8/24/11
It has been a little bit of time since I have written a journal here. I have came back from Myrtle Beach and the results were as I expected. I was able to meet 1 new person a day for the first five days. I could feel myself getting better at what I was doing until half-way through, I got a ****ed up cold. Yep, it made me feel like absolute ****. I felt my confidence and happiness fall down the drain. It is Wednesday and my cold is gone now. I feel much much better.
I am still waiting for opportunities to show up. I just stand there thinking to myself. It is slightly easier than before, but it is still a challenge just to talk to a stranger, yet alone a group.
Well, school is starting up real soon with me entering my junior year. I am going clothes shopping probably this Friday. While I was down at the beach, my parents did some clothe shopping for me. They went in without really knowing what I wanted. They had the idea of Aeropostale and American Eagle. Jesus... So they got all butthurt when I told them I did not like any of the clothes they brang me back. I did thank them though.
I realize that when I go to school with the idea of how I am going to look, I am going to look way too dressed up, or out of place. However, I remember reading that girls have men after men lined up for them. Should I not be different and look like every other guy that dates her? Or should I be the one that is different(in a good way)?
Oh yeah a few last things;
-I still brush my teeth three times a day
-I still go outside to play basketball
-I still bring my notepad wherever I go(it is deeming more useful than I thought)
I just wish I could just act right at the moment instead of hesitating.
Until then,
Smock
P.S. I do not care if anyone comments now. I would rather write down something I can read and look at, than do nothing about it.
It has been a little bit of time since I have written a journal here. I have came back from Myrtle Beach and the results were as I expected. I was able to meet 1 new person a day for the first five days. I could feel myself getting better at what I was doing until half-way through, I got a ****ed up cold. Yep, it made me feel like absolute ****. I felt my confidence and happiness fall down the drain. It is Wednesday and my cold is gone now. I feel much much better.
I am still waiting for opportunities to show up. I just stand there thinking to myself. It is slightly easier than before, but it is still a challenge just to talk to a stranger, yet alone a group.
Well, school is starting up real soon with me entering my junior year. I am going clothes shopping probably this Friday. While I was down at the beach, my parents did some clothe shopping for me. They went in without really knowing what I wanted. They had the idea of Aeropostale and American Eagle. Jesus... So they got all butthurt when I told them I did not like any of the clothes they brang me back. I did thank them though.
I realize that when I go to school with the idea of how I am going to look, I am going to look way too dressed up, or out of place. However, I remember reading that girls have men after men lined up for them. Should I not be different and look like every other guy that dates her? Or should I be the one that is different(in a good way)?
Oh yeah a few last things;
-I still brush my teeth three times a day
-I still go outside to play basketball
-I still bring my notepad wherever I go(it is deeming more useful than I thought)
I just wish I could just act right at the moment instead of hesitating.
Until then,
Smock
P.S. I do not care if anyone comments now. I would rather write down something I can read and look at, than do nothing about it.
