Crusade of the Knight: A Journal.

[novaknight]

Entry 21: My Destiny.

I had a dream last night. About my destiny.

Sure I got rejected. But that's happened to me so many times before, that I'm numbed to it already. I asked quite a few girls out...all of them said no.

But this was the first time I was able to go in confidently, and come out confidently. And I feel some sort of latent power awakening. I know this. Because of a dream last night.

I felt a voice speaking to me. A loud, booming voice. And that voice told me my destiny.

My destiny is that I can get laid. Well, all of us can. Why? How else would we exist? For each one of us to be here....a guy musta gotten laid. Otherwise we would not even be here, and this forum would not exist.

Of course, I shouldn't go around screwing every ***** and impregnating girls. No. But what this means is that every single one of our ancestors got laid. All of them were the fastest sperm. We are too. So there is no excuse not to be able to get action.

Winning is in us.

 

[Nino-Tk]

Exactly my man, think about it...your ancestors carried swords and faught legendary battles. It would be a shame if they saw you being afraid to even say HI to a girl.
So yeah you are worthy man.

 

[novaknight]

I think I should work on my looks though, to improve my success rate. I need to find someone good with clothes, so I can look sharp. I also think I should get a buzz.

I'm really getting this stuff. But I think I need to look the part. That's my major issue here. If I don't look good naturally...I can make myself look better through dressing better, and looking cleaner.

When I'm dressed sharply...I have a feeling the chicks will come. This guy I met told me this. "Hey Novaknight...youre the coolest yellow kid I ever met. And I don't just throw compliments like this around. If you get better clothes...I swear you'd get laid all the time".

I need to find someone good with this stuff. I need to take my game to the next level.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 22: Goals for the Future.
I've been thinking of what I want to do in the future. And I've been thinking that just having these dreams isn't enough. I want to make some of them a reality one day.

Short term goals are heavy petting (done some time ago already) get a makeout (not yet), 3.5 GPA minimum (reached, kinda hard to maintain), pray every day (doing).

Long term goals for women though...I want to get laid. No duh. I also want to find a good girl for a LTR. That's just my goals for women. I feel that if I lower my standards I could easily do it. But no. That's not me. I won't **** a girl I don't find attractive. And if it takes more learning time to score a good looking one, so be it.

But my long term goals for life...I feel they're really important. I have many years ahead of me. I consider myself a pretty smart guy. Cause I learn things quickly. I think that's the gift God gave me. But I want to get to know myself better. I want to know why I do things, and what I want to do.

I also am thinking about my career. I hate sitting down idle, and with the ADD I have the attention span of a fly. I'm not going to sit down and get a monotonous desk job, wasting my life away, surfing the net while pretending to work, even if it is the most secure option I have.

I want to improve peoples lives, because through my journey I've been able to improve my own. Perhaps work with children who have social disabilities, and help them learn social skills. Become a Master Pick Up artist, and turn former AFCs into ladies men.

Man, I want to become a mPUA. I have lotsa learning to do. But I'm actually taking this goal seriously. I established a secret society with two friends I met this year. We have meetings during lunchtime, and I share what I learned about women.

These guys actually look up to me. They've been absorbing the concepts real well....and I am about to gain access to their social circle of females. We are going to have field challenges regularly, in fact this society started over a field test. This is going to motivate me to keep my skill polished, and improve, with my fellow aspiring ladies men. The winner of the field tests will probably become the leader.

It breaks my heart when AFCness ruins lives. Because it almost took mine.
My recovery is a hard process, that is not yet fully complete. But when I recover fully...I will make it so that others can recover too.

 

[GuyWithAProblem]

Sorry to be rude, but somehow I find it funny that you mention heavy petting and praying in the same sentence .

 

[Nino-Tk]

Good one with teaching your homeboys, I also found out that if you share with your friends, It makes you stay on top of the game.

 

[novaknight]

Sorry to be rude, but somehow I find it funny that you mention heavy petting and praying in the same sentence .

