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Such inspired writing.
Journal - Approaches on street, at mall, etc.
- Thread starter Mindgamez
- Start date
NDJ I'm starting to like writing these days. I try to tell my reports like stories and I try to make the reader feel what I feel. I always try to inspire people, even though this journal is mainly for me.
Thursday, June 21st
WOOOH CRAP. My progress is SKYROCKETING!
I feel so great... HIGH SCHOOL IS OVER FOR REAL MAN. I'm beginning a new chapter!
Summary :
I asked a girl for prom, she accepted. I didn't ask her number but one of my girl friends gave it to her. HB big boobs had my number too... she texted me tonight WTF? STALKER MUCH? Hahaha!
I went sarging with Rickyboy from Simple Pickup forum! I did 4 direct approaches that lasted more than a minute each. My last one, the best one, lasted for like 3-4 minutes but I forgot to record it! My other approaches will be down here.
I went to play some lazerquest with friends. Girls from high school dancing class and some other girl friends too. We were like 20 or so, and Laos was there too. She was so surprised I came, and she was SO damn happy like she'd never seen me in 2 years. But I decided to back off. My friend H who likes her doesn't deserve that.
Getting a Prom Gurl
So I started the day off, feeling pretty good but a little nervous at the same time. I was signing many year books and I gave mine to others so they could sign it. I asked many of my friends, and many girls too. At the end of the day, I wanted to go check for Laos, but I didn't find her anywhere. In the morning before the exam, I was too busy signing people's year books and it was a lot more important to me, so I didn't try to find her. Lockers were empty and nobody were near them, so I went to the little bistro near the lockers. My good old friends were there, and we signed each others year books. Everybody was in a very good happy and playful state. We hugged each other like crazy and we screamed like we never did before. There was this young HB7, probably a year younger than me or something, that was looking at me. I said hello to her and I approached her table. There was 2 other guys too that seemed chill. We chatted a bit, I told her that I graduated and I gave her a high five. She asked about where I was going, blabla. I ejected the conversation early while dancing towards my other friends. That was really funny, but maybe I shouldn't have escaped. Haha!
There was this table where an HB7.5 (girl I did massages to during my trip to Boston, let's call her HB massage) and HB big boobs were.
Me : Hey my pretty HB massage. You wanna sign my year book?
Her : Of course my beautiful Mindgamez.
Me : Ohhh, that's romantic I like that.
Her : Haha
Me : I'll sign yours because I know you really want to.
Me : By the way, don't take the whole page to write a love declaration or something!
Her : Awww, but that's what I was about to do!
Me : Alright but do it quick because I have to give my book to my other buddies too!
Blablabla, we chatted a bit, it was fun. Flirting back and forth and she was always laughing and smiling.
At the end, I extended my arms for an hug. She stood up from her chair and she gave me one. We massaged each other's backs and I took her right hand with my left hand right away, like we were dancing.
Me : Wanna dance?
Her : Haha! You want to dance with me at the prom?
Me : Yeah, why not! And we could practice now
I then fool around a little and move in circles.
Me : I don't really know how to dance, haha.
Her : Hahaha what are you doing? Seems like we're dancing the tango!
Blablalh, that was fun, and then she had to leave so I said goodbye. I liked feeling her boobs on my chest while dancing. The no masturbation challenge is making me more confident I swear, and hornier probably. It's been 10 days, and I'm going the full 90 days I'm not even kidding. I'm that motivated to change.
Also, talked to my buddy and he's totally down for pick up this summer. AWESOME!
So I left school and took the bus with N, my good friend of mine. Told him that I was going to do some pick up with some guy. He didn't want to come so I went there and met Rickyboy.
DIRECT APPROACHES! FEAT. RICKYBOY
Ricky's cool and fun to be around. I really enjoyed my time with him and I liked our conversations about girls and pick up. At first, we didn't really know how to start up. We were both anxious and wondering about who was going to go first. I actually pussied out a couple times, so he told me that he was going to go. He pussied out too haha! So we walked around the 2nd floor of the mall for a good while, going in circles and stuff. There was this HB8 girl working at a stand and she looked bored. Ricky wanted to go, so I encouraged him and motivated him! He wanted to wait for her to be finished with her 2 customers before going. A while later, she was free! So he walked towards her, then when he was close he came back XD We all do it sometimes... but we laugh at it at the end of the day and it's no big deal. So I told him that I was going. It was my first approach of the day! If she was 17-18, I would've number closed but she was 20 so I ejected.
Then, I did another one at the store. She was so damn boring. She NEVER smiled, or maybe once but it was forced and fake. It was when I told her she was cute. But I remembered my challenge to keep conversations longer, so I sat down next to her and talked. I ejected. Boring girl.
3rd approach, the asian girl was walking and we passed her. I told Ricky that I want to go, so I just ran back to her from the back. We talked for a while, but she had a boyfriend, and apparently no phone... lol.
4th approach was my best one yet! I conversed for like 3-4 minutes and I kept dealing with the tension and telling my intentions clearer. I don't remember all of it though. Also, she was with a girl friend. Girl I talked to was an good HB7.5, her friend HB6.
I walk towards her
Me : (in french) Hey! I know that this is pretty random, but I just wanted to tell you that you're pretty cute.
Her : Oh... thank you?
Me : Do you speak French? English?
Her : English
Me : Oh okay! What's your name?
Her : ____
Me : I'm Mindgamez
I don't remember what I said for a while
Me : You seem a little shy. You're probably not used to guys walking up to you like that and talking to you!
Her : Haha no
Me : Girls like it, even though they act like it's creepy, and it's just because they don't want to admit it.
Her : Why are you talking to me right now?
Me : Because I though that you were pretty cute, and I want to know you better!
Friend : *giggles* Ohhh XD
Me : Do you have a boyfriend?
Her : Yes.
Me : Ohhh, well I can be your second boyfriend!
Giggles.
Me : Well, he can have you on monday, I have you on tuesday, then he gets you on wednesday...
Her : *texts at her phone and ignores me*
Me : Hey! You aren't supposed to ignore me! I'm initiating a beautiful conversation with you and you have to participate.
Blabla, not much is said. She keeps saying no to what I propose.
Me : Give me a hug?
Her : *backs off* Nooo XD
I felt a little bad, so I just left and said bye. She said bye too.
Went back to Rickyboy, told him that it was my best approach so far!
I went to the wash room to drink some water. She came a minute later, so I waved at her again, saying Hello ___!
She looks at me weird like a *****, and stops right here.
Me : Why are you following me, are you a stalker?! *serious face*
She keeps looking at me weird.
Me : Haha, just kidding!
I go back and drink my water at the fountain. She keeps looking at me weird then she goes to the toilet.
She wasn't very open to me, and I didn't appreciate how she looked at me weird. Whatever, some girls are weird. Truth is this was my best approach and I had the best confidence because I built it from momentum.
HERE ARE THE APPROACHES :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LT72HXaPqvA
Lazerquest fun!
I took the bus from N's house and I was feeling kind of nervous. My girl friend told me that 24 people will be there, mostly girls from dance class and music class. I probably didn't know them that much. But actually, when I arrived there, I knew almost all of them so I felt more relaxed. I had no reason to be anxious, and why not meet new people anyway? It's because it's old people from my high school that it feels different.
When Laos saw me, her face lit up automatically. Oh, and she looked hot today. Her ass was great in those mini shorts, or it's just my No MB challenge that is making me horny. She was so happy like she'd never seen me in years. Maybe she though that she would never see me again after high school or something. After that, she was getting in closer proximity to me, playing a lot with her hair and facing me. I resisted to flirt with her. My friend H likes her and he's going to prom with her, so there's no way I'm stealing his girl. It's still sad how their relationship is very simple friendship and nothing more... No physical contact, nothing. Whatever, bros before hoes.
I talked to some ugly chicks, and tried to make the conversation awkward with letting as many awkward silences as possible. It was funny and they were feeling awkward, but I was feeling comfortable anyway. I'm starting to like awkwardness! It's funny as hell. Talked to all my other friends and made friends with that cool dude. He wanted all of us to go chill together after the game, but it was too late so nobody did. He said that we will do more of these during the summer and have fun. My social circle is getting bigger and better. This is great!
That's pretty much it.
Tomorrow is PROM.
Which means it's time to HAVE FUN AS HELL. Man, I wonder if I can dance with more than one girl. Would that be acceptable?
I'll also go to an after-prom party, and dance until I collapse.
Then, I'll go camping at that girl's house (backyard, haha). There will be 10-15 people, cool people!
Thursday, June 21st
WOOOH CRAP. My progress is SKYROCKETING!
I feel so great... HIGH SCHOOL IS OVER FOR REAL MAN. I'm beginning a new chapter!
Summary :
I asked a girl for prom, she accepted. I didn't ask her number but one of my girl friends gave it to her. HB big boobs had my number too... she texted me tonight WTF? STALKER MUCH? Hahaha!
I went sarging with Rickyboy from Simple Pickup forum! I did 4 direct approaches that lasted more than a minute each. My last one, the best one, lasted for like 3-4 minutes but I forgot to record it! My other approaches will be down here.
I went to play some lazerquest with friends. Girls from high school dancing class and some other girl friends too. We were like 20 or so, and Laos was there too. She was so surprised I came, and she was SO damn happy like she'd never seen me in 2 years. But I decided to back off. My friend H who likes her doesn't deserve that.
Getting a Prom Gurl
So I started the day off, feeling pretty good but a little nervous at the same time. I was signing many year books and I gave mine to others so they could sign it. I asked many of my friends, and many girls too. At the end of the day, I wanted to go check for Laos, but I didn't find her anywhere. In the morning before the exam, I was too busy signing people's year books and it was a lot more important to me, so I didn't try to find her. Lockers were empty and nobody were near them, so I went to the little bistro near the lockers. My good old friends were there, and we signed each others year books. Everybody was in a very good happy and playful state. We hugged each other like crazy and we screamed like we never did before. There was this young HB7, probably a year younger than me or something, that was looking at me. I said hello to her and I approached her table. There was 2 other guys too that seemed chill. We chatted a bit, I told her that I graduated and I gave her a high five. She asked about where I was going, blabla. I ejected the conversation early while dancing towards my other friends. That was really funny, but maybe I shouldn't have escaped. Haha!
There was this table where an HB7.5 (girl I did massages to during my trip to Boston, let's call her HB massage) and HB big boobs were.
Me : Hey my pretty HB massage. You wanna sign my year book?
Her : Of course my beautiful Mindgamez.
Me : Ohhh, that's romantic I like that.
Her : Haha
Me : I'll sign yours because I know you really want to.
Me : By the way, don't take the whole page to write a love declaration or something!
Her : Awww, but that's what I was about to do!
Me : Alright but do it quick because I have to give my book to my other buddies too!
Blablabla, we chatted a bit, it was fun. Flirting back and forth and she was always laughing and smiling.
