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She ended up going to hospital one night cos she was in a lot of pain, so i took her there and spent most of the night there then went to college early the next day, then visited after, this went on for 2 days then she discharged herself the same day that i was going to London to see a university, she decided last minute to come with me so i took her. Through the day i started to kind of get back to the old me, making jokes, speaking my mind bla bla bla, she tuned and said to me why aren't you like this more? i said because all you do is snap at me and don't laugh at anything. She then apologised and became more loving.
She then finished uni and went back home for a while then she came back from her home town to see me for a week, at this point i was on the last week of my college and getting things handed in and waiting on work to get marked, one teacher didn't mark my work and i felt that it could hinder my chances to get into university so i was upset over that, also she looked like a man and was horrible in general unless you kissed her a*s.
So I've hardly seen her as I'm trying to finish this course for the year. She goes out with some her friends but she can't get into one bar because she's banned from it (long story) so she decides to call me and complain, so i tell her to go with her friends back to theirs and drink with them, she says no and wanted to go home so she did, she asks me to come down but i say no as i have a 9am start.
She then started to get abusive on the phone and started talking sh*t and said that she's gonna kill her self and that when she needed me the most i wasn't there etc so i ask my dad for some advice and he's like are you stupid? you have a 9am start you have your priorities, you're not going anywhere. So i tell her to calm down etc and she started getting aggressive, i tell her to say some spiritual thing and she started saying f*uk that and f*vk what you believe in bla bla.
So i say to her look, i think its better if we stopped going out and that you find someone else etc, then she said is that all I'm good for, to break up over the phone and then started to get really aggressive. So i hung up, she kept on calling and calling and calling, so i answered and she started to talk in a more sorrowful tone, and started talking about things, i said that we will meet up tomorrow and talk about this ok. she goes okay.
Now the next day after my 9am start which i was late to. I spoke to one of the mental health/ mentors there who I've been talking to for a long time and told him what happened and he said tell her that you need space, cos i got all my college and uni crap going on so i got to sort that out as thats more important, i haven't spent anytime with my friends or parents over the last few months, haven't been to the gym, haven't done any of my hobbies, meditated or anything that i used to do that made me feel stable or happy. It was always her, even messaging all day for fvcks sake.
So i go and see her and she said apologised for what she said and all that crap, so i said to her look i want some space, and that theres a lot of built up emotions from the last few moths that haven't been sorted out etc, she goes okay, she asked are you sick and tired of me? I said yeah a little but i still love you. she goes okay and we made up and we were fine.
So the next few days she's a little towards me, so i left it. Her gay friend comes down. Then i go to drop them off to the station.
At this point i had a nose operation coming up cos of a football injury, she said that she would be there for me and so did the gay.
Over the next few weeks things are okay, i message her less through the day, my assignments are all completed, i go to see my friends more. She's being okay. Then out of no where she rages out at me again for the same reasons that we spoke about when i said i needed some space.
Now she started to be colder and stopped making an effort in the conversations etc.
She then got her wisdom tooth taken out and half of her face was swollen including her neck, the day after though i was having my operation. She said she would come and see me after she's better. So now she's being more loving towards me etc. a week goes by and she's out with her family and slowly eating again, she then says she's going to go manchester with her gay friend and he tells me the details, they're going for one night.
So the day that they're going i brought her family a few things and sent them off cos they all love me to bits, speak highly of me and also she had bought things for my family too, so id return the favour.
The day that she's going out she being cold with me and we argued and kept on asking why i needed space and that she now needed space, so i was like okay. So my friend comes picks me up and gets some food, so i msged her out of courtesy and she's like okay hope you have fun etc etc.
Now a day goes by and i don't hear anything, i find out from Facebook that they're staying another night, the same the next day, she ended up coming back monday. Then she broke up with me when she got back, saying that "she doesn't feel the same" All whilst I'm recovering from this operation.
So i break down and get all my friends to help me out. Over the next few weeks/ month she asks me to meet her, said I'm busy right now but after I'm done ill come and see you, if you're asleep then its cool if you're awake then ill come over. So an hour later when i was free i msg her and she said, knew i couldn't rely on you for anything I'm going to sleep, i said you expect me to drop everything and come running for you, i have my own life too, i said to you, if you go to sleep then its cool and you said yeah.
After this she went birmingham, i got told she was walking about with another guy who wasn't the gay friend, then the next day she called me up to apologise so i drive by hers and see her walking out of her flat gated entrance with some guy.
Then a few weeks later she says she hates me, so i ignore it. Then she started to call me off private number and threatened to come down to my house and slap me up and get some people after me (apparently her last ex was thrown into a back of a car then dropped off into a forest).
So i told her how it was and what she's done and how she acted, she said you'd rather be in manchester then be seeing me, she said what would you have done if i said to you I'm sick and tired of you, i said i still would have come to see you.
