Journal - Approaches on street, at mall, etc.

[LearningSlowly]

Best journal in the high school section. The only one with consistent cold approaches and detailed conversations.

You should kiss this girl. As you make out, control her state. Get her hot but also pull back to tease sometimes. Touch her boobs confidently. If she's really into it and you have time, touch her p*ssy or slide your leg between hers. You're getting too comfortable, stretch your comfort zone.

 

[Mindgamez]

mudko I appreciate the support man I'll keep'em coming!
Wolfbones, those old friends from high schools I don't really see them anymore. I don't get dragged down as much. No need for showing off anyway. Thanks for support maan!
Learning, I like how you're always here to cheer me up man. And yep, I'll make it happen.

HAHAHAA!
I don't know how to explain these past few days. Pretty funny/fun awesome.
In summary, I dressed up as a woman in front of the school, went to some party and kissed/got kissed on cheek. Girl told me she didn't wear any panties.
Then, HB Wolf flaked the meetup after she sent me some wall of text explaining why she couldn't come. She basically went clubbing for the 1st time, woke up super late, cannot go to my place because her father is sick and ****, and she didn't plan enough time for homeworks. She told me she really wanted to come, blablabla, and that we should redo it again.
And I did some new video on Self-Development

Thursday, February 21st
Me : AHHHH! I can't believe I'm doing this... my life is ruined!
HB Mole : You'll be the prettiest girl ever!
Me : Alright alright, there's no turning back, I'm doing this ****!

Feeling quite excited but nervous at the same time, HB Mole and her girl friend dressed me up, make up and everything. I didn't bother looking at myself in the mirror, because I wanted to keep the surprise to myself until AFTER the show.

I went backstage by myself, saw all the other guys dressed up. It was funny, I knew no one backstage but I just started talking to everyone in the place. I felt more comfortable about it because I felt like they were with me too.

When I walked on stage, people cheered for me and it gave me some little boost in confidence.
When the host interviewed me on stage, I told that I was a porn star, pretty funny. Because I COMPLETELY removed my ego out of the equation, it allowed me to really free myself and become a fckin woman for that time. It was hilarious, my funny lines were improvised and they flowed out by myself.
The same kind of feeling when feeling really good talking to girls...

I told the audience what turned me on as a girl, they cracked up laughing it was great. I had to seduce some man and bring him on the stage. I did the gayest **** I've ever done in my life HAHAHA!!

I did the catwalk near the audience, funny ****.

I didn't win the 150$ first place. Doesn't matter cauz the other guys had fake butt and gymnastic craziness, holy ****...
It basically was a vote of popularity, but whatever. It was MUCH more fun than I expected.
I liked the feeling of letting go of your ego COMPLETELY.
I strangely felt really confident on stage went came my time to improvise and be funny. I was nervous, of course, but not as much.

Texting HB Blondasian... really hot.

Her : *friend* wants to know where you are
Me : You mean you! want to know where I am lol
Her : Lol no srsly it was him but he's not with me anymore xD. Pff, u think I wanna hang out with you (;
Me : Yeaa, but I was busy putting sexy clothes on (for the show)
Her : Lol I watched you
Me : You watched me dress up? You naughty...
Her : No, no, you wanna watch me change tho haha
Her : *My pornstar name for the show*
Me : Yeeeeessss
Her : Now I know what kind of porn you watch haha
Me : If I watch porn now I could probably paint my whole wall in white HAHA (told her bout my nofap challenge)
Her : Omg I did not need that image in my head! Lol
Me : Wow now you imagine me cumming? Toure too naughty, stop it
Her : You're the one that made me think of it! XD
Me : Its getting way too hot in there, cant even focus on hw. I hate you!
Her : Hey, that's not my fault!
Me : Yea it is lol, seeya
Her : I'm still imagining (; Lmaoo Byebye

Basically, I almost failed the nofap that night HAHA.

Friday, February 22nd
Went to HB Mole's party!

Damn, when I first entered the party I was SO out of it. That ******y* girl shook my hand looking at me with a repelled look. It probably was her way of testing me, but I just felt like ****.
There was like 5 people when I arrived. We didn't talk much. I talked to the asian girl (the one that number closed me the first week of coming back to school), she seemed pretty happy to see me at first. But then, she started closing herself.

Waited, waited, it was boring. Didn't talk much. I basically tried to keep me busy by eating candies and drinking water (I was driving, sober power!)
Then, more girls came. I introduced myself to them, some were pretty cool and open. Some I knew.
I was feeling quite negative at first, but when Porno finally arrived, I started getting more into it.

We danced in the middle, it was fun. The DJ at HB Mole's place was the sh1t. The girls were dancing quite sensually but ALL the guys were chodes NO EXCEPTION. Except for like 4-5 guys including myself.
Some girl asked me to do a lap dance, so I did the way I did when I was on stage the other day LOL. Seemed like she liked it. I could've gone further but I pussied out...
I sat on the couch next to her. I felt like she was down for more but I wasn't down for her. She's hot, but I felt kinda intimidated. What I didn't like was the fact that she goes to my school and I just kept worrying about how awkward it could be if I got rejected. And since I was sober I had no excuse to go sexual.
WTVER FCK MAN, I JUST HAD FCKN EXCUSES AGHH!!!

Whatever. Later, I flirt with some really sexy girl in leggings. I ask her why she has her phone hidden in her panties.
Her : I don't wear panties!
She said, with the sexiest smile ever. Damn so hot.
Later that night, I see her again and I misheard her on purpose.
Her : Hey, you're Patrick?
Me : What? You wanna kiss?
She smiled again, said no, but then hugged me from the side and kissed me on the cheek.
It gave me a little boost in confidence, but I wasn't quite feeling impressed with what I've achieved. I felt like I deserved it, no surprise.

Later, I see the same sexy leggings girl making out with the DJ (her boyfriend), then she shook her ass in front of some other dude. She's was a slut hitting on every guy, but whatever LOL. If she gave me a kiss, I assume she was somehow attracted.

Then, I flirted with some hot tall blonde. I'd say HB8.5 easily, looking 9 on pictures.
I was feeling so in control when I was talking to her. When we talked, I kept it close proximity and she responded back with some touching. I was attracted, she was pretty drunk though.
Then, I approached her from the front and started grinding from the front, and I didn't resist my raging boner (LOL). It was poking out, she laughed and I hid it with my hands.
Her : Hahahaha, what are you doing!
I took her hand and brought her away from the crowd (like 15 people but still) to the side. I leaned for the kiss, but she turned away and gave her a cheek kiss.
She responded with a smile, then told me how she just broke up with her Ex and that she was still recovering from it. Basically, she was unsure.
Asked her a couple questions to make her invest a little bit.
Me : What? You have nothing awesome about you? Except that you're hot...
Her : Yeah...
We kept talking kinda, but she ended backing off.

I later grind her from the back, crotch can't reach her butt. I whisper in her ear :
Me : You're too tall!
She laughs her ass off, I do too. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!

Later, I catch her looking at me again, approaching me and we start flirting more. I really couldn't tell if she was interested or not! Damnit... I saw her talking with some other guy for like 30 minutes nonstop, though that they were having a nice connection but he didn't go physical at all.

Sometimes, I simply was dancing by myself in the middle. Introverts can entertain themselves without anyone, that's a fact.

I talk to the other girls around, get to know them a little bit. The *****y girl from last time seemed more friendly this time. I realized that I was just having negative assumptions about her and that's why things didn't feel right. The girl I gave the lap dance is pretty chill, but I see her as a friend more.

Saw my buddy Thomas grinding a couple girls (he was quite drunk), and excused himself simply when the girl told him to back off. Basically, he wasn't afraid of rejection. Pretty boss, I should've done that.

Near the end I was feeling much more comfortable having friendly conversation with the girls.

The hot blonde I didn't talk to for like an hour or so, I see her again and I ask her if she's down to hang out next week, but she refuses. My friends went like : Ohhhhhh!
It didn't bother me so much, I though it was fine. She didn't seem that drunk at that time, maybe just a little tipsy but she was fine.

Blablablba. Leave home, add the girls on facebook. I think the hot blonde refused the invite LOL.

Saturday,
Went to N's birthday. We ate amazing sushis, I was talking to that hot girl. She gave me a lot of eye contact, but I was kinda too ***** to do anything about it because I felt like because all my friends were around I couldn't allow myself to do it. They knew her well too.

The next day, HB Wolf flaked the meetup. It's kinda funny, but it seems like she's pretty down for meeting up again. If she doesn't want to, that's totally fine. Maybe she hooked up with some random guy while clubbing LOL.

