I had to free myself from the worries.
Time stayed still as it didn't matter to me.

6:12 PM
Alright feelx, let's get off that chair!
He was showing me some videos of epic roller coasters from Canada's Wonderland. I was jealous because he went there. Epic stuff.
Talking to him actually distracted me from today's objective. We had to APPROACH GIRLS.
I told him that if I don't approach at least 5 girls today, he has the right to punch me on both shoulders 10 times. He wanted to take the challenge too, so I had to punch him 10 times too on each shoulder.
My best tip I gave : Empty your mind, don't think about anything.

1:20 PM
This one is called
Plenitude.

7:00 PM
We just completed another good ride.
Feelx and me went to sit at some table to eat. I pulled off my sandwich and started eating it. I kept looking around for potential targets.
Then, these 3 girls came to a table next to ours, 10 feet away. All HB7s.
I looked at them, hesitated a bit, then I went :
Feelx! I must approach this set. I'll be totally proud of myself after approaching a set of many girls.
Alright Mindgamez. You'll approach them when you'll be done with your sandwich.
I then waited. I then finished my sandwich. I pull off some apple from my bag and start eating it.
Man! I could just approach them now. I have no excuses.
So a little while later, 2 other girls sit to the table. HB8s
At this point, I facepalm myself and laugh at myself.
Nooo! I can't approach 5 girls holy ****! That's too much! Feelx though that it was funny too.
So I waited.
Waited.
Waited.
Hesitated.
I finished my apple. I had nothing else to eat left. Feelx kicked me the knee to tell me to approach. The girls left the table. He kept kicking me.
I took my apple in my hand and crushed it into pieces. I was mad I'm not gonna lie!
Then a second later, I'm laughing at myself. Hey, at least the birds will have something to eat!
We stay sat down for a while. Then, we decide to bounce and I wash my hands near the fountain. There were no kids playing around at this time.

So we walk around a bit. I see that one girl sitting there by herself at the bench. We pass her. She looked alright.
After a while, I tell feelx that I want to approach her. She was alone, that's a good warmup! Isn't it?
So he goes on the phone, I then go and talk to her.
When I walk closer to her, I realize that she's actually pretty hot. Let's say HB8 solid.

Me : Hey, hey excuse me. Do you know where the Monster is? (roller coaster name)
Her : The Monster? I think it's this way.
Me : Actually, haha, I already know where it is. I just wanted to tell you that you're pretty cute.
She smiles. I was actually pretty nervous on that one. It's usually always like that on the first approach.
Me : What good roller coasters can I do? Which one have you done?
So we talk about roller coasters a bit. She seemed bored and stuff.
I eject and I tell her to have a nice day.

1:20 PM
3:30
No longer connected to the ground
The ultimate ascension is triggered
No longer obstructed from my condition
Everything is revealed

Around 7:30 PM
I saw these two girls running by themselves. I started jogging a little with the intention of following them, but I suddenly stopped.
Ah! I want to run with them a bit for the fun. Should I?
Feelx : Go!
So he pushes me a bit. I then run towards her, but close to them, I just stop and start walking. I look back at feelx, uncertain.
**** it, just go!
So I run to them, stop them from the front.

Me : Alright, I know this is very random, but I just though that you girls were really cute and I had to come meet you!
I had a huge smile on my face and I felt happy. My joy was contagious on this one.
We talk for a bit. I realized that they were from France so I make a statement about it. The prettiest asks me where I'm from, we talk for a bit. The other HB7 wasn't as receptive as the HB8.
I tell them that I really like their sexy French accent.
After 1-2 minutes of conversation and walking, I say to them to have a nice day!
And I eject.

1:20 PM
4:48
Last breath before air turns into...
Light.
That wonderful surge of good emotions, again. I take a deep breath and feel good.

Around 7:45 PM
We get in line for that wooden roller coaster. We wanted to get front row so we waited a little longer.
I see these 2 pretty girls next to me. One HB6.5 and the other HB8 solid. They seemed a little too young to me, so I didn't approach them. She was beautiful though!
So we waited a bit. I see this random guy with a Cradle of Filth cap (metal band name) and I say out loud : Cradle Of Filth!
He turns his head towards me and he smiles. We chat a bit. Man, I'm starting to like talking to random strangers!
So when it's our turn, we jump into the wagon. The girls are behind us. I turn my back to face them.
Me : Yeaah, it's going to be fun!
Them : Yeah
I'm not going to lie. I was a little out of state and I did that to put me in a good mood.
Feelx and me enjoyed the ride. It was a load of fun! The girls screamed pretty loud and it made me smile near the end. I turn to face them. I was feeling in total control this time.
Me : Yeaahh yeaahh, you girls scream very loud!
The prettiest one HB8 laughs and smiles. She turned HB8.5 at this point.
Me : Your boyfriend probably hate you for screaming like that!
LOL I was about to follow up with : in bed, but I was too ***** for that. It would've been very funny.
She looked at me awkwardly. I kept looking at them and I though that the awkwardness was hilarious. I laughed hysterically in my head.
When I stopped the eye contact to get back to feelx, I hear them giggling in the back.

