I'm so nervous for my first experience.

[Learning Curve]

I'm 21 but yes my first time. I was going to try every position but it didn't work. As I said I couldn't get hard. She said it didn't matter but we couldn't do it in the end. I could only get in with a condom once. It was missionary.
Since it didn't get hard when I put on a condom anyway, we tried it without a condom. Again, it didn't get hard as I wanted so it didn't get in. Maybe just a little bit from the tip.
But for 2 days I've been thinking about whether she could get pregnant even in that sequence or whether I could get a virus. I even went to the hospital and took an antibody test.
My hard-on probably happened because I've been masturbating too much for years. I undressed the girl anyway but let me be honest I was like "Is this what sex is?" The breasts felt great and they were but I exaggerated a little. I didn't enjoy it to be honest. As I said I think it could be from too much porn and masturbation. It's like %50 erection. But right now my primary fear is an unwanted pregnancy and viruses

She definitely didn't want a bl0wjob. I gave her oral sex, sucked her breasts, etc. but at the end of the day it was mostly like foreplay. She didn't worry about it, she just laughed because it was fun. She said she would do it again later, but I said I didn't want it.
Anyway, when the girl wanted to be a ****buddy I said I didn't want it again and she blocked me.

I'm overthinking I know..

Talking from experience: Stop watching porn. That's your first step. This is psychological.

Second step: go get Cialis 20mg minimum not a lower doseage this will make your **** harder then anything you experienced before.

Third step: Invite her over and 30 minutes prior to that take Cialis.

Do that once, and your problem will be solved, it works wonders on many guys. Because it destroys the psychological barier.

 

[corrector]

Talking from experience: Stop watching porn. That's your first step. This is psychological.

Second step: go get Cialis 20mg minimum not a lower doseage this will make your **** harder then anything you experienced before.

Third step: Invite her over and 30 minutes prior to that take Cialis.

Do that once, and your problem will be solved, it works wonders on many guys. Because it destroys the psychological barier.

He rejected her because she is too boring. She blocked him. Him taking pills wont make her less boring to him.

 

[nelysses]

Talking from experience: Stop watching porn. That's your first step. This is psychological.

Second step: go get Cialis 20mg minimum not a lower doseage this will make your **** harder then anything you experienced before.

Third step: Invite her over and 30 minutes prior to that take Cialis.

Do that once, and your problem will be solved, it works wonders on many guys. Because it destroys the psychological barier.

Is it better to go a doctor?

He rejected her because she is too boring. She blocked him. Him taking pills wont make her less boring to him.

Actually I didn't bored. I just think that will be amazing but that was just a normal thing. I didn't feel like "woww". For first time I had bigger thoughts.
After this incident, when I told herI didn't want it again, we fought. Then we made up again and fought again and again...
It went to a toxic place. In addition to the points I was ashamed of such as not being able to get an erection and penis size, I actually got bored after sex.

I don't have enough money to rent an apartment all the time. I don't know where else I can have sex.

After all that fighting, she said he wanted to have a drink tomorrow. We'll have a drink for 1 hour and talk. I want him, but since all my interest is gone after masturbation, I give up and we fight.


By the way she said she like dirty talk. I don't know wtf is that

 

[Learning Curve]

Is it better to go a doctor?

No, work on your psychology, and learn to relax when you are with a woman in bed.

You should enjoy the process, you are overthinking it i know and you are loosing your erection, stop doing that, do what i told you if you can't handle it for the first times, eventually you will handle it.