Journal - Approaches on street, at mall, etc.

[Mindgamez]

Thanks for tip Learning, though I didn't have time to read it... I'll apply this on my next hot date.

Saturday, December 29th
MY FIRST DATE IN 4 YEARS. It was time.

I'm not going to lie. I was pretty nervous at first! Damn.
I cared too much about the outcome. She was pretty, but not one of the prettiest ones at all. She was average, maybe a bit better.

I arrived at the location
I see her, we exchange hugs. I give her a smile but she doesn't reciprocate as much.
At first, we were talking 50 50, it was cool. No flirting, I was just talking and getting to know her a bit.
She was more of a serious type of girl, not really on the crazy side (which is what I want).

I wanted to try out her drink. She didn't want me to use her straw because she's apparently a clean freak.
ARE YOU STUPID? That's what I told her.
She refused. I was about to call her up on her behaviour and say : YO THIS IS A DATE. WHAT ABOUT WHEN WE'LL BE KISSING? ARE YOU NUTS?
But yeah, it was like 2 minutes through the date and I though that it was maybe a bit too early. Whatever, I'll know next time XD.

I was having a good time and being playful. Our personalities were so different though. She is introverted, lazy, and just lives within a small circle of friends.
She told me that during her vacation she pretty much sat down in front of the TV the whole time...
So I told her about my lifestyle, getting passionate about the actual things I wanted to accomplish in life, etc. I talked about this because I enjoy talking about my life goals and self development and not because I had nothing to talk about.
I find her looking at her drink and really not making eye contact during the whole conversation, so I call her up on it after a couple minutes. Though, I should've told her right at the beginning, went physical right at the beginning.
I did playful poking here and there, touched her wrist and necklace.

But to be honest, I wasn't attracted at all. I just caught that friendly vibe, and I was thinking of getting a girlfriend at this point. For a girlfriend, we would make a pretty bad match LOL.

At a point, she was doing 70% of the talking and I was just listening.
She was kinda boring, talking about stuff of whatever. I just nodded, but I didn't know what to do next.

When she told stuff that I perceived as sexual, I started laughing hysterically and didn't resist it. She kept a serious face. Obviously, she didn't like my type of humour. I kind of got turned off again.

It didn't matter. For the reference experience, that's good.

We went into the dollar store because she needed to buy some stuff. We just did and I followed her around and laughed at some funny stuff they sold.
I asked her if she was down to do some pranks, and she's like : Oh nooo! We're in a public place!
She rejected the idea immediately. **** her...

I told her that we'll go to the store right next to get some candies and ****. I was kinda disappointed about her not being my type, but I wasn't needy for her. So my bad mood wasn't because I couldn't get her, but it was because I felt like it was kind of a waste of time.

She told me she had to go to see her parents for family supper, etc. She kept saying sorry for having to leave early (like 2 hours after the initial meetup).
It was fine for me. I was going to a party anyway.

So as I walk on my own to the bus stop, I'm feeling like a boss.
FCK YEA, first date! Got it for the reference. Why the **** not?
So I text Porno, telling him that the great went fine.

NIGHTGAME.
Ohhh, damn No Fap challenge I failed...
I felt like girls weren't as attractive. Girls I'd rate a 9 were 8s to me for some reasons.

When I enter, there ain't much people. Not as much as I expected!
More guys than girls, and this wasn't cool.

After like 30 minutes of inaction, I FINALLY decide to approach my first set. She smiles, she then ignores me and talks to her other friends.

The more I approached, the more my state went down. I felt like I was going downhill constantly. I felt so bad.

Rejection after rejection after rejection. The worst part was seeing those same girls I approached accepting to dance with a guy almost instantly. After 5 seconds of seeing each other, they were hand in hand dancing to the latin dance (didn't like the music and it didn't help).

I tried to fit in at some point and started dancing near some circle of people. I wanted to go in the middle and do my shuffle dancing, but I felt like a ***** once again.

Rejection, rejection. I think I approached like at least 10 girls at the place, and the others were taken by other guys.

As we were about to leave, something in my mind clicked.
Oh, tonight's a bad night. Well, why not just fool around then? WHO CARES MAN!
I started laughing inside, and then laughed for real, then walked my way out of the place while doing the most retarded dance I could ever do.
I left the place, and then saw one of the girls I approached earlier.
Her : Props, give me props!
Me : Shhh... shhh...
Her : Props!
One of my friends takes my hand and punches it on her fist, but I almost don't notice him.
Me : Oh no, you give me a hug.
So she comes in and gives me a tight hug. I give her a kiss on the cheek.
Her : Okeeyy bye!
She doesn't look at me and leaves LOL.
Me : She's leaving meeee! *screamed*
Her friend looked at me in a funny way, I though it was funny.
Walked out of the place.

Me : Hey guys, that was a fun night! At least kissed some girl's cheek.
Friend : Hahaha, yeah...

Even though some girls laughed at me when I asked to dance, laughing at me like immature *****es, even though I just kept getting rejected and rejected and had to deal with all that inaction, I managed to say that it was a fun night. The best part was that I was genuine.

I didn't care about whatever past happened. It was about how I was Now.
Before the night game, I chilled at the coffee shop for like an hour, reading Eckhart Tolle and doing meditation. I felt so damn good.

Sunday, December 30th

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6UyBV_rwUk

1:50 AM
The walk back home was long and cold, but it was probably one of the most pleasant ones.
I didn't need to think about my past failures or victories of 2012. 2012 was getting close to an end.
All I cared about was the gentle snow falling gently on the ground, the sound of nothing in the silent night, the cold breeze on my face.

I remember myself stopping to talk completely to simply enjoy the street lamps illuminating the bright snow. I was alone on the road and I enjoyed it.
Being alone teaches me to be independent. To not use externals as a way to get good emotions. I am totally fine now. 2012 is ending. I had 2 days left to make it happen. And I will push it to the max.
I stopped right here and felt like staying here for the night. Staying in the cold and just enjoying the peaceful silence nature had to offer, but that would be silly. I had to go sleep in my bed.
I was relieved. I knew that time was irrelevant to me.
I don't need friends. I don't need a family. I don't need a girlfriend. I don't need anything. All I want is peace. All I ever wanted was to feel in harmony with myself.
I didn't resist my eyes getting wet. I wasn't sad, not at all. I was relieved.


3:45 PM
Gamed by myself because my friend ditched, but it didn't matter.
I was a bit mad at first, but I managed to approach girls nonetheless.
After like 45 minutes of wandering around, FINALLY approached my first set. Funny rejection LOL.

Then, wandered around more. I wasn't feeling in the mood at all. I was scared of people recognizing me at the mall. My jacket is one of a kind and easy to remember. Ugh...

In 2 hours or so, managed to do 4 approaches. That's pretty bad, but for going out alone it's... fine. I won't beat myself up over this.

Talked to some hot girl. She was in a bad mood but I managed to make her smile. Her mood didn't affect me and I kept my happy vibe, which is great. Too bad she had a boyfriend.

WHAT'S COMING UP NEXT.
2012 IS ENDING.
TOMORROW I'M GOING ALL ****ING OUT.
I DON'T CARE! I WILL DO WHATEVER NEEDS TO BE DONE!
HELL YEAH!
There's no way I'm turning back. Objectives are fixed. I will game for 5 hours straight and go ALL OUT.
I'm going into a new environment, a new mall at a new city. I'll have the opportunity to free myself completely. Pickup every hot girl there is, no exception.
ATTEMPT KISSES, GO SUPER PHYSICAL. YES, I DON'T GIVE A ****. IT'S THE DAY, YEP.

HELL YEAH.
I will set new resolutions for 2013 and STICK TO THEM.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

I rate you could've hooked up with the girl you kissed on the cheek. Be brave

 

[AlexLefty]

So i posted this in here before, but can't find it...

How did you record your pickups?

Some sort of recording app and then the headphones that have a mic built into the cord?
^Do you have examples of good apps/the headphones?

 

[Mindgamez]

NDJ yeah I could've tried... though she denied me at first so that's why I backed off a bit. Though, the first no doesn't always mean no.

Alex, earphones with mic + Voice Memo App on iTouch or the new iPod nano!

 

[Mindgamez]

It's been a while since last time, and I believe that I've made some good improvements in my life in general.
2013 YES. I'm doing this RIGHT.

Monday, January 31st

Me and Gary decided to daygame at a different mall that day. It was the mall near his town. Bigger than the one near my house! It's not as crowded as downtown, but I liked the change in environment.

It took me a lot of time to get warmed up. I don't remember all the approaches I've done, but they were pretty... ordinary, like the other ones.
I expected that right before 2012 ends I could do epic things. The truth is that I can't reach that if I don't try new different things and see the results, good or bad, as empowering. My state went down with the very similar rejections every time.

