Drook's Diary

[Drook]

Party?

June 12th 1:01 am

It's been a busy day. Half the day I was working for my dad which was alright. I'm making 10 dollars an hour on payroll so that's a lot of money at 15. I'll have to pay taxes though so I suddenly get people complaining about "muh tax payer dollars".

I don't know how I missed this but Ex messaged me a few days ago asking how I've been. I ended up being kind of ****ish towards her. Apparently she's planning on breaking it off with her guy this week and it "isn't serious" and she wants to be friends again. On one hand I kind of miss her. On the other she's going to California for a month in like two days and Anne's younger sister is insanely hot and innocent and looks like a girl that I could be with. If I try to hang out with her it won't be until late June when she gets back. Texting your Ex across the country is a stupid idea at any rate.

Anne is having a pary/movie marathon with a hot tub today which'll be fun if I can make it. THAT GUY will be there though so no alcohol/drugs because there's 110% chance he'd snitch and he knows everybody's parents. I might be giving Anne weed though depending on how much I get.

Anne's sister, though. DAYUM. She just turned 15 and usually I'm not into chicks younger than me but she's hot as fuark. She's one of those girls that has no idea too. Skinny, tall(taller than me), blonde, shy and kinda doe-ish AND she has a good fashion sense. I'm gonna get her number if I go to the party tomorrow or if I see her this weekend.

But yeah tomorrow should be fun. I'll probably get high and hang out with hot chicks so I'll make a post depending on how sh!t goes.

 

[Drook]

Fairweather Friends

June 15th 12:08 am

I don't know why I get high. Whenever it hits I feel like I'm walking through a strobe-light in mid day, shutterstepping everywhere. I nearly stepped on a garter snake on my way back from getting high which is scary as hell when you're doubting that there's really a snake in front of you because you've been scared of stepping on a snake all day so actually seeing one when you've been waiting for it is like waiting for a jack in the box to pop up and having it pop up unexpectedly. While I am proud of the bamboo pipe I crafted with a Swiss Army Knife and a few pieces of bamboo the way my mind gets when I'm high is nothing to be prideful of. I spent literally 20 minutes in the bathroom with the shower running switching between random websites and social apps on my phone without actually comprehending what it was that I was reading. Maybe without the worry of your mom making dinner early, theoretically forcing you to converse at the dinner table when you don't understand how time works, getting high would be fun; but when you're running off into the woods in a sort of paranoid-zen mindset and coming back seeing reality as a sort of sh!tty stop motion film it's disorientating and nerve-wracking. I still have an entire dimebag of this stuff left and I got faded off of a half burnt bud and a bit of leaf in a makeshift pipe. Not sure how to continue.

Anne cancelled her party which wasn't really surprising or meaningful coming from her. She has a bag of shrooms and wants me to go to her place to get high with her but she's textbook stringing me along so unless she sets something up on her own she's on her own. I mentioned to my mom how hot Anne's younger sister is (mom's are actually good listeners when it comes to relationships) and she, knowing Anne, said there's no way it'd work out because Anne has something invested in me as a friend/flirt and would get jealous if I went for her sister. Which is probably true but I can't run my game (or lack of) based on jealous sisters and misplaced possessions.

I've kind of made a way to deal with being ditched and B-listed which applies to vssholes and a lots of other things. Might be useful for you, Slowly. Say you put a lion in a big fenced in field with a few sheep. The lion would run all the way across the field, kill the sheep and eat it. Should you be outraged at the lion for killing your precious sheep? Of course not. It's just the nature of the beast. The lion can't help that it's instincts tell it to kill, it's just doing what it knows to. Now you know not to put your sheep in a field with a lion. People are all animals in one way or another. We all have some weird quirk or tic that defines us more than our other traits. If you give somebody that thinks of you as a B-lister something better to do than hanging out with you they'll ditch you to do that like clockwork. So what's the point of getting mad at your fairweather friend when you knew they'd ditch you come the chance? There is none. If your friend is going to be a lion treat him like one. Have backup plans, cancel on them, be busy. I'm not saying be a complete d!ck; but treat the lions like lions. This all came to mind after Bro ditched me to hang out with another friend and my mum asked if I was p!ssed at him. I honestly wasn't. Yeah maybe I was disappointed but I'm not sure what else I expected.

