beatjunkie said:
i've done nothing but think about u for the last week.
i dont like to end things in a bad way and i dont like fighting.
just wanted to say i'm sorry for all the times i hurt you and that i wish you all the best.
wanna send that so bad
Dont, it will only make things worse. Just think if she doesnt reply, you will be sat there waiting for a text, making your thoughts even worse....
Also, it will feed here ego, and you dont want that, be the man and walk away keeping NC, you have to do this for you, and you only, it will make you stronger in the long run.....
I wrote this a few days ago, read it if you havent already, hopefully it will help:
"A few pointers i have learned over the years -
Your relationship ended because it was meant to, If it wasn't, you would still be together.
A breakup should be viewed positively, learn from it, better yourself for the next one. Think of it as a lesson for yourself.
Most, if not all relationships these days are some form of emotional attachment to someone, like a drug, when the drug (girlfriend) is available you are happy etc, when the drug is removed (dumped etc) you want it more and are unhappy - Is this love? i dont think so......
further to my point above, NC is like going into rehab, getting clean from the emotional attachment you had with this person, and is the best way to heal and make you stronger - Be the man and walk away!
Better yourself, become active, go out with friends, staying in waiting by your phone for a text/call is wasting your life, put your self first, not an ex.
Always look forward, never backwards, you will have plenty more relationships in your life time, trust me.
A quick story before i go.
My first proper girlfriend, went out for over a year, did loads together etc thought she was the one (naive). She ended it, and i was all over the place, texting, showing up at her house, when she went out to clubs i would be there - What do you think this looks like ? loser right.... i cringe looking back at my actions, but in a way gave me lessons on how not to behave after a breakup....
Fast forward to now, my last ex i actually finished 4 weeks ago, going out a year, but she still lived with her ex and no matter how much i asked her to sort it, nothing got done, so i simply ended it, deleted her out of my life and walked away, best thing i have ever done and i feel empowered doing it - She texts from time to time, but i simply ignore, delete and get on with my life.
In a nutshell,
Your relationship ended, not your life....... Hope you all get on ok, any questions please ask "