 

[Mindgamez]

1:20 PM
5:46
The convergence of every challenges and disillusions
Spurs me beyond the very state of grace
A measureless momentum where matter and mind
Collapses together to commute into Plenitude.

Around 8:30 PM
We get in line for the last roller coaster of the day.
So in line, we talk a bit about pick up again. I suggest targets to feelx, but he hesitates. He did the same to me a lot, but I didn't feel like doing it also.
So we waited patiently. I was thrilled because we were going front line again.
So I ask this guy in front of us something, and then this pretty HB8 respond to the question. I didn't notice her until she started talking. She'd normally be HB7.5 but her smile and playfulness was attractive to me. HB8!
We were chatting a bit for a good while. It was all indirect normal stuff. I made a statement about them being Spanish, and I was right. We chatted more and more for a good while.
I though that the guy was her boyfriend, but I noticed that they were standing a little apart. I asked her if he was her brother, and no! It was her sister's boyfriend.
So she asks me stuff and questions, random fluff. She her hand a bit on my arm. I went in my head like : Ouuuh, that was nice.
So in the roller coaster, I tell them to close their mouths to not swallow flies on the way, because I did during the previous ride (LOL)
At the end, she laughs and she tells me that I have bugs in my hair. She brushes my hair off at bit.

11:00 PM
The bus ride back home was great. I knew that my progress was going better and better with every opportunity I took. I didn't do 5 approaches? Who cares. I did a long ass one and built a lot of connection I believe. The day ended very well.
This one is called
Finale.

Around 9:00 PM
On the way out, she escapes with the guy and I don't have time to tell my goodbyes. I then walk a little faster and faster.
Feelx told me that I should get her number. I was hesitant at first, because I wasn't used to starting indirect and transitioning to direct.
Walked a little faster and faster.
Holy shiit man damn!
I said that out loud. I looked around and realized that feelx was further behind. So I was yelling alone like a moron LOL.
I kept walking and walking. She was now with other girls and the guy. They were 4 in total.
NO EXCUSES, GO!
Me : Hey, I have a question. How do you say **** you in Spanish?
So I built it from here. It was funny at first and I learned some stuff.
The girl's sister was actually hotter than the girl. She started asking me multiple questions about why I wanted to learn that, where I was from, my origins, what school I was going at.
Then I admitted her that the girl was kind of cute. I wasn't going to game the sister because she had a boyfriend after all!
So I kept talking to them. She tells me that I have this intelligent look with my glasses.
I agree and tell them that asians are usually more on the nerdy type.
She disagrees and tell me that asians nowadays are more seductive!
Me : Well, of course, like me!
They both laugh. I then say that I was just joking around.
I tell my farewells after I shook hands and exchanged names with both. The HB8 girl from before was further ahead! We lost her.

Around 9:30
In the subway, I see them again, the family. HB8 waves playfully to me.
I then go and talk to them again. We talked for a long while! I guessed that they were all from the same family, except for the guy.
We laugh a bit, we talk. The sister tells me that her boyfriend was her customer.
Me : What? So you're a prostitute and he's the customer?
They all laugh and sister tells me that I'm such a perv for my age. I explain her that during teenage years we have a lot of hormones going on.
So sister ask me with who I was going to the park with. I mentioned my friend but she told me to go back to him because it sucks to leave him like that. I talked to them more a bit, because I had to close but I kept being hesitant.
I finally told the girl that she was very cute. I asked her for a date. She looked down and was playing with the guy's hair a bit.
Me : Hey, what do you think about you and me going on a date sometimes? You seem very cool!
Shyly smiles.
Me : Hey, look at me when you're talking to me, when I'm talking to you!
I put my finger under her chin. They all laugh, she giggles.
Her : Alright alright, okay!
She puts her arm on my shoulder, I slide my hand on her arm a bit. Our hands meet.
I give her my iPod and she enters her full name for facebook. I didn't close with a number, ahhh! Well too bad. I think that I have troubles closing when the girl is in a group.
I hug her before she leaves. I say my goodbyes.

1 minute later
What! We were taking the same subway haha!
So I introduce feelx to the people. We chat a bit more again.
So HB8 asked me where I was from, and I explained her how long it took me to come here, blabla.
I told them my story about me approaching some group of asian guys by screaming : ASIAN POWER! And how they responded by : Shut up, you're black. We laughed. LOL I'll always remember that anecdote. So funny. They agreed that I didn't look african at all. (by the way I love black people. RICKYBOY BULKYBRAH!)
I was disappointed that HB8 lived so far away from my home! So I though that maybe I shouldn't date her since she lives so damn far.
So we said our goodbyes. Told them that we should chill again sometimes maybe. They said okay and we left separate ways.

11:00 PM
This one's called
Mary.
I felt proud of my achievements!

What's coming up next
Going to the mall and on the streets tomorrow with some other guy from the SP forum.
I'm keeping the persistence.
And wow... I've never spent that long writing an FR before. I enjoy writing a lot.
Hope you enjoyed the read. Let me know.

 

[Mindgamez]

Friday, July 13th (Friday 13th!)
11 APPROACHES. I've never done as much in a day! And one of them, I did it ALONE. FINALLY!
I won't write about all of them, because my conversations are getting longer and longer and it's hard to remember it all. Also, most of my audios are in French so there's no point in posting them really.

So yesterday night,
I was talking on skype with Mail, :333, Tables, GreenNinja, (did I forget someone? If yes, sorry lol).
I realized that they all did their approaches without a wing, all learned by themselves. They though that it would be weird to approach with a wing. I was the complete opposite! I'd never approach by myself and I'd always wait for the day I can go approach with some dude to push me. On skype, they were like : Go Mindgamez! You can do it by yourself!
Which is totally true.

So I woke up this morning,
Not knowing if I was going to do some daygame or not. So my wing texts me and tells me that he won't come because he'll go to the casino instead. He cancelled 2 times already, like 2 hours before the meetup. Man... I can't always trust people from the internet.
So I text feelx and he's down for some daygame.
I tell him that I'll give him 20 bucks, and if I don't approach at least 8 sets, he can keep the money.
He tells me on chat that he will give me 100 bucks and if he doesn't approach 4 sets, I am allowed to keep the 100 bucks.

So I arrive a little earlier than I though. I wanted to start approaching alone, but I then had this sudden urge to go to the bathroom. When I'm nervous, happens sometimes LOL.
Then I meet up with feelx. I give him the 20 bucks, he gives me the 100.
So we start off *****ing out a lot, giving excuses. We just walk around in the streets, and I wasn't really feeling it today. I though like : Damn! I have to reach 8 approaches at least or he'll keep the 20 bucks.

Tourist
I there's this girl on the phone. HB7.5. I wait for her to finished and then I approach. Turns out that she's visiting the city and she's from the North. I made statements and told her that she looked from elsewhere. I called her up on her pretty accent. She explained me that she's a dancer, getting ready for her show that's coming up soon. She did most of the talking, which is cool. A tourist! It was pleasant to talk to her but I ejected.

My first 2 set of the day! I hesitate a bit, then feelx pushes me and I go. HB6 and HB7, looked pretty young.
I do the usual I though you were cute opener, and I try to immediately throw some statements to vary from the questions. I was nervous, because I didn't know what to say. I invented some ****!
Me : You look like a good girl. Are you more of a good girl or you're more on the hardcore side?
Her : Well... no I'm not really a good girl.
Me : Oh really? Tell me about it.
She gets a little shy.
Her : Well... I don't know XD
Me : Oh, hope that you don't smoke and stuff!
I though that this was a mistake. I was making her uncomfortable I believe.
Anyway, so we kept talking for a bit. Turns out that they were tourists! I eject and tell them to have a nice day.

A set of 2 girls. HB7.5s.
I was walking behind them, then I was next to them.
Me (loudly) : I know it's random!
They turn to face me. I cut a little in front of them.
Me : But I though that you guys were cute and I had to meet you.
I do the crossed hands handshake like Mail and shake both hands. We introduce ourselves.
Them :
Me : You guys are chinese, right?
Them : Noo
Me : Vietnamese!
Them : Yeaah!
Me : So you girls are my neighbours, I'm Cambodian.
Them : My boyfriend is Cambodian too.
Blabla, no flirting and I ask for what they were drinking. I then eject and tell them to have a nice day.