I finished watching Moonrise Kingdom about 45 mins ago. You know that feeling when you finish a really good movie or book and a weird kind of depression hits like a heavy fog; because you know you'll never get back there? Well that feeling hits the worst after watching a Wes Anderson movie on a Friday night alone. I need a friend/girlfriend I can just talk to. Everybody I know is either too wrapped up in the social circle to be real with or just not the kind of person you can talk to. I hope I find someone like that over the summer. That'd be pretty sick.

 

[Drook]

New Slang

June 17th 1:04 am

I randomly planned to watch The Purge with Anne today. I ended up inviting Aus to come with us which I think might have pissed Anne off but whatevs. She was talking about how she blew her manager who's 20something and married two days ago which was a PRETTY HUGE TURNOFF. I was going to share a drink with her but I got my own after that. The Purge was pretty good, though. Cool concept

Aus got back from some camp yesterday so he was pretty tired. We're gonna play tennis tomorrow. I completely suck vss and he was on the tennis team this year so it's gonna be pretty sorry.

I popped the screen off my window earlier climbed out on the roof of the porch and smoked a bowl off an apple pipe I ate after I finished. I think this is the first time I've got munchies. I just crushed 5 Oreos in like a minute which would normally make me want to puke but I'm still hungry. Sitting on the roof was beautiful, though. The fireflies, the moonlight, the cool summer breeze, even just watching the smoke fly off was pretty cool. I'm feeling pretty content/tired.

It also turns out that my one friend is a complete scumbag. He started texting my ex who he only knew through me when we were still together and I didn't think anything of it. Mostly because he's a tall skinny nerdy guy with ADD. I've gotten to know him since then and he hits on like three different girls constantly but is friendzoned by all of them. Well I was looking at Snapchat and she's his most messaged person BEFORE his other chick he's been into forever. Even if he isn't trying to get with her, snapchatting your friend's ex that you met THROUGH HIM is scummy as ****. I wouldn't care that much if he wasn't beta-ly hitting on girls all the time like that. Plus there's this weekend thing in the summer where we all go water tubing and he invited a chick last year when I was with Ex. If he invites Ex I'm going to lose my sh!t. Yeah I'm trying to make things better-er with Ex but the idea of my friend flirting with her over Snapchat makes me p!ssed.


I don't know if this will make any sense in the morning because I'm faded right now but I guess this is how I see life at 1am while high which obviously has important journalistic qualities.

 

[Drook]

No Wonder I

June 19th 11:34 pm

Past few days have been kinda weird. Yesterday I just babysat for my parents and played Team Fortress 2. Today I went to the mall to get shoes and ran into Anne and her sisters. My sisters fvcked off with hers' and went back home and I hung out with Anne at her work. She had a sh!tload of $20 coupons so I got some shirts for cheap and some coupons for later. We went back to her place and talked while she put make-up on (cakes that sh!t on). She gave me a bag of real shrooms which I'm not sure what to do with. After that we picked the friend I mentioned in the last post who I'll call Tallbro and went to a pool party.

Party was eh. Aus was there so I mostly hung out with him. He always gets super excited when I talk about drugs even though he doesn't do any regularly. Anne was talking to/flirting with some random guy so I sat down next to her, put my arm around her and was all like "sup, baby?" just to screw with her. I'm not sure what Anne thinks of like me and her. I don't think I'm attracted to her as anything more than a friend or possibly a FwB. Upon closer inspection I wouldn't even want her sister as a friend. Acts way too young when she comes out of her shell.

4-h Camp is next week for 5 days so I'm kinda freaking out because that means an entire week of no lifting or running. My dad suggested bringing the 20lb dumbells I have but I'd have to lift before my shower so I'm not gross all day and I KNOW I'd get sh!t for lifting at camp. I'm definitely bringing like a notepad and pen to camp, though. I want to come home with either five numbers or one good lead. I actually pretty much got with Ex at 4-H camp. She told me she liked me and was crying because she was so embarrassed. It was pretty cute. The age group for camp is like 15-18 I think so there should be plenty-o HBs.

I seriously need to get into game. For a while Anne's sister was my excuse not to approach chicks cause I was like "LOL I'M GONNA TOTALLY MAKE THIS WORK BECUZ SHES HOT" but now I don't really have an excuse. Maybe I'm not desperate enough? Yeah I'm alright doing what I am right now but I admittedly get jealous whenever Aus talks about him doing stuff with his chick and I know I would be better if I could run game on chicks and had a girlfriend. I don't need a chick for validation and I don't look to them for it but it's still an area where I'm lacking.

Iunno. I'm gonna lift, play guitar and hit it.

