LearningSlowly said:
Hey man, I was creeping around the site, had to check your journal out. It's too long to read the whole thing (sorry!) but I caught up on the last few pages. Here's one post that stuck out to me.
Since this was a school dance, your social status at school made the dance much more difficult than another club situation. Last night I went to a party devoted entirely to dance, I dance very well and still felt closed in and shut out. It was the group I was with. They already have dominant males around, and though I get along with those guys, I'm not seen as one of them. I got less attention and appreciation than I do at other parties. But that's ok. It's an experience. Just know that this isn't your baseline club-level, it's a reflection of your school reality (high school kids like to dance with their friends).
On your autism, that's a disadvantage, sorry about that struggle you're overcoming. I definitely base my game around my ability to relate to people. It's a useful skill, but on the other side, I'm not that funny, and I'm bad at telling stories. It's all about what works for you.
Networking is the way to go, you're on the right path. Don't ever feel beaten by it, this is your life, and the only person you can control is yourself.
EDIT: Also natural attractiveness is very unimportant. Being good looking comes from being well-groomed along with confidence. (Good posture and such, as well, but that's sort of a part of confidence?)
Autism improvement 24
Wow. So long since I made a post.
Well, with socialization, I made MAJOR progress. Even though I hate it, i guess it's something I just gotta deal with.
Held a conversation with a girl for around 10 minutes. Not exactly my type, I just had to practice being more social in general. It went well. Somehow, I seem pretty likeable, at least as a person, when I try.
All is going nicely. Within a few months or so I should be ready to have a shot at girlfriends.
And the social value thing, there's definately ways around it. Going for underclassmen (some have a way higher opinion of me), or simply going for girls OUTSIDE of school. I dislike most of the girls in my school anyways. Lots of them are pieces of **** anyway.
Currently, I'm doing phenomenal with my GPA. Surprisingly minimal effort too. Only thing that's a pain in the arse is the attention deficit, it pisses teachers off. I gotta figure out something to do about it. Just not sure what I should do.
This new year is gonna be hopefully my greatest year yet.
Let's look at the goals I set last year.
Current Goals (2011)
Maintain 3.5+ GPA. Check. Exceeded a 3.5 actually. Think it's around a 3.8 weighted
Get laid this year, by someone I find really hot. Not yet.
Gain some weight (goal: 170lbs with less than 10%). Maybe. I'm 175 lbs now and by no means fat. Definately not low BF%, but also for sure don't have a gut.
Grow another inch. I dunno about this one. And it don't matter much. I'm tall enough already.
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As you can see, I reached most of the important goals. There's still plenty to do though. But improvement has been made. Results have been attained. Time to attain more results.