Haha. It's all good. I'm now a religious man...like I was as a child. Although of course, I interpret the Bible differently from your standard churchgoer.

Good one with teaching your homeboys, I also found out that if you share with your friends, It makes you stay on top of the game.

Yeah...I can't believe how much potential my club has. My lack of a social network has been holding me back...this can easily propel me foward.

I always wanted to be a technical expert somehow. I like breaking things down into systematic methods. And I'm very motivated to be better than others. This isn't the best personality to have for this, as I am supposed to become great with my homies, not beat them in a competition and watch them fall behind. That being said...being technical will allow me to analyze effectively, and document what works and what doesn't.

At one point I thought these traits held me back. Now I'm starting to realize...that they can actually help me accomplish my dreams, and turn into a master.

Tomorrow my league of future pimps will meet again. The topic is opening, and I will try to cover both canned, and natural/situational openers.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 23: Another Society Meeting

We had a meeting today. We went over everyone's strong points and what we can contribute. So Society Dude 1 (SD-1) is a specialist in group situations. He is crazy for asian chicks, and flirts with them all the time. And I seen him completely OWN groups of asian chicks he finds attractive. However he suffers from fear...he liked this girl but was too scared to ask her out. Really cool guy. I really see a lotta potential in him, hes really natural and lets everything flow.

SD-2 is a interesting fellow. He says he sucks with women. But I see that he is really good at making friends...and has a pretty sick, large social circle. He also is really good at situational openers. This might supply us with targets to test on. I like that guy too, he's cool and seems just as interested in learning as I am. Out of all three of us...if he can learn to harness his social circle...he has the most potential in high school.

Man...I feel it's a miracle I was able to form this club. Our strengths complement each other well, helping each other deal with our weaknesses.
And we even like different kinds of women! One of us likes white women, one of us likes asians, one of us likes brown women. That's perfect, we won't be competing over the same girl. We'll be winging each other, meshing our standout traits well.

We swore vows of secrecy for this, and we're all going to be in this together. However...we are thinking of trying to find a new member to induct. That's because we need an expert on fashion. We need a guy who's good at that, and also wants to join in our journey.

I just like to express my gratitude towards anyone who ever wrote any journals I read, or read my journal. You all are inspirational to me. Sorry if I miss you. But a few people stand out.

DJ452...thank you for your post reaffirming that I'm not gay. I feel that I slipped into it because I grew so desperate, absorbed by AFCdom. The twisted vines of homosexual thinking choked and tormented me for a while...But ever since I've been able to turn from my queer thinking, I feel so much better spiritually and mentally, mostly spiritually.

NorwegianDJ...I love your journal man. It was one of the main reasons I started this journal...you inspired me.

Nino-TK...man, you sold me on natural game. I have a lot to learn about it. But you are clearly a great role model here for that. You see, with my old gimmicks, they can work in clubs. But I don't see myself getting a real relationship out of canned material...and since I started the society...I want to improve it.

Last but not least...GuyWithAProblem...well dude, I'm a christian and an aspiring PUA. But...

Sorry to be rude, but somehow I find it funny that you mention heavy petting and praying in the same sentence .

...your post simply made my day.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 24: Tons of Enthusiasm

So today, I was took back by the enthusiasm the other members had. SD-1 says "yo, lets have a meeting, Nova!"

And so we did. We actually talked about a bunch of random stuff. Then we went over some plans for what to do with the club, and field tests we are going to have. Man...this is going to be REAL FUN.

I also saw a gorgeous, skinny blonde chick. She seems real quiet. I think she was in my math class last year, but I never really talked to her.

I got real queasy, but I decided to open her. And just project raw confidence, with a powerful voice.

I think I did well at first. Playful, lightheartedness. Pretty laid back, yet restrained enough not to degrade into foolishness. I don't even remember what it was about. But what I do know is that speaking in a confident manner is the way to go.