The worst!
I got pranked by some girl who pretended to be some girl named Sarah or something.
I knew one Sarah, an asian one, and apparently she called me simply to tell me that I was beautiful. Mhmhm, sweet I thought!
I really believed it, because I couldn't recognize her voice through the phone...
So when she started talking about all ages parties, I asked her why she was into those kind of parties (which is super weird).
When I realized that it wasn't that Sarah, I got super confused and asked her : Wait, you aren't Sarah that's not possible! Who are you?
So then she tells me she's the asian girl I met at the mall one day like 2 months ago, group of 4 chicks. I remembered a group of asian chicks I opened and then I lit up.
Oh ****, yeah it's maybe one of these girls for real!
So then, getting happier here, I ask her how she looks like because I completely forgot lool.
She tells me she looks like Justin Bieber, and at this point I knew that it was some massive trolling... Gave the phone to Gary and she hung up.

To be honest, I felt so bad after this call. I felt like I was just fooling myself that I could attract girls by doing pickups, that girls were attracted to me. I really thought that for a second, which is totally absolutely destructive.
I started thinking about how needy I was, how desperate people see me. Now thinking about it, that's so ridiculous. That's 2012, That's not now.

So yeah. I started walking around the mall more, but I couldn't focus on approaching girls. I was too caught up in my mind and couldn't even notice the hot chicks. We sat down, ate, talked for a while, and then mustered up the courage to talk to the girls at the table.
I finally allowed myself to have fun here, and just stay non reactive to the rejection. I kept playing it cool, and then I farted on them with my fart machine because it is insanely funny (don't ask me why, it simply is HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!) then I left.

I did approach some very hot 8.5 and allowed myself to feel genuinely attracted. The girl's smile was much better this time. Though she was waiting for her boyfriend!

My last interaction was filmed, and was probably one of my best of the day. I number closed midway. Even though I thought the convo would be bad, she reacted pretty well and we had a 15 minute long conversation.
Though, watching the video, my body position was so weird LOL. She was on the couch, but I was just standing up next to her for a while, then sat on the ground, then leaned forward on the armrest, then finally decided to sit on the armrest. I also noticed how my hand movements were kinda quick and too exaggerated. On her side, she was very chill and just relaxed, and I noticed that. She agreed to meetup again later. Pretty hot 7.5, 8.
Though later I texted her by accident, so I decided to call her. It was a bit awkward and after we said hello,
Me : Alright, just to hum... continue the conversation more, what's your type of music?
Her : Ohh I actually rlly gotta go, blablabla.
Me : Ohhh aiight that's fine.
Blablabla, goodbyes.

The night everything ended. Once and for all.
Gary, Mirthless and me decided to meetup at the Old Port for the countdown. Though, at first all I saw was families and so few girls. I was pretty disappointed and thought about quitting to go to my place.
That's silly. It's 2012 man, it's 2012. It's the end. You end this right.

We chilled around the place, walked around back and forth. 2 hours or so before the countdown, it started to get more and more and more packed.
Then, it was SUPER PACKED! Though, lots of families and it's hard to look for group of girls by themselves. They're always with other people.
We still managed to approach a couple of them. Mirthless suggested us the indirect way which I thought to be bad at first, but it's not a bad idea. It changes from the routine-like direct opener *I thought you were cute* line.

We did couple approaches here and there. I just allowed myself to have fun even though my superwet boots that got me really cold. I was still enjoying. This moment felt precious to me, because it was the very end of 2012, the end of the beginning. I never let go for the whole year. I was fully into it the whole time. I must be proud.

Guess who I saw? The hottie I grinded at the After-Prom! I flirted with her at my friend's birthday, and I remember her saying at one part that we'd go to the bathroom together or something. Holy ****, yes she was totally into me.
That's the quality of woman I deserve, **** yes.
I talked to her friends a bit. Her cousin was kinda hot and pretty open. She wanted a hug, we talked and she seemed ready for some guy to flirt on her, but nothing happened because I pussied out haha. Whatever.

Ladies and gentlemen. In a few minutes, we will be in 2013.
The crowd started to scream louder and louder. Fake snow was falling on us, big snow, more than a snowstorm.
The symbol of change, the end of an old cycle I thought.
I was so happy here. I felt like my life was ending slowly at this point.
I screamed as loud as I could, letting everything out. Letting all that past pain, all that struggle was gone.
I held my friends tightly, held on on Gary. He's awesome.

Ten, Nine, Eight, Seven, Six, Five, Four, Three...
The end... the end...
Two...
I feel so alive.
One...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
A smile rose up by itself and didn't resist it. My friends were all screaming super loudly, but all I was doing was just being so present. I was quiet, I was in awe. Simply because life is.

I think I never felt so relieved in a year. Every new year's eve feels like that. I feel like it's a fresh new start. 2012 is left behind and during those few seconds of 2013, I felt like a completely new person. I felt transformed.

Me : GARY, 2013, MAKE IT ****ING HAPPEN MAN! IT'S OUR YEAR MAN!
Gary : **** YEAH MAN! **** YEAH!!!

On the way back
ONE OK ROCK
I listened to this song and allowed myself to daydream like I always love to.
I was alone on the way back, but I talked to people simply because I felt like it. I screamed happy new year on the phone while everyone looked back at me. I didn't care, I was in my own world and there was nothing to stop me. Everyone was in a great mood, it was fantastic.

I'll write about the other days tomorrow.
GOOD progress in terms of self-development. Implementing good habits I'll tell you in a sec.

2013

- Give up video games FOREVER
- Meditate 30 minutes per day
- Spend as least as possible on fast food
- Read empowering and inspiring material every day
- Practice piano/guitar every day
- Write every day, work on projects, short films
- Eat well, exercise and sleep well
- Be brave and take risks, grow as a person
- Remove all forms of negativity in my life
- Socialize to the maximum, build my confidence
- Implement habits EVERY day of my life
- No more following the masses and social conditioning
- No more wasting time on things that only give short-term fun
- No more laziness and inaction. Willpower and persistence.
- No more judging, comparing or labelling myself. No more ego
- Become independent with no dependence to anything from the outside world. No dependence to friends or family. No need to get anything back in return.
- Stop living in the past or the future which do not and will never exist Now.
- Focus on the Now and never ever resist it. Surrender to what is, take right action and live like there's no tomorrow.
- Stop and enjoy life and what it has to offer. Happiness, Success, Failure, Pain, Grief or whatever is just what gives us so much more depth as people.
- Inspire people around me, do RSD like videos (yes I will do that!)
- Get multiple dates and make outs
- GET LAID
- Be a boss.

I don't do this to find future happiness or feel fulfilled as a person. I don't do this to become famous, I don't care. I do it to do it. I do all of this to die, but I guess that's what makes our lives so meaningful. We are dying one second and a time. I want to experience everything the world can offer, the whole journey.
When I'll die, I just want my children and grand-children to know.

And I really hope that you guys do the same. Live that life.
No excuses, just do it.

 

[AlexLefty]

NDJ yeah I could've tried... though she denied me at first so that's why I backed off a bit. Though, the first no doesn't always mean no.

Alex, earphones with mic + Voice Memo App on iTouch or the new iPod nano!

Thanks dude

 

[Mindgamez]

BACK ON TRACK.
Concussion stopped me form writing in my journal, but it didn't stop me from growing and becoming better.
I still can't stay too long in front of the computer so I'll shorten my posts, even though I have A LOT to say. Can't say everything.

The first week of school was great.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0uaieJXaxlQ

I had 1 week of doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, which means that I couldn't watch TV' read, computer, video games, anything. I had to meditate ALL DAY.
I took this time to learn that becoming more social and getting girls wasn't my ultimate purpose. I simply wanted to be free, to be at peace. I learned to enjoy the nothing. I realized that I was dying one second at a time and that I have to care for every moment I'm alive. I could have died without a helmet, but I'm alive. I'm grateful for that.

SUMMARY
1st week after new year's eve, I did a couple approaches on different days. That was before my concussion. I focused on different aspects because i knew that I was good at approaching already. I had to focus on maintaining the interaction and making it meaningful. I had much longer interactions.

Had my first insta-date with 2 girls! I was with Porno, we chatted for like 20-3 minutes or so before they left. We had no numbers but that's fine, she had a boyfriend and the other girl was too young.

The other days, I did longass conversations with girls. It was good and I stayed with the awkwardness for the whole time. I learned to become more natural and realized that I got better, even though I was approaching less and being more picky. I wasn't as crazy when came time for approaching, but I felt like I was learning new things.

