"He WANTED to do this"
Why wait 19 years then?
The Columbine kids didn't.
Martin Bryant didn't.
Cho didn't.
Charles Whitman didn't.
Luke Woodham didn't.
Many others didn't.
Eventually he came to the point of wanting to do this but at the same time as you pointed out his conscience was fighting him.
He was in a battle of both wanting to do it and not wanting to do it.
In reality though my opinion is in agreement with an old Tony Robbins seminar about suicide I heard sometime ago. Tony said that he believed no one who committed suicide actually wanted to do it and he went on to explain the obvious that no one literally wanted to be dead they just wanted their pain to end and saw no other way out.
To me a guy that struggles for 19 years to find a way out of doing this and who tries to find a way to succeed with only the lies feminized society has to offer him to guide his way isn't a monster but a tragedy.
That he had to fight himself to finally go through with it tells me that for all his words he didn't want to go through with it he just saw no other way out.
Why he went through with it if he really didn't want to do it deep down is the same reason you point out that AFC's go back with their oneitis ie its the familiarity of things, the believed certainty of assured and established intimacy.
George finally went through with his plan because he judged it the only sure and certain way to end his pain and maybe get a little payback along the way.
His certainty overcame his conscience and his doubts.
If he didn't kill those women and himself he knew he'd still be in the world feeling the uneasiness and uncertainty that he'd felt for the last 19 years of his life.
Likely what went through his mind is going over all of those actions society told him would cause him to succeed all over again, his logic telling him that 19 years of that didn't work so how would 19 more be any different and thats when the plan likely got solidified for real with a finality in his mind and so he went out and did this.
The majority of people that take the reactionary tard hate George stance are guys that think they had the same exact situation as George and somehow overcame it and so George should have as well.
I seriously doubt that though, I believe all these reactionary tards had at least one guiding light in their lives that showed them just a glimpse of the proper way to go and though they may of themselves done 99% of the work to change their lives without the 1% that gave them an idea of the direction to go they'd be sitting in George's shoes as future timebombs somewhere out there.
"In the end game I doubt even the best and brightest of SS could've defused the guy."
http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=54270
I wouldn't be so sure of that Rollo.
I believe we've done a lot of good for the world that we may never know with the advice we give here.
Of course cutler could have been making it all up but I choose to believe his story about how he was helped and how he was pulled back from the brink by Sosuave's #1 best and brightest.