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[Chamber36]

well last night really pisses me off.

NONE of my friends wanted to go out, because they all have a SCARCITY mentality, and I am trying to have an abundance mentality.

So I call another friend and he says he's in the club. I go to the club, see another friend. He says come with me we're gonna go **** some girls. I go with him to the other club. Then all he does is talk to people and leave. I am stuck sitting there by myself.

When I got a drink at the bar a hot girl(HB8) who hadn't ever really showed signs of interest in me suddenly started giving me ass kino. I don't think she even realised it.
As I was leaving a girl pinched me in my ass. I turn around to talk to her but the girl went away. This was basically ALL my consolidation for last night. I didn't do anything good, but a girl pinched my ass, and she was goodlooking.

I am getting opportunities. Don't you guys worry. I am getting numbers and plenty of kino. But I am not making out. And I'm not getting any dates.

I know how to make out with a girl, and I know how to date. But for some reason their IL is just too low. Maybe I just have to get super muscular or something. Maybe all the girls are on internet dating sites or something.... Still there's guys I know who are getting regular pvssy which is up to standard.

 

[macallik]

Hey Chamber, cool journal. I like how you keep going out even when your main friends flake. I think you are going to get very good very quickly if you keep that up.

I saw your comment about your lack of makeouts. You are doing kino which is great. I believe that your lack of makeouts means you are not escalating and pushing the envelope enough. You have to keep turning up the kino until the makeout or until she gets spooked and removes herself from your presence. Wanting more makeouts but not escalating kino is exactly like wanting more phone numbers and having conversations but not going for the # close... It is good for practice but you need to go that little bit extra and your results will increase exponentially.


Some other stuff that will help you get more makeouts:
- look for drunk chicks
- look for solo chicks
- if a chick is with a group of friends, try to take her somewhere she won't be judged by her friends like a dark corner
- When grinding on someone, spin them around so you are face to face so it is more intimate and easier to start a make out then her facing away from you
- When you are dancing face to face if ANY part of your heads touch constantly (ie forehead, cheeks, etc)... start looking at her lips and in her eyes. If you are getting the green light look (or even the deer in headlights look) pucker up and go in.
- Be persistent: Can't stress this enough. If you try and kiss an uninterested chick, she will leave your presence. If you try and kiss a chick who is interested but shy/nervous/afraid of being judged/doesn't want to look easy/etc, she will turn her head and/or give a nervous laugh BUT remains in your presence. If that happens, slow things down and slowly start escalating kino again before trying the kiss again like 10 mins later



Also are you getting #s with the intentions of doing something later on with them as implied in the conversation? Something I caught myself doing was conversing about nothing extremely interesting to her and me, which went ok and then grabbing the number. The conversation wasn't terrible so there was no resistance to giving me their #, but when I texted/called, I was just some guy instead of the guy they had an intriguing convo with and are waiting by the phone for.

This is a great thread that helped me see things in a more productive light. At least the first whole page is full of gold. Good luck and keep on getting that field experience!

 

[Chamber36]

Work was pretty good. It was a good little boost for my ego.
I started out pretty tense at work. I couldn't even really think straight.

BTW I haven't jerked off for the past 2 days.

On thursday I started taking supplements, and I woke up friday morning with a wet dream. Since then I have been taking the supplements and not jerking off. So today I was pretty horny.

Well I saw this pretty hot mixed girl. She didn't seem to speak any dutch. I thought to myself: I bet she would text me. She started dancing and doing some crazy stuff with her hips and she kept looking over he shoulder at me. I kept my eye-contact real strong. So then I wrote my number on a beer coaster and put it in her jacket. Didn't talk to her. I got nervous as hell when she picked up the jacket. I thought she would have said something but she didn't. I wonder if she'll call, but it doesn't matter much to me either way.

Then suddenly a girl who I refered to in post #19 as HB9 #2. She came and talked to me all by herself. There wasn't much of a real connection going on because she was nervous. I was amazed with her breasts though. I wanted to feel them hehehe. Anyway she indicated huge interest by coming and talking to me like that imo. I got her number before and haven't called her. Should be 2 weeks ago now.

