This will be the last update before the weekend hits but there is some funny sh!t going down in my world.
So last night the new plate came over and I was taking shots before she came so I was feeling good when she got there. We watched the movie and started making out my zipper came down and she was stroking it and I told her to suck it a couple times and she resisted saying "not on the third date".. I tried to get her into the bedroom and she resisted. I was cool with her resistance the whole time, I didn't care. When she left she thanked me for not being forceful. I was like "i'm not a rapist b!tch it's all good"
This morning, I admit I felt like a bit of a jerk for telling her to suck it but I just blew those feelings off since I don't really care about the girl. I didn't contact her all day and she started blowing up my phone when I left work. She APOLOGIZED for not putting out last night. I told her it's all good, I didn't have expectations I just wanted her to come over to hang out I didn't need sex. She wanted to see me again tonight but I told her I was too tired and blew her off. She called me out on the blow off, I just told her I'm no fun when I am tired. She just texted me saying goodnight, and she is thinking about me.
So plate #2 is flying 1000 miles to be with me tomorrow morning and all weekend even though I have to work most of the time. It will be fun, she was in chat tonight saying she loves me and wants to meet my parents. I am just completely playing her telling her don't worry everything will work out.
I am playing both of these girls. I'm getting used to this numb feeling and not caring. This is what works. Also it will keep me completely distracted so I don't obsess over my BPD ex which I think about for some reason.
When the EX comes back, it will be because of the plate spinning.