jackofasses
Don Juan
Alright. Well. I've posted a few things on this site lately, which is a bit odd since I swore this site off last year after alot of the negative things said in here made me turn against women. Strange i know.. but with alot of the things you guys say it's hard to think that any woman could be truthful, loving, caring or nurturing or whatever.
Anyway.. since i've been posting lately about my last relationship in little spurts.. i figure I should just kinda set it all out so that you guys can laugh and do whatever to it (though i always prefer POSITIVE feedback) That, and this girl keeps eating at my insides and i find myself filled with great regret. Twice now I have just been handed beautiful women out of the sky (even if only over the internet) and it's all gone to hell.
Anyway, about 3 years ago, i was surfing a website for meeting random people (e-spin the bottle.com) And randomly found a girl who looked kinda cute. Msg'd her and a few days later had her on MSN. We chatted alot but she had a boyfriend. We hit it off pretty good and i dunno it was fun but i found myself really liking this girl. She was a little wierd (in a fun way) and ended up making pipe cleaner people and a pipcleaner heart with my name in it. I got jealous of her boyfriend (and he was treating her like crap) and one thing led to another and she blocked me saying i was crazy. I didn't give up, I kept e-mailing her and whatnot and they slowly got less frequent, each time with some more ******* comment. Then i stopped.
Recently i added facebook to get in touch with some old friends of mine and when it went though my e-mail list it picked her up and added her. She accepted it and filled out our 'friendship' information saying i was a stupid jerk. Fair enough i said. Didn't really say much until seeing spiderman 3. Got home after that **** movie, got online and saw her status saying how crap it was. Sent her a msg saying I totally agreed and we started hitting it off. We ended up talking on MSN quite a bit and whatever. I had a few jealous moments.. shoulda been red flags (her talking about wanting sex from this guy, or how the guy she wanted was with another girl, etc.) But anyway, we kept talking and one night over the internet i guess i got her a little hot under the collar and she started telling me things she was doing or whatever. And how she was leaving wet marks on her bedsheets.
She gave me her cell # and we started texting each other throughout the days. Me from work, her from work.. etc. It was fun, flirty, happy and felt so damn good. So then i figured.. i have her cell # I'll just call her. So one night while waiting for the bus, I did. It wasn't nearly as awkward as i had thought and we ended up talking quite a bit which in turn led to phone sex (yeah yeah.. whatever.. it was actually real good for phone sex) and then shortly after we started dating long distance. It was crazy, in 3 weeks over a distance like that I have NEVER felt so strongly for anyone. It was that true connection with a girl that most people wait for and would die to have. She was even ready to pay to come visit me when she could take a few days from work (which would have been THIS weekend if **** hadn't gone wrong and she wasn't ****ing someone else right now) but anyway. Things were amazing. I honestly fell in love with this girl.. doing the math now.. we talked from somewhere near 60-70 hours in three weeks.
One night, while talking, she mentioned some stuff about her past and it sent off some warning bells in my head (probably undeserved) and her sexual past bothered me and started making me think about things which made me start to have doubts. I almost broke up with her that night and she called back in tears. She was begging me not to and asking me if i didnt' love her. I told her i wasn't sure. By the end of her conversation i had time to think about stuff and realized that stuff really wasn't that important and that i did really care about this girl. So i told her i loved her and let her get back to sleep. Things kinda got rough after this.. mainly because i know i hurt her with that conversation because she kept pushing it in my face. I kept asking her to stop. Anyway... she caused some **** on a forum with a guy who lives in her area and he started pulling some **** like stalking her on facebook and all that and even tried pulling strings to get me in **** (she told me all this) so i msgd the guy, told him to knock it off because i knew what he was doing. He called my bluff, I told him what she told me (which she told me not to do but i misunderstood..) and it got back to her. She flipped out, that lead to a huge fight and 2 hours of talking about breaking up or not. The end of the conversation, she cried, dumped me, said she loved me and needed a few days.
I couldn't give her the few days. I ended up leaving a voice mail for the next 3 days and so she really said she gave up. Then she turned around and said she still loved me.. wanted to kinda let things chill a bit while she was workin on this movie thing and that afterwards she'd still come visit and i could go see her and all that. So that I could make it up to her because i ****ed up (it took a phone call at 4am to get her to talk to me and fix **** a bit) so anyway.. we weren't together and i guess i got paranoid. i actually feared what she might do because she kept saying what she did and with who while we were apart is "none of my business" which to me isn't the attitude to have if you care for someone even if you aren't together. And it led to more frequent bouts of jealousy and finally with her kissing a guy (which i'm pretty sure she did JUST to get back at me for my jealousy.) She told me that, I flipped out.. tried calling her that night for 5 hours.. sent her a ****load of texts and now.. she hates me.
She wont' talk to me, has apparently got her lawyer on me so i "should be expecting contact from her lawyer in the next few weeks" blocked me on facebook (though she still has me on msn and hasn't blocked my # to my knowledge)
I take some comfort in knowing she HAD to go be with someone else to 'get over me' but god damn i wish this girl would talk to me and stop thinking i'm **** crazy.
Guh.. there's more **** i left out.. like certain things she said which i know she was sayin JUST to get me riled up.. **** like "I dont love you, I don't want to be with you, i want to be with guy x or guy b, or hell why not both at the same time since it's none of your business".
**** like that.. i dunno.. had to vent. Give feeback if you want, so long as it's positive.
Anyway.. since i've been posting lately about my last relationship in little spurts.. i figure I should just kinda set it all out so that you guys can laugh and do whatever to it (though i always prefer POSITIVE feedback) That, and this girl keeps eating at my insides and i find myself filled with great regret. Twice now I have just been handed beautiful women out of the sky (even if only over the internet) and it's all gone to hell.
Anyway, about 3 years ago, i was surfing a website for meeting random people (e-spin the bottle.com) And randomly found a girl who looked kinda cute. Msg'd her and a few days later had her on MSN. We chatted alot but she had a boyfriend. We hit it off pretty good and i dunno it was fun but i found myself really liking this girl. She was a little wierd (in a fun way) and ended up making pipe cleaner people and a pipcleaner heart with my name in it. I got jealous of her boyfriend (and he was treating her like crap) and one thing led to another and she blocked me saying i was crazy. I didn't give up, I kept e-mailing her and whatnot and they slowly got less frequent, each time with some more ******* comment. Then i stopped.
Recently i added facebook to get in touch with some old friends of mine and when it went though my e-mail list it picked her up and added her. She accepted it and filled out our 'friendship' information saying i was a stupid jerk. Fair enough i said. Didn't really say much until seeing spiderman 3. Got home after that **** movie, got online and saw her status saying how crap it was. Sent her a msg saying I totally agreed and we started hitting it off. We ended up talking on MSN quite a bit and whatever. I had a few jealous moments.. shoulda been red flags (her talking about wanting sex from this guy, or how the guy she wanted was with another girl, etc.) But anyway, we kept talking and one night over the internet i guess i got her a little hot under the collar and she started telling me things she was doing or whatever. And how she was leaving wet marks on her bedsheets.
She gave me her cell # and we started texting each other throughout the days. Me from work, her from work.. etc. It was fun, flirty, happy and felt so damn good. So then i figured.. i have her cell # I'll just call her. So one night while waiting for the bus, I did. It wasn't nearly as awkward as i had thought and we ended up talking quite a bit which in turn led to phone sex (yeah yeah.. whatever.. it was actually real good for phone sex) and then shortly after we started dating long distance. It was crazy, in 3 weeks over a distance like that I have NEVER felt so strongly for anyone. It was that true connection with a girl that most people wait for and would die to have. She was even ready to pay to come visit me when she could take a few days from work (which would have been THIS weekend if **** hadn't gone wrong and she wasn't ****ing someone else right now) but anyway. Things were amazing. I honestly fell in love with this girl.. doing the math now.. we talked from somewhere near 60-70 hours in three weeks.
One night, while talking, she mentioned some stuff about her past and it sent off some warning bells in my head (probably undeserved) and her sexual past bothered me and started making me think about things which made me start to have doubts. I almost broke up with her that night and she called back in tears. She was begging me not to and asking me if i didnt' love her. I told her i wasn't sure. By the end of her conversation i had time to think about stuff and realized that stuff really wasn't that important and that i did really care about this girl. So i told her i loved her and let her get back to sleep. Things kinda got rough after this.. mainly because i know i hurt her with that conversation because she kept pushing it in my face. I kept asking her to stop. Anyway... she caused some **** on a forum with a guy who lives in her area and he started pulling some **** like stalking her on facebook and all that and even tried pulling strings to get me in **** (she told me all this) so i msgd the guy, told him to knock it off because i knew what he was doing. He called my bluff, I told him what she told me (which she told me not to do but i misunderstood..) and it got back to her. She flipped out, that lead to a huge fight and 2 hours of talking about breaking up or not. The end of the conversation, she cried, dumped me, said she loved me and needed a few days.
I couldn't give her the few days. I ended up leaving a voice mail for the next 3 days and so she really said she gave up. Then she turned around and said she still loved me.. wanted to kinda let things chill a bit while she was workin on this movie thing and that afterwards she'd still come visit and i could go see her and all that. So that I could make it up to her because i ****ed up (it took a phone call at 4am to get her to talk to me and fix **** a bit) so anyway.. we weren't together and i guess i got paranoid. i actually feared what she might do because she kept saying what she did and with who while we were apart is "none of my business" which to me isn't the attitude to have if you care for someone even if you aren't together. And it led to more frequent bouts of jealousy and finally with her kissing a guy (which i'm pretty sure she did JUST to get back at me for my jealousy.) She told me that, I flipped out.. tried calling her that night for 5 hours.. sent her a ****load of texts and now.. she hates me.
She wont' talk to me, has apparently got her lawyer on me so i "should be expecting contact from her lawyer in the next few weeks" blocked me on facebook (though she still has me on msn and hasn't blocked my # to my knowledge)
I take some comfort in knowing she HAD to go be with someone else to 'get over me' but god damn i wish this girl would talk to me and stop thinking i'm **** crazy.
Guh.. there's more **** i left out.. like certain things she said which i know she was sayin JUST to get me riled up.. **** like "I dont love you, I don't want to be with you, i want to be with guy x or guy b, or hell why not both at the same time since it's none of your business".
**** like that.. i dunno.. had to vent. Give feeback if you want, so long as it's positive.