2 weeks later after my concussion, girl wants to f***(?)
I came back to approaching. DAMN I felt SO rusty. Some days I went out and did 3-4 approaches during the whole afternoon. Though, I still had much better interactions.
I realized that by doing fewer approaches, I felt like every interaction was much more important and genuine. I was connecting with people on a deeper level. We were vibing.

It happened with that HB8. It was a group of 3 girls.
I sat down to their table, a little nervous, but once I started talking, I felt like I was talking to friends I knew for a long time. The same level of comfort was in and the nervousness became less with time. We talked for 30 minutes or so. She seemed pretty interested and she asked me several questions back and forth. I told her that we should hang out sometimes and she agreed.
When I realized we had nice interests in common, I started getting more interested. Her too. Her face totally lit up when she realized I was into media arts!
Though, there was no sexual talk involved. A bit of teasing here and there.
The main difference with that interaction is that I knew I DESERVED that girl. I knew I could date beautiful women on a deep level.

The next day, I call her. Before calling her, I didn't feel really nervous surprisingly. I got a bit more nervous when we started talking and I was thinking of what to say.
I got to know her a bit better, making her invest in the conversation. She really did, talked 70% of the time. Though, she had to hang up because apparently her mom was calling her.
I call her an hour later, doesn't respond so I leave a voicemail. I don't remember what I said exactly, but along the lines with It's Mindgamez, call me bye.

Earlier that day I texted : How's your day going? with the intention of calling her after her response.
So she didn't call me back, but she responded with :

HER : It's let's f***.
Her : Nooooooo
Her : Hold on

So like an idiot, I didn't even think and texted within the same minute : ?... Call me now
ARGGHHH FCK THAT ****!!! WHY DIDN'T I GO SEXUAL...
I hate texting. I'd rather flirt on the phone.

So 3 days later, I try calling her again. I was a bit more nervous on that one because I knew I was going sexual. She responds.

Me : Hey this is Mindgamez.
Her : Hello?
Me : Hi
Her : Hello?
Me : Hi it's Mindgamez.
Her : Hello?
She hung up... I'm all confused so I call her again.
She doesn't answer and it goes to her voice mail immediately.
I call her again 2 minutes later, I hear a beep and I realized that she probably declined the call.

I never called back since... Too bad.
But the opportunity was golden. I was about to ask her out on a date. She agreed to hang out the day we met up! Whatever.

What REALLY changed my mindset :
JAMES MARSHALL. He's some pick up guy.
When I discovered this guy, I realized so much. It wasn't about being high energy and playful all the time. He was what I thought to be my COMPLETE opposite : totally low energy, close to no laughing or smiling(from unreactiveness and being genuine), super chill.
His infield footage was great. Super smooth, effortless.

I decided to try his style at school. Wonders.

SCHOOL, 1st week
I'm not going to lie, but I think I really experienced a change in perspective. I feel like I deserve girls much more now. I feel like I'm attractive on a deep level. I even think that I'm good looking now when I though that I simply was average! Maybe since I have my new glasses and contact lenses? But I look exactly the same as before, or I'd say worse. I have a scar on my forehead. Though, I now believe that I look sexy.

Monday,
I come to class and this GORGEOUS girl opens me the door with the sexiest smile ever. In class, she asks me for a paper and I go : What? No?...
She giggles, I feel in total control but I don't proceed to escalate further. Loool ****.

I see the girl Porno dated during the holidays. Let's call her HB Mole(LOL, but she hot).
Me : So, how was your holidays?
Her : Ohhh great, went on vacation, on the beach!
Me : So, you stared and handsome men on the beach?
Her : Yeah, like you!
Me : Ohhh, thanks.
I didn't know what to say at this point, because I was with Porno. PORNO, GO GET HER DAMNIT!

Tuesday after class, I go to the Couch Place(let's call it like that from now on, some chilling spot at school like a caf) where I know lots of people there. My cool buddy (let's call him Shuffle) introduces me to some kinda hot girl and jokingly teaches me how to get her, but I wasn't feeling so interested. Truth is I was probably just chody...
Her : You don't need to learn anything to get girls. I mean you're cute already.
Me : Oh thanks a lot.
Was she saying that just to be nice? Or she really meant it? It doesn't matter. I didn't go for her even though I could have pushed things further. I'll just assume that she was attracted.

My problem in the past is that I never really believed that girls were attracted to me. I though that I was somehow attractive, but didn't totally believe 100% that I deserved a hot girl.
Now I think : She deserves me.

 

[Mindgamez]

Wednesday,
I catch that same hot girl from my French class eyeing me in class. You know the look when she looks at you and her eyes flicker with attraction? She gave me that and it gave me such a boost. I didn't talk to her though. I was super nervous again...

During the break, I see HB Mole(her mole is small it's not ugly, don't worry HAHA)
Porno might feel bad when he'll read this... but she seemed pretty attracted!
She was looking at me her head tilted, following me. I was leading wherever we went.
So we were talking to two friends and my italian friend told her about how I made youtube videos.
Her : Oh really?!
Me : Yeah, I do youtube videos too.
Her : Haha, I love how you're so chill about it.
I was pretty chill about it. I really wasn't trying to brag or impress, even though my friend was bragging for me haha. To be honest, I really didn't care that much whether people knew I made youtube videos or not.
When she was laughing and having fun, I was staying in control and unreactive. Thanks James Marshall, it's great to try new things.

Later, met with HB Mole's friend. I shook her hand and got to know her a bit.
Seemed like she tried to indirectly number close me, LOL. Though, I didn't attempt any flirting on her. I simply was chill and had normal conversation. She's alright looking, kinda cute.
We were sitting at the table with Shuffle too. She goes to HB Mole : Hey, could you call me? My phone is not working.
So yeah, it doesn't work. She asks me
Her : Hey, can you call me?
Me : No you can't have my number.
Shuffle and HB Mole laugh.
Her : Ohhh alright then...
Me : I was just kidding! Okay what is it?
I get her number, I didn't text her yet (forgot to, LOL).

Later that day, I walk a bit more with HB Mole and we do some sexual jokes. I have no idea how we got there LOL.
Her : You're my *****.
Me : Oh, so you're a dominatrix kind of? I don't want to wake up tomorrow all tied up on the wall!
She giggles.
Me : If you do, please keep my clothes on.
LOL... that was funny I had to do it. But I'll stop Porno from now on. So GO FOR HER.

After my last class,
I walk around school a little bit. Remember HB Lau from last semester? I saw her again.
She always have the lovely eyes, or that's just me. I didn't bother forcing a good interaction. She talked more, smiled a lot too. I was feeling tired and not in the mood really, so I just stayed chill.
Me : So you're on break?
Her : No, I'm actually done!
Me : Ohhh nice, me too. Waiting for driving class.
Her : I'm waiting for my boyfriend.
Yep, knew she had a boyfriend since the beginning. He's a nice guy, I'm not being mean to him.
Her : Ohhh yeah! By the way...
Me : Oh **** wait.
I check my phone, my teacher arrived.
Me : I gotta go, what were you about to say?
Her : Oh nothing...
She seems a little hesitant.
Her : I can't wait till the next time I see you.
My heart felt some pleasant warmth. I couldn't resist it.
Me : Awww that's so cute!
I give her a hug and we exchange goodbyes.

Thursday,
Gym class, HOLY ****!!! We're like 35, and there's ONLY 3 GUYS HAHAHAHAHAHA!
When I came in, I was nervous, pretty nervous. It was awkward at first. SO MANY HOT CHICKS.
Then, the teacher suggested some game to break the ice. We had to get with people with same interests as us.
So I basically walk around the gym and yell : WHO LIKES YELLOW!!
I get to know more and more people. It's fun, girls laugh. I get to show my funny side of my personality. Though, I'm kinda nervous. I was holding a water bottle and then realize that my hand was shaking LOL, so I proceed to hide it.
I noticed how the girls were eyeing the only guys in the classroom. Their DNA wants the D, it's natural. I got accustomed with the idea that girls are naturally attracted to guys. Yeah, I used to think otherwise...

Afterwards, chilled at school during my long break as always. It's always fun!

Dinner with HB Indi and friends
I meet her friend, she's REALLY hot. HB8.5, or more. Blonde.
We shook hands, she shook it longer, held eye contact for very long.
Me : Are you drunk?
She giggles.
She touched me playfully when we talked, we shook hands again playfully. She was really holding eye contact in a flirty way I felt like. She seemed pretty interested to me.
Though during dinner, I didn't sit next to her and I was a chode... didn't talk to her. I felt like I failed so badly lol. Then later we went to the coffee shop. I talked to her a bit but I didn't do ****. Hugged goodbye, nothing.

