Journal - Approaches on street, at mall, etc.

[Mindgamez]

Lol ya maan!

So yeah,
Last week was cool.

On Thursday I meet with that girl who randomly added me on facebook. Turns out that she was prettier than I expected, which is good. She seemed confident and friendly too. As I left, she told me to text her. I didn't yet, but I will on Monday when I get break.

Rock climbing class on Thursday, I invite Nikki to come climb with me. For some reason, I was feeling quite negative that day, but at least I chatted her which is what counts. When I was climbing up, they told me how they had a wonderful view of my ass hahahaha.

I feel like I don't have that full sense of entitlement... I don't know, I feel like no matter how I can flirt with girls and get the attraction going, at the end I can't close the deal. But that's just bullsh1t.

Friday, was supposed to meet with some other girl I met over facebook. She seemed quite friendly when we talked. She gave me a lot of advice on writing and sh1t (because she's in literature). Long story short, she flaked lol. So the remaining of the day was spent studying for midterm exam.

Went back home and was wondering why I was self-sabotaging because I was always comparing myself to others. Then, I saw this article which switched my perspective.
http://tinybuddha.com/blog/stop-comparing-yourself-to-others/

Friday night, I was with Adenis and his friends to a bar. It was just us guys having fun together. It was one of those few rare days I'd go out to actually just chill and have fun between friends, no trying to pickup girls or anything. And for some reason, it was much more fun. I was just enjoying the moment, laughing about everything and nothing. And I feel I could feel like that every time I talk to girls. I don't understand why I don't allow myself to feel as comfortable and free around girls, allow myself to just let go and simply vibe.

Saturday, October 19th
Had to wake up at 6:40... Holy sh1t.

Had to help Karl film some conference on self-development exclusively for women (which is why I find some parts to suck and be boring). It was filled with old women or MILFs. There were maybe one or two cute girls I could have talked to, but I made the excuse that they were too old for me.

Some woman came up and talked to me on the random. So confusing... she looked kinda old, yet she had a very youthful energy. She was acting like she was in her twenties, just goofing around and pretending to shoot Karl with a banana. Very confident, she'd say funny sh1t. Her eyes were full of joy, very calm. It was almost intimidating. I realized that when I get old, I want to have the same type of youthful energy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IiWPH3IrLkU

NIGHTGAME!
So after the 10 hour conference (with breaks but still), I was dead sleepy.
But I knew I had to meet my friends downtown and go game. It was Denis' birthday (guy whom I didn't game with in so fcking long). Jad, Kareem, Charbel and his twin brother, Oliver, Bruno were here. We were a big bunch, and it was extra fun!

So we went to that asian buffet restaurant. Again, it felt just as nice as when I was eating with Adenis and the other friends. Chill and comfortable. And I was also wondering why I couldn't allow myself to feel as chill around a group of girls. We dared Oliver to eat a sushi dripped in ice cream, soya sauce, salad sauce and some other sh1t for 5 bucks. He did so and we laughed our asses off like crazy.

After that, we did some ridiculous daygame. Us guys were approaching big sets of girls together. It was ridiculous because we were a group of something like 6-7 guys every time LOL.

It's funny, because I didn't see Denis as being such a god after all. He was just very human, nothing so special about him. I noticed that he wasn't always fully confident and calm all the time. He was just like us.

In the club,
We had to do some trick to make Oliver, Charbel and his twin and Bruno come in the club for free. We had to swap bracelets, etc. It took us a while, but I was so happy they could come in after!

Beginning of the night, I was getting rejected every single time. I realized I wasn't coming from the right frame of mind, and girls gave me the weird look when I approached them. I was trying to game them.

In the middle, I start getting some fun going and I realize something.
Life is a movie. I'm the hero of my movie, you're the hero of your movie. Even as I'm writing this, I picture myself in a movie, or like in a video game. Like I'm playing Sims and trying to get my social skills going. It's fun and funny to see it like that.
So then I was walking around the club by myself, imagining that dolly shot following me walk from the front, as I was just chilling, dancing and bouncing by myself. When I would do crazy ridiculous sh1t not to make the girls react, but to just unstifle me, just like a drunk party guy would do in the movies.
I'd go chat a girl near the bar. I'd imagine an over-the-shoulder shot, me being super smooth and confident. I was thinking about how good of a movie that was.
At this point, I felt super intense present, and I tried talking to the girl. She was super hot. She didn't respond as much. She gave me a nice smile and left. Later that night, I see her holding some other dude's hand. No big deal.

I keep approaching a lot. It's fun. I have to reapproach girls because we had no choice but to stay in the same club the whole time. Some of us were under 18.
Some girls who seemed to dislike me at first were actually nice when I reapproached them with no intention but to have fun.
To the girls who gave me the weird look, I called them up on it and I immediately had a laugh of recognition from them. Then, I realized that I had to call girls up on their bullsh1t instead of being a b1tch about it!

Also, I've had quite a few ****blocks from boyfriends and other guys who were being asses. At first I'd feel affected, but then I realized it didn't kill me to approach those groups. I had respect for the guys and girls who told me so very nicely. Some girls were being huge b1tches, but no big deal.

Near the end of the night,
I see the girl I approached earlier who didn't respond. She dances with friend in a circle of guys all around. She's close to me, so I come up and grind her for 1-2 minutes. I get a boner, it's fun. She then moves away from me, keeps dancing by herself and then I lose her in the crowd.
I approach some girl, come super close physically. She seems quite into me, gives me the beautiful smile and touches me. Problem is that she just keeps saying no very nicely. Her ugly friend was being a b1tch too. I felt like if she'd be by herself, we would have grinded and escalated further. Maybe I wasn't doing enough push pull.

At the end, I go near the door and Charbel talks to this girl she knew. She was very nice. I meet her friend, I make fun of her zebra dress. As soon as I open her, she gives me the flirty anime eyes, even though I wasn't feeling on top of my game. I tell her we have to leave soon. I tell her I'm sorry, I put my hand on her cheek. I give her a hug, a kiss on the cheek. I KNEW I could have made out with her at that point, but I pussied out for some reason. Her other cute friends came in and we introduced ourselves to them. Very nice girls and hot girls, they gave us the cheek kiss. That'd be the nice type of girls I'd love to have around me as good friends...

Anyway, we left the club early because Charbel's parents were getting mad for some reason.

I was so tired on the way back, I swear to god I would have fallen asleep on the wheel and died if I didn't have Jad to tell me funny random bullsh1t to keep me awake while driving LOL. Had to take a 20 minutes nap in front of his house because going back home.

CONCLUSION
- Call them up on their bullsh1t! Can switch a weird look into a laugh.
- Find a metaphor you like for your life. For me, life is a movie. We cannot know the ending before seeing the whole movie, and the ups and downs just makes it so much more engaging and fun. All I'm living right now is the beginning of the movie.
- Don't compare yourself to others. Everyone comes from different backgrounds, had to live different ups and downs, started from a different startpoint, had it easier/harder than you, have different values and ways of living, have different goals. Why compare and introvert who heals from within with a crazy extrovert who thinks being alone feels like sh1t? How is an introvert supposed to react to this? That's illogical to compare.
- Realize the fun of hanging out with your buddies. Feel that same comfortable feeling with everyone, just let it be and just allow yourself free.
- Don't rely on internet to meet girls.

 

[Watawata]

This club frs are just great

Btw did that Hypnotica stuff helped you? Did you noticed any changes?

 

[Mindgamez]

The week
Was cool. I've been feeling much better lately.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=25rWuMJ9mgs

I was looking at Nick Braddock's College Game video from the under21convention. Great stuff.

And then I realized something. It wasn't about RUSHING to game the girls and focusing on individual target.
But it was about seeing the whole college as one huge scene. With endless possibilities. Kind of like in a movie. I'm a social connector. I'm a value connector. I've got the social and the value. I know how to connect with people, I know how to make friends, I know how to meet girls. Geez I know everything.

Porno is saying that I'm getting more attention from girls. Well, it's definitely true. I can sense it, and I just assume it. I assume that I'm getting buzz at school, that people are starting to notice me more and more. Girls are starting to talk about me and stuff. I'm just assuming it. Whether it's true or not doesn't matter, because it will be soon anyway.

Monday,
After class, I'm chilling at the caf with Arshad's friends. Cool people. I didn't feel like walking around with Jacob that day.

Tuesday,
After class, I take the bus.
Randomly in the line, I see Alexa Nuggetgirl. I meet her other two friends. Cool people. We vibed well.

Wednesday,
After my first class, Art History, I learn that my last class is cancelled.
I chill around with Jacob. Meet that new French girl named Florence. She's cool.

I always chat with HB Blondasian a bit, still flirt with her. It's funny. She flirts back a bit. Though, seems like she's seeing some other guy.

Afterwards, I go meet Ani at starbucks. The evening before, she was messaging me about how she wanted me to meetup with me like a date. I honestly didn't care about having sex with her or anything. It was more about building a good friendship with her. She was telling me about the guy she wanted to meet and everything, we talked about relationships and pickup for a while (yes, pickup. She finds pickup cool and that's why I find her cool).

After the friendly date, I tell her that we should hangout soon. Mhmhmh, she's kinda hot though. I'd bang that.

Thursday,
Chilling at video production lab. When we go at the caf, I see Alexa (let's call her Nuggetgirl. Too many Alex's it's confusing).
I tell her to come to videoproduction lab to chill with us. She chills for a while and then has to leave. She agrees on chilling again on break. She's kinda hot too, I'd say 7.5

And then, rock climbing class.
I have to thank Richard on that one. Well played.
So we had to go to the climbing center by car. Kim, the 9.5, asked me if she could come in my car with Nikki, the 9. Superhotties.