At the end, I extended my arms for an hug. She stood up from her chair and she gave me one. We massaged each other's backs and I took her right hand with my left hand right away, like we were dancing.
Me : Wanna dance?
Her : Haha! You want to dance with me at the prom?
Me : Yeah, why not! And we could practice now
I then fool around a little and move in circles.
Me : I don't really know how to dance, haha.
Her : Hahaha what are you doing? Seems like we're dancing the tango!
Blablalh, that was fun, and then she had to leave so I said goodbye. I liked feeling her boobs on my chest while dancing. The no masturbation challenge is making me more confident I swear, and hornier probably. It's been 10 days, and I'm going the full 90 days I'm not even kidding. I'm that motivated to change.
Also, talked to my buddy and he's totally down for pick up this summer. AWESOME!
So I left school and took the bus with N, my good friend of mine. Told him that I was going to do some pick up with some guy. He didn't want to come so I went there and met Rickyboy.
DIRECT APPROACHES! FEAT. RICKYBOY
Ricky's cool and fun to be around. I really enjoyed my time with him and I liked our conversations about girls and pick up. At first, we didn't really know how to start up. We were both anxious and wondering about who was going to go first. I actually pussied out a couple times, so he told me that he was going to go. He pussied out too haha! So we walked around the 2nd floor of the mall for a good while, going in circles and stuff. There was this HB8 girl working at a stand and she looked bored. Ricky wanted to go, so I encouraged him and motivated him! He wanted to wait for her to be finished with her 2 customers before going. A while later, she was free! So he walked towards her, then when he was close he came back XD We all do it sometimes... but we laugh at it at the end of the day and it's no big deal. So I told him that I was going. It was my first approach of the day! If she was 17-18, I would've number closed but she was 20 so I ejected.
Then, I did another one at the store. She was so damn boring. She NEVER smiled, or maybe once but it was forced and fake. It was when I told her she was cute. But I remembered my challenge to keep conversations longer, so I sat down next to her and talked. I ejected. Boring girl.
3rd approach, the asian girl was walking and we passed her. I told Ricky that I want to go, so I just ran back to her from the back. We talked for a while, but she had a boyfriend, and apparently no phone... lol.
4th approach was my best one yet! I conversed for like 3-4 minutes and I kept dealing with the tension and telling my intentions clearer. I don't remember all of it though. Also, she was with a girl friend. Girl I talked to was an good HB7.5, her friend HB6.
I walk towards her
Me : (in french) Hey! I know that this is pretty random, but I just wanted to tell you that you're pretty cute.
Her : Oh... thank you?
Me : Do you speak French? English?
Her : English
Me : Oh okay! What's your name?
Her : ____
Me : I'm Mindgamez
I don't remember what I said for a while
Me : You seem a little shy. You're probably not used to guys walking up to you like that and talking to you!
Her : Haha no
Me : Girls like it, even though they act like it's creepy, and it's just because they don't want to admit it.
Her : Why are you talking to me right now?
Me : Because I though that you were pretty cute, and I want to know you better!
Friend : *giggles* Ohhh XD
Me : Do you have a boyfriend?
Her : Yes.
Me : Ohhh, well I can be your second boyfriend!
Giggles.
Me : Well, he can have you on monday, I have you on tuesday, then he gets you on wednesday...
Her : *texts at her phone and ignores me*
Me : Hey! You aren't supposed to ignore me! I'm initiating a beautiful conversation with you and you have to participate.
Blabla, not much is said. She keeps saying no to what I propose.
Me : Give me a hug?
Her : *backs off* Nooo XD
I felt a little bad, so I just left and said bye. She said bye too.
Went back to Rickyboy, told him that it was my best approach so far!
I went to the wash room to drink some water. She came a minute later, so I waved at her again, saying Hello ___!
She looks at me weird like a *****, and stops right here.
Me : Why are you following me, are you a stalker?! *serious face*
She keeps looking at me weird.
Me : Haha, just kidding!
I go back and drink my water at the fountain. She keeps looking at me weird then she goes to the toilet.
She wasn't very open to me, and I didn't appreciate how she looked at me weird. Whatever, some girls are weird. Truth is this was my best approach and I had the best confidence because I built it from momentum.
HERE ARE THE APPROACHES :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LT72HXaPqvA
Lazerquest fun!
I took the bus from N's house and I was feeling kind of nervous. My girl friend told me that 24 people will be there, mostly girls from dance class and music class. I probably didn't know them that much. But actually, when I arrived there, I knew almost all of them so I felt more relaxed. I had no reason to be anxious, and why not meet new people anyway? It's because it's old people from my high school that it feels different.
When Laos saw me, her face lit up automatically. Oh, and she looked hot today. Her ass was great in those mini shorts, or it's just my No MB challenge that is making me horny. She was so happy like she'd never seen me in years. Maybe she though that she would never see me again after high school or something. After that, she was getting in closer proximity to me, playing a lot with her hair and facing me. I resisted to flirt with her. My friend H likes her and he's going to prom with her, so there's no way I'm stealing his girl. It's still sad how their relationship is very simple friendship and nothing more... No physical contact, nothing. Whatever, bros before hoes.
I talked to some ugly chicks, and tried to make the conversation awkward with letting as many awkward silences as possible. It was funny and they were feeling awkward, but I was feeling comfortable anyway. I'm starting to like awkwardness! It's funny as hell. Talked to all my other friends and made friends with that cool dude. He wanted all of us to go chill together after the game, but it was too late so nobody did. He said that we will do more of these during the summer and have fun. My social circle is getting bigger and better. This is great!
That's pretty much it.
Tomorrow is PROM.
Which means it's time to HAVE FUN AS HELL. Man, I wonder if I can dance with more than one girl. Would that be acceptable?
I'll also go to an after-prom party, and dance until I collapse.
Then, I'll go camping at that girl's house (backyard, haha). There will be 10-15 people, cool people!
LearningSlowly
Master Don Juan
YOU RECORDED THEM!! Whoa that was weird to listen to, like it was someone's private experience. You got a manly voice.
Sometimes when your mind goes blank, just go quiet and make eye contact, instead of saying how nervous you are. She'll try to fill in the conversation, or try to leave, but anytime she does this, just stop her and say "Before you go, I need to learn something about you, so I remember who you are."
Hopefully she'll start talking about something important to her, and those conversations are easy. Or she'll say something lame, and you say "No! Something important!"
Sometimes when your mind goes blank, just go quiet and make eye contact, instead of saying how nervous you are. She'll try to fill in the conversation, or try to leave, but anytime she does this, just stop her and say "Before you go, I need to learn something about you, so I remember who you are."
Hopefully she'll start talking about something important to her, and those conversations are easy. Or she'll say something lame, and you say "No! Something important!"
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For me, once I hit day five, its easy past that point.Nite said:
However, I find it doesn't make a difference in my game or motivation really. The first time I tried no MB, I thought it did, but quickly learned it was all in my head. Whatever you do, don't start using it as an excuse for not doing something like approaching.
All guys, thanks a lot for all the support!
By the way, I pitch shifted my voice on the video because I'm paranoid that my friends might find me here... lol. I don't know why I should be.
Yeah Learning, but I said I was nervous because I want to learn to be comfortable with my nervousness. It's a good tip though, might try saying that!
By the way, I pitch shifted my voice on the video because I'm paranoid that my friends might find me here... lol. I don't know why I should be.
Yeah Learning, but I said I was nervous because I want to learn to be comfortable with my nervousness. It's a good tip though, might try saying that!
Saturday, June 23rd
PROM + AFTER-PROM PARTY + AFTER-AFTER PROM.
HUGE PROGRESS, let me report!
Summary
At prom, I danced with HB Massage pretty close, didn't kiss-close her or anything though. I wasn't feeling interested enough!
At after-prom party, I grinded 5 different girls. One started rubbing herself on me, so I continued. The 4 other ones, I was the one to approach. In my 5 attempts at grinding, only one really rejected me, and it was playfully. Nothing harsh, and most of them weren't even drunk!
Then, I went to that girl's house to do some camping in her backyard. We chatted a bit and I made friends with the guys and girls. Flirted a little with the girl I grinded. Today, we went to my neighbour's house (friend of mine) to swim in the pool. We had cool fun, and I made good friends with the girls and guys! The 2 I grinded want to come at my house someday, and this is great. I don't intend on getting them in my pants though.
And (This is a HUGE one) my oneitis for HB Laos is gone. Really gone! Maybe there's a little interest remaining, but it's practically gone. This is a great thing, because I'm going into abundance mindset.
PROM
The day before, stayed until 3 AM to write my Field Report about the day. Woke up at 1:30 PM yesterday. I decided to work on my hairstyle, so I used some hairwax and a hair straightener to do straight hair spikes. It looked alright I though, but my guy friend N told me it was good. I was kind of feeling anxious at this moment.
When we arrived, I was self-conscious. I knew that it was a great day, an important day and I didn't want to screw up with people and I wanted to give a good lasting impression to them. HB Massage and HB big boobs walked by and I said hi to them, telling them they looked beautiful. When my parents are there, I always feel awkward flirting with girls, so I just continue walking with them haha. I then talked to a whole bunch of my guy friends and girl friends. I got complimented on my hairstyle and it gave me a little boost in confidence.
I complimented many girls on their beautiful looks. HB6s turned into HB7s and HB7s into HB8s! All girls, at after-prom too.
I then saw Laos, she looked sexy with her open back. Chatted a bit and took pictures with the girls. My oneitis for Laos was still here at this point. I then saw that friend HB7.5 (let's call her HB Ballet). I asked her if she was dancing with someone today, and she said no so I proposed to dance with her. She was cool with that, but I didn't find her later during the night! I met again her at the After-Prom party though.
We then had to sit at our assigned tables. Lol, we were an all-guys table haha. None of my friends had prom dates! I evolved so much compared to them. They aren't willing to change, sadly.
Between the different servings, we were invited to come on the dance floor to dance. It was mostly the party type of dancing. The guys created a swiffer (circle in the center where dancers decide to show-off their skills one by one) and people danced. I was feeling kind of nervous at first, but then that girl (Let's call her HB Grinder, you'll see why later) encouraged me to go. I went at the center and started shuffling, c-walking, breakdance. People cheered me and I wasn't feeling that nervous after all. I was completely enjoying the moment and having fun. Boost of confidence! The popular guys applauded for me as I left the circle. Sometimes, people pushed me at the center so I had no choice but to dance haha!
During the slow dance part, I had to find HB Massage. I looked everywhere in the hotel and I didn't find her at all. I then went to the dance floor and I saw her dancing playfully with her other friends. I pulled her from her circle of friends and we started dancing to very close proximity. I could've kissed her easily, but I wasn't feeling attracted enough. Seriously, I'm starting to get standards these days, I changed. Though, during the dance I didn't really know what to tell her and was a little self-conscious. Asked her if she danced with a guy before, etc, it didn't last long, like 2-3 minutes and it was over. I left and said my goodbyes and went back to my buddies.
