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Monday, April 23rd
Many good happened, but bad too! Let's start with the bad...
I decided to go to HB Laos's table today. What's weird is that she ejected when me and buddies arrived. She went to that other table to eat with her girl friends. I talked to H. He's a very nice and cool guy! We got closer and he seems very chill. Then, he invited me to his party on Friday. This is great stuff! Many cool girls will be there and cool guys too. This is the thing that made me go Uggghh... He asked me who I was going to ask for prom. I didn't want to tell him because I though that maybe he liked HB Laos too. Well in fact, he does. For a LONG ASS time! He told me that he was going to prom with her and he asked her like, months ago (holy ****, months ago... and they are still only friends, good close friends). I asked him if he made some move on her, and he told me that he's afraid to ruin his friendship with her and go to awkward.
Man, I didn't know what to do. On the moment, I was kind of sad and disappointed, but relieved at the same time. What a weird feeling! I was relieved because I knew I wouldn't need to worry about getting her, but at the same time, I liked her. It's been months though that he asked, and they don't seem like a couple at all. In fact, they aren't officially together.
Though, I really like H. He's a really cool nice guy and I enjoy being around him. Man, I don't know what the **** to do. I know that I HATE stealing because it's against my values and I don't want to do that. But at the same time, H is not moving the relationship forward and nothing's happening. If I were him, I would've done something about it. He said sorry to me and he felt bad. I told him that it's alright and that I'll turn the page. I told him that I'll find somebody else, and he agreed after he told me that I am a very social person. I liked the compliment, though I don't know if it was for compassion or for real. It's true that I'm getting a lot more social than before. I feel progress.
When I spoke to HB Laos again, everything was gone. No more good body language, no more vibe, no more flirting. I couldn't do it! Also, H was just next to us. She wasn't so receptive too. Then, her and H started singing the titanic song. Sad song made me sad... I had to leave the place.
I sat next to that HB6, the one that bumped into me at the 2nd talent show. She was sitting by herself in front of her locker :
Me : Hey HB6! What are you doing alone by yourself? *sitting*
Her : I was thinking about something?
Me : About what?
Her : Ohh... I was thinking about prom.
Me : With who are you going with?
Her : You
Me : Me? O: mhmhm...
Her : Or *other guy's name*, I don't know if I should ask him.
Me : Ohh well, I didn't know about that... Well, you should ask *other guy's name*
Her : Mhmhmyeah... I'm not sure if he'll say yes
Me : You can always try
*silence*
Me : Anyway, seeya
Wow... I didn't want to hurt her and I don't know what to do about this. He looked sad. Later, I looked at her and her eyes were red like she was crying. I just smiled at her and she forced to smile. Anyway, I shouldn't feel bad for this. This is not my fault after all. Still, I'm feeling bad for her. Poor girl.
I then went to physics class. I was tired and not in the mood. I couldn't tell if my eyes felt wet because of lack of sleep or sadness, but probably both. Whatever.
Enough about the bad things. Time to move on, shall we?
So today, in art class, I was paired with those 3 cool girls, popular. We had to analyse some advertisement about some beer/energy drink. It had a lot of half-naked women in it (I still can't believe the teacher showed that to us lol). Later, 2 other girls came and they talked about their project they didn't finish on time. They told us that they needed someone to do the editing for their movie and that they would pay him to do it. I then volunteered and they shouted of joy lol. I asked them what they would pay me with, and they told me that they'll do me a good cake, cupcakes, cookies, and stuff. They told me that I was their life, that I saved them. It was funny haha. This other cool dude came next to me and gave me props.
In physics class, I still talk to the usual girls : HB Frizzy and HB Blonde. They are cool people. HB Frizzy's **** tests all the time. Like, she acts all serious and **** about something and acts like she's mad about me, then I ask her what's going on while laughing, she keeps acting mad, and when I tell her to relax! relax! relax!, she turns her head and smiles.
At the end of the day, I thought about something. I need some actors for my next short film. I talked to HB big boobs :
Me : *poking her* Heey HB big boobs!
Her : Yes?
Me : Are you a good a good actress?
Her : Hum... not really. Kind of, why?
Me : Ohh, because I want to make an horror movie,
Her : *laughs loud* (I have no idea why lol)
Me : , and I need some actors that can act
Her : Ohh okay!
Me : You could do the monster ;D
Her : Hahaha XD
Me : Ohhh that was mean XD But are you good for acting scared? Sad?
Her : Ugghhh... I don't know about that! Haha
Me : Anyway, we'll see this summer!
Her : Yeah!
(Didn't detail all the convo and I summarized it). We went to our lockers after that.
Then, HB4 that acted like a ***** at 2nd talent show comes near and bumps into me while laughing. I ask her what's the problem and what the hell she's doing (playfully of course). She was playing hide and seek... lol?
Man, I totally forgot about prom! I have until this Thursday to organize who will be eating at my table. We'll have tables of 10 people each. Hey, why not ask HB big boobs for prom? That would be nice, and I have very little time. She's not the prettiest, but she's sexy. I have 3 days left... I still like HB Laos though. Man **** this, those feelings are over exaggerated. I'm kind of sick that H doesn't do anything about HB Laos and it's been many months, maybe 1-2 years?... Holy **** lol! I think I'll just let him get her, because he's got one itis and he's a cool guy. I hate to steal, but I almost want to.
WHATEVER LET'S MOVE THE **** ON!
I now have more and more evidence that time can ruin everything. The more I wait, the worse it is. I should have asked her for a date long time before, but then H told me the news. Procrastination ****ing kills. Okay, now I'm OVER with this.
I'm over!
I have to get back to work. Many homeworks to do. I gotta keep focus.
I know that I progress every day and that everything that doesn't kill me simply makes me stronger because I learn from it.