Conclusion
- Even though the night doesn't start quite right, don't worry. You can make stuff happen as the night progresses. You're the boss.
- Show her you're horny, grind her from the front if you have to
- She gives you signs? No big deal, it's fun. Lay back and enjoy, don't overreact.
- You're NOT what you do! Let go of your ego, be crazy on stage, anywhere when you feel like it.

 

[LearningSlowly]

"I asked her a few questions to make her invest"
You ask questions like what's awesome about you and they never seem to go well. Instead, mention one of your many hobbies, then change the subject. Tell her you play piano, then ask if she plays any instruments. Tell her you dance, then ask if she's a good dancer. Don't put her on the spot with general questions.

 

[LearningSlowly]

Congratulations mindgamez! Lets see a post about what we talked about on Facebook.

 

[Mindgamez]

Thanks Learning. I will have sex with her man!

EPPIICC.
I won't spoil anything for you guys, but basically I'm making a lot of progress.
Funny ****block happened. He was annoying though...

Monday, February 25th
Meetup with HB Blondasian during the break.

We find some little place just for us. It's a dark room, funny. We do sexual jokes as always.
Some teacher walks in and kindly tells us that we aren't allowed to stay. So we find some other spot.

I remember her spanking me. I spanked her back.

It really was only me and her. I was getting closer and closer to her.
I went for the kiss on the neck. She didn't resist it. I went in for the cheek, she liked it. But when I went for the kiss on the lips, she backed off. I'm not going to lie that I was kinda nervous here. I think I was almost sweating lol!
Her : I can't do that...
Me : Why? Oh yeah that's right.
I remembered that she has a boyfriend. I backed off and we just kept talking anyway. It wasn't that much of a big deal after all.

We moved to some other spot, close to my english class. We were facing each other.
Once, I playfully touched her boob by *accident*. She giggled, she knew it was on purpose haha. Her hand came close to my crotch, so I called her up on it.
Her : No it wasn't my intention! I simply was pointing at your belly, blablalba.

Me : Hey, have you ever forget to put your underwear on?
Her : No. Did you?
Me : ...Yeah.
Her : Really? How can you forget!
Me : Well, I didn't forget actually. It's just more comfortable because you don't get the sticky feeling between your legs you know?
She laughed, it was pretty funny. I haven't told that to anybody else LOL, but I only do that on occasions. Easier access for sex, that's what I thought...

Sometimes she would touch my abs, I'd feel hers. Her boobs looked fantastic in her top that day.
70% of our talking was sexual.

Afterwards, went to video production class. We kept it modest with the people around us, but we would still do our sexual inside jokes nobody else could get. The *us* mentality.

Took the bus with her and some friend. Once we were off the bus and just the both of us, we started spanking each other again. I gave her a ride home with my car.
Me : Give me a kiss?
Her : Noooo...
Me : On the cheek.
She complies, does it. I felt like it wasn't a big deal, but just a natural thing. That was it? It was easy.

Tuesday, February 26th
I decide not to meetup with her, because I was chilling with Porno and my other buddies. I didn't want to appear too needy... I know, bad mentality. I should just do what I feel like doing.

Though, we had some interesting texting. Tell me what you guys think.

*talking about nofap challenge*
Me : Just failed the challenge! Nooooooo...
Her : XD noo way why'd u do it!!
Me : You probably know the feeling when it feels so good you cant resist it haha
Her : Lmao, why do you assume I know that feeling
Me : Because you like how it makes you feel naughty
Her : Hahaha, stop it I don't loololol
Me : I like how you try to hide it but it simply doesn't work
Her : It does work!Shut up!! XD
Her : SO how long did u last again? A month?
Me(20 mins later) : Yeah, and I just failed again 10 minutes ago LOL
Her : What!?! Ahaha twice?!
Me : Dont fail like me, do productive **** instead LOL
Her : That is productive haha
Me : Orgasms help to your mental and physical wellbeing, but its not!
Her : Helping your mental and physical well-being is productive!
Me : Contributing to my wellbeing? **** yeh let's meetup thursday. But dont overload your dopamine receptors too much
Her : Lol sure sure

LOL epic sh1t.

Wednesday, she tells me that she broke up with her boyfriend!
Basically, she really wants the D.

Thursday, February 28th
WOO.

We chill during the break. She told me how she was listening to that song non stop all the time since the morning. I wonder what kind of song it is.
She told me how she felt bad about being single all over again. Basically, she wanted me in her reality.
We were sitting at a random spot near the lockers. The beauty is that it didn't fcking matter the place we were at. We would just sit down and enjoy the company of the other person, that's it. Nothing else.
I slid my hand close to her crotch between her legs, not quite reaching it. I caught her hovering her hand over my crotch, almost touching my **** LOL. I was about to lower it on my crotch but pussied out.

My boner was fully visible and I caught her looking at it. I know, hehehehehehehehe...

I just kept thinking about kissing her, but I pussied out... We just kept talking sexually again.
Told her how by failing the nofap challenge I wasn't as horny anymore. She didn't mind haha.

Then, my *friend* comes in to ****block me (Let's call him Ass because that's how his name sounds like).
He noticed us next to each other, touching, but he didn't mind. Once I left to go to the bathroom, he jumps in the opportunity to wrap his arm around her and she lay her head on his shoulder.
I come back, Blondasian looks at me with a smile.
Me : Whaatt? What is this!
I was smiling and didn't flinch too much. It was a genuine smile, I thought it was funny. I knew he wouldn't get her anyway and I felt secure.
Me(to Ass) : You know, you're like the worst ****block ever man!
I don't remember what was said afterwards, but he unwrapped his arm. The dude knew I was going for her and still went for her, come on... I mean, I wasn't mean to him or anything, even tried to be friends.

Basically I ask Blondasian if she want's to go to the Couch Place. She agrees, but then Ass is like : Oh, where is it?
AHHH I DIDN'T WANT YOU TO COME DAMNIT, LOL.
I wasn't too worried about him stealing her from me, but I was kind of getting annoyed of Blondasian and me not being able to have our little intimate moment.
I didn't want to sound rude or overprotective by telling him to go away, so I just let him stick with us.
I was feeling safe, because he was playing it safe and was just doing the same friendly talk he always did to girls.

Sometimes, what I'd do is that I'd throw some inside jokes he wouldn't understand kind of to confuse him and make him feel distant. Sometimes, I'd whisper some sexual thing in her ear. It felt hot.

While she was talking to him, I'd sometimes walk away to talk to some other buddies around.
Time to go to class, so I hug Blondasian and talk to close proximity still holding her.
I try and setup something for Saturday evening, but apparently she ain't sure if she can.
Me : I'll call you.
Her : Okay.
Then I eject, and you know what Ass does? He's in my same fcking class, he's late for his class but STILL decides to walk Blondasian to her class. Can you realize that? Like, he couldn't tell that I was into her? Come on! Whatever, went to my class anyway.

In class, I see him again.
Me : Yo dude! Stop ****blocking me man!
Him : Ohhh alright you're into her?
Me : Yeah man, fully into her!
Him : Oh my bad my bad.

Later, Blondasian texts me to text her once I get out of class. I call.
She's with Ass waiting in the bus line. How?! LOL.
I get in the bus but late, but once I get out to the terminus I can talk to her 1 on 1.

We go into the mall, we sit on the couch. I look at her painting.
Me : It's written large. Large... what?
Her : Large ****!
Me : Yeah that's good. But isn't long **** better?
Her : Large **** is good too, because it feels real good.
At this point I got a boner as I went : Ouuuhh...
She smiled.
I told her about how I'd shave my pubes and how it felt cleaner. I asked her if she did shave her pubes.
Her : Haha I'm not answering that!

What's funny is that the lady next to us could hear our conversation LOL. I made Blondasian a little uncomfortable.
I lean in and kiss her cheek. Then, I go for the kiss on the lips but she backs off.
I back off too, but surprisingly I wasn't feeling anxious at all! I took it as if nothing happened.
Me : Oohhhh... tsktsktsk, you're too asian.
Her : What does that mean?
Me : Just means that you're too... asian.
She laughs to my joke that doesn't make sense. Basically she was shy in public.
What was great is that I could allow myself to say funny sexual jokes freely. We were open.

It's time for me to leave for my bus.
Me : Sh1t gotta catch my bus quick! Don't wanna be late.
I lean in for the kiss, give her a gentle peck on the lips. I felt she wasn't down for a make-out in public so I kept it simple.
As I was walking fast towards my bus, she tries to follow me. Before I go for real, I lean in for another kiss but she backs off. I was feeling shy too because some girl from my high school was watching me(I think).

Whatever! Fck this sh1t, she's down for the D.