To me, saying my goodbyes to my high school friends was way more important than flirting with HB Massage. She's a 7.5 though, which is pretty good. Prom finished, and I got ready for the After-Prom party.
EPIC PROGRESS.
THE AFTER-PROM PARTY!
For the occasion, I had my light up shirt that would light up to the beat of the music. Very cool, and it draws a lot of attention!
Arrived among the first ones, and there was nobody on the dance floor yet. Me, N and some buddies went back outside and we met with HB Blonde, a hot friend and her muscled dude. She invited him to go to prom with her, but he hardly talked to the hot friend or touched her, even though he was pretty good looking and had great body language. We went to eat some ice cream, and we had fun making sexual jokes about sucking soft ones (soft ice cream).
After an hour or so, the dance floor was full of people. I started dancing with HB Blonde, the hot girl, the muscled dude and the other buddies at first. They were kind of dancing apart from the mass of people, so I ejected and danced with the people. The popular guys welcomed me well and it was cool. At first, I was kind of dancing close to the girls, but not getting into close contact yet. I was a little anxious about doing it. I went back into my head and though about it for a while.
SCHOOL IS ****ING FINISHED! No more *****ing out, no more chodiness. I am beginning a new chapter in my life. I'm becoming the real me, I'm the ****ing boss and no one will stop me from achieving my goals.
I went into the middle and did my dance moves. People cheered for me and commented on my shirt they though was awesome.
I danced closer and closer to the girls, not directly grinding them though. Then, this girl (HB Grindy) literally started rubbing herself on my crotch. I wasn't feeling horny, but I still enjoyed it and had fun. I was feeling confident and in the moment. It was great. I was the one to escape first though, because it was my friend's target. It gave me a great boost of confidence!
Then, I went back to dancing with HB Ballet and HB Blondy (another hot girl, HB7.5). HB Ballet called me to come join them so I did. I danced closer and closer to her. I said, **** IT! Enjoy yourself man, high school's ****ing over! I went closer and closer, grabbed her back and started rubbing my crotch on her. Grindinnnggg! Had no erection though, but I felt horny anyway. I couldn't understand why, even though I had ****ing 12 days of NO Masturbation. I enjoyed it, but I was a little self-conscious too. Didn't know how to end this and move things further. I just escaped and went back to dancing.
HB Blonde's hot friend (let's call her HB Gab) was still dancing with the same group of friends. The dude was here, but standing further apart from us. I though like, why the **** wouldn't he do a move on her? He got invited + he's very good looking. So I started dancing closer to her. We locked eye contact, she smiled, I got closer and we were touching. I wrapped my arms around her back. Grindddinnnggg! It was cool, and this one felt more exciting. She laid her head on my shoulder as we *danced*. When I came dancing next to her again during that night, she was getting closer to me, with her hot smile. It was pretty cool.
HB Grindy called me to come dance with her, she even tried to pull me by the arm but I backed off immediately. They were already like 4 people grinding, so I joined from the back and grinded that girl I never really talked to. She just continued but didn't really look at me. I think that she was repulsed. When I ejected, she immediately walked away to see her buddies haha.
I felt weird talking to the girls I grinded with afterwards. Didn't know what to tell them. My dance floor game was getting pretty good, but I didn't know how to transition to the usual talking. I usually went like : So, you enjoyed dancing with me? Blabla, You liked it! etc. Then I'd just talk to them normally like before. I couldn't escalate the flirting really, seriously. It was hard to do for some reason. Like, I couldn't keep up with my amount of physical flirtyness on the dance floor once outside! Since I love dancing, it felt easier for me to approach while dancing.
I went back to HB Ballet, grinded her a bit, held her hand. She then rejected me kindly with a no, and I ejected. I didn't feel bad about the rejection, because I was in an abundance mindset! That was great.
Laos arrived and I danced a bit close to her. One itis was so much lower at this point. I had no intention to grind her, because H wants her after all. I still had fun with their buddies. I ejected.
I saw HB Blondy. She was dancing pretty close to me already, so I decided to come closer. Grindinng! As I started to rub her, she did the same. I felt hornier and started to have an erection, because she was going harder than the other girls. It was hot, but I felt attraction, not feelings for her. Realized that this is pretty much the same feeling I should be getting for Laos and nothing more. Anyway, the dancing with Blondy was pretty fun, but I didn't pursue things further.
I went back to Laos's friends and I approached that cute girl. I took her by the shoulders and brought her closer to me. She smiled and she pushed me away kindly. She refused the offer, so I just continued dancing normally. I wasn't affected at all! I felt like a boss for trying anyway.
The party ended, and I went to that girl's house to do some camping. Just before leaving, I hugged my guy and girl friends, shook hands, and said my last goodbyes to them.
PROM + AFTER-PROM PARTY + AFTER-AFTER PROM.
HUGE PROGRESS, let me report!
Summary
At prom, I danced with HB Massage pretty close, didn't kiss-close her or anything though. I wasn't feeling interested enough!
At after-prom party, I grinded 5 different girls. One started rubbing herself on me, so I continued. The 4 other ones, I was the one to approach. In my 5 attempts at grinding, only one really rejected me, and it was playfully. Nothing harsh, and most of them weren't even drunk!
Then, I went to that girl's house to do some camping in her backyard. We chatted a bit and I made friends with the guys and girls. Flirted a little with the girl I grinded. Today, we went to my neighbour's house (friend of mine) to swim in the pool. We had cool fun, and I made good friends with the girls and guys! The 2 I grinded want to come at my house someday, and this is great. I don't intend on getting them in my pants though.
And (This is a HUGE one) my oneitis for HB Laos is gone. Really gone! Maybe there's a little interest remaining, but it's practically gone. This is a great thing, because I'm going into abundance mindset.
PROM
The day before, stayed until 3 AM to write my Field Report about the day. Woke up at 1:30 PM yesterday. I decided to work on my hairstyle, so I used some hairwax and a hair straightener to do straight hair spikes. It looked alright I though, but my guy friend N told me it was good. I was kind of feeling anxious at this moment.
When we arrived, I was self-conscious. I knew that it was a great day, an important day and I didn't want to screw up with people and I wanted to give a good lasting impression to them. HB Massage and HB big boobs walked by and I said hi to them, telling them they looked beautiful. When my parents are there, I always feel awkward flirting with girls, so I just continue walking with them haha. I then talked to a whole bunch of my guy friends and girl friends. I got complimented on my hairstyle and it gave me a little boost in confidence.
I complimented many girls on their beautiful looks. HB6s turned into HB7s and HB7s into HB8s! All girls, at after-prom too.
I then saw Laos, she looked sexy with her open back. Chatted a bit and took pictures with the girls. My oneitis for Laos was still here at this point. I then saw that friend HB7.5 (let's call her HB Ballet). I asked her if she was dancing with someone today, and she said no so I proposed to dance with her. She was cool with that, but I didn't find her later during the night! I met again her at the After-Prom party though.
We then had to sit at our assigned tables. Lol, we were an all-guys table haha. None of my friends had prom dates! I evolved so much compared to them. They aren't willing to change, sadly.
Between the different servings, we were invited to come on the dance floor to dance. It was mostly the party type of dancing. The guys created a swiffer (circle in the center where dancers decide to show-off their skills one by one) and people danced. I was feeling kind of nervous at first, but then that girl (Let's call her HB Grinder, you'll see why later) encouraged me to go. I went at the center and started shuffling, c-walking, breakdance. People cheered me and I wasn't feeling that nervous after all. I was completely enjoying the moment and having fun. Boost of confidence! The popular guys applauded for me as I left the circle. Sometimes, people pushed me at the center so I had no choice but to dance haha!
During the slow dance part, I had to find HB Massage. I looked everywhere in the hotel and I didn't find her at all. I then went to the dance floor and I saw her dancing playfully with her other friends. I pulled her from her circle of friends and we started dancing to very close proximity. I could've kissed her easily, but I wasn't feeling attracted enough. Seriously, I'm starting to get standards these days, I changed. Though, during the dance I didn't really know what to tell her and was a little self-conscious. Asked her if she danced with a guy before, etc, it didn't last long, like 2-3 minutes and it was over. I left and said my goodbyes and went back to my buddies.
To me, saying my goodbyes to my high school friends was way more important than flirting with HB Massage. She's a 7.5 though, which is pretty good. Prom finished, and I got ready for the After-Prom party.
EPIC PROGRESS.
THE AFTER-PROM PARTY!
For the occasion, I had my light up shirt that would light up to the beat of the music. Very cool, and it draws a lot of attention!
Arrived among the first ones, and there was nobody on the dance floor yet. Me, N and some buddies went back outside and we met with HB Blonde, a hot friend and her muscled dude. She invited him to go to prom with her, but he hardly talked to the hot friend or touched her, even though he was pretty good looking and had great body language. We went to eat some ice cream, and we had fun making sexual jokes about sucking soft ones (soft ice cream).
After an hour or so, the dance floor was full of people. I started dancing with HB Blonde, the hot girl, the muscled dude and the other buddies at first. They were kind of dancing apart from the mass of people, so I ejected and danced with the people. The popular guys welcomed me well and it was cool. At first, I was kind of dancing close to the girls, but not getting into close contact yet. I was a little anxious about doing it. I went back into my head and though about it for a while.
SCHOOL IS ****ING FINISHED! No more *****ing out, no more chodiness. I am beginning a new chapter in my life. I'm becoming the real me, I'm the ****ing boss and no one will stop me from achieving my goals.
I went into the middle and did my dance moves. People cheered for me and commented on my shirt they though was awesome.
I danced closer and closer to the girls, not directly grinding them though. Then, this girl (HB Grindy) literally started rubbing herself on my crotch. I wasn't feeling horny, but I still enjoyed it and had fun. I was feeling confident and in the moment. It was great. I was the one to escape first though, because it was my friend's target. It gave me a great boost of confidence!
Then, I went back to dancing with HB Ballet and HB Blondy (another hot girl, HB7.5). HB Ballet called me to come join them so I did. I danced closer and closer to her. I said, **** IT! Enjoy yourself man, high school's ****ing over! I went closer and closer, grabbed her back and started rubbing my crotch on her. Grindinnnggg! Had no erection though, but I felt horny anyway. I couldn't understand why, even though I had ****ing 12 days of NO Masturbation. I enjoyed it, but I was a little self-conscious too. Didn't know how to end this and move things further. I just escaped and went back to dancing.
HB Blonde's hot friend (let's call her HB Gab) was still dancing with the same group of friends. The dude was here, but standing further apart from us. I though like, why the **** wouldn't he do a move on her? He got invited + he's very good looking. So I started dancing closer to her. We locked eye contact, she smiled, I got closer and we were touching. I wrapped my arms around her back. Grindddinnnggg! It was cool, and this one felt more exciting. She laid her head on my shoulder as we *danced*. When I came dancing next to her again during that night, she was getting closer to me, with her hot smile. It was pretty cool.
