The Life and Times of a Philly College Kid

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 19,2012

Field Plan: First intramural game today.We won 2-0 . I didnt score but I set up good plays. I started the game as striker but i ended up supplying rather than scoring and i dont mind that. Before the game i was heading into the school market store to get a powerade but i saw Elizabeth. Idk why but i then changed my mind and continued to the field to warm up like a wuss. I still havent gotten any numbers this week so i am failing here . Earlier in the day i saw hot econ girl in class (Joana) after econ but she was with the indian dude again.

Workout: Played soccer today

Food: Had some sweets but im not gonna make a habit of this

Goals Reached:
I think it is better if i go back to #'s in this category. Helps me see what needs to be done while being organized

1. No goals today
2. Still no damn job. BUT i did apply for vice president of international business club. Ambition!
3. STILL A VIRGIN
4. NO NUMBERS THIS WEEK
5. 3.2 gpa
6. Joined and applied to the board of Drexel Int. Business Association. one down one to go!
7. Yes. THis goal i have been kicking the **** out of for sure!
8. Likewise with this one. still need to cold approach tho

"Believe you can and you're halfway there."

Today I am grateful for:
A.Boring my friends textbook
B. Starting my intramural game (only 4 players on field while 10 on team total)
C. Victory beer back in the dorms afterwards

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 20, 2012

When I was younger and more nervous/less confident, having something in my head to talk about (canned lines) used to help a lot, at least to get the conversation started.

But, there's a balance. It sounds to me like the whole time you could have just been talking to the girls, you were thinking of ways you could try to impress them, what to say if they respond a certain way, and all these factors outside of your control.

Sometimes, it's better not to think and just talk. I'm not saying tell a girl to her face that she has some nice titties (but I'm also not saying to NOT do that... sometimes it works... haha), but, you know, just go with it.

For me, canned lines worked best as an opener (when I was younger). After that, you just have to be an interesting person. You seem to have a lot going on, so you should be set on that front. Just stop trying to predict everything because that's what's putting the pressure on you.

I think you froze because you were thinking too much about possibilities, instead of thinking about actions. Don't worry so much, dude. Worst thing that happens is they don't dig you. I doubt you'd fail so spectacularly that they'd talk to every girl on campus about it. And even if you did, whatever. You cool, brotha.

@ Above: this is why I love talking to you
Field Reflection: This day i was chillin. Woke up for civic engagement mad early and spent half the day cleaning and gardening a garden in the middle of the hood. Made me realize how lucky I am to have the life i do. There was a hot girl who worked for the organization but i didnt do anything to her because i thought it wasnt the time or the place. Afterwards I played soccer and went to the market. as i left, my friend and i ran into Elizabeth. :yes: We said hi and in the reflection i saw her look back at me and check me out:box:, it was so cool!..... Then my two chick friends came over and we all payed kings cup and went to the roof with my bro's. My one chick friend wanted to hook up (signs were all there) BUT shes not that spectacular and I stick to my principles so I didnt. then i went longboarding at 4:00 am

Workout and Hobbies: longboarding and pickup soccer

Food: goood

School: Did a peer review among other

Goals Reached:
Same as yesterday

"Either you run the day or the day runs you."

Today Im grateful for
A. Goal in soccer
B.Seeing Elizabeth
C. Having no class

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 21, 2012

Field Report: Woke up hella late, and chilled for most of the day. Found out Sarah (cookie girl) is commited so shes off the list. No worries, all love. Later in the night went to the theta chi house with a friend. Most kids were nerdy/offbeat but i clicked real well with some kids there. One kid was a sophmore who was real as hell, no bs like the stereotypical frat guy gives. We talked about the fraternity and he (with some of the offbeats, but i value his down-to-earth and chill opinion more than the others. No offense ofcourse) wanted me to join. They thought i was awesome and i was all like . Appreciate that sh*t. And another bro, he's from st. petersburg and dropped out but hes around the city and comes around time to time and i happened to come over when he was there. He's into the whole spiritual scene like i am for the same reasons (psychedlics and other drug usage) and we both are huge house heads and he showed me crazy tracks. He's into hardstyle which i dont really care too much about but we were all drunk enough to dance to it. We then left to some frat bro's own place and they bumped/smoked whatever they had while i killed my last natty i had. Oh yeah, at the party I realized i got zero numbers this week so I basically (out of fear of failing) gave me number to this one chick.luckily tho, she was diggin it and she added me on facebook today lol. But i dont really plan on doing anything.Another thing i just noticed, I make HUGE efforts to get numbers from chicks but I dont really make much emphasis on texting/talking to them. Im so focused on getting digits that im relieved once i get them and i never really follow up (jaclyn and shawna are two hot girls i havent texted yet). Instead, i should focus on planning dates and spending time with girls.Getting numbers is just a stepping stone....But still, its a big stepping stone which leads to the ultimate goal: VAGINA:rockon:

Food/workout: Drank a ton of beers and didnt workout

School: Did some serious library time. YES

Goals Reached:
1. Going to follow thru with all my sent out applications. Get whats up because this is getting ridiculous. NO JOB!?