And lateron I saw another girl, who's even better than the last one. She was with her ditsy friend and they walked straight by. So i said: "come here!" and she came straight over and set on the counter next to me, then she slid over and we had a little kino going. It was all about the microcalibration though. I hadn't seen her in a long time, and last time she had a pretty nasty pimple, but tonight her skin was clear as a baby's bottom.

I actually missed a chance to make out with this girl about a year ago. She called me over to tell me some gossip. At the time I was thinking: 'I wonder if she'll slap me if I kiss her right now...' then it ended. Story was over. And on the dance floor we always had some incredible sexual tension going on.

Because she would approach me with open body language right, and I would be like noooo, u don't want me....., with my body language. She would nod and stuff, and we had some pretty hot stuff going with non-stop eye-contact. like 95% of the time. Anyway when she walked off from me at work she managed to maintain eye-contact as long as she could and she blew me a little kiss. She's done that to me before.

So one might say don't be led on by this girl. I don't think she is though. It was good to see her though, I hadn't seen her in months. I have got to make out with her. If it's the last thing I do! I want this girl.

And Macallik, I'm glad you like my journal. And your help is much appreciated. But I have actually gone through all the experiences to know what you've told me.

I can name 4 instances I made out with a girl without saying 1 word. I have done the divide and conquer technique before, with a girl who was reluctant to make out. I still got something. But my game wasn't good enough to keep her interested for the long term. That's where I've been lapsing.

I am improving on keeping them interested for the long term though by working on my inner and outer game. Somehow hotter girls are seeing potential in me. Hot girls that didn't used to watch me, are approaching me and/or giving me kino for no apparent reason. It's the inner game, and the social awareness.

That's something I dig about the last girl I mentioned. She's aware of everything. She can see what I'm thinking, and she knows how to act. I dunno if she's socially that aware, but she's self-aware.

She is smart. I wonder what she's thinking about me though.
The problem is that I live in a little village and most of these girls are still thinking in terms of popularity. I've got to seduce this girl. She'd be my easy ticket to a heavily invested relationship. Whether she likes it or not. Once she starts makin out with me there shouldn't be no going back.
This is all I've been working for the last few months. This is what I've been reading for. An opportunity with a nice girl, that although she may be young, there's so much chemistry and firey sexual chemistry going on.

That's what I'm saying. The girl who I referred to earlier as HB9 just doesn't do it for me. Although she has a perfect body, with succulent breasts and a nice ass, a perfectly symmetrical face, and some blue eyes(she's got a few pimples though), there's not really so much sexuality going on there.

I love it when sexuality is carried through eye-contact and it just makes u feel so firey.

My colleague approached me and said: "are you also so horny?". I was like: "YOU TOO!??!?". Man I was charged today. I feel like a hindu monk, who's karmically laden with sexual energy. From Karma Sutra.

I shouldn't be thinking about sex because now I'm going to bed. If I jerk it all my cosmic energy will be wasted. Wish me luck!

Also a milf tried to dance with me while I was working and I told her not to. So I felt much like this guy. btw my balls hurt. Don't know how long I can do this.

 

[Chamber36]

Today in the car I decided that all the girls I used to have one-itis for, cannot rely on me. I realise now that as long as I don't get involved, they think they could always jump back on me as a provider. So I have to conquer a fresh new and better girl.

I think my outer game is pretty congruent and pretty consistent now. And I'm attracting girls as well as I can without changing my appearance too much. I don't want to get my hair cut.

It's time for me to really apply this to long term game. When it comes to long-term game I fail to see it from a girls perspective. I mean, I don't know how long the iron is gonna be hot. And I really hate warming up girls through texting. Texting sucks. It's expensive and it takes so damn long to have a conversation. You don't even really know who you're talking to.

My next goal when it comes to game is sexualising myself as much as possible. I want to learn about energy. I think that when you send a girl sexual energy it actually costs you physical energy. I noticed that when I charged up on sexual energy last night at work. After I talked to a hot girl my energy level rose internally, and the girls around were all attuned to me. Then with a few girls a little spark of game transferred to them. But I could only do that to a few girls. It's like the energy got stale after a while, or I used it up too quick.