So they come with us, along with Richard and Geoff (some chode dude).
We chat and I throw in some sexual comments here and there. Hopefully I'm not friendzoned with them. We are having a good time in the car, I'm just fooling around as usual, making people laugh. We get lost at one point and we stop on the side to get the GPS out. Nikki wants a group picture, funny. They all add themselves on Twitter and stuff, I'm feeling a bit left out because I'm the only one who uses Facebook lol.

We get out of the car. We climb separately and don't get to talk to them much till the end of the day for the ride back to school. So we start talking about how we should chill together and stuff. To be honest, I didn't do much of the work there. Everyone was vibing right, Kim suggested that we all go eat dinner together one day, and she wants to invite us to her party. Richard initiated the number close for Nikki, good job bro. So I handed her my phone too so she could punch in her digits. I told her we should all go clubbing together. She agreed.

Friendzoned?
Maybe. I don't know. Does it matter? Who cares.
A good hot friend is a gateway to hotter friends.

Friday,
After English class, Jessica (the 6.5 or so girl) walks up to me and tells me how we should do our project together. She seems all eager and sh1t and I tease her about her lame idea. I get her number, she tells me she'd be down to meetup on wednesday or friday even though she doesn't have school on that day, to talk about the project.
But right after I get number, I tell her I wanna do it solo and I don't care about her fcking lame idea XD.

I don't know. She has nice hair and a nice personality. Though she has a weird face... I don't know it's just weird... Hahaha...

During break, I basically work on assignment for class and chill a bit with Jacob and Anthony. I see the girl I was supposed to meet to revise my script. I say hello to her, she gives me a dirty look and I walk off laughing my ass off. It's because I texted her weird sh1t to creep her out LOL.

Oh sh1t,
So I see Nikki again randomly at the main entrance. I smile at her, wave, point at her ridiculously. Seems like she didn't see me... she turns her back on me. Immediately I'm thinking that maybe she was ignoring me. I go up to her anyway and she lights up as I talk to her. I'm being a b1tch and I tell her I have to go work on my assignment. She seems just as nervous as me when I talk to her... I can't tell if she's interested or not, it's fcked up. And I'm overthinking. She's so fckn hot, that's why. Why care so fcking much?

I was chilling with some other dudes, and for some reason I was feeling unsure about telling them we should hangout sometimes. Like I wasn't cool enough for them... But I just realize that's just bullsh1t thinking.
Hanging out with me is value-offering. Nick Braddock said it. I'm a social connector. I offer value and fun to people.

When came back from school, tried to pickup at local mall. After 20 minutes, pussied out and went home. To many people from my school I walked by, and it freaked me out. WTF.

Facebook Game!
Yes, I know lol...
That hotass 9 (according to pictures) accepted to go on a coffee date this Monday. I offered her a lift back home too. Funny because my comeback for her to chill with me is that I said I'd go jerk off in my corner if she didn't come LOL. Worked. The next day she asks me some advice on her French essay, then asks me if it's still happening Monday. A couple days later, she messages me to text her because she thought she lost my number.
I text her again. She asks me if the date is still happening Monday. I reconfirm yes, haha...

She seems really down for it. If she flakes last second I'm so going to kill babies! Fckn b1tch invested so much.

CONCLUSION
- YOU ARE a social connector. YOU ARE a value connector. Build that attractive reputation at school. Don't fckin rush the gaming individual girls, and take your time meeting a bunch of them and building your own empire. When I'm meeting people, I see it as me expanding and raising my situational value. It's about popularity and it's superficial? Well guess what? Girls at high school and college are superficial, whether you like it or not. You get categorized like that.
- Assume that people know your name at school. Find evidence that you're that guy everyone knows, the social beast.
- Cold approaching at school? If it hits, it's homerun. If it doesn't work, well sh1t haha. It's like a social suicide to be honest. That's just what I think. Porno, Karl and Jacob can go out and start cold approaching every time they go and walk around the school and that's totally fine. On my side though, I'll play it social circle.

 

[RiceandChicken]

Yes there are Mindgamez. Honestly, some are pretty shallow and they don't even know it. There some pretty cool genuine chicks in HS, but most are the same...

 

[Mindgamez]

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEA
Cool week, cool week. Best is November 1st

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lHjNmyzrVvM

Saturday, October 26th
Went clubbing with Jacob and some other dudes. Too bad he was only 17, and trying to go to other clubs would mean risking not coming back into the club we were in...
The Tokyo Bar/club had a pretty horrible ratio of guys/girls. Nothing really happened.

I remember those hot girls who came up to us. One of them put her butt on my crotch, so I understood she wanted to grind. So we did. Funny thing is that she was like a foot taller than me hahaha!

Later, she was surrounded by so many guys, so I gave myself the b1tch excuse.

Sunday, October 27th
Sex at Alexxx's house.

No one was in her house that day... Epic.

So we go into her room. She puts some music for the mood, then we dim the lights.
It's fun and all. But at this point, I realize how sex isn't much anymore.

It was almost boring having sex with her. She was enjoying herself so much more than I. I was literally bored.

Was I going asexual or something? What happened to my drive?
Oh snap, came too fast. She was going too fast lol. Foreplay and oral sex lasted for quite a while, but penetration part was too quick.

So yeah. We chill for a while, go eat and stuff.

After 30 minutes, we do sex again. I lose my erection midway, have trouble keeping it up the second time.
I start dirty talking. She does the sameé I tell her to tell me how she's a fcking slut who only thinks about sex all the time, and she says so. It turns me on.

After that, we cuddled in her bed for a very long time. I was feeling very comfortable with her, it was pleasant. I'd love to just sleep with a cute girl in my arms.

Monday, October 27
Best oral presentation I ever did in my life!
On date with the hot HB9 from facebook.

So yeah,
Oral presentation was about a pianist I really liked, Sergei Prokofiev. I was passionate during my presentation, just saying whatever came to mind and not using my notes at all. I felt free and I was freely expressing myself confidently. I knew everything I had to say was interesting. And that's the type of vibe I want to have when I'll be doing my speech in the agora next semester.

Date
So when I first meet her at school, I'm all nervous because she's also with two really hot friends. I'm caught off-guard, introduce myself shyly.

I bring her to the village near the school. She wasn't quite HB9 as expected, more like 8 or 8.5 (without make-up), but that's still pretty damn good.

She was doing most of the talking, which is a pretty pretty good sign.
Though, I have to admit that she was quite boring. She was rambling about random sh1t all the time and I couldn't find myself that interested in her.

Since we can't find a café at the village, she suggests me that Asian restaurant near her house.
Me : Oh so you're inviting me for lunch?
Her : Hahaha! Well, yeah I guess...
Me : Alright, let's do this.
We get in the car. She shows me her hair and asks me if I find it pretty.

So we get to the date location.
She's all into video games I have no idea about. Into animes I don't watch. Into activities I don't really care about. She talked 80% of the time. Plus, she was talking to me about that guy she was into, but lived too far away from her. Long-distance type of thing. I didn't give a sh1t.

But she's pretty damn hot...

I felt like this date was going nowhere really. I felt like I couldn't have fun myself. It's at that point that I started getting more nervous and sh1t.

Her : So... you have a class after?
Me : Yeah...
Her : When is it? It's 2:30
Me : Ohhh hum...
At this point I felt so stupid. I was actually skipping class to go on a date with a girl I've never met before. I thought I'd look desperate if I told her the truth. But I did.

So yeah, as soon as she said so, she said we have to go because she's not worth skipping class!
Lol, but it was probably true. Anyway, I only missed the first unimportant half.

So yeah. Drove her back to her house. On the way back, the conversation was getting much more interesting because we were talking about our sexual adventures.
She told me she slept with 3 virgin guys. I told her about how I had sex in my car, and she immediately looked behind on the seat.
Me : Hahaha, you're imagining how it's like to have sex in my car?
Her : Hahaha!

She told me how she had sex in the lake, I told her how I'd like to have sex in the forest. I told her about how I've never fallen in love in my life and how I feel like I won't for a while. As we were talking, she had more of a smile on her face. It was more playful and fun.

She gives me a hug before she leaves.
Me : Goodbye, we'll see each other again soon.
Her : That's for sure! Seeya!

She seemed quite nice. I messaged her a bit on facebook 2-3 days later, but she stopped responding after a while. I gotta message her again soon.

Tuesday and Wednesday
Lots of doing homeworks and not much social-wise. I was slacking off in the social circle building.
Though, invited Talya to come clubbing with me, HB BLondasian and Porno some day. She agreed, she'd be a cool friend to hangout with.

Thursday, October 31st
HALLOWEEN! Party + funny sh1t.

So at school, I was walking around in a funny carrot costume. Out of 10 people, only 1 would be dressed up in my school... so lame. My costume was very flashy so everyone noticed me.

HB Blondasian texted me at 10 at night the other day to ask me where I was at. The next day I ask her why she did that and she refused to answer LOL.
I'm still flirting with her and stuff. I'm playing with her body and sh1t, going into sex positions. caught her looking at my boner. I poked her boob. I looked down her cleavage on purpose. She pretty much knows what I'm doing LOL.

I think I should ask her to come hang out with me soon.

PARTY!
It was 35$ the ticket. Darnell arrived AN HOUR ****ing late. I was so pissed.
So we went inside. Most of my approaches led to unfinished business, because they just left or gave me a weird look when I approached them. I tried to kiss one, she looked at me weird and walked away hahaha.

Not much in terms of results. Could have approached much more to be honest. And as soon as Darnell wasn't with me anymore, I was freaking out because I didn't want to game by myself.

So yeah. Party ended up too early.
We struggled to find a cab, finally found one. Spent 25$ on my part, a total of 60$ for the whole night... damn.