Told her that she was seen with other guys and sh*t, she got aggressive and got one of the gays involved who's a little b*tch that thinks he's gods gift to the world.
Met her up and spoke about all this crap again, she basically said it was my fault etc bla bla bla bla, i drop her home, hug her and kiss her. Feel like **** and went to my mates and chilled there.
Next day she called me up saying that she wants to see me badly, so i go, but i go tool'ed up just incase i get thrown in a car. she's drunk and high at this point and I'm sure i saw the same guy that i saw her with before walking away near by. Anyway she's all loving takes me to her room and says that she loves me and that the last time she will say that. That she misses me, starts holding me tight etc etc, i was being a little cold. Then around 3am i start to go and she starts moaning saying why am i going etc, i say cos i have to, she tells me to fvck off, so i walked out, then she starts calling me and asks why do i always have to leave. i told her my sister is waiting for me, and a whole load of other things and in the end she goes, it doesn't make any sense. For fvcks sake woman.
Then she gets physical, blocks the door way out and starts to hit me, head but me, slap me, scratch me etc. So i duck and weave then get annoyed and pick her up then but she ends up hitting her head on the wall, so i looked after her for the next few hours, then she didn't want me to leave again, but i went. Called her the next day to make sure she didn't have concussion, she didnt and was very brief. So i left it.
A day later, she msgs me saying that i got her book, i said that id post it, she said no and that its fragile and will break in the post, so i ignored her for 5 days. She got more aggressive as each day went by, on the last day she gave me 14 missed calls and got her gay friend involved again.
I delivered it the next day to her flat, i didnt want anymore bs from her, i told her its been delivered, she gave an abusive message back.
After a few days i took a look on her twitter and she was talking crap about me, so then my sister blocked and deleted her number and all social media.
Through the time we were together she never encouraged me to go onto university, she used to say that i should do another course in preparation for university, not to try to get into it.
SHORT VERSION
I was an really good to her, gave her too much positivity, support, she was ungrateful, took the p*ss, was a b*tch, was a liar, got abusive, hit me, threatened me, then got mad that i was being a cold to her.
Now I'm broken, slowly fixing myself, no longer happy, no longer in a positive state and mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually depleted. After typing all of that i feel really fvcking angry, at her and myself, myself for letting her do that. There were times where i missed this stupid b1tch. I don't even know why. All i know right now is that i want a ciggerete or get into the gym.
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She ended up going to hospital one night cos she was in a lot of pain, so i took her there and spent most of the night there then went to college early the next day, then visited after, this went on for 2 days then she discharged herself the same day that i was going to London to see a university, she decided last minute to come with me so i took her. Through the day i started to kind of get back to the old me, making jokes, speaking my mind bla bla bla, she tuned and said to me why aren't you like this more? i said because all you do is snap at me and don't laugh at anything. She then apologised and became more loving.
She then finished uni and went back home for a while then she came back from her home town to see me for a week, at this point i was on the last week of my college and getting things handed in and waiting on work to get marked, one teacher didn't mark my work and i felt that it could hinder my chances to get into university so i was upset over that, also she looked like a man and was horrible in general unless you kissed her a*s.
So I've hardly seen her as I'm trying to finish this course for the year. She goes out with some her friends but she can't get into one bar because she's banned from it (long story) so she decides to call me and complain, so i tell her to go with her friends back to theirs and drink with them, she says no and wanted to go home so she did, she asks me to come down but i say no as i have a 9am start.
She then started to get abusive on the phone and started talking sh*t and said that she's gonna kill her self and that when she needed me the most i wasn't there etc so i ask my dad for some advice and he's like are you stupid? you have a 9am start you have your priorities, you're not going anywhere. So i tell her to calm down etc and she started getting aggressive, i tell her to say some spiritual thing and she started saying f*uk that and f*vk what you believe in bla bla.
So i say to her look, i think its better if we stopped going out and that you find someone else etc, then she said is that all I'm good for, to break up over the phone and then started to get really aggressive. So i hung up, she kept on calling and calling and calling, so i answered and she started to talk in a more sorrowful tone, and started talking about things, i said that we will meet up tomorrow and talk about this ok. she goes okay.
Now the next day after my 9am start which i was late to. I spoke to one of the mental health/ mentors there who I've been talking to for a long time and told him what happened and he said tell her that you need space, cos i got all my college and uni crap going on so i got to sort that out as thats more important, i haven't spent anytime with my friends or parents over the last few months, haven't been to the gym, haven't done any of my hobbies, meditated or anything that i used to do that made me feel stable or happy. It was always her, even messaging all day for fvcks sake.
So i go and see her and she said apologised for what she said and all that crap, so i said to her look i want some space, and that theres a lot of built up emotions from the last few moths that haven't been sorted out etc, she goes okay, she asked are you sick and tired of me? I said yeah a little but i still love you. she goes okay and we made up and we were fine.