2. Got a number from an average chick. Being complete honest, she isnt a dime like i like them (very average) but i would totally fvck her. Might go back to the house and if shes there, im gonna get it. Im at the point where i stopped emphasizing losing my virginity to a girl that is outstanding. An analogy: Instead of taking a huge bite out of the burger right from the get-go, im gonna take smaller nibbles first. Then once i lose my virginity and the presumed (ya never know, i could be a natural ) poor display in the sack is with a girl i dont care about, i can gain experience for the girls i want to blow away. Packing heat is just one aspect of being a sex god

3. School's not where i want it to be. Im losing motivation on my work and i devote a good part of my day to socializing. Thats the true curse of college..... enough sleep, social life, good grades. You can only pick two. Let's hope this term the lowest grade I get is a B-. Straight A's seem distant to me now

4.Got digits. More importantly, from now on i need to follow through

5. Havent heard back from DIBA (business club). hoping i get the position....

6. Talking to everyone and i plan on going swimming monday

"Wear your ego like a loose fitting garment"

Today I'm grateful for
A. Free alcohol at Theta Chi
B. Meeting a few cool couple of kids there
C. Being lucky enough to not live in the third world. thought a lot about how serious many people make their lives out to be when their struggles are **** compaed to someone trying to find food to feed their children. BE GREATEFUL PEOPLE

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 22, 2012

Field Report: Woke up late again. Forget to write this about yesterday, but I ran into my friend Bryan from Chinese. He bartends and i asked how it was cuz im interested. He wasnt very happy and we talked about the piss-poor attitutes he has to deal with. Im kinda turn off....But ill continue to give it thought. Next year, if i work as a bartender, i can learn a cool trade while making cash. I think im also the type to be able to handle drunk *******s because i can be very straightforward when i have to be. It also took him a lot to get where he currently is with busying and cleaning and sh*t, but im all about working hard to succeed. What's life without a struggle? Anyway, the weather's crap so i went to the northside market to eat instead of the dining center after studying with a friend and i ran into Elizabeth with her chick friend. We hit it off like old friends catching up . This is where my happiness comes in because ive truly come a long way. I know the ultimate goal is to have sex with girls but i love the journey getting there. I was so fluid with everything i did. Pin-point timed kino, ful eye-contact to the point where she was the one looking away nervously, witty and situational jokes, established high value by talking to another hot blond in front of me when Elizabeth was talking to her friend/the cashier, and in the end i got here number and a verbal agreement to go rock climbing with me (i love using the rock wall for dates ) all in front of her friend too. It was all so natural too, very little effort came forth once we started talking. I just remained present and had an empty mind. Whatever she gave me, i gave back plus more. I didnt have any racing thoughts and i was not worried in the slightest. I texted her afterwards and im gonna wait some before i tell her about a time and place to meet up. C'est la vie

Food/workout: Had a milkshake and the gym was neglected for the second time this weekend. Will change that tomorrow

School: studied for chinese and IAS

Goals Reached:
1. Havent folded thru yet with the jobs yet.whoops
2. Got Elizabeth's number. Although its great, she does have a boyfriend. If I continue my sexual contentment will be at the price of another guy's relationship. Its sad but ive sacrificed my own happiness for anothers' my whole life. I don't want to cheat with a girl at all but I want her. It's tough, the dating scene.
3. Should have studied for econ cuz my midterm is in two days. didnt:trouble:
4. Elizabeth is in my contacts. And late in the night i ran into two friends and they invited me to play a game of '**** a chick first'. I feel like i am losing my values by both participating and telling them what i have been doing.Its weird sharing what i have been up to and im totally bugged of other people knowing my ****. got the weird feeling of being judged even if they didnt care and were worried about their own business. I think because i tell them these things and the girls i persue, they expect me to do things even though they prob couldnt care bout my issues. Whatever, Im not trying to get laid for them or for bragging rights, but for me. Ofcourse when i said this though, i they interpreted me as bragging...............And im afraid i might have jinxed myself LMAO. writing that made me realize how stupid a thought that was. We all are also really attached to our egos (i am whenever i am around John, its bad) and thats never the way to go. IDEA!!!!! when i bag a chick, im NOT going to tell them.Thats transcendentalism I will be above ego based competition.
5. Havent heard back
6. Going swimming and gym tomorrow. Always being social:woo:
7. Also fiddled with the flute when i woke up. This was bad, almost forgot about this

"A good traveler has no fixed plans and is not intend on arriving."

Today I'm grateful for:
A. Good convo with Elizabeth
B. Idea of ordering Chinese.By friend John paid in quarters and the dude was PISSED. felt like **** for it.
C. Realizing that I get very attached to my ego around said friend. I feel threatened for alpha position. The fact that i feel threatened shows that I still have work to do. Always accept whatever happens and go with the flow in life, attachments lead to dissapointment. I attach HARD around this kid and I should not care. I will not soon enough in the future.

 

[loveshogun]

I'm hearing the name Elizabeth a lot. If she's cool, cool. Just don't forget there are other women out there.

Remember, until she's sitting on your meat rollercoaster, you gotta keep hunting. And even then, phew. The game doesn't wait for you.

Also, I know your goal in this thread is to get laid, but remember your goal in life is to be awesome. Being awesome is more important, and will get you laid more in the long run.

