AAAgent's Approach journal

[AAAgent]

I need to start making more approaches. I haven't had a girl in rotation for over 8 months, and having had more than 1 girl in rotation for almost 2 years.

Tuesday night i went to the movies with my room mates (i live with 3 girls only 2 went), and my crazy room mate who loves me paid for my ticket without my knowledge. The last 3 times i went to the movies with them, a different girl paid for my ticket. I don't mind as i will buy them food and drinks to make up for it but this girl creeps me out.

After a few drinks at the bar after the movie i let them smoke their first cigarettes. One gets extremely high. Afterwards i go back to my room and crash but for some reason i'm craving some ***** if you know what i mean. I haven't had this strong of an urge for a while since i've been so intent on work/studies that the stress just kills it. I was seriously contemplating talking to my room mate until i calmed myself down and realized how bad of an idea that would be.

Last week we had our annual client party inviting all of my company's clients out to drink. I met this one client of mine who really seemed into me (hb6.5) (touching me, calling me the best, etc). I told her i'd shoot her an email and she said cool. I asked her out through email not expecting much as i wasn't really interested, she never responded.

email is below:

" Hey HB6.5,

It was a pleasure meeting you and the team yesterday and I hope you had a fun time. I had a great time speaking with you and I'd love to catch up and grab a bite to eat sometime when you're free.

AAA"

I think its time i start approaching again.

Starting Fresh for the year.

Approaches: 0
Numbers: 0

 

[AAAgent]

After reading through a few more FR Journals, i've been motivated to go out and start making regular approaches. I was thinking about starting another AA competition, but it is a bit tough to manage a whole competition with my current work load.

Every week i will do the following to help my approach journal and to boost my confidence to break through this AA.

The follow things are:

1.) Work out atleast once a week to have a good body. (will say yes in this journal to confirm i did it and post it in my h+f journal)
2.) I will read from a book weekly. (any book).
3.) I will do atleast 70 GMAT questions a week. (averaging 10 questions a day).
4.) I will talk to a random stranger each week and ask them for directions, opinions, for help or help them, etc. (random convo should help ease AA although i talk to random people and already do this). To make it harder as i always eject after asking the question, i need to atleast say 3 sentences instead of just 1. (must post)
5.) I will do a good deed atleast once a week. If there isn't an opportunity throughout the course of the week that i happen to come across, i will be proactive and do a good deed. (must post)
6.) I will listen more and talk less in all my conversations and focus on not asking questions (the point of not asking questions is so that i can thoroughly attempt to figure it out myself before my mouth opens to blurt something out). (Must post an instance) (i'm an idiot, as i was typing this i just blurted out a question before even thinking or researching!!!!!)
7.) Do one something for my business. (must post)
8.) Why I feel i'm a good or great person and how anyone would be lucky to have me as a friend or companion. (Must post)


Forgot to add this one below.
9.) No Fapping from Today on. (must post weekly on where i stand)

 

[AAAgent]

Thanks bd,

I'm doing alright right now. My practice exams i'm scoring a 630/800 (this is barring time constraints as i am pretty slow as of now and focusing on getting the questions right as to working on speed). I did score a 524/800 on my first test when i finished the entire kaplan gmat book so i'm glad i've already made drastic improvement. 700+ is my goal score.

I have a tutor that works on all the questions that i deem hard. The whole point of doing 10 questions a day (he says), is so that i can narrow down my weaknesses (the problems i get wrong/don't understand), and improve my strengths (the ones i get right) with repetition.

 

[AAAgent]

1.) Went to the gym 4x this week!

2.) Been reading "A Dance With Dragons". I have less than 100 pages remaining.

3.) Did 70 questions!

4.) Talk with a door girl at a bar.
me: Is there cover?
HB: Nope no cover.
me: Oh, ok. Cool.
me: Thanks.