Later that evening, I go back on Facebook and I see her post some cute status about love. I realize it was the love song she was listening to over and over again today.

CONCLUSION
- You get her to kiss you. What's the big deal? Is that it? Yes. It was that easy. You shouldn't feel impressed because it's in your DNA man.
- The girl actually likes you. You kiss her, boom. Yes it is a pleasant feeling, but the results is nothing compared to the whole pickup journey I had to go through to get here. I want to experience the whole thing, I want to develop myself to the fullest. That's what I like about it, and it's so much more meaningful than getting a kiss, or even sex.

 

[Mindgamez]

BEST PICKUP EVER.

On instant date :
Her : I'm 21, and you're 17. This means I'm a pedophile... but it doesn't mean I want to have sex with you. *smile*

Saturday, March 2nd
Let's start from the beginning.

I meetup with Beatbox and we spend an hour doing nothing, walking around and eating. I lost my momentum of approaching... I thought.

When Steven arrives, we walk around together.
I see a set of two girls sitting at a table.
Me : Mhmhmh... ahh damn I wanna go... You guys join me, come on!
Steven : Oh man, I hate sitting groups. It's the worst like, they're busy and **** and I don't want to bother them.
Beatbox : Yeah he's right.
Me : What? Fck this ****, NO.

I ran down the stairs and went for the approach. I was full of joy, even though nervous. I knew that whatever I was feeling they could feel too.
Me : Hey excuse me... Uhhh, will you be my valentine?
They giggled, thought it was funny because it was. Valentine's day was over already loool. I ejected out because of anxiety. Doesn't matter, I had the ball rolling.

Next girl, I don't even have time to think about it. I poke her from the back though, she kinda jumps LOL.
Me : Hey excuse me, will you be my valentine?
She had a bright smile, I did too. When she said no sorry, I told her she was racist and walked off. We thought it was very funny LOL.

I see this HB8.5 sitting by herself. I told Beatbox and Steven that one of them should go approach her, because they haven't approached of the day yet...
So I sat on some other bench with them.

Silent.

Just nothing. I tried not to think, but I couldn't stop thinking.
She left her bench.
Beatbox : Now GO. It's your time!
I knew what was the right thing to do. Midway through I thought of turning back and just not approaching. She was walking all by herself, maybe she saw me before or something... She would think I'm stalking her.
FCK THIS.
Me : Hey excuse me.
Her : Yes?
Me : Actually, I just thought that you were really beautiful and I wanted to come talk to you.
I was a little nervous, didn't resist it. She seemed open and cool to it. She smiled back.
As we talked a little bit more, I just assumed we were friends already. The vibe was the same as with HB Nipples or Blondasian right from the start. I had this feeling of comfort run through my body, I couldn't explain how. It just happened.
Me : How old are you by the way?
Her : I'm 21. You?
Me : Oh really? I'm 17!
Her : What? Wow, you looked like you were 19.
Blablabla
Her : Anyway, I'm feeling kinda lonely. Wanna come shop with me?
Me : Yeah sure.
The way I said "yeah sure" surprised me. I wasn't impressed with myself. I knew it was part of me.

We walked around, told her she was too old for me. She told me we'd just stay friends lol.
I kept that vibe at the beginning, just friendly but comfortable.
As we were walking around, I noticed how she was the one to engage the conversation more, talking most of the time. She was telling me about random sh1t like girls always do.
She was very confident, relaxed, and it was attractive. I felt relaxed like her.

Actually, I realized that I like confident girls more than shy girls. They have this mystery about them, this confidence to attract. She knew I was attracted to her, I showed it through my eyes, and she took advantage of it by throwing some flirting.

I suggested that we sit down at a table. I was leading where we were going basically. We talked and kept the friendly vibe, but I still was attracted to her so I knew there was no reason to resist it. Then, my voice felt sexy, my gaze felt sexy. Hers was sexy too.
Sometimes I'd say obnoxious things and she'd frown her eyebrows. I didn't feel the need to flinch and pull back. I just let her say whatever she had to say. By just keeping my cool, her expression changed automatically and she giggled.
She didn't giggle or smile all the time. She wasn't reactive, nor was I. So mysterious, so mature. She was 21.
I guess I love this security the more mature girls have.

I don't give a sh1t what people say. It's not because she's 4 years older than me that we can't fck!

Me : Why do these shirts have those drawing on the boobs?
Her : So they want you to see.

Her : What you think of this?
Me : Oh, I'd look hot on you.

Later we go into some DVD store and she sees a poster of some guy from a TV show. She hugs him.
Me : Hey, why were you touching his crotch?
Her : I wasn't touching it. You touch it. Give him a handjob.
Me : I'm not into giving handjobs. Not into handjobs.
Her : I do BJ.
She looked at me with the sexiest look.
Me : Ouuuuhhhh waah...
She walked away with the smile.

The vibe was like with HB Blondasian. We were open to sex now.
Age didn't matter.

She hugs some stuffed toy on her chest.
Me : Why do you press it on your boobs like that?
She laughed. Later, I put a hat on her for fun. I touch her hair. She showed me her piercings and she got mad when I touched them haha.

I told I had to go after 1 hour of chilling around. She told me I was lame for leaving or something.
I get her number, put it in.
Her : It's a fake number
Me : Oh really? Alright let me call you.
Her : Yeah it's my real number. Here's the proof.
Blabla, she shows me her phone.
We walk back to the metro. I sometime touch her a bit. I'm not afraid of looking at her directly in the eyes for long.
I go on with the flirting, some sexual jokes here and there. Like I did with Blondasian. She responded back with some more flirting.
I felt like she was reacting more as the evening went forward.

Waiting for metro.
Her : Let's sit on the floor.
Me : It's dirty. I'll sit on you then.
Her : No, I will sit on you so I don't get dirty.
We just sit next to each other. As we talked, I remember her saying that I have a boner LOL.
Her : Okay so, I'm 21. Isn't that illegal?
Me : No I don't think so. I think it's 5 years difference for the law.
Her : Oh yeah you're right. I'm 21, and you're 17. This means I'm a pedophile... but it doesn't mean I want to have sex with you. *smile*
Me : Oh haha, this escalated quickly!
Age was totally irrelevant to me at this point. We were attracted, man and woman, that was enough.

During the whole interaction, I wasn't thinking of what to say next. It just happened naturally. There was no past or future. I didn't even care about her acceptance or not. I just assumed it. Though, she was EXTREMELY hot. Her personality made her HB9. Hotter than Blondasian, than HB Nipples. To be honest, I was surprised of my centeredness and confidence. But I won't be anymore. It's part of me.

Once in the metro, we talk to close proximity and we get a little physical.
As she's about to leave, I give her a hug. I go in for the kiss. On the cheek though.
She backs off, pushes me away playfully with a smile. I just smiled back haha!

Now,
Feeling kinda nervous about calling her. When it<s time to setup the date to move things forward, I always feel more chody. I'm not going to lie, I'm feeling like a little *****.
But once I'm done writing this journal, I will press the call button and there will be NO turning back.
I live by my principles.

CONCLUSION
- AGE IS IRRELEVANT. You're a man, she's a woman. That's enough for attraction. Convey the feeling that social norms doesn't matter at ALL. It's all about YOUR reality. Make your definition of what's the right thing to do stronger than anything else.
- That was it? Yes, that was it. How I did it? By knowing deeply that she deserves me and that I deserve her. It's the human connection, that's it.
- I'm not becoming a boss. I'm just becoming who I already am.

 

[puaprodigy]

Hey man, I read through most of your journal and I'm very impressed by how far you've come. I haven't really tried as hard as you but I am inspired by your perseverance and think that I should go for a full attempt at learning. I usually just keep it at school messing with girls but I've decided to bring it to the mall.

Prodigy

 

[Mindgamez]

Hi dude, thanks for the support I greatly appreciate. I'm glad I came from a long way and had to go through all of this. It gives me so much more dept as a person I believe. Bring it not only to the mall. Make it your lifestyle, a change for life and forever.

Called the girl,
She told me she would go check her schedule and everything. I said alright. 10 minutes later she texts me that she ain't interested... I keep on texting a little, but then she stopped responding so I move on.

LIFECHANGING TRIP.
Went to New York with Porno and school. 3 days of INTENSE picking up chicks all day.
I think I did around 90-100 approaches total, no kidding.
In summary, went for the kiss. A LOT.

Success? Read through.

Can't remember everything by heart, but I'll do my best. I became better as the days passed.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RkF06hah7s0

Almost every day was DAYGAME FROM 2PM TILL 10-11PM. I know, crazy we are... but it's fun okay?

First day.
Getting into motion was a little hard at first. We felt the usual feeling we'd get in our city. We had anxiety, but we pushed through it.