Friday, November 1st
YEAH!!
Grinded countless amount of girls. Kissed one, made out with another. And one of them was literally asking me to... mhmhm...

I'm dressed as Santa Claus for the party. Not actually, I only have the hat but still lol.

So yeah,
Day at school starts off poor. I wake up super tired because of last night. I basically work on project during all break. Sex class is fun.

So when I get back home, I message buddies to know who's coming with me to the party. Adenis last minute cancelled because of homeworks, Darnell couldn't come, some other dude ditched too... I was desperately going through my contact list trying to get people to come with me. I got Mathew actually, last minute.

 

[Mindgamez]

THE PARTY!
We arrive earlier than before. At first I'm wearing bathrobe, my light up shirt and boxers underneath. I thought I looked stupid with nothing underneath, so I went back to car to go get pants lol.

At first, it's pretty dead and I'm deciding not to approach at all from fear. I know...

I dance in the middle to get the party started. People join in the dancing, we do a circle and dancers come in the middle to show their skills.

So yeah. As soon as it starts to get more crowded, I start talking to more and more people. I comment people on their costumes. Best situational openers ever, very easy to walk up to anybody and comment on their costume.

I start approaching a couple of girls. At the beginning of the night, I'm getting unfinished business problems and the girl walk away and sh1t lol.

From now on I'm calling it unfinished business. Hahaha!

People come to comment on my shirt. I thank them, give them love back.
At some point, I was wrapping my arms around random people. Random girls mostly. They were receptive for the vast majority of them, just danced along with me. It was all playful. When I came to them with the intention of having fun, they responded back playfully.

So there was this 7.5 or so I met on the upper level. She was kinda hot. I approached, grinded her. I put my bathrobe on top of us two to hide us from everyone else. We started grinding more closely. Almost kissed but not quite. She then went away to go see her friends.

Some hot asian chick, 8.5 or so. We grinded for a while. I led her in the middle of the dancefloor and we had some fun, until the boyfriend came to take her away from me. She was also taller than me! Hahaha. The boyfriend was much taller and bigger too.

At some point, Better Of Alone by Alice DJ was playing. I was so happy when that song started playing!

Some OTHER asian chick, lol. 8 or so. She was being all touchy around me (like a lot of girls actually. I was doing good that night). I tried to walk her away from her over-controlling friends, and I managed to isolate her on the dancefloor. We danced close proximity for a while, until some guy friend came to tell me not to mess with her. She was all into me, fckin **** blocks everywhere... How to deal with these?

Kept having fun, approaching some other girls. I'd go approach big groups doing ridiculous sh1t and they responded well when I was in the mood.

When I was approaching and it didn't hit, it's like it didn't even register in my brain. Failure couldn't work for me, it was all giving fun and I didn't care.

It's funny because my friend Mathew was acting all chody and everything, lots of negative energy. I basically had to rely on myself only, stay on my own and socialize solo. Everyone knew each other, because it was mainly people from that college we didn't go to. But it didn't make me feel like I didn't fit in!

So yeah. I approach some two zombie girls. They look the same, HB8s.
Me : Whoaa sh1et wait! You girls twins?
Blabalbla, we start talking. I ask them how many people they ate, they say a lot. I grab them by the hips, they wrap their arms around me. We start dancing. We do a chain grinding. One girl behind me, the other at the front. It's pretty hot.

I ask the two of them to kiss each other. GUESS WHAT? They made out in front of me! Insane turn on... I was thinking of going for the three-way make-out which would have been awesome and possibly worked, but I pussied out.

I take one of them, bring her closer. I go for the make-out. We kiss but she keeps her mouth closed the whole time... awww.

Some other HB9 I approached. She seemed into me. She told me she could see through my clothing with her special glasses. Blablabla, we chat for a while. I go for the make-out but she turns her face away. Then, she goes back to her friends. When I come back to her, her friends (whom I've never really talked to before) come to me and physically push me away like b1tches. I come back because it's funny and they push me away again. Then, some butthurt guy comes to tell me to go away. Hahahahaha

When I talked to girls, I'd go physical from the start. I'd rest my hand on her cheek, hands on hips, spin her around, etc.

Then, there was this girl.
I approach her, asking what's her white scarf about. Blabla, it's my whatever costume.
No words. Nothing asked. She wraps her arms around my neck and we start grinding from the front.
Slowly, but more and more intensely. I'm making sure we are grinding to the beat, that she can feel my raging boner against her thigh. I play around with my hands, sliding them back and forth the way I felt was the best.

It really wasn't like how I was grinding girls at All Ages parties back when I was 17. I felt like there was nothing else there, just me and her. The environment didn't exist. My head got closer to her neck. All I could see was her body pressed against mine, her hair in my face. She smelled so sexy, and all I was thinking of was the present moment. I wasn't rushing the make-out. It'll come when it'll come I thought. I was pressing my forehead against hers, brushing my nose against hers. No words were said.

So I took her by the neck and went in for the kiss. She was very good at making-out. We stopped dancing, and then her tongue was hornily exploring my mouth. She was sliding her hands everywhere, pulling on my hair and sh1t. She loved it. We went back to grinding for a bit, this time from behind.

I slid my hands down, to her crotch. I massaged her pvssy a bit. No words were said. She brought my hands under her skirt, then started playing with her panties straps. Then, she started pulling them down. Then, she moved a bit away from me to take her both hands and really try to pull them down more. In the middle of the dance floor. I tried to help her, but her stockings were stopping me from doing so. All I was thinking of was sex in public at that point. Holy sh1t.

So then we went back to grinding because pulling her panties down was too much pain in the ass. 2 minutes later, she just walks away from me real fast. No words were said...

WHY DIDN'T I RUN BACK TO HER DAMNIT!
20 minutes later, she was grinding some other dude. I walked up to her, put my hand on her cheek to tell her to come back to me, but then she started making out with him. 30 seconds later, she ran away from the dude LOL.

Never saw her again. Lost her in the huge crowd.

Kept approaching more girls. I was so in the mood at that point. I grinded some other chicks, had fun until the very end of the night. Also, some girls were approaching me and asking me where I got my awesome light up shirt. I approached some guys, got some guys' facebooks (why not girls you ask? Because I was a b1tch XD).

So yeah,
Event ended. It was quite an amazing night.
I was independent the whole time, not depending on Mathew to get in state. Actually, it made me realize how having a wingman doesn't mean sh1t. I was alone 95% of the time.

I saw the first zombie girl I kissed earlier. We chatted for a while, hugged, danced some funny sh1t. Fun vibe between us. I tell her that we should go eat some sushi next week and she tells me that she's totally down. We hugged for a whole 2 minutes scratching each other's backs.

So near the middle I start getting nervous to ask for her number. Her friends are all around, his guy friend being a total douche to me. He tells me she's not DTF and I quickly, very quickly lose state. It surprised me how such a little remark could do me that.

It felt like outside the club, I was a totally different person... without as much physical game, I wasn't as good I thought. That's bullsh1t.

So at the end I do get her number in front of all of her friends. No other choice. She punches it in, seems totally uninterested for some reason. I thought it'd go nowhere...

So I exchange some awkward hug with her, her being the awkward one.

I text her later the next day.

Me : It's Mindgamez. It was fun dancing the dance. You seemed awkward at the end though...
Her : Hello !! Yeaa, it was really funny !! I was rlly awkward don't worry ;p
Me : Scratching our backs haha
Her : Oh no it was just funny
Me : Pleasant I would have kissed you if your friends weren't there...
Her : We kiss while dancing !?
Me : Let's do thiiis

And she didn't answer at that point. What should I say? Any ideas? Answer ASAP.

CONCLUSION
- ASSUME THE BEST. Come in to give fun, and you shall receive fun back. If you honestly and genuinely come with the only intention of giving value, you will very rarely get rejected... this is what I experienced and it quite blew me away. The positive feedback you get from just wanting to give fun to people is crazy. But if you're on a negative vibe, you start scaring girls away. It happened to me in the middle of the night because I was out of it. But yeah, get in state as quickly as possible. Keep approaching non stop.
- DON'T RELY ON YOUR WINGS. Honestly, gaming by yourself is the best feeling ever, because you feel like everything is coming from you and you don't need moral support form anyone else.
- When you talk or go physical with a girl, immerse yourself completely. Forget about the environment. I was getting so horny with that girl that she instinctively thought of bringing my hand under her skirt. How sexy is that? Being horny is the sexiest thing ever.
- She's walking away from you after an amazing make-out session? What the fck bro, RUN BACK TO HER. I made a mistake.
- Feel entitled to the best. Everyone's equal, guys and girls, hots and fatties. I came from that frame of mind and was able to approach anyone.
- It's not about sex. It's not about making-out or pulling some panties down. It's about everything that led to that point that's exciting and fun all the fun and game behind it. All that immersion in the present moment.

 

[RiceandChicken]

Never fail to gain my interest Mindgamez. Hell of a report man. Should have ran back to her. And as to the text...it's a tricky situation. Don't wanna scare her off of anything. Maybe schedule a hang out, and continues y'all's freaky thoughts in person.

Man I gotta start partying and getting out there, in just a couple of moths!!!! It's coming I know it. Keep it up man, you're a real inspiration to me.

 

[Mindgamez]

Cool shiet.
Yep yep.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nP7QyfLPtLE

Good video from Tyler.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qFTP7OHE0iE

The week
In general was ordinary. I chilled with Stephen and his friends for a bit, met some new cool people.

I met some new girls too. Not particularly hot, but cool. Some kind of cute.

Friday, November 8th
I went to the breakdance club after school that day.