Friday,
YEAH! Shy girl, extreeeeemely cute... I arrive early to class and friends are waiting outside.
I say : Ohhh, I guess I'm a bit early today!
I look at the girl, she giggles shyly. I proceed to chat with my friends till the teacher comes.
We go in the class, the girl opens the light and it turns off.
Me : Oh, you're a sorcerer! Witch!
She giggles. I wait for her to sit, and then I proceed to sit next to her.
Me : Hi, I'm Mindgamez. You?
She giggles again, we exchange names and everything's cool.
Me : You know the first class of the semester when everyone's all awkward and sitting in their little corner? I hate that!
Blablabla, we chat a bit more. It's fun. I get to know her a bit and go a little James Marshall style, challenging her and getting to know her more.
Me : What you like about drawing?
Her : Blablablabla.
Me : Oh really?
I caught her justifying herself nervously when I seemed to disagree with her. It was cute.

I play tic tac toe in her notebook. I cheat and it's playful, we laugh.

During class, I don't talk to her and listen to the teacher.

When class ends, I continue to talk to her a bit more. I pack up my stuff and she slowly starts to leave, like she was waiting for me.
Her : Alright, byyyeeeeee...
Me : No wait, I wanna talk to you!
She smiles and wait for me. I knew she was into me at this point.
Me : So, tell me what's interesting about you.
Her : Hum, I don't know? Haha
We continue to talk a bit. I sense my voice being much deeper and relaxed here. I wasn't smiling for no reason or giggling nervously as I always tended to do. I was in control.
Her : I don't know what's cool to you!
Me : Not about me, I want to know what's cool about you.
Her : Oh okay... well I don't know!
Me : Don't be so insecure!
Blablabla. She seemed into me. Though, when she told me that she was in her 2nd year (I'm in my 1st), I went into my head like : Ohhh fck she's older...
Though I know it doesn't matter in reality. Girl likes boy, that's enough. Age doesn't matter.
So right here, I eject and tell her that I have to meetup with some friend (Rlly had to leave to sell a book though, but only like an hour later or so. Didn't bother looking at the time... I just ejected kinda chody haha).
Her : Okay, see you next class!

I'll see her next class, get her number and hang out after class.

After that, I chill with Shuffle a bit.
I see the hot blonde from Thursday, and we chat a bit. She taps my chest playfully.
Her : I'm raping your chest!
Me : Rape me anyday.
I looked at her with attraction, though a little nervous.
She looked away and laughed. Whatever, I was chody again. I saw her later during the day walking with some tall confident guy and felt intimidated about talking to her again.

CONCLUSION OF THE WEEK
- Be CHILL. REALLY CHILL. Don't force it, it'll just happen.
- It's not about being all high energy and always seeming happy all the time. Be genuine to whatever feelings you're experiencing. Do not react if you don't need to react. Better be a 100% honest all the time. Don't simply lie to make people feel good man, be real.
- Understand on a DEEP level that you're attractive and that girls love you naturally. Girls will tell you you're cute then. She deserves you. Go for her, she's waiting for you.
- You have NOTHING to prove. There's no reason why you're not enough. You are so much more mysterious when you don't need to brag about anything.
- Experience new things. If you're normally aloof when you talk to girls and it doesn't seem to work, try adding a bit more energy. If you're always hyper, try calming yourself down and stay unreactive.

 

[Mindgamez]

Monday, January 28th

Wanted to talk to hot chick in French class but pussied out...

The day was alright. I wasn't really into a big social momentum, but I tried.

Had some conversation with some girl friends about sex. They were telling me about all their experiences and then I realized that sex isn't that much of a big deal. Girls are super open to it, more open than I thought. Girls are horny as ****! You just have to let them explore that side of themselves I guess.

Video production class was funny LOL.
That hot girl sat next to me. The task for the day was to take a picture of the person sitting next to you.
Me : Hi
Her : Hi
Me : Are you a good photographer?
Her : I don't know, I guess so!
Me : You better take some sexy pics of me!
HAHAHAHA I was out of it when I said it, but the awkward vibe was so funny LOL. She wasn't looking at me but she didn't bother looking back.
Though, caught her looking at me a couple times during class.

I'm still being a *****.

Tuesday, January 29th
Some girls know I'm into pickup and got mad!

During the longass break, I was walking around with Porno. Then, I saw the girl that admitted that I was handsome the first semester randomly at the bus stop. I went in and talked to her.
I was nervous and not feeling it. I don't know why I felt myself tensing up as I approached them, like they were about to reject me.

Friend : Oh, you guys hit on EVERY thing that moves. You hit on all my girl friends from the west island!
Me : What? You saw us or what?
Friend : Yeah, we were at the mall the other day and saw you guys. You guys are such creeps. If you want a girlfriend I'll match you with some girl, but don't do it like that!

The vibe she was giving us was disgusting. I though the friend was hot at first. So then she went on complaining more and more again.

It's crazy how from a different perspective and way of seeing the world you can't understand things clearly.
If you take it from her perspective, we are douchebags hitting on random girls like players to get *****.
If you take it from the perspective of the guy that experienced social anxiety since his childhood, as the guy that dedicates his life to self-development, as the guy that cultivates independent thoughts and learn to not follow bad social conditioning, the man that does this kind of stuff is part of the top 1%.

At the moment, I was feeling a big down and my positive social mood died. But now that I rethink about it, it's totally fine. It's not her fault if she doesn't get it. We are all different.

The same day, I catch her staring at me. I just look at her back and move my head left and right.
Later, I see her in the bus line and she's looking at me again. Again, I tell her no.

Wednesday, January 30th
Some realization during public speaking, damn.
FINALLY said hi to the chick from my French class.

Though, I was totally unconfident, out of it. I putted so much pressure on talking to her.
When I did say hello, she looked at me kind weird. I wasn't thinking about how hot she is, it wasn't even going through my mind. When I can't allow myself to be relaxed, I don't feel attraction and I almost feel repelled by the girl I'm talking to, thinking : Ahhh gotta get out of there fck fck fck.

I gotta be relaxed... put less pressure on myself.

Break is funny.
I see those people at the Couch Place I met the day before. The girl is pretty hot, the friend is definitely gay.
Another conversation about sex! I was kind of feeling uncomfortable because I had no experiences to share with them, but it made me realize how girls are ****ing horny. They love sex, they think about sex even more than I do.
Or maybe I just don't express it!
I have to free myself and express my sexuality. That's what it is about.

The gay guy asks me if I want to go to the movies this Friday with his girl friends. I'm down! Though, I just don't want to be seen as the gay nice guy friend too LOL. Though there will be a couple girls coming too. 2 of them have boyfriends, I don't know about the other ones I never met. Hope that they're hot.


English class, had to do some 2 minutes of public speaking, kind of.
My teammates asked me if I needed help for the presentation.
Me : No, I'll be fine.
I was nervous, but I knew that what I was doing was right. I knew that the only right thing to do at this point was to embrace my discomfort. It's a new class, I don't know the people in. That's alright, I'm confident. I felt absolutely comfortable with my anxiety.
Teacher : Alright, team number 6!
When I rose up my chair, I felt pro, like god was with me. I felt like a supreme boss, super motivated for change, and I knew that it is always for the best.
Me : Alright hi, so the question was... blablabla

My voice was surprisingly SO relaxed, deep and in control. I felt like I could dominate the world. The best part was how the anxiety actually fuelled me instead of blocking my way. It gave me a boost in energy, and that's exactly how I feel when I overcome my anxiety to go for the approach or throw some risky lines in the conversation.
And that emotion, that sensation of being on top of the world is really the only reason why I love the game so much. It's that feeling of accomplishment we all crave.

Probably when I'll get the sex, I'll be like : That was it?
Same with the date I got a while ago. That was it? Yes. Big deal? No.

After my presentation, I felt so energized.

Got home and read some book about social intelligence. Damn, so many good things you learn from reading.
GUYS, READ.

CONCLUSION
- I love pickup because of the feeling of accomplishment and the overcoming of obstacles I have to do, not because of the immediate results.
- Don't be mad at people that have a different point of view on things. They don't understand you, and that is totally fine. They don't need to. They can live their lives how hey want to, you live yours.
- GIRLS ARE HORNY AS HELL. Express your sexuality.

 

[Mindgamez]

Thursday, January 31st

Talked to this hot chick from my PE class. She's very hot, I'd say 8.5 easily.
As I sat next to her, I just allowed myself to assume connection right from the start. I didn't focus on what I was saying as I just allowed myself to forget about *gaming* her.
She was pretty nice and receptive. We were vibing and everything flowed nicely, though I was too friendly.

In PE class, I pussied out to workout with her and her hot friend I met. I just worked out on my own and some other guy.
Didn't talk to other chicks in the class... Next class I will.