 

[Drook]

Hallelujah

June 22nd 1:46 am

Not much has been going on lately. I'm mostly posting to ask for advice.

I have 4-H camp next week from Monday morning to Friday night. My one friend said it's ages 15-21 but I think it might just be 15-18. Either way there should be plenty of HBs. Question is how do I flirt in a camp where most of the interaction is going to be in groups during sporty things? Like obviously kino, having fun with whatever I'm doing, etc. But escalating seems like it's going to be a pain. So does gaming multiple chicks when they all go to the same cabin at night. On the plus side I'll have my guitar which will be a huge chick magnet until I actually play.

Today was really boring. I mowed the lawn, tried rolling a joint (it was terrible), lifted and played guitar. Nothing extraordinary. Tomorrow (or I guess later today) I'm going to go to work with my dad doing construction which is usually pretty miserable. I need to hit it, though. I'll be getting up at 6:30 and I still have to shower. I'll try to post again before I go to camp and maybe a field report once I'm there.

 

[Drook]

Bon Voyage

I'm writing this about an hour before I have to leave for camp. I won't be posting any updates until I get back Friday or Saturday. I might write some field reports but I won't be able to post them until then.

Yesterday was actually alright. I went to mass with Aus which is always hilarious. Then we went to our sh!tty local mall because he had a job interview so I was going to go to the Pac Sun there since I had a coupon. Well the interview was actually training which took two and a half hours and the Pac Sun had been shut down because it's a sh!t mall. So I was stuck wandering the mall while I waited for him to get out. I did get two albums and some multivitamins but it still wasn't worth the boredom.

After that I went back home and chilled a bit before meeting Aus again and going to my friend's party. There wasn't any booze or music but there were a bunch of chill people and a firepit and stuff so it was pretty fun. There weren't any HBs there asides from the host's (who I'll call Mario) girlfriend who was pretty cute but a freshman. THAT GUY was there and it was funny as fuark because since it wasn't the normal circle everybody got sick of his sh!t and shut him down like twice.

We had the girls play Marry Kill Fvck with me, Aus and my beta friend who I'll call Delt. Aus got marry every time, I got fvck and Delt got kill. Even with the chick that he knew longer than any of us. They pretty much all reasoned that Aus would be the easiest to put up with and one chick said she wanted a "new experience" when she was saying why she chose me for fvck. We played Never Have I after that and I lost ahead of all the other guys buy five points which was pretty pathetic considering I'm homeschooled and was one of the youngest guys there.

Fun night overall. We were talking about starting a fight club at the church lock-in this weekend but I don't know if anybody else was serious. I'd totally do it if there weren't any faceshots because we'd get blood everywhere.

I'll post something either Friday or Saturday depending on how late I get back. Godspeed.

 

[Drook]

Yooo. We're actually allowed to have phones and there's service so field report 1:

There's this really hot punkish chick that I was talking to that's into drugs, porn and punk pop which is awesome. But she has a boyfriend so I dropt that. There's also this HB from my church that I always figured was uptight but I talked to her and she's pretty chill. I actually got the balls to go out and dance with her which was kinda awkward but cool. The best part about camp is you can chill with everybody and hooking up is super easy. I'm psyched for tomorrow. Gonna hit it.

 

[RiceandChicken]

Nice stuff Drook. Go hard while you're there, opportunities to meet girls that easily don't come so often, so isolate escalate and profit bro. Keep us updated on how it goes.

 

[Drook]

Thanks for the support, bro. I got a HB 7s number today. She said her phone was dead but to text her anyways. I sent a text saying I'm the hot guy she gave her number to.

I seriously think that the DJ skills I'm getting here are going to carry back home. Just being able to talk to random chicks without having to worry about getting shut down is awesome. Not to mention building rapport is super easy. The girl who's number I got was super impressed because I did an improv story really well. Imma try to get the first chicks number because the only guy she hangs around is a beta orbiter. Also I've had chicks come up to me just to talk and ****. 4-h camp is so easy.

Well I need to hit it because I'm about to pass out.

 

[Drook]

Field report 3:

Things are going nowhere fast with HB7. I did Zumba with her which was fun as fuark but we didn't actually dance together. I called her over to me while I was watching some people LARP (which I'm totally doing next year) she came and we talked for a while and agreed to dance together tonight. I think I got rapport and she thinks I'm funny I just need to build attraction and get her away from her ugly friends.

Gonna try to read some DJ bible guides and go for a Kclose tonight. Wish me luck.