HB Grindy called me to come dance with her, she even tried to pull me by the arm but I backed off immediately. They were already like 4 people grinding, so I joined from the back and grinded that girl I never really talked to. She just continued but didn't really look at me. I think that she was repulsed. When I ejected, she immediately walked away to see her buddies haha.
I felt weird talking to the girls I grinded with afterwards. Didn't know what to tell them. My dance floor game was getting pretty good, but I didn't know how to transition to the usual talking. I usually went like : So, you enjoyed dancing with me? Blabla, You liked it! etc. Then I'd just talk to them normally like before. I couldn't escalate the flirting really, seriously. It was hard to do for some reason. Like, I couldn't keep up with my amount of physical flirtyness on the dance floor once outside! Since I love dancing, it felt easier for me to approach while dancing.
I went back to HB Ballet, grinded her a bit, held her hand. She then rejected me kindly with a no, and I ejected. I didn't feel bad about the rejection, because I was in an abundance mindset! That was great.
Laos arrived and I danced a bit close to her. One itis was so much lower at this point. I had no intention to grind her, because H wants her after all. I still had fun with their buddies. I ejected.
I saw HB Blondy. She was dancing pretty close to me already, so I decided to come closer. Grindinng! As I started to rub her, she did the same. I felt hornier and started to have an erection, because she was going harder than the other girls. It was hot, but I felt attraction, not feelings for her. Realized that this is pretty much the same feeling I should be getting for Laos and nothing more. Anyway, the dancing with Blondy was pretty fun, but I didn't pursue things further.
I went back to Laos's friends and I approached that cute girl. I took her by the shoulders and brought her closer to me. She smiled and she pushed me away kindly. She refused the offer, so I just continued dancing normally. I wasn't affected at all! I felt like a boss for trying anyway.
The party ended, and I went to that girl's house to do some camping. Just before leaving, I hugged my guy and girl friends, shook hands, and said my last goodbyes to them.
The After-After Prom!
When we arrived, we chatted a bit in the tent with everyone. There was HB Ballet, HB Blondy, the girl that invited us and her boyfriend, a guy and her girlfriend, and my 2 guy friends. Told them that I snore when I sleep, so they didn't want me to sleep in the same tent with them haha. We chatted a bit, flirted with HB Ballet a bit. She was stretching.
Her : Hey I have to stretch, but I can't really do it with that top!
Me : Don't worry, nobody will be watching, except me (;
Her : *giggles*
Friend : Ohh man, you're so wack XD
Her : Oh no, my Victoria's Secret bag is broken!
Me : Victoria's Secret is my favorite shop (it's a girl's underwear shop)
Her : *laughs* What, you like to buy g-strings and stuff?
Me : Yeah, totally.
Her : *laughs* Oh cool, G-strings and this kind of underwear is my fetish.
I then smiled kind of in a horny way. Don't remember the conversation afterwards but it was flirty.
The next morning, I wasn't really feeling in state. I was back to my old self, because when it's a new day I always feel like I have to start all over again and build momentum. I was still social.
HB ballet : Hey, we should go swimming!
Me : Yeah, but I don't have a bathing suit. You want me to go swimming in underwear?
HB Ballet : Yeah! Why not?
I smiled
HB Blondy : If you strip and you just keep your panties and your bra, it's the same as a bikini.
Fun convo.
(BTW, all conversations are transcribed approximately but are still pretty accurate)
So we went swimming at my neighbour's house and I became more and more friends with them. I don't intend on getting one of them as my girlfriend for now, because they became good friends. They are HB7, 7.5. I asked them if they wanted to come to my birthday party in two weeks, and they are pretty down, especially HB Blondy. That's cool!
What's coming up next!
Tonight, there will be a big party with the whole Island where people from all ages will be watching fireworks, dancing, etc. It's a celebration for the province of Quebec and it's pride. Pretty cool! I'll be going with a friend of mine and the girl that hosted the camping with her boyfriend. Cool people! I will probably meet many old friends from my primary school and stuff, and I plan on approaching. This will be great. I'm not really feeling in state right now and feeling kind of tired from lack of sleep and stomach aches, but I will hopefully feel better tonight.
Conclusion
Wow. Hahaha, I never grinded that many girls in my whole life! I felt so much more comfortable physically and talking to close proximity to girls. My one itis was gone as I switched to abundance mindset. This was the MOST memorable birthday ever, by far. OH! And I will celebrate my birthday in two weeks and I plan on inviting loads of friends.
YES.
When we arrived, we chatted a bit in the tent with everyone. There was HB Ballet, HB Blondy, the girl that invited us and her boyfriend, a guy and her girlfriend, and my 2 guy friends. Told them that I snore when I sleep, so they didn't want me to sleep in the same tent with them haha. We chatted a bit, flirted with HB Ballet a bit. She was stretching.
Her : Hey I have to stretch, but I can't really do it with that top!
Me : Don't worry, nobody will be watching, except me (;
Her : *giggles*
Friend : Ohh man, you're so wack XD
Her : Oh no, my Victoria's Secret bag is broken!
Me : Victoria's Secret is my favorite shop (it's a girl's underwear shop)
Her : *laughs* What, you like to buy g-strings and stuff?
Me : Yeah, totally.
Her : *laughs* Oh cool, G-strings and this kind of underwear is my fetish.
I then smiled kind of in a horny way. Don't remember the conversation afterwards but it was flirty.
The next morning, I wasn't really feeling in state. I was back to my old self, because when it's a new day I always feel like I have to start all over again and build momentum. I was still social.
HB ballet : Hey, we should go swimming!
Me : Yeah, but I don't have a bathing suit. You want me to go swimming in underwear?
HB Ballet : Yeah! Why not?
I smiled
HB Blondy : If you strip and you just keep your panties and your bra, it's the same as a bikini.
Fun convo.
(BTW, all conversations are transcribed approximately but are still pretty accurate)
So we went swimming at my neighbour's house and I became more and more friends with them. I don't intend on getting one of them as my girlfriend for now, because they became good friends. They are HB7, 7.5. I asked them if they wanted to come to my birthday party in two weeks, and they are pretty down, especially HB Blondy. That's cool!
What's coming up next!
Tonight, there will be a big party with the whole Island where people from all ages will be watching fireworks, dancing, etc. It's a celebration for the province of Quebec and it's pride. Pretty cool! I'll be going with a friend of mine and the girl that hosted the camping with her boyfriend. Cool people! I will probably meet many old friends from my primary school and stuff, and I plan on approaching. This will be great. I'm not really feeling in state right now and feeling kind of tired from lack of sleep and stomach aches, but I will hopefully feel better tonight.
Conclusion
Wow. Hahaha, I never grinded that many girls in my whole life! I felt so much more comfortable physically and talking to close proximity to girls. My one itis was gone as I switched to abundance mindset. This was the MOST memorable birthday ever, by far. OH! And I will celebrate my birthday in two weeks and I plan on inviting loads of friends.
YES.
Alex, I used earphones with a microphone and used the Voice Memo app on iPod Touch. Then, I transferred to my computer and edited it.
Tuesday, June 26th
(This post doesn't report any progress, but more realizations. You learn from the most bull**** you go through)
How it feels to fail the No Fapping challenge after 2 weeks...
So the night right before another social gathering, I did some penis exercises. After a couple hours, I realize that my penis actually grew a little. I was pretty happy of the results, so I kept doing it. But it led to masturbation, even though I was being careful... And I though that like, oh well... too bad I'll restart all over again. I didn't think that masturbating once would affect my confidence or mood that much. But it really did!
Guys, if you're doing the challenge, DO NOT take the risk to even touch your tralala no matter what the reason might be. You'll see a boost in confidence trust me.
SO WHAT HAPPENED :
- I felt down and not in the mood the whole day
- I felt no desire to flirt with any girl
- I depended on alcohol to make myself feel good and confident
- I was waaay more anxious, way more self-conscious of what people though about me
- I got mad and sad easier
- I had many negative thoughts going through my mind
- I was less energetic
THE WORST, I started thinking about Laos again. It wasn't attraction, it wasn't love. It was ****ing desperation. I though that people didn't like me as much that night, because I wasn't receiving validation from them. I sometimes got ignored or teased a little too much, and I started taking it personal. I couldn't build momentum at all. Talked to H again, and he actually cried because he learned that Laos didn't want to hear anything from him. We sat next to the fire, only him and me :
Me : Hey, do you mind if I actually try with Laos?
H : I don't mind really, but hey, it's not to discourage you or anything, but she doesn't have any interest for you. Like, she already told me, but I'm really not trying to discourage you.
Me : Alright, but I know that there was a very crucial point where I could've gone for the shot.
H : Oh really?
Me : Yeah, but I learned that you were interested in her so I backed off.
H : Well, you know, you don't seem to really understand. I'm not telling you you cannot try with her, but she's not interested and she told me. It's not to discourage you though.
Me : Yeah I know. Just didn't want to let you down, so that's why I didn't go. Also, that would really suck for you if I actually went for her, no?
H kept talking, then followed by a long pause. I kept staring at the fire thoughtfully, not looking at H as he talked. I was still listening though, but I kind of got angry at him for being so defensive. Right now I'm thinking, why the **** be angry at H? I mean, it's not his fault if he's in love and his pain was terrible. I would've never cried as much for a girl, ever. I totally understand his defensiveness, but at the moment I was feeling disappointed and sad. Maybe the effect of alcohol stopped me from thinking right.
Later, me and H walking. Laos is right next to us, I was about to flirt, but then I backed off.
Me : H, you know you're a really good friend. I'd never ever let you down man.
H : Thanks Mindgamez, you're really a great friend you know?
Laos : Aw that's really cute!
I just ignored her comment and kept walking.
So today I left the camping. I just feel like I don't ever want to see her again in my whole life. I want to eradicate feelings for her forever, and those exaggerated feelings for her that came from desperation are VERY unhealthy. I didn't have these when I was into abundance mode 3 days before.
After that bad experience, I truly DO NOT want this to happen again. My mood killed everything and the camping wasn't as enjoyable as I wanted. I PROMISE I will reach the 90 days, and there is no way I'll give up.
Let's do this, I can do it. Long lasting self-confidence is a greater gift than a short term pleasure.
Tuesday, June 26th
(This post doesn't report any progress, but more realizations. You learn from the most bull**** you go through)
How it feels to fail the No Fapping challenge after 2 weeks...
So the night right before another social gathering, I did some penis exercises. After a couple hours, I realize that my penis actually grew a little. I was pretty happy of the results, so I kept doing it. But it led to masturbation, even though I was being careful... And I though that like, oh well... too bad I'll restart all over again. I didn't think that masturbating once would affect my confidence or mood that much. But it really did!
Guys, if you're doing the challenge, DO NOT take the risk to even touch your tralala no matter what the reason might be. You'll see a boost in confidence trust me.