APPROACHES APPROACHES APPROACHES. NON-STOP SH1T.
I remember going for the cheek kiss a couple times, the girls denied but it didn't matter.

The evening,
Porno and me spot 2 girls smoking on the side. He opens.
We talk for a good while. I'm feeling kind of out of it, but I force myself to keep my calm. Doing some James Marshall style hehe.
They were Ukrainians, HB8.5s I'd say. Porno rates them 10, but I really don't think so...
One of them (the one I went for) didn't even understand English fully. It didn't matter, because it was about the vibe.
At the end, hugged her. She held tight, so I kissed her cheek. I went for the lips, but she turned away and I kissed her cheek like 1 inch away her lips! Damn, so close.
I was about to go in again. I was feeling 100% in control, no nervousness. Whatever, it was nice anyway.

That's how we ended the day. Did something like 25-30 approaches that day, crazy.
Lots of rejections at some point, much more than in my city, but for some reason we were going into state much better.

Went in our assigned hotel room. Flirted with the chicks I though were okay looking. The lights were dim, we flirted in the dark. Pretty much direct sexual talk 90% of the time. They were totally into it, us not nervous because they weren't that hot.

Second day.
Woke up, got really turned off by the girl's needy look on her face. It made her look ugly, she was fat. Eww.
They brought us breakfast, how sweet haha. We paid though.

After the bus tour, we walk around ALL DAY. 10 hours of pickup per day, not even kidding.
The more the day passed, the more in the mood we were. Approaching older women looking 25, it didn't matter the age I thought.
For some chicks, I went for the cheek kiss. At some point, all I wanted was fun. I wasn't worried about anything. I did so much pickup that we started getting tired and thought it was getting repetitive.
So I tried something new.
I opened with different lines, going from : Hey, do you like pie? to YEAAHH Asian power high five! to Oh my god, you're the most beautiful girl ever.

I'm not going to lie that my state really went downhill at some point. Porno's too. We were stuck in our heads, we couldn't approach at some point. Porno got ****blocked by the mom and lost some of his cool powers. We knew the right thing to do anyway. We were at New York. We could allow ourselves to let our real selves shine, at least just for that particular time. We knew it was exactly the same no matter if at New York or not. Girls str girls after all, no matter what.

Talked to two girls, one okay the other pretty hot.
We setup some date for the following day, but apparently her grandma had a heart attack or something LOL. She still texts Porno though.

I remember talking to that very cute asian girl. I'd say HB8. I opened, Porno talked to her friend. Japanese.
Blablabla, we talked for like 15 minutes.
Her : How old are you?
Me : You, how old?
Her : 20.
Me : Oh haha, I'm 17.
Her : Ohhh, too young! *giggles*
The conversation was flowing nicely. I was out of state at the beginning of the day, but on that interaction, I felt really good for some reasons. It just flowed nicely at some point, I wasn't thinking.
Me : Alright, we really have to go.
We hug.
Me : Do you want a kiss?
Her : Yeaahh! Hum nooo haha
I went for it. She turned her head on the side, gave her the other cheek.
Me : Give me one.
She does it. Went for the lips but she backed off with the shy smile. Whatever haha.

I don't remember the rest of the day. I remember kissing girls on the cheek though. When all I wanted was to give love, they'd simply comply and go for the hug. Then, they'd welcome the kiss.

Before going to bed, we did meditation together at the same time. While the girls were trying to sleep, we just sat on the bed in the dark for 21 minutes. Surprisingly, I could allow myself to feel extremely present. Even though all the good/bad things that happened that day, I could just allow myself to focus on the now.

LAST DAY.
Funny how we bought vegetables and fruits to eat for breakfast while everyone ate greasy sh1t. We cared about feeling energized for the day, we had to eat well.

WE MET WITH COOLKID! (Check out his journal guys).
Tried to contact him earlier but phone wouldn't work it drove me nuts. I love this guy, he's pretty cool.
We did a lot of approaches with him. Lots of rejections at first, but it didn't matter.

I remember this particular set of three beautiful girls. The one in the middle was ADORABLE, HB8.5 (for me at least).
At some point near the middle, I was feeling totally present and not nervous anymore. It allowed me to say obnoxious things they thought was funny because it was funny to me.
Before leaving, I hugged the cutie in the middle. She held in tight for long, so I kissed her on the cheek. Her smile was adorable. I went for the lips but she backed off. Her friends were smiling too, it was cute.
Guys afraid of girls ****blocking? Just win the group, be funny. They'll love you for going for it, make their day but mostly, make her day.
When they started walking away, I yelled : NOOOOOO! and fell on the ground in a funny way.
They looked back at us. Seemed like they were down to hang out, but we decided to go the other way because I only had 2 hours with coolkid.

Walked around more and more. Did some awkward approaches, but some pretty cool ones too.

 

[Mindgamez]

I remember that BEAUTIFUL girl with her two friends.
Approached her directly. I didn't joke around because I just wanted to go for it NOW. I told her she was gorgeous, totally genuine.
Seemed like her heart melted, the same way mine did (awww).
Her : Ohhhh that's so niiiiceee! But I have a boyfriend...
Me : Oh noo...
She held her hand up, so I just held it, she didn't resist it but walked away.

Did the same with some other gorgeous woman. Kissed her hand this time. She took her time to stop but had to go though. Her smile was sexy. I was very physical from the start, had my hand around her waist.

When Coolkid had to leave, I felt kinda sad. I knew I'll never see him again. Or maybe in 5 years from now when we'll be old enough to club at Las Vegas. People down for the game like me and him, there ain't that many. As he entered the metro, I just lingered here. Ahhh, but I had to go! Waved at him one last time. Went back to Times Square with Porno.

I remember this girl. I ran towards her and yelled : Excuse me!
She turned back. I didn't even say a word and her face lit up AUTOMATICALLY. It probably was the look in my eyes, my radiating happiness.
Me : Oh sh1t! Is that your boyfriend?
Her : Yeah
Me : Ohhh damn...
Actually she was just kidding lol. The guy seemed jealous though...
Told her she was beautiful. I hugged her immediately. Went for the cheek kiss, she was fine with that. Went for the lips but she backed off with the usual smile. I wasn't nervous, funny...
Walked away after that.

Did the same with some Norwegian girls but they backed off. They were Reaaaley hot.

All those attempts within the first few minutes

We go to McDonalds. As we leave, we see a group of like 5-6 girls and we open immediately.
My jokes were flowing, they weren't even funny but I just assumed they were at a 100%.
I'd do the most obnoxious things but they'd still laugh.
Isolated the cutest girl. Welcomed her in my arms. She held the hug for long, went for the cheek kiss and she liked it.
Went for the lips again. She backed off with a surprised but cute smile.
How much time? Like 3 minutes LOL.
All the friends were watching us, smiling and giggling.
Me : Oh snap, I think we're being watched! Okay, turn around...
Her : Hahaha noooo! nooo...
Whatever, we go separate ways after we hugged everyone.

I remember going on the steps of Times Square and seeing a group of like 7 hot chicks taking a video.
I jumped right in the middle and started dancing with them. They cheered me up!
But then, I lost state when they told me to get off lol. I just left like a chode XD.

Oh I remember those two HOTASS redhead girls. SO HOT. Porno probly loved them too.
I go with the direct line, him too.
Me : You're absolutely gorgeous. Hey I'm Mindgamez.
I extend my hand, she shakes it but bumps into me at the same time. Probably on purpose.
I was SO in state.
I saw Porno kneeling down to ask for marriage. I did the same.
Then, went for the hug immediately. She held tight again. I went for the cheek kiss, she was soooo hot. She loved it. Went for the lips but the backed off and just walked away haha...
Maybe girls find it too intense right from the start LOL. But we had to do it.

Those two girls looked older. Still went for them.
The one on the right held very long eye contact, had the flirty eyes. It was so attractive...
They were 21 or older because they could drink. I didn't mention my age, which is good haha.
We talked long, like maybe 20 minutes or so. It was pretty fun, funny conversations and their laughs were pretty funny.
Me : Are you into asian guys?
Her : Asian guys? Haha, what kind of asian?
Me : My kind of asian.
Her : Oh, specifically you!
Blablabla, I don't remember what was said but it didn't matter.
We hugged tight. If I remember, I kissed her on the cheek and she kissed my cheek too.
Went in for the lips again! She backed off, smiles and giggles and they just left. She loved the meeting anyway.