 

[Chamber36]

well I just had another wet dream. These supplements I'm taking are off the hinges. My nuts are hurting me all the time though.

 

[Chamber36]

This entry doesn't have anything to do with women again.

Yesterday I watched some inspirational footage of Anthony Robbins seminars. Read some inspirational quotes by Winston Churchill, Albert Einstein, Robert Kiyosaki and others.

After that I worked out for a while and did my upper body and core. Then I did a little stability exercise for my legs. Now This morning I looked in the mirror and my shoulders are getting pretty big.

If I keep going at this rate I'm going to get really strapping.
I've also been studying nutrition. Drank some ginger tea recently. Made me feel pretty strong.

Now today I plan on reading some Robert Kiyosaki.

 

[Chamber36]

Read the first 2 chapters of Mystery Method.
It's pretty good. A little bit more scientific than the game.

But the underlying message to me is this: Get a license and move out.
Once I'm driving and have my own place, I'll have plenty of girls stopping by.

That's why tomorrow I'm organizing a driving class.

 

[Chamber36]

last night sucked.

I woke up in the middle of the night and a few of my subconcious thoughts bubbled up.

1. Mystery says: Attract, Comfort, Seduce. Should take 4-10 hours.
2. I have to decide if I want to study Engineering or Psychology/Psychobiology.
3. In the club, in my mind there was a conflict between Id and Superego.

Anyway last night was ****ty. I went to the club by myself because my friends were SUPER late. They ended up in a different club cuz a friend of mine wasn't allowed in the club I was at. So I was all by myself. The only people I knew were certain girls, and I didn't want to use them as pivots, because they're AW's. So I saw the girl I met last week, who I had texted.

She seemed a little upset that I didn't text her a second text yesterday, which is good. I was pretty tired last night, and I wasn't really having fun, partly because I didn't turn any heads when entering the club.

So I tried to open the girl outside while she was smokin, but she talked to her gf and so I just igored that biatch.

Now I feel like texting her but I don't think she'd even respond.

Anyway I've decided I've got to get the hell to Amsterdam.

The only thing that's keeping me living with my mom is my job that I have each saturday, and MMA/Jiu jitsu which I have on mondays and thursdays.

my cousin is going to visit me in 2 weeks. Baring that in mind I'll go to Amsterdam tomorrow and try to fix up his bedroom.

Gonna see what I can do.

 

[Chamber36]

Well I just got back from work. Girls were hot because they all did xtc. At the same time they wouldn't take any **** and everyone was giving me ****. So I was a little uptight. People were touching me and disrespecting me all night. I saw some girls though, about 3 or 4, which seemed to be hot and digging me also.

The only one who was really nice was an HB8, who smiled at me politely. I thought she would be arrogant like the other ones (till she smiled). So I was going to open her but I had to get to work.

Anyway I made a lot of cash. I'm going to spend it on a prostitute which will be hotter than all the girls in the club!

 

[Chamber36]

OK. Worked again last night.

After watching some video's I did some more work on my body language. Realised I should relax the shoulders, and it's not bad to roll them forward. Besides that I noticed I should talk to girls in a sweet voice. I don't think I should be trying to talk to girls in a tough-guy voice.
So when I open a girl my voice will be affectionate.

Also, I noticed it IS important to smile! If you don't smile at a girl when you open her, she will assume you aren't attracted. So remember to smile when you open a girl.

I also perfected my walking posture. Since I got the shoulder language down, the rest of my body language fell into place. I was walking around straight as a candle. Like a butler, or anyone who's paid to be composed and poised.

Edit:
BTW, I tied my hair up into a little bundle on top of my head, and then 1 girl who's an AW told me to take it out. Then these 2 UG cougar's told me I needed a hair cut. Then a genuinely sweet girl tapped me on the shoulder and complimented me on the bundle.

