Alex DeLarge's College Approach Journal.

[Alex DeLarge]

Entry #20

Went out sarging the bars with a good friend of mine tonight in our town. I was lone wolfing it at first and actually ran into an ex on a date with her BF. I just said hi, introduced myself to her BF and was completely friendly with the both of them. I had a good conversation with my ex and we caught up, but her BF was getting jealous and made them leave. I said good bye and the night continued.

So afterwards, I meet up with my buddy at another bar. This bar had two fvcking HOT bartenders. Both of them were flirting with us all night even though there were probably 10 dudes in there that were typically "alpha" this was pretty funny. I negged one of them a bit and just chatted with her, had some sexual convo, but didn't go in for the NC. I didn't really care to. She's smoking hot (Such a fvcking nice ass!) but she had been married 3 times all ready at the age of 28 and has kids... That says enough right there for me. Not gonna waste my time with a broad like that, cause I know there are women just as sexy without kids and divorces. See ya!

 

[Alex DeLarge]

Entry # 21

Friday night had practice until really late, writing some material for a friend's band. Then around midnight I went to a party for a friend's birthday. It was a pretty good time. Sausage fest to say the least though. There was a pretty decent looking HB7 there I started to chat with, but turned out she was dating one of my friends so I decided to say fvck that. I didn't really try and sarge since there was legit NO GIRLS to sarge, so I just chilled most of the night and drank, had good conversation, and listened to some music.

Saturday night, I played a gig with another band at a bar.. Turned out this pretty hot HB9 chick I was kicking it to a few months ago was there. She told me she came out to see my band play. (This girl denied me on a Kiss Close when I was first kicking it to her.) Since that night I became less attracted to her and just look at her as a friend really. She was flirting with me all night along with her other hot friend (one of my friend's ex's.. I don't wanna go there). Some other pretty hot girls invited me out to a party afterwards too.. But I all ready had plans and had work in the morning anyways. I didn't number close either, those girls seemed like total airheads.

Later this night, I go to a halloween party with a few of my friends. It was a lot more fun than the previous night, plus we all had ridiculous costumes on haha!

My friend's GF was at this party (her and I go way back. We had a crush on eachother in highschool).. She was drunk and coming on to me SO BAD. I wanted to make a move so bad, but I resisted cause her BF is a good friend of mine. She initiated kino and was putting her arm around me, touching my tattoos and even said "You know, I would definitely date you."... I had to get up and get outta that situation. It's not that I'm a big pvssy around girls, but I just CANNOT do anything with a friend's girlfriend. It's against my code.

Then later on I was mackin it to this HB9 who got really pissed at me a few weeks ago, but we made up on the issue.. We hooked up a few times but she always acted super weird about it, almost as if she was afraid of being into me. She was looking so fvcking hot that night, wearing this slvtty fairy costume. I just wanted to lift up her skirt, pin her against the wall and slip my d1ck in her pvssy and **** her in front of the whole party haha. She always has this super innocent yet closet freak look on her face too that just says "Do whatever you want to me". I made a few advances on her but she shot me down haha. Oh well, she'll probably come around sometime.

So later on I was talking to a female friend at the party and asked her about the HB9, my friend told me "Oh yeah she's really into you but you're dating ___ now aren't you?"

...

I was like "What are you talking about? Me and ___ have hooked up a few times, but it's nothing serious really" Then she told me that a girl at the party (One of the girl who I'm supposedly dating's friends) told her and a bunch of other people that. Talk about being c0ckblocked lol.

All in all, it was a fun weekend. Looking forward to the upcoming halloween weekend. Should be a great time.

Went the whole night without getting any pvssy and almost got arrested (cops came to the party, and everyone was too hammered to talk to them.) Apparently I was pretty drunk too and I was being an assh0le to the cop and not letting him in to the house lol.. Wasn't even my house too.

 

[Alex DeLarge]

Entry #22

Okay, so this coming weekend.. My parents are going away. I'm gonna sarge the local bar scene and try and make an F-Close happen. I have a few potential girls I can call up too that might be dtf. Both of them are ex's that have crawled back to me over time. We'll see where this goes.

For the record, if you haven't seen any of my other posts.. I'm a virgin.

 

[Alex DeLarge]

Entry #23

So my girl at school is telling all my friends that she thinks of us as "dating".. I really don't get what this means since I never brought her out on a legit date before and we just casually make-out and sh1t when we party together. I tried to go steady with this girl a few months ago and she wound up kissing a friend of mine on a trip we all went on. I really don't trust this girl at all for anything steady after this, even though she told me she loves me.

