daygameguy
Master Don Juan
Okay man, I'll keep it short:
I grew up in a boys school, went for a degree in engineering, and currently 2 months away from graduating as a masters student, and hopefully getting a satisfying job.
In high school, I was picked on quite a lot, and I decided to join a gym and change my personality, I got big and muscular and it boosted my confidence. But during my undergrad degree, I lost a lot of weight and so now I have an average guy's build. I still go to the gym to try and stay fit.
In my undergrad, people knew I was good looking (I'm 5 11 decent facial looks), but they also knew I didn't have a dominant alpha personality, so even though I started going out with the most popular group of girls in my college, I couldn't land an exclusive relationship, not even sex, she got some other guy.
When I stumbled upon this forum and the PUA phenomenon, I went out and tried and failed many times, and studied the art of approaching very seriously. I had NO wingmen or friends in this game. I got rejected a few times, in a way that the girl would just say I'm busy, have a bf, cringe and walk away, etc.
But then I got good, I went out with this HB6 blond girl on 3 dates, and she told me she was attracted to me, but she had her issues about relationships or doing anything intimate. We are still friends. I went out with another HB8 after a while. She gave me all the IOIs, but she was too young and inexperienced in the dating/bf-gf scene, so her comfort levels on sex/relationships were quite low. Same thing happened recently with another HB8.
Now, in the meantime, I have picked up many other girls as well, with proper IOIs, and legit #s, but things didnt work out, since they stay deep into the city, and I do not have a car. All sorts of technical problems. But I would rank my skills to be good atm. And after landing a job, I should have all these technical problems (car, money etc) resolved.
But at the moment, I am a virgin, with average build, in a sea of UFC type dudes, and hot HB9s and 10s, so I feel this inferiority complex sometimes, due to all sorts of lame reasons.
Now I know how to get into high inner game state, but somewhere deep inside I never seem to forget about this big ball of insecurity withing me - being a virgin + average build.
I know it's just BS in my own head, but I hope to hear some honest first hand motivation.. that would be really helpful. How do I remain at a high inner game level, knowing I have this onus of virginity, and be alpha around guys who are twice my build?
I grew up in a boys school, went for a degree in engineering, and currently 2 months away from graduating as a masters student, and hopefully getting a satisfying job.
In high school, I was picked on quite a lot, and I decided to join a gym and change my personality, I got big and muscular and it boosted my confidence. But during my undergrad degree, I lost a lot of weight and so now I have an average guy's build. I still go to the gym to try and stay fit.
In my undergrad, people knew I was good looking (I'm 5 11 decent facial looks), but they also knew I didn't have a dominant alpha personality, so even though I started going out with the most popular group of girls in my college, I couldn't land an exclusive relationship, not even sex, she got some other guy.
When I stumbled upon this forum and the PUA phenomenon, I went out and tried and failed many times, and studied the art of approaching very seriously. I had NO wingmen or friends in this game. I got rejected a few times, in a way that the girl would just say I'm busy, have a bf, cringe and walk away, etc.
But then I got good, I went out with this HB6 blond girl on 3 dates, and she told me she was attracted to me, but she had her issues about relationships or doing anything intimate. We are still friends. I went out with another HB8 after a while. She gave me all the IOIs, but she was too young and inexperienced in the dating/bf-gf scene, so her comfort levels on sex/relationships were quite low. Same thing happened recently with another HB8.
Now, in the meantime, I have picked up many other girls as well, with proper IOIs, and legit #s, but things didnt work out, since they stay deep into the city, and I do not have a car. All sorts of technical problems. But I would rank my skills to be good atm. And after landing a job, I should have all these technical problems (car, money etc) resolved.
But at the moment, I am a virgin, with average build, in a sea of UFC type dudes, and hot HB9s and 10s, so I feel this inferiority complex sometimes, due to all sorts of lame reasons.
Now I know how to get into high inner game state, but somewhere deep inside I never seem to forget about this big ball of insecurity withing me - being a virgin + average build.
I know it's just BS in my own head, but I hope to hear some honest first hand motivation.. that would be really helpful. How do I remain at a high inner game level, knowing I have this onus of virginity, and be alpha around guys who are twice my build?
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