The Life and Times of a Philly College Kid

[TriniBoySmooth]

June 1, 2012

Field Report: Good ****in day. No class so i woke up around 1 and my buddy and I went to the hood to eat some delicious carribean soul food he was telling me about. Walkign there was kinda sketchy but on the way back i realized it was stupid to bug out so i was cool. At the joint, i had jerk chicken, rice and peas, and mac and cheese which was SO good. After that i studied chinese some and got ready for the night. We threw a rager on the top floor we all live and we got SO many people and if it wasnt for the tennis team who i didn't know were coming, there would have been more girls than guys. We had a vodka watermelon which was bad tho and tons of handles to drink. Got Jaclyn to come with some friends and they chilled for a bit but left pretty quickly. Gonna tease her in class monday on why she dipped so early into the party, i think she was overwhelmed. Funny tho, lauren and julia both stayed AND her older sister stayed too who was visiting from home. My friend bet i wouldnt chug the rest of the handle of captain morgan so i did and that was the last thing i remember. Apparently i took everyone to the roof and was trying to get this chick Kiera to come by to hook up. Everyone was trying to prevent that since this girl has baggage and is allegedly unstable but if shes trying to taste the eel, i wasnt gonna say no. Havent asked enough yet to find out what else i did but i woke up this morning dressed in my pajamas with a hell of a hangover. Should have expected that

Goals Reached
1. soccer season over
2. while i got no new numbers, im going places with the numbers that i have. With all the digits available, i sift through the girls who are flakes and keep the ones who are trying to get me laid. I have inadvertently been doing this these past two weeks and only know i realize this. Woke up this morning and checked my phone from last night (which my screen got totally destroyed) and i got a text from one girl asking if 3:30 is too late to come over (what else are you gonna be doing at 3:30? ) and another on deck texting that her bra is off (a bit more obvious). Thank you so suave for helping me release my inner awesome
3. Had sex, trying to have more
4. Studied for chinese final next week
5. So many people from the party where there because of me, 3/4 of the girls included
6. no workout today sadly. Too short of a day
7. broke and no paycheck
8. awkward moment today= jaclyn leaving my party so suddenly. not really awkward but some could interpret that to be and i wasnt really concerned that she left.
9. Gonna file through my notes from the int. business meeting

"When the student is ready the teacher appears" Thanks again sosuave

Today Im grateful for
A. The really fun party. It was all over the place on our floor because my RA was on duty
B. which brings me to my next point. thanks to my ra who is super chill like that
C. The amazing jamiacan food i had for lunch. Irie man

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

june 2, 1012

Field Report: Saturday, I could have been an accomplice to murder and I'm not even kidding.