Then talked to clerk at dry cleaners.

hb: whats your phone number.
me: xxx.xxx.xxx
hb: (takes my stuff after i hand it to her and puts it in a bag)
me: Can i pick this up by 4pm today?
hb: yeah sure.
hb: wait hold on one second.
me: Is there something wrong?
hb: oh, the system just messed up. (shows me the ticket and it printed the wrong last name).
me: Oh, am i still in the system?
hb: yeah, it just printed wrong.
me: so the last name should be xxx
hb: yeah.
me: great. Thanks.
hb: have a nice day.
Me: you too.

Pretty crappy i know, but i'm always about getting to the point and am always pretty direct.

5.) Some girls bag i noticed was unzipped when i was heading to the subway so, I tapped her on the shoulder and told her it was open.

6.) I put on headphones at work so i can talk less now. I really wanted to tell my co-worker i saw this movie we were talking about, but it would just be pointless banter and i figured i'd probably just work on keeping to myself unless i really had something important to say. Note, if i listened to myself more, i'd probably talk less.

7.) I rewrote the About us section of the website.

8.) I've come along way and achieved a lot more than anyone thought i could. I also just won a IPAD 3 from work. I'm a winner!

9.) on Day 4, going on day 5!

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Side note, i will be moving into the city soon hopefully instead of the outskirts. My cuz's fiancé is going to school up there and needs a room mate so we're gonna be roomies in a month or so.

went to a family bbq this weekend and my one cuz heard i was going to do a marathon with my other cousin. She basically said, you really think u can do a marathon...i told her yes. Then she tries to lecture me about a 10 mile run i barely finished a year ago. Then i asked her why she always doubts me.....since i just finished a 13 mile obstacle that they all refused to do. She's like my older sister but i hate it when people doubt me. She doubted me when i told her i was going to get myself out of this sh1thole and into the city. Also said i couldn't hold a job down, but i've been here 2+ years now. On top of that....i've the only athlete in the family and have won competitions, been state ranked/nationally ranked and hold a few local records.... these haters.. I was born to be a winner, them telling me otherwise isn't going to change that.

I also said i was going to get my MBA from a top 5 school and going to come out making 100k+. Then they start to lecture me about how wharton business grads are still job searching....

They're all in the medical field and try to convince everyone to go that route. I'm literally the only one that has a job that's not in medical....oh well, keep trucking on and prove them wrong because i know with determination and handwork i can get there. On top of all that, i'm freaking creative as h3ll and that's what's gonna give me that extra push to make it.

Working on making me that man that i know i can be, so there will be no reason for having approach anxiety.

Hope you guys had a better weekend than me.

 

[macallik]

You can try injecting a bit of personality into your conversations, even if they are short. The goal right now is not to have hour long conversations when you meet a woman, it is to show value and confidence so she is interested in seeing you and knowing more about you. Theeen building rapport comes into play:


4.) Talk with a door girl at a bar.
me: Is there cover?
HB: Nope no cover.
me: Oh, ok. Cool. I thought I was going to have to flirt with the bouncer again and I feel so dirty doing that


hb @ Laundrymat: whats your phone number.
me: My my. Mighty forward are we? It's ok I like that in a girl. xxx.xxx.xxx Should I pick you up around 8?

Nothing spectacular but it makes you stand out from the 100 customers they see on a daily basis. Flash a smile after delivering either line and you are off to the races if they are the slightest bit interested.

 

[AAAgent]

You can try injecting a bit of personality into your conversations, even if they are short. The goal right now is not to have hour long conversations when you meet a woman, it is to show value and confidence so she is interested in seeing you and knowing more about you. Theeen building rapport comes into play:


4.) Talk with a door girl at a bar.
me: Is there cover?
HB: Nope no cover.
me: Oh, ok. Cool. I thought I was going to have to flirt with the bouncer again and I feel so dirty doing that


hb @ Laundrymat: whats your phone number.
me: My my. Mighty forward are we? It's ok I like that in a girl. xxx.xxx.xxx Should I pick you up around 8?

Nothing spectacular but it makes you stand out from the 100 customers they see on a daily basis. Flash a smile after delivering either line and you are off to the races if they are the slightest bit interested.

Thanks Macallik.