Oh, that one was FANTASTIC. WONDERFUL. HB8, even 8.5
Porno : Hey, I dare you to do a mom block man!
Me : Hahaha, alright.
I was in total state, crazy sh1t. I just walk up to the girl. I'm a little nervous, but I allow myself to simply fall in love.
Me : Hey excuse me.
She turns towards me.
Me : Will you be my valentine?
Her : Ohhh that's so nice! Yes!
The mom was watching with the brightest smile ever. The sister was amazed too.
She comes in for the hug. We hold tight and I go for the cheek kiss.
Me : Goodbye, have a wonderful day!
They waved goodbye, it was very nice.

20 minutes left before we head to the bus home.
We kept walking and walking around. We got a couple rejections going, but it didn't matter. I was having so much fun like I never had before while doing pickup. Instead of feeling tired of picking up girls, I was feeling more and more energized. I wasn't feeling *socially exhausted* the same way I'd do at school. After 10 hours, I felt better than ever. I wanted this moment to last forever. I wanted it to never end. Just me and Porno, having so much fun together.I hope this friendship never ends. I didn't care about anything else but the present moment. Went through all this journey, realizing how easy it actually is.
2012 was intense. A year of pain and going through it, pushing it to the max. Wasn't it all worth it? All those hundreds of approaches. For what? To die, simply. Nothing in this world has meaning, yet everything has meaning. Let's enjoy it while we're still alive, every second. Every experience.

I see a set of two asian girls. Probably in the 20s up.
Feeling a little out of state at first, but I had to do it. The last approach of the whole trip.
I open with the direct compliment. Japanese again, pretty cute. We isolate our girl and talk 1 on 1.
I don't quite remember what was said, but basically a lot of simple conversation, comfort building and just assuming the best. No real verbal flirting was done, a little teasing here and there. Asians, I thought.
I tell them we really have to head back to Canada.
10 minutes of conversation only.
We hug tight. I kiss her on the cheek. She turns her head to the other side, another cheek kiss. She gives me one. I go in for the lips. She backs off with a sexy smile.
Me : It's a once in a lifetime opportunity
Her : Haha! (friend's name), you want to kiss him(talking about Porno)?
Can't quite remember what was said, but it didn't matter.
I go in for the lips again. Her lips felt soft, her chapstick tasted sweet.
Me : Ohh, your lips taste sweet.
She giggles, blabla.
I go in for the kiss again. Before I can open my mouth she backs off.
I go in again. We hold the kiss a little longer, I open my mouth slightly and she almost goes in for the make-out too, but is too shy to go on. So we wave goodbyes and we never see each other ever again.

We walked back to the bus, feeling like the biggest bosses in the world.
But then, I realize that it simply is a part of me. It's 1% of my full potential. I just started...

CONCLUSION
- The game should never tire you down. Find fun in whatever you're doing, even if it's for 10 hours straight!
- GO SUPER PHYSICAL. Physical is the key to being good. If you're unapologetically confident while going physical, she'll comply and go for it. It's so easy how the girl just follows your lead when all you want is to give love. She'll hug you, she'll kiss you, she'll hold on to you. Wrap your arm around her, make her day. She wants to experience it, it's a dream becoming reality to her.
- And a dream becoming reality to you too. Imagine she's your wife, just allow yourself to fall in love. Feel attracted, this non-needy love.
- It's part of you. It's not about becoming a boss. It's about freeing yourself, about becoming who you already are.

 

[Mindgamez]

Friday, March 7th
Back to Canada!
Got my balls checked. PHEW I don't have testicular cancer LOL.

Basically, the text conversation was pretty explicit. SHE WANTS THE D. AT SCHOOL.
So I called her, blablabla. A little bit of sexy flirting, teasing. She can't come to my place this Sunday, whatever! Then goes the texting :

Me : I just feel like kissing you right now
Her : Kissing me... in a non-attached kind of way, right? ;P
Blablabla, she tells me she ain't down for anything serious.
Me : That's exactly whats up! Much better like that
Her : Yaay ok awesome
Me : Cauz I aint down for the cute dates and everything to be honest lol
HONESTY IS THE BEST THING.
Her : Good, me neither. fuuuck thaatt shiiiittt ;P
Me : Horny Blondasian doesnt need that sh1t
Her : Just cut right to the action lmaooo kidding... kind of xD
SHE WANTS THE D.
Me : Is at school the only way? Thats naughty cant do that!...
Her : Ahahah maybeeee (;
Me : K meet me monday during break aggghhh challenge's killing me (talking about nofap)
Her : At 1? Lol that challenge is stupid. I've done it during this break (;
She masturbates during her breaks? How hot...
Me : I swear im going to aaghhh
Her : You should. Youll feel better haha. Actually wait no don't cux you said when you don't you feel more hyper and stuff... which I like
Me : Yeaah, more spiderman web to enjoy
HAHAHAHA
Her : XD ew!!! Lol more images in my head!!
Me : You want more? Thats enough, stop playing with yourself!
Her : Ahahaha who said I was doing that!! Lol (; I'm getting ready to go out
Me : Enjoy, have MAX fun no excuses
Her : Haha I will I will thanks
Her : No excuses make it happen lmao

I told her the next day about how my balls were fine, and more sexual talking. It's very hot.

Too lazy to write today, but basically the day went alright.
Kissed some random girl on the cheek again. Weird how my first approaches were much better than my last ones. I started noticing things in body language like the girl copying my movements, etc.
Though I didn't number close I could have done it! Whatever.

The day wasn't that special to be honest. I wasn't that great for some reasons, I was out of state. I'll do better next time.

CONCLUSION
- Go sexual over text, but do so only if you went sexual in real life first!
- Get your balls checked.
- Bad days just happen, deal with it.

 

[Mindgamez]

SKYROCKET SH1T MAN.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yCoc80BHMMU
These lights are black
This Heaven is composed
By the
Fallen...
Take it all back

Friday, March 8th
Texting with HB Blondasian.

Me : Yo wheres your porn video at
Her : I hide it
Me : I probably shouldnt watch it cauz ill have to change pants
Her : Youd have to change pants like 5 times
Me : Aggh... Yo is swallowing warm sweet *** safe?
Her : Uh.. I hope so hahaha
Her : Want me to test it for you?
Literally had the HUGEST boner ever at this point.
Me : I think I have the hugest boner right now
Her : I can help you with that
Me : All I can think of is of my *** all over you... how am I gonna fckn sleep
Her : You're not going to sleep. You're going to stay up and keep talking to me
Her: I like those thougts... they turn me on

BUT problem is at this point my cellphone was closed and I had to go to bed...
Whatever. She wants to swallow my semen which is fckn hot.

Monday, March 11th
The texting right before was hot, told her I failed the Nofap challenge
and she goes : Noooo! You could have lasted another day ):

Yeah!
So basically we meetup during the break. She's wearing a sexy dress and we're looking around for some private place.
Her : Oh there's some empty classroom over there.
Me : But hey, there's windows at the top...
Her : Who cares? No one will see us!
Me : I don't know about that...
Her : We're just sitting, what's wrong with that?
Me : Haha...
We go in the classroom and sit on the teacher's desk. I can't quite remember about what we talked about, but it was very explicitly sexual. She told me about the orgy she witnessed the other day (apparently she didn't participate but I'm not quite sure about that haha!)
I was just enjoying the feeling, her too, not even worrying about what to talk about. Just being together was exciting.
I remove her belt from her dress.
Me : What is this? Remove it.
Her : Hey don't remove it I need it!
Me : You have a dress, what does it hold?
I remove it, it didn't make her more naked in any way but it was funny.
I purposely bend down and look under her dress. She gives a sexy smile.
Her : Haha hey, what are you looking at?
Me : Oh nothing
I steal her phone, open her dress at the top and drop it in there.
She reaches in her dress from the top, opens it big so I can see her bra very clearly. She smiles and picks her phone back.
Me : Oghhhh...
Her : I have to reach for my phone!
After that, we sit and talk a bit, listen to her music. I don't like the song.
Me : Oh what the hell's this? What is this?
I come closer and closer as I fake to get mad at her.
I reach her lips instantly, mouth already open. I slip my tongue in, hold her with both hands and lean onto her. I was a real monster, NO holding back or slowing down. It was a very horny mouth rape.
She finishes the kiss. I say that it was nice.
Her wet tongue, her teeth hitting mine, her exploring my mouth. MHmhmhmhmhmh...
She unties my belt. But then, she pussies out from removing everything. Truth is that I did too LOL.
ANYONE could pop out in the classroom and see us in action. It would take that person half a second to open the door and we couldn't predict it. I was overparanoid, I should've done it damnit.
I remove my belt completely.
Me : Without that belt, my pants would just fall off instantly.
Her : Alright, stand up for a second?
I stand up.
Me : It's not falling because my boner is holding it.
Laughs, pretty funny. I show her my pubes.
Me : Hey look, it's shaven.
Her : That's not shaven!
Me : Yeah I did, like 3 weeks ago.
Her : Well it's trimmed then.
I was about to whip out my ****, but I couldn't have a full boner because I was paranoid of people popping out. Basically I tried to force it but meh LOL.
Whatever, we leave the classroom when it's time for class.
Me : Ahh I'm such a *****, I hate classrooms with windows!
Her : Yeah you're a *****, you're not adventurous enough.
Me : Hahahaha, blablabla.