So my plan at school for now on is to avoid this girl at all costs and approach other girls I've had my eye on around the campus. There are so many HBs there, it's foolish to focus my time on a girl that made out with my friend (even if she is smokin hot) lol. She gets jealous real easy, and usually when this kicks in it's hard to avoid her.. So I really need to set my mind straight here.

Also, tomorrow night I have a date scheduled with this girl I had been seeing about a month or 2 ago before I made this journal. Things got kinda serious way too quick, we got into a stupid little argument and I cut contact. This girl sent me a text out of nowhere (I thought the "fvck off don't ever talk to me again" text was the end ) being really friendly. We hungout as friends but there was a guy with her who I thought was her BF. I asked her about him, and I guess they're just good friends.

We'll see where this goes tomorrow. If she wants to just remain friends, that's great. I have no need for enemies, If she wants to fvck, EVEN BETTER!

 

[Alex DeLarge]

I see very good self-observation here.

What kind of school do you go to? Is it a larger school? Urban area?

The best college I can get to is in Richmond, VA. About an hour away. The other one is closer, but nowhere near as good or cultured as the ones down here.

Really stoked to get to a real college when I move out of here in three years. The military and all the hanging out with guys SUCKS. Good learning experience though.

Thanks Vice. Yeah it's a University in an urban area. Lots of people there from all over the world. I want to approach more foreign girls there specifically, they just seem more interesting in general. But feel as though there's some kind of barrier keeping me from relating with them.

 

[Alex DeLarge]

Entry #24

Got stood up on a date last night. Made plans with this HB8 I was seeing about a month ago to meet at a pub in our city. I called her on my way down.. No answer.. So I texted her to see where she was at. I get a picture text back and it's a picture of my band's CD in a local record store. She asked me if it was any good and I said back to her "Hmm.. Never heard of them. Give it a listen and give me a review, maybe I'll pick it up " She replied back laughing and said "Ok".

About 10 minutes pass and I say to her "So are you almost here? I'm here now." No reply.. I figure maybe she's just walking and didn't feel the phone vibrate. I call again.. No answer. I waited for about 30 minutes, then I just said "fvck it" and left.

I don't get it man.. I'm getting fed up with dating, every chick is just a complete let down. This girl knows I'm hot sh1t.. She knows I'm in a band and saw my CD in a pretty popular record shop in our city.. Yet she thinks she has the right to stand me up like that. I just didn't say anything back and deleted her number. I refuse to put up with bvllsh1t like that.

Since I found this site, I have gone on dates with around 10 different girls.. I know it's not a lot compared to some people here, but I have a very busy schedule.. But not one of these girls has lasted more than 2 weeks.

For some reason, in our society every girl whether they're pretty hot or pretty ugly seem to think they're entitled to have a brad pitt look-a-like boyfriend with an impeccable body, intelligence, confidence, the whole 9 yards.. While the girl sits on their couch, eat cheetos and icecream, and watch a Jersey Shore marathon. I'm just sick of it man.. There seem to be no good, wholesome people anymore.

 

[Alex DeLarge]

WOW! Last night was just fvcking great!

Epic CB story about to unfold here...

... I mean EPIC.

Okay, so I'm at this lame ass party with one of my best friends that this HB7 who had a huge crush on me in highschool invited us to. I was having a decent time until everyone started to get too drunk.

Me and HB7 girl were making out up on the stairs of the house at the party.. The kid's weird dad (the party was at this kid's house) asks if HB7 girl if she's all right.. His son tries to make me look like a rapist (cause he was trying to get with her), and her ugly fat friends were telling her to stay away from me.

Okay, well I didn't care.. Cause she was leaving with me and staying over that night. We go play some beer pong and have a good time, then I went outside for a cigarette.

Some dumbass wigger white trash guy at the party was trying to start sh1t with me.. He kept saying HB7 girl was a slampiece and she was leaving with him blah blah.. Tried to tell me I'm not gettin laid tonight and all this sh1t.. He handed me a joint so I said "thanks" and smoked it with him. Then he kept trying to tell me it was heroin. I told him to go fvck himself and to not joke around about that. (A couple of my friends are drug addicts, one of them died.. It's a touchy subject for me.) Went back inside.