SO WHAT HAPPENED :
- I felt down and not in the mood the whole day
- I felt no desire to flirt with any girl
- I depended on alcohol to make myself feel good and confident
- I was waaay more anxious, way more self-conscious of what people though about me
- I got mad and sad easier
- I had many negative thoughts going through my mind
- I was less energetic
THE WORST, I started thinking about Laos again. It wasn't attraction, it wasn't love. It was ****ing desperation. I though that people didn't like me as much that night, because I wasn't receiving validation from them. I sometimes got ignored or teased a little too much, and I started taking it personal. I couldn't build momentum at all. Talked to H again, and he actually cried because he learned that Laos didn't want to hear anything from him. We sat next to the fire, only him and me :
Me : Hey, do you mind if I actually try with Laos?
H : I don't mind really, but hey, it's not to discourage you or anything, but she doesn't have any interest for you. Like, she already told me, but I'm really not trying to discourage you.
Me : Alright, but I know that there was a very crucial point where I could've gone for the shot.
H : Oh really?
Me : Yeah, but I learned that you were interested in her so I backed off.
H : Well, you know, you don't seem to really understand. I'm not telling you you cannot try with her, but she's not interested and she told me. It's not to discourage you though.
Me : Yeah I know. Just didn't want to let you down, so that's why I didn't go. Also, that would really suck for you if I actually went for her, no?
H kept talking, then followed by a long pause. I kept staring at the fire thoughtfully, not looking at H as he talked. I was still listening though, but I kind of got angry at him for being so defensive. Right now I'm thinking, why the **** be angry at H? I mean, it's not his fault if he's in love and his pain was terrible. I would've never cried as much for a girl, ever. I totally understand his defensiveness, but at the moment I was feeling disappointed and sad. Maybe the effect of alcohol stopped me from thinking right.
Later, me and H walking. Laos is right next to us, I was about to flirt, but then I backed off.
Me : H, you know you're a really good friend. I'd never ever let you down man.
H : Thanks Mindgamez, you're really a great friend you know?
Laos : Aw that's really cute!
I just ignored her comment and kept walking.
So today I left the camping. I just feel like I don't ever want to see her again in my whole life. I want to eradicate feelings for her forever, and those exaggerated feelings for her that came from desperation are VERY unhealthy. I didn't have these when I was into abundance mode 3 days before.
After that bad experience, I truly DO NOT want this to happen again. My mood killed everything and the camping wasn't as enjoyable as I wanted. I PROMISE I will reach the 90 days, and there is no way I'll give up.
Let's do this, I can do it. Long lasting self-confidence is a greater gift than a short term pleasure.
Wednesday, June 27th
DAYGAME BABY!!
Did 8 direct approaches, got zero numbers but I'm totally fine with that. I got rejected harshly only once though though, but most of the girls were receptive and fun to talk to. Girls ranging from HB6 to HB8.5. I'd even say HB9. Damn she was beautiful!
So I woke up this morning,
not really feeling it. When I had Laos going through my mind, I would literally beat myself up and tell myself to forget the **** out of her. I was glad that school was over so I wouldn't see her again. I want to eradicate her from my life. One itis go away!
Even though I slept 13 hours (had to catch up my lack of sleep), I was still feeling tired and I had stomach aches too. It wasn't an excuse!
I ate and took the subway to go meet chopders and CptMellow from the SP forum. We didn't really know how to start, so we just sat down together at a table and talked about pick up a bit. Chopders gave me pretty good constructive criticism on my game and I reaaally thank him for doing so. He made me realize things I didn't pay attention to like, it's usually better to stop the girl after the opener, and other things as well. He watched me and CptMellow do the approaches and he was kind of the coach. He still did an approach though.
For CptMellow, it was his first time ever. He did a damn good job for his first time. He did approximately 8 approaches like me. He even approached a girl with her mom! While he was doing so, everybody else was watching them and the funny things is that the girl was hit on earlier the same day by another guy. She though that Cpt was from the same group of guys, so he left lol. What a coincidence...
My approaches
So we left our table and went for a walk in the mall. I suggested to go first after some hesitation, so I did. Got rejected HARD! It's a bad start and it kind of made me feel stupid. I don't really care right now, but at the moment I was going through my mind : Fawk fawk fawk!... Ugh XD She looked older though, still HB7 I'd say.
The second approach, it was some girl sitting on a table. Didn't even see her face but I still approached. Go check the video for what happened!
At some point, I stopped telling my friends that I was going to approach. I just went for it as I saw her, immediately. Didn't record that one, sadly!
Me : Hey, excuse me (French)
Her : Yes?
Me : Oh, you speak english!
Her : Yes
Me : Oh well, I know this is pretty rnadom but i just wanted to tell you that you're really cute
Her : Oh thank you!
Blablabla, I don't remember it all.
She has a boyfriend, so I suggest to be her second one. She was smiling the whole time but walking pretty fast. I asked her why she was walking so fast, she told me that she had to go. I screamed : BYE HAVE A NICE DAAAAAY!
A funny one!
So I was walking and talking with my wings, then I noticed a girl checking me out. I kept eye contact, then I lifted my eyebrows a bit with a smile. She looked at me very weird, so I went closer to them :
Me : Why are you girls looking at me? *serious mad face*
Friend : No, why were you looking at me?
Me : Well I saw you girls, so I kept looking.
Her : Why are you coming near us?
Friend : *laughs*
CptMellow (from far) : Because he's a hot guy, he's reallyy hot! (or something like that)
Me : Haha! So what's your name?
Her : Why you want to know my name?
Me : Because you are pretty cute
Friend laughs
Her : Oh well, I don't give my name to random strangers (looks away)
Me : Oh well, my name is Mindgamez
Her : Okay, my name is...
She looks at her friend
Her : *name*
They burst out laughing
Me : Alright that's not your real name, bye! Have a nice day!
Them : Bye
Approaches with AUDIO
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdqrZM6Aj6A
DAYGAME BABY!!
Did 8 direct approaches, got zero numbers but I'm totally fine with that. I got rejected harshly only once though though, but most of the girls were receptive and fun to talk to. Girls ranging from HB6 to HB8.5. I'd even say HB9. Damn she was beautiful!
So I woke up this morning,
not really feeling it. When I had Laos going through my mind, I would literally beat myself up and tell myself to forget the **** out of her. I was glad that school was over so I wouldn't see her again. I want to eradicate her from my life. One itis go away!
Even though I slept 13 hours (had to catch up my lack of sleep), I was still feeling tired and I had stomach aches too. It wasn't an excuse!
I ate and took the subway to go meet chopders and CptMellow from the SP forum. We didn't really know how to start, so we just sat down together at a table and talked about pick up a bit. Chopders gave me pretty good constructive criticism on my game and I reaaally thank him for doing so. He made me realize things I didn't pay attention to like, it's usually better to stop the girl after the opener, and other things as well. He watched me and CptMellow do the approaches and he was kind of the coach. He still did an approach though.
For CptMellow, it was his first time ever. He did a damn good job for his first time. He did approximately 8 approaches like me. He even approached a girl with her mom! While he was doing so, everybody else was watching them and the funny things is that the girl was hit on earlier the same day by another guy. She though that Cpt was from the same group of guys, so he left lol. What a coincidence...
My approaches
So we left our table and went for a walk in the mall. I suggested to go first after some hesitation, so I did. Got rejected HARD! It's a bad start and it kind of made me feel stupid. I don't really care right now, but at the moment I was going through my mind : Fawk fawk fawk!... Ugh XD She looked older though, still HB7 I'd say.
The second approach, it was some girl sitting on a table. Didn't even see her face but I still approached. Go check the video for what happened!
At some point, I stopped telling my friends that I was going to approach. I just went for it as I saw her, immediately. Didn't record that one, sadly!
Me : Hey, excuse me (French)
Her : Yes?
Me : Oh, you speak english!
Her : Yes
Me : Oh well, I know this is pretty rnadom but i just wanted to tell you that you're really cute
Her : Oh thank you!
Blablabla, I don't remember it all.
She has a boyfriend, so I suggest to be her second one. She was smiling the whole time but walking pretty fast. I asked her why she was walking so fast, she told me that she had to go. I screamed : BYE HAVE A NICE DAAAAAY!
A funny one!
So I was walking and talking with my wings, then I noticed a girl checking me out. I kept eye contact, then I lifted my eyebrows a bit with a smile. She looked at me very weird, so I went closer to them :
Me : Why are you girls looking at me? *serious mad face*
Friend : No, why were you looking at me?
Me : Well I saw you girls, so I kept looking.
Her : Why are you coming near us?
Friend : *laughs*
CptMellow (from far) : Because he's a hot guy, he's reallyy hot! (or something like that)
Me : Haha! So what's your name?
Her : Why you want to know my name?
Me : Because you are pretty cute
Friend laughs
Her : Oh well, I don't give my name to random strangers (looks away)
Me : Oh well, my name is Mindgamez
Her : Okay, my name is...
She looks at her friend
Her : *name*
They burst out laughing
Me : Alright that's not your real name, bye! Have a nice day!
Them : Bye
Approaches with AUDIO
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdqrZM6Aj6A
Damn there's two parties tomorrow happening!
The first one will be at my ex-girlfriend's house. (it's been a long time and I have 0 feelings for her now, just a good friend) There will a bunch of my old friends from elementary school and new people to meet too. And there will be HB C too (girl I was used to flirt with on facebook). Let's try some escalation, hehehehe. I could attempt a kiss or say some very sexual remark to her, in a non-needy way of course. Let's try it out? Why not. She's pretty hot, and she's open to sexual talk.
Second party will be at my neighbour's house. Many guy and girl friends from high school will be there. Good friends and acquaintances too. For the girls, I was too needy for their approval back then. Like, even though they weren't very pretty, I really wanted to be their friends because they were my good friends' friends. Now, I think I just don't care as much about them. They are normal girls, not pretty and not special at all. Just a bunch of girls. They can be my friends, but it's okay if they aren't. They are friendly anyway, why wouldn't they be my friends? I'm overthinking this. It's maybe because I remember these awkward situations with them back when I was socially bad where I would just stand next to them and don't say ****. And when I see them I just remember that haha!
Who gives a SHIIIITT let's just enjoy the moment! There will be no alcohol at the first party. It will still be pretty cool I believe. At the second one, there will be alcohol but I'll try to stay alcohol-free anyway. I won't do more than 1 beer, just to test if I can hold a good state without it.
The first one will be at my ex-girlfriend's house. (it's been a long time and I have 0 feelings for her now, just a good friend) There will a bunch of my old friends from elementary school and new people to meet too. And there will be HB C too (girl I was used to flirt with on facebook). Let's try some escalation, hehehehe. I could attempt a kiss or say some very sexual remark to her, in a non-needy way of course. Let's try it out? Why not. She's pretty hot, and she's open to sexual talk.