I wasn't so much in the mood for socializing that day.
I still met new people every day and socialize a lot. Though, I felt like I socialized because I had to and not because I wanted to. I felt like I was talking without real meaning or fun.

Then,
That night I realized that as an introvert, it's okay to chill back and stop talking when you don't feel like to. Then, realized that I was talking because all I focused on was on having better social skills and confidence. I focused on the game too much and forgot the meaning of all of it.
**** GAME. I just want to love people and have fun. That cute girl from my film class, who gives a **** about closing or escalating or gaming her. It's about sharing love and having fun...

Friday, February 1st
SKYROCKET.

First class is film class. I talk to the cute girl from last time, the shy girl that seemed into me.
Though this time, she wasn't as hot... her glasses gone, her hair tied. I didn't feel that much attraction. I don't know, I wasn't so down for her but I still enjoyed talking to her.
During the 10 minutes break, we chilled together. She's a cool person, cute too. I could go for her but I don't know. She looks hot on picture though...

This is where things got HOT.
After a bit of chilling with that first cute chick, I meetup with Porno again. Though, he was with the hot chick from last time. The hot blonde chick that came for dinner with HB Indi and us the other day. She's an 8.5, even a 9.

She touched my nipple and from there the conversation went a bit sexual.

We were talking to each other, but she always kept that VERY sexy eye contact. She would gaze into my eyes the whole time for long silences. Sometimes she would laugh and I couldn't resist it. I felt like we totally understood each other without saying a word. Of course we talked, but when we did, we didn't care about it. She didn't and I didn't, because her eyes were saying much more.

I remember myself taking her by the hand and spinning her around. I tried to catch her, but she resisted with a giggle because people at the cafeteria were watching. We sat next to each other, and everytime she'd say something that could be interpreted as sexual, we smiled at each other and I gave her the : Shhhhhh...
It was for reinforcing that *Us* mentality as we call it. Basically, I was being socially intelligent by not being too overly open to sex when people were around. On the logical level, it was hidden, but on the deeper level it was clear.

We were looking at each other.
Her : What?
Me : Nothing.
Her : You're ugly
I smile and she does the sexiest giggle ever.
Her : You're monstruous
She loves testing me, and I really didn't care. I wasn't reactive.

The BIG BIG difference there is that I knew I won her. I knew that things were going

We were eating and she would just look into my eyes with pure attraction. Once, she was eating her fruit. I remember her looking at me as she slowly ate it sensually (I felt like). It made me SO horny, I just opened my mouth like I was orgasming and I moaned without realizing : Uuuuaaghhh...
Her : What?
Me : Nothing... Hahahahaha...

I was thinking about meeting up with her tonight, getting her to my place and having passionate sex. But as I was thinking ahead too much, I started to think about the *game* aspect and get in my head...

I get her number later, though I mistaken her name and she gets a bit mad...
At some point, I can't quite tell if she's interested in me or not because sometimes she looks at me weird then looks at me like she wants to ****. She tells me I'm a creepy guy at one time.
She leaves for class without a smile and I ***** out for the hug because she was already walking away...

It's Saturday night right now and I didn't text her yet. I don't know what to text her... maybe recall some inside jokes, but I want to wait until next time I'm at school for meeting up again.

CONCLUSION
- Know on a DEEP level that you won her, that you don't need to force anything or prove anything. You're here with her, that's enough for getting you laid.
- What's underneath what you're saying, what's hidden behind every word is what's SO much more meaningful to making that connection, that bond between you two. Stop looking for the logical side of attraction. Attraction doesn't happen mechanically, it just HAPPENS because you're a man and she's a woman. Look at her with the eyes of pure love, attraction, horniness. Once you do this, you realize that all fear vanishes.
- You understand that you deserve hot women on a deep level. The journey is the process of freeing yourself of what was blocking you, the process of realizing that you don't have anything to learn. It's in your DNA.

Made a video about Self-Development as I got back home. I was inspired a lot.
Give me feedback, tell me how you liked it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4xM3aNdahM&feature=youtu.be

Saturday, February 2nd
The day was... alright.

I went downtown with Stephen and my black friend (let's call him Beatbox).
I did 3 approaches, 3 groups of different girls.
The girls I did approach, I was very nervous for the initial approach, but once in the set I felt much more in control. I noticed that my ability to connect with people is better even though my daygame skills were kinda rusty.

That one approach, I felt so natural and in control. The girl seemed super interested and lovely, I was also being physical and having fun during the approach. Though, I didn't push anything further and just let them walk away... It was going very good.

Whatever!

What's coming up next
Tomorrow I'll be with my friend Dumi, supernatural. He's one of my best friends.
DAYGAME, NO EXCUSES *****.
What should I text the hot blonde? Suggestions are cool

 

[Mindgamez]

How to describe this week?
From a very positive attitude down to ****, then to enlightenment (thanks Coolkid).
Anyway, this week was pretty awesome. Even though it feels painful to write about it... I'll do. I have to know.

Tuesday, February 5th
No school Monday, that's cool.

I text the hot blonde from last time (let's call her HB Nipple cauz she used to touch my nipples).
We agree to meetup. Then, she tells me to meetup at some friend's locker. I say OK at first, but then a while later I tell her : No, come to my locker. so I can avoid the friendzone. I went to the friend's locker anyway but we were just me and her this time.

It was cool. We walked around, flirted and teased each other.
Sometimes I'd go and touch her. She'd go : Ohhh, why you walking so close to me?
But I knew it was a test so everything was fine. We kept playfully talking.
As we talked, I challenged her with questions that made her invest.
Me : What's cool about you? What's your creative side?
She : Ohh I don't know really.
Me : There must be something.
She : Well... I can sing?? Blablabla

We sat down and I made her listen to one of my favorite metal songs.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Da4GCw657g
She seemed interested in a long term relationship, telling me how her ex boyfriend was a metalhead that tried to change her into a metalhead too.
Me : It's way better two people that are independent and can stay themselves.
She : Yeah exactly! I mean, I like metal too. It's cool and I can enjoy it but it's not the thing I enjoy the most.
Me : That's fine.

We walked around a little more, went back close to her locker and we started to flirt much more.
I was much clearer in my intent here. She told me that she had a ****.
Me : Ohhh what?! Damn I'm so disappointed, how can you do that to me!
She : I had it since birth, what do you want? It's very long and it's pretty.
Me : I don't believe you. Blablabla

Later, some tall guy passes by and says hi to her.
Her : Omg he's so hot...
Me : Oh yeah? Ahhh I'm jealous...
Her : Haha why?
Me : Because you find him hot!
She giggled, I didn't resist it and just told her the truth. Hiding it had no point. She knew I was interested at that point.

Her : Oh I don't want my yogourt to explode.
Me : If it explodes it's going to be a huge jizz mess.
Her : You explode!
Me : You want me to explode?
Her : Yes
Me : *orgasmic moan*
She laughs, I was getting horny. We flirted more like that, it seemed pretty cool.

We went in the room where all the clubs were. We fooled around a bit, we spent time together. Sometimes we'd pass by some people we knew, said hi. I felt more and more comfortable with her. I knew the attraction was good.

We go to the Couch Place this time. We see some more people again, we talk with them.
When we're back on one on one, she shows me my text she just received doing a sad face because I disagreed to meetup with her as a joke.
I take her cellphone and text to myself this :

I think you're awesomely hot

I give her cellphone back. She looks at me, smile and giggles.
When she has to go, she tells me to text her.
Me : No, I won't text you.
Her : Why?
Me : You text me because I'm a lazyass.
Her : No, I won't text you!
Blabla playful, she gives me a pretty smile and she walks off.
I turn back to my friend : Ohhhh DAMN she HOOOT. He laughs, fun times.

At this point, I knew things were going FANTASTIC. She knew I was attracted to her, she gave me the positive signs back. I had no reason to feel insecure about all of it.

Though, I did...

Wednesday. HELP
Super confused here.
She texts me to meet up.
BUT THEN, 5 minutes later she says : Sorry, I sent this message to the wrong person.

LOL WUT?! Massive trolling...
I then text : Lies!
Couple minutes later I go : Lies!
Then when I'm done purchasing my books 20 minutes later I go : K where you at?
Her : I'm in class right now

Friday, February 8th
Thursday I text her : Meet me at my locker at 11:30 tomorrow
She doesn't answer me... she waits until Friday at 11:08 and texts : Meet me at blablabla
Then 20 minutes later, while I was talking to the shy girl from my film class and getting her number, the blonde goes : Hum nevermind yo I have to do homeworks

WHAT?

So I texted her that I lost my lunchbox (true story) and that's why I couldn't meetup.
I go to the meeting spot, she ain't here.