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 23, 2012

@shogun: Yeah that's true. I don't have any serious feelings over here, its gonna take me a while before i commit myself to one(maybe thats why ive never had a long-term girl), but she does seem super cool. Again though, i have to keep the focus on myself. I appreciate all the help you give me Shogun. With your own business to attend to, it means a lot that you take some time out of your way to help me out. Good looks:rockon:

Field Report: Inspired by the advice i have been given above, I'm gonna have a quick paragraph of the day's highlights in this category and then chart out my potential lays and the details involving them. This does not mean i'm gonna put all my efforts from this journal on them, i still am here stricly for self-improvement. But writing about the girls keep me organized and it will remind me of sh*t i forget regarding them. Also i will try to recap the weeks news each Sunday now which will force me to re-read my own posts and monitor my progress/behavior. So today i talked to some blonde in co-op we got placed in a group of her me and my good friend Reed (who is probably one of the most sought after freshman on campus because of his looks. His afc behavior is bad tho) and she opened the light convo with us. Encouraged that she was already diggin us, i continued and all was well. She seems cool so i'll try to get to know her better next time in class. only prob is that co-op 101 is a once-a-weeker. Went to gym, talked to the front desk girls and held long ass eye contact as i was very friendly/happy with them. This is great for confidence because after doing this for some time they immediately smile when i come around and expect my greetings. Dunno if i wanna pursue, def plan to talk to them more than just 'hi' and 'how are you?'. Went to english,Jaclyn was looking extra fine as usual and she greeted me first. She asks about my day, i tell her its awesome with my huge smile, and i dont care enough to ask her about her's lmao. Pretty sure shes lookin at me (she sits behind me kinda) for a good amount. i make a point to answer all the questions i can/crack jokes cuz these are all mannerisms of a boss and i happen to be one . She makes herself approachable afterwards and we chit-chat and whatnot.Tells me to contact her if i need help with the english stuff. ill contact her but school related things will be the last thing we discuss. She then meets up with Lauren (same chick i was diggin before, but Jaclyn is finer) and i say whats up but i should have asked her about her birthday yesterday.Would have been good convo fodder, ill ask her if i see her tomorrow. Any other day though afterwards i wont..thats just weird that i remembered. Did bad tho and found myself on those websites again doing the deed. SO thats twice in 2 days. So far my energy/optimism hasnt dropped like it usually does when i jack but i honestly dont know why I did these two things. Im doing very well and instead of trying harder to fvck i just go online and do the deed. BUT IM SO CLOSE TO BANGING..kinda...STILL!!! I hope i dont lose my motivation (so far ive still been a baller , not gonna take it advantage though). Also, ihollored at some random chicks a few times today. they were cute so i would say stupid things to them in front of my friends to display my new found balls-to-the-walls persona. Also, its the first step to gaming an actual stranger: Saying something to them. Finding it within you to talk to her is already half the job finished

So here's my chart of girls i'd totally lay AND ive been talking to:

Melissa [Chances: low]= Havent really talked to her all term.We both mutually lost interest even though we both say hi when we see each other. Im gonna test mysef by bringing up the subject of eating venezualan next time i see her. Best case scenerio she says yes, worse cause she declines and i get this weight off my chest. Win-win and our lives go on regardless.

Elizabeth [Chances: high]= She digs me and i dig her. Shogun's words are truth, at the end of the day shes still just a chick .Shes also got a boyfriend and her facebook looks like shes commited even though her behavior around me says otherwise. Im never one to cheat for just easy sex but if she is looking for something more, than i won't say no. Next time i see her im gonna invite her out to rock-climbing. I dont like using technology to dealing with women.

Jaclyn [Chances: medium]= she's def a prospect. Only issue is that i only regularly see her once a week in english. I should have sat next to her today (she's very pretty so no one goes near her out of intimitation) but i cowarded out. Next class i will come late that way i force myself to sit next to her cuz that will be the first available seat. She has a guy too but what else is new with beautiful women. She currently thinks of me highly which is what i must always maintain in her head if i wanna catch this one. Stilll thinking this one thru too. Im gonna text her but i really wanna talk about things other than school, need to freshen my noggin by reading old articles regarding texting girls/changing the focus to fun stuff.

Lauren [Chances: low]= I stopped trying to do much with her. One time i talked to her she seemed distant kind of and her friend Jaclyn is more attractive (still lauren is HOT) but lauren is single. My plan is to game Jaclyn,if she rejects my approached to things more than school (she reserves all the right to cuz shes got a man) ill tell her that I think Lauren is cute. I'll let that set in her head while I go get to know Lauren because I basically force myself to follow up on my word that way i dont look like a *****.

Jen [Chances: High] She's the whorish hb i've been talking about. Recently havent seen her around. My friend hits me up to tell me to hit HER up but i dont have her #...means i should have asked for her digits by now, this forces me to get her number ASAP. Will talk about all these girls for each interaction i have with them. Also will add/drop prospects (such as dropping Sarah, who is in a committed relationship with a kid im chill with) Also these are the girls that are the dimepieces. Ill settle for a fling with average to cute girls but these hot ones are the chicks i really want. Go big or go home eh?

Workout/food: Didnt eat anything really bad but im considering changing my philosophy on food. Instead of not eating anything bad, ill just eat things that are good. This sounds a bit redundant but lemme explain. instead of focusing on not eating brownies, ill focus on taking the whole-wheat option. Hit the gym today and did some biceps and back. I wanted to go swimming but time is against me this week.

