When things look up, one thing comes and knock them all down.
Things are going pretty good with this new plate, she is pretty much me in a girls body with minor tweaks. She's fun to be with and doesn't mind my long study hours =D. So things are all sound in the girls area of my life.. It was actually funny because she thinks im this total nerd. We were sitting in the library and this kid kept calling her. She doesnt check her phone when im with her, she knows better. But answers and tells this kid to leave her alone. The kid just kept calling, calling, texting, texting and kept asking her to go out. I laughed heres the convo:
Me: why are you ignoring the poor kid, go out with him....
her: I mean I could if I want to ... do you want me to?
me:sure go ahead
Her: *seemed very surprised* No thanks id rather go out with you
Sometime later...... (she pretty much thinks im a total nerd but dont look like it at all )
Her: I think its funny...
me: whats that?
her: that im the one falling for you....
me: its okay... id fall for me too =D
her: **** upppppp
me: *kisses her*
I know shes already attached , which is a good thing. I dont feel the same way as her. Im just tranquil about the whole situation. When I saw this kid keep texting and calling her I just thought of sosuave and had to laugh in my head. Then she commented on how she likes that I dont put her on a pedestal and don't overwelm her with calls and texts. I usually wait to text back, mainly because im doing other sh1t. This is one of the best things sosuave has taught me. Maintain your frame, relax, dont put her on a pedestal, and never overwelm her with texts and girly sh1t!
Then I get my fvcking chemistry test back that I studied for 13 FVCKING HOURS for and end up getting a total sh1t grade. I always feel like sh1t after I get a bad grade. I feel like everyone is smarter than me when I get a bad grade and I feel like Im a loser, kinda. I know its so bad to do that but I dont know why i come down on myself. This semester has just been general classes im not really interested in so I think thats one reason I want this semester just to end. But on the other hand looking at my final grades may not be to pleasing.
I dunno, the past is in the past. I think for once I overstudied and just totally blanked on that exam because I blanked pretty hard on the lab exam for that class too. That sh1t pisses me off -__-. Ah whatever. This whole semester Ive been getting snaked by sh1tty grading and unfair test questions . Sometimes its hard to keep moving forward but hopefully hard work pays off.
I'll just have to study harder for the final and hopefully all will end well. I am actually looking forward to my summer classes to redeem myself for this sh1tty semester , A's in my summer classes would make me feel a lot better.
Anyway im off for the day, more to come.