 

[Drook]

So HB 7 has two beta orbiters. Literally the two most beta, awkward nerdy mofos in camp have romantic interest. I asked her if her and one of them were a thing and teased her about her fan club which was pretty funny. Didn't get a chance to dance with her because we had to do square dancing (sh!t) and orbiter was already at her side.

Not sure how to continue with HB 7. I think I'll have to avoid going to her and if I see her I'll have to take charge so I'm not another orbiter. HB 8 I never followed up on but I will if I run into her.

Godspeed.

 

[Drook]

Last day of camp today. Feels kinda surreal. HB 8 has a boyfriend apparently. I wasn't that into her anyways but it was funny when my friends flipped out when they saw me dance with her again.

HB7's friends are annoying beyond belief. Especially this Asian chick that goes to my church she hangs out with. I put my arm around HB7 during a dance thing so Asian REACHES AROUND HB7 AND PUTS HER ARM AROUND ME!!!! Then she laughed and said "LOL we're all putting our arms around eachother for some reason!" There's no way she's that fvcking stupid. How do I deal with ugly ****blocks?

 

[Drook]

Down and Out

June 19th 11: am

You have no idea how weird it is coming home from a week of 4h camp. Not only am I exhausted beyond belief but everything feels surreal. I never had a chance to Kclose with HB7 or even talk to her again, really. But I'm fine with that. I got her number so I'll see if she wants to hang out before I leave to Alpha camp which I had my mom sign me up for while I was in camp.

I did dance with her last night, though. I also danced with a HB6 which was really sweaty and gross and asked to leave half way through the dance. I guess that's my first rejection? All I really got from it was "wow, what a b!tch". The really chill punk chick I mentioned earlier asked to dance with me and we actually did alright. She even thanked me today which was pretty cool. I feel like we would have got along awesome if she was single. It's a shame but whatever.

Today was crazy too. My tribe won the spirit stick (big deal), we had serenade at camp, my cabin sang Sail Away at the top of their lungs at 2:00am and I'm insanely tired. I have camp again on the 7th so I wanna get some shorts, a haircut and a date with HB7 before I leave.

I'm dozing on my keyboard so I'm gonna hit it. I hope Alpha is as good as this week was and my dates are numerous. Peace.

 

[Drook]

FLight Club

June 30th 9: am

Yesterday there was a lock-in at my church. Which me, Aus, Aus' girl, Andy and a few other people went to. Me and Aus started a FLight Club and spent half the night wailing on eachother which was actually really fun. Aus had 20lbs on me and a couple of inches so he usually won but I bruised the sh!t out of his arm. My hand's still swollen from punching. Aus' girlfriend was p!ssed at him which was hilarious.
Me and Andy ended up taking our shirts off because it was hot and I was fighting. Well THAT GUY's mom started yelling at us from across the room when she saw that and THAT GUY was backing her up. Just for reference, That Guy is a lazy skinnyfat d!ckhead with eczema all over his body. VS. me where people think that I actually have an alright physique. I told That Guy that I shouldn't have to put a shirt on just because he's jealous (his mom is a cow to so they probably were actually jealous) but they wouldn't stop so I had to stand the heat.

After that Anne's sister started playing on my classical guitar and That Guy starts arguing out of nowhere that it doesn't have strings on it because they're not made out of metal and that they sound different from strings. I told him in the most condescending tone I could make that it's a classical guitar, the strings are made out of nylon, it's supposed to sound different, etc etc. Everybody else agreed but he kept on arguing it. How do you even deal with people like him?

I was tired as fuark all night because I'm still recovering from camp. So I ended up passing out at like 2am and of course everybody starts fvcking with me. I wake up and there's water all over my fvcking sleeping bag, somebody took my phone, my backpack's gone and so is my blanket. Well I was dead on my feet so I start cussing out That Guy and he gives me my phone back, I ask him where my blanket is because I just wanted to sleep and he starts being a smartass about it so I get even more pissed. When he finally told me where they hid it I decided that if he woke me again I was going to clock him. I told everybody before hand that I was tired and didn't want to be fvcked with if I hit it early but they still decided to be ignorant sh!ts.

I'm not going to another church hosted thing again unless I'm bringing a chick. I don't even enjoy them any more because half the people are so annoying.

Speaking of chicks HB7 hasn't replied to me since I messaged her yesterday asking if she wants to hang out before I leave for Alpha. I don't really care. I still have Alpha which is bigger and has more chicks than regular camp so one chick isn't something I need to latch onto right now.