However, it died down, as I got stuck and had nothing left to say, and with her friends approaching I got nervous. That was when I shoulda number closed instead of ejecting. Next girl I hope to fix that.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 25.
Today we Had a meeting about our first field test. Supposed to be in a mall. We're pissed though cause we don't have a time when all of us are available. One guy has no ride and somebody is going to an amusement park and aquarium. I plan to do some sarging tomorrow though.

 

[Nino-Tk]

Man that post where you thanked us, nearly bought tears to my eyes, it was like a movie scene, too bad I don't know how you look like..haha Its a pleasure brother.
Let me tell you something, its good that you are learning with your friends. I remember when I discovered this site, I was like "Hell yeah, im gonna get all the women and im not tellin of my magic bullets"
but then as you can see from my journal, Kop, Zaza, Vettis and I became an even greater force once we started sharing our wisdom. Its great I tell you, so keep on with it. Man im proud!

 

[novaknight]

Entry 26: Obstacles of a Warrior.
I haven't been writing much because I was busy training, and studying.

Our plans fell apart last weekend. My parents are pretty overprotective at times. Don't get me wrong, they're the best people I ever known, but not being able to go out to the real world sometimes sucks. The real lame thing is that they don't trust people, and demand that I bring people over before I go anywhere. My friend's mom said that she felt kids hanging out in the mall are mere troublemakers, and didn't let him go.

If I'm not allowed to simply hang in the mall, I highly doubt I'd be allowed to go to parties. That's a huge setback. I'm going to have to learn to deal with this barrier.

This means I have to use school as a gaming ground. Well, I don't exactly have much things going for me there. My school is unique, as many girls are freaking prudes/bit(hes. It's a place where people can be lame, and its supposed to be an academically challenging place. I like the academics. Not the social stuff. The social dynamics of the school are just....not favorable.

However, I am not giving up. If these were the cards I'm dealt, I'm going to man up, and face the battle. I ain't gonna duck from girls just because I'm not the type of guy who would do well with women there.

And I didn't. Me and my buddy was sarging today, we had some sort of field trip, everyone was gathered up together. I failed to find any targets. So many god damned taken chicks! ARGH!

But I DID find a target for my buddy. It was a girl who liked him, and he sorta liked. Who always hung out with this annoying chick. Good thing I considered her a UG, cause its easier to wing when you're not attracted to his target.

Well....even though I had no success of my own today, I still felt I had a major success.

My winging was GREAT. I pulled the annoying girl aside. I entertained her with conversation. Nice thing about these things is that it's so easy to open! Just talk about situational stuff. I helped my friend get the ball rolling, and kept the annoying one distracted.

But man, I was pissed. My friend failed. He didn't go for it when it mattered the most. I was really disappointed.

I was almost angry. But then....I thought back to when I started. Too scared to approach a girl. And when things finally started going uphill big time.

It all started with an approach.

My friend DID approach. He's starting to go up the hill. God, that really touched me. He finally got the balls.

I have a lot of barriers to overcome. Developmental disorders, not being able to go to parties, and my previous rep in school (which I'm starting to beat). Does it suck? Hell yeah. Sometimes it feels like its too much for me. But it coulda been worse. Instead of having attention deficit, I could have been mentally retarded. I could be a cripple, or a deformed guy. You just gotta take the cards you're dealt, and rise above.

When I head off to college, these barriers are going to one day be lifted. And the reason why I want to get girls right now, is that I feel that it would be a waste if I finally get the optimal battlefield, but lack knowledge of how to fight this war.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 27: Start of a new week
Cut my hair on sunday, I got a fade. I like it, its masculine, and a great summer cut. Apparantly some people find it cool-lookin.

Training hard for a martial arts test, I really need to improve on pushups.

As of now, even though I still run my little seduction group, my focus has not been on girls. I feel that right now, there are much bigger things in life, like martial arts, school, and my spirituality.

I also have not been posting much recently, training has been taking up time.
I still lurk to read peoples journals though.

I want to get laid this summer though. That's my new goal.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 28: Target Acquired. Inspiration from other journals.

I read BPH's walls of text today. Nino's too. It seems that BPH favors a direct approach, that cuts straight to the point, with no fooling around.