That clerk girl at the dry cleaners was definitely not an HB i wanted to talk to. I'm just trying to talk to strangers more and be okay with opening strangers but i do noticed how i'm not really friendly generally. I think the root of my approach anxiety comes from

#1 not having enough money. So i will work on saving a bit more money.

#2 I always doubt myself although i feel i have all the qualities of being a great catch. I'm using this journal as reinforcement showing myself time after time why I'm a great catch therefore eliminating my doubts.

Will work on being more creative with my convo's straight out and smiling more(i don't smile on will well).

 

[AAAgent]

**Crazy Girl Update**

I live 3 girls and one of them has a major crush on me.

I told the girls i was moving out yesterday afternoon and this morning, the girl leaves the apartment before i do and for some reason gets to the train station after i do, as if she was hiding somewhere waiting for me to pass her first. I noticed this as i was walking very fast to the train and barely caught it and see her entering the station as i'm leaving it when she should have clearly showed up earlier than me. I left 5 minutes after her and its not a far walk and i didn't pass her on the way there so she must have hid somewhere or took a different route. To make it worse, once i arrive at work about 2 hours later i get an email from her saying how she wants to throw me a special goodbye party (my room mates are already throwing me one) to make up for any misunderstandings and she wants to tell me some things that she's been holding in for a while. she asked to meet her for dinner or drinks today and said "Please don't say no."

Well i told her no. basically said what happened in the past was no biggie and that one party enough and i didn't need a second one from her but i appreciated the nice gesture. She comes back saying how she just wants to talk to me in private which she can't do at the party......she told me she would wait at the train for me and walk and talk with me if i was super busy studying or something and she hopes i meet with her........

I'm freaking creeped out. This girl offered to fly me to visit her, a $1.5k plane ticket....which i obviously denied.

i'm obviously being desired by women, just not the right ones yet.
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Update**

I thought about it, and its probably better to let her get this off her chest instead of having her barge into my room or some other crazy sh1t. I told her i'd meet her for coffee during the morning or early afternoon, this way its on my terms and i can leave whenever.


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on a light note, i saw a really cute girl at the gym today that was being trained so i didn't talk to her. I felt good and thought that i might talk to her on her way out if it ever happens.

I will probably just stick with the line

"Excuse me, i thought you were really cute and I just wanted to say Hi."

and take it from there. I'm not a pro or anything and might as well just start with a very basic honest opener.
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hope you guys don't have any stalkers after you.

-AAA

 

[AAAgent]

Just started the DJ bootcamp. Hoping for the best.

Number of Hi's : 6/50
Deadline : Next Tuesday 11:59pm to get 50 total hi's.

1- old indian lady with her husband. I was reading and she was walking in my area already smiling and i said hi and she said hi back.
2- same day, I bumped into my roomie on the walk back home and 2 women walked by and i mumbled a hi at the same time she did as we made eye contact. Her's was alot louder, i think she was very open to saying hi as i had a girl with me.
3-apartment hunting yesterday said hi to a stranger that was talking to the realtor i was with.
4-said hi to one of the girls who was in a apartment we were being shown.
5-said hi to colleague in the kitched as we were getting coffee. We normally just ignore each other but i made it a point to look at her and she obliged looking back and we both said hi.
6-another co-worker in the kitchen who i don't say anything to. I just smiled at her and grabbed her milk to put back in the fridge. She said thank you and i said your welcome. I'll count that as a hi.

I wore sunglasses today which i realized was a bad idea for trying to initiate hi's/EC as no one can see my eye's and just look away. Will take these off for the future and only wear them when i don't plan on talking to anyone.
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update on crazy room mate

I talked with her during coffee on Tuesday. The convo mainly consisted of her saying sorry to me multiple times and saying how much she admires me. it's okay as of now but she hasn't done anything crazy yet as in tell me she likes me. I believe she will. I'm also expecting a gift probably but there's not much i can do. She has been trying to catch me in the hallway and she'll be in nothing but a towel..... oh well.

Since im on day 9 of no fapping, it's really bad when i drink or at peak times when i want to break the challenge, as my room mate starts to become very appealing.

 

[AAAgent]

Spent an hour at the mall trying to get Hi's.

