Yup guys, another journal here on the High-School forum. This is the 5th active journal right now. The other's seem to include; Nino-TK, BPH, NorwegianDJ, and the latest being Bums'.
I of course have been lurking mostly through The DJ Bible, Anti-Dumps' existing posts, Senor Fingers book, and Pooks' book. My my, have my views of women changed since then.
I'm still in High-School. I am going into 11th grade next year around the end of August and what not. I am 16 right now. I came to this site from another site. That other website is an on-line community image board(for those of you that get it
.) Someone from that site posted a recommendation to read "The Book of Pook." I read it first to last page and still go over it now and then for it's amazing and awe inspiring content. I found Sosuave.net through that book. I read Senor Finger, "Weapons of Mass Seduction," as well. Also browsed the tips section in The DJ Bible.
I now see that I need to take action in my life. Instead of being that guy in the corner not really doing anything. I have been very passive in High-School so far, just sticking with my friends from different groups and chatting. Not really getting my image out there. I have not been very successful with women and girls at all. I have stayed single most of my life and have not even gotten to first base:crackup:. I have not been interested in women at all up until now. I have gotten to go to a few dances with girls in the past 10th grade year. However, I realize that these girls at best are only 3-4s, on my scale. Seeing that this is what I attract without really doing anything, I need to step up my game. I have not gotten out into the game for more attractive girls because of the fear of rejection and lack of confidence. So, I now have the tools to complete the goal of filtering out the interested from the uninterested women to pick from, and to be a better self.
I am writing this journal because I am tired of all the bull**** I have done this summer. It is so god damn boring staying inside on the weekdays with no one home but my sister and I. So I want to go outside to walk around and explore, do some mini-travel. My summer has not been all that horrible. I am a Marylander. So it is common for people in Maryland to visit Ocean City once-twice a year like my parents do. They take my sister and I and meet the rest of the family down there. The weekly trip this year has been better than the one's in the past. Being 16, my mom has let go a bit and permitted me to go wherever the **** I want.
Most of the days I had been down there, I was able to walk around and follow the Boot Camp that was published on The DJ Bible. I successfully made eye contact with many people and said "Hi," or "Hi, how's it going?"(with a grin or a smile of course) I did this up to 50 and continued to do it losing track. I did it first to single older people(since they don't intimidate me much). I then moved on to older women. Then older couples or small groups, then younger couples and small families. Until I worked my way down to single younger women. I noticed something very interesting. Younger single women acted with a larger and more eccentric response to my greeting. Most of them gave a small giggle, then smiled back, made me feel twice as good about myself compared to greeting the other groups of people. Another thing I noticed about myself was when I walked along to a more crowded area of the city. I became really stressed and filled with anxiety in my head about saying "Hi," to the passing people. I am still slightly intimated about saying to some other groups of people, I will have to work on that. Lastly during the week, I started small conversations between only a few people. I ended getting a free fresh funnel cake.
Enough of that. If you're still reading this text, I congratulate you and thank you as well.
I should go over my goals, interests, hobbies, wants, etc.
Short-term wants/goals
-Go outside everyday the sun is shining
-Get a weight set and get into starting strength
-Get my driving permit
-Buy a bike
-Walk outside of my property premises
-Improve my skin and keep it clean
-Get rid of the darkness around my eyes from lack of sleep
-Get my nails nice looking
-Get a new wardrobe for myself.
Will have to add to this list.
Interests I can do outside to spend time productively
-Anything artistic
-Reading older works from the best minds that existed
-Exercise a little more
-Guys, give me some ideas. In the meantime I'll see what I can do.
So as you can see this journal is more about improving myself rather than getting women, even though I'm interested. Women are bonus to the changes. Never center your life around women, you'll crash and burn every time.
So with all of that out of the way, here comes the start of a new life. Oh yeah, why am I on the computer now anyway?
Any feedback is greatly appreciated guys.
I of course have been lurking mostly through The DJ Bible, Anti-Dumps' existing posts, Senor Fingers book, and Pooks' book. My my, have my views of women changed since then.
I'm still in High-School. I am going into 11th grade next year around the end of August and what not. I am 16 right now. I came to this site from another site. That other website is an on-line community image board(for those of you that get it
.) Someone from that site posted a recommendation to read "The Book of Pook." I read it first to last page and still go over it now and then for it's amazing and awe inspiring content. I found Sosuave.net through that book. I read Senor Finger, "Weapons of Mass Seduction," as well. Also browsed the tips section in The DJ Bible. I now see that I need to take action in my life. Instead of being that guy in the corner not really doing anything. I have been very passive in High-School so far, just sticking with my friends from different groups and chatting. Not really getting my image out there. I have not been very successful with women and girls at all. I have stayed single most of my life and have not even gotten to first base:crackup:. I have not been interested in women at all up until now. I have gotten to go to a few dances with girls in the past 10th grade year. However, I realize that these girls at best are only 3-4s, on my scale. Seeing that this is what I attract without really doing anything, I need to step up my game. I have not gotten out into the game for more attractive girls because of the fear of rejection and lack of confidence. So, I now have the tools to complete the goal of filtering out the interested from the uninterested women to pick from, and to be a better self.
I am writing this journal because I am tired of all the bull**** I have done this summer. It is so god damn boring staying inside on the weekdays with no one home but my sister and I. So I want to go outside to walk around and explore, do some mini-travel. My summer has not been all that horrible. I am a Marylander. So it is common for people in Maryland to visit Ocean City once-twice a year like my parents do. They take my sister and I and meet the rest of the family down there. The weekly trip this year has been better than the one's in the past. Being 16, my mom has let go a bit and permitted me to go wherever the **** I want.
Most of the days I had been down there, I was able to walk around and follow the Boot Camp that was published on The DJ Bible. I successfully made eye contact with many people and said "Hi," or "Hi, how's it going?"(with a grin or a smile of course) I did this up to 50 and continued to do it losing track. I did it first to single older people(since they don't intimidate me much). I then moved on to older women. Then older couples or small groups, then younger couples and small families. Until I worked my way down to single younger women. I noticed something very interesting. Younger single women acted with a larger and more eccentric response to my greeting. Most of them gave a small giggle, then smiled back, made me feel twice as good about myself compared to greeting the other groups of people. Another thing I noticed about myself was when I walked along to a more crowded area of the city. I became really stressed and filled with anxiety in my head about saying "Hi," to the passing people. I am still slightly intimated about saying to some other groups of people, I will have to work on that. Lastly during the week, I started small conversations between only a few people. I ended getting a free fresh funnel cake.
Enough of that. If you're still reading this text, I congratulate you and thank you as well.
I should go over my goals, interests, hobbies, wants, etc.
Short-term wants/goals
-Go outside everyday the sun is shining
-Get a weight set and get into starting strength
-Get my driving permit
-Buy a bike
-Walk outside of my property premises
-Improve my skin and keep it clean
-Get rid of the darkness around my eyes from lack of sleep
-Get my nails nice looking
-Get a new wardrobe for myself.
Will have to add to this list.
Interests I can do outside to spend time productively
-Anything artistic
-Reading older works from the best minds that existed
-Exercise a little more
-Guys, give me some ideas. In the meantime I'll see what I can do.
So as you can see this journal is more about improving myself rather than getting women, even though I'm interested. Women are bonus to the changes. Never center your life around women, you'll crash and burn every time.
So with all of that out of the way, here comes the start of a new life. Oh yeah, why am I on the computer now anyway?
Any feedback is greatly appreciated guys.
