^Ok, so you, along with me and a lot of other teenagers, went through a period of self-hate, insecurity, rejection, and suicidal thoughts. I dealt with all that too bro, stemming from my home life, but mainly the growing pains that go along with the teenage years. Its a confusing time, and were all trying to learn how to socialize with everyone...how to be an adult...how to make friends and fit in...and how attract the opposite sex.
I was made fun of for being a virgin, but to be honest, I never cared about the jokes. I realized it was just dudes busting chops like dudes will. For the most part people around me understood I was waiting for the right girl at the time. And as it happens, I was 18, fell in love, and lost my virginity to a not-so-nice girl. Got my heartbroken, became jaded, got over it...typical teen life.
Now even with some of the depressed thoughts Ive had at different periods of my life, I NEVER wanted to harm innocent people. Harm myself? Yes. Harm others? No. And thats how most "AFCs" deal with things. Which is why I made the earlier comments I did. Even when I had bullies growing up, I wanted to kick their asses (and sometimes I did get them back). But I never wanted to truly kill them. I didnt want to do anything to rob myself of a good life. I knew one day Id be an adult and have a job to buy things I wanted. I knew Id have friends to have fun with. And I knew eventually Id have a great girl by my side to spend time with. So which Ive had lows in my life, I never wanted to take it out on innocents.
Rodger's problems were complex in my view. It was his parents, it was the lack of friends, it was the drugs hes been prescribed in the past, it was the bullying, it was the lack of attention from women, it was the spoiled lifestyle...it was a whole slew of things wrapped into a bad ball of stuff. Id like to think things would have been much different had Elliot's parents not divorced, had they been more present, and if he developed the social skills to at least make friends.
I know that for me, in my teenage years I did want a girlfriend, but I didnt obsess over it because I had other interests. I was busy hanging out with friends and goofing off, so it wasnt too terrible when I failed with girls. Im sure a lot of people would become obsessive over girls, money, cars, or whatever else, if they didnt have any human contact much of the time. I do believe if the kid at least had some male friends, he wouldnt have obsessed over things like money and women so much.