Number of Hi's : 15/50

 

[AAAgent]

Today my friend let me walk his dog in the park and i took this as an opportunity to work on accomplishing week 1 task in bootcamp. His dog is a shiba Inu and this girl happened to have a shiba ink puppy. I approached her and said hi. Struck a conversation but i was pretty shy. Since both our dogs were barking, i decided to bounce as about 2 minutes. I didn't number close as i didn't feel confident, but i did manage to get a hi in. Just by walking the dog, i got 10 hi's and some people even approached me.

The HB was about a 7.5, definitely up to par with what i would like to number close but i didn't. Also, since i failed the no fap challenge on Day 10 on Saturday, i feel less courageous/outgoing. There is definitely a change for the better abstaining from fapping. Today is day 1 all over again.....

More people were receptive of my Hi's with the dog as opposed to without.

Total Hi's : 28/50.
Days left: 2
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This weeks task was to develop and convey confidence but most of my Hi's are more friendly or very quiet and shy...

 

[spang]

hb: whats your phone number.
me: xxx.xxx.xxx
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you could have said "now whats yours?" haha

 

[AAAgent]

@Spang: She was just a store clerk that was probably an hb3.5 or 4. I definitely didn't want her number, but maybe i should learn to be more friendly/open in general with everyone.


1.) Worked out twice last week and did a short run.
2.) I have been reading confucius "The Analects"
3.) *Failed* finished 50/70 problems. I was lazy and try to 80% of the problems in the last 2 days. No excuses. I will try to do 90 problems this week to compensate.
4.) I was out trying to complete week 1's task of getting 50 Hi's, and i said Hi and had a short convo with an hb 7.5 which didn't go as well as i hoped.

AAA: Hi (waving and walking up with my friends Shiba inu. She had a shiba Inu puppy.). I just wanted to come up and say Hi (meaning to bring the dogs together.
Hb7.5: Oh hey! (Smiles)
AAA: so how olds your dog?
Hb7.5: oh he's 4 months.
AAA: What's his name?
Hb7.5: His name's Virgil.
AAA: Ohh that's cool, so he's a boy then.
HB7.5: Yeah, so what your dog's name.
AAA: Parker.
HB7.5: Can I let them play together.
AAA: I don't think he's too dog friendly. (haha i honestly don't know much about the dog).
Hb7.5: Is he people friendly?
AAA: Yeah, go ahead and pet him.
HB7.5: is it okay if i give him a treat?
AAA: Yeah sure.
hb7.5: (She gives him a treat and it drops out of his mouth. She picks it up and tries again but her dog goes crazy and starts barking and showing teeth and i decide to bail before it gets worse. I take the treat and give it to my friends dog.)
AAA: It was nice seeing you.



I failed to introduce myself and get the girls name. I was not confident, possibly because it was my friends dog that i didn't know much about. She was interested (or open to talking to me) from the way she acted and sounded. Afterward some really creepy dude with a high pitched voice spent 10 minutes talking to her and taking pictures of her dog. She looked over at me a few times but i didn't do anything. He also came over to me after talking to hb7.5 and talked for like a minute about how he loves and owns a shiba inu.

5.) I paid for my friends lunch and dinner without him asking. I also met up with my room mate that's crazy about me to let her vent and get her feelings off her chest (she's a handful and it will probably only get worse).
6.) Everytime before i ask a question, i instinctively stop myself and remind myself to rethink and try other approaches. I did that a few times this week and was able to get the answer.
7.) I arranged a meeting for this weekend for my partner and my uncle who is a designer so they can discuss more efficient ways to design our clothing line.
8.) I won another competition at work and the prize was an all expense paid work trip to london (where i basically do nothing). Free flight, food, and stay. Ontop of that, i can take additional days off if i'd like to venture out outside of work.
9.) Made it to day 10 and failed. today is the beginning of day 1 of no fapping.

 

[AAAgent]

Week 1 of Boot camp done and i had my first 2 min+ convo.

Bought my first starter watch and talked to the sales lady for a good 5-10 minutes.