School: So. Damn. Busy.

Goals Reached:
With the exception of playing with the junk, ive been on point today. Way too busy to fill this column out

"Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralizing." No one is perfect, we all fail. Accept this and you will be golden

Today I' m grateful for:
A. Realizing how much i need to study for Chinese. I neglect this too much man. Every night im going to review some notes because ive been embarrassing in class.
B. Remembering my funny friend Riling who's ballsy as hell and will holler at any/all attractive girl he sees, doesnt matter. His attitude of not caring what they think is what inspired me to holler at hot girls today too/give flirtatious nods and looks/ doing dumb stuff to get me out of my comfort zone.
C. Having no more morning classes the rest of the week
C.

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

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Appears my post from yesterday was deleted. What's the deal yo?

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 24, 2012

Field Report: Can't remember this day really, had a post on here but it was deleted. From what i remember this day was average so i'll just pretend it was. Had an econ exam, went to a peace corps meeting, talked to a lot of people like usual.

Girl list thing-
Dont even remember but melissa liked my status and she did the same for a wallpost today. I'd take her on a date again, im in need of a good lay

cant even remember anything else here...laaaaame

 

[Love Me Do]

Keep it up doode

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 25, 2012

Field Report: So today was cool but i went 3/4 in terms of beating it. It literally took me three times of beating the meat to realize WHAT AM I DOING.....I am a college kid, WITH tons of prospects and im wasting my sexual energy on myself?! .I dont know why i realized this so late but yeah im stopping so my hornyness level skyrockets again and my **** basically leads me to the next chick. In univ 101, i talked to a cute blonde who lives in my building. Just small talk but she was receptive and smiled. Then talked to the small oriental chick next to me for a while too but even though i totally would fvck just to get laid, i dont plan on following thru with her. Shes kinda beat. But shes outgoing so if im drunk and i see her....Then i ran into lauren and she looked away once i came near. Not a good sign at all but do i care? not really. Then melissa liked my **** on facebook again. Girls really overthink liking stuff so she must have some sort of purpose behind all this. She's not a plotting cvnt, so she must want to start talking again. I'll shoot her a text tomorrow (along with Elizabeth about rock climbing) if my phones working. OH YEAH! bad news: My phone is dead. Comes back to life every now and then but on the college social scene and ESPECIALLY the kind of life i live and plans i have, this **** is a serious handicap.

food/gym: serious abs, ran a mile, played two games of basketball. Ate really healthy too until dinner, but had two delicious slices of pizza from ed's pizzeria.

Girls today
Lauren ignored me. Dont really mind too much, this comes with time/having options.
Melissa liked my fb stuff
I neg hit jaclyn's fb post
Nothin jen related, havent seen her around.

"Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."Sick quote. What I am trying to do on this college scene

Goals Reached
1. I jacked it today so thats the opposite of what this journal is about. Im not in middle school anymore so tough it up keenan.If your dying so hard to bust a nut, do it in a chick.
2. Scored some sweet points in ball. My J keeps getting better and better.
3. Too late to continue right now but I didnt grab numbers, i did talk to everyone (im really sociable now like that) and thats that.

Today I'm grateful for
A. Scoring good points in ball
B. Lucky goal in fifa
C. The great weather

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 26, 2012

Field Report: Today had its ups and downs. Great chance to say something to Joana in econ as she passed in front of me to leave but i didnt damn...inspired from my failure, i approached some french african girl from english who was eyeing me from class the other week and i started some small talk. Then in the evening, i flirted with a girl at the northside market who was in yoga pants (i just had to man) and i saw two hot girls that had interest in me that i talked to last week cuz they were supporting the other intramural soccer team's players but i knew them from first term so i talked to them then and again tonight. Invited them out to come watch us play next game and they were so down. Both are great lookin girls too. and hahahahahahhahahhahahhahahahaha and then my friends and I were comparing hottest girls from our graduating class on facebook and I ACCIDENTLY LIKED THE GIRL'S pic hahahahhahaha it was awkward as h3ll..hahahah god damn, and idk if it will show up on everyone's feed but i unliked that stuff asap. I think it will go to her notifications but i couldnt give a dam about that. Just dont want people to know we were stalking on my fb. IT FEELS SO AWKWARD HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAH GAAAAH!!!

Melissa [chances: medium]: Wanted to text her today but my phone is broke. same for elizabeth this sucks hard dude, im at a HUGE disadvantage with everything. same goes for all other girls so far except for
...Jaclyn [chances:high] she liked my neg hit. Im goin for the kill my plan is to sit next to her next class and FLIRT like a boss.

Exercise/work out: game of soccer and ate pretty well but had a bunch of flatbread pizza

Goals reached:
1. had intramural soccer today and we lost. Was pretty pissed off. we hit the bar three times too!
2. failed! couldnt text the girls i wanted today bummed out. I did say hey to Elizabeth's friend from the other day and she gave me the look.

"Wherever you go, go with all your heart."

Today I'm grateful for:
A. No rain till after my game
B. Sleeping in
C. No class tomorrow

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 27, 2012

Field Report: Idk what to say about today........Woke u at three and then ate, went to the gym, and chilled with friends. Got drunk and fought my good friend John. He ended up bleeding very baldy, **** this. I also told my chick friend JUlia about me and my plans. Girls will **** your stuff up so im not too happy, idk what shes gonna do.