Second party will be at my neighbour's house. Many guy and girl friends from high school will be there. Good friends and acquaintances too. For the girls, I was too needy for their approval back then. Like, even though they weren't very pretty, I really wanted to be their friends because they were my good friends' friends. Now, I think I just don't care as much about them. They are normal girls, not pretty and not special at all. Just a bunch of girls. They can be my friends, but it's okay if they aren't. They are friendly anyway, why wouldn't they be my friends? I'm overthinking this. It's maybe because I remember these awkward situations with them back when I was socially bad where I would just stand next to them and don't say ****. And when I see them I just remember that haha!
Who gives a SHIIIITT let's just enjoy the moment! There will be no alcohol at the first party. It will still be pretty cool I believe. At the second one, there will be alcohol but I'll try to stay alcohol-free anyway. I won't do more than 1 beer, just to test if I can hold a good state without it.
Saturday, June 30th
GREAT AMAZING PROGRESS!
Just read through, I won't spoil because I'm tired of spoiling **** haha! This is VERY good by the way. Shows how I've progressed.
So I woke up this morning,
Earlier than usual because I couldn't go to sleep again. I was kind of excited but nervous about the day. It was a big day. Party all day! Starting afternoon at 3 until 2 in the morning.
To calm myself down a bit, I listened to some hypnosis MP3. Helped me for a little boost in confidence. The actual party started at 2, but I didn't feel ready so I stayed at home to meditate a bit and watch RSD stuff before going out. I wanted to own this time. I wanted to complete this week's challenge, attempt a kiss. I just ignored the fact that I was nervous and I just got out my house.
When I arrived to the party, nobody was in state! Everybody just seemed bored and ****. I presented myself to all the guys, and the girls too. The girls were mostly HB6s, or I'm just being picky. I was kind of nervous to talk to them at first, but I became better friends with them as time went on.
There was this circle of girls sitting in chairs and I wanted to join. That girl had her legs on one of the chairs and I took them with my hands to lift them up. She smiled and my friend went : Ohhh Mindgamez, you're having fun? I sat down, the girl was very receptive. She even asked me if I wanted something to drink, and she left to go get something for me. Told her that I was the one supposed to be the gentleman, but she laughed. She was getting a little touchy with me, telling me that I was her idol because I was good with piano, blabla. She's cute but HB6.
Then HB C arrived. She's a good solid 8. When I saw her coming, I told myself : Oh ****, there she is. Better be gooooood! I stressed a bit, but then I just hugged her, reminded her of some flirty inside jokes we had about creampies. It was playful and fun. She spilled some coke on the grass and I told her that she was wet, because of me. She laughed, blabla. I ejected and went to talk to the other guys and girls (I knew only very few of them, which is very cool).
When I went back to HB C, she was on a chair talking to some dude. I talked a bit and she told me to bring a chair and sit next to them. I said that I was too lazy, so I sat down on her. Then, I told her that she should be the one on top, so we switched places and she sat down on me. I slid my hands on her shoulders while she talked to that other dude. They were talking about some friend running down the street with a deep neckline lol.
Me : Hey, do you have a boyfriend?
Her : Yes, I have a boyfriend!
Me : Ohhh that's not cool
Her : Well, my friend is single! (or something like that)
Me : Well, you know what? Now, you have a second boyfriend.
Her : Where is he?
Me : Right behind you (;
Her : *smiles* Wheeeere? I don't see him!
Me : It's me you idiot XD!
I don't remember what I said exactly. When I'm so in the moment, I forget about the things I said.
Told her she was beautiful
Petted her head with my hands
Brought her closer to me
Gave her a kiss on the cheek
She smiled
Her : What are you doing? Haha you're crazy XD
Me : I love you
Her : Love you too
(I don't remember who said ily first!)
Then we left to go talk to some other people. Later there's that slow song playing. Nobody is in the mood to dance.
I see her, I get very close until our bodies touch totally, and then I grab her hand and wrap my other one around her waist. I dance somehow ridiculously. She tells me that I suck haha!
I turn my head towards her,
I brush the hair on her face with my hand gently,
Feeling totally in control, I go for the cheek kiss.
She doesn't resist and she giggles.
I then get closer and attempt the make-out. I was SO close,
But she pushes me away in a playful way.
She tells me that I'm crazy, etc.
I just keep smiling, she leaves and then I she tells me with a smile : It's not happening Mindgamez! Sorry! I smiled too.
I go to the pool, but HB C stays out. She keeps glancing at me while I'm having fun with the other buddies.
She looks directly at me, and we hold eye contact.
Me : What? Why are you looking at me?
Her : No, why are YOU looking at me? I know that you love my hot body! *slides hands on her chest down to her legs*
Me : Ohh, I know you love mine and it makes you horny *same gesture*
Later that evening, we're at the pool with everybody.
Her : Mindgamez! I'm going to rape you!
Me : Oh you're going to rape me? Well you can any day, any time! (;
People : *laughs*
Cool dude : Yo! This is wrong yo! The woman's not supposed to rape the guy yo! I'm not hatin' just sayin' yo!
More and more flirting. Sometimes, I was a little nervous again (because I get those waves of good and bad all the time) so I backed off a bit to talk to some other guys. Whatever, I didn't chicken out that much really! She was going the back and forth thing. Push and pull!
She was sitting on a chair and guys were standing up around her. I was talking to some other group, but then she points at me and asks me if she can taste my drink a bit.
Her : Hey Mindgamez! What's this?
Me : It's my drink.
Her : Can I taste it?
Me : Yeah, it's my ***.
Her : Well, can I taste it?
Me : *kind of horny smile*
I go right to her, I grab her chin by my hand and tilt the cup so it goes into her mouth.
Her : You're crazy, don't touch my mouth! XD
Me : Ahhh, I know you like it (or something like that) *rub her chin*
Later, I grab her a bit
Try and kiss her
She resists in a playful way again
I slide my hands right above her chest, almost her boobs
Her : Mindgamez you're crazy! You're going way too fast! Slow down a bit and I'll love you.
Me : Hahaha!
She slaps her butt.
Me : (horny) Ouuuhhh!! Do that again! Hey, come back here!
Her : What?
Me : Do that again just for me.
Her : No, I'm not *smiles*
Me : Okay well, I'm going to do it then!
Her : *opens mouth in shock*
I walk up to her, she stays and doesn't back off
Feeling totally in control
I slap her butt
She kind of smiles in a shocking way
I don't remember what was said afterwards haha!
The host's mom walks by
She tells the mom that I'm a perv
I don't really care and I just keep my very relaxed vibe
More flirting happened with here, I don't remember it all.
Right before leaving, we hug each other.
We stay a while in each other's arms
Me : Goodbye, my hot babe
Her : Bye, you psycho!
I kiss her on the cheek and she kinds of resist a bit,
Attempt another make-out LOL
Failed XD...
What I should have done
ISOLATE. I DIDN'T DO IT. ****! OF COURSE SHE DIDN'T WANT TO APPEAR AS A SLUT!
Anyway,
Damn, I've never been that ballsy with a girl before seriously. I was going ****ing direct, and I was persistent the whole time. The flirting continued even though she resisted, and damn I feel like such a boss even though I had no make-out. YEAH!
Second party at my neighbour's house
Nothing really happened to be honest. It was an okay party. I presented myself to two new girls I didn't know, but all the rest were people I already knew. There was this old friend of mine I didn't see in like a year or so. We were like best friends!
Anyway, the girls were pretty, that's for sure, but simply not the HB8. HB7s was the max.
Played truth or dare with them, and I had to kiss that girl on the cheek. Nothing special because it was a dare though...
So I went home at like 2:15 AM and now I just finished writing my FR!
What's coming up next
Going to the amusement park tomorrow. YEAH! I'll be going with the friends that were at my neighbour's party.
I plan on doing some approaches. I'll have to let go of my ego and don't care about what they'll think about me. If I get some rejection in front of them, well they'll maybe laugh at me. If I get a number, I'll get their ultimate respect LOL. It's either one extreme or the other. Who cares right? I have to let go of my ego and just GO!
GREAT AMAZING PROGRESS!
Just read through, I won't spoil because I'm tired of spoiling **** haha! This is VERY good by the way. Shows how I've progressed.
So I woke up this morning,
Earlier than usual because I couldn't go to sleep again. I was kind of excited but nervous about the day. It was a big day. Party all day! Starting afternoon at 3 until 2 in the morning.
To calm myself down a bit, I listened to some hypnosis MP3. Helped me for a little boost in confidence. The actual party started at 2, but I didn't feel ready so I stayed at home to meditate a bit and watch RSD stuff before going out. I wanted to own this time. I wanted to complete this week's challenge, attempt a kiss. I just ignored the fact that I was nervous and I just got out my house.
When I arrived to the party, nobody was in state! Everybody just seemed bored and ****. I presented myself to all the guys, and the girls too. The girls were mostly HB6s, or I'm just being picky. I was kind of nervous to talk to them at first, but I became better friends with them as time went on.
There was this circle of girls sitting in chairs and I wanted to join. That girl had her legs on one of the chairs and I took them with my hands to lift them up. She smiled and my friend went : Ohhh Mindgamez, you're having fun? I sat down, the girl was very receptive. She even asked me if I wanted something to drink, and she left to go get something for me. Told her that I was the one supposed to be the gentleman, but she laughed. She was getting a little touchy with me, telling me that I was her idol because I was good with piano, blabla. She's cute but HB6.
Then HB C arrived. She's a good solid 8. When I saw her coming, I told myself : Oh ****, there she is. Better be gooooood! I stressed a bit, but then I just hugged her, reminded her of some flirty inside jokes we had about creampies. It was playful and fun. She spilled some coke on the grass and I told her that she was wet, because of me. She laughed, blabla. I ejected and went to talk to the other guys and girls (I knew only very few of them, which is very cool).
When I went back to HB C, she was on a chair talking to some dude. I talked a bit and she told me to bring a chair and sit next to them. I said that I was too lazy, so I sat down on her. Then, I told her that she should be the one on top, so we switched places and she sat down on me. I slid my hands on her shoulders while she talked to that other dude. They were talking about some friend running down the street with a deep neckline lol.
Me : Hey, do you have a boyfriend?
Her : Yes, I have a boyfriend!
Me : Ohhh that's not cool
Her : Well, my friend is single! (or something like that)
Me : Well, you know what? Now, you have a second boyfriend.
Her : Where is he?
Me : Right behind you (;
Her : *smiles* Wheeeere? I don't see him!
Me : It's me you idiot XD!
I don't remember what I said exactly. When I'm so in the moment, I forget about the things I said.
Told her she was beautiful
Petted her head with my hands
Brought her closer to me
Gave her a kiss on the cheek
She smiled
Her : What are you doing? Haha you're crazy XD
Me : I love you
Her : Love you too
(I don't remember who said ily first!)
Then we left to go talk to some other people. Later there's that slow song playing. Nobody is in the mood to dance.
I see her, I get very close until our bodies touch totally, and then I grab her hand and wrap my other one around her waist. I dance somehow ridiculously. She tells me that I suck haha!
I turn my head towards her,
I brush the hair on her face with my hand gently,
Feeling totally in control, I go for the cheek kiss.