The day was spent hungover as **** till around 3 when i banged out some serious homework then a workout out on shoulders with a friend. The night is where the crazy stuff begins... This chick Lexi got kicked out of drexel getting caught with pot and she threw a houseparty back in camden county which is only a ride on both septa and patco away. She invited her old floor from drexel (who im really tight with so i came along) and her high school people. Instantly, we drexel kids got bad vibes. They were all hicks and scummy kids. They were racist (found out one's father was in the kkk and a bunch made fun of my asian friend when he wasnt around). They clearly didnt like us and we couldnt give a **** about them so we mainly took to the bonfire in the backyard. All the while im approaching people and talking to girls (they had some smokin babes but out of all the girls, i talked to one hot one and two average ones. the hot one initally was fvckin around with me and my wingman but i used my skill to turn her attitude around) some **** happens between the drexel kids cuz my wingman apparently stole an easy girl from our other friend and a good amount of kids are no big fan of my wingman because he does that stuff a lot but i dont get involve and just chill. late into the party, just before everyone needs to leave because the highschoolers have curfew, my indian friend and I find our friend 'Canada' and he tells us some dude was trying to fight him cuz canada laughed at him. We chill, forget all about that and before we know it the kid comes charging a takes canada into a choke hold. The attacker is a big kid and has canada pretty good. everyone freezes up and watches except me and sean, my indian friend. we pull and tug as hard as we can but to no available, this kid was NOT letting go. Im drunk and this situation pisses me off so i just start punching the fvcker in the face but EVEN that does nothing (that part was scary cuz i gave it my all but he wouldnt even budge at my heaviest blow) and then sean pulls out his switch. He takes the blade out and asks me if he should do it. He's lookin right at his face and in his drunk state, would have done whatever i told him to. I tell him no. Angered by this hick douchebag and all the racist and trashy kids here, i get this huge source of energy within me and i rip this kid off of canada yelling GET THE FVCK OFF! Canada is gagging and im so FVCKING hyped off of the adrenaline and testosterone. I fvcking push the hick inbred and stare his ass down and tell him to get the hell out of here. I take a step forward, look him in the eye, point at the exit and tell him there's the door. His friends drag him away while he's flailing about (thank god they held him, he was a huge dude and i honestly dont know if i would have had the same source of energy to take him on 1 on 1 even while so hyped up on my natural chemicals) realizes he lost he calls me a n1gger and other **** trying to make up for the fact. I hold firm and keep me composure. He's gone and my friend sean and I are both fuming and are filled to the brim with that adrenaline rush. It completely sobered me up which i thought was crazy. the fvcker rushes back to the front door knocks and flicks me off before running away but i couldnt give two ****s. My friend sean is hyperventaliting to cope with the excitement and we agree we want the fvcker to come back one more time so we can both beat the living sh1t out of him, god we were so hyped. The remainder of the party my heart was pumping and i couldnt chill anymore, too much energy in my system. I felt like i snorted a huge line of coke. All the while Kiera was there, but shes a psycho b1tch. Everyone knows it and made fun of me for almost having her over friday night. I see first hand why she is weird as fvck and canada told me she would enjoy getting beaten during sex and i got all kinds of turned off. what the hell.

Goals Reached today
1. No new numbers
2. Could have fvcked Kiera, her friends were trying to get me drunk to do so but i dont want none of that
3. soccer season is over
4. did mad hw
5. approached at the party. always could have approached more, always could have done better
6. did shoulders today
7. no money to my name
8. awkward moment= being shutdown by sarcastic girls friend
9. filed through mah notes

"Legitimate use of violence can only be that which is required in self-defense." and murder is never acceptable. i could have been in a very different state of mind had i told my friend to stab the sh1tbag

Today I'm grateful for
A. My friend NOT using his switchblade
B. Being not drunk enough to realize it was a bad idea
C. Again, not having my friend stab the kid. Never wanna be in that position ever again

 

[PrettyBoyAJ]

That's a crazy story. If anybody touches the people I roll with I promise you I'd knock their block off. That's crazy you hit a dude and he didn't budge. After that you shoulda just punted his block off.

I almost fought the cops the other day because my homie wouldn't calm down after a security guard charged him. I told my homie to calm his a$$ down before he gets arrested. I knew in my heart though that if the cop touched my boy that I woulda been right there to get arrested with him because I don't let none of my boys down. Too much pride for that. I got PRIDE tatted on me man. I love the homies and will defend them if they get disrespected.

 

[loveshogun]

camden county

Sh*t, man, you been in Philly how long and no one told you not to go to Camden?

I spent a lot of time in North Philly growing up. One time, police found a severed head in a dumpster near where I went to high school.

I STILL don't go to Camden.

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

June 3, 2012

Field Report: Recovery day. The weekends are supposed to be relaxing, but I always find myself doing much more than what i do during the week haha. Today I just chilled and tried not to do too much. We got back to campus around 1 and i napped hard before meeting up with Cayde to do mad chinese homework. Final is this thursday! then i did some english till the night was over, pretty productive.