I'm gonna try something like that tomorrow. Most of the material I read favors an indirect approach. But I actually feel that direct approaches are more liberating.

Think about it. You don't need no gimmicks. No funky routines to memorize. Just yourself. Confident delivery, which I have. My deep, sonorous voice certainly helps. Height adds extra presence too.

I acquired a target from one of my fellow Pimp-Club members.

Let's go. I'm ready to score, and get some digits tomorrow.

 

[novaknight]

Today's my big day. One of the few chances I have to score. At this point I'm just mentally preparing. Wish me luck

 

[novaknight]

AWW CURSED JESUS I TYPED UP THE HGUEST FIELD REPORT BUT IT GOT WIPED! GAAH!

I'll type it tomorrow.
It was good stuff.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 29: Field REPORT!!!

Okay, this is one of my best field reports ever.

Today, I went on a field trip, didn't want to go. But I'd fail the class if I refused to go, so I went.

The trip itself was blaah. But today was incredible.

When they let us roam the city in groups, me and my Pick up Crew roamed around, scouting targets. That didn't work out well, there wasn't many hotties and plus they're like twice my age anyways.

I got pretty pissed an archenemy of mine accused me of teaching someone how to become a player, overhearing our convos. Well, I'll be having a harsh word with that chump. No need for physical violence, it's something martial arts taught me well. But I don't take that kinda crap, that kinda gossip.

Well anyways, we headed back into the building. I found a target, lets call her HB Curvy, she has a nice ass. Kinda odd how attractive I found her considering I'm a fan of waify looking women. So it was a mixed set.
A group of 5 mixed girls/guys. Now, since I made myself straight, and I'm homo no more, I'm going for the chick.

I was just using natural game. To me, canned material gets chewed up in groups more easily.

I want to become natural. I don't believe in a "natural" many believe in. I believe that the best natural is by refining your approach, and your persona so much that everything becomes second nature. I want to approach so many girls it becomes almost like a reflex.

Ultimately the teachers wrecked my plans to number close cause they kept on telling everyone to shut the hell up. I'll get the number some other time, that's no sweat.

But my past experiences have helped me use naturalness today. I couldn't believe it! I done phenomenally with it! I charmed the whole group away, with no premeditated routines. None!

Perhaps the greatest thing I realized today is that girls actually find me attractive! I feel like I actually am a decent looking guy now! My hair grows straight out, it sucks when grown out. But when gelled, it looks rather nice short.

The girl was touching my hair, and saying how cool it felt. I feel like I don't need no lines, the girls are already into me!

Man...I'm still high from this victory.

Tomorrow I have another potential target. Someone from my little squad has given me a target. A blonde, thin, waify chick. I think shes good looking.

This is going to rock. It's gonna go down.

 

[BPH]

LOL my walls of text.

Good job on the approaches man, how are the girls over in Cali? I picture tan blondes with 10 bodies left and right.

 

[novaknight]

I don't actually live in Cali, though I've been there before. I just put it as my location so nobody I know can track me down.

The girls are pretty hot in Cali. Went there when I was a little kid...man so many hot girls on the beach. Probably not as many fatties then as there are right now.


My club is expanding, I'm on my way to becoming an instructor. Gained a new member today. I didn't intend this to happen, I don't even think I am worthy to be called a master yet. But as I see these younger guys who look up to me, I feel really touched. I'm going to be the best role model I can be for them in this field. And I am a student myself. I need to keep improving, refining, and leveling up.

I never got to meet the girl my friend CG-1 had a connection to. I also never was able to meet that girl I met yesterday again.

On top of that, I've been developing a bit of a rep as a player. That's both a good and a bad thing. I feel that there's nothing wrong with being a player. I add positivity to both my life, and my target's life. So really, what's wrong with being an aspiring seducer?

 

[Nino-Tk]

Yeah I know what you mean with that, as long as you are not the typical heartbreaker-manipulater type of player, then don't stress.
We have rights to be seducers.