I realised that it's the perfect tool for polarization and pea-****ing for me to walk around with my hair in a bundle. The girls who I don't want will tell me to take it out, but that's simply because they're trying to neg me. They have me put on a pedestal. It's usually 6's who neg anyway. And they actually expect me to start qualifying myself when they do it too. It's pathetic. Attention VVHORES.

If I like a girl, I am simply going to comment on their looks, to let them know that I see them as a person and not as a 3D cardboard cut-out.

I also did some reminiscing on the girls whose number I got a while back. I realised that if you want to make out with a girl, she has to be warmed up. It's not hard to warm a girl up, all you have to do is talk to them for about 10-15 minutes. By that time they should be ready for a make-out(at least with me). The thing is that they don't often indicate much interest in these first 15 minutes, and even if she does, it's a little awkward because it's not the natural course of things, and it makes them come off as desperate. That's why, in order to keep up with the natural order of things, I subtly IOI girls with my voice tonality, eye-contact and a smile, when they come into the venue. Like I said a long time ago: being a douche/perv is better than being asexual. But now I'm not going to be a douche/perv, but simply a charming, confident man.

So you have to take the risk of spending 15-20 minutes with them to see if you can warm them up. By that time I'll know if they're ready for a make-out. Like common pua knowledge dictates: if you wondered whether you could have made out with a girl, you could have.

The only real problem, is getting them to talk to you(me, specifically) for those 15-20 minutes. There are always pitfalls which will blow me out, but you can only learn to avoid those through experience. In order to get them to talk to you, you initially have to spark interest. This happens if you somehow correlate with their animus. Pre-selection from other women and being a leader of men/protector of loved ones, also works quite well.

So then once you've sparked interest, you just ask them questions about themselves and make jokes. Change the subject a few times, and take advantage of your time. By now, everything is automated for me. Once they start getting so close to you it's not even necessary anymore, you can make out. When a girl likes you she will start rubbing her thighs/ass on you and get really really close to you. I don't even know if they do this consciously. I don't think girls know what they're doing. They're 100% feeling and drive.

You guys can see I am developing my own style of pick-up.

It's also important to remember not to take things too seriously. It's a hit and miss game.

 

[Chamber36]

now that I'm reading my journal I think it's time to send some serious texts.

I decided to stop watching porn.

Now while trying to fall asleep my mind started thinking about a certain HB.
I saw her at work last night. But only NOW do i remember her name. And the fact that we smoked a joint together. I bet I could easily get a date from this girl.

She opened me twice the day we met. I just basically talked to her guy friends and tried to get the scoop on her. So now that I'm affiliated with them I think she somehow is interested.

I remember I saw this chick a few weeks ago and got real nervous. I thought I blew myself out simply by slanting my head sideways. It was a nervous reaction to the amount of emotions and thoughts going through my mind. I had high IL. So I thought I blew myself out.

Well last night she seemed excited to see me. But I don't really know what too do with her. It could all be an AW trap.
A lot of the blond girls that seem to be giving me IOI's turn out to be AW's who don't do anything but gossip.

There might be a little one-itis coming on with me. But I don't even really feel like calling other girls anyway. One-itis is nature's way of keeping us interested in women, allowing us to premeditate all the procedures necessary in courtship.

If I think of 10 excuses for me to extract her from the club, that will be a usefull tool. She is entirely my type. And her eye-contact last night was telling me all I need to know. PLUS she is always laughing when I come around. She thinks I'm funny, when I'm just being myself, so this is a great girl to have around.

So when I get the chance, I'll just make a few suggestions, say that we should do this or that. Tell her to give me her number so we can go out together. We both like to go out, and we like each other, so if I explain it to her like that, she will be forced to either LJBF me or accept.

Easy as pie. Vulnerability is key.

 

[Vice]

The only people I knew were certain girls, and I didn't want to use them as pivots, because they're AW's.

Can you elaborate on this? Because the point of a pivot is to use them just to meet other girls, so an AW would be PERFECT for that, since they're not going to sleep with you.

 

[Chamber36]

They are perfect for pivots.