I walk her to her classroom.
Me : Want to make-out again?
Her : Is that a question?
She gives me the horny smile again. We make-out again, she shied away after 3 seconds because people were watching.

Wednesday, March 11th
The night we texted sexy sh1t.

Me : Soon you'll feel my warm **** all over your whil your ***** gets wet
Her : Haha who says we're gonna go that far? (;
Me : I swear I want to ejaculate all over but I gotta do homeworks... whens your break wednesday
Blablabla Logistics.
Me : Yeah, fck classrooms with windows though LOL
Her : Whyy
Me : OK if you come without underwear
Her : XD no FCk that
Blablabla

Tuesday, March 12th
Basically, I had excuses. I had to read my book and though that 30 minutes wouldn't be enough to buildup for sex. At school by the way, haha.

She texts me to come, I respond telling her that I can't ***, and she goes :
Her : You're lame. Good people can ***. Blablablabla

The night, I couldn't have been hornier...

ME : Thursday bring minidress/skirt, makes things easier and less noticable
Her : Lol no im not gonna **** around
Me : Keep all the semen for your mouth only... nasty spiderman (joke about how spiderman shoots sticky white stuff)
Her : XD you're the horniest person alive
Me : Eat it till the last drop because I'm not cleaning up
Her : Yummm (;
HAD THE BIGGEST BONER EVER.

Wednesday, March 13th
We text and text, blablabla. I talk about how I don't like to wear underwear and encourage her to do the same. She denies lol.

Thursday, March 14th
I was NERVOUS. I knew I was having sex that day. I knew I was.
Talked to my buddy Shuffle, Viggy(lets call him like that), and some other buddy. Shuffle told me sex tips, etc. how to have a fun first time.

After gym class, I take a shower. I rub my genitals a little, have a little fun right there to get myself in the mood (my friends reading this will think I'm a sick perv ). No cumming, that'd be nasty.

I meet up with Blondasian that day. For some reason, Viggy is being a little clingy b1tch and following me around with her. Told him to leave but he just stays here because he's super bored and stuff. Whatever, he's still very cool.
We talk sexually, Viggy joins in too and we do funny gay jokes. Blondasian tells him about how I like to put it up my ass and sh1t, funny.
We sit next to each other. Blondasian gets closer, I do too. She's sitting legs crossed, I'm at her left, I put my right leg over her.
I scratch below my thigh, even though I wasn't feeling itchy. I was going for something else.
I reach my hand directly on her crotch and start rubbing fast. I don't bother going slow and just allow myself to be a horny bastard. No one saw because my leg was hiding it.
She looks at me with her horny smile, I do the same.
We go back to conversation like nothing happened. She leans her boobs over my knee to make sure no one sees my hand rubbing her *****.
When I gestured with my hands as I talked, I made sure my elbow massaged her boobs. She giggled at it, Viggy probably noticed but didn't bother pointing it out.
Viggy looks away. I look closely to see if there's any people watching.
I turn towards her and grab her warm boobs slowly, massaging them a little one by one with my right hand. She gives me the horniest smile ever. No one knew.
After that, I just keep talking to Viggy, go back to rubbing her crotch. I had the biggest boner. I looked at her with the *I want to FVCK* look. She did the same. She then rested her head on the locker looking up as I continued on, like she wanted to moan but resisted it.
No one knew! I think.

When time comes to leave, I see Ass again. He hits on Blondasian again, telling her that she has a hot dress and stuff.
Me : Hey! That was my pickup line bro.
Blablabla, we talk. The BEST way to ****block in my opinion is to just be friends with the guy. He won't be able to stand it LOL.
Before we leave, I go in for the make-out. Everyone's looking, so she shied away but whatever.

Texting that night.

Me : Feeling your boobs made me so horny. I know you enjoyed it (;
Her : Haha, I'm saying nothing
Me : Were you trying to hide your excitement the whole time?
Her : Lol why?
Me : In front of Viggy and other ppl, unless you like spectators LOL
Her : Lol no I dont like spectators
Me : Same, but I couldnt resist rubbing your crotch
Her : Hahaa (;
Blabla, not much.

Friday, March 15th
Did some approaches at the mall near my house. Cool stuff
Kissed some 24 year old girl on the cheek after we held the hug for like 10 seconds. She seemed attracted as she blushed. She never knew my age, though she left.
Then, approached some other girls but most of them weren't interested. Whatever.
Some approaches I was very confident, some I wasn't. I remember asking that girl if I could taste her gum from her mouth LOL.

CONCLUSION
- GO FULL ON SEXUAL. If you're really horny, DO NOT resist it. If you go slow you'll ***** out midway and won't go for it. Do the make-out, rub her crotch. You know when it feels right, trust your natural instincts
- Tell her your deepest feelings you'd would rather hide. Make yourself completely COMPLETELY vulnerable, let her know what you're up to. You're thinking about exploding in her mouth? Tell her about it once you feel things are getting hot.
- FCK IT, GO SEXUAL FROM THE START. I DON'T GIVE A SH1T. Especially if the only thing you want out of it is sex. If you're not interested in the dates and everything, let her know.
- Assume she wants the D, don't worry about whether you'll get her or not, because she wants you already!

 

[LearningSlowly]

All good, but I recommend keeping it on the down low. Don't try things in front of people, and don't text her about things that actually happened. Fantasy texting is fine, but avoid the sexual reality over your phone.

When making out, less is more. Follow her lead on how much tongue and how wide to open your mouth. What she does is what she wants. Tease by pulling away from kisses sometimes. If you're going to bite her lower lip, do it gently, and lick it afterward.

Now that you're getting sex tips, it means you're doing the right things. You're on the threshold, cross over.

 

[Mindgamez]

Yep Learning. Though shouldn't she follow my lead at some point?

ONTO THE NEXT LEVEL.
Nice day. **** was ALMOST happy...

Why can't you see the joy of life is right before your eyes?
Infinite bliss
Infinite love
Take a chance, close your eyes and just dream
It sets me free
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIajmLP46b4

Saturday, March 16th
HB Blondasian, Viggy and some other girl came to my place for video project.

Flirting happened even though friends were around, a little bit of butt spanking here and there.

Once it was only me and her, I got a little nervous I'm not gunna lie.
Her : So, should I call my dad?
Me : Mhmh...
Her : It'd take him 5-10 minutes to come.
Me : Yeah alright.
NOOOOOOO I should've never said that, but it was too late. I was *****ing out. Sh1t, got 10 minutes.

I tell her about my weird masturbation stories, funny ones. I won't write about it here because you guys will probably think I'm a nasty bastard LOL. Whatever, I was shamelessly saying everything, not holding back.
I go in for the make-out already, she seems to be the one to enjoy it more. She explores my mouth with her tongue, slide her hands on my sides.
I bring her downstairs because my bedroom had no lock. Still, I think it would have been better in my room because it didn't change much going downstairs. The room had big windows, they could see through...
It was very dark though, but she didn't feel secure enough.

A little bit of sexual talk here and there. I don't quite remember everything that was said.
Me : Hey, you want to see my penis?
I don't remember, I think she hesitated but said yes in the end.
It's TIME.
I pussied out a little bit from unzipping my pants. Oh, too late, my **** was already out.
Her : I can't see it, it's too dark!
I sit right next to her, she uses her phone as a flashlight to look at my boner. She giggles.
Me : Isn't it pretty?
Surprisingly, even though my **** was out the whole time, I wasn't nervous about it. I talked to her as if I was normally. I wasn't even that horny, surprisingly...
Her : Haha, yeah it is...
Me : Show me your boobs?
Her : Hahaha nooo..
Me : Touch it!
Her : Nooo, I can't do that!
I grabbed her hand towards my **** but she backed off.
At some point, I was standing up, penis near her belly. Seemed like she wanted to touch it, but was afraid at the same time LOL.
Like, she'd touch it, giggle, back off.
Me : Just squeeze it a little.
She wraps her hand around my ****, squeezing the tip a little. She gives it one stroke and stops.
Her : Nooo, I can't do that...
Me : Give it a little kiss
Her : Nooo XD
Then when I put my pants back on, she would try and peek in again, pull my pants back down.
Me : Hey! What are you doing? You trying to see?
Her : Hahaha, nooo...
Me : Oh yes you were, you little horny bastard!
She giggles, I rub her crotch as she smiles. I stand up and go in for the make-out. I rub her tits at the same time, I could tell she enjoyed it. For some reason, I wasn't feeling that horny anyway like, the feeling wasn't like that first make-out we had.
I just lied down on the couch, made my **** move by contracting the muscles.
Me : Look it moves!
Her : Oh wait, do it again?
Woop woop.
Her dad was coming in 5 minutes.
Her : Did you ever have a *******?
Me : No. Can you give me one?
I should've told her to just bend down and go instead of asking. I wasn't sexual enough, still on the playful vibe.
Her : Nooo I can't do that! I have to get to know you more...
Me : Ohh what?