Don't really remember the conversation too well but here goes

AAA: How was your day?
HBClerk (she's like 50 but not bad looking): Not too good.
AAA: oh why's that?
HBClerk: I had a $900 return today and she only bought a $400 watch in exchange. blah blah blah and i'll be behind quota for the week.
AAA: Well this should help you break even (I point at the watch i bought).
HBClerk: Well i had another return yesterday too.
AAA: Well when does your week end?
HBC: It ends on saturday.
AAA: Well its still early, you have plenty of time.
HBC: Yeah, but i have vacation for a day too.
AAA: I'm sure it will work out.

more talk here and there, she ask's me to sign up for a card, i ask her to remove some links from the watch, what time the store closes, the mall, most expensive watch, etc.

Things to work on:

She kept referring to me as Mr. AAA, and I need to remember to say their names or ask. She had her name on her badge and i should of addressed this. Funny thing is i talked to 100's of people face to face from many business and even on the phone.

1.) addressing the person which means i need to have their name or ask for it. Ask for how it's pronounced if it's a tough name.
2.) End the conversation appropriately.

got my quarterly bonus for work and an extra chunk enough for me to travel to london and cover my food/expenses as i won the competition. I still need to get my raise sorted out.

Working on doing additional problems to cover the 20 i was behind for last week.

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Conversations w/ Strangers 1 of 10.

Hope you guys have a better week.

 

[AAAgent]

Man, Kinda bummed i didn't ask out the chick at the park with the dog, she was hot too. This just goes to show, you miss 100% of the shots you never take. Atleast i did go up to her though and say Hi and have a conversation.

It'd be nice to have encouragement or a bro to push/support each other to improve but i know i can't always count on that.

I'm feeling a bit of lack in confidence right now but i'm about to hit the gym in a hour so maybe afterwards i'll feel better. I'm trying to accomplish the bootcamp without relying on alcohol as its really easy to approve women when drinking.

Short rant...now i'm back to week 2 of bootcamp.

2 minute conversation with 10 strangers.

1/10 done.

Keep that confidence up guys.

 

[AAAgent]

1.) went to the gym 4 times this week
2.) Finished Confucius book and now i'm reading 1,001 Arabian Nights.
3.) did 84 questions. I've been trying to make up the 20 questions i didn't finish last week. Still have about 6 left.
4.) talked to 5 new people which is part of week 2 of boot camp challenge.
5.) -------will need to do 2 good deeds this week to make up for missing this.
6.) Instead of hopping in on co-worker gossip, i just listen to it now. They rarely ask me to jump in or get me involved but when they do, that's when i jump in. I will try to keep to myself completely but still be cordial.
7.) I went to TD Bank and got information on opening a Business Checking account and sat down and talked with a bank rep.
8.) I'm a great catch since at my age I'm making good money, have a steady job that displays confidence and socialization skills, have my own place, and i'm attractive.
9.) Just finished day 8 of no fapping.

 

[AAAgent]

Boot Camp week 2 task: Have 10 conversations with strangers lasting 2 minutes minimum.

7/10

convo 2: Went to TD Bank and was reading a brochure sitting down about starting a business checking account.

the girl was a bit awkward but she did ask for my name and that's when i made a point to do what i mentioned before and get her name.

HB: What's your name?
AAA: AAA
AAA: How do i pronounce your name?
HB: its hb6.
AAA: well thanks a lot for your help HB6.

We talked a bit more as she was getting some more paperwork for me and she told me to have a nice day and i said the same to her.

convo 3: this was the beginning of my saturday and my friend told me to tag along with him to meet his friend. I decide finally to go and i meet his friend who i already knew and she brought her girlfriend along. I introduce myself to her and we get small banter going as the other girl just isolates a conversation with my friend. I'm forced to talk to this girl. I totally forget what we talked about but we invited them to a house warming we went to later that night and played beer pong and cards.

convo 4: at the lunch with the 2 girls i drank a lot and was really drunk. I went shopping at this time and took the opportunity to say hi to people. I bumped into my cousin and his gf and he asked if i've been drinking and i said yes. Finally pick out some stuff from Urban Outfitters and i go up to the female cashier.