I just wasn't in the mood to hang out with those 2 chicks.

I hate following people around anyway.

 

[Chamber36]

I had jiu jitsu training then I got stoned as **** and hit the club by myself.

Went to sit at the bar and the 2 barmen basically greeted me enthusiastically but neglected to ask me if I wanted a drink.
Girls were watching me. There was a 2-set to my left 1 barstool across from me. Then at the other side of the bar there was about 6 girls in a group. 1 of them waved at me, and the 2-set to my left got interested. I came back 20 mins later and the 1 of the girls from the 2-set gave me some really long eye-contact, for about 5 seconds.

Then my boss sat next to me and they walked off. I looked at them talking to another guy and then they came back.

So the girl was making me super nervous, and really really self-concious about every single thing, like where my eyes were going and my posture and my situational value from knowing the boss and bartenders.

I realised my eye's kept drifting towards the 2-set quite predictably. Sort of like one of those water sprinklers that people put on their lawns. And then I thought how I don't want to seem needy or nothing because chances were that I would run into them again.

Real self-conscious stuff.... So then I heard the other girl say: let's go .... this guy is gay.

So I thought: dammit.... I should have approached.

On my walk home I reminisced to the first time I tried an approach like that. The girl totally ignored me, and only paid attention to her blackberry and the bartender. A few weeks after that there was a girl there, that I asked hte time and she responded politely, and I know her name now, don't have a number, but she was IOI'ing me last saturday at work still.

I told her: "I'm glad you reacted nice cuz last time I approached a girl in this spot she reacted rude!", and she was quite surprised!

I know this all sounds totally AFC. But I've got the power in me for utter success. The time I joined this site is right after I got hired in a that bar. It was basically to up my game. Because in that particular bar I was having trouble. I've now had 4 make-outs and 1 nipple flash, and 1 make-out was with 2 chicks. They were high on xtc.

My game is improving in the club in particular so that I am basically accepted in every group I open.

My main problem BTW is that I didn't really get into a talkative/social mood/mindset.
I was thinking about some warm-up sets. Did them, but they were total beta bar personnel. I don't really want to associate with the beta bar personnel.

The bar was full of hot chicks, the ratio was A+, but I felt that I had no real social proof from girls, because I failed gaming the first 2.

as soon as the 6 from across the bar left, I left the bar. There were still girls entering the bar, but **** that. Didn't want to spend too much money.

And if you're not entirely in the mood, don't waste time and money.

still learned that approaching is good, and that rejection is subtle.

It wasn't a confidence problem that inhibited me from approaching, it was that the girl made me feel awkward. She should be smiling at me if she wants to make 5-second eye-contact.

..... and NOW IT HITS ME. I could have approached with: "I saw you were looking at me and I was wondering why".

These are hte kinds of memories that you forget quickly. So I'll write it now while I'm still buzzin on alcohol.

 

[Vice]

Anxious after a martial arts class? Cut the weed, dude. I'm super confident after my class (when I'm enrolled in it, school is my main priority, and they don't fit with the schedule). It seems like it's making you paranoid.

Everyone has a bad night that deflates their ego, take it with stride. Just be sure that you incorporate the lessons and move on.

 

[Chamber36]

Alright guys. I been gone for a while.

I stopped watching porn now for 2 weeks, and didn't masturbate for a duration of 8-9 days. During which I visited a prostitute and didnt ***.

I went out clubbing last thursday, friday, worked saturday, went clubbing sunday, chilled monday tuesday wednesday and went out thursday friday and saturday again.

I got plenty of numbers, no kiss closes.

I realised last night that my talk is smooth as can be, I have to escalate physically faster (still?! omg!). I approached 2 girls, and 1 of em said: who are you, Don Juan? I felt I had been discovered, but I said yes.

My colleague in his 40's gave me the advice to go for it asap as much as possible. Try for anything. Go for anything and everything always.

Now what pisses me off most, is that while I was out in Amsterdam friday, in a club I'd never been in my life, I met this girl in the smoking section, and she was high on e.

