Solomon
Master Don Juan
View attachment 11270The truth is, no really successful guy whos good with women needs or would spend time on Sosuave. why? they have instagrams and other social media where people with good levles of self esteem hang out. Capable men dont sit around talking about stuff, --they make moves.
Most of what i said on here besides where I came up and my upbringing is bull****. I never had all these plates or women, and I dont have a girlfriend. The profile pic is not mine. im not wealthy. i make like 30k a year and live at home with my family.
I did have abundance with women when i was younger but mostly did not do much with them besides the typical makeout, and fingering..why? because at some point i couldnt hard with one girl,.. albeit while she was a hot polish chick, i didnt find her attractive as i was into a diff typ eof chick at that age, mostly puerto rican latinas.. becuase of that one incident, i used to be real anxious around sex
in total i have only had successful sex with 2 women.. all the other times i either jus stopped at making out or fingering and an arguement or me getting angry at them would cause them to leave. while i did have some model quality women in my life, there snothing to brag about when id idnt bone all of 'em.
i turned to viagra for help and it helped quite a bit.
The reality is, i was always a skinny/smaller guy than average. nowadays i am considered average but im still only about 160 lbs
Ive found myself frustrated mostly becuase of online dating. Going from having abundance to going to trying dating apps left me feeling horrible, sad and undesirable. I didnt understand why people were ignring me on online dating. it was very painful.. iremember it vividly, how angry i would be at the women who barely gave me any attention and didnt take me seriously. I even remember messaging some girls and asking them what they think was the issue.
But the reality is,... my abundance didnt change outta nowhere. what happened was I went from being very confident and masculine to more feminine after being mentally abused by an older friend i used to hang with. he was a crazy BPD type who grew up motherless and with an abusive father. i was scared o fhim evr since he attacked me one time .. but i knew i would always beat his ass if we ever had a real fight, which i later did. but by that time, the damage was done. i was changed so much as a person that i felt ugly , i felt weak, ifelt like a b.itch.. i became sensitive and i developed deep anxiety..
it took me YEARS to recover from that.. but i still always never felt the same..
now fastforward maybe 9-10 years from that time and i still dont feel the way i used to at that age. at that age i felt like women liked me/girls liked me.. and because of that, i reaped what i sowed.. and had an abundance of women.numbers in my phone, etc.. and ofc while i wasnt banging all of them, i relished greatly off of the fact that i had options and that was enough for me.. in th esame way how hot chicks operate... and why they dont care about 90% of guys
Now, the part that is true is my knowledge about women. Where did it come from? jsu having alot of dating experience/and women friends.. Having women friends was some of the best times in my life.. even tho i cut of all my friends because i fell in love with a hoe who played me like a fool and while she did love me, it was a narcissistc type of love, conditional, etc. plus i ruined it because of anger and jealousy.. in my mind she was f-ing one of my friends.. and she prob did..
So where does RAzorrambo go from here? Nothing im practicing nofap, doing kegels, quit porn.. which i came to really enjoy fapping and porn. its osme of th emost beautiful gratifying stuff ever - its hard to think how its not one of the best hobbies in the world.. i mean u never get what u can out of porn out of real sexual experiences unless u manage to get like a buncha hot superficial looking chicks together and have variety of threesomes or something..
Mostly, in my life, ifeel like I was cursed by God or something.. but reality is it was being introduced to computers from a young age + porn that really messed up my experiences with women.. and while i have had more women and more dates than your average guy, it means nothing when you cant hang onto them.
like i said only bange 2 girls officially. despite having a ton of great girls in my life --
Nowadays i try to find sht.. and yes, I have had experiences where i got fired for alking to multiple chicks in my workplace and getting one jealous.. and usually at times i become one of the main guys girls talk about and whisper amonst themselves and older ladies talk about in diff environments.. but i think its mainly because besides having decent looks, and knowing how to dress/smell nice.. i know how t really play that charm... something ive always had
My current job im getting noticed by women agian, i get so many stares and looks.. theres 2 young girls who i know who at times if elt like both like me but --whats the point when im a mess? i cant really move forward with anyone of them properly becuas ei fear so much. i fear being heartbroken again ,i fear not being good in bed, i fear alot. i have premature ejaculation and while i can get hard with viagra, i dont trust my ability as much.. but regradless, im gonna try again, just not wit the girls at work.. cuz like i said, i have a really jeallous and angry mind.. and alwas suspect them to be talkin to another guy at work and sleepin with them... alot of that sht is deeply rooted to my mom cheating on my dad
Sometimes i still struggle with inadequacy as im a smaller guy (height is 5'10 but smaller head, smaller hands,smaller frame, 160 lbs) I Just look smaller than most guys/weaker. Infact, some people think im like 18-22 when im 31. Thats why i get alot of young girls staring at me and sht but its pathetic lol im afriad to even do anythingwiht anyone.. i want to but its likei fear success in a way.
Thoughts? and anyone else want to come clean about their stories?
Op is not lying though the real players are not on sosauve, the real players are not on reddit, or watching redpill podcasts. Matter fact in my experience the real players would think it's "Corny" or "lame" I get it there are outliers but real players are living their best lives and banging the women that they want
On this forum in 2023 I bet only 3% of the members are banging the women that they want while 30% are banging anything they can get and 67% are incels or guys who ain't banging shyt