So the next few days she's a little towards me, so i left it. Her gay friend comes down. Then i go to drop them off to the station.
At this point i had a nose operation coming up cos of a football injury, she said that she would be there for me and so did the gay.
Over the next few weeks things are okay, i message her less through the day, my assignments are all completed, i go to see my friends more. She's being okay. Then out of no where she rages out at me again for the same reasons that we spoke about when i said i needed some space.
Now she started to be colder and stopped making an effort in the conversations etc.
She then got her wisdom tooth taken out and half of her face was swollen including her neck, the day after though i was having my operation. She said she would come and see me after she's better. So now she's being more loving towards me etc. a week goes by and she's out with her family and slowly eating again, she then says she's going to go manchester with her gay friend and he tells me the details, they're going for one night.
So the day that they're going i brought her family a few things and sent them off cos they all love me to bits, speak highly of me and also she had bought things for my family too, so id return the favour.
The day that she's going out she being cold with me and we argued and kept on asking why i needed space and that she now needed space, so i was like okay. So my friend comes picks me up and gets some food, so i msged her out of courtesy and she's like okay hope you have fun etc etc.
Now a day goes by and i don't hear anything, i find out from Facebook that they're staying another night, the same the next day, she ended up coming back monday. Then she broke up with me when she got back, saying that "she doesn't feel the same" All whilst I'm recovering from this operation.
So i break down and get all my friends to help me out. Over the next few weeks/ month she asks me to meet her, said I'm busy right now but after I'm done ill come and see you, if you're asleep then its cool if you're awake then ill come over. So an hour later when i was free i msg her and she said, knew i couldn't rely on you for anything I'm going to sleep, i said you expect me to drop everything and come running for you, i have my own life too, i said to you, if you go to sleep then its cool and you said yeah.
After this she went birmingham, i got told she was walking about with another guy who wasn't the gay friend, then the next day she called me up to apologise so i drive by hers and see her walking out of her flat gated entrance with some guy.
Then a few weeks later she says she hates me, so i ignore it. Then she started to call me off private number and threatened to come down to my house and slap me up and get some people after me (apparently her last ex was thrown into a back of a car then dropped off into a forest).
So i told her how it was and what she's done and how she acted, she said you'd rather be in manchester then be seeing me, she said what would you have done if i said to you I'm sick and tired of you, i said i still would have come to see you.
Told her that she was seen with other guys and sh*t, she got aggressive and got one of the gays involved who's a little b*tch that thinks he's gods gift to the world.
Met her up and spoke about all this crap again, she basically said it was my fault etc bla bla bla bla, i drop her home, hug her and kiss her. Feel like **** and went to my mates and chilled there.
Next day she called me up saying that she wants to see me badly, so i go, but i go tool'ed up just incase i get thrown in a car. she's drunk and high at this point and I'm sure i saw the same guy that i saw her with before walking away near by. Anyway she's all loving takes me to her room and says that she loves me and that the last time she will say that. That she misses me, starts holding me tight etc etc, i was being a little cold. Then around 3am i start to go and she starts moaning saying why am i going etc, i say cos i have to, she tells me to fvck off, so i walked out, then she starts calling me and asks why do i always have to leave. i told her my sister is waiting for me, and a whole load of other things and in the end she goes, it doesn't make any sense. For fvcks sake woman.
Then she gets physical, blocks the door way out and starts to hit me, head but me, slap me, scratch me etc. So i duck and weave then get annoyed and pick her up then but she ends up hitting her head on the wall, so i looked after her for the next few hours, then she didn't want me to leave again, but i went. Called her the next day to make sure she didn't have concussion, she didnt and was very brief. So i left it.
A day later, she msgs me saying that i got her book, i said that id post it, she said no and that its fragile and will break in the post, so i ignored her for 5 days. She got more aggressive as each day went by, on the last day she gave me 14 missed calls and got her gay friend involved again.
I delivered it the next day to her flat, i didnt want anymore bs from her, i told her its been delivered, she gave an abusive message back.
After a few days i took a look on her twitter and she was talking crap about me, so then my sister blocked and deleted her number and all social media.
Through the time we were together she never encouraged me to go onto university, she used to say that i should do another course in preparation for university, not to try to get into it.
SHORT VERSION
I was an really good to her, gave her too much positivity, support, she was ungrateful, took the p*ss, was a b*tch, was a liar, got abusive, hit me, threatened me, then got mad that i was being a cold to her.
Now I'm broken, slowly fixing myself, no longer happy, no longer in a positive state and mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually depleted. After typing all of that i feel really fvcking angry, at her and myself, myself for letting her do that. There were times where i missed this stupid b1tch. I don't even know why. All i know right now is that i want a ciggerete or get into the gym.
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