Back in the party with HB7 girl, and dumbass wigger guy comes back in and says "What'd you say to me out there?" while he's got 2 dudes backin him up. Then I said back "I told you to go fvck yourself you little b1tch" Two of them start throwin punches.. I was kinda tipsy and just grabbed the nearest blunt object I could and smashed one of them over the head with it.

Ran outta the party.. They chased me, got punched a few more times but got up and kept running. I woulda stayed and fought but it was 3 jacked dudes on me (I'm kinda skinny and not very tall). these guys were tryin to rob me too.. They finaly said "run your sh1t" after a few punches and I told them all to suck my ****... Got punched a few more times for that, but fvck it.. I only had $15 and I needed it to get to work today. I finally flagged down a car and thank god the person was hospitable enough to help me out with a ride to the next neighborhood.

Woke up today to HB7 girl asking me what happened.. She heard I was in the hospital etc.. Those dudes went back and told everyone they fvcked me up pretty bad when I don't have one scratch on me or black eyes hahaha!

Okay, on with the story...

So apparently after I got chased out of this party, the old dad at the party tried to rape HB7 girl.. His son was trying to sleep with her too but she slammed a door shut on his face. My friend helped her out and they left the party together. Sucks cause she was supposed to stay over my place last night lol.. But I can probably get her over here tonight.

So let's see here...
I got a makeout and some groping in on this chick at the price of almost getting my ass beat. I'd say it's worth it.

 

[Alex DeLarge]

Entry #26

Halloween night, I hungout at my friend's place with 7 other people. None of us really felt like going out so we just chilled and watched some TV and had a few beers. A friend and I went outside for a cig and I had just realized that I had to go down the street to give something to my friend who was working as a hostess at a club.

My friend and I go down there, I introduced him to her (she's easily a 9). We chatted for a bit then I said to him "fvck dude, we got into a club on halloween with a cover charge for free. Let's just stay here for a bit".. Went up to a few girls and chatted, but most had boyfriends and I don't like to interfere with that kinda crap. Bad karma.

I came up with a pretty clever line on some chick dressed as a zombie. I went up to her, said hello and introduced myself, asked what she was for halloween, then said to her "So.. Are you a trick? Or are you a treat? with a sly grin." Went over pretty well with her.. She started laughing, but then some guy came out of nowhere and took a pic with her and her friend. I jumped into the picture as a joke, and the guy got kinda pissed. After the other day I wasn't really looking to confront anyone or try to get into any fights over pvssy lol.

We left the place after about an hour to grab the train back to our place from our buddies. We had a fun night though.

 

[Vice]

Tagged for future comment & reading (I'm at work and don't want to lose this thread). Stay tuned.

 

[Alex DeLarge]

Entry #27

One of the hot girls in my class approached me today and we had a short conversation. HB9, really intelligent, very passionate about what she's studying, and pretty ambitious. I have two classes with this chick, I'll build some face to face rapport with her next time I see her at school, number close her, and schedule a date for whenever I'm not busy.

I don't want to be viewed by my classmates as that "creeper guy that's gaming girls in class" just for reputational reasons, but at the same time I don't really care. It's just gonna be beta dudes saying that sh1t to other dudes or other chicks (including her) trying to win their affection. I'm above that.

In the end, I feel like it's all about framing my reality. As said in the "How to be an Alpha Male" book advertised on this site. This girl approached me, so I figure she must have at least slight interest sexually. I've seen her checking me out in class before so why the hell not go for it? Why would I let myself pass up an HB9 checking me out who approached ME?! It would be crazy not to right?

I figure I'll ask her out, if she says yes.. Cool! If she says no/has a boyfriend or anything else that may complicate it.. She still seems like a cool girl anyways and would make a good friend (and maybe has hot friends ).

After class today, I plan on doing some cold approach sarging downtown. I really need to get better at talking to random hot women who I do not know and have no affiliation with without being drunk. (I kinda wanna stop the parties and night game after last weekend lol). Plus sarging and game is kinda like a fun hobby or sport. You try to get better and better each time and get to look at the results and see what you need improvement in or where you did well.

 

[Alex DeLarge]

Entry #28

Went to a small get together over my friend's place the other night, smoked some weed and watched tv with a bunch of people. This girl who I made out with last weekend at a party was there (I didn't expect her to be) and she was b1tching to me about how I didn't text her back 3 days ago.