Guys, what does that mean? Maybe I have to overcome her anti-slut defence and make her hornier. Then I forgot that no foreplay was involved, realized the big mistake.

Blablabla. I started getting a little needy here, telling her to just go for it.
Me : Alright, I'm just going to masturbate in front of you.
Her : Haha, I'm totally fine with that
Me : Noo, that's lame.
We kept talking a bit more, she told me she didn't want to. Basically I wasn't horny, she probably didn't feel as horny either.
GOTTA GET THAT NOFAP CHALLENGE RIGHT. Fck porn.

Her : I have to go
Me : Ugghh I'm not leaving this place
Her : So you're just gonna stay there? My dad is here.
I was disappointed, almost mad. Why? I didn't understand at first.
I walk her back upstairs.
Her : So are you going to masturbate when I'll leave?
Me : No, that's bad.
Her : Oh why not?
Me : Yo you make me sad XD
I though the situation was kinda funny anyway. Seems like she's down for it but pussied out which is quite funny. Asians...
Her : Hahaha why?
Me : Because, I wanted to know how it feels like!

Blablabla, at the door I don't feel like giving her another make-out. I just let her leave after a hug.

Later she texted me asking me if I was really sad lol.
Honesty is key. Told her that I wasn't that horny anyway but the day I'll be horny she'll know (;

The truth
When I came back in my room, thought about it and to be honest, I didn't see the point.
I mean, I wasn't even that horny. Even if I do have sex with her, is that the ultimate goal?
Is the ultimate goal to get laid? Is that it?
I feel like pick up is nothing. It's nothing compared to what life has to offer. It's a nice feeling or pleasure, but that's not my ultimate reason for doing pick up. Sometimes I'm a horny bastard and all I think of is having sex, but in the end it's meaningless.
I just want to grow. I just want to do it to do it. I want to experience the whole range of emotions, I want to become at ease in the world. I want to always become more confident. Joy and pleasure isn't enough.
I want to inspire the world. I want to become the best man I can be. That's all I want, and I don't ask anything back from the world.

CONCLUSION
- Whip it out, realize how easy it is. It's exciting and fun, maybe funny too. Know that your penis is beautiful how it is (no homo)
- Make her excited. I skipped the foreplay, that's a big no-no...
- If she says no, don't be harsh on yourself and don't give up already. She's down for it, just that you have to make her comfortable first.
- Make her wet her panties before sh1t happens. Basically, there was no suspense involved in there. All I did was give all my cards already, unzip the pants.
- Push pull applies when going for sex too. Make her want it. I was pulling too much. Neediness ain't good.
- Pick up is meaningless compared to what you can achieve in this world. Pleasure is just pleasure. Be passionate about the journey of life, not pick up.

 

[apocolipto]

When is your first product due?

 

[Dorchester]

So much truth in the last post, MG.

 

[Mindgamez]

Lol I dunno...
Dorchester I'm glad we share a similar point of view

NDJ sent me a song. Incredibly amazing...
It's called Going Home.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QhDv9Gwj5wI

Julien's video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=6M-ym0MY9E0

That last half of the video really got into me.
How BORING would life be if you could predict the next day? It's all about enjoying the process. **** everything else. The results don't matter. It's not about the results. It's meaningless. I'm going to die one day, so I better enjoy every second of existence while I'm still alive.
I don't know why I care so much. No need to think, no need to identify with anything. Who I am doesn't matter. It's undefined, it's constantly changing. It's never the same. It's just my interpretation, it's just the world's interpretation. It's not right. Does it matter? I'm just... me.

I'm free of doing whatever. I just love that feeling of accomplishment, I just love overcoming fear. I just love the process. I just love to grow. I just love it. I do it for me, I do it to die.

Summary of last week
Quite boring, out of state the whole time. Didn't matter, still a little flirt here and there with HB Blondasian for the rare moments I saw her.

Flirting with HB Mole those days. It was SO FUNNY haha!

Though, the weekend was terrible. Stayed home all day, almost feeling depressed. I feel like so when I can't do anything, stuck home because feeling sick.

Monday, March 25th
The night before, I did the trippiest meditation ever.
I remembered myself of my good times at New York. My fun memories of me and Porno just having fun. Simply enjoying. It was so fun, the whole process. The kiss at the end didn't mean anything.
I felt myself almost leaving my body. I felt like my ears couldn't ear anything.

So yeah,
Went to school, feeling quite good.

During French class, talked about the concepts of love. Interesting, almost approached the girl I always wanted to talk to but I just kept *****ing out...
I will go talk to her, no excuses.

I chilled around with Gary, fun times. I talked to some people here and there. Sometimes random people. I was in a pretty good mood. I realized that I simply love to socialize, even though I feel bad and not in the mood sometimes. It's just about exploring, getting to know other people. It's fun, chill.

Later,
HB Blondasian was waiting at my locker.
I remember the day before, called her and invited her to my place. Apparently she couldn't because she had to practice for boxing. Our class was cancelled that day, whatever.
On the phone, she told me that she doesn't want to do anything with anyone for now. Which meant no sex...

I try and make-out with her, she backs off. No one was watching, just went for it.

We take the bus, we talk sexual again. She flirts back, it's fun times. I pull out my banana from my lunch box, she grabs it like she would with a penis. It's funny, etc.

We walk to my car. She doesn't want to make-out because the police is right next...?

I don't bother driving her all the way to her place. Didn't have my GPS, didn't want to get lost. I drop her at some parking, I go in for the make-out.
She backs off again because some old lady was walking behind us... Seriously?

I just told her to **** off and get out the car in a playful way. Told her I hated her.
Her : Oh no, I know you love me
She leaves the car. I will not text her again. I don't need her.

Driving back home, I don't feel bad at all for some reason. I feel great.
The weather was nice. I opened up the window to feel some fresh air.
It didn't matter. She just one of many girls I'll meet. The tip of the iceberg.
I started driving fast. It felt like spring.
Because that's not ultimately what I want. I just want to, enjoy.

Enjoy whatever.

CONCLUSION
- Enjoy whatever. Enjoy what's right before your eyes. There's no need to resist it.

 

[LearningSlowly]

Instead of allowing your ego to perk up, the mature move would have been to calmly and seriously look in her eyes and say "What's wrong? I like you, but not when you act like this. Do you think something should be different?"

Maybe all she really wants is true privacy.

Still, I completely understand your reaction.

 

[ohbe]

Man, that was a touching read with the song you linked in the background! Amazing to check in and see how much you've progressed since the very beginning. Props man!

 

[Mindgamez]

Yeah Learning... when I think about it again maybe you're right.
ohbe thanks so much for support! Those 21 pages of journal were all worth it.

Past week summarized
It was the special multicultural week at school. I was in very social mode the whole time!

I remember some cold approach we did at the cafeteria Porno and me (read his journal if you want to know). We got **** blocked by huge tall niagara guy LOL. Damn overprotective boyfriends.

During that special week, free food was served at the agora. I took it as an opportunity to chat with random people left and right. I have so many acquaintances but I have to make solid connections with girls.

Blondasian still gave me the usual pretty smiles, went to talk to me when I was chilling at my locker. For some reason I didn't feel any attraction towards her. Don't ask me why, I don't know. I didn't feel like forcing it.