I call her, no answer.
She texts : I have to do homeworks... we'll meet up later okay??
Me : I hope your homeworks kill you. Get good grades
Her : Okay?
Me : It means yes we'll meetup again
Her : Ok

Then, my state went totally downhill. I though that she wasn't interested, I was needy. It was terrible... When things seemed to be going good I didn't care at all. I was free of worries, we were just sharing a nice human connection and having fun.

Fck!
I see her again randomly in the hallways. She's looking down at her cellphone and texting someone. I tap her on the arm and say hello.
I go for the hug, but then pull away before it happens because she didn't deserve it.
Me : How was your homework?
Her : Blablabla
I feel myself becoming reactive again. I laugh for no reason, for approval. I'm not even enjoying myself. I wasn't even feeling attracted.
I just let her go away. I wanted to chill around with her, but then I just do my chode and let her go see her friend. FAILED THE **** TEST SO BAD. I should've told her to stay with me or just walk with her a bit.

FCK.
I'm walking around with Porno and I see her again.
This time, I feel absolutely no attraction. It's weird. I almost feel mad at her.
We leave, Porno and her exchange goodbyes but I don't even bother saying bye.

I go to the bus stop and that hot girl from my gym class comes in the line. We talk for a bit, I'm with Porno.
What? Hot Blonde chick comes again?
She tests me again, throws me some rude things. I don't know, I wasn't attracted to her. Even though she's hot, nothing in me was drawn towards her. I wasn't nervous really. I was more like... negative. A negative vibe, pretty much disappointed and mad.
Her : Alright we're going to go wait in the other line. We ain't taking this bus.
Porno and her hug.
Me : You still want a hug?
Her : Yeah. Oh nevermind your hands are in your pockets.
Me : There you go.
She comes in but I back off again XD. She gets mad and leaves.

**** THIS CHICK. She's hot but damn I ****ed badly the time I became needy and let her go in chodiness.

I went to the mall with Porno afterwards. We did a couple approaches, talked to some girls from our college. Hot girls...

Though, I have a date.
With some chick from LAST YEAAARRRR... long time ago I know. Some twin girls I met at the talent show. They were performing too, they talked to me backstage. Then, saw them while I was working back in the day on the random. I talked more to the hotter one though.

Texted her sometime in January. She was busy with school so I waited a month to text her again.
So my texting was pretty alright. She texted A LOT. LOTS of emoticons, I felt like she was pretty attracted. I tried to call her but she didn't answer, texting me that she had an ugly voice.
I told her not to be shy, blablabla. Setup the meeting smoothly and not overdoing it with the texting.

Let's do this ****. She ain't the hottest, but she's pretty hot anyway.

CONCLUSION
- When she goes sexual, embrace it. FLIRT.
- All that bull**** was in my mind. She was just testing me. Guys, don't fall into the trap. I failed the moment I started getting needy. Once you feel a bit of desperation, you don't even think about attraction anymore. You don't even think about fun. You can't allow yourself to feel horny or attracted.
- **** NEEDINESS MAN. There's so many girls out there. Know from a deep level that you're attractive and that girls love you for who you are.
- GET THE ****ING THINGS ROLLIN. Setup the date while the iron's hot, no bull**** texting. Don't wait the next day. Set it up when you feel like meeting her. I should've set the date with HB Nipples MUCH earlier. Right after that last meetup would've been great, or even the one before. But then, I got ****ing chody.

It doesn't matter. I learn and I live by my principles.

 

[LearningSlowly]

Negativity killed that interaction. Even when she treats you badly, you shake it off and remain positive. It's not like she cheated on you, or physically hurt you somehow. She played a mind game and probably didn't even do it on purpose. If you like someone, always project that you like them.

It's a shame because you were exactly at the stage to start looking for a kiss (could even be done sooner).

This next girl sounds promising. On to the next one.

 

[Wolfbones]

Whoa bro, I've been reading your journal from the very beginning. I want to say that you've come a really long way. I was hoping to find an entry where you got lucky. I'm as old as you but I have yet to start; maybe you've seen my thread in this section. I hope you're going to achieve all your goals this year. Good luck, I'll be reading this and I hope to start mine too once the weather gets nicer.

 

[Mindgamez]

She played a mind game and maybe not even intentional. OMFG you're so right, and I took it seriously and this totally screwed me over. I realized this and then started freaking out realizing that I did absolutely nothing wrong. It was just randomness into play.

Wolfbones, I appreciate your support so much. People from the other side of the planet following me since the beginning, that's pretty awesome. Much love, and don't wait to start man! Do it now.

SKYROCKET
It was actually... so easy.

Saturday, February 9th
I wake up in the morning, quite excited but I do meditation to calm myself down from my anxiety.

Meditation always helps me to feel so refreshed.

I take the bus, arrive at destination and shortly after she arrives too. She's an HB7.5, not bad.

I hug, we say hello and I ask her questions in my natural way. I don't force anything and feel at ease. I don't try and impress in any way.
What happens? She laughs and laughs and laughs. Is what I'm saying funny? No, but it's valuable because it comes from me.

Basically, we walked around doing NOTHING. And what better way to connect with a girl?
We walked into stores, commented on some cute stuffed animals, tried on hats and laughed, and sometimes didn't even pay attention to where we were going and doing. I simply allowed myself to be immersed in our conversation, have fun, and she did the same. Leaving the store, I forgot that I went in for absolutely no reason!
I realized that by having fun and enjoying the very meaningless things, we built a much stronger connection. She was drawn into my world. We don't need any big thing to allow ourselves to have fun. All we need is the present moment, and nothing else.
We had some good inside jokes/moments we shared together. I really felt the *us* mentality as SP explained, that little bubble of Me and Her. I made sure we were walking close to each other all the time.
My funny side went out this time. Why? Because I knew that I was funny. Because she gave me so much approval, so I didn't feel insecure about showing my crazier side.

Later, I see the Banana Republic clothes shop.
Me : Hey, let's buy some bananas!
Her : *giggles*
Me : YOYOYOYO! Let's ask them if they sell bananas!
Her : Oh no don't do that!
Me : HAHAHA I'm so going to do it now, come.
So we walk in, I do the prank and she laughs hysterically. It wasn't to make her laugh, but it was to self-amuse myself. I knew she'd find it funny anyway. If she didn't laugh at this, it was done for her! If she can't handle my crazy side, **** her.

Me : Hey, I really wanna play Just Dance.
Her : Yeah, we could do that!
Me : Do you live far from here?
Blablabla, getting the logistics to go to her place. After 45 minutes of walking around for fun, having bought nothing, we take the bus and go to her place.
On the way, I see my cool black friend with some hot girl. We talk, it's cool.

At her place!
I enter, greet her parents with assurance. The father seems tense, but I keep my calm LOL. He then realizes that I'm no threat.
First thing she does, she shows me her bedroom.
Her : That's my sister, and that's my stack of CDs and music. Oh, here's my cute stuffed animal! Blablabla.
She basically shows me everything in her room. It's lovely and cute how she does it. I lie on her bed and tell her how comfortable it is.
Lying, looking up at her, her boobs seemed so big and sexy. I wanted to grab'em.
Me : AHHH **** FORGOT TO ZIP MY ZIPPER!
I zip my pants, then she laughs hysterically.

We teased each other a bit. Went physical, grabbed her by the shoulders, looked at ourselves in the mirror. I felt like we were a couple already.

She showed me her twin sister's bedroom too. Funny shiet.

We go downstairs and play the Wii!
She wants to make me a character, so we do. She's funny, tries to find me a nickname.
Her : Ohhh I really have to find you a nickname! Blablabla
I steal the remote from her hands, get her hands in mine. We sit on the same couch, close proximity.

Her : Our jeans match!
She rests her leg on top of mine. I play drums on her legs. When we play Mario, I rest my hands on her thighs. I tease her, tickle her. She defends herself with her legs, pushes me back and giggles.
Getting close is pretty hot. I don't resist attraction and allow myself to do what I feel like doing. Everything feels nice.
She tickles me back, it's cute. We were playing the game, but we didn't care about the game for real. All we were thinking about was of the present moment we shared, this pleasant human connection.

I don't know why, but once I knew I got her, I started losing attraction. Like, she was no challenge for me.
Constantly giving me signs, almost NEVER **** testing me! She's either easy or simply very attracted.
But it's crazy. I was sharing this nice pleasant feeling with her without being concerned about whether I'd get her or not. I was only focusing on having fun and forgetting about everything else.
Of course, sometimes I'd feel a bit nervous and I'd sense my face getting a bit tense, hers too, but no need for perfection. I knew that not being perfect was totally fine and it's part of being human. Every guy on this planet somehow feels insecure or a bit nervous around girls.