Everyone was staring at us and the whole time she was b1tching I couldn't help but think of this site and started cracking up laughing then told her "I'm sorry" haha.. I wasn't trying to be a ****head to her, I was honestly trying to be respectful, but I just found it so funny for some reason. This felt really awkward but I wasn't really concerned with keeping her or losing her.

There was also another girl there who I had made out with about a month ago at a party who is has been seeing a mutual friend of ours. She was touching me and seemed to be making sexual advances. I just told her to please not do that and walked to the other side of the room. Not really interested in this girl since she proved to me how crazy she really is. Plus, the guy she was seeing (who I'm also friends with) is standing there watching.

Ran into HB9 girl who I made out with a few times at school today. I managed to avoid her all last week, but she walked by me today and said hi and all that. I really don't want to see this girl around anymore since I can't see her and I going anywhere other than casual makeouts (She only fvcks guys she's dating she says). Plus, I heard a rumor from a chick that she has possible STDs. But that girl might just want me to fvck her instead of HB9 girl.. Who knows lol.

 

[Alex DeLarge]

UPDATE

So, I've been taking a break in the whole night life and school sarging thing. I've been kind of behind in my studies and have picked up more hours at work. Another thing that stinks is I'm moving back to my hometown from the city (FVCK.. My town's full of ug's and prego's lol) I figure this will be good for me though. Taking a break from sarging leads to more time for personal reflection and ideology.

I've felt a lot better lately about my whole "I'm still a virgin!" problem. It does not bother me, and to be honest.. I don't have that inner desire anymore that says to me "OKAY, GO OUT TO A PARTY AND FVCK THIS DRUNK GIRL SO YOU LOSE THE V!"

Don't get me wrong, I still have game and a WHOLE lot of sex drive.. But not having experienced sex is no longer an insecurity to me. I feel as though the whole "I need to sarge to lose my V plates!" thing has been holding me back in perfecting my game. I'm a virgin.. Big fvcking deal! I'm good looking, have a great personality, and can converse and hold great conversation. I'm intelligent, a bit of a bad ass, and a musician too. I really cannot see why a woman would not desire to be with me!

That is the mentality I must have. All women are soaking wet for me. Not the mentality of "I have a boner, I need to fvck that girl so I lose my V-plate!"

Any feedback on this thought is welcome. Positive or negative. Criticism will only help me build as a person. Thank you!

 

[pdx1138]

Perfect Attitude/mindset to have there Alex.

If you get some...great....if you don't get some...great

 

[Vice]

My advice to you is to never let a woman know you're a virgin.

Ever.

But I'm sure you already know this, and why it's a bad idea...

 

[Alex DeLarge]

My advice to you is to never let a woman know you're a virgin.

Ever.

But I'm sure you already know this, and why it's a bad idea...

I don't see any reason why I would even bring that up to a woman. I've told women before that I was and it didn't turn them away, but they were girls I wasn't really into.

Why would this be bad though? Thoughts of clinginess to a woman?

 

[pdx1138]

Yeah thats it.

My sister was telling me how she's making this guy wait awhile because he is acting needy and they haven't even done the deed yet.....she's concerned that he'll be even more so after the act.

Not saying you act needy, but they might think about attachment issues from a virgin.

 

[Alex DeLarge]

Entry #29

Last night I went out with some friends who were home for Thanksgiving break from college. Ran into a lot of old friends and had a great night. Ran into a girl who I had been dating around the end of the summer (HB8) who went absolutely insane on me. I said hi to her and just treated her like a good friend. I really find no purpose in holding a grudge anymore with women I had dated in the past and would rather just befriend them. Well HB8 girl was kinda drunk and initiated some kino. She started grabbing my **** and touching me. I told her "No, that's not happening. Sorry."

Now I know a lot of you might think "What the fvck?! Why would you tell her to stop grabbing your d1ck?!" well, this is one of those girls that thinks she has some kind of sexual power over men and can get action whenever she wants. So I put her in her place and just politely said "no".. I find it amusing that if I were to go up to her and start touching her boobs or pvssy that I would probably have 10 dudes instantly beating the sh1t out of me. Whatever though, sometimes you just have to say "no". I had a great conversation with her and carried on with the rest of my night.

Went down the street to a club with two friends (one of them my wingman) HB9 girl from my school was there (we have a bunch of mutual friends) and HB9 girl from my hometown. They're both good friends and I hooked up with the both of them. I mainly focused on the one from my school while I was there, since she's more (as we say at the liberal arts college) "sexually liberated" lmao.. AKA "easy". Anyways just had a few drinks, kino'd HB9 girl from school a bit etc.. Afterward, a bunch of us went to an after party.