Goals Reached
1. Soccer season over
2. I found this one chick Megan's phone number in my phone with no idea how it got there. Must have happened when i was blacked out hahahah BOSS!
3. Got laid from Anne which is tight, may have made a mess of things when i said her drunk texting me for sex was cool and she said 'good to know you like the drunk booty call' or some crap like that in a slightly insulting way . I said i like that, but not as much as soccer or free alcohol because fvck her giving me sass. i think she laughed, dont know but i havent bothered to text her since.
4.Super productive day. But the sad thing is that i could always have done more........
5. Smiled at this cute girl at the library giving me the eyework. I didnt say anything as she past me to leave when i was with cayde, but i should have. Even to this day approach anxiety is a thrown in my finger
6. No workouts today. Napping was my exercise
7. Need to go running with the running club some more...
8. awkward moment nodding hi to a person i kinda/not really know and he looked away without acknowledging me
9. No money, mo problems

"Man was born free, and he is everywhere in chains. Those who think themselves the masters of others are indeed greater slaves than they.” Lose the superiority complex

Today Im grateful for
A. doing my homework
B. Nice nap
C. Friends paying for me to get to jersey and back

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

That's a crazy story. If anybody touches the people I roll with I promise you I'd knock their block off. That's crazy you hit a dude and he didn't budge. After that you shoulda just punted his block off.

I almost fought the cops the other day because my homie wouldn't calm down after a security guard charged him. I told my homie to calm his a$$ down before he gets arrested. I knew in my heart though that if the cop touched my boy that I woulda been right there to get arrested with him because I don't let none of my boys down. Too much pride for that. I got PRIDE tatted on me man. I love the homies and will defend them if they get disrespected.

That's family. Crazy story dude, can't even IMAGINE fvcking with the cops like that. Awesome!

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

Sh*t, man, you been in Philly how long and no one told you not to go to Camden?

I spent a lot of time in North Philly growing up. One time, police found a severed head in a dumpster near where I went to high school.

I STILL don't go to Camden.

haha i'm smart enough to not go into camden city but apparently not enough for camden county. Figured the subburbs would have less low lifes. guess i was wrong.

As for the fight, i think all men no matter who they are should get in a fight atleast once in their lives, even if they lose. Nothing like the rush of hormones and chemicals. Get in touch with your inner beast, fvck what society says and enjoy being a man

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

Monday 4, 2012

Field Report: Had in class practice interviews for co-op. Fine lady did our mock interview and i winged a hella of an interview. I lost my steam a couple but i was very confident and wouldn't cut eye contact so she liked that. I would love to tap that. After that I did a lot of searching for housing next year. Lookin like i'm getting my personal apartment . Bachelor pad hahahah. Then in english, i caught Jaclyn staring. I had a afc moment and instantly broke contact and looked away.yuck. atleast they are far and few in between now. In chinese we reviewed for the final this upcoming thursday and then afterword i studied with kids in my class. Solid day

Goals reached:
1. soccer season over
2. Had sex, trying to get it in one more time before this year ends
3. No new numbers. Need to be more of a bro mayne
4. did abs and chest today at the gym, gonna go swim/run/climb some point this week
5. studied lots of chinese
6. Social today
7. awkward moment=facebook said it was like 3 kids birthdays a day early so i said happy bday a day earlier. i kept it tho because i dont care even though my one friend laughed at how awkward that was. one person i wrote to was the first chick i was trying to get with back in high school who waited for me for 2 years but i was so afc i never made a move. she talked to me for a bit and i talked right back. sweet
8. no paycheck
9. no club duty today

"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" Fight the power! DO you baby

Today Im grateful for
1. Cash for books dude counted someone else's book for me. It was a chem book he already bought but it was under like the 7 books i brought and he must have forgot and re-counted it. he gave me $25 for that book when i would have just got $13 alone. hahahahaha i feel like i fvcked up and should not have done that. I'm spiritual, albeit that part of me gets pushed back under the pressures of school, social life, and enough sleep, but I still knew it was immoral for me to forgo telling him he made a mistake. Bad karma man..
2. Decent study session
3. My man Nujabes to get my study on. Pandora this jawn ( idk if i wanna add that word to my vernacular Shogun, but it sounds cool haha). Here's a fav of mine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ih1GM8Qf6t8