It was nice. Haven't been there in so long. People over there are nice. I don't know why I was shy to talk to the new people that day. Anyway, I knew the right thing to do was to socialize.

The night.
I headed to the bar for my friend Youness' birthday. I couldn't muster up the courage to go up to girls and talk to them. I was in my head the whole time...

Until he decided to go and walk up to that group of 3 girls. I joined in, we chatted for a while. Then, every other guy friend came lol. We kept chatting. My friends are good wings. We ended up chilling together until 4AM, basically the whole night we spent with them. They were 7.5s or so, but still.

How did this work out?
While I was throwing some high risk things and acting a bit over the top, my friends were playing it safe while being friendly. Turned out that it helped to build a lot of comfort.
That's what I've been lacking lately. I feel like I can spark attraction very quickly in some cases, but I'm not able to make her feel as comfortable.
So we ended up having that very playful vibe together. At some point, we were near the bar and we did a funny moshpit all together. We were hugging each other, wrapping our arms around. There was that girl with the glasses who seemed quite interested in me. I wasn't so much into her, but she was being very touchy and everything. Holding my hand, etc.

She was funny, but she wasn't so much a turn on for some reason. She had that fake b1tchy attitude the whole time. She was kind of cute anyway.

Her other little friend, she was quite cute. She looked like a little squirrel, she was so tiny. I grinded her a bit on the dancefloor.

Honestly, I'm more down for making friends with them than having sex with them. Anyway, good stuff. Hopefully they'll do our wing girls next time

It's funny because at 4AM, as we were walking out, my friends didn't make the move to ask for their numbers. Were they willing to just let them walk away? I made the move and took their numbers. They wanted us to add them on facebook too.

Saturday, November 9th
I wake up at 1PM at Youness' house. I'm feeling all tired and sh1t, but I knew I had to go to the University' open house.

So I went there. The film production program sounds amazing. The fact that only 60 out of 500 people are selected makes it exciting. I like the challenge. I'll need that extra boost in motivation to get into that film school.

On my way out, I see some girl from my college. I talked to her only once or twice. She's pretty cute. I'd give her a 7.5. We chat for a while. I'm feeling relaxed and entitled. Degree of entitlement has improved and I could feel it.

Turns into an insta-date
As we walk towards the nearest metro (which ended up being much further than expected), we chatted and I teased her a lot. It was fun and games. She laughed a lot, she enjoyed my company. So as we get closer to the metro, I tell her that I'd love to get a bubble tea but that I'm not sure because I'm low on cash.

She tells me that we should go to the food court to check it out.
Her : I'd be less expensive at chinatown though...
Me : Yeah. Hey, what about we go there? I'm done with the open house and have not much to do.
Her : Oh ya, let's go!

So we went there. Turns out that she's pretty cool, seems like the high energy crazy type. She likes japanese rock too. Nice.

We get to chinatown. We go into some shops trying to find a wooden sword she's looking for for a school project. We chill for 1h30 or so.

We head back in the metro. Keep chatting. I was feeling comfortable and entitled. I knew I deserved the best and assumed the best. Though, I always chode myself out when comes the time to CLOSE. Didn't get her number. Told her I'll message her on facebook or something.

But closing isn't mandatory. I'm using her as a gateway to hotter girls.
I don't want to get a 7.5. Even though she's really nice and fun to hangout with.

CONCLUSION
- Your cold approaching skills will diminish if you don't work on them. But don't worry. It's not ALL about cold approaching. It's about cultivating that healthy social lifestyle, having TOTAL SOCIAL MASTERY in EVERY aspect. That's what I aim for. I wasn't good at making friends with girls before.
- Be comfortable. Over the top and flirty isn't always the way to go. Friendly and nice breaks the b1tch barrier. Sometimes the girls would come up to us and tell us about those creepy guys approaching them and how they didn't like it. They had a greater level of comfort around us.
- As soon as you allow yourself to be free, you are entitled to the best. People WANT you to be free. People WANT you to express yourself and your ideas fully. The world wants your opinion on things, the world wants you to be YOU.
- Girls are gateways to other girls. Befriend them. Don't be afraid to friendzone them.

 

[Mindgamez]

Tuesday, November 12th
Holy sh1t.
Like wow.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=535IwwUv-IQ

I was trying Emmet Fox's Mental Diet challenge, suggests by Anthony Robbins in his book.
It just made me realize how much negative thinking I was going through on a daily basis.
Actually, almost every 2 minutes I had something negative going through my head. The challenge was to NOT allow it to be for more than a minute. As soon as a negative thought arises, I have to cut it out immediately.

I had to do a kiosk for the Sexual Health Fair Week at my school in the agora. People came, and I was presenting my subject of Polyamory. Interesting topic.

I was weirdly nervous, I felt back like in elementary school. I was shy.

And for some reason, I had those sh1tty thoughts of "I am not enough" type of thing. I was talking to people and I was expecting them to leave me. I was expecting the worst, like I don't know why. It's like I felt I wasn't worthy of having any friends...

Why? I don't know! Maybe that mental diet thing was driving me crazy.
But I also was feeling quite sick. I've been sick for more than a week actually, with the same exact same cold all the time.

And I was...
Beating myself up, with no pity. It was very scary.

And just realizing the stupidity of the situation made me realize that I have to STEP MY GAME UP.

I also haven't been seriously daygame cold approaching in WEEKS. Maybe actually months?

I also have to get my HABITS IN PLACE. Gotta get exercise going + regular sleep patterns + healthy lifestyle. This will lead to better mental healthy, better well-being. I'm not even doing this for girls anymore. I'm doing this for myself.

On a good note,
One of the girls I met at the bar at Youness' birthday party at the bar contacted me today. She asked me if I was down to go out Friday. I said yes, told her to bring her friends too.
They are 7.5s are so. Cute, could potentially be good wing girls. Finally going out with female friends

CONCLUSION
- Downs happens for no reason sometimes. It's just in your mind.
- It doesn't define you. Stop looking references that you're inadequate. Don't beat yourself up over some negative thoughts.
- Be friend girls. They're cool.

 

[Mindgamez]

Friday, November 15th
Cool night.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dz3E_JNW4oU

I went to Pioneer that night, bar the college kids from my school like to go to.
Wow, I wouldn't expect it to be so packed. But it really was. 99% of people there were people from my college. I met some cool people there, felt like I've expanded my social circle a bit. I have to meet more girls.

The social scene of college happens around that bar. For sure I'll come back to that bar.

A great time to meet new people. I wasn't aiming to pick up girls that night. It was about enjoying myself. Still did meet some hot chicks. I'm getting better at remembering people's names and they notice it.

Saturday, November 16th
Clubbing with Dumi and Porno.

We went in Tokyo club right away. There were like at least 15 hot approachable chicks in the club as soon as we entered, no guys. No guys.

I recognized some girls from abbott, and I hesitated to approach and screw up.

Porno was the first one to approach a group of ranodm chicks. A 6 came up to him and they started grinding. Fun times for him. I join in the group and chat with the chicks a bit.

I approach a set of two girls. My opener is great, they laugh and we start chatting a bit. Porno and Dumi came afterwards, Porno talked to the other hottie and Dumi stayed mostly silent at first. I felt like I was talking the most.

Talking too much actually. I wasn't getting to the point.

Later on, the two girls came back to Dumi and Porno. They started grinding, and making out after 40 seconds or so.

As soon as this happened, I felt my heart sink. I was the one who approached and tried more, but at the end they were the ones having the more fun. I felt jealous, mad. I wasn't mad at them or at the girls. I was mad at life and mad at myself for not being on top of my game.

So I turned away, trying to forget about them. I ordered a glass of water. Looked back and they were making out even more intensely. I just felt like punching myself at this point.

So I tried approaching more girls to get into the momentum. At that point of the night, guys started gathering much more. It was harder to do my stuff. So ended up *****ing out so much more.

And then, I saw Dumi and her girl going near the bathrooms. He pressed her against the wall, made out with her. Right after, I look at them and they're not here anymore. Where? : in the bathroom.

Apparently she grabbed his **** right away, but nothing happened from there because security was watching.

While Porno and Dumi were amazed at what happened and were all high and sh1t, I was feeling worse and worse.

One deadly thing I did : was comparing myself to others. I was asking myself why I couldn't succeed that night. Why even though I've been going out more than them, why I was feeling so sh1tty. It was scary to see and feel myself going downhill.

I remember holding a few girls hands and dancing a bit. I remember kissing some HB9 on the cheek. Though, she was with some other big dude at the end of the night. I pussied out from reapproaching.

And then at the end of the night, we were waiting in line for the coat check. I wasn't just feeling sh1tty. I was sad. And it's been so long since the last time I literally felt sadness. I had no troubles being overwhelmed by fear and anxiety at times, stressed or feeling bored, but feeling sad was weird to me.

I just want love. I want to give love too. I wish girls would be nicer to me. I wish it would be easier, that I would've been raised without fearing the unknown and having to deal with shyness.
Or am I just being a b1tch about it? Or am I just too dependant on whether I get something or not? Or am I just too focused on short-term? Or am I just complaining too much about the past which does not exist?
I was telling Porno and Dumi how down I felt, like I was expecting me to cheer me up. And when I realized how childish that was, I stopped doing it. I don't need people to cheer me up. I just need myself. I'm strong enough to deal with my sh1t myself.

So then when we exited the club and I saw a set of 3 girls across the street, I directly ran to them without asking any questions. I promised myself I never EVER wanted to feel this way ever again in my lifetime. Feeling helpless, lonely, afraid. It was out of question.

So the next day,
I made the full commitment that I'll go on the mental diet. A negative thought should NEVER cross my mind for more than a minute.
I know, my game was pretty off that other night, but I know that everything happens for a reason. And I'm learning.