Food/workout: ate good except some brownies and ice-cream and late night drunken pizza. I did back and biceps in the gym..

School: did serious hw so thats a plus

Girls:
Lauren [chances: low]- i invited her up to our floor uz shes julias friend. I didnt really display my worth as a awesome person even though i talked to her a lot. Also saw her earlier in the gym today and saw story even thugh i small talked her. Afraid she might talk to jaclyn about me not being alpha. I should have been more of a boss

Mellisa,Jaclyn, Elizabeth: None my phone is broken

Jen: [chances: medium]- I saw her hugged her and chatted her. Ate and had dinner with her and her crew. But i wasnt alpha enough. And i didnt put my number in her phone eventhough i had the chance. toooooo damn shy, how dumb am i? and i saw a hot girl at the gym but i was too shy to approach. Did talk to the rental equipment girls tho

"Friendship is always a sweet responsibilty, never an oppourtunity." true for today. we started fighting over stupid stuff and i ****ed him up really bad. I cried and my night was ruined. I am not happy and im not looking forward to talking to him tomorrow. This is the same kid who fightsme for alpha dog position,its bad that this happened cuz idk whats it gonna be like.

Today im grateful for:
A. realizing how dumb my fight was
B. going to the gym
C. Hot girls coming to chill even though i did reverse game and possibly ended up friendzoning myself with Lauren

Goals:
idk if i have the spirit for this. I played basketball today but I had a bad 24 hours today. Starting from the awkward facebook like to the fight with one of my best friends here. Im feelin ****ty

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 28, 2012

Field Report: Depressing day.. I tried to talk to John but he was in absolutely no mood to talk to me. This is the kind of person that will hold grudges for years so i'm afraid this friendship is over. Behind my back he tried to get the entire floor to blacklist me which is dirty. I feel really sad but I guess its kind of deserved. He ended up at the ER last night and had to get staples for the laceration. Luckily, because I'm so social i have other friends but he was a part of my main group. I'm going to try to talk to him tomorrow about it but we'll see what happens. I'm just really down.

Jen- Saw her today, kind of blew me off. but she was with some tall dude and i didnt really care. I spit negative game yesterday around her so now i'm suffering the consequences. Likewise with Lauren but these two girls are just that, girls. no biggie. Just time to spin more plates if i messed up beyond the point of repair.

Food/workout: Ate kind of well but i still eat super late which is really bad. From now on no more food after 10:30....... Gonna do abs and yoga in a bit to get my mind off the sadness

School: wrote half a page of one of my papers. Not nearly enough accomplished

Hobbies: Did some Qi Gong when I first woke up. Was really therapeutic

"The Happiest People Don't Have The Best of Everything. They Just Make the Best of Everything" Guess its perspective. Fvck being sad

Today I'm grateful for:
A. Friends who comforted me yesterday. meant a lot
B. Other friends I hung out with. Meant a lot to have them around.
C. That quote to remind me its never as bad as you think. In life, you are bound to have people who don't like you. Just 't respond to them in the opposite manner and you win. <3 haters :rockon:

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 29, 2012

Field Report: Better day but still not the best. Couldn't get John on his own so I still haven't come clean to him. I saw Joana (hot girl from English) and talked to her. I dominated the convo slightly but i still managed to get a few smiles. Need to be more of a listener rather than a talker. My chick friend and I spent most of the day studyin and she tells me i'm the coolest kid in campus cuz i know a **** ton of people. This is good because I'm trying to be the best I can be and being well known/cool is always a plus. Besides work, I just chilled. I can still feel the pissed/sad/bothered feeling from the fight but I know once I talk to him it will go away. Whether he accepts my apology or not. i also need to figure out what i need to say besides i'm sorry. I'm thinking of telling him that 'i'm not there to try to win him over or have him accept my apology, but just to know that i'm truly sorry. I'm tired of feeling mad at myself so i'm coming clean by telling you that I ****ed up bad'. That's that. I'm not gonna throw myself at him, i'm just gonna man up take responsibility by apologizing.

Workout/food: Ate great today (didnt eat after dinner) but i didnt work out. Thats okay because thats what i'm trying to do tomorrow.

School: Very productive. The entire day was practically devoted to work

Hobbies: Couldnt really do much fun things today besides late night FIFA but video games arent my real hobbies, just a silly past time w/friends

