Well, I can't believe I did it but I had to see it with my own eyes. Indeed, Luke's been posting a lot at this Enotalone.com site. The nature of that material is even worse than what he's been posting here. It was also very insightful. So was that little explanation about the alledged schism between his ego and alter-ego.
I no longer believe he's a troll. He's probably for real, as absurd as it may seem. It does mean that instead I am even more convinced he needs professional help.
While it is very tempting to make assumptions and speculations about the how and the why of Luke's view on the world, I won't presume to judge. I do know that Luke is in a very unhealhty situation. As anyone can see and does. Despite that, I'll venture a modest attempt though.
This schism between your ego and alter-ego, Luke? To me it sounds like this alter-ego of yours is the healthy young man that you still are deep down, who has been muted by religion and years of living at home under the control of the views of your mother. This alter-ego pops up because that is the independent, thinking-for-himself Luke with healthy masculine appetites that wants to get out. You simply don't know that consciously. Because you are so engrossed in this unhealhty world where you are not in control of yourself and your life, you think it's some forbidden fantasy. Much like the typical religious people who've been led to believe sex is bad, yet they secretly indulge in it. So far for my cold floor psychological theory.
Luke, once more: you are in a very unhealthy situation and you need help. Professional help. Leave this forum and seek it. You don't belong here. At all. This forum is not for you. A wanna-be player? Are you for real? That mindset is so far removed from you today, I can't even begin to explain it. Just get help. We cannot help you, you don't want to be "helped" since you believe in the validity of yourself and your views, and we cannot give you what you seek. You'll not find the answer to your questions here, I assure you that.
You are like the AFC who gets stood up on prom night by his date and yet continues to make her homework the days after because "he loves her". When his friends tell him he's nuts, he'll think them jealous and ignores them.
Good luck Luke. You'll need it.