CONCLUSION
- EVERYTHING happens for a reason. Your learning curve will go up and down. Sometimes much lower than you expect. Don't fear it, because it's trying to tell you something. Perhaps, you haven't achieved a full level of entitlement and confidence. Not a full level of freedom and self-love and self-acceptance.
- Everyone comes from a different background. Everyone has a different learning curve than others. And I must have 100% faith in it, in the process and simply enjoy. I know things will get good.
- So problem was that I was dwelling on the problems and the symptoms too much instead of taking an objective point of view and seeing the cause of all. The problem was that I wasn't being myself enough, did too much unnecessary banter and WASN'T DIRECT TO THE POINT. When I used to be very direct and physical, it used to work wonders. Now I know what to do next time. I have to disassociate from my negative emotions to being able to take action in the right way.

 

[Mindgamez]

Friday, November 22nd
Great night.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzHYF20XVtw

Had 3.5 hours of sleep the night before, but it was no excuse.

Earlier, girl I met at Youness' bday party at bar texted me to join them, telling us they were 3 how chicks wanting to chill with us guys. I denied the offer saying I was going somewhere else. They are average I'd say.

I arrive with Dumi and porno at the first event party at 11pm. It's DEAD. The concept was very cool : You get assigned two pictures of animals as soon as you get in. If you match it with some other girl with the same picture and kiss her in front of the bartender, you get a free drink. Also, the party was sponsored by Trojan condoms.

Well guess what? The place was CROWDED WITH GUYS. Ratio? At least 8 guys for 1 girl.
I'm not even kidding.
They should have made it ladies night open bar or something.

So we bounced out of the club after 40 minutes or so. It was really dead. Lame.

We went in line to wait to get in some club. After 1h20 of waiting in the cold, bouncer tells everyone in line that the club has to close. Overload of people inside.

So feeling pretty sh1tty, I cheer myself up and I tell Porno that the night is far from being over. Even though it was already 1:45 am and we wasted the first 2-3 hours, we had another hour to own the sh1t.

So we went into Tokyo club. I start approaching, it's fun an games. I dance and grind some random 6.5-7. I try to bring her near the bar, she doesn't want to. Meh.

I approach some more. There was this group of two girls, seemed a bit older than me. Porno got rejected by the both of them earlier. I go in with a funny dance. Both loved it lol. I talk to the asian girl, had a great ass. Friend walks away and tells us to have fun hahaha.

We started dancing. Grinding. I go in for the kiss after 5-10 minutes or so and she pulls back with a smile. I tell her I'm kidding, go back to grinding. I was telling her how it was like we were dancing in the Titanic. The dancefloor was quite empty, it was near the end of the night. We both enjoyed. She slid her hands on me.

When its time to go for her, I give her a goodbye make-out. Maybe not make-uout because even though she opened her mouth, there was no tongue... Eww lol. Got her number (which flaked but wtver).

What did I learn from this? When girls are in groups, win the friends over and they'll understand that you're a cool guy and they'll like you. They'll be chill with you, even encourage you.

So at the very end, I see that HB9 dancing with a group of friends. We were heading outside, but before I left I decided I'd give it some more just for fun. I came in the circle and danced. The HB9 grabbed my hand. We started the salsa dancing, then spun her and put her hand on my neck. We started grinding close proximity, my lips brushing on her cheeks. The friends are around cheering us. She crouches down to give me a perfect view of her humongous cleavage and rubs her tits against my crotch. I'm so fcking turned on at this point.

Then, she walks back to her male friend.
Me : Oh yo, are you the boyfriend?
Him : Yeah! Hahaha!
Me : Ohh sh1t I'm sorry bro hahaha!
Boyfriend actually gives me props! Fcking cool guy is cool.
He started grinding her from the back, I did from the front. Double grind lol.

Me : So how come all of this of you have a boyfriend?
Her : It's because I love having an extra man in my bed... *wink*
I had a huge boner at that point. I don't know why I didn't know what to do at that point. Couldn't tell whether she was being serious or not.

Or was I just being a lil' b1tch? Is it because the boyfriend's a big black guy that I don't deserve her? WTF lol, of course not. I could've made friends with them and make sh1t happen.

So Porno and Dumi were talking to the other girl friend. Apparently they were doing a contest of who can get the most guys' phone numbers without directly asking for it. A contest? Whatever, if she rubbed her fricken tits against my crotch and we almost kissed, it means she was down for the D lol.

So damn,
While I was sad and super down last night while Porno and Dumi were owning it, that night I got a kiss and some hottie rub her cleavage against my crotch while Porno and Dumi were doing not much.

BTW
Texted the girl I number closed at halloween party telling her I had herpes and that she should get checked. She got real mad LOL HAHAHA. Of course I don't have herpes and it was a joke, she didn't like it though.

Had another 3.5 hours of sleep or so that night. It was no excuse, I still went out the next day. Saturday not much happened as I went to the restaurant with Youness and a couple other guys for my neighbour's bday party, still did one funny approach which lead to nowhere.

CONCLUSION
- Win the friends over, and they'll be on your side and they'll encourage you to go further. That's how you approach groups.
- Boyfriend is here? Who cares! If she's the one to take your hand and she complies to dance with you, well it's all good. If you don't come off as a threat and you just come with the intention of having fun, it's all good baby.
- Be careful when you go to event that have some special kissing games or handout free condoms. They are HUGE ****fests.
- Don't feel so down one night because everything seemed to fail. Because the next day will be all better.
- Even though you might reach a down one point, because you've had the reference experience of feeling ON FCKIN TOP OF THE WORLD, it's easier to get back to that point once the opportunity presents itself. Have faith that it will come, be patient and don't beat yourself up. When you're feeling sh1tty, remember those days of OWNING it.
- Being tired is just a state of mind. It's mental. If you're mentally awake, the body will believe it. That's how I see it.

 

[Mindgamez]

Last week
It was a busy week. Working on projects for school a lot.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jtrFLzYIteY

That girl Alexa (let's call her Nugget girl) seems kind of into me. She asks me if she looks pretty and stuff, and she quite enjoys being around me. She wants me to chill with her during the winter break, and I agreed on that. I don't know if I'm friendzoned or not. But anyway, she ain't the sex goddess. She has a nice ass but that's pretty much it lol. She's cool too. I don't know what I should do. Her friends are real hot though.

HB Blondasian is still flirty around me. She told me she was seeing that guy, but I think she's single now. I should ask her out on a date during the winter break.

Then, I started reading some stuff on SucceedSocially.com I find most of their content very interesting. It went in depth on making plans with people and enlarging your social circle, being mroe social overall.

And that's what I realized. I want to better my overall social skills. Reach social mastery, not just pick up mastery.

And picking up girls is just one aspect.

Read Anthony Robbins,
And realized my core values. Number one value being courage. Then comes passion, love, freedom. And I figured that as long as I lived according to my life values, no matter what happened in the outside world, I'd be happy no matter what. Such a realization made me feel enlightened.

Thursday,
Went DAYGAME with Porno. It's been at least a month since my last legit daygame, if I'm not wrong.
We met some group of girls. We approached like it was a club. We started dancing in the middle of the mall and I even went to go grind LOL. She said let's grind or something, thinking I wouldn't do it but I did. She got mad after LOL. Anyway, high school girls...

Saturday evening, I was filming for my short film with Dumi and the other actress. We just kept flirting with her and she was blushing hahaha. Too bad she has a boyfriend + has a baby (no jokes). It was all fun and games.
I cancelled my plans to go clubbing that night.

Also came across that interesting video. Check it out. The eyes make all the difference!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ff7nltdBCHs

CONCLUSION
- Get to know your core values. What do you live by? Live by those values and put your priorities straight.
- Make your eyes look sexy baby Oh yeah baby...
- Get your habits handled too. It gives you more momentum for everything in life. I've been slacking off lately... damn.

 

[Mindgamez]

Just finished my dancing session and abs workout. It feels amazing, I should do that more often.
By the way, my journal is NOT entirely pickup related. It's about overall social mastery, lifestyle improvement and achieving my goals. Pickup overwhelms me a bit at times, and it's cool to take a break.

I realized that when I'm alone, that's when I make my most important life decisions. That is when I am the most introspective and the most focused. When I'm by myself, I feel a feeling of independence and I feel empowered. I feel peaceful.

The week
Again, not much. I'm starting to realize something.

If I've had a week where there's not really at least one key important thing I can remember from it, it's because I haven't really been living to the fullest I could.

Many hours spent at the film lab editing my film, studying a lot.

Thursday, Alexxx texts me saying that she wants to stop seeing me. I text her back : It was cool peace, good life.
And it ended here. No asking for justification. No asking for anything. Simply ended, like the way a human is born to die as he becomes older.

Also bought my new airsoft sniper rifle that day. It's amazing. Definitely an activity that's going to put me into flow state more often. Sniping requires mental focus. On every shot, I felt like I was meditating. I felt like Eckhart Tolle, and I knew that the slightest distraction would make me miss my shot. I have to adopt that mental focus in every aspect of my life.

Friday I was about to b1tch out from going to the breakdance club out of lack of sleep and laziness, but I still did go. Last time I went and I felt like I didn't fit in with the new people there, I don't know why. But I have to stop being so self-conscious and just dance, and have fun, and share the cool vibe. And that's what I did Friday and it was cool.

My excuse to not go out this weekend was that my friends wouldn't go because they all had to study for finals, which is quite true considering that next week is the last final week + upcoming finals. I could've still went out by myself, but I decided to read a new book about health instead and get my habits in place.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnHGbbg7mEI
Those songs are for ending 2013, and particularly 2014.