Another set of 2. HB7.5 and HB6.
I approached the same way.
Me : I know this is random, but I though that you girls were pretty cute and I had to come and say hi.
Them : Hello *giggles*
Me : My name's Mindgamez *crossed hands Mail style*
I get their names. I make a random statement.
Me : So you look like a good girl. Are you the kind of studious girl?
HB7.5 : Well... yeah I guess so *giggles*
I make a little more questions, ask for their age.
HB7.5 : Haha, do you really want to know?
Me : Yeah.
HB7.5 : he's 15, I'm 14!
Me : Oh really? Wow, you girls looked way older!
Blabla, we keep talking a bit and I eject. The prettiest girl is always the more receptive!

So feelx sees a 2 set for me, sitting in front of some store.
He points at them and I agree to go after some hesitation. One HB6 and one HB7.5. I didn't see their faces, so I walk a little further ahead, pretend to look up my cellphone and I subtly see their faces. I then go.
Me : I know this is pretty random, but I though that you guys were cute.
I felt really confident on this one. So we present ourselves, I do the crossed hands technique handshake by Mail.
Me : Before seeming like a pedo, can you guys tell me how old you are?
HB6 : 13
HB7.5 : 12
Me : No! That's not true!
HB7.5 : Yes it is.
Me : This can't be! Damn! You girls looked so much older!
HB7.5 : Well, yeah I'm really 12.
I started laughing at this point. It was pretty funny.
Me : Well, have a nice day girls! XD
HB7.5 : Alright bye!
Me : Oh, and I'm 16 so I'm not that much of a pedo (lied, I'm 17...)
I walk off and laugh my ass off when I tell what happened to feelx.
Later when I walk away, I turn around and I see both girls giggling. I made their day LOL.

So there was this other 2 set. HB8 and HB6.
Me (loudly) : I know this is random,
They look at me. I get a little nervous here for no reason.
Me : But I though that you guys were cute and I had to meet you.
Them : Ohhh thank you!
I was mainly looking at HB8. She was rolling eyes a bit, and kind of smiled.
Me : You are latina, aren't you?
HB8 : Hum yeah, half latina.
Me : Oh I like latinas, you probably like cambodians like me, right? *wink*
HB8 : Mhhhm.
Me : Hahahaha! Ahh... and you, you're latina too right?
HB6 : Moroccan-French.
Me : Moroccan-French Ohhh. Hey I have a friend that think he is French and is Moroccan!
HB6 : What? Blabla.
Me : That's fun.
HB8 : Alright it's good. We'll just continue shopping.
Me : Alright have a nice day.
I felt nervous the whole interaction, because the response wasn't so great. I have to hold a stronger frame and not be influenced by outcome.
When I walked away, I heard them laughing loud. That rejection putted me out of state and I felt a little bad.

So there's this one girl walking alone by herself. She walks a little fast.
I felt pretty confident and playful on this one!
Me : Hey! (from a little far away)
She looks at me but doesn't really stop, not even slow down.
Me : I know this is pretty random, but I though that you were cute and I had to come and say hi.
She walks away. I stand my ground, but I still moved a little away from her when she tried to continue walking.
Me : (screaming) You don't speak French?
She : Thank you, bye. Merci. (Thanks in French)
Walks away.
I smile and laugh a bit. I go back to feelx.
Me : Biitch! Biiitch! Loool! Wow she was such a *****!

So there's this girl handing out flyers outside. She seemed bored. HB8.
Me : What's that?
Her : It's for a concert.
Me : I don't want that actually. I just wanted to tell you that you're pretty cute!
Her : *giggles* Oh thank you!
We shake hands, exchange names. She didn't even squeeze my hand during the handshake.
Me : Hey, that's not how you do a handshake! Let's try it again!
We do it again.
Me : Ohhh that's better!
She laughs a bit.
Blabla, I learn about her origins, I tell her mine. I ask her what she's doing, I go blank a bit and a bit nervous on this one. I looked away and didn't do good eye contact.
Me : You know, you looked pretty bored so I though that I could come and make your day.
Giggles.
Me : Or your night! (YEAH I said it!)
She looks away awkwardly. I though that it was pretty funny.
We keep talking for a bit. She screams out her friend's name. It's another girl HB8. At this point, I started fearing a bit because maybe she was going to complain about me approaching her.
HOW CAN I ****ING TELL? Maybe it's nothing bad.
Me : Alright well, have a nice day.
I lift my hand up for a high five, she does the same but keeps her hand back a bit and does not even do the high five motion. I still do... lol.
The girl wants me to take a flyer because she has to give them all out before she's allowed to go home. I refuse and I tell them to throw it in a garbage. They laugh a bit.
Anyway, I still took one and I left.