Time to go home!
So she walks me back to the bus stop.
She wants to go on my back. I decide to carry her because it's fun, but after a couple seconds I put her back down because I don't want to slip on ice and fall!
We walk together. She tells me how cold her hands are. I take her hands, opportunity for physical touch. She then decides to tickle my arm for fun and it feels pretty funny so I let her do it.
Without realizing, we are licking arms already.
Me : Alright, let skip around like the little red riding hood!
Then I joked around that I was the wolf coming to eat her.
We walked together like that. At this point I was wondering...

Is that it? I won her over. So what now? It's a pleasant feeling, but is there more than that? Is it that easy?

Before I leave, I give her a hug and she holds me tight.
Me : A little kiss?
I kiss her on the cheek. She kisses me back. No make-out, because I didn't feel like it. Her lips were dry.

I felt like I lost the excitement and uncertainty I'd get from approaching girls and getting **** tested.
Now, I realize how I actually like to get **** tested. I love to push through that barrier, through anxiety and grow as a person. Here, I just felt like it was too easy to be true. Crazy...

CONCLUSION
- FORGET about game. It's bullsh1t. It's about bulding real human connections.
- She will like you just for you. The more deeply this mindset is implanted in your mind, the less you'll try. You'll have absolutely NO need to impress whatsoever. If she knows about the great things you've accomplished for humanity, what does it change? You don't need her to tell you you're awesome. Who gives a sh1t if people know.
- Allow yourself to forget everything and just enjoy the present moment. Every girl represents opportunity for building a relationship. Have fun, play with it.
- Your mind cannot accept the fact that the game is actually so easy. Since it doesn't allow it, it makes it hard for you and your mind overcomplicates it. YOU'RE A MAN, SHE'S A WOMAN. THAT'S ENOUGH FOR ATTRACTION.

 

[Mindgamez]

PRO ****.
Basically, 2-3 girls are definitely into me...
That's pretty damn good.

Monday, February 11th
First class, nothing special. I still don't talk to the hot chick from this class...

During break, I chill around.
There's a kiosk at the agora where a woman tlaks about how to prevent STIs and have sex correctly. I almost listen to the whole thing, because I know I need it!

Then, Mr. Attraction AKA Ryan Clauson does a conference at my school. He's some pickup artist guy. Probably not as great as SP or RSD, but he's pretty funny. Got some information I pretty much knew already, but it was nice to see how many people were interested and were listening to him. People, no matter if consciously or not, like the gaaaammmee!

Then, video production class.
I sit, and then the asian girl with blonde hair, 7.5, (let's call her HB Blondasian) talks to me, along with her friend.
They want me to be in their team. It's cool.

THEN, that hot girl sits RIGHT next to me. From all the other chairs around, she sits next to me.
I talk to her a little bit, but I ***** out from moving things further. Damnit, she wanted it. ****, and she was an 8.

We work on the video project. HB Blondasian laughs at what I say, the little things.
I find that when you don't feel the need to laugh when she does, it means you're unreactive and she's reacting.
Her : Hey, nice jacket.
Me : Is that your pickup line?
Her : *giggles*
Yep, she seemed pretty interested. Though, she has a boyfriend. Though they had a BIG fight the day before, so yeah!

Tuesday, February 12th
That day was short, but funny.

After class, I have 2 hours before my driving test.
So I just chill around. I meet with HB Mole and some guy friend. We talk for fun for a long time.
I texted some girl and showed to HB Mole how I flirted. She founded it funny how I sent : Jesus will save you.
But then when the girl replied back with : Haha you're cute , and HB Mole made a sad face.
Guy friend : She's jealous man!
I really couldn't tell. She kinda hot, yeah, but I don't know. She ain't that cute. I'd **** her but nothing more XD.

Whatever. She almost touches my crotch once and I tease her about it. It was so funny LOL.

Wednesday, February 13th
First class CANCELLED. Which meant more time for going around.

I met with some girl I talked to last semester. She's really hot, she's my type of cuteness and hot together.
Let's call her HB Braces.
I see her walking by.
Me : Hey _____! How you doing?
Blabla, she walks away a bit.
Me : Hey, where you think you're going like that?
Her : I'm gunna go eat!
So she goes away. We were about to sit down at the table with the people we knew, but I forced Gary and my other buddy to go to HB Braces' table.
SO WE GO.

I sit down, start the conversation. I have a bunch of things to say, but my friends don't say ****. There was her and her ugly friend, still talked to her though.
At one point, I got the sexy eyes. You know when she holds your gaze for long silently, it's cool. She looked away and giggled, looked again.
Me : You gotta stop looking at me like that!
Blablabla.
My jokes were just flowing out by themselves. I realized that once I allow myself to say the jokes I have in mind, it's just so much better. I feel freedom, like I've liberated myself from what was blocking me.
Apparently she has a valentine... Told her that I had one too, the girl I dated last saturday (let's call her HB Wolf)

I asked her if she wanted a second valentine (me), and she refused with a cute smile. She's so adorable I want to kiss her so bad aghh...

Later, I saw on her facebook that she's been in a relationship for more than a year already! I'm ****ed, though I don't know the guy so I could try and make **** happen anyway. Though it's kinda... immoral. I don't know.

Bus stop!
I see the hot girl from my gym class. I talk to her, we have a lot to say and the conversation's flowing very nicely. Though, no flirting or teasing involved. She doesn't look as hot without her makeup... whatever.
Her : Oh, and yeah I worked out my abs...
Me : You worked out your ass?
Her : *laughs*
After that, she started talking about working out your ass and it made me a little horny. Anyway, later realized that she had a boyfriend I knew personally... Ain't going for her ****.
But yeah, her body is FANTASTIC.

Thursday, February 14th VALENTINE'S DAY
Today, I felt LIKE A BOSS.

Going to class, I see HB NIPPLES!
This time, I didn't have the mad negative vibe from last time. I was positive and feeling nice about it.
I talked to her, and she gave me the sexy eyes again!
I ask her if she's mad. She tells me that No with a smile, like nothing happened.
I give her a hug, sliding my hand on her waist. Damn she's so fckn hot agghh...
Had to go or I'd be late to class.

I start off with the first class sitting next to some kinda hot girl. Not that pretty, but she seemed nice.
Not much talking.

Then, I talk to the hot chick from my gym class. She has a boyfriend, saw on her facebook... But still, it didn't stop me from having fun.
Then, talked to her hot friend from the bus stop.
At gym class, we did the whole team workout together. We had lots of fun. I feel like I connected well with them, as friends... but still.
I caught the girls from the class looking at me. It's fun.

Then, I CHILL AROUND THE SCHOOL!
Like I always do.
But this time, I ask some randomass girl if she wants to be my valentine. I was mean without realizing, and then I just walked off and told her that it was a joke. She wasn't that pretty, that's why... But AGH should've excused myself. I feel bad. She just walked off looking disappointed.
Gary and my other indian friend dared to do it too! Funny.

The shy girl from my film studies class flaked the meetup...

Doesn't matter. I walk around and then see HB Blondasian with 2 girls, kinda hot.
We sit and chat for 20-30 minutes or so. Some girl tells me the story of her getting picked up on the random (cold approach!) by some guy and how she's excited about meeting up with him. She tells how she felt the immediate connection and then told me what they talked about : boring **** like work, school, etc.
Means that it's really not what you say, but the subcommunication.
I think I made a good connection in that interaction with the other girls. Expanding social circle.

HB Blondasian apparently did PORN! According to her 2 friends. I tease her about it, she slaps me on the leg and comes close to me. She has pretty nice boobs, okay face. But she's pretty sexual and I love that...

She tells me that she wants to stalk me to my classroom. We walk around, we exchange phone numbers.
She's definitely interested, because she really wanted me to text her asap.

I see the hot girl from gym class again.
I sit next to her, we chat for a while. I ask her if it's okay to have many valentines. She tells me how it's fine to have multiple dates, as long as you don't have an official girlfriend. That's absolutely right!

The texting conversation is pretty cool with HB Blondasian...
We talk about porn, I mention how she's going to make me fail the nofap challenge if she keeps flirting with me. I somehow tell her that she has big boobs and she responds positively.
She basically wanted to hang out after school, but I was already home when she texted me...

CONCLUSION
- Once the click happens in your mind, once you GET IT, it just happens. It's not magic, it's NATURE.
- Even though I had all of these positive things happening to me, I don't even care anymore. Those pretty smiles are meaningless to me compared to the journey of life. I want to achieve much greater than just be good with girls. I want to inspire people, I want to become a filmmaker, I want my children to be proud.
- My results are skyrocketing. I definitely overcame a plateau, and I won't stop progressing.

