That's because you live in your own head. I suggested a journal, just pour it all out. Then, after a while, you can go back and read what you were thinking... over time, you can actually track the progress you are making. You'll see it in black and white, how the thougths you have today are different than from a month ago. Try it.
I had my own issue with a chick that turned MY world upside down... I was completely lost man. And like you, I had spent my whole damn life thinking I was a victim, and that things were happening to me to make me feel bad.
My parents, my family, the kids in school who picked on me, the religion I was raised in... all that stuff added up and made me feel like I was a helpless loser.
NOTHING changed until I finally said, "that's it. I've had it. I've got one life and I am going to do whatever the hell it takes to make sure it's a good one."
It has NOT been easy... but it has been WORTH IT.
Maybe this drama with this chick will be enough to just slap you silly... if you choose to make this a reason to change , it's all uphill from here.
So, for the final time... take the suggestions I and the other guys have given you, do some QUALITY reading...
and maybe I'll be talking to you again in the future. Not for awhile though... you've got a lot to process. If you keep talking about it, it's just going to make you more confused. Take your time, do it right. It can be done.
jackofasses said:
This forum is about self improvement.. so why don't you work on that sociopath thing of yours.
Don't get me wrong, I care about other people, I care about their feelings.. But seldom do i think of that BEFORE doing something.
You may not be sociopathic.. just an extremely negative person.
For a guy you don't like that much, and who's opinion you don't care about, you sure are investing a lot of energy into him and his opinions... think about that.
Take care, I am officially out of this thread. :crazy: