I'm going to chime in here as well.
I absolutely do not condone what Eliot Rodger did. However, watching some of his vids does bring me back to how I was in earlier years. For some reason, I always had a hard time socializing and making friends. People seemed to avoid me like the plague. I was bullied, teased... Women never gave me the time of day.
As I got older and started going to highschool, it got somewhat easier for me. I made a couple friends, but I was still the shy, loner. I started to talk to girls, even ones I liked, but ended up being friendzoned each and every time. Oh and I also developped oneitis easily. Could there have been girls interested? Maybe, but I never would know cuz I was always fixated on a specific girl.
As I got to college, things didnt change much. Frustration started to build in. I'd finally get over a oneitis, find another gal i wanted, started talking.. all to be driven back to the friendzone. Believe you me, it is frustrating when its always in the same cycle. This is when I started getting into a terrible deep depression. Thoughts of suicide came over me frequently. I'd get hammered drinking by myself on a Friday/Saturday night. I would feel like sh*t being at home on the weekends, knowing others out there had friends and probably getting lays. And I didn't know what to do.
When your shy, your shy and I was clueless. At the time I found this site, I had major oneitis on some girl whom, when I look back, I ask myself.. wtf was I thinking? I was still a virgin too. I was getting into my late 20's, and it was eating at me. But this site helped. I learned to gain confidence, live my own life, do my own things. Did I still want women? Damn right I did. Did it still bother me that I wasn't getting laid? Darn right it did. I got another oneitis at the time as well... some bank teller broad. I studied a whole bunch of stuff, from David DeAngelo and Neil Strauss, to Ross Jeffries. I said some stupid **** to her, which I thought was funny, but actually offended her. That was just more frustration.
Finally, I found someone off PoF, and got laid at the brutally late age of 29. But this ONE lay made a ton of difference. It changed me, as I finally felt accepted and attractive. My confidence shot up, and I made progress in many other areas of my life.
Just today, my girl told me how much I had changed when she met me. Last night, my girl and her friends were over at my place.... I f****ckin stripped for them. That's something I WOULD have NEVER done just a couple years ago. Even her friends were like... who the heck is this guy? I went from being introvert, having no one, to being accepted and wanted by people. I've got a group of girls that I hang out with, and there is no better feeling than seeing the look on girls faces when they see me.
But, I got lucky I guess. I COULD have been Eliot Rodger. I almost was in that I came very, very close to taking my own life. This site had alot to do with helping me out, giving me a kick in the ass when I was a chump to women. But getting laid helped even more.
Anyways, this is long, but I just wanted to chime in.
