Day 45
Best day I’ve had so far internally. NC gets your confidence, and self-respect back, gives you clarity, helps you see the bigger picture and allows you to approach women going forward from a position of strength. When I think about where I was at the end of each of my three serious relationships and where I am now it makes me realise just how good things will be.
Few initial points. I am savage when it comes to applying ratings. When I say a 7, I mean a 7. Most people on SS talk about banging 9s when these girls are actually 6s/7s. Secondly, I’m 5’9, so when I rate myself I do so from the assumption the woman is not a height Nazi. I don’t find taller women proportionally attractive so never been an issue for me.
October 2010. Broke up with ex that brought me to SS after a 3 month one-itis fuelled relationship. HB 7. Physically I was an 8 when we met. When we broke up, I was a 6.5. Had lost all of my gains and skin was poor, as we met volunteering in a developing country (no gym, oily diet). Negative net worth, poor job prospects, weak bachelor’s degree.
October 2013. Meet BPD ex. HB 7.5. Looks-wise I am an 8 when we meet. Negative net worth but rectified my bachelor’s with a strong performance in master’s degree. Managed to land a great job. Have been working there for a year. When things ended with first ex in 2010, I could never imagine that 3 years later I would be working at one of the best companies in the world.
October 2016. Dealing with the aftermath of a BPD nightmare breakup. Struggle to maintain gains throughout the summer due to loss of appetite and depression like symptoms. I am around a 7 in the summer but manage to get back to an 8 by Autumn. Lose job, have some debt and minimal savings of c. $30k. Net worth, maybe $20k.
October 2018. Present day. Broken up with HB 8.5. Physically, she is one of, if not the hottest girls I have been with. When we met a year ago looks-wise I was an 8.5. When we broke up, I was a 7.5 (loss of size) I’m now probably an 8. Aiming to be a 9 within six months as I recover from injury, improve my diet and get a personal trainer. My net worth sits at a little under $300k. I own two investment properties, have 3 years’ worth of living expenses in the bank, make six figures a year in my dream job, rent in one of the nicest parts of town, wear a Rolex, have prominent positions in multiple start-ups, can work from home whenever I feel like it and fly away to foreign countries with ease. All this and I'm not even 30 yet.
I’m not saying any of these things are representative of good character, but when I look back at where I was even just two years ago it amazes me how far I’ve come. And the patterns don’t lie. The chances are the next girl is going to be better than the last one in every way. So how can I stay mad?
I’m excited for the future. As a man as long as you improve, life gets better.