So I mentioned to her that I wanted some too. She seemed really glad that I was into it because she was too.

She gave me about every IOI in the book.

She told me that she just got out of a 5-year relationship. She told me that I had a ring just like her ex-boyfriend. Her gay friend rated me well and she inspected my eye-color. I asked what she thought of green and she said yeah her dad also had green eyes. (whoa this chick was comparing me with her dad I was like wTF?!).

When I asked her details where she was sleeping she asked me back the same thing really interested. Like she wanted to know sex logistics, or whether she might be able to move in with me.

She also put her hand on my knee for a while.

While we were in conversation I felt the energy between us physically, and her body language was 100% towards me.

The bells did go off in my head to ask for her number, but I didn't.

I'm pissed off cuz this wasn't no stupid club-ho, but she was just out of a 5-year relationship and I coulda been her rebound guy!!

It was another profound experience. Decided not to read too much DJ material. I'm not going to, it only makes me over-analyse too much because I'm incorporating other people's cooky quack-job theories.

And not watching porn has actually made me more sexual in the club but I'm still going back to watching it.

 

[Chamber36]

I've been meaning to write down some important thoughts, but I keep forgetting them. Right now I am smokin up and listening some music to help me meditate and I'm going to write down whatever important thoughts i summon regarding Don Juanism.

I realise that I should have written down more of my adventures of the past 2 weeks so I will first try to summon those experiences.

Thursday is listed already.
Friday, I don't remember anything special.
Saturday - work - met a girl whose tit I had seen once before. She was nervous as all hell. I asked her if she'd make time for me next time I called, she said maybe. Then the night was over.

So I text her the next saturday what she's doing, I get an answer and don't reply. I see her in the club, she acted like she was ignoring me and trying to make me chase her. I stand between her and her friends so she has to walk by me, I hold eye-contact, she gives me 3 kisses. I say: "are you drunk or soemthing?" she says: "yeah!!" I tell her I'm going to smoke, she says she isn't, and by then my hand is on her ass. She likes it. So me and my cousin stand around for a while and go smoke.

Lesson: if you slightly or inadvertantly neg a girl with a high IL she will brush it off.

Then the next sunday I hit Amsterdam. I had already screwed a prostitute before I hit the club. Popped a pill aswell. So I was really buzzin. Nothin happened. Girls were stupid and mopey.

Then thursday, I hit a club where I had seen some an illusive 10, sort of like a unicorn. The club was full of sub-par UG's.
So I was just chillin with a cigarette while a girl who works there comes and offers me something. So i comply and I buy the drink because I wanted to get Fvcked anyway. I keep talking to her and ask her about 90% of her details.

She said she lived close, did hairdressing, had another job, woke up early, had the next day off, and bla bla bla. I asked for the number, and she said she had a BF. I said I didn't care. And she was like: welllll yea but my boyfriend cares. She gave me a 2 minute story for an excuse why she couldn't give me her number. That he already gt angry over some texts and cheating and all sorts of stuff. So I say ok I guess I could understand.

Anyway that was that with her. It's hard to convince a woman to close with logic. But I guess I could have gone more of a Don Juan route and try to convince her.

Something similar happened to me the next day. Both girls wanted me to convince them to close. 1 to #-close, and 1 to F-close. I failed with both.

We went out in a club where I had got a make-out on the first try 2 years ago. It was a dance-floor approach where I went from grinding to make-out without any lyrics. First girl I approached, and first time I ever went out in Amsterdam.
When I got to the club I texted back that girl because we'd always stayed in contact. I didn't want any pvssy from her I liked talking to her about game, she was my emotional tampon, one might say. She paid a whole 5 euro's to come in, and it slipped out of her mouth that she was planning to either hang with me now or later (when the clubs closed??). I didn't know when we would finish and my cousin was my priority, so I told her we would be out all night. Anyway VERY VERY VERY bad logistics planning on my part.

I thought to myself: if we are gonna fvck all I have to do is spend enough time with her and it'll happen by itself. Well..... - NOT.

