there were some jägermeister promotion girls standing on the bar and giving out jägermeister tshirts. but you have to stand on the bar and she undresses your old shirt slowly before giving the new free shirt to you. stephanie encouraged me to go up and get one so i did. but she went somewhere else, so i did go back to my mates starting dancing on the pedestal. one of the jägermeister girls came up to me but i didnt dance with her because i didnt want to be disrespectful to stephanie.
then i saw her with her ex-bf(the_jerk). then two girls came up to us and i started dancing with one of them. they were both horny for me, so i danced with one and squeezed the nipples of the other(while she was dancing with some other guy haha.) she gave me her number and stuff. i asked if i can sleep in her room because it's too cold to sleep in our tent but she said that many acquintances visit them and sleep over at their house. well. i continued dancing with the guys, we pulled off our shirts and rocked the show =] there were two girls who danced on the ground infront of our pedestal and they smiled at me very often. so, being on top of the game i pulled their hairs a bit and got them even more smiling=)
then i invited the hotter one to come up to me but she declined smiling and a guy next to her(probably bf) showed me the ****finger i signalised get low nigga with my hand and an arrogant smile so his friends got angry, too. they starting clapping their hands and cherishing me with scorn(or should i say envy?). i laughed at the one in front of me and showed him how small his arms are compared to mine. and i licked my chest laughing at them gayboys. some other guy came up to me and asked if my breasts are real , haha =D.
then we walked shirtless to the billiard table where our other mates were. then stephanie came to me. we talked a bit with heavy kino going on, she said she cant believe how muscular i have become. i asked her why i cant sleep in her room!! she said her parents didnt allow her(i thought this was total bs but it was true). she said her father said to her that as long as she lives in his house, it's his decision who is allowed to enter the house and who not. so i was searching the father to ask him but didnt find him.
as i came back i saw her again with the_jerk ex-bf. so, being hardcore drunken and psyched up i showed her with my hand that she should come back to me. she later said to me that she wanted to come over in the next seconds but i gave her no chance because i went over immediately, pushed the_jerk away and grabbed her and draw her away. this wasnt my smartest move. but well we talked about our situation. i basically threatened her to either get physically or i will break off the friendship :/
OMG HOW CAN I BE SO ****ING STUPID????!!!!! IF I WOULD HAVE DONE IT ON THE SECOND DAY THEN GOOD AND FINE BUT NOOOOO I HAD TO GO IN FOR THE KILL IMEEDIATELY :///// she said of course we have so many simliarities and you look good and stuff but she is not a ***** that she can get physically with me without a relationship. and she cant be in a relationship with me because she wants to be together with her boyfriend almost every day and not only on the weekend in long distance relationship.
well, of course i could have made out with her in the heat of the moment with that high attraction going on......but i couldnt isolate her with no game of the world.....parents and the_jerk ****blocked me to the max. i argued with her mother that i want to sleep in her room but that of course, didnt make the situation any better, only worse. well, it was a very sad picture for me, looking into stephanies she telling me that of course she would like to fool around with me but that she cant because she is no *****, while i was telling her that i dont want to get physical because she is hot but because i like her so much. and that probably i could be friends with her when i met her today. but that i need to undo my failures of the past, all the feelings of being a loser, the broken heart because of her and that i would feel so pathetic when i just remain normal friends with her.
i told her that i did so much because of her, that lots of hard last repetitions in my workouts and drinking disgusting protein shakes i could only do because i was thinking of her. and that i feel so sad now that even we have so much in common and think each other is hot that i still cant get her because circumstances are against it. whatever. at least i could tell from bodylanguage, eyes, voice and words that she was really into me. but that i will break off the friendship, of course, hit her hard. she had to leave with her parents, and i did leave with my friends a little later.
to be continued.....
It's good we can give each other motivation. lol
