jophil28 said:
How do you explain the numerous trails of wreckage that they inevitably create? Mere accidental outcomes?
I don't see what you're getting at. Just because all BPD's create trails of wreckage, doesn't mean they do so consciously... Just because all people yawn when they're tired, doesn't mean they do so consciously, right?
These women are driven by opportunities to inflict damage within intimate relationships. It is how they feel powerful. They are cunning, manipulative and devious.
It's a complex matter... BPD's do have an inclination towards feeling powerful over others and they use their cunning, deviousness and manipulation skills to satisfy this need. But when it comes to the situation where she has sucked a guy deep into her world, things become more complex. I'm not talking about a first encounter, I'm talking about the more advanced stage, where sort of a relationship has been established. The trails of wreckage and the destructive result of their behavior, only apply to this situation.
In this situation, the guy has developed feelings for her, he got emotionally drawn to her. At the same time, this also goes for the BPD! You know how her behavior becomes more extreme and more destructive the further the "relationship" develops? This is directly linked to the following factor:
her emotional involvement. The more she becomes emotionally involved with you, the more "danger" she experiences (coz being emotionally involved makes her vulnerable): she'll experience "danger" more often and she'll experience it more extreme.
This is a dynamic... suppose it's your first date and you say something that makes her feel insecure. That you don't like fat women, for example... She's not fat, but since she's a nutjob, she
THINKS she's fat and should look like one of those catwalk skeletons. So she'll relate your comment to herself, feel insecure and experience "danger". But at this point her emotional involvement with you isn't that high yet, so she'll react relatively normal and say "you shouldn't judge people just by their looks, blah blah". Just a subtle "defence" of her ego...
Weeks/months later, when the relationship has evolved and the two of you have become more emotionally involved, you might be watching tv on the couch together and make a harmless comment about some fat chick on tv. Suddenly, your BPD tells you you're an ******* and gets into one of her temper tantrums. "WTF?! Where did that came from?" you wonder... It's simply her feeling insecure again, coz the idiot thinks she's fat and relates your comment to herself. Only this time, the accompanying "danger" feeling is much stronger, coz she's more emotionally involved with you at this point. The chick might even stay silent and try to control the "danger" feeling. But it won't fade away, it keeps bugging her all night long, this feeling of insecurity that you caused with your comment... The next day, she has to let it out and suddenly acts totally cold and hostile towards you. Totally out of the blue!! At least, so it seems to you...
The moment you made a remark about some fat woman on tv, you triggered her crazy mind, her feelings of insecurity etc. All kinds of automatic links are being made in her mind "he doesn't like fat chicks --> I'm fat too! --> so he basically insulted me! --> he doesn't respect me! --> I should teach him a lesson! --> what will happen if he finds a chick who's not as fat as me? --> he'll leave me and I will be hurt!" etc. etc. etc. The "danger" feeling takes over, she freaks out and you'll be on the receiving end of her destructive behavior...
It's the dynamic of the moment... It's not like she consciously made a plan weeks/months ago, to lure you in and then destroy you emotionally because she enjoys doing that. She has simply become more emotionally involved with you over time, therefor more vulnerable, the feeling of "danger" gets triggered more easily and the resulting behavior is more extreme. In the end, the impact it has on you, is also more extreme... Not because that was her endgoal from the beginning, but just because that's what naturally follows from the situation.
IF, as you claim, they were merely afraid of closeness, then they have the choice to simply leave the relationship when it develops to an uncomfortable stage.
Instead they engage in a well know cluster of destructive behaviors .
They are not merely afraid of closeness. At the same time, they feel attracted to a person. Also, it is not simply a matter of reaching a certain "stage" in the relationship. Referring to what I explained above: It has more to do with the dynamic of the moment. One moment they feel attracted to you and enjoy your company, the next moment you say/do something that triggers their "danger" feeling and they push you away. Rinse and repeat...
In fact, that's the whole reason why their behavior is so destructive!! It's the back and forth, push and pull dynamic: giving you highs and making you feel happy, then giving you lows and making you feel unhappy. The situation becomes uncontrollable to you, you never know what you're gonna get, you never know how long your high will last and when the next low will crash down at you... You constantly live on the edge, you try to please her so the next low will be postponed as long as possible...then BAM! she hits you with her cold behavior again... But it's not her tactic, not her premeditated plan. It's just her mind switching from hot to cold over and over again. One moment you're siting on the couch romantically and she genuinely enjoys this. The next moment her insecurity gets triggered by some comment of yours, her mind goes into "danger" mode and she starts acting cold...