Goals Reached
1. My goal for intramural soccer- 2 games into the season and I have yet to score a goal. 0/5 so let's hope that my MOJO is on this next game. It's the playoffs baby...
2. My goal for grabbing numbers- this goal has a SERIOUS dent because my phone is broken. I wanted to take out THREE girls this past weekend/ game them over time but because it's broke i am prevented from doing so. I'm afraid the long time it takes for me to text them is making them think i'm not interested/rude.
3. Goal for losing virginity- same as above.
4. Goal for high gpa- getting econ midterm back tuesday. Fingers crossed :woo: Also getting high ass grades in english which i'm very proud of. Easily toughest class i'm taking bar econ (which wouldn't be hard if i devoted enough time to it). Also signing up for chinese tutoring tomorrow
5.Goal for approaching hot girls/people- approached a lot of people, and everyone on the elevator. Wrote happy birthday to hot girls i know from last year just to build morning confidence to start my day
6. Goal for going swimming/rock climbing- bummed out. Wanted to take Elizabeth climbing today but phone prevented me. If there are technologically conscience don juans out there, should i just im them over facebook? in my mind, there is just as big a difference between hitting a girl up on her cell or chatting her on fb. Also, fb is not reliable like telephones are. Going swimming tomorrow hopefully.
7. Goal for joining clubs- haven't heard back from DIBA. starting to think i was dumb for applying for vice president like that. I'll still go to their meetings but i should have been happy with event coordinator and then wait over time till i get higher positions. We'll see what happens. Also trying to join tae kwon do club
8. Goal for a job- nada....i think its safe to say that this goal isnt gonna happen sadly On the brightside, i got a job for the summer. Because i failed this job, I'm gonna write in red and bold 'FAILED' so i feel inspired to not have fail again..Let's do great things instead

"A successful man is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks others have thrown at him." Be fluid like water

Today I'm grateful for:
A. My friend thinking i'm super cool. Nice thing to know
B. Convo with other friend i haven't seen in a while
C. Talking to hottie Joana. Need to be sexual more and talk more and i'm awesome

This past week's analysis
This week I flirted with Elizabeth like a champ and got her number. Also, the bad vibes between me and John are first brought up with my proposal to join the competition of 'get laid first'. Very odd that a week ago today i highlight out bad blood and a week later i end up fighting him. Is this really friendship? I write about him last sunday, "I attach [to my egp] HARD around this kid and I should not care. I will not soon enough in the future". Ironically enough, i was so attached to my ego that i fought him drunk when he told me to leave his room. I'm totally a **** for fighting him but its funny how life works out. Gonna sit next to Jaclyn in class tomorrow too. Couldnt reach my goals of taking to Elizabeth or Melissa cause the phones broke. Could have been a very different week if otherwise. So this weekend I...got a bid for a fraternity I did not even go to any events for, brought 4 hot girls to the party, got in a fight and send the other kid to the ER, and managed to get all my homework done. Pretty boss except that the kid was John.... Bar friday night, this week was a success. Could have been better if i dated the girls and didnt fight but these things happen so just accept and move on

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 30, 2012

Field Report: Generally great day.. Woke up and found I did not receive the position of vice president but event coordinator instead. I'm very happy with that. Then went to co-op. Super cute blonde chick behind me gave tons of eye contact but me, surprised, broke the eye contact. Then i was at a loss for words when I finally talked to her. Was awkward lmao oh well.. Then went to pool and swam 26 laps like a fvcking champ. Chilled and felt good for the rest of the morn/ early afternoon. Talked to John before English. Let him know how i feel, that i'm sorry, and that i truly f*cked up for real. Pretty sure he harbors the same negative feelings but he thanked me for his apology. After getting this very scary thing out of the way, i realized how dumb it would be if I got too scared to talk to Jaclyn in class. I came late like i planned but teacher advisors were around so i couldnt sit next to her. Participated a lot in class though and answered a ton of questions and was very outgoing as usual. She packed her stuff up slowly (i noticed) and i caught her on the way out. Small talk/light flirting and joking/kino ensued and I invited her to come hangout with us next weekend on the 10th floor. Issues with this though..1. I have beef with John, the kid who has the hang-out room. My room is bad because my room-mate. and 2. I'm going home friday to get my phone fixed (it's been so hard to talk to people, let alone girls without my phone. Not blaming my issues on not having a phone but i fully intended to hit up Melissa and Elizabeth via phone when my confidence was very high last week and i got great recent signals.......Then watched City beat United D ) and went to Chinese. Afterwards I felt sad again because everyone was hanging out in John's and i had no where to go. Felt ****ty even though prior to this I had a SICK day. Went to the gym afterwards and played two ****ty games of basketball before doing chest and triceps. Then i broke my 10:30 eating rule cuz i was really hungry and had a 6-inch subway sandwhich and protein drink.

Jaclyn [chances: seemingly high]: I continued to display my awesome self in class and i partied with some of her best friends, one who is my own good friend, who must have put a good word in (hopefully) cuz she was eager to talk. She told me about her weekend where she saw her boyfriend (brought up her boyfriend slowly) but I acted nonchalantly and asked what she do. All is flowing smoothly here.

Saw Elizabeth sitting with her back towards me with her same friend from super far but i didn't go towards them to eat and instead watched the soccer game on my laptop. perhaps a different alternative could have been used here? and as i ate, same hot spanish chicas ate near me and they might have seen me watching the game but they looked at me as i walked away.

School: Finished two essays. Just found out one might be completely wrong though................ damn it

Hobbies: swam and played basketball even though i didnt play well.

Goals reached:
1. Looks like there is no intramural game this week, damn
2. Don't even know how I'm gonna get numbers without a phone. What the hell.....
3. I wanna fvck Jaclyn so bad (Elizabeth, Melissa, etc.. can do though )
4. Getting econ grade tomorrow. pray for me
5. Approached hot girl in co-op101. bad convo but i still approached
6. Approached all girls in elevtor. One hot girl actually was more eager to talk to me than i was to her, thats a nice surprise
7. GOT THE POSITION OF EVENT COORDINATOR!!! RESPECT MAH AUTHORITAH!
8. FAILED No job and i'm broke. Still waiting for my paycheck from that catering jig...

