Decided to try this after struggles to generate interest and maintain it during sex. Made it to day 8, then caved in. Found myself reminiscing about my ex, (whom I had my worst break up ever with a month ago, she was BPD) and intense anxiety. I went from trying to completely cut her from my life, to thinking about contacting her even after all the horrible things she did.
I felt so much better not fapping, more energy and interest in things. I play multiple sports throughout the week for clubs, and played the best I've played in months. But, the anxiety and reminiscent thoughts I've been getting are too much to deal with. I literally fap just to get them to go away, and bring me back to my senses about how bad my ex was for me.. Will going out and finding more girls to peak my interest remove the anxiety I have for her and let me continue no fap, or is there an underlying problem here.