I love writing in my journal. I should do it more often. It's introspective, it helps me keep track of where I'm heading. It's expressive too.

I remember those days of sitting at my computer and listing the things I would achieve in my life. I remember those countless minutes spent walking in the beautiful movie-like field filled with cows at the camp. I remember those times of sitting on the grass in front of my house simply to contemplate the sky at night.

And I realize that it's when I'm alone that I am the most intelligent. It is when I'm by myself that I'm more focused on my goals and more productive. I have to stop fearing being alone.

And, I also realized something.
2013 is reaching an end. It went by so damn fast.
I was reading back my posts from 2012, page 13. The motivation I had at that particular point was outstanding. It amazes me how a human being can be so thrilled by wanting to achieve so much out of life and wanting to succeed. It amazes me this abundance of positivity and hope.

And this human being is me. And I amaze myself at what I can do. I have to come back to this state of mind. I kept reading and I saw this which I wrote:

The game is about discovering that there is absolutely nothing to learn about it. You know it all. There is no reason why you are not enough.

I was amazed at how joyful and happy I was about approaching by myself at the mall, how I was so committed to ending 2012 right. Even if it was the last 2 or 3 days of 2012, I was still fully committed to achieve my resolutions. I have amazing willpower and courage. Not a lot of people have that.

Looking back at my 2013 resolutions, I have to congratulate myself. I achieved some of them right, but many I left out because of laziness. But for 2014 I'm coming back with FULL FORCE. I'm much more mature now. I know how life works, and I know exactly what has to be done. You also do too. Stop lying to yourself, you know exactly what has to be done, but you aren't doing it fully.

So even though I tried, I haven't been exercising every day. I haven't been practising piano every day. I haven't been doing meditation every day. I was very well motivated during 2013, but I often had my moments of losing motivation.

But I promise I will do everything in my power to make sure I keep my willpower up.

Though I did self-development videos on youtube. I did get multiple dates and multiple make outs. I even got laid with two girls and had a ******* from one and a handjob from another. I did give up video games for 99% of the time, legit. Except when I was injured and couldn't do anything really, or was with some old friends, but that's fine. I did take risks and socialized a lot lot. Definitely, even though I could have done much more.

But I realize that I have to stop worrying about what I should have done, but instead focus on what I will do right now to change for the better. I'm changing every second of my life.

I have to focus the way I focus on every shot when I snipe my target.
And I do this to die, because I know that life ends one second at a time. And I want to experience the whole journey while it still lasts.

I PROMISE MYSELF TO FULLY COMMIT TO 2013 AND FINISH IT WITH FULL POWER.

CONCLUSION
- I am patient. I know pickup is not a skill I'll lose anytime soon. It'll come back anytime I want it to come back. I am patient, as I know I have to put my priorities in life first.
- I am most powerful and productive when I'm by myself. I don't need people to handle my life, because I do it myself. Of course people add a lot of fun to my life, but it's me first. I come first.
- Every year is different. See what wonderful things you have achieved along the way. Be amazed by what you have achieved. It's amazing what human beings can achieve, how much willpower they have and how much hardships they go through.
- Fully commit to becoming a BOSS.

 

[Mindgamez]

Thursday, December 12th
Went to Annies bar near my school with Porno. It's a bar a lot of students from my college like to go to.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v0K0iid8Iws&feature=c4-overview&list=UUnUNsXO_0eFL0PLyJ50sdZQ

We went there, and we felt totally out of the social scene haha.
Every hot girl was with every cool good looking guy at the place. We knew nearly no one.

After an hour or so of absolutely nothing, we left home after we greeted those two girls we knew a bit. Lol.

That day, I made a promise with Porno that :
We shall NEVER leave a bar/club/venue at the end of the night without approaching. No matter the venue.

And suddenly, every bit of guilt flew away. And I felt like a boss again.

Friday, December 13th
Went to Pioneer with Porno. The college bar.

We went in. Again, not many people I knew. But still a few I chilled with a bit. There's this asian dude named Nolan, cool guy who likes to dance and sh1t.

At some point, Porno wanted to leave. He was pissing me off. He said something along those lines.
Porno : Dude, I want to leave man. I want to sleep man!
Me : We haven't done anything man...
Porno : Dude! Stop looking so depressed sad and sh1t. It was a great night, okay? Alright, I don't know if you're staying, but I'm leaving.
And I just stood there and watched him leave. I was very disappointed. I knew we had to do something.

So I walked outside the bar and went up to Porno. I reminded him of our promise, and then he jumped back in the bar with me.

Good sh1t.

And guess what? We did our approach. Nothing special, nothing happened. I pussied out. Anyway. We kept our promise and this is what mattered the most.

Lying to someone is bad, but lying to yourself is the ultimate curse. The worst thing you could ever do to yourself.

Saturday, December 14th
Filming for Dumi's trailer. I didn't want to work on that video project, but I promised him I'd help.

Met that chubby girl named Alicia. Chubby, but huge tits nonetheless. I don't know why I found her hot, because she's a bit fat. She was quite nice though, and fun. She brushed past my crotch by accident and she gave me a naughty smile.

Sexual talk on the way back home. I had to give her a ride back. I asked her what types of sexual things she's into. She told me she likes kinky stuff, had sex in the car last week, etc. I joked that I wanted to work in the porn industry and she told me that her too. Lol. I like flirting, even though the girl's not the hottest.

She told me she'll be going at Annies next thursday. Cool, I'll see her there.

Sunday, December 15th
Daygame with Jad. It's been so long since last daygame with him!

So I did a couple approaches. Not very good honestly. Nothing went down, but I still approached and that's what counts. There were not that many hot chicks that day. We arrived quite late too and stores were closing. Still.

The night, I went clubbing with Ani and Porno.
Ani's the girl I've been chatting on facebook quite a lot before. At the club, she obviously seemed into me. She was being touchy with me the whole time. At the jokes I made, she made that Wow face with the anime eyes and sh1t. When I'd walk around the club looking around for other girls, she came back next to me to ask me "Ohhh did you find a chick to pick up yet? ;D How's the pick up going?"

Because I told her that me and Porno were into pick up a lot. She encouraged me a lot too, so did I. She's really cool. We danced a bit together, she was shy though.

But then I realized something. How come was I able to attract her while I wasn't trying to run my game on her and sh1t? While I didn't care about "handling sh1t tests" and stuff like that? While I wasn't doing anything really? And then I realized the essence of game. It's about letting attraction happen by itself and not trying to control the autopilot.

The way I was talking to her wasn't really like any other girl I was trying to attract during daygame or nightgame. It was just chill, enjoying the moment, laughing and smiling about any little meaningless thing, just enjoying each other's company without needing for anything to be perfect. I was laughing nervously when I felt that way, and I acted as silly as I would with any other friend, and she loved it.

With other cold approaches, I would act silly in order to unstifle me or just force myself to express. But no, the way I was acting was just because of pure joy. And I wish I could feel like that more often.

She would have been down for sex if I escalated more. I wasn't sure if I was down for her. She's cool, but not the hottest chick out there.

And I realized that it's comfort that allows a girl to feel relaxed and attracted to you. It's time spent together. That's why no one meets girls outside their social circle and only "PUAs" do so through cold approach. While it is absolutely not necessary.

Learning to cold approach doesn't mean sh1t. You can be pro at approaching while being a social robot that can't connect with someone on a deeper level.

Too bad that she ain't that particularly hot. I thought she looked hot in the club with the lights dim. But as soon as we stepped outside, she just looked ordinary. I don't know why it's always like that. Chicks look hotter in the dark... We were back to the usual friendly vibe. And I wanted nothing more. I couldn't care less about whether I'd get laid with her or not. I knew sex just for the sake of sex wasn't enough for me. I realized that I liked the process better than the ending. I love to flirt. I love to "game", more than I love to sex.

I don't want to have sex with her or date her, really. I want her as my friend. I want to connect as human beings.

That night,
I had the sweetest dream ever. I was with McNugget girl. She was prettier in that dream. We were sharing each other's company with pure joy. It wasn't a horny sex dream or anything like that. It was just very pleasant. Just me and her chilling, hugging, and kissing. No making out, it wasn't necessary.

And as soon as I woke up from that dream, I realized that maybe it wasn't massive sex I wanted.
And I couldn't care less about the number of girls I'll sleep with. Maybe I just want to share human connections? Maybe I just want nice company? Maybe I just want love?

And isn't that the beauty of pick up? The realizations you make along the way?

CONCLUSION
- I have to get my daygame skills back to normal.
- Keep your promises, always. The moment you break your promises, you'll train yourself to do so more often in the future. That'd be horrible.
- Realize that comfort allows the girl to feel at ease with you. The more at ease she is with you, the more she'll open up and the more she'll enjoy your company. The more she'll be attracted. Allow some time.
- Cold approaching is nothing. It won't give you more happiness. I will not make you feel more loved or anything like that. Of course it is a wonderful thing in terms of overcoming your fears and insecurities, but a human connection is much deeper than just mass approaching one day at the club.

 

[Mindgamez]

http://youtu.be/yNBXk6sUYeQ?t=11m29s

This video from 11:30 is very insightful. The whole video's great.

Wednesday, December 18th
Daygame with Jad and friend Jacob.

We did like a couple approaches each. I should count 2 or 3 real ones, and a bunch of random crap hahahaha... Basically pretty lame.

But I'm motivated to go out 30 minutes a day from now. 30 mins daygame a day.

 

[Mindgamez]

Thursday, December 19th
Went out with Porno, HB Blondasian Talya and her twin Emily and Darnell. Cool people. We went to Annies bar, where 95% of people over there are from my college.
Going out with female friends is fun. Female energy is very funny.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PkX1BMCT9yE

So we arrive at destination. We meet a few new girls, do a couple approaches. Nothing much really. It was still a lot of fun.