"The primary cause of unhappiness is never the situation but your thoughts about it". Maybe if I start saying hi to John, I can show I am trying to move on? worth a shot

Today I'm grateful for:
A. New headphones friend bought for me. I lent him a pair that broke even though they werent in tip-top condition to begin with
B. Having enough time to do chest and trieps before the gym closed tonight
C. Chance to sharemy thoughts and feelings with John over the fight we had.

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

May 1, 2012

Field Report: On the way to class could have been looked at by cute blonde from yesterday and hot Spanish girl both from before but i was talking to my friend/looking elsewhere/not paying attention and i missed eye contact/opportunity to say hi. Then talked to some girl at the dining center but she was weirded out lol so convo didnt go anywhere. Went to gym to sign up for white water rafting and saw Joana. She said hi to me but i was surprised and she was surrounded by orbiters so i only managed to say hi back. Ran into cute girl Alex (who has a bf) told her about the white water rafting trip and told her to come with me. This girl is cool because she has similar energy levels that i do and is also super adventurous. She's the girl that you want to get in a serious relationship because she's cool as well as being pretty. Fun person to be around and is more than just a vagina to pound:crackup:

Melissa- Saw her today but alas i failed to invite her to eat venezuelan with me. She was with some guy and she seemed distant. dunno how i feel about this one..

Joana- this girl is gonna replace Jen. Jen is too much of a hoe even though if i played my cards better earlier in the year i could have fvcked her. She is not worth persuing and i don't even have her number. If things happend between jen and i, then i'll bring her back but atm she aint worth it. Joana was eager to say hi to me. SHe's cute and no offense but seems kind of slow but she still is cool (was playing squash with her orbiters). Only problem is she's surrounded with guys ALL the time...it's one thing if a girl is surrounded by girls (you just approach the group and view the whole group as one girl) but its a whole new thing with a girl surrounded by dudes. I'm betting these guys are AFCs but they are bigger (muscle wise) and older (probably sophmores) who are targetting this younger girl. I'm sure there has to be articles/knowledge on this site about this situation somewhere on this site.

School: studied econ because i got a 56 on my midterm Going in for office hours to get more help.

Hobbies: played basketball

Workout/food: Played basketball and did really good.Was against friends though so ofcoure i feel confident playing buddies. Need to capture the mindset i have when i'm balling with the bro's and keep it when i ball against strangers. I'm a different person when i play with people i don't know and usually i go from playing like Kobe to playing like ****. Same issue in soccer. Stop being scared of strangers TriniBoy. Also did kettlebell swings today for the first time. They were awesome and then i did a different abs routine to switch things up. Ate very good except i had two slices of pizza.

Goals Reached:
1.goal postponed. No soccer this week
2. I'll see if i can put my number in a chick's phone. Why not?
3. Still a virgin:yawn:
4. the 56 really hurt today. not happy
5. talked to everyone in elevator. Indian and Chinese girls are the most scary though because they generally don't deal with anyone outside of their own race and always have their headphones on/seem *****y. What kind of life is that?
6. Going swimming tomorrow again
7. Liked the Drexel UN alliance club on facebook. Trying to go to some meetings
8. No job. :kick:

"Caution is good. Courage is better."

Today I'm grateful for:
A. Getting a spot on the white water rafting trip
B. Learning how to do the kettle bell swings. Core exercise to the max
C. Good weather

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

May 2, 2012

Field Report: Went swimming then chilled. Not much happened until night time. Dani (cheerleader butherface) from before was chillin in the lounge where i was and she's been acting indifferent for a while. I start up a convo by talking about me practicing my back-handspring she taught me. That was an obvious lie but it was a fun opener. She seemed surprise and wanted to see. Not trying to be shown out i assume the position and she spots me. Then i actually did the flip not bad at all. I was more shocked than she was ...Afterwrds I would do the flip on my own and just like that I got a new cool trick under my belt. Fun and joyous atmosphere ensues and she brings over her friend Alex (who i went clubbing with one time but my friend stopped my from grinding when i was so close cuz she has a bf). I talk a lil with her but shes stressing over the test they have to study for. Once they leave though, she gives me kino and says a flirty goodbye.

None on the main girls. **** having no phone man

School: Did a good amount of work today

Workout/Food: Swam 10 laps but i had to stop. My friend came with me and after 3 he got sick and had to run out to throwup. Don't smoke cigarettes kids

Hobbies:Swam laps :box:

Goals Reached:
1. No soccer
2. and 3. No girls numbers/no sex. Did do well with flirting with two other girls (Dani and Alex) but im sick of just flirting and i want more
4. Studied hard to make up that ****ty Econ grade. I am going in for office hours next week to go over everything with the professor
5. Social again as usual. Now I am gonna try to target the girls instead both girls and guys
6. Went swimming. Next time I'm doing 30 laps
7. DIBA club meeting next week
8. Broke as hell

"March on. Do not tarry. To go forward is to move toward perfection. March on, and fear not the thorns, or the sharp stones on life's path."

