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Self note/ self Reminder/ self uplift (3rd person) This post is a self reminder for myself, if for one day in the future i come to this state again so i can look back and reflect/ uplift myself and maybe others who read it too. Adz, its been 37 days since you last spoke to this ex. 37 days of...

Day 37 Thoughts of her are still coming and going, sometimes i hate her and don't think of her and get on with my things for almost a week then something triggers her to be in my mind again. Lately I've been getting an urge to unblock her off my Fb and whatsapp but I've been distracting myself...

I understand completely where you're coming from and agree with it. It's the fact I know she isn't going reach out again cos shes completly messed in the head. I know I should leave her to it with whoever she is with now etc. It's the fact that I know she's going for a major operation in the...

Day 30 NC still going strong, I've still got thoughts off her coming into my head. Today wasn't a good morning at all, it felt like all the thoughts came at once like a run away train. Part of me wants this dumb b1tch back for some reason, I have no idea why though. I've been over this before...

Good to hear that you're doing okay man, keep on going with it man you can do this. Also ignore that bit.ly thing, it's nothing. If she really wanted to get in contact with you she would have done so. My goals are slipping too, but immerse your self in things that you like doing so that you...

Day 28 Things have started to get easier and better the last few days, i still think of her but when i do i try and think of the present moment to try and forget about her. Been focusing more on gym, hobbies and education things now. I went out this Saturday that just went by, i danced with two...

Day 17 She kept on coming into my thoughts whilst at work, also had way too much time to think about other things at work and my boss was being a little b*tch. I feel full off rage right now and want to lash out. This amount of rage isn't healthy. I feel like wanting to smoke a cigarette, but I...

I'd be in the same boat as you man, whats keeping me back is that my close friends, family and sisters have said that she's a wack job and not to go back. If I did I know my close friends would slap me till I saw sense. Exactly that, the fact that she was a narscisstic, BPD, sociopath that had...

I can see that now, it didn't help that she was BPD, depressed and other bs. Strangely enough, it wasn't the same bs when I got back with her, it was different bs. I should have known better. A person cannot be helped or loved no matter how hard you try. You can only bring the horse to water...

I feel frustrated at myself that i allowed myself to get this emotionally invested in someone when i should have known better. Thats the part that i hate, that some days ill over look all the bad and still want that and others i won't. After reading this and writing out the full story of what...

Continued She ended up going to hospital one night cos she was in a lot of pain, so i took her there and spent most of the night there then went to college early the next day, then visited after, this went on for 2 days then she discharged herself the same day that i was going to London to see...

Blog/ Hello again SoSuave Now where do i start, It's been a very long time since i last posted on this. A lot of things have happened since my last post above. First the good news, I found a course in university that i wanted to do and applied for it, got some interviews and what not but i...

Day 13 So today was a holy festival day for me and my "religion". So I went to prayers etc and what not and got a whole bunch of msgs from other people about it I.e. "Happy celebration day, forgive me if I've done anything to hurt or offend you bla bla bla". So I'm going through my msgs and I...

TBH that's probably true, she changed a lot through the time I was with her. I'm resisting the urge to unblock her off things but leave her deleted. Adz--

I know where you're coming from. Mine and my ex's values where aligned for a while but they changed, either due to her or me losing my frame.

See this is the thing, I can't get her out of my head. I know that I want to help her cos she's going for a major surgery in a few months, but I know if I do I'm shooting myself in the foot. I left alot of things out in what I wrote about her, but she is psycho. Yet also my weakness like I'm...

Day 10 So, the pain and anger sides of things have gone down compared to before. I still do miss her at times and want her back, but I've realised that if she really wanted to have me back she would have made a serious effort to do so by anymeans and she has a lot of ways still to do that even...

Day 6- Feel confused and messed up- Advice needed Yesterday i got off my lazy ass and went to the gym and worked on my hobby. It felt great. Over the last 3 nights I've had intense dreams about my ex. I miss some part of her but i don't know what. I refuse to entertain the thought of getting...

Day2\ Hello again SoSuave Yesterday I blocked her off everything. The day before is the last time we spoke, we broke up over a month ago now. Was the second and last time getting back together with her. She's BPD or got parts of the following: Narccissistic Personality Disorder -Bipolar-...

Day 1 again Yesterday went well, i was smiling and i was feeling semi-content with my self and i was doing okay until she messed me. I didn't respond and then she sent another. I then replied 4/5 hours later. She contacted me last night with bs about twitter (she's blocked me but somehow i...