Friday, December 20th
Went out to "Masquerade" party. It wasn't really a masquerade because no one were wearing masks except for me and Porno! Lol... We were with Luca, Porno, Darnell, and the girls friend Thrusday.
Epic. Epic night. Just the way I was feeling.

I grinded around 5 chicks, didn't keep count.
Could've made out with one or two of them, I was quite sure about it, but thing is that I wasn't interested in them. One hot chick I talked to actually STANK LOL.

So girls were coming to me tonight. It was a lot of fun.
I was in a state of not caring at all. It was something I haven't experienced in a long time. Because I realized that I used to care too much.
Not only did I not care, but I also didn't care about getting any results at all. I didn't care about making out with the asian 7, because I was tired of 7s already. I wanted more. She was asking me several questions, my name, etc, but I wasn't so interested. I didn't care.

The very hot girls I approached, I got blown out by them though. But I never took it personally.

Took some asian girl's number at the very end. I plan on going clubbing with her but just as friends. Hopefully she'll bring some hot friends.

Last approach of the day, I run in front of some girls in front of me, stop them. One of them tells me I'm ****in ugly and it kinds of throws me off balance. Quite harsh, but if looks doesn't matter, who cares. And I'm good looking, so she was just sh1tting sh1t out her mouth.

Saturday, December 21st
Epic night, once again. With Stephen and Porno

I see a set of two girls walking on the street. I open my arms wide and go : Yiaaahh!
They just ignore me and walk away LOL.

Arrived to club quite out of state at first to be honest. I wasn't approaching at all until like 20-30 minutes in I started getting the ball rolling. I approach and approach. Then, I see the two girls I approached earlier outside, walk up to them and talk to them. They seem shy at first, no eye contact from them really much. We just dance side by side. I walk away and go talk to some more girls.

I go back to the two again. One of them was REALLY hot, like 8.5 (to me at least. She was totally my type).
We see them standing on the side of the dance floor. I go up and talk to them again. They go dance. We see them later. I try to grind her but we end up doing the salsa type of dancing, holding both hands. We get a bit closer. She's obviously shy. It surprised me that NO other guy tried approaching her. She was fckn hot.

Porno goes to the bar. So I tell her that we should go to the bar. I put my hand and she takes it. We walk next to the bar and then she tells me she wants to go back dancing or something. Her friend is being the ****block and following her around... So yeah, I tell them to go back to dancing and that I'll see them later during the night.

So yeah, after a while I go back on the dance floor, but instead of directly reapproaching the hottie 8.5, I go talk to some other girls. Next thing I know, the 8.5 completely disappeared from the club and I never saw her again. Oh well.. sh1t.

I start shuffling like crazy back and forth on 5 meters or so. After that, some two girls I approached earlier tap my shoulder and start dancing next to me. I wrap my arms around them, blablabla, keep dancing. It's all fun and games. They were OK. They were shy too.

I start grinding with some 7 or so while Porno is taking care of the fatty (Thanks so much man LOL).
She tells me midway through grinding that she has a boyfriend. I tell her I have a girlfriend but am in an open relationship (lie! XD) and she high fives me.

We grind both sides, we dance for a while. We kind of make out, but without tongue, so it was kind of stupid from her... lol.

Near the end of the night I started getting physically pushed by some girls. That meant they were rejecting me. For some reason, I wasn't so affected by it. Some girls really want some trouble. It happened to me twice. Some girls I just said hello to, totally innocently, and then they push me haard. Like wtf.

So after that, I try to escape the 7 I "made out" with, because she wasn't that hot. No tits really, though nice pretty face. At some point, the fatty friend and some other friend of hers. I approached them with an open hug. Both girls reject me and the fatty goes : Get away, @sshole!

Wow really? What did I do? Hit on other girls in front of them? Lol.

Apparently there was a fight at the club. And at the very end, I saw some super annoying ***** starting to punch some guy. Two other girls were joining in, trying to kick him and stuff. It was awful. And then I understood that it wasn't me they rejected. It was THEIR "image" of me they rejected, the "image" they saw through their own eyes. Their "idea" of who I was, through that little 30 second time frame they had to judge me. Because they were very fcked up chicks. Those chicks were totally out of their mind. When I saw those girls fighting that guy, I got totally totally turned off.

Near the coat check, the girls are in the way. They passed in front of everyone else to go get their coats. Damn stupid b1tches think because they're hot they can have anything they want and punch guys, and since they're hot no one will do anything about it.
Me : Girls, you're in the way! Get out, I need my coat.
Her : No I don't want to know what your name is!
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL WTF? I WASN'T HITTING ON YOU LOLOOL. Damn some girls can get really annoyed by some guys approaching them LOL.

So you remember the fatty who told me to fck off? Well I walked back to her friend, telling her to have a nice evening. She was surprised, gave me a bright smile and thanked.
The fatty? I asked her how her night went. She was all nice all of the sudden.

How weird, isn't it? If I'm nice to the friend and ASSUME the best, I can reframe everything back to nice and pleasant.

CONCLUSION. So many things I learned.
- Don't care about getting anything, any immediate result. When you approach, approach the girl like nothing else in the universe matters. Approach her like all you want is to enjoy the moment. Approach her knowing that it's either she'll take it or not, and it doesn't change who you are whether she says yes or no.
- The game is the most awesome thing in the world.
- When you have a girl hooked, make sure you persist. Don't make excuse to eject for a while. If you like her, be genuine about it. The weird part was that I was pretty much feeling shy the whole time I was talking to the 8.5. But because I was genuine about it and didn't try and hide it, she was still into me. Feeling shy and "out of it" doesn't stop you from getting the girl. Nobody's perfect.
- LEAD!
- The art of the reframe. Do not forget it! Assume the best, be friendly even though she was mad at you at first. Even though she might act b1tchy at some point, know that deep down she probably wants to be a nice person.
- And then I understood that it wasn't me they rejected. It was THEIR "image" of me they rejected, the "image" they saw through their own eyes. Their "idea" of who I was, through that little 30 second time frame they had to judge me. Because they were very fcked up chicks. When this clicked in my head, I started to not take rejections personally anymore. Anyway, what IS rejection? Unfinished business? The first "rejection" from the 8.5 on the street didn't mean anything. So what is rejection?

 

[Watawata]

i love this club frs, cant wait to go out again

 

[Mindgamez]

Watawata, clubbing is the sh1t!
Though, I had to come back to daygame.

Thursday, December 26th
I'm getting the feel of daygame again.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HFuWtz_nHno

The night before, I read some article about visualisation. It helped me quite a bit. I think I'll do some 20 minutes a day or so, added with a bit of meditation. That's a lot of mental, prefrontal cortex work, but it'll be all worth it

So yeah,
Today was with Charbel, Maroon(his twin brother) and Denis. Also randomly saw Khoi and he decided to tag along.

I did around 6-7 legit approaches that day. Most of them were direct, which is a good thing. I felt like I was waking up my daytime pickup skills back.

I approached a set of two girls sitting at a table. One was an 8, the other was a definite 9. The hottest ass and eyes ever. She was swapping handbags, so she had to empty one handbag to put things in the other one. She put some condoms in her bag and smiled at us, lol hahaha.
So guess what? THE 9 WAS 13 YEARS OLD. WTF. And she had a fckn tattoo too, wow... It was hard to believe.
All my friends agreed that she was like one of the hottest 13 year olds ever hahahaha... So funny.

In Canada, I can legally fck her. Charbel told me that I should've went for her anyway, because she looked absolutely nothing like a 13 year old.

Denis was right. Daygame is much more than nightgame. The skills come from daygame. Nightgame has become too easy, I've become much better at night game but I have bee neglecting conversational skills for too long. It's simply easy to be physical and just grind and make-out now.

I didn't go for the number close, because I often felt no connection at all. The girls were acting b1tchy, or they were walking away from me. Oh well, it doesn't matter. What matters is that I'm realizing that daygame needs PRACTICE and needs WORK. It's not easy, of course not. I just have to remember those times when I had it easy, when I was feeling on top of it. I had those awesome daygame days back in the day. I can do it again, for sure.

Denis told me he was disappointed from my daygame today, that I haven't done much. And it was true! I have to come back to reality. I love the game, don't I?

2013 is ending in 5 days. Holy sh1t. Year went by so fast.

So I'll make some great sh1t happen. I PROMISE. BEFORE 2013 ENDS.

I'm getting my mental discipline back on. EVERY day is a productive day in ever aspect. I'm getting my habits in place. Piano practice, film editing, creative writing, meditation, visualisation, reading. Everything.

Got a date
With Ani, the girl I've gone clubbing with last time. She's a 7, but she's nice.

CONCLUSION
- Despite your fear, you MUST approach. Fear is a wonderful thing. If you feel it, it means that you're expanding and growing. The more you stay with it, the more immune you become to it. I was staying longer than usual with certain sets even though I felt like quitting. I knew staying would mean pushing my comfort zone.
- There is no growth in your comfort zone. Only outside of it.
- Look at your progress and congratulate yourself on it. Don't beat yourself up and do not compare yourself to others. You never win the comparison game, because there will always be someone better than you. Relative to my other days, how was today? Much better, and I'm grateful for that.
- I love the game of life!

 

[Mindgamez]

Friday, December 27th
Gaming. Every. Single. Day.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lETmskoqh30

Amazing song. House all the fcking way. Best music that plays in clubs nowadays.

Daytime
Went to Carefour with Charbel, Oliver, Maroon, Bruno, and Ali (dude who used to work with me).