She doesn't resist and she giggles.
I then get closer and attempt the make-out. I was SO close,
But she pushes me away in a playful way.
She tells me that I'm crazy, etc.
I just keep smiling, she leaves and then I she tells me with a smile : It's not happening Mindgamez! Sorry! I smiled too.
I go to the pool, but HB C stays out. She keeps glancing at me while I'm having fun with the other buddies.
She looks directly at me, and we hold eye contact.
Me : What? Why are you looking at me?
Her : No, why are YOU looking at me? I know that you love my hot body! *slides hands on her chest down to her legs*
Me : Ohh, I know you love mine and it makes you horny *same gesture*
Later that evening, we're at the pool with everybody.
Her : Mindgamez! I'm going to rape you!
Me : Oh you're going to rape me? Well you can any day, any time! (;
People : *laughs*
Cool dude : Yo! This is wrong yo! The woman's not supposed to rape the guy yo! I'm not hatin' just sayin' yo!
More and more flirting. Sometimes, I was a little nervous again (because I get those waves of good and bad all the time) so I backed off a bit to talk to some other guys. Whatever, I didn't chicken out that much really! She was going the back and forth thing. Push and pull!
She was sitting on a chair and guys were standing up around her. I was talking to some other group, but then she points at me and asks me if she can taste my drink a bit.
Her : Hey Mindgamez! What's this?
Me : It's my drink.
Her : Can I taste it?
Me : Yeah, it's my ***.
Her : Well, can I taste it?
Me : *kind of horny smile*
I go right to her, I grab her chin by my hand and tilt the cup so it goes into her mouth.
Her : You're crazy, don't touch my mouth! XD
Me : Ahhh, I know you like it (or something like that) *rub her chin*
Later, I grab her a bit
Try and kiss her
She resists in a playful way again
I slide my hands right above her chest, almost her boobs
Her : Mindgamez you're crazy! You're going way too fast! Slow down a bit and I'll love you.
Me : Hahaha!
She slaps her butt.
Me : (horny) Ouuuhhh!! Do that again! Hey, come back here!
Her : What?
Me : Do that again just for me.
Her : No, I'm not *smiles*
Me : Okay well, I'm going to do it then!
Her : *opens mouth in shock*
I walk up to her, she stays and doesn't back off
Feeling totally in control
I slap her butt
She kind of smiles in a shocking way
I don't remember what was said afterwards haha!
The host's mom walks by
She tells the mom that I'm a perv
I don't really care and I just keep my very relaxed vibe
More flirting happened with here, I don't remember it all.
Right before leaving, we hug each other.
We stay a while in each other's arms
Me : Goodbye, my hot babe
Her : Bye, you psycho!
I kiss her on the cheek and she kinds of resist a bit,
Attempt another make-out LOL
Failed XD...
What I should have done
ISOLATE. I DIDN'T DO IT. ****! OF COURSE SHE DIDN'T WANT TO APPEAR AS A SLUT!
Anyway,
Damn, I've never been that ballsy with a girl before seriously. I was going ****ing direct, and I was persistent the whole time. The flirting continued even though she resisted, and damn I feel like such a boss even though I had no make-out. YEAH!
Second party at my neighbour's house
Nothing really happened to be honest. It was an okay party. I presented myself to two new girls I didn't know, but all the rest were people I already knew. There was this old friend of mine I didn't see in like a year or so. We were like best friends!
Anyway, the girls were pretty, that's for sure, but simply not the HB8. HB7s was the max.
Played truth or dare with them, and I had to kiss that girl on the cheek. Nothing special because it was a dare though...
So I went home at like 2:15 AM and now I just finished writing my FR!
What's coming up next
Going to the amusement park tomorrow. YEAH! I'll be going with the friends that were at my neighbour's party.
I plan on doing some approaches. I'll have to let go of my ego and don't care about what they'll think about me. If I get some rejection in front of them, well they'll maybe laugh at me. If I get a number, I'll get their ultimate respect LOL. It's either one extreme or the other. Who cares right? I have to let go of my ego and just GO!
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Sunday, July 1st
Felt like a ****ING *****... Let me explain.
Okay so I woke up this morning,
Feeling alright, nervous as usual but excited with the intention to day game a bit at the amusement park. I wasn't really feeling in state, actually not at all.
So when I arrived at the bus stop, there was a girl standing here by herself.
I was thinking like :
Heey, she seems kinda cute, I could approach her. But I didn't see her face yet.
So I walk up closer.
Hey wait... she reminds me of someone.
So I walk up closer.
Hey wait... Holy **** WHAT? Is that HB C? The girl from yesterday's party? She looks a lot like her from the back! No, this can't be.
So then I just walk behind the wall and I just stay here a while. My heart is pounding.
Yo... what if it's actually her? LOL I'd look like a creepy stalker. No, this can't be, it's just a ****ing coincidence! It simply isn't her man, it simply isn't her. Man, I'm not ready, I'm not in state I can't do this!
So then I hear the bus coming. I had to go! I walk off and I see her walking towards the bus. It actually wasn't the bus I was waiting for so I just waited here. From the back, couldn't tell if it was her or not. Then I look at her shoes and glasses.
YO DUDE, YES IT WAS HER. YOU DIDN'T DO ****. Okay go walk up to her. Too late she's in the ****ing bus.
The bus leaves.
WOW MAN... That was the lamest **** ever!
HAHA thinking about this, I just laugh my ass off. She probably didn't see me so it's fine HAHA.
Amusement park
So I arrive and I just wait for my friends to arrive. I just walked around a bit and pussied out from approaching the girls. They were always in groups, or with a boyfriend. There's plenty of pretty girls, but often in groups so it's harder to approach. My friends finally arrive.
At some point, we had to split up because the seats for the roller coaster were 4 seats per wagon. I went alone and sat next to that HB6. I chatted a bit, but no flirting happened. Just talked to talk. It's cool to practice conversation with anybody.
I did the same with some random dude earlier that day. Nothing special again, just always fluff talk.
During the evening, we went to that other amusement thingy (or whatever it's called in english I have no idea). Seats were of 2 people each, so we had to split up and I decided to go alone again. I sat next to that cute HB7.5. Normal chatting again, nothing so special. Just for fun. She though that we had to tie each other with the same belt so I went like : Awww isn't that cute. It was funny, but then I pussied out to make a move. She was receptive, smiling and stuff. I told her to have a good evening, she did the same and we just left separate ways. Fawwk, well too bad then.
Conclusion
Doing this without a wing to support you doesn't feel the same AT ALL! Damn, Mail, GreenNinja, and all the other awesome ones, how do you do it all by yourself? I just can't... I depend so much on other people to give me that initial push to go. In the end, it's a solo approach that I do and it doesn't change **** no matter if I do it with a wing or not! I have to learn to become independent. I have to make this a lifestyle.
What's coming up next
Going to the mall with chopders to do some approaches this thuesday. I have to complete my bootcamp weekly challenge. I have to give my intentions VERY clear and no bull****. I'll use words like Hot, Sexy, Sex, Butt, Boobs, whatever. I'll have to put myself out there. Hope I'll have the time to do the upcoming challenges because I'll be working probably a lot this summer. Too bad, I'll just go even more hardcore the next occasion I'll get.
Felt like a ****ING *****... Let me explain.
Okay so I woke up this morning,
Feeling alright, nervous as usual but excited with the intention to day game a bit at the amusement park. I wasn't really feeling in state, actually not at all.
So when I arrived at the bus stop, there was a girl standing here by herself.
I was thinking like :
Heey, she seems kinda cute, I could approach her. But I didn't see her face yet.
So I walk up closer.
Hey wait... she reminds me of someone.
So I walk up closer.
Hey wait... Holy **** WHAT? Is that HB C? The girl from yesterday's party? She looks a lot like her from the back! No, this can't be.
So then I just walk behind the wall and I just stay here a while. My heart is pounding.
Yo... what if it's actually her? LOL I'd look like a creepy stalker. No, this can't be, it's just a ****ing coincidence! It simply isn't her man, it simply isn't her. Man, I'm not ready, I'm not in state I can't do this!
So then I hear the bus coming. I had to go! I walk off and I see her walking towards the bus. It actually wasn't the bus I was waiting for so I just waited here. From the back, couldn't tell if it was her or not. Then I look at her shoes and glasses.
YO DUDE, YES IT WAS HER. YOU DIDN'T DO ****. Okay go walk up to her. Too late she's in the ****ing bus.
The bus leaves.
WOW MAN... That was the lamest **** ever!
HAHA thinking about this, I just laugh my ass off. She probably didn't see me so it's fine HAHA.
Amusement park
So I arrive and I just wait for my friends to arrive. I just walked around a bit and pussied out from approaching the girls. They were always in groups, or with a boyfriend. There's plenty of pretty girls, but often in groups so it's harder to approach. My friends finally arrive.
At some point, we had to split up because the seats for the roller coaster were 4 seats per wagon. I went alone and sat next to that HB6. I chatted a bit, but no flirting happened. Just talked to talk. It's cool to practice conversation with anybody.
I did the same with some random dude earlier that day. Nothing special again, just always fluff talk.
During the evening, we went to that other amusement thingy (or whatever it's called in english I have no idea). Seats were of 2 people each, so we had to split up and I decided to go alone again. I sat next to that cute HB7.5. Normal chatting again, nothing so special. Just for fun. She though that we had to tie each other with the same belt so I went like : Awww isn't that cute. It was funny, but then I pussied out to make a move. She was receptive, smiling and stuff. I told her to have a good evening, she did the same and we just left separate ways. Fawwk, well too bad then.
Conclusion
Doing this without a wing to support you doesn't feel the same AT ALL! Damn, Mail, GreenNinja, and all the other awesome ones, how do you do it all by yourself? I just can't... I depend so much on other people to give me that initial push to go. In the end, it's a solo approach that I do and it doesn't change **** no matter if I do it with a wing or not! I have to learn to become independent. I have to make this a lifestyle.
What's coming up next
Going to the mall with chopders to do some approaches this thuesday. I have to complete my bootcamp weekly challenge. I have to give my intentions VERY clear and no bull****. I'll use words like Hot, Sexy, Sex, Butt, Boobs, whatever. I'll have to put myself out there. Hope I'll have the time to do the upcoming challenges because I'll be working probably a lot this summer. Too bad, I'll just go even more hardcore the next occasion I'll get.
Yeah that negative self-talk was pretty lame... And yep next time if **** like that happens I'll just go for it.
Just chatted with HB C a while ago, girl I attempted make-out with.
I think that I have to improve on my texting/messaging game... It's so much better to interact in real life! I actually have more anxiety when I message than when I talk to her in person. Wtf, can someone explain this haha.
Anyway, I want her to be my **** buddy or something. I'm not down for a long term relationship. Need some feedback on this!
Just chatted with HB C a while ago, girl I attempted make-out with.
