Day 24
This is my first post
I found this website a couple of weeks ago, right after my ex left me, and it has helped me get through things tremendously.
I initiated no contact about a week after the breakup and have been successful so far. But I'm not going to lie, its been the hardest thing in my life.
Quick background - I dated this chick for 5 years (all through college, like an idiot), moved in with her a year ago, we both talked about marriage, kids, the whole nine yards; then one day, out of the blue, she said we needed to talk. She said she wasnt happy enough with me and didnt consider me husband material. (at the time, i was looking at engagement rings) Obviously, this was a total shocker, It was like a didnt even know who the f this person was. I've never seen her act or talk like this to me before. So yeah, I got booted out of her apt and have been crashing on my friends couch for the past few weeks, looking for a new place.
I've been pretty miserable since then, crying everyday for the first week or so. but the last week has been ok - getting better sleep and all that. Exercise helps.
This girl is/was my best friend, and I thought we were going to spend the rest of our lives together.
Sidenote- My first attempt at no contact failed, I was a week into and she sent me an email - in it she asked how I was planning on paying my half of the rent for the first two weeks of the month that I was still living with her. What a *****.
I responded by saying Really? I left you this and that, payed for half of all this and that (i left a lot of furniture and other things at the apt because we split it when we purchased it).
Then she responded with " im sorry, i wasnt trying to offend you, thanks for leaving the things you left. I love you and I miss you"
So this is my second stint at NC and the above email from her is the last time I've had contact with her, 24 days ago.
I did see her the other day walking her dog with a gf of hers, she didnt see me, i was driving back from work, but i thought i was going to have a heart attack. Ha. This sucks.