My friends were at THEIR ABSOLUTELY WORST that day.
Charbel did ZERO approaches again, Oliver did one. Bruno did none. Ali did none. I did 7-8 of them. Sometimes Bruno would wing me, and he was cool at that. But in no way did he actually approach.

I was quite disappointed, almost got dragged down to their level of laziness lol. But I knew it was about me, not about them. That I'd need to learn to become independent, regardless of how my friends were doing. It's crazy. While Oliver, Charbel and the others used to approach just as much as me, they felt totally rusty that day. It was scary to see.

I used Tom Torero's Conversation King things he taught in his video. Very good actually, some of it actually worked. My first approach lasted a few minutes, good stuff. Though I wasn't deeply interested in the conversation, I found myself very interested in the social dynamics.

I like social dynamics. It's fascinating. That's why I like the game. It's understanding human behaviours, and it's interesting.

None of hte girls I approached did I feel a very nice connection with them. I was still feeling not on op of my game. I had a good amount of awkward silences XD. But I'm still progressing every day.

Nightime
Went to Muzique, love that club in Montreal. It's the sh1t. With Dumi and Jad.
We arrived quite late though, the club wasn't as packed as usual. Next time I'll come in at 10:30 to warm up and sh1t.

I did at least 5-6 approaches. Got lots of unfinished business (because that's how I call it. What is rejection?)
Seem like the girls I approached didn't really pay attention, just ignored. I have to get on their radar more, add more intensity in my approach. I'm too passive.

I did have a very nice conversation with that girl. Didn't last long, but she was nice. I felt comfortable, back on my game. We talked for a while. I was adding a few sexual jokes, assumed we'd go home together. She laughed when I told her I'd kill her driving on the way home if she encouraged me to drink. I don't know why I ejected so early.

I have to stop "disqualifying the positive" as Ozzie says. Good eye-opening video. I realized that I was thinking too much.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kz6a24NfpKA

Except for that nice conversation, not much really. I was half-assing my approaches, not going all the way out. Dumi was always being direct on point, going all the way out, and that's why it often worked for him. Gotta do that sh1t.

CONCLUSION
- Circular thinking, stop it. 90% of thinking is repetitive and the same old. We aware of the pattern, and understand that thinking isn't always good, even though society always promotes it. In a context of having fun and letting go, there's no such thing as having to think. Also, in everything you do, circular thinking happens all the time. FOCUS.
- Go all the day. Do not half-ass, go ALL. THE. WAY.
- It's about you. You and her. It has nothing to do with your friends. If your friends can't approach, don't be influenced. Be your own best wingman. Be independent. Going solo is much more rewarding anyway.

 

[Mindgamez]

Saturday, December 28th
Great night.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0uWylMT3WyI

Went out with Darnell and Anthony. It was fun times. The first 2 hours it was quite dead at Jet Club. A few girls, but surrounded by guys so I pvssied out a bit.

We dance together and sh1t on the dancefloor for the first hours when no ones on the dancefloor. Kinda sucked after a while lol, till people joined in.

It was only after an hour and a half or so that I started approaching the few girls at the club. There weren't that many. It's friendly, I get some unfinished business too much. I remember a group of girls I approached,and they didn't seem quite interested. The guy jumped in and told me to **** off with the most douchy look ever. He literally pushed me away, he was also a foot taller than me.
Him : Hey man, how's it going?
Me : What's up?
Him : She's not interested in you.
Me : Oh you say?
Him : Yeah, now back off.
Me : Oh really? Oh well, I guess I'll stay a virgin forever!
I laughed my ass off. He kept a straight face. I knew that the more I confronted my fears, the more I'd become immune to it.
Him : Well, I guess so.

And then I walked away from him. Oh, forgot to mention that I approached his girl earlier, black girl, telling her she looked like a zebra with her zebra shirt LOL.

Later, there was a circle of dance with his group of friends. I joined in the middle. Everyone cheered me up, except for that dude who pushed me away from the circle immediately. Some other dudes pushed me away too. I didn't know what it meant. I knew that there was no point in assuming the worst. Were they friendly or not? It didn't matter, because I knew I didn't do anything wrong. After I was done with shuffling, I walked away.

Anyway. I approached a group of latinas. They were very open, we danced a bit of salsa with them. I met a very cute 8, we danced quite a bit. She was later dancing with some other guys. At some point, some dude was twerking so I took her hand and slapped his butt LOL. And then she kept slapping it. I took her hand and made her slap my butt. Then, I slapped her butt and she laughed like crazy.

Fun times. I approach some other group of asian girls just for the fun. It's very funny.

I approach some other girls left and right. Some were happy to dance along, some were b1tchy.

I remember walking upstairs to the washrooms. I saw that little under-aged looking girl sitting by herself with her phone. While she gave me the weird look when I approached her group of friends earlier, I still said something.
Me : You okay?
She looked at me and nodded. She didn't look certain.
Me : You really sure?
She nodded again. Her eyes were red, she was about to cry. I felt her sadness too, and I don't know why I just let myself walk away. I knew she needed a hug.

And it's crazy how young girls often try to show that they're confident and hard to get, rejecting guys and everything. While in their heart, they wished they could meet a nice guy that would actually care for them, not a douche.

I approach a legit HB9 with one of the latinas I approached earlier. I go YEAAAH!! And they go YEAAHH! as I come in dancing. If you get approval from one girl of the group, the other is more likely to reciprocate.
I talk to the HB9 a bit. I felt a connection from the start, she mirrored my movements. So we talk for a bit. She says ridiculous sh1t so I call her up on it and she likes it. I tried Tom Torero's thing of just nodding after she's "done" talking to see if she continues, and she did. She would invest more. She seemed into me. I lead her on the dancefloor and dance a bit away from her friends.

I wanted to dance more intimately, but she told me that she had a boyfriend. I lied to her saying that I was in a relationship too, blablabla, didn't work. She was very friendly though. Hotness doesn't determine anything. A hot girl isn't nicer or more *****y than others.

So at the very end of the night, I reapproach the HB8 latina. I hug her goodbye and she gives me a kiss on the cheek. I reciprocate. I tell her that we should go on a date and everything. She tells me that she's from Toronto and leaving the day after... Oh well. I tried to close anyway, that's what counts. I was about to go for the kiss on the lips, but I totally pvssied out XD.

Anyway, great night.

Sunday, December 29th
Cool night, met some new girls.

I was with Charbel, Maroon, their sister (they are triplets!) and her two hot friends. Some other guy friends too.

We go in. It was cool. Probably the cheapest club ever! 1.50$ entry because their DJ missed the plane, though it was nice.

I didn't approach much. Charbel's female friends were hot as fvck. I felt intimidated, but I knew there was no need in doing so.

So while Charbel and etc. go to the bar to dring, I stay on the dancefloor with the hot tall friend a bit. She asks me my name. I give her la bise, and we nearly kiss by accident LOL. We laugh our asses off when our noses bump into each other.

I approach random groups of people. They welcome me. Some cheer me up on my shuffling and tell me it's awesome. The few people I approached, I felt like I knew them forever.

At some point, I tell her that I'm a stripper. I tell her she should come see my performances at the male strip club. I give everyone a little stripper-like dance hahaha. Charbel thinks is pretty funny. He later grinded her and he was telling me about his boner and how he felt real good. I also grinded her from the back while Charbel was rubbing his ass on her crotch.

I was approaching other girls a little bit, not much. Until the very end of the night, I just jumped right in some random sets. Thanks to Charbel for motivating me. Nothing happened, only business I couldn't finish. I was feeling totally out of it, but I felt better after every action I took.

At the end of the night, it was just me and our little group of friends dancing. It was 2:55 AM. The whole dancefloor was empty.
For some reason, it was one of the nicest feelings ever. Just being with friends, knowing that nothing else in the world matters. It felt like the world around me collapsed. All that was left was me, them, and the great music they played. Not to forget they played Spaceman by Hardwell, Adagio for Strings by Tiesto and Better off Alone.

And I really asked myself. What is it that I want? Why should I worry so much about getting girls, while the only thing that I want is to bond with people and be loved? As cute as it sounds. Just bond in the moment and enjoy the present. There's nothing better in the universe than that.

We exited the club. Gave hug goodbyes to everyone. Yo damn the hot tall girl is so hot...

I walked to my car, and I felt so happy. I felt like everyone in the universe was my friend. I knew that as human beings, we were made to bond. Everyone could be my friend. Everyone was part of this giant family. We are all connected. It's all that sense of familiarity.

I screamed Happy New Year! to a random group of girls. I told them that I wanted to be an opera singer and that I practise in the shower every day.

HOLY SH1ET
2013 IS OVER IN 2 DAYS!!! I HAVE 2 DAYS TO OWN THE SH1T!! IN 2 DAYS I'M A NEW ME. **** THIS, LET'S BE A BOSS. HOLY SH1ET PORNO LET'S DO IT!!!!

Oh yeah,
And I have a date with Ani today. It's going to be fun. If I feel like it and am horny, I'll go for the pull at my place.

CONCLUSION
- Face your fears. If the guy's being a douche and everything, doesn't mean you can't get the girl he's with. Push it further and further.
- Enjoy the moment. Have fun and make friends with hot girls. It's really fun. Don't feel paralysed. The hottest girls are often the nicest.
- Understand that every human being in this universe is meant to connect with another. It's nature. We are meant to bond. Everyone is your friend, everyone is part of your family. Everyone has a past, present and future. Everyone has interesting things about them. Everyone has hopes and ambitions. Everyone wants fun and to enjoy the moment.
- Go for the close!
- If someone in the group enjoys your company, the other members of the group are more likely to feel the same.
- Tom Torero is cool. Wait and let her talk. Make fun of her too.