I think that I have to improve on my texting/messaging game... It's so much better to interact in real life! I actually have more anxiety when I message than when I talk to her in person. Wtf, can someone explain this haha.
Anyway, I want her to be my **** buddy or something. I'm not down for a long term relationship. Need some feedback on this!
Me
Hehe, how's it going?
Her
...
Me
Doin greaat
Her
my bf dumped me..
Me
Oh damn
Move on, neediness can kill!
You'll be okay
Her
... dont think u have a chance now btw
Her
ily but not like that
Me
Alright well tell me when you're ready haha
Her
<3
Me
Awwwwn I love you too
Her
lawl ikt
Me
I just think you're pretty hot and you're a cool friend but I'm not in love haha
Her
oki good
**too
and thank uu haha
**i know that u aint in love*** not that im pretty XD
Me
Hahaha yeaah riiiiiighhhtt!!
Sorry to dissapoint
Her
lol im not disapointed
Me
By the way you're good at flirting it's hot
Her
haha no wayyy
i was kidding tho
lol
i just have pretty eyes...
Me
Naaaah ^^
Anyway seeya hottie
Her
lol kk byebye yellow ;D
Monday, July 2nd
How it feels to be a *****. This is bull**** I'm not going to lie. Lol I like to laugh at myself...
So yeah,
1:15 PM, I was walking around in my room kind of nervously. I didn't know if I wanted to go or not! I'd waste two bus tickets if I go to the mall without approaching.
Texted chopders for some moral support haha. Didn't really help and thoughts were still going through my head.
Yeah! I'll get there with my bike and buy some pair of earphones. I need new ones! No tickets wasted, and it's a little exercise.
So going there by bike took longer than expected. I arrived a little sweaty at Best Buy. The shop was almost empty. So I looked around, asked people that worked here for the audio section of the store.
Didn't find the earphones I wanted, too bad! So I walk off.
I see a girl.
She seems pretty nice.
When we get closer, I can feel her hotness. Mhmhm not bad!
So then she just passes by. I go in my head : Fawwwk!
I look back, she's gone. In my head : DUUUDE C'MON XD
So I just STOP walking.
Turn my head back again, take a step towards her.
Naaahh man don't do it!
So I just leave the store.
So I went to the mall. This kind of **** happened like 3 times LOL. Most of the girls were all in groups so I pussied out.
I'm not too worried about this. I just laugh at myself reading about this again LOL.
So yeah, I ride my bike back home and it was more tiring than going, because the wind was blowing haard. Was telling myself in my head :
Ohhh man... I did all this biking for zero approaches! Lol I'm such a *****.
Should I go buy myself some drink at least? No, I don't deserve it. I won't reward myself for not doing anything.
What's coming up next
Going with chopders at the mall (a bigger one) for approaches. I WILL GO PRO MODE. And I will record myself with my new headphones, microphone probably better than my old one
How it feels to be a *****. This is bull**** I'm not going to lie. Lol I like to laugh at myself...
So yeah,
1:15 PM, I was walking around in my room kind of nervously. I didn't know if I wanted to go or not! I'd waste two bus tickets if I go to the mall without approaching.
Texted chopders for some moral support haha. Didn't really help and thoughts were still going through my head.
Yeah! I'll get there with my bike and buy some pair of earphones. I need new ones! No tickets wasted, and it's a little exercise.
So going there by bike took longer than expected. I arrived a little sweaty at Best Buy. The shop was almost empty. So I looked around, asked people that worked here for the audio section of the store.
Didn't find the earphones I wanted, too bad! So I walk off.
I see a girl.
She seems pretty nice.
When we get closer, I can feel her hotness. Mhmhm not bad!
So then she just passes by. I go in my head : Fawwwk!
I look back, she's gone. In my head : DUUUDE C'MON XD
So I just STOP walking.
Turn my head back again, take a step towards her.
Naaahh man don't do it!
So I just leave the store.
So I went to the mall. This kind of **** happened like 3 times LOL. Most of the girls were all in groups so I pussied out.
I'm not too worried about this. I just laugh at myself reading about this again LOL.
So yeah, I ride my bike back home and it was more tiring than going, because the wind was blowing haard. Was telling myself in my head :
Ohhh man... I did all this biking for zero approaches! Lol I'm such a *****.
Should I go buy myself some drink at least? No, I don't deserve it. I won't reward myself for not doing anything.
What's coming up next
Going with chopders at the mall (a bigger one) for approaches. I WILL GO PRO MODE. And I will record myself with my new headphones, microphone probably better than my old one
Wednesday, July 4th
Let me be brutally honest. I did absolutely nothing.
So I woke up this morning,
Getting ready for my job interview. I dressed well and arrived to the store. That cute girl that works here looked at me and smiled at me. I responded with a : How's it going? She said that she was going good.
Lol, the other day when I went to give my CV for the job application, I asked her where the boss was. When I walked off the place, I gave her two thumbs up with a ridiculous grin on my face to show her I succeeded.
In the bus, I see that girl from my elementary school. She got hotter than before! I wave at her, she doesn't respond and looks away. I then come next to her. My voice felt weak and soft... like I was that old me from elementary school, that little shy kid I used to be. She brought back memories.
Me : Hey, how's it going?
Her : *looks at me weird*
Me : (her name), right?
Her : Yeah?
Me : Guess who I am
Her : Hum...
Me : I'm Mindgamez!
Her : (my family name)?
Me : Yeah.
I sit next to her. She seems pretty unresponsive to my questions and stuff. She doesn't really look at me, listens to her music, short answers. I go back to my music. After a while, I just tell myself **** IT, just talk to her anyway. I talk to her again for a while, about school and stuff. She looked very bored. She then left the bus and waved bye to me.
I go to the mall for a while because I'm too early for the interview. 30 minutes, no approaches. Saw some possible targets but pussied out because they were in girl stores.
Took the bus, went to another mall (the bigger one). I wander around, looking for targets. I asked for directions and simple things to some people, not even pretty girls because I wasn't feeling it. So I walk around, walk around in circles. I see that set of 2. HB9 and HB8! But they were buying some earrings so I told myself that I'll wait for them to finish. I then waited behind some wall, I texted my friend and when I looked back, they were GONE. I realized that this kind of stupid excuse is what's stopping me. I get frustrated right here. It was like my best opportunity right here, and they were my age.
2 hours. NOTHING.
Go at my friend's house. Then we go to the movie theaters to go check some movie. There were plenty of pretty girls here, but we had to be on time. On my way back home, I see that cute asian girl with her girl friend and that dude. I caught her looking at me and her eyes shyly moved away. Everytime I wanted to approach, I opened my iPod and got ready to record myself. In the end, I never did it.
NO MORE! I'm going out EVERY DAY from now on.
I have to be 100% honest with everything I write here. I'm totally unsatisfied about that! Why can't I do it alone by myself? DAMNIT WHAT THE ****!! I feel determined to go, then I take the first steps, but then I just shy away and give up on that approach. *Ohh, I'll just do it on the next one!* Shut the **** up stupid little voice.
Tomorrow I'm going out with 2 wingmen at the mall. I'm going hardcore I SWEAR! And after that, I'm going out every day and at different places. I'll just keep showing up on the field and I'll eventually do something by myself. I will not reward myself for not doing ****. Every day. That's it you heard it. I'm TIRED OF THIS. I'll eventually get annoyed enough to do something about it. Let's annoy that little voice in my head that keeps holding me back. I have to learn to be persistent and disciplined. There's no way I'm *****ing out again. I want to be good at this, as bad as I want to breathe. I have NO EXCUSES! ARRGHHH!!
Yeah I feel good now. Woooh! Feel pumped up! I won't give up on myself, I won't give up on you guys I promise.
THIS IS OOOOVVEERRR!!!!! NO MORE *****ING OUT
Let me be brutally honest. I did absolutely nothing.
So I woke up this morning,
Getting ready for my job interview. I dressed well and arrived to the store. That cute girl that works here looked at me and smiled at me. I responded with a : How's it going? She said that she was going good.
Lol, the other day when I went to give my CV for the job application, I asked her where the boss was. When I walked off the place, I gave her two thumbs up with a ridiculous grin on my face to show her I succeeded.
In the bus, I see that girl from my elementary school. She got hotter than before! I wave at her, she doesn't respond and looks away. I then come next to her. My voice felt weak and soft... like I was that old me from elementary school, that little shy kid I used to be. She brought back memories.
Me : Hey, how's it going?
Her : *looks at me weird*
Me : (her name), right?
Her : Yeah?
Me : Guess who I am
Her : Hum...
Me : I'm Mindgamez!
Her : (my family name)?
Me : Yeah.
I sit next to her. She seems pretty unresponsive to my questions and stuff. She doesn't really look at me, listens to her music, short answers. I go back to my music. After a while, I just tell myself **** IT, just talk to her anyway. I talk to her again for a while, about school and stuff. She looked very bored. She then left the bus and waved bye to me.
I go to the mall for a while because I'm too early for the interview. 30 minutes, no approaches. Saw some possible targets but pussied out because they were in girl stores.
Took the bus, went to another mall (the bigger one). I wander around, looking for targets. I asked for directions and simple things to some people, not even pretty girls because I wasn't feeling it. So I walk around, walk around in circles. I see that set of 2. HB9 and HB8! But they were buying some earrings so I told myself that I'll wait for them to finish. I then waited behind some wall, I texted my friend and when I looked back, they were GONE. I realized that this kind of stupid excuse is what's stopping me. I get frustrated right here. It was like my best opportunity right here, and they were my age.
2 hours. NOTHING.
Go at my friend's house. Then we go to the movie theaters to go check some movie. There were plenty of pretty girls here, but we had to be on time. On my way back home, I see that cute asian girl with her girl friend and that dude. I caught her looking at me and her eyes shyly moved away. Everytime I wanted to approach, I opened my iPod and got ready to record myself. In the end, I never did it.
NO MORE! I'm going out EVERY DAY from now on.
I have to be 100% honest with everything I write here. I'm totally unsatisfied about that! Why can't I do it alone by myself? DAMNIT WHAT THE ****!! I feel determined to go, then I take the first steps, but then I just shy away and give up on that approach. *Ohh, I'll just do it on the next one!* Shut the **** up stupid little voice.
Tomorrow I'm going out with 2 wingmen at the mall. I'm going hardcore I SWEAR! And after that, I'm going out every day and at different places. I'll just keep showing up on the field and I'll eventually do something by myself. I will not reward myself for not doing ****. Every day. That's it you heard it. I'm TIRED OF THIS. I'll eventually get annoyed enough to do something about it. Let's annoy that little voice in my head that keeps holding me back. I have to learn to be persistent and disciplined. There's no way I'm *****ing out again. I want to be good at this, as bad as I want to breathe. I have NO EXCUSES! ARRGHHH!!
Yeah I feel good now. Woooh! Feel pumped up! I won't give up on myself, I won't give up on you guys I promise.
THIS IS OOOOVVEERRR!!!!! NO MORE *****ING OUT
