Ok so to cut a long story short me and my ex broke up in October 2021, It was coming to an end we were both getting bored and in each others pockets for the most part. She told me she wanted a break and i agreed but went one further and said i actually thought it was best that we broke up and went our separate way. It was an amicable break up and we both went no contact.
Fast forward to this time last year, I found myself a real one, dead gorgeous with a perfect body - We've been with each other ever since.
Me and my ex started talking again around July time, first it started off as just friendly conversation but after a month or so it started to really heat up. She told me she missed certain things that i used to do when we had 'secs' when she would describe these things i got suckered in and i couldn't get enough of speaking to her. I'd tell her all the things she wanted to hear but would always make an excuse about not being able to meet for being too busy. Deep down i really wanted to meet but felt bad about it as effectively I'd be cheating. I get my actions aren't the greatest anyway but doing the whole meet up is something i couldn't bring myself to do!
She ended up finding out that i was seeing someone else but i denied it playing it off as rumors. We have been in and out of contact up until about two weeks ago when we got into quite a deep conversation. I own a campervan and she was dying to meet up so i could take her away in it. We had it set up for the Saturday but a few days before, sadly, my Nan passed away which really cut deep with me. I had a realization of what i'd been doing and sent her a long email explaining that i'd been in a relationship all along but everything i had said to her was the truth and that i still loved her - you know how them emails go lol.
Anyway, as you'd imagine she was in total shock called me every name under the sun and told me to never contact her again, I did exactly that until i got a message from her basically saying that she was really looking forward to seeing me, that she knew we were going to have the best 'secs' and that she could feel it building up inside of her....
I never replied back to it but guaranteed i wanted to! She sent me another message yesterday asking me certain questions about why i lied to her etc. She followed another message back bascially saying that she has no choice but to move on and that for the last year she's thought that at some point we would get back together. I replied saying i agreed and told her she deserves a lot better and that im sorry for everything. She then replied asking to meet up tomorrow as she wants proper closure as texting wasn't doing it.
I'm basically asking for all of your advice - Should i meet up with her. Is it actual closure that she wants from me or is it more? Im worried that if i do meet up with her i wont be able to resist, she's beautiful and we had the best time - im really torn with what to do the devil is saying going - What should i actually expect from tomorrow's meet.
Thanks for reading
Fast forward to this time last year, I found myself a real one, dead gorgeous with a perfect body - We've been with each other ever since.
Me and my ex started talking again around July time, first it started off as just friendly conversation but after a month or so it started to really heat up. She told me she missed certain things that i used to do when we had 'secs' when she would describe these things i got suckered in and i couldn't get enough of speaking to her. I'd tell her all the things she wanted to hear but would always make an excuse about not being able to meet for being too busy. Deep down i really wanted to meet but felt bad about it as effectively I'd be cheating. I get my actions aren't the greatest anyway but doing the whole meet up is something i couldn't bring myself to do!
She ended up finding out that i was seeing someone else but i denied it playing it off as rumors. We have been in and out of contact up until about two weeks ago when we got into quite a deep conversation. I own a campervan and she was dying to meet up so i could take her away in it. We had it set up for the Saturday but a few days before, sadly, my Nan passed away which really cut deep with me. I had a realization of what i'd been doing and sent her a long email explaining that i'd been in a relationship all along but everything i had said to her was the truth and that i still loved her - you know how them emails go lol.
Anyway, as you'd imagine she was in total shock called me every name under the sun and told me to never contact her again, I did exactly that until i got a message from her basically saying that she was really looking forward to seeing me, that she knew we were going to have the best 'secs' and that she could feel it building up inside of her....
I never replied back to it but guaranteed i wanted to! She sent me another message yesterday asking me certain questions about why i lied to her etc. She followed another message back bascially saying that she has no choice but to move on and that for the last year she's thought that at some point we would get back together. I replied saying i agreed and told her she deserves a lot better and that im sorry for everything. She then replied asking to meet up tomorrow as she wants proper closure as texting wasn't doing it.
I'm basically asking for all of your advice - Should i meet up with her. Is it actual closure that she wants from me or is it more? Im worried that if i do meet up with her i wont be able to resist, she's beautiful and we had the best time - im really torn with what to do the devil is saying going - What should i actually expect from tomorrow's meet.
Thanks for reading