HB7.5: Hi, how are you doing? Did you find everything alright?
AAA: Yeah i did. How's your day going?
HB7.5: its going well. It's almost over.
AAA: Oh, what time did you start?
hb7.5: I started at 11 today. It was really crazy in here because Miley Cyrus was here this morning.
AAA: Wow, that's really cool. Did you get her autograph?
hb7.5: haha no, it didn't want to bother her.
AAA: That's cool though. It must have been packed in here then.
hb7.5: actually it wasn't that packed.

We talked a bit more about some stuff but i forget. she told me to have a nice day and i did the same.

convo 5: met my friends uncle. we talked about a lot of stuff. He's this super ****y guy acting like he's all rich n sh1t. saying how's he's a player etc. Telling us if we haven't made a million by 35 we're stupid etc. He doesn't know my family is one of the most wealthy and well known families in the community but i just shut up and listened and joked with him. We met at a bubble tea shop, then left and went to university city to get some food because he said there's always hot girls there (he's married but acts like a player).

Convo 6: At the bubble tea house where i met my friends uncle, i see an hb6 that i wanted to try to number close. I order my bubble tea from her but she didn't seem too interested or care. When we were leaving i decide **** it, i'm still a little buzzed and i have nothing to lose, so i attempt to talk to her so more (this conversation wasn't 2 minutes but i still want to count it)

she's conversing with another co-worker

hb6: (puts her head down while washing a cup in front of me at the counter.)
AAA: Excuse me. (she looks up)
HB: yeah?
AAA: I was just wondering how long have you guy's been open for?
hb:8 months
AAA: oh wow. (not feeling the vibe but i decide to try to confirm by getting more direct). So how long have you been working here for?
HB: 2 months. (she's not feeling me, which i can tell but ***** was lucky a guy as attractive and tall as me is talking to her so i don't really give a sh1t.)
AAA: Oh. What's your name?
HB: (weird look) Yang.

At this point, i'm getting clear vibes this girl isn't interested so i decide to eject.

AAA: Alright, thanks.


Convo 7: on the way back home to kill some time, my boy and i decide to shop some more at the mall back home while waiting for the girls to get ready. I head to the disney store and i'm looking for snow globes. I don't see any so i walk up to a cute hb6.5/7 and ask her directly. She's taking inventory but i decide to open her.

AAA: Hi.
HB: Hi, can i help you with something?
AAA: Yeah, i was looking for some snow globes but i don't see any and i was wondering if you guys still have any in stock.
HB: We have one in stock right now, i can show you.
AAA: That would be great, thanks.

I keep the convo going pretty well and we talk about snow globes, and how i always buy my mom one for her birthday/christmas. The snow globe was a BRAVE snow globe and we talked about the movie, if she saw it, etc. She told me to take my mom and she was going to see it on monday so i told her to have a good time. She took the globe out of the box and even put the batteries in for me since i was very specific about what i wanted. Our conversation lasted a bit over 5 minutes and that was the end of it.

I talked to my boy about it today and he thought i was going to ask for her number there since the convo was going so well, maybe i should have but it was literally in front of all parents and old women. still not used to number closing yet in public during day game.
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I noticed it's generally easier to open people when you have a none threatening opener as in a real honest question.

Most of the convo's i had were with people that were working in the store i went to and i would just start this a how was your day type of question and it goes pretty well but when the girl knew something was up at the bubble tea shop she was a bit taken back.

I also know for a fact when i sit back at clubs and parties and keep to myself and control all my feelings and emotions, girls in my social circle will approach me, talk to me, try to dance with me. a few months ago a girl at the end of the night told me she hopes to see me again and I literally only said 4 sentences to her.

I might be getting a bit technical but i think the best way is to control your emotions but in a calm and non threatening manor. I've been to happy go lucky in these conversations.

 

[yuppaz]

With the girls at work, tell them to write their number on a receipt so it doesn't look obvious. Using liquid courage doesn't count. Only way to break out of your shell is to just go for it while sober. Keep pushing and closing, closing closing. Eventually you get comfortable and can relax while talking with girlies which makes things work out much more easily.

