I feel like this journal is becoming more of a rant than a approach/close type of thing but hey, its my journal ill write what I want :moon: .
Im about to go off so get ready.....
Yesterday had to have been the worst fvcking day of my life, if not then pretty damn close. First I wake up late and almost miss my workout time, fine no big deal. My Mom calls me, "Go help your grandma with a few things at er new house" , of course I say sure and thinking it wouldnt take long. Big mistake, took 3 hours. After all that I head to work. It was slow the other day so I expect it to be slow today. WRONG. Busiest night ever. Im running around, had to have walked over 5 miles easily. And I was pretty much alone, the only one on the floor working which made it worse. That means I have to get everything done while the jobs just pile up because it eventually got way to overwelming. I finished them all though. Okay so far im thinking , "Who the fvck did I piss off today for this to happen to me?".
At this point im heated a little bit. I see my oneitis girl, she says, "Whats up A$$hole" So i clearly tell her to "Fck off cvnt face" and then I walk away. (I work with her, that prolly wasnt a good move..... but heat of the moment type thing). She had a disturbed look on her face after I said that too lol.
Okay so im chugging along doing all this stuff and its 11 oclock and I can finally head home. This b1tch comes up to me and tells ME im doing my job wrong and SHE is getting yelled at by other people because im doing MY job wrong. WTF?! Go fvck yourself woman! Pretty much she said I was working to slow, I tell her that im the only one on and there were to many jobs to get done by myself. Shes just ranting about hows she getting yelled at, while ive been working my a$$ off all night. At this point I want to murder everything in sight, punch a wall, or throw someone through one.
I punch out, drive home. On my way home I get 8 god damn text messages from 2 different women at a bar together (Apparently). One of them is drunk as fvck and keeps telling me she wants to fvck me etc etc the usual flirty text/sexual banter. And the other was like, "yeah *girlsname* keeps saying how she wants to fvck you really badly" and all that. So im like ... alright im kind of pissed off but whatever ill go take it out on some vagina... but wait guys did you forget? This night just looks bad.
So I get home, text this drunk wh0re back and before she was typing all slopping and then IN PERFECT TEXT "I am to unstable right now to have sex, lets just have sex tomorrow when im sober
" . Lol at this point Im laughing about my horrible night because i thought i would take up any second now ... but i didnt. I said "No". Then shut my phone off for the night. I didnt care if I lost a lay, i was just fvcking really heated.
Then I get home (oh you thought this sh1t night ended? No no no). My dad keeps saying what a sh1tty son I am, how Im apparently gay (thats news to me im pretty sure i like vagina), and how ill never make it to med school WITH MY 4.0 GPA.... I told him to "Fvck off ill snap your neck" At this point I meant it. And then went to run sprints at 12:30 in the morning in 10 degree weather i had to do something to get this anger out.
Last but not least, all my NYE plans fell through because all my friends decided to spend NYE with their girlfriend... of course. So now im looking for new plans, im about to say fvck it and just stay home. shut my phone and internet off and play xbox. Thats how annoyed i am.:rock:
Now my night has ended, im done ranting.
/rantoff
Positives: Um lemme think for a couple of minutes then get back to you....
Okay im back heres what I got.
1. I had really good sleep that night
2. Anger fueled my workout today
3. Motivation to find different friends i suppose
4. Deleted my facebook/twitter, im sick of knowing what other people are doing i just dont give a fvck. So now I just dont have to be bothered with it. I just feel like social networks are so lame, it makes peoples lives seem for interesting than they really are. Im good sticking to a couple of close friends and myself.
5. Im going snowboarding 5/7 days this week, something to look forward too.
And thats all i got for positives. I mean maybe tonight things will turn around who knows.
Peace.