After talking for a while I decided me and my nephew would let her introduce us to a new and better venue. She brought us to a pretty cool place, and some douche approached the girl. I figured she would brush him off, but she didn't. Then I saw some girls from my home town. I tapped 1 on the shoulder and she flipped out in extacy to see me. She asked me like 3 times if I wanted to go on a pic with her and asked for my facebook. I told her I didn't like facebook and she came back 2 minutes later and insisted she get my facebook. So I gave it and ignored her again. The one who brought me there was dancing her ass off, kind of Attention-Wh0orish, and all her friends were watching. I felt pretty uncomfortable. So i went up to smoke. Met a dif girl in the smoking section.

That's where I saw the girl on E that gave me more IOI's than I ever got in a 30 minute time span. She calibrated them so well though, and I blamed our spiritual connection on the E. It makes sense because she was incredibly trying to relate to me, and that sort of made me uncomfortable as well.

Anyway after the girl had IOI'd me too much, she calibrated (I'm such a fool I didn't realise!!!!) by talking to her gay friend and sort of ignoring me. Then the girl who brought me to the venue came up to talk to me and told me she was either gonna leave, or (!!!!!!!!!!) if I had something awesome to do she would go with me. But she totally flipped the tables around by asking me reasons why we should hang out.

I didn't know what to say so I fell into the trap and gave her some AFC lines like: well I haven't seen you in a really long time so I figured we should take advantage of the opportunity to spend more time with each other.

She was like: "noo". I wasn't really devastated but I definitely felt screwed over. The whole time I was confident she was going to **** me that night. She tried to get me to fall into ****-tests from the get-go. And I fell into plenty. Following her to a different venue for 1 is already failing a ****-test. I was at her mercy.

Now then my nephew started *****ing at me that he wanted to score *****es downstairs and I left the smoking section, totally forgetting about the awesome opportunity to be a rebound-man for the other girl, I went downstairs to try and salvage the pvssy from the other girl.

I came up with an excuse to bring her to my house and went downstairs. Went to the opposite end of the dancefloor she was on, and we both made eye-contact over the dancefloor, which I avoided. Anyway some girls were flirting with me and then she eventually came over to talk to me. I told her I had an idea for something awesome. She looked tired so I asked her if she wanetd to leave, she said yea. Then when we got outside she took advantage of that to reject me AGAIN.

Don't really feel affected by that as much that I forgot to ask the other girl for her number.

She even told me that if I found E that I should contact her! Well isn't that just woman-speak for: "HEY PLEASE TAKE MY NUMBER NOWWW!!!!!!!" That was about 2 minutes after I opened her, so I neglected to take advantage of that chance.

The girl said she was there every weekend so I am definitely going to hunt her down.

Then, last saturday, I went to the venue where I work, but I had the night off. Well I got IOI's from girl after girl after girl. About 6 girls. I got 1 girls number. Added another on facebook today (accidentally clicked add, while I wanted to poke).

Looking back at these experiences I see I have grown more resilient in the field. And rejection isn't really a sting, it's more of a dull blow. I can take it. I'm a freaking martial artist.

I find that I have to learn to recognise IOI's better.

Now concerning my game...

I realise that complimenting every single chick on something she's wearing also doesn't work.

You could compliment a 6 or a 9 and both of them might react stuck-up towards you. You could casually say hi to a 6 or a 9 and they could both act stuck-up towards you.

Whether a girl is interested in you is up to her. My inner (mental) game is improving to the point where girls are much more open to my advances, and often initiate kino with me.

I actually considered asking a girl I have in the FZ to come lie in bed with me, but I decided not to. We are planning to go out together though. I just doubt if she would go out with me to sleep in 1 appartment with me. She ought to be cool, but we aren't so cool that we can discuss that. Because she knows I always try to get pvssy whenever I get the chance, or convince myself that there is a chance.

So she would have to understand that it's not my intention to go out with her in Amsterdam to Fvck her. I am, however, open to the idea, and I'm sure she knows that. Plenty of times I asked her for an sensual massage.