I still gotta practice guitar today and lift. I'll post if HB7 ever responds or anything happens before Alpha. Peace.

 

[Drook]

Shift

I made a beta mistake since I last posted. HB7 still hadn't responded to my text so I went with my parents advice and my desperation and messaged her again asking if she wanted to do putt putt. Of course she didn't respond so now I just feel like kind of a dumbvss for not going with my gut. I really don't get it, though. At camp we had awesome eye contact, conversation flowed, she didn't object at all to kino. Now she's not even responding to my texts. I don't get it.

Nothing really interesting has happened since I last posted. I drove my family to Sweet Frogs in our huge vss van and didn't wreck so that was good. I'm gonna try to get my mom to let me drive somewhere again tonight. I really need the hours.

I'm going to this huge 4th of July thing in Virginia in some rich area so I'm gonna see if Aus wants to go and even if he doesn't I'll try sarging if the crowd's good.

I'm also taking this two week long acting camp from late July to early August. Around a week after that college starts so I'll have like no d!cking around time this summer. I'm glad I'll be busy, though. I really want to kill it in the acting thing and hopefully it'll kickstart me acting at some local theatres.

 

[Drook]

Sun Lips

July 5th 2:00 am

Crazy vss day. I slept in until 12ish, helped my dad move a fridge, picked Aus up from his place and went to the 4th of July thing I was talking about.

I brought two shroom stems which I thought was a lot. I looked up how much we should have took and apparently you're supposed to take two entire shrooms each in order to trip. Me and Aus took them on the car ride anyways since we figured we'd get buzzed. Around 45 minutes later we didn't feel anything so I was kind of disappointed. Well my hands started feeling kind of weird and at first I thought I was just hoping that it was hitting but a few minutes later it full on hit and everything was funny and crisp. At this point Aus thought I was retarded because it hadn't hit him yet but a few minutes later he started tripping too so it synced pretty well. We spent around an hour and a half just mellowhigh, laughing at everything, walking around. It was super fun, I enjoyed it more than weed high and the come down was easier.

There were lots of HBs there but I didn't approach any, even with Aus there. I have a feeling that I'll kill it at Alpha, though. Like normal camp was a warm up and this is the real deal. Aus was super cool, though. I thought he was straight edge before but he seems pretty open to drugs and stuff. I might be going with him to the mall tomorrow for some shorts and stuff.

I'm too tired to even remember what else I have to post about. I'm just going to end it here. I'll probably post again before camp and I'll make field reports there.

 

[RiceandChicken]

How hard did it hit?
And nice job getting over ex. Now just keep on trying to add more plates.

 

[Drook]

It was like a weed high just because I took so little. The only hallucinations I had were some very mild color shifts and the grass looked really sharp. I didn't feel completely retarded like I do when I'm on weed and the comedown was barely even noticeable. Me and Aus were called over to my mom, talked to her for a bit, left, and I realized that I was sober. It was really fun, though. I'd definitely do it again.

Once I started talking to HB7 (who still hasn't responded but whatevs) I realized that what I had with my ex was something I could have with any chick. I know it sounds contradictory but intimacy is so casual, especially while you're young. But yeah I definitely need to spin more plates. I might try to get some numbers if I go to the mall today with Aus and I have Alpha, acting camp and college coming up in the next few months so as long as I'm on top of it I can get a ton of plates spinning.

But random question: is it possible to game college chicks at 16? Preferably without lying about my age. I know there will be younger chicks at college too but I feel like trying to game older chicks would be awesome.

 

[Drook]

Take Two

I'm leaving for camp tomorrow. Super psyched. I was thinking about bringing the rest of my shrooms but I don't know anybody else to do them with and I don't want to waste the rest on getting high instead of tripping. Plus getting high at camp could turn out really bad.

What sucks is this girl that I used to be on swim team with and who used to have a crush on me is going to camp. This wouldn't be a problem if she wasn't fat, crazy and is probably somebody I'll have to "deal with" at camp. I just hope I don't run into her at sign-ins or something and have to actually acknowledge her and greet and stuff.

I got shorts and deodorant so I should be fine for the week as far as supplies go. I'm gonna shower tonight and pack. I'm leaving tomorrow after church so I seriously need to pack. I'll post again tomorrow night probably on how the people are, etc.

Peace

 

[RiceandChicken]

Have fun at camp man. As for that fat chick, don't sweat it man. You should look be looking forward to all the hot chicks you can hit on.
Looking forward to the report.