 

[LearningSlowly]

You're on top of things, there isn't that much to say.

Two things: When you get sexy eye contact like you did at lunch, break your habit of talking about it. It's more important to let it happen, then look at her again, almost like you're considering dating her. Girls pick up on that, it's subtext. Small detail, especially since mentioning it does fit your personality.

Second, when will you hook up with Wolf? The true test of courage is telling her to give you a BJ

 

[Mindgamez]

Learning that's right. I love looking at the girl like I want to have sex with her. Even though what we say is innocent, there is that understanding between the both of us that we are attracted to each other and we both know it to the point we don't even need to mention it. That's what happened with HB Nipples I believe.

DATES, but I cancelled them...
The one with HB Wolf I cancelled because I didn't want us to just chill around at the same exact mall again. I couldn't bring her home because had school the next day, I'd be too much trouble. I also had belly pains haha.

The date I planned with HB Blondasian, cancelled Friday because I had a headache... I know, lame LOL. She lives pretty close to the mall so after some chilling I figured that we'd go to her place and get laid maybe. She ain't the prettiest, but she's sexual and she kinda hot. Why not?

This week this Friday, I'll try and arrange the meetup.
Then Saturday afternoon, I'll invite HB Wolf at my place. Then, going to N's bday party (remember N? My ooolldd friend from high school. He hasn't really changed since).

Friday, February 15th
Damn, I think I'm friendzoned with that shy girl from my film studies class.
She looks SO much hotter with her hair done, oh damn. I kinda failed with her. She flaked the meetup, but she still seems like the friendly girl.
Whatever. I'm too friendly with her I guess. No teasing/flirting involved, which explains the situation.

That's how I got HB Blondasian interested. Sexual talk, being mysterious and not always 100% friendly nice.

HB Nipples TOTALLY flaked the meetup. I called her, her phone was off. Whatever, I'll pass.
She's probably the hottest girl that seemed really attracted to me, but I guess that this little instance of me being a lil' ***** turned her off haha! Whatever, I learn from my mistakes.
I think I have to strike earlier next time. I have to go more physical when I know things are going well. I have to escalate when she's giving me the green light and NOT wait for the date. Instead of asking her to meetup at school for the 3rd time, I should have set up a real date.
She was so down... I knew she was damnit!
I guess girls' emotions change a lot.

So I chilled around the school as usual.
I find myself being quiet in the conversation with those 2 girls I just met from friends of friends. I don't talk as much because I was thinking of where I went wrong with those other girls. I was quite disappointed.
But I knew it was part of the process.

English class, I sit next to that hot girl simply because there's my friends right next. I just ask her if the seat's taken, then just take it. No eye contact, we don't even talk.
AGGHH! Why? Because her friends were all around?

After school, I chill with Gary, Porno and the other breakdance friends.
It was at this point that I took out my phone to call HB Blondasian for the date. I was kinda nervous, but I knew that calling was much better. Her voice sounded sensual, she told me MAYBE to the date. Then I told her that the word *maybe* didn't exist in my vocabulary, that it was Yes or No.
She texted me later that she was down to meetup. When I later cancelled because of my headache (had a concussion), she told me that I was lame and told her that we'll meetup next week. She's fine with that.

Sunday, February 17th
Drove to some new mall! **** yeah, love having my license.

Porno, Dumi and I went to the mall to do some approaches.

There were SO FEW hot chicks! Crazy. Though lots of people, which was weird.

I wasn't into it, had the awkward vibe and often didn't have anything to say. Our conversations were filled with silences all the time.
Then, I realized how not gaming for weeks can really affect my approaching skills! I was getting better with talking and connecting with girls on a deeper level, but I lacked the initial skills of approaching I used to be very good at. I couldn't get conversation flowing out of nowhere anymore.
When I did find something to talk about, it was pretty random and I didn't feel so much at ease with it. I said it to fill the blank, to get the **** rolling instead of saying it for the pleasure of having a nice human connection.

I did have a couple okay approaches, which meant talking for a little while.
But most of them lead to them going away, or us ejecting out of awkwardness.

I think I didn't do any solo approaches! All the girls were in groups.
The excuses rose into my mind again. I was approaching because I had to. I wasn't allowing myself to feel attracted, even though some girls were talked to were pretty beautiful. I simply didn't allow myself to feel the attraction. Compared to HB Wolf or Blondasian, they were just as hot or hotter.

Dumi didn't approach at all. He was basically watching us, not really encouraging me. No moral support from him, didn't really appreciate his teasing. After a couple rejections, I felt pretty down and we decided to chill on the sofa for a couple minutes. I didn't feel like doing anything now. It felt so hard to go back into the momentum again, I wondered where my naturalness and my drive went.

Anyway, that day was the day of going back on track. Didn't daygame in SO LONG! Glad I'm back now. I'll be doing it every week hopefully, even every day. Can I? I could totally. When I come back from school, I go to the mall a little bit and do one approach or so.

CONCLUSION
- Don't be so hard on yourself. I was, and it resulted in me feeling pretty down near the end of the day. Understand that ups and downs are part of the process. See the bigger picture.
- You cannot lose your attractiveness! Know deep down that it's always there and that you don't need to force anything for it to be. You're attractive naturally. Even if one bad day happens, doesn't mean you're less attractive. Maybe you did some things wrong, but as long as you follow your core values and principles that are true to yourself, you're and amazing person in every aspect of your life.

 

[Mindgamez]

She wants the D.
HB Blondasian has a boyfriend, but is still down for the D... let me explain.

Monday, February 18th
Video production class, love it.
It's weird. I was nervous talking to her at first, but I still knew deep down that I was attractive as a person. As long as I had this vibe coming out of me, nervousness meant absolutely nothing. I knew I could win her over anyway, I knew that I won her already.

Once, I was recording and got a little agitated because HB Blondasian and my friend (let's call him Vig) were talking. I slap HB Blondasian's boob by accident.
She blushed and giggled. I knew she liked it LOL.

Me : Your sweater is falling off.
Her : Sorry, I like having my clothes off.

Later, talked one on one and kept my voice low. It naturally was. My voice felt like I just had sex with her, feeling super relaxed and attracted.
Me : Hey, you still with your boyfriend?
Her : Yeah.
Me : Oh fcckk!
She smiled, I did too.

Tuesday, February 19th
During my longass break, I indirectly approached some girls.

In the line for the microwave, I saw that girl and I commented her tiny plate. Just little small talk, not even got her name but whatever.

Later, I meet the twin of some cute girl from my english class. The twin is hotter, she seemed receptive too. Next time gotta get her number.

Meeting up with HB Blondasian!
When we meet, she escapes her friends and we chill around one on one.
She wants to find a quiet place with just us two. We start walking around and around, flirting a lot.

Her : Have you ever mesured it?
Me : Yeah.
Her : Really? Haha, how long is your penis?
Me : It's ______, about this length.
Her : Bull****! Are you virgin?
Me : Yep I am virgin.
Her : Oh really? You don't seem like you're a virgin at all.

That's great. Means I'm comfortable going sexual.

Her : I'm really awesome. You should feel honoured to be with me.
Me : And you should feel honoured since I'm a virgin. (LOL that was a good one)
Her : What? Hahahahah!

Her : Hey, you know that some people have sex in school?
She told me this twice, like she wanted to have sex in school... Pussied out to go for the make-out. Just kept saying to myself that she has a boyfriend and it kinda set me off balance.

Funny how she tells me how she's not available for the next 2 weekends. It's like she wants it to happen at school LOL.
Why the **** not. I could lose my virginity at school. That'd be... funny.

Told her that she was very hot, she enjoyed it.

Me : Would your boyfriend be mad if we do it?
Her : Do what?
I was scared of being too direct here, so I went like this.
Me : If we date.
Her : Well, as long as I don't get caught I guess it's fine. But I don't know.

SHE WANTS THE D. SHE WANTS IT.
But she has a boyfriend, it's been 10 months already. I should still go for her.

CONCLUSION
- Be comfortable sexually. Don't overreact when she gives you signs. Just assume it's normally part of attraction, of your DNA. Allow yourself to feel super sexy/attracted.
- You deeply know that she likes you. Don't be scared. Even though you're nervous and it's not perfect, you still can attract her.

 

[mudko3]

The D

SHE WANTS THE D. SHE WANTS IT.
But she has a boyfriend, it's been 10 months already. I should still go for her.

THEY ALL WANT THE D

Wow Dude i've been inspired by your social skills and comfortableness!
Keep up the great reports!

 

[Wolfbones]

You did good, bro! See what could've happened way earlier without those friends who dragged you somewhat down? Show 'em, buddy!