I also realised, that whether you go out in a small town or in a big city, women are attracted to the SAME THING. I don't know what that thing is, but somehow I am exuding more and more of it.

It's inner, it's mental, it's spiritual, it's in my subconcious and it shows from the muscle tension in my body and in my face, and women like it. I have a few insecurities that I need to iron out, like being afraid to be overly expressive, because I'm a naturally expressive guy. Nonetheless, I am doing good, and even without doing anything, women are interested in me.

My problem though is that once I get the chance, I figure: "why not try out this AFC thing and just text this girl..."

I too often make a 'fvck it' decision. I'm not sure if the problem is incongruency or predictability.

I might just text a girl out of the blue, and not text her for a while. These girls must think: "hmmmm will he text me??", and once you do, you're predictable and boring.



oh yeah. All this generalisation, combined with my short absence from Sosuave, have helped me also to realise not to generalise women too much. You can't blame women for everything.

My problem is that I am getting phone numbers from stupid B*tches all the time. I must say that I got a LOT more dead-end numbers back in the day, even a few months ago. Girls are responding more to my texts than they were before, and I'm texting them less.

But I still need to improve the quality of the women whose numbers I ask.

That means I'm gonna be trying to find some spiritual women from now on.

 

[Chamber36]

I walk in the club. See HB #1. She apologizes for ignoring me last week and gives me 2 kisses extra.

In the smoking section I see HB #2 who I could have made out with on other occasions. I went and sat next to her. She started telling me how she hadn't been so wasted in months. I was wasted too. Tried to go for the make-out WAAAY too early. She told me she had a BF. Oh well, I figured. She says go hit on another girl. I say nahh. She gets a little upset.

TBH I don't think the bf is the issue. The issue is that she hasn't seen me in months, so she hasn't noticed the change really and thinks I'm the same guy I used to be. And I went in too fast without building comfort.

At that point HB #1 sees me looking upset and comes and sits next to me. Tells me she was thinking about coming over last week. She said she was lookin forward to it but that I should have called her again. I was really enjoying the sexual tension. It felt really good. So then we went inside. I overstepped my boundaries and grabbed her ass. She didn't like it. But when I saw her later we just talked as usual.

The girl who I had agreed to meet up with in the club, IOI'd me a lot through texting. Then in the club she acted like she was ignoring me. I basically played the same act. I just enjoyed myself hitting on other girls. She barricaded herself in against me by going all the way to the back of the dancefloor.

Despite not getting a make-out, which was my goal, I enjoyed the hell out of myself. Me and some girls were laughing so hard, my belly started hurting me.
I pinned a pivot of mine against the wall so her tits would be all over my back. That was also pretty fun. Enjoyed that. She likes it anyway when I do stuff like that.

Also spit some ridiculous lines toward another pivot that each time I see her I see her in a new light. (real bs!)

 

[Chamber36]

I did a bunch of research on astrology. Don't care whether you guys believe in it.

But it crossed my mind while trying to game a 10 that I need women to pledge allegiance to me.

Well this might seem a little extreme to most of u, but I am an extreme guy.

So from now on, I want dedicated women. Also I realised I need a woman who is controversial.

She has to be a gymnist + chess player or some kind of weird combo like that and I'll be fascinated. It'd be even better if she had the same interest into the human physiology and human psychology aswell, and not just superficially but deeply.

So I'm a little step closer to knowing what I want.

 

[Chamber36]

Last night at work this girl started yelling my name like she was in love with me and really flirting hard. I said I'd help her but I wanted to give her my number so I made her wait. Later when I helped her I got the number and she touches my nipple. So then I continue working. I don't even know her name. These women try and manipulate me with sex in order for me to help them quicker. Took advantage of that opportunity. Don't really know what to text though.

One of the chicks whose number I got last friday texted me about her plans. All out of the blue, when I forgot all about the girl in the first place, I recieve a text! This seems like a pretty solid lead!

I also quickly saw the girl who I texted last week and agreed to meet up with this friday. I guess I have 3 girls to text now.

Macking carries a lot of responsibilities with it. This numbers game is tough!