At the after party I was just hanging out.. My friend was giving me free vodka so I wound up getting wasted haha. I was hanging out with HB9 girl from school and HB9 girl from my hometown in one room. Me and the girl from my hometown went outside for a second and she just started making out with me.. Then HB9 girl from school came outside and saw..

FVCK. lol

She had sort of a "WTF" look on her face, but she told me before that she didn't want anything serious.. and I told her I don't want anything serious either. So I'm going to do what I want.

 

[Alex DeLarge]

Entry #30

Went to a party last night and brought this girl i made out with at a party in my last post. It was kind of lame to me.. Techno music, glowsticks, and other crap. I made the best of it though and partied with some friends.

I introduced myself to some guy when I first walked in to the party cause he was standing in the door way and I just get a "Do I fvcking know you?!" d1ckhead reply I just laughed in his face and kept walking.

As the night continued I notice the girl I brought kept talking to this one guy.. And according to what my friends said, she left with him. I was kind of bummed out about that. I tried to put the moves on her earlier but she kept pushing me away.. She was okay with it last night, and apparently okay with this new guy tonight.

I don't know what I did wrong.. But I figure there's point in even wasting time and energy thinking about it because it's something out of my control. When this all happened I felt super jealous and heated emotionally.. But then with the help of observing my ego and applying things I have learned here to the situation, I easily calmed myself down. After this, I wound up talking to a really beautiful red head HB9.5.. I mean this girl is gorgeous, she was intelligent too. But she had a boyfriend. Oh well, still had a great time talking with her.

 

[getready]

Hey man good posts. One thing I'm noticing is that you keep coming up with excuses for why you didn't hook up with so and so or why you didn't f*ck this girl. I get that you are trying to have standards and I think that rejecting girls is definitely working to build your rapport. It seems like you have been hooking up with some hot girls too. However, you are still a virgin. I think that your scared to go all the way and thus are making excuses for why you didn't go for it. From the way you describe it, you could have had sex with a least a few of those girls. I think having high standards has built you a good rapport, but nows the time to cash in. I had the same problem for a while. I knew certain girls were in to me but I was always making excuses because I was scared and don't like putting myself in positions where I could fail. I was always waiting for something better or a more ideal situation. Just my thoughts. I think you should just f*ck the next girl that is of fairly good quality. Doesn't have to be perfect. Should bring your game to a whole new level

 

[Alex DeLarge]

Hey man good posts. One thing I'm noticing is that you keep coming up with excuses for why you didn't hook up with so and so or why you didn't f*ck this girl. I get that you are trying to have standards and I think that rejecting girls is definitely working to build your rapport. It seems like you have been hooking up with some hot girls too. However, you are still a virgin. I think that your scared to go all the way and thus are making excuses for why you didn't go for it. From the way you describe it, you could have had sex with a least a few of those girls. I think having high standards has built you a good rapport, but nows the time to cash in. I had the same problem for a while. I knew certain girls were in to me but I was always making excuses because I was scared and don't like putting myself in positions where I could fail. I was always waiting for something better or a more ideal situation. Just my thoughts. I think you should just f*ck the next girl that is of fairly good quality. Doesn't have to be perfect. Should bring your game to a whole new level

Thanks for your insight getready. I agree with you totally. I think my inner AFC is still burning a bit when it comes to actually getting the lay. Sometimes I think "Well what if I start banging her and I get performance anxiety and go limp", "What if she has a boyfriend, "What will this other girl that likes me think if she finds out?", "What if she's sleeping with a lot of dudes and I catch an STD?" The list goes on...

I need to stop caring about things that don't immediately affect my quality of life in a sexual situation perhaps. I've made advances toward sex on women before (Who I had been making out with, feeling up etc..) Then they say something like "I'm not read" or push me away. I would keep making advances until they straight up said "No".

But I have also been in other situations.. (Back in my true AFC days before I even knew about this stuff) where a girl had thrown a condom at me while we were making out/dry humping hahaha. Then in my head I was thinking "Well, what if I put the condom on wrong" etc.. The analytical thinking of the situation made my **** go soft, and that was the last time I ever saw her!

I really need to stop focusing on the "What if I do this wrong" mindset and just go for it. It's better to shoot for the stars and land on your ass than to sit on your ass and think about the risk involved in shooting for the stars and not even attempt it.