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

Tuesday June 5, 2012

Field Report: Solid day in DC. My major took like 7 of us to DC for the day to some business class. Me being me I brought a water bottle of Captain Morgan :crackup: . It was an actual conference so there was us freshmen rubbing elbows with executives and CEOs of company ABC, bla bla bla. Should have networked even though me being a teenager would not have helped my chances. My one friend did though but this m'therfvcker is gonna end up president or something. His resume is probably more impressive than people twice his age. Not even gonna waste my time typing out the things he's done but yeah, good person to look up school wise. Outside of school though...i'll pass. He's very gay and i think for a short while he liked me. GAHHH weird :crackup: Guess i should take that as a compliment? I'm so fly that even gay cats want a piece??.. no, that still doesn't make me out to be cool :crackup: . at the fancy lunch they had, i spiked my homemade iced tea with the rum and i swear it was a drink that the bartender serves in heaven. Then pretty much everyone ditched the event half way through haha (advisor didnt even care) and we went exploring in DC. It was me, Julia, gay smart kid, this one chick who is beat but im pretty sure she wants the d, and my one straight friend. Me and my one friend went milf hunting which was a lot of fun. We all saw the monuments and had pictures taken and then we went to the food court. Everyone but the gay kid took shots and I drank the most. Got drunk in the middle of the food court in the middle of the day and ate good Chinese. It was a lot of fun haahhaha. Then we all crashed on the train and when i got back i did serious legs with my gym friend.

Goals Reached
1. Soccer over. turns out the team who beat us is going into intramural finals of ALL the days, game for title at Drexel. FVCKING HOPE THEY LOSE!
2. Easy number could have been beat girl who liked me...idk if i want that tho
3. Lost the v-card. So smooth
4. very social today. Asked the strangers to take our pictures, talked to girl who wanted my d, etc..
5. Studied chinese once back from DC
6. awkward moment. Listening to the gay kid talk about his gay stuff to Julia and other girl. The things i could unhear if i could
7. GOT THE PAYCHECK! Now to get the fake i.d. I fgot $90, less than i thought but at this point i dont even care
8. no club stuff
9. did legs, ran 6 laps at the mini track for a warm up if that counts for anything. I dont think so

"If you ever start taking things too seriously, just remember that we are talking monkeys on an organic spaceship flying through the universe"

Today I'm grateful for
1. The entirely free trip to DC and back
2. Getting to dress up in a suit. We had to for the convention and I love wearing suits. Feelin like Barney from How I Met Your Mother, hopefully i'll start pullin ass like he does too
3. Great weather this day. Yuuuup

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

Wednesday June 6, 2012

Field Report: These past few days have been a complete blur. There hasn't been a clear cut beginning and ending to an individual day, everything is a haze for me right now. Wednesday, I spent the whole day studying for my Chinese final. I do not remeber the details for this day so its gonna be tough writing the goals reached and grateful sections.

Goals
1. soccer season over
2. lost the v-card
3. No new numbers
4. Didn't workout today, too much studying
5. Could have been very social? Don't really remember
6. awkward moment= facebook fvcked up and has everyone's birthday a day early then it actually is. sad happy birthday to everyone a day early and they all commented saying so
7. Buying a fake i.d. with the paycheck money
8. ran a choir for the int. business club. had to get a banner from the office

"To a mind that is still the whole universe surrenders"

Today I'm grateful for
A. Friends who studied with me
B. Actually being decent at Chinese characters. They're fun to draw so i like studying them
C. Not giving a **** and dealing with the comments acknowledging the awkwardness of the facebook posts.