Today I'm grateful for:
A. Learning how to do a back handspring
B. Having a lot of friends. Good to have more than one place to hang out at.
C. Life in general

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

May 3, 2012

Field Report:After Econ I talked to Joana for a long time. It was obvious that I was flirting with her to her orbiters and to my own friends but idk. Boss does what a boss has to, yafeelme . Then chilled and went with Jill to buy alcohol for friends. Had long ass convo about everything and my girl prospects (i still dont really like detailing girls things to other girls). I then found out the hard way of the ****tyness of being friendzoned. Once she saw two guys i think she liked I was immediately dropped from focus and left on the sidelines. I don't like that. Then I bought a huge handle for John and gave him cookies as a gift. He accepted and invited me to watch Avengers with the crew but i declined to go ball/hit the gym.

Joana [chances: high]=good flirting/getting to know each other. Right in front of her orbiters too...aw yeah homies

Didn't see the other beautiful women

Workout/food: ate great. Was angry (weird rush after giving John his gifts. Realized i feel really pissed off when i'm around him still except i'm angry at myself fro losing my cool that night) and channeled my emotions into my basketball performance. who would have thought you could play so good? I need to get pissed off more so i can own the court again. Then i did quick triceps and chest.

Hobbies: Basketball

School: took a quiz, cheated a lil (I'm only human) and i think i got a good grade

Goals Reached:
1. No soccer
2. No numbers
3. No sex
4. Did decent on quiz. YES!
5. Talked to everyone. Even got a high five from girl in elevator and cracked hella jokes
6. No swimming/ rock climbing
7. Meeting on Monday and meeting about board position next thrusday
8. No job

"Change your thoughts and you change your world"

Today i'm grateful for:
A. My cool friend Nikhil for always giving me a place to chill
B. Jill for going and getting the alcohol with me
C. Dan for letting me cheat off him

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

May 4, 2012

Field Report: Went to volunteering today with Jill and worked on gardening for the whole morning and half of the afternoon. Phone was working briefly so I turned it off and on and one text from the first was from Jaclyn. I text her back, not apologizing for the long time in between, and we have a convo goin between each other for most of the day. Because my phone is cruddy and I was busying with doing stuff I texted her at random intervals and the convo had room for improvement on my part but I still think id did pretty well. I went home back to Jersey and met up with my buddies from Penn State who are already out for the summer. We went to watch Avengers and the movie was sweet. There was some obnoxious and loud ‘gangsta’ couple behind us and they talked through most of the movie. Me being super confident, turned around and hushed them/told them to be quiet/ shook my head at them. My friend thought it was ballsy as hell cause he was freakin out but I didn’t feel nervous/anxious/scared until AFTER I told them to shut up lmao. It was odd
Jaclyn [Chances: High]- Had a good light convo going between us, primarily about English class. I couldn’t text her as much as I wanted so I must have made her anxious. This can be seen as good but this girl is stunning and I really wanna f*ck so I want to seal the deal with this one and not have her turn into another Melissa. She texted me first, I replied back three days later (not on purpose of course, but phone legit didn’t work. Didn’t really clarify this but updated my facebook status about my phone not working so she maybe saw why). In my mind though I just treated her like any other person/nothing special which is good from a Don Juan perspective I guess
Food/workout: Ate sourpatch kids and mad chips at the movie and on the way home. Not good. Did shoveling and other stuff for my workout
School: Done with volunteering for my civic engagement class LETS GO!
Hobbies: did some garden work. I think gardening and botany are both REALLY cool and as I grow older, I plan to become good at both. Really interesting set of skills.
Goals reached today:
1. Friends from home talked about soccer but I’m leaving early tomorrow
2. Still no sex
3. No numbers this week either. I failed this one but I’m not gonna blame not having a phone when I had the chance to put my # in Jen’s cell earlier this week
4. Started doing homework ahead of time, gotta stay ahead of the game.
5. Approached everyone and helped my friend get out of a sticky situation
6. Went swimming this week
7. No job
“Impossible is nothing”
Today I’m grateful for
A. Stranger giving my friend money to get into the subway
B. Friend spotting my movie ticket
C. Texting Jaclyn

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

May 5, 2012

Field Report: Got my haircut and had a chill time at home before going back to school. Texted Jaclyn through the whole day and then chilled with John and the tennis crew (made peace with john). saw jaclyn on the way out, said what sup while looking like a boss. We drank with the tennis team and went to a bar. Couldnt get in though cuz i dont have a fake and then went back to the dorm and partied there.

Jaclyn [high]- This girl is pursuing ME. I am aloof and cool and she is drawn like a magnet. Text game was good and my brief encounter was even better (we were dressed up and lookin good).

Elizabeth [high]- Wished here a ****y/funny birthday wish on fb. trying to see this girl more often

Workout/food: Ate normal but didnt workout

School: was ahead of the game and read the first chapter of a book due in the next weeks

Hobbies: Great drinking conversation with the team and got to further know these kids

Goals Reached:
1. Intramural soccer starts again this week!!. PLAY.OFFS.TIME
2. No numbers. This week went by as a failed goal here
3. 19 year old virgin....
4. Going to extra help monday
5. Talked to everyone. Random black girl at the bus station too but i was too afraid
6. GONE SWIMMIN
7. DIBA meeting tuesday
8. No job. Need to get my pay check from before

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.”

Today I'm grateful for
A. hanging out with John again
B. good texts with Jaclyn
C. being back at school