 

[AAAgent]

Will remember to ask them to write it down if i do encounter problems but technically it shouldn't be a big deal. We'll see when i get to number closing.

Had 2 more conversations.

first conversation was with the HR coordinator that i was arranging a group presentation at. We chit chatted about the presentation, who was going, etc. all work related stuff.

I gave the presentation to 10 investment bankers. Asked them questions which they are rarely responsive too, i had to intercede on their small talk and take control of the room (you learn to do this after a while or you have the room takeover and then you look like an idiot). Afterwards i gave everyone my card and told them to give me a ring or shoot me an email if they had any questions. There was some small talk inbetween waiting for people to arrive.

Afterwards i met with the head bosses of the company in the US and had a feedback session with him. I won't count this one as i've met and spoken to him before.

9/10 conversations done.

yesterday was one of my off days where i had to struggle to stay in the game. Some days i'll go in and nail the presentation and engage the room, other days, i feel a lack of power, energy, etc. and i have to focus really hard to get the presentation going and engage the room.

I also noticed that i kept whispering the HR coordinators name after she told it to me because it was hard to pronounce and i was scared of saying it wrong...I should be saying it loud and proud.

 

[AAAgent]

finished my last convo yesterday with a new joiner on the team that i work with. We will be sharing around 30+ accounts so we had a good long conversation about who are main points of contact are, what shape the accounts are in, etc.

 

[TillTheEndOfTime]

well i made it clear i didn't want to be just friends anymore.

here's what i said: (we had like 4 beers at a bar already at that time)

me:hey, so we've been friends for over a year now right?
hbc:ya, we have.
me:so during our friendship i felt like there may a few moments where we could of taken our friendship a little bit further, and i wanted to know if you wanted to see where this could take us. if we took the extra step.
hbc:.......................................................................(total silence besides for the loud ass bar music) wow.. i wasn't expecting that.
me:we can talk about it later if you want.
hbc:ya lets talk about it later.

this was when i caught her on her way back from the bathroom. so we head back and sit down for a few minutes and she's sitting on my lap now.

i ask again.

me:so did you feel the same way, about there sometimes being something more than just a friendship.
hbc: ...ya, there was something more than just a friendship but you had (ex's name)
me: (i said something that totally did not make any sense when i think about it.) ya but i met you first. (ok so i met my friend first but i end up going out with someone else anyway. ya that line didn't work, but i don't think she noticed. she probably just heard words coming out of my mouth and thought they were meaningful)

we get interrupted and don't talk about the topic the rest of the night.
i kino her alot and she hugs me and gets really close. we sing like 4-5 songs together and get the whole bar to sing. every there thinks we're going out cause we're all close and lovey dovey even though she's the one acting it.

i end up footing part of the bill but way more than i expected.it was $1 beers and her and i had about 17 and 2 sake bombs.

then i end up having to drive her friend home about 20 something minutes away and im low on gas. her friend was a HB-10. on the way back to her friends place she passes out then wakes up and PUKES all over the back seat of my car and partially on me. i was ****ing pissed. im soo broke that i don't have money to take my tank off of empty unless i go deposit my change(quarters,etc) nor do i have money for a car wash...

to top everything off, when it was just her friend and i in the car waiting for hbc, her friend tells me how she's been trying to go after me for the longest time but i had a girlfriend and she would tell her things about me...and she named them..then she says something like her boyfriends an *******...

me:wait....she has a boyfriend?!
hb -10:ya
me:she told me they broke up a while ago. so they're still together,
hb-10:ya he's a ****. i knew you were better for her from the start.
me:she never told me they were together.
hb-10:you have a girlfriend though.

hbc is coming into the car now

hb-10:all that info is between u n her, i didn't say anything.
mek

Hey bud, much respect for the FR's. I know it is not easy putting yourself out there. But you broke a CARDINAL DJ RULE:

NEVER, EVER "talk" about taking a friendship to the next level with a girl. NEVER. Do it through ACTIONS, not words. There is something amazing about the female brain. Vocalizing a desire leads to complete repulsion and kills any hope of attraction.