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

Thrusday June 7, 2012

Field Report: So i pulled an all nighter for the final, causing this day to be weird as hell. Throughout the night i took 2 ibuprofen, monster energy drink, and 5 hour energy. I'm a dumbass. It hit me hardest when i had breakfast before the exam. I was so jittery and i felt like i was alvin from alvin and the chipmunks. I couldn't stay still or close my mouth and i kept twitching like a crack head haha.
The exam itself was pretty solid except for some parts which were really tough. other than that i did pretty well. For some weird reason i couldn't sleep at all this day so i skipped all classes trying to before i gave up. I watched porn for a bit but stopped because i realized that was stupid and went to use my energy for something for useful. I worked on my three-pointer and i was on fire. The swish from the ball going through the hoop is hypnotic. Then finally at 8 i passed out and slept for 16 straight hours.

Goals Reached:
1. Lost virginity
2. No new numbers, this is such a great confidence boost but i never get around to it anymore
3. school has been ignored after the Chinese final
4. played basketball today, even though i was running on no sleep
5. i remember being so tired caused me to not give a **** so that's a plus :box:
6. gave the money over for the fake i.d. it's on its way to being created
7. awkward moment= being embarrased by my friends in front of girl. I didn't really care but i guess it kinda looked bad for me so i'll count it
8. no club related stuff this day

"Care about what other people think and you will always be their prisoner"

Today I'm grateful for
A. Sinking those dope three points. Technique was on point
B. Finally crashing around 8 and just sleeping
C. The easy bits of the Chinese final

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

Friday June 8, 2012

Field Report: Woke up hella late (16 hours of sleep mind you) and went house hunting the whole day. found one place i really liked and the landlord seemed really cool. Then i did bad Friend gave me a free weed brownie AND I BROKE MY STREAK!!!!!! I couldnt say no and i wasnt smoking so that took away the unhealthy aspect of marijuana so i just ate it, let kick in, and got high as fvck. From 5:30 till 3 in the morning I was flat STONED off my ass. I got my karma however, all is just. When I went to play high soccer (my favorite thing to do high) EVERYONE was hating on me. I wore a Real Madrid jersey so they hated me for that. I hang out with Americans, even though i'm foreign blood like them so they hated me for that. I was high as fvck so they hated me for that (so high i grabbed the ball once it was blasted right at me from a rebound without thinking:crackup: ) and best of all, I play my style and I'm damned good at the sport so they hated me all for that. I heard them whisper and crack jokes but i can't help being good, even though i play kind of fancy and use a good amount of tricks, i'm not showboating i am getting from point A to point B. So what if my method of doing things is prettier and requires a little more skill? I'm no show off but if i need to juke my defender, i'll do it well. After that i went to hang out at the other dorm and they gave me **** for the pot. That's how I know i need to chill with these kids, they will help keep me away from bud (although they drink all the time and occasionally some hit cocaine) even though i honestly am completely fine with never smoking weed again. When I took the brownie I realized I was past that phrase and I have finally grown up. I was so proud. Smoking weed is like watching saturday morning cartoons. At one point of time they were the greatest things in the world and you could only look forward to it and now they're something you chuckle at if your watching/smoking but thats about it. Theyre are better things to do with your time. Then I went over to Anne's dorm and I fingered her and tried to get laid but she wasn't being cool with that. Probably because I came over three hours late LMAO!

Goals Reached
1. almost got laid again
2. o numbers
3. played tons of soccer, realized how much people hate me. Haters= you got something going for you. soccer haters= my soccer talent is going for me. Totally trying out for club soccer next year
4. no school work done today
5. very talkative. always outgoing when i'm stoned
6.awkward moment= did the same facebook mistake with birthdays again! dammit
7. No club related crap
*. Broke my drug streak. FAILURE

"Muddy water, let stand, becomes clear". All things will eventually get better. I'm only human and i fvcked up by taking the brownie but this mistake is an opportunity to learn from. Listen to your inner judgement and live by your word. Many people were shocked or dissapointed when they found out, i'm moving on from Marijuana.

TodayI'm grateful for
1. Hookup with Anne
2. good soccer goals
3. free brownie (not the actual brownie but the thought of giving me free stuff that would otherwise be worth $15)

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

Saturday June 9, 2012

Field: Ridiculous day. WE BROUGHT A KEG TO THE DORM ROOM! my buddies from the other dorm somehow managed to do it early in the morn and we raged all night. Still haven't finished the keg. Also played soccer after waking up mad late and watching the Euro games.

Goals reached
same as yesterday

"I do not know where I am going, but I am on my way"

Today I'm grateful for
A. Free alcohol
B. awesome party in the dorms. Could have done **** with this one chick (she wanted it) but she was for my other friend. Not that kind of dude to steal my friends prospect. Noticed I had a hard time talking to her though, kind of felt like a kid around her.She was pretty and attracted to me but i was like a deer in headlights. good thing i didnt go for it haha
C. bed to sleep on

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

Sunday June 10, 2012

Field Report: Another idiotic day. We couldn't kill off the keg nor the other alcoholic beverages so we pregamed the dining center and had drunk breakfast. We thought it would be hilarious if we took our shirts off and wore them like turbans so we did exactly that and walked into the crowded dining center like a bunch of bosses. We stopped being half naked and sobered up once we ate. I then left them and went to my own dorm and did homework the rest of the day kinda. Played a lil basketball but shot rather than play a game.

Goals reached:
1. No numbers
2. Couldn't get it with Anne again so i'm dropping her for now
3. Studied and did school stuff
4. very social
5. awkward moment- everyone staring at me shirtless with my shirt rapped around my head
6. played b-ball but no climbing/swimming etc
7. waiting for the fake i.d. to come in
8. no club related stuff

"It's not the size of the dog in the fight, but the size of fight in the dog"

Today I'm grateful for
A. Awesome story of getting a keg in the dorm room
B. Free alcohol
C. Nice weather

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

Monday June 11, 2012

Field Report: Last day of classes woke up late, ate, then went to english. Went to english and flirted/chatted/joked with Jaclyn who was sitting right next to me. Same goes for the french-african chick next to jaclyn. Then I spent the rest of the day in the library studying and writing a paper.

Goals reached
same as yesterday

"All good things come to an end" This journal is almost over

Today I'm grateful for
A. Twice finding myself denying uppers. John didn't want to share his adderall when i totally could have popped if tempted (need to fight that) but i doubt i would have if offered and i stoodbye while my friends from the other dorm bumbed lines of ritalin.
B. Study time
C. Good music to go with the study time

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

Tuesday June 12, 2012

Field Report: Studied for my last exam. Pulled an all nighter so this day meshed into Wednesday. I ended up with a 128/180 on the final without the curve so im happy . I also ended up with a B+ in Econ and B in Chinese for the term, my two hardest classes:box: Get at this mu****in BEAST!!!

Goals reached- gonna have a finalized goals of the week later on saturday cuz its actually the end of the term and with the term finishing, so is this journal

"Challenges are what makes life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful" Thanks sosuave. I'm dope as fvck :cheer:

Today I'm grateful for
A. The hard effort i busted out for a good econ grade
B. Chillen with my boy in the lib and these other new kids we met while studying
C. Finding good songs via my other buddy

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

Wednesday June 13, 2012

Field Report: banged out the exam then napped before the rents came to help move my stuff out. Did it this day rather than Friday cause it was easier and less people were moving things. I was fairly sick though so i crashed earlier than normal and the day was very beat

Goals-
till end of the week

“every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day”

Grateful for:
A. free food from parents. I love Malaysian soup
B. The lack of anything school related i needed to do after the test
C. That nap. was well needed after being both sick and tired as hell from the all nighter

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

Thursday June 14, 2012

Field Report: good day. Did absolutely nothing, what a feeling. Ate and hung out with buddies before they left than at night participated in a case race. Fvckin lost though at the last beer I had. I was so drunk that i was tired of drinking brews and i just looked at it when i could have chugged it (and thrown up) like a man. Good sending off for the year!

Goals- tomorrow

“where ever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine”

Today I'm grateful for
A. good last night as a freshman in college
B. not having ANY responsibilities
C. sleeping in like a champion

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

You absolutely should.

1.) Medium girls try harder and you can have a great time with them. And sex isn't about validation or showing off the hottest girl but having a good time.

2.) If you're a virgin you don't know what you're missing. Once you find out what you're missing you won't have as much approach anxiety because you KNOW the ends justify the means.

3.) We all bang medium girls.

Edit: Cool thread by the way. I like the personal touch with goals and things you are thankful for.

As I go over this entire journal to write a conclusion section, I thank you for this post. While Shogun and the others helped me become cool and in control of my life, this very direct post caused me to drop the crap and go out and grab some tail. I was very borderline but this advice to go get Anne helped me be able to have one of the coolest sex stories (albeit my only one) from college. Whenever I tell people I did it on the roof of an 11 story building, they are all in awe . Thanks again

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

A Success Story

Pre reading ranting (pertains to me not fulfilling my obligation to my spirituality, not so towards my journal review) :

Well guys, this is it. The end of the journal. As of today, this is a new week. So far all the grades bar English have come back and I got straight B’s so sadly the 3.2 stays the same but I made friends with professors and became closer to my advisor. I just received a recommendation for a scholarship which I will be pursuing. I’m more in shape then I have ever been in my entire life and I will continue my work outs and physical activity. This journal has been about me socially so I would like to think I’ve improved in that aspect as well. But mentally and spiritually, we have a different story. Not everything is so grand like I would like you to think, I made costly errors by ignoring my spiritual duties. I had issues refraining from things that do not serve me (drugs, masturbation, being mean to others ) and fell back to them. I needed a direction, I knew where to find it, but instead ignored what was needed from me. And as a result, I will most likely soon be punished. I was drug clean and pure in that aspect till two Fridays ago and ate a pot brownie. Then today, I was drug tested on a whim from my mother. I went since February clean of drugs and untested by my parents. Then I slipped once just when my mother decides to test me. Now the summer I am going to experience will be very different. But it happened for a reason. I do not believe in coincidences, I believe in spirituality. Spirituality gives purpose and helps me keep my life in order. This past term, I have been living to fulfill my ego, which I have but now at the end I fell slightly more satisfied but even more lost. Considering all the amazing things I have done, one would think I woud be contempt with myself and proud but I feel far from those things. This is because my inner courage and strength is tied together with inner peace and calm which I believe can only be obtained for me from meditation, yoga, and my studies of the eastern religions. I did do yoga but that mostly was for exercise/stretching rather than cleaning my mind. My need for religion is shocking if you knew me in person. Till my profound spiritual experiences with the drugs, I was an atheist who would argue with Christians and Muslims, two religions I believed where trash and seeded many of the problems this world faces today. However, I have put that behind me and now I accept all religions as possibilities for me to gain wisdom and guidance from. They are all different beads in the same necklace. I’ve been making moves this term but I did not know towards where. So many ups and downs, but overall this past term has been exactly what I needed.

Here’s some girl related stuff from the term. Obviously not everything but it’s the stuff I remembered and thought significant

Girl compliments-
- Flight attendant saying I’m smoking hot
- Anne saying my body is 90% perfection
- Vicky ignoring Nico who was talking to her instead to pay attention to me
- Cayde saying I’m the coolest kid on campus
- The 17 numbers from girls I got over the term
- Kiera’s friends trying to get me drunk to sleep with her


Failed girl chances-
- Group of girls softly touching my back in the Bermuda caves yet did nothing
- Sarah making me cookies at my request but I acted like an AFC once I got them
- Punk lady worker conveniently located near the movie theatre entrance
- Fumbling when trying to talk to the blonde from co-op 101
- Got Shawna’s number but never texted her or call
- Loss of motivation after getting laid
- Opportunities to get Hannah and Jessica’s numbers but fumbled and failed to do so

MOMENTS OF BADASSERY/CRAZYNESS/ACHIEVEMENTS this past term-
• Learned how to do a back handspring
• Bought a fake I.D.
• Climbed a construction crane and lived to tell the tale
• Lost in the daily final playoff game and eventually became best friends with the team that recruited me
• Volunteered to take the first penalty in a shootout and scored, clutch
• Had a dorm party with a freaking full sized keg in the room
• Got in second place in a case race the last full day on campus
• Was featured in the Drexel I’m Shmaked video doing a kegstand
• Day drank in Washington DC and was featured on the Drexel school homepage from a photo my friend took
• Became really good at longboarding
• Snuck into a Upenn Class of ’07 reunion and had unlimited drinks from their open bar
• Hooked up 11 stories high on a rooftop
• Taught my friends how to approach and that rejection is not as bad as one would think
• Went to and had an awesome times at secret bonfires in the woods
• Skitched a ride on my longboard from my friend’s bike going really fast late at night while it was raining heavily. I live for those moments
• Got into a fight with one of my best friends and sent him to the ER
• Lost my virginity
• Got visibly more in shape, muscles increased in mass, and my endurance has gone up
• Grabbed my balls and confronted my roommate who was disrespecting me
• Ran, swam, and rock climbed to greatness. Also learned great tips to work on my basketball and soccer shot
• Did my first run-up-the-wall back flip
• Dated multiple girls
• Got paid to cater a high end business event and got free under the table drinks
• Slipped into the VIP section at the Tiesto concert at UPenn
• Talked to random girls like they were my old friends
• Went white water rafting alone and made friends
• Started a ruckus in the hood section of Philly and the inhabitants came down to chase me
• Did community service twice in west philly and felt good about it
• Got into a drunken fight and almost had a man stabbed had I given the command
• Got the phone numbers of Mica, Anne, Dani, Devika, Sarah, Jaclyn, Elizabeth, Elyssa, Ri****a, Emme, Shawna, Jessica, Kiera, Ayanna, Megan, Emily, and Lauren. 17 numbers in 12 weeks
• Got a bid for a fraternity that I did not even bother pledging
• Was granted a leadership position for a respected club organization
• Got drunk before breakfast with friends and we all went to the crowded dining center shirtless
• Stayed clean of all drugs despite being offered every week except one damn weed brownie at the end of the term
• On top of all wild adventures, the lowest grade I got for the term was a B

Where I still need work (because you can ALWAYS learn more, no matter how much of an expert you may be) =
I need to work on being less Beta and become more self-assured. My externals have the girls go crazy but once they talk to me or deal with me, they realize I’m lacking what’s most important; what is on the inside. I also need to give myself more credit and I need to stop thinking things over too much. Also, I need to have a strong and consistent personality and have my focus flowing inwards rather than outward when I face the world. The mentality of this man is what is required http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hVsf82IuVLI&feature=related http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dz-MJNMfLP4

“Also, I know your goal in this thread is to get laid, but remember your goal in life is to be awesome. Being awesome is more important, and will get you laid more in the long run.” –Loveshogun

GOALS REACHED FOR THE YEAR
1. Scored one goal for the season instead of 5 but was rewarded great friends from the experience
2. Had one job opportunity albeit I could not be hired on a steady basis. The funds from that one job are paying for my fake i.d.
3. Lost my virginity in the most epic fashion
4. Did not get a new number each week but ended up with 17 numbers in the 12 weeks I was at school. Success baby!
5. Ended up with a 3.3 gpa sadly did not make the Dean’s List again
6. Joined soccer, running club, and international business club where I am on the board
7. Made habits and friends out of swimming, running, and climbing. Very in shape
8. Was extremely social and outgoing. People say I “know everyone on campus”, “everyone is friends with me”, “I’m the coolest kid on campus” among other nice things
9. Had awkward moments to help me become free of my comfort zone but I am still not yet completely free. On the way towards though

“DREAM as though you have nothing to lose
BELIEVE as though anything is possible
LOVE as thought your heart knows no bounds
LIVE as though there is only today”

THANK YOU SOSUAVE. You have been nothing but help, hopefully I will be able to talk to you guys again in the future!