I don't remember everything I did, but I do remember that one.
She's HB Blondasian's friend. Much hotter than her. Her face looks natural, very clean, confident and sexually open. Let's call her HB Zipper.
So I sat next to her and some other guy friend. We talked for like an hour or so. I was feeling quite out of it at first, but I decided to stay anyway. As I started throwing some sexual jokes here and there, I was feeling more confident. It's funny how going sexual now puts me into a better mood instead of making me nervous LOL.
Me : Hey, you want to play with my zipper?
She laughed, but then I showed her my zipper shoes then she unzipped it.
Me : Ahhhh... don't you feel satisfaction when you do?
Her : Oh yes I do.
Blablabla.
Me : I should be called zipperman!
Her : Hey, one day you should try just wearing a big zipper, blablabla.
Blablabla.
Me : I have holes in my pants. *slide my finger in one of them*
Her : Ahh yeah, and you play in them.
Me : Yeah, it's for if someone wants to peak.
Her : It's too far on your thigh so it's useless. You should have it right here. *pointing crotch*
Me : Oh yeah definitely.
Blablabla.
Her : You should wear a speedo and make a huge hole in the middle and let it hang loose. That would attract all the females.
Me : Mhmhm... Maybe for you but I don't know about doing that!
She laughs. Just writing about it gives me a boner lolol.
Me : OH **** you have zipper earrings?
Her : Yeah!
Me : Ohh damn that's fckn epic.
Her : Yeah, we are a pair!
Viggy and the other friend was here but it still was quite sexual. Fun and funny. I could feel my voice getting sexier and my eyes loosening up. She kept long eye contact, felt her flirty eyes.

When we were about to leave, I hug Viggy on the way to class. She looks at us.
Me : Hey, stop looking at us.
Her : Oh I can't help it, you guys are so cute together.
Me : Oh, it's because I'm very hot isn't it.
Her : Yes very hot!
I couldn't read her facial expression from that far, but I still responded with :
Me : Thanks for the boner!
OH **** I actually SCREAMED it. People turned around, I felt a little uncomfortable and just laughed it off. She looked at me weird, waved goodbye. Can't blame her for that look, people were watching.

 

[Mindgamez]

Friday, March 29th
NIGHTGAMING. Best one yet.
Day started off with some daygame with Porno and Olivier, some guy I met from SP(let's call him Oli).

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nSIBaMMYeVE

At first, I was feeling quite good and into it. Approaches were fun, no pressure. But as the day progressed, I started feeling worse and worse...
I remember approaching that girl, how her friend ****blocked and told me how she would never give me her number. I don't know why it hit me so hard, negative thoughts were racing through my mind. I still went to the girl, was about to ask for her number but left cowardly before I could do so.

I don't know why I was so influenced by the people's negativity.

Being in that quite negative energy-less state hit me back. Later that day, passed by some of the girls we approached previously. One of them looked at us and with sarcasm pointed to her friend : This is *name* by the way, and she walked off.
One time, one of the guy hanging out with some of the girls we approached got mad at us. He told us to **** off, looked at me very weird even though we NEVER talked. I though it was quite funny.

Anyway, let's go to the nightgame.
Oli and me were quite hyped up for this. It was probably one of my worst daygame sessions ever, but I still managed to keep my cool after it. PUSH IT TO THE BITTER END. It was 5 hours of daygame, all worth it.

When we went in, HOLY **** so many hot girls. 1$ entry for girls, 20$ for guys. All the girls were HB6 and up, including many HB8-9s. All-ages party, but most of them were 15 and up, so I wasn't pedophile XD. Most guys were much better looking than me, had the style, the douchebag walk.

First few girls I talked to, quite out of it. Didn't matter, I still pushed it more and more.
It took me quite a while to start approaching, even though there were girls EVERY-****ING-WHERE. I went in for some, was getting quite confident and relaxed. Realized that getting into state is much easier than before.
Then, at some point I could talk to the hottest girls with full on confidence. It felt crazy. Not the slightest anxiety in my body at one point... Even though I did so, some girls refused to dance with a sexy smile. That was totally fine, freedom from outcome!
Sometimes I went in for the make-out, failed but that's fine. Tried to grind, declined. I smiled and just walked away to talk to some other girls.

I was leaning against the wall, talking to Oli. He's so cool maaan, and Cambodian like me!
Then, I saw that girl dancing with her friends. Her way of shaking her ass was amazing. I'd say HB8. Her dance made her so much hotter. Once I felt my boner, I immediately went in to talk to her.
Me : Hey, how you doing?
I was standing 3 inches away from her face right from the start. There was no anxiety. I slid my hand on her
Me : I'm Mindgamez. What's your name?
Her : I'm Marie-Chanelle (quite a hot name).
I was very close to her. No questions were asked, nothing. I just proceeded to grind her from the front. She was very good, rubbed her crotch on me like crazy. My breathing got faster, made sure she could feel it on her neck. I slid my arms on her waist, down to her thighs. I caressed her butt cheeks. So round and smooth...
As I did so, she slid her arms on me. It was the green light.
Feeling extremely horny, I went in for the make-out. I was too horny to be nervous. Had a big boner.
She was very good at making out. Slid her tongue in sensually, continued the sexy grinding. Brought her in closer by pulling on her ass. Turned my head to the side, made out from another angle. The friends were watching us with the big smile. She poked her, told her something, then she backed off from me.
Me : Well that was quite nice!
Had the big smile. She looked at me and then looked away. Mhmhm...? I just ejected like nothing happened, like I never talked to her in the first place. I don't know why... is that how a one-night stand feels like? You just do it and hope you never see that other person again? Maybe I'm a big slutty player and better not talk to me again? LOL.

Anyway, I walked around. Saw that pretty hot brown chick.
I was so in the mood, just slid my hand on her waist and exchanged names. She told me she was 13!...
HOLY FCK WHAT. She looked more like 16, whatever. I ask her friends if it's true and they say that it's not true. I eject and go talk to some other girls.

I remember flirting with one of them. She seemed quite open, nice.
I could calibrate from the start with the sexual jokes. She enjoyed them as she playfully pushed me away. My game is so ridiculous LOL.
Me : Hey, do you like dogs?
Her : Dogs? Yeah?
Me : You like doggy?
HAHAHA she giggled.
Me : You think I have nice nipples?
She nods.
Me : You have nice tits too.
She thanked me with a huge smile.
Me : I think you're pretty hot.
Her : You're hot too!
I went in for the make-out, grind, but she refused. It's funny how as soon as I was feeling negative and chody again, even for 3-4 seconds, I saw her facial expression change. She left and gave me her beer I didn't want to keep.
Damn those all-ages parties, giving beer illegally...

I walk to the brown girl again, she tells me that her real age is 15.
Me : Oh, is it true girls?
Her friends nodded yes. They seemed quite young... not the girl though.
I went in for the make-out. She was bad at making out... too much tongue action. I didn't enjoy it.
I backed off, though it was funny.
Me : Hahahaha, damn you like a lot of tongue!
I think she was unexperienced. Maybe she really was 13...? **** man...

I see some other girl, approach her. When I go in for the make out, she backs off with a huge smile.
Her : No, I saw you making out with that other girl earlier!
Me : Ahh but that's fine! Okay I'll go clean my mouth and I'll be right back!
LOL. Anyway, I was *****ing out to talk to her again I don't know why. She was HB7.5, pretty hot.

Later, I see that girl with big tits grinding some other girl. My friend Freddie (guy I met at my first all-ages party ever, he's so cool!) pointed them, and I went for the girl with the big tits. She was just a little chubby, but that's fine. She had beautiful face/hair nonetheless. Her way of dancing was fantastic, so I just went in for her.
Oh my god she KNOWS how to grind. She was SO GOOD. From behind this time.
She rubbed her ass on my **** with lots of energy. She could definitely feel my raging boner.
I slid my arms on her waist, down her thighs. I slide my hands up again, then feel her breasts. She had a wonderful cleavage.
Slid down the hands back to her thighs. She held them in place. GREEN LIGHT.
I rub her crotch. She tilts her head up, grabs my neck with her hands and continue the grinding. I reach up for her boobs.
I'm having a massive boner writing about this. LOL.
It lasted a good 10-15 minutes non-stop. It was wonderful.
She bent down and shook her ass more. She loved it. I think I felt like cumming at one point.
Then, she told something in my ear I couldn't quite hear. When in for the make-out but she ejected immediately on the fly. Wow! Is that how a one-night stand feels like? GTFO as soon as you're done with business?

After this, the organizers of the party had some troubles and they had to kick us out of the place for like 15 minutes, staying in the cold outside... The fire-fighters came, etc. WTF. When we went in again, we were a little out of it. I still did a couple approaches here and there, then left the place after I was starting to get some headache going on. I didn't want to miss the metro!

CONCLUSION
- Approach girls and assume that they are extremely horny and want the D. Go physical right from the start. You'll do it so much that you won't even feel nervous about it anymore. You'll feel so horny that you'll just go for it immediately. Don't resist your primal instincts, you want sex so go for it.
- Making out isn't a big deal. It's fun and sexy. Just do it man! Do it because you love it, that's it.
- It's better to feel nervous when you ain't escalating than to feel nervous when you do go sexual. That's what happened with